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I wish that i could be making and uploading videos that i really thought were cool. For a long time I've been stuck in a pretty grim situation that my life has become. Just fighting a pain condition that i've had since i was 15 years old. I'm now 26 years old and ive been struggling for a while now despite my intentions. So this is what im left with a variety of stuff ive filmed and uploaded.. all of which i think arent that great or captivating. I want to do so much more and put stuff out that is actually really cool. I want to do so much more in so many areas i dont know where to begin.. and can't actually really begin until i get some control over my life and the situation im in which still is dominating me unfortunately. Ive managed to make some music i think would be perfect to go with video and post on youtube if i can connect with some cool people who would be willing and want to do something cool together with the music ive made visually. If you read this and are interested please don't hesitate to contact me. Just be talented and love what you do and creative.. that's all i ask :) Another long shot, saying this right here.. who knows who's going to read any of this, if anyone. But maybe someone who doesnt do video can help by knowing someone.. who knows.. you never know with anything like this what will happen.. never know with anything in this crazy world we live in.. its a crazy messed up world.. with a lot of sorrow and bad things out there.. bad people.. but there are also a lot of beautiful things and beautiful people.. i want to be connected to more good people and like minded people and talented people. i want things to change and get better desperately. and i want to do so much and dont believe i have much longer to do it. My will can only be so strong for so many years without the worth to continue. I hope that somehow someway my struggle all this time will be worth it and i can manage to live better, happier, more productive, and more fulfilled. And i hope that for a lot of people in similar situations. There are many in the world that are in troubled situations that don't even own a computer or will ever have the opportunity to even have a voice. There are many in the world that wont even be able to think at all about anything and be killed at a couple years old. There are many that will live until an old age and still never learn what really matters in life. It's all very sad and people who have had a voice and who have been in the right positions have been celebrated. Well.. if i go any further from that... well ive already opened up a whole can of worms with their microscopic internal clocks and computers just by saying that little bit.. im just going to stop myself right now. It's always the same with my thoughts and typing.. once i begin i cant stop.. and i need to block out so much for the sake of me actually doing anything else. There is too much to say and too much to think and too much constantly going on in my mind, my life, and in everyone's lives and the entire world as a whole.. which is only one tiny little microscopic dot in the universe.. and we as humans view it as something completely different, and as if we mean something bigger than we are. Anyway again, yeah by saying these few things you could end up having an opinion of me (even though i doubt anyones going to really read this, if they did.... ) but the things that are left out are missing puzzle pieces in a picture.. that tells the story. and without them you can only make assumptions. i dont like assumptions. theyre based on opinion from what you know of something.. and if that's regarding myself, its just too far complex to assume anything or really know unless you know a lot. My life and my situation in life is crazy.. and what ive had to deal with is nuts.. and something a lot of people wont understand especially in such few words. i feel to truly represent myself id have to write books worth of material. i mean you can get an idea of someone from a number of consecutive words like this.. but to truly know about anyone or anything you must first experience and know yourself and be aware yourself in this life how things work and so on and in addition be able to empathize and be aware and learn and know to a sufficient degree the information that's being consumed in relation to that person or thing or whatever's being interpreted in your mind's eye. And the less information you are given, the less you have to work with.. the less you truly know. Blah.. there ive done it again going on.. and barely touching this subject let alone everything else.. and what for.. ha.. anyway.. if anyone reads up to here let me know, send me a message letting me know and i'll be utterly surprised. i mean come on.. this is my youtube channel description. who's going to read this and what is it going to matter? exactly..

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