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About "You are not alone"

If you are asking for Still Broken by Blue October please email me at mtamrocks@yahoo.com. I'm unable to send the song currently, but I can put your request into a folder and will send them out as soon as possible.

Someday I hope to meet the members of Blue October and tell them everything that my heart has to say, everything that I have been through, and thank them for saving me.

Yours,
Taylor

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Blue October, Coldplay, Snow Patrol, MuteMath, Good Charlotte, The Used, More Than a Movie, Chase Coy, Everclear, Plain White T's, Bowling For Soup, Framing Hanley, The Dreaming, Lifehouse, Mercy Me, Voice of December, The Fray, Halfway Deserted, T.J. Cornwall, Safetysuit, and Boys Like Girls just to name a few.

In my life of 33 years, I have broken a total of three times. By broken I mean losing all ability to function as a person in touch with reality. I do not enjoy or take pride in my admitting to you, or anyone, that on three separate occasions in my life thus far I have felt the actual moment my brain slipped, to simply shut itself down..

I don't like that my life now had three distinct bright red flares that burn constantly like warning signals in my head. Reminding me to be cautious of the people close to me. To be all knowing of all my surroundings and their possibilities to trigger surprising amounts of pure panic. Panic so intense it consumes me as a whole, squeezing me so tightly it takes all of my air away. Literally choking me with its bare hands until I am truly horrified at what I see and hear. When under high amounts of stress, these symptoms, mixed with the panic and visual/audible paranoia, are the last thing I remember before shutting down.

When I woke from my first slip or blackout I was in the hospital for the suicidal and the mentally ill..I remember being in a shower when I realized I'd had my 1st nervous breakdown at age 22. Or that's what my family called it. I thought it was all a dream until the nurse called out that my dad was on the phone and needed to know if I was ready to get out of the hospital. We had the CD release party for The Answer approaching. So after I hung up the phone, I packed my things and said bye to my roommate, who I don't remember speaking to I said goodbye to everybody I had supposedly become close with I don't remember a thing but leaving, walking in Fitzgeralds, and just letting go..so we begin.

-Justin S. Furstenfeld

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between the moon and where you are

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Cyber Academy