About this user
Years ago I read a little book that was titled something like "Maiden, Mother, Crone." that was a description of the stages in a female's life. It got me thinking about how rebellious I was as a little girl, and then how life caught up with me when I had eight (yes, eight) kids of my own and had to balance raising them with working for the last 20 years in Nursing. Ironically, it's only now that I'm beginning to discover myself. As a working mom, I was pretty much all no-nonsense. But now, as a grandma, I'm starting to gain a real appreciation for what I'd always considered nonsense. Like sitting in the middle of a pile of dirt with seeds and compost scattered all around me. I love gardening, now. The problem is that summer doesn't last all year, so in the winter months I have to do what gardening I can indoors, which leads me to becoming more introspective. I now manage to find the time to do more of the reading I have always loved. Just started Thomas Perry's last Jane Whitefield novel—another mystery/thriller about a Native American "guide" who helps people in trouble to escape from dangerous lives. Two plusses here: On the one hand I get the adventure, minus the cheesy, hugging-and-kissing romance stuff with moronic heroines who are lost without a big strong man to complete them. And on the other, I am reminded of the Native American side of my culture. I lost my mom this past year, and my dad a couple of years earlier, and that has certainly made me more introspective. I guess it's true that when you lose someone close, a part of you begins to become what you valued in that person, causing those things to live on in you. I find myself very much into self meditation and exploration. I love to read and find myself doing so more in the winter. I also can't resist reading the self-help stuff, though at my age, I've pretty well established who I am already. I usually just pick up a few insights, smile a little, then take what I need and discard the rest. I don't know if I'm typical, but I am amazed how interested I am in all the things that bored me in school (except Algebra. I still hate algebra.) But history and all the incredible places in this world—the natural wonders—hold an endless fascination for me now. And the old-lady stuff like sewing and quilting and cooking. Cooking for eight kids was done without passion; it was a business-like procedure. Now I can take my sweet time to play around with weird recipes, and not have to worry about whether anyone else likes them. In fact, that's what my whole life has become. What seems like nonsense to everyone else, is where the excitement lies for me. I guess that's the bottom line. At this point in my life, I can just do the things that interest me rather than always having to do the things my family is interested in.
Hometown
Hawaii
Country
United States
Interests
Gardening,Composting, Cooking, Herbal, Plants, Crafts, Earth, Animals,Grandchildren, Medicinals and old Remedies
