Date : 18/2/2012 Time :22:10
My dearest Adam,
I never thought I'd be posting one of my wacky and strangely romantic letters on this site again, but I suppose it's true what they say, that one must never say never...
It's been nearly a year and a half since we parted. A year and a half during which I had come to hate you, detest you, and only to have my revenge on you for hurting me so, I survived, and not only that, I also prospered. Most of the writing (stories, poems, songs etc...) I have done this past year revolved around betrayal, pain, and cursed loves that aren't meant to be. There were days that I also wondered if you had ever existed, or perhaps you were just a long, beautiful dream I had had.. Words are incapable of describing the hatred and bitterness, and most importantly the anger I felt for you.But again, even so,you never truly were far from my thoughts. In the back of my head, I wished you back with all my might.Once every few days I'd catch myself thinking about our past, or laughing over those silly rps we'd have through messages, do you remember? Not only that, I'd also think about where you are now, wondering if you are well, if you are still a part of this world.Hoping, begging that you were ok.Because... even though I had made myself hate you, deep down inside me I knew that I wouldn't be able to live a life inside a world that you didn't also exist in, somewhere... Surely, this pain and sorrow could've gone on eternally, I am a woman after all, and I can hold on to something forever.But a few days ago, I read your last letter again.It was the first time I read it as a whole, the first time I had read it I did partially, jumping here and there, and until now I had been avoiding to read it like others would avoid the plague, or, like we say in Greece, "like the Devil avoids incense". After reading those lines and once again shedding tears for the loss of you and because I understand what it's like to feel unaccepted and alone in a collapsing world,a moment of clarity came. Like I had been blind all along and finally saw the sun. And do you know what happened?

I forgave you. Truly, whole-heartedly. And from the deepest depths of my being, that still reek love and care for you, the same emotions I so foolishly and stubbornly tried to pollute, I wished that wherever you are, you are free, and happy. I understand now,Adam. I understand what you felt and I understand that the world around you, your whole life had turned into a cage and you had to break away from the chains that were going to imprison you, before they'd make their way to your neck and choke you. I want you to never again feel guilt, or have any sleepless nights thinking if you were wrong to leave.You did the right thing. You saved yourself, and now that I know that you were only trying to start a new chapter in your life, I whisper to myself a few words every night, and I know that you can hear me, or at least feel the warmth I feel inside me now whenever I think of you, my lover.You are my first love, Adam. It's the undeniable truth. I know I will never truly be able to let go of you, and not compare a guy I meet with you, and to tell the truth I don't want to. We will meet again, and that's a promise. I will find you one day, my Knight in Bloody Armor.Be it today, tomorrow, in ten years, in a hundred, in another life.... We will meet again. Damnit, we'll have so many things to talk about! It's gonna be wonderful...I miss you always, dearest. And I wish you all the best. I am always with you. I know how cliché this might sound, but you made me grow into a better person. You took a part of me, a piece of my heart when you left with you, and even though I'll never get it back I'm fine with that, because I don't feel incomplete. I know you'll take good care of it. And the part of you that stayed with me, I'll treasure it forever, dear. This isn't goodbye. Soulmates don't say goodbye, they only say "Till next time". Well...That's what I'm gonna say to you, Adam. "Till next time".
Love, Lilith. Your Lady of the Flowers, your Integra Hellsing, forever.
Ps: Mykonos doesn't really suit my taste, vampire. What do you say we make it Santorini? Not only is it a remarkably beautiful island, it's also well-known amongst the vampire investigators around the world for its long and grim vampire history. You'll make it through this dark tunnel, my Knight. I know you can. Be strong, and remember, no matter how rotten and horrible a day you might have, tomorrow it's gonna be be a whole new day, a beautiful day, and the world will be long to you.
Ps :Remember: I'm always with you.
(AAAAAND for old time's sakes.... 2ND PS FIRST!!! XD ^^)