MrEltonFloyd's channel

Happy Valentines Day to the best girl ever! :-)

Don't know what to say besides the fact that i meant every word i ever said to you!

Today it's exactly half a year ago since I saw the best, the most beautiful and sweetest girl on this planet for the last time. I wish I could forget her. Don't know if you're ok, if you're happy, if you're still alive and healthy. But I pray to God you're doing fine. You will probably never read this, but i tried to forget you but now i realize I never will! Please be fine!

I will act as if move on and try to settle for second best. But i will still think about you. You are too sweet and too beautiful to forget. I don't want to nerve so i wont take any initiative. I wont write, but i'll still check out messages and music on youtube. If ever there's anything, just send me a direct message, no one can read it, just me, and no one will ever know. And i wouldn't expect anything. I will always be there if you need me, no matter why and no matter where, i'll be there.

The only thing i care about is that you're happy. If you're all alone and honest to yourself, and you're happy, then everything is good the way it is. It is unimportant if others think that you're happy, it's important that it's actually true. You are too young to let guilt decide how the rest of your life is gonna be. You should only feel guilty if it would be the case that you're not honest to yourself. You're the best thing God ever made and you deserve to be the happiest girl in the world.

I haven't seen you in a long time, and i don't know how things are. A while ago i thought one or two comments on youtube could have been yours but that was probably a coincidence. I could write forever, without expecting anything, if only i knew that you read it and that you still care. But i don't know anything and i've got no other choice than to stop it, because i don't wanna nerve. I'll stop writing now because it wouldn't be appropriate to write in the last week before, well, you know..

It's really hard to have to decide to stop writing here. Could be that you haven't read this in many months but in case you read this: i'm gonna write a few things and those will be the last ones. Not because i stopped caring, but because i have to do something. I'm losing my selfrespect by writing without knowing if you still read it and if you still care. I know that even if you do, i wouldn't find out. I wish i could look in your wonderful eyes for a minute, because then i would know it all!

I'll leave for Moscow and home soon. Strange to be here cuz i could be there in fifteen minutes. I don't care about others, just about you. I don't wanna nerve so i stay away from places where i could meet you. You've got better things to do than reading this stuff but i can't help that somehow it's impossible to forget. Will try to stop bothering you, even though you probably don't read this anymore anyway. Wish you all the happiness possible and really hope you're ok, you deserve the best!

I'm back, not far away from where you probably are. Unexpected but i realized i had to go now because otherwise i would have been here in two weeks and i don't want to be here in two weeks. Even though i really want to go to town where i could maybe meet you, i won't do it. You've probably forgotten all about it and if you're happy the way it is, then it's not my job to try to change that. If ever you don't feel honestly happy, let me know and i'll be there! Take care please!

Maybe it would be easier for me to move on but i don't know if i can. Cuz moving on would just mean acting as if i moved on but maybe i should. Part of me will always think about you and if you want me to i will always be there. You did something to me that i can't explain. The moment we've met something changed. Nothing can make it go away. I look at the stars and think that, far away, maybe you look at the same star. And i hope that maybe you ever thought about me since i left! I miss you!

Flying home today. I was in town but didn't wanna nerve cuz i don't know if you want me too. I don't care what others think, i care about you. Will be in town once every six weeks, but wont bother you. I should forget it, but i can't. You are too special. I don't know if you still care or if you ever thought about me since i left. I just know i missed you when i was far away, i missed you when i was near and i will still miss you when i get back home! You were never a joke and you never will be!

I can't forget you! I was a couple hundred meters away from the place where we've met. I wanted to see you so much. But i don't wanna nerve or bother you and i don't know if i would if i came. I don't care about most people, i just care about good people. And you're the cutest. I miss looking in your beautiful eyes. Maybe you don't read this, maybe you do, maybe you're doing well, maybe not. I don't know. I just know i can't forget you and i would give anything to know how you are really doing!

When i was around i just needed one look in your beautiful eyes and i knew everything.Haven't seen you for months now and although i feel you still read this, i can't know for sure cuz after months things can be different.Maybe you don't care, maybe you try not to care cuz you're not allowed to, maybe you still care.My feelings haven't changed no matter what i've tried.You're the best thing God ever made and no matter how far or near i might be at the moment, it's impossible to change my mind!

Life was easy before i met the most precious diamond in the world. It's difficult now because knowing she exists, makes the rest of the world look unimportant. It doesn't look complicated cuz i'm not around. I can try to act as if i don't care. But reality is that u are in my mind since the moment we've met. Even far away there's no way to get u out of my head. It's still complicated. I can't help missing you! I can't do anything but hoping you're fine and that maybe someday i will meet u again!

Out of hospital! Happy! One thing on my mind left but have to get used to that cuz it is so special that it's impossible to forget! Posted by http://twitter.com/linnyitssn

Hard to imagine i wont be around the most beautiful diamond anymore. I always knew i was gonna see her soon and i always kinda knew how she was doing. Can't imagine how much i'll miss that, but don't know what else to do. Going back would mean i would come back for her. Wouldn't have to think about that for a second, would even live in Iraq if she wanted to cuz she's worth everything. But coming back for a married girl that doesn't want to have this kind of trouble, wouldn't be fair to her.

Just heard a fantastic song in a pub, she'll probably hate me for it but i had to think about the most brilliant girl there is! Sorry! Posted by http://twitter.com/linnyitssn