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Mine has been a path of ups and downs as I have fought to remember who I AM. I have been lost in the maze of duality and taken many wrong turns. But my I AM Presence and Christ Self have always been shining a light in my darkness so that I might find that right turn in the maze that leads to Peace and Wholeness in the I AM.
During my journey I took upon myself all sort of untruths about who I was. I because attached to peoples' opinions of me, I withheld my love, I mislead others in my ignorance. But all the time there was a higher part of me that pulled me like a magnate, pulled me that little bit higher each lifetime. It would not let me slip back to the bottom of the spiral that I was climbing. Each lifetime I was given a mission that sometimes I completed, sometimes I failed but even then I learn valuable lessons that I was able to carry forward.
And so I arrived at the incarnation I am now pursuing, with a lot of baggage. I had taken on a persona of a shy, reclusive girl who was not truly worthy of the love she received from above. So she built a wall around her heart and put forward a desire to be invisible, to hide her shame.
It took many years before I could break out of this persona. She lives in me still but gradually I AM letting her go, allowing the sacred fire to consume the darkness she held onto. It was she that carried the feelings of wanting to quit living, feelings of failure, of not wanting to go on because she could never succeed in this world, did not deserve to.
Breaking out of this illusion has not been easy, especially as at first I did not realize that it was not who I AM. It has taken the support of the wonderful Theosophia is the Way community (see http://theosophiaistheway.com )to help me bit by bit peel off the onion-layers that have inhibited me. And there are still layers to go but I know now that Victory will be mine.
What matters is that I AM prepared to keep on going, to keep on working on myself so that I can carry out my mission here, whatever it is. I AM in me, and I AM THAT I AM stands by me guiding my hand. I know that I AM loved, I know that I AM worthy. I know that the Kingdom of God is within me and all of us, and I know that Victory is real!
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