Okay, Bai Bai YouTube!

Since 2012 started I have been figuring things out and I realized that over the time many things changed - but I think I (myself) changed the most.
Originally I joined YouTube because of protest since my stepfather wouldn't allow any internet access for me. Furthermore I have had many problems in my real life and I think that was what kept me here.
In addition I must be honest with myself. I mostly logged into yt because I was seeking attention and mostly friends who support me during a time which was very hard for me. I want to take the chance now to thank every person who supported me back then because otherwise I wouldn't write all this here now and have the strength to leave but would continue my life like the past 2-3 years. Furthermore I must admit that I had no rl from time to time over the years i spent here. Just editing, cancelling meetings with friends because of deadlines of mep parts and answering pms and watching videos or searching for the oh-so-famous editing effects or pictures.
Not too long ago I found a text I once typed for a group I will copy and paste it here:
"During my free time i love to edit. I do that mostly for fun because i want to escape from my daily life routine sometimes. I have been working with sony vegas since september '10 and I still need to learn a lot. I aim to find my own style and I hope I can manage this someday." This sentence is now not even a bit right at all! At first I have only very little free time and editing hasn't been fun for me at all recently and I want to find other ways to escape the daily life routine e.g. bungee jumping (O_O no not really, I am afraid of it but you know what I mean). Also I found other goals for me to reach.
Since Summer/Autumn last year I have been feeling that some things in my life are missing and incomplete. I am afraid I might regret that I spent too much time on the computer and online communities/chats instead of going out and have fun with my really real awesome besties! ♥ So I have reached a crossroad and if I don't take the right way I might make everything worse.
To come to a conclusion now I will say, that I leave Youtube now after almost 3 years. I didn't decide it out of the blue I waited and thought about this decision for around 4 months.
Anyway I had the chance to meet really great friends here (you know who you are!) . You guys are awesome, I am sorry if I disappointed you now. Also I was glad to be able to work with such a pro program for video editing (sony vegas pro 8.0)!

I was really happy to be a member of sh15 :) The studio is awesome and original and the members are nice and great! You should check it out:
http://www.youtube.com/user...

ღHere are some special Thank you's for 2 people who were very precious to me especially when I was not so active and/or absent and who supported me almost all the time I spent here:

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My Soulbärli Cami: You are the bestest friend here I could ever think of :) I am so glad I met you. You are incredible! You always supported me and kept in contact with me even though we both were so busy in rl! I am so happy we can keep contact via fb and msn! Anyway I am sorry that we need to cancel our last collab :/ I would have loved to edit one last collab with you ♥ Eu te amo. Thank you for everything! *abracos* :)♥

My Jelly Pokii-Lena: [in German] Jaaaa, also du warst auch echt immer für mich da, wir haben viel geteilt, positive und negative Ereignisse. Außerdem hast du dich auch mal an mich gewendet, wenn wir länger nicht geschrieben haben :) Ich verspreche ab und an bei skype on zu gehen. Ich bin froh, dass ich dich hier kennen lernen konnte und vllt sehen wir uns ja dieses Jahr sogar noch xD HDGDL *flausch* ♥

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I wish everyone who read all this just good things and all the best :)♥

Bye,
Grace.