Sometimes I Just Wanna Scream

That whole quote shit that says ' It's not where you've been, It's where you going ' .. Yeah that, It's only true to an extent. Where you've been has a really big effect on where you're going. Starting out as a troubled kid from day one, you gotta find you're place in this world & put yourself out there & show people that you're better than what they think. & now a days, people talk alot of shit. & the words judgement & reputation, they follow you closer than a stalker would on twitter. No one realizes how far some people have come just to be recognized & accepted. & how many things they've given up, people they've hurt, and how much it's hurt themselves to put themselves on the other end of the spectrum & live like they never wanted to. But it's not always about what everyone else thinks. & especially in Farmington, where everyone has a chip on their shoulder & are so quick to judge you.. because you don't live in a nice house, you dont have expensive cars sitting in your driveway, you dont have a never ending supply of money to spend.. I say fuck it. Fuck the people who say I can't do it. Fuck the people who say you're just another fuck up put on this world to make the better people look better. Fuck the haters, & everyone who blocks you out because you're not ' good enough ' .. & I'll tell you, I haven't had an easy life. & people have had worse then mine; people I know who put up with harder struggles then me & made it through. Those are the people I look up to. People who've had things handed to them they're whole lifes are weak & should be given the life of those who have it hard, just for a day, so they can see what L I F E is like. Driving around in a $50,000 car isn't life. Going to an expensive college just because you have the money to afford it isn't life. Hanging out with people who make you ' look good ' because ugly people aren't good enough isn't life. I'll tell you what life is.. Struggling since you were young to fit in. Falling asleep every night dreaming & wishing for a brighter tomorrow. Going to a school where everyone was likely to graduate, but only 50% of them actually got an education out of it. Thinking about suicide everyday because nothing makes sense. Growing up with parent's who H A T E eachother but only stayed together because I was on the way. Moving to a school where everyone hated you. I could tell a life story, but this is only Facebook, a place for drama & immature nonsense. But when you're finally at the ' high ' .. that place where you're so indulged in the life you've made for youself, A N D you never let a single person push you down & made you stay there.. That's success. `Success; The achievement of something desired, planned, or attempted. The defination says it all. If you have a desire for it; you're stepping forward & putting yourself out there for change. If you plan; you're a quarter of the way there. You attempt; you're putting forth effort that was never used. You A C H I E V E. Life is hard, I'll be the first to admit that.

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