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Stairway To Heaven - Apocalyptica

Stairway To Heaven performed by Apocalyptica

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Rush - Hemispheres Live 1978 - Part 1

Hemispheres 1978 - Live - With lots of Pics

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3 weeks ago

Crazy Kate

Lol

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1 month ago

The Detailed Universe: This will Blow Your Mind.

From nano-metres to billions of light years.

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President of PureEducation: User/GenuineBolino

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1 month ago

Your Thoughts Make You Suffer ~ Eckhart Tolle mp4

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1 month ago

Rantings on Culture, Self and Dualism

A more philosophical perspective for ya.

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  @FirehouseMike Love that idea. Kind of makes you rethink the presumed pathology behind something like schizophrenia.
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1 month ago

Transgender Name Change, voice and hormone struggles

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The Ugly Duckling; ( just a thought.)

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So I started HRT

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Relationships Pre + Post T

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Dwindling Presumptions of Masculinity & Reducing your Shadow Density (MtF Transition)

Some general updates, plus some insights into some recent experiences.

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1 month ago

Geddytoons Episode 1: The Big Bummer

Geddy gets stern as the audience gets out of hand.

If you have any audio clips from Rush concerts you'd like to see animated, send 'em my way! (Yo...

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1 month ago

Coming out to Dad & Implications on Our Relationship, MtF Transition

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  @dutico Trust your intuition. It is a shocking thing for any parent to hear, but if they really love you, they'll stick by you. Be yourself, but more importantly, be there for HER. Let her know that her child is still her child whatever she calls herself - and she will in time accept it.
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Tides of Transition

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Transition leaves us very vulnerable - not only to others but to the depths of our own selves. But that is really the only way of growing and coming to know yourself, to think for yourself. Its hard, but so worth it, and even beautiful - hidden somewhere between the tears.

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Mike Portnoy doing Neil's YYZ

Mike Portnoy with Paul Gilbert and Sean Malone covering Rush's YYZ

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1 month ago

Facebook Page!

Please direct conversations to this page

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I'll make it more detailed and pre...

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1 month ago

Discussing Voice and other Transition/Life Updates

Updates:

- First therapist appointment is next Monday. Also getting blonde highlights done afterwards :)

- Things are starting to look up with how ...

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1 month ago

Be Respectful. Be Patient. Its Their Transition Too. (mtf transition)

The people who care about you and are trying to be supportive are the most beautiful thing in the world. Show them some patience and respect. Your ...

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  @jennifers0love Mmm yea, if you can't tell your family then it does kind of hinder how "real" it can be. You already know who you are inside, but the whole point of transition is to externalize that inner self. But I can say that once people start accepting you for who you are, start calling you ...
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In The Valley Of Novelty (Terence McKenna) [FULL]

http://alchemicalarchives.b...

A talk given over a weekend in summer 1998.

These were originaly aired by Lorenzo on the 'Psychedelic Sal...

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Rush Hemispheres: T. Pesch, bass guitar

Recorded on April 7, 2011 using my 1981 Rickenbacker 4001 running in stereo through two Gallien Krueger 700RB II amplifiers. Moog Taurus pedals wer...

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A message to all the transgirls

It has been such a long time, and i'd like to apologize. I was out the state during the holidays. I recieved so many messages of several transgirls...

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Boys will be girls 20/20 Documentary Part 1 of 4

Boys will be girls

20/20 goes on a remarkable journey with families struggling to do right by their transgender kids.

One, a biological boy who, ...

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Old Man cover - originally by Neil Young

just another attempt at classic rock. enjoy guitar/trans fans. haha.

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So poignant.
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YYZ - Rush - Drums - Neil Peart - Cover

Playing drums to YYZ by Rush

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Xanadu - 4080 Bass / guitar, minimoog, Taurus III

Playing along on the Rick 4080 to Xanadu by Rush.

From the Exit Stage Left album.

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Well I think you suck :)

JK, but I figured I'd say something to break up the well-deserved endless stream of compliments. I enjoyed this... and damn the 4080 is one funky looking instrument.
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Challenges of Going Full-Time MtF

I've just recently gone "full-time" presenting as female, and I'm just discussing some of the challenges I've encountered thus far (and how I'm wor...

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@desireeT01 This is the optimistic outlook I try to keep, even just for my own happiness and sanity. I do tend to over think things, which I don't necessarily see as a bad thing, but which leads to endless unanswered questions and "what-if's." But optimism and confidence do seem to be the most im...
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Variations of Self Image and MtF Transition

Comparing comfort and expression with internal and external images of self.

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  @eindoppelganger Yea I have a lot of dreams in the third person, and more where I'm kind of watching a person who is me and who I seem to be personally affected by, but whose decisions I seem to have no control over. Almost like I'm the character in a film, but I'm watching the film at the same t...
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Importance of Language

Language is the basis of communication, and communication is the basis of understanding. An emphasis on common understandings of language is essent...

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  @eindoppelganger Thanks! I feel a bit loose when I make these videos because I don't make notes or anything, so I hope its not too ADD and hard to follow. But if anything, I tend to over think things so I have a lot of thoughts to share lol.
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Dads and Daughters

I apologize for missing last weeks posting. Life has been hectic and stressful and that was the reason for my absence.

This week I decided to mak...

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Tempus Fugit Bass Cover

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Autonomy from Passing

" An authentic transgendered persona is not dependent upon cultural definitions of male and female, man and woman, and is autonomous from the dynam...

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Rush Hemispheres Prelude: T. Pesch, bass guitar

Recorded in September of 2009 with my 1980 Rickenbacker 4001 in stereo and Moog Taurus pedals. Amplifiers used were two GK MBE III Microbass amps r...

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Balancing the Genders

Gender is, contrary to culture's wishes, part of a gradient which we all fall somewhere on. I'm discussing the importance of accepting both genders...

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On Fear and Transphobia

Discussing the roots of transphobic fear and anxiety, and how I face them.

Please comment or message! I'd love to open dialogue.

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About Michelle's YouTube Channel

Created by

ShadowDensity

Latest Activity

Feb 9, 2012

Date Joined

Nov 25, 2011

About this user

This is my channel for discussing issues related to my male-to-female transition.

As much as I hate labels, the label I most closely identify with is Bigender Pansexual. I am transitioning because I feel that the female image and mode of expression most closely mirrors my internal image and identity, but I do believe that a balance of the anima and animus is essential, and I'm not interested in disregarding everything which is deemed to be masculine (most of which, by the way, is culturally arbitrated). I am finally presenting full-time as female, though I've not yet started HRT (my plan is to start on my birthday in January).

Gender aside, I am a fine art photographer and I am a junior in the photo program at Mass College of Art. It is a wonderful program and the people are very open, kind and accepting. I do quite a bit of urban photography using both medium and large format cameras, and have a strong bias towards analog capture and printing.

I love music. The deeper and more complex the better. Tool, Rush, and Porcupine Tree are my favorites. I play bass, but kind of suck at it :/

I enjoy philosophical issues and tend to look at the wider implications of things. I don't much care for established paradigms of thought, I'd much rather tackle it with my own mind, even if I turn out to be completely wrong.

Age

Hometown

Boston

Country

United States

Occupation

Student / Photographer

Schools

Mass College of Art

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