The Morning after John's Celebration
SebastianDeSoir
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"I can't remember anything without a sadness
So deep that it hardly becomes known to me
So deep that its tears leave me a spectator of my own stupidity."


"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"

"God is a concept by which we measure our pain"

"There ain't no guru who can see through your eyes"

"Don't despair paranoia is everywhere
We can shake it with love when we're scared"

"Im scared, I'm scared, I'm scared
Every day of my life
I just manage to survive
I just wanna stay alive"

"Why in the world are we here?
Surely not to live in pain and fear"
Name: Sebastian
Age: 24
I don't know where life is exactly going... I'm inbetween of one of those moments when you just simply feel dizzy about everything that has gone and everything you could have done but you didn't. I could have done so many things, great things, things with which I would be proud of myself, things that would have made everyone who loved me so proud, but I just didn't.
I hate when you were a kid, and people used to say: "Don't cry. You are a man. A man shall not Cry" (remembering The Cure song and a very good movie) What the hell is that? Men suffers too.

It's everything I could say right now.
I'm feeling very caged.
Country: France
Occupation: Researching ... Literature st...
Interests and Hobbies: painting... painting the tragic nature of humanity, I am into writting poems now. I'm obsessed with the Beatles swinging rockabilly early sixties period, Cayenne and Like Dreamers Do stuff, and Shout, Beates made up punk music, well, they made up everything, together with David Bowie (the father) And lately playing some chords in the harpsicord, such a nice instrument, it's like some kind of animal, some strange insect's lullaby...
Movies and Shows: I've always loved Velvet Goldmine...though I could say Killer in Drag by Ed Wood, it's stupid, and that's why I love it. Breakfast on Pluto, Orlando (Tilda Swinton),La Mala Educación by Almodovar, and Tacones Lejanos is great!, hmm, El Calentito, it's a great story, every Gary Oldman film, Fuga, a chilean movie about the life of a crazy music master... and the beautiful The Man Who Fell To Earth, of course.
Music: David Bowie (now I've came back to the Ziggy period, because of Santa Monica, I think), Tyrannosaurus, Lou Reed...The Velvet Underground (Good Lord! I love heroin) and Beatles Beatles Beatles, I love them so much, and I'm kind of falling in love with Larry Lurex, specially Bri, and... Iggy Pop and The Stooges, George Harrison, John Lennon, Edith Piaf, Cristina Rosenvigne, Jacques Brell, Vince Taylor, Buddy Holly, The Shadows, Siouxsie, Marianne Faithfull, Brian Slade and Maxwell and the Venus in Furs.
Books: Une Sainson un l'Enfer by Arthur Rimbaud, Le Fleurs du Mal by Charles Baudelaire, Songs of Inocence and Songs of Experience by William Blake, Thomas Chatterton's poems, Novalis (or Friedrich Leopold Von Handenberg), Gabrielle d'Annunzio, ANNE RICE!! and now Ray Bradbury tales, they are so moving and touching!!! it's the ending of human kind watched from such a nostalgic and romantic point of view, I'm in love with his tales. I do like Franz Kafka tales, Ernest Hemigway has given me many nice memories,H.P.Lovecraft and Poe from my youth, they inspired me to study letters, and of course, the master Guy de Maupassant.
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Channel Comments (281)
AgathaMelmoth (1 day ago)
Hi!! How was it yesterday? Have you done the celebration?
In London everybody took the day off! Even your father!
you know he was a great fan...
hey, I was trying to call the other day
Paulette told me you were away
pick up the phone!

Kisses
suzysadness (4 days ago)
Hi Sebastian!

Sorry, I haven't been online for such a long time. So much things to do at work I guess.. And The autumn is too pretty to spend in internet, in mhy opinion.

It's a very beautiful day today.. Sun is shining in it's sad way that suits very well in the autumn and it's starting to be kind of cold. But I don't mind, It's so beautiful to spend days writing poems in a candle light and trying to hear what the fairies are whispering to me.

I guess it's very beautiful up there as well? Oh, and tell me if you ever meet any beautiful creatures in the forests of France, like fairies!

love Suzy
ilovedavidbowieziggy (5 days ago)
Hey
Im so sorry please forgive me i have been soooooooooooooooooooo busy!!!! Its crazy.
It has taken forever to reply. :-/
But its ok thankyou. Oh but i have not revieved it still.
aww thankyou.
XXX kim
BlueJean6 (1 week ago)
Wow! all those courses!? urrrgh I don't like college! I can't wait to finish and get a job in it.... However I might do the 2nd and final year of beauty Therapy.... Nice pic.... but the other one was even nicer, Love ya, peace and poodles :)
BlueJean6 (1 week ago)
Hello, hello hello! Sorry I took so long to answer I am not on as often these days, but I shall be around this weekend. One of the tutors at the college told me to cut my nails off! I refused! I told her I need them to play guitar in my band! She kept saying "well they'll have to come off!" and I said "well I can't!" anyway she finally backerd down when she realised that they are actually not that long! So what have you been up to? I am knackered, I am only sleeping about an hour a night and had to leave college on Wednesday as I had such bad sleep deprivation! Peace love and a blue hampster :)
ziggiestarlet (1 week ago)
Hello Spaceboy!!
Thanx for stopping by....missed ya madly. Hope the summer has been kind to you in your glass castle.....I'm loving your Background pic...Dreamy Baby!
London life is much the same with gigs and shopping, just havin' fun.
Stay beautiful 4 ever xx
margotandmilla (1 week ago)
BTW, how's Guy de Maupassant obssession? :)
margotandmilla (1 week ago)
I've just decided not to work that much from now on. There are more important, relevant things in Life than making money... (Tempo de delicadeza effects... :D)

A kiss on your forehead, darling :)
margotandmilla (1 week ago)
Hi there, my dear Sebastian!
Hope you're you're doing fine.
You know, these last few days I stopped Life to read "Tempo de Delicadeza". Some delicate writings to survive out of this mechanic routine...

Delicate kisses on you.
BlueJean6 (1 week ago)
Hello! Wow I like the bg pic of you love! Sorry I didn't get back sooner I only signed in briefly in the last week and a half! I have so much to learn at college, there are like 10 names just for things in the nail area of the hand! I have to learn every face muscle and bone in the face and head..... and the bitch head teacher told me to cut my nails off and I refused! They can sod off! How are you? peace love and a smelly nappy! :)
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