I hope you are doing better friend.

I'm really glad that I have gotten the chance to meet you. Whether the way you act in public is the way you want to act for real or whether when you smile at something dorky I say, is fake, just being polite, I think your a pretty cool dude and obviously working hard at just living life. All I can say is just hang in there because it really is worth it, everything, i know easier said than done. I really do hope someday maybe you can look at something (for me its by chance Christmas lights) and just smile because something is pretty and it makes you genuinely happy.

i think you should end it all tonight. what an existance you must have. just kill yourself theres no need to continue on and be miserable. i will help you end it if i can. ill sit on the fone and agree with everything you say till your lights go out.
life is a celebration, you just dont get it. theres no hope for you. please just kill yourself please.