ForMyselfEsteem's channel

Ello:} in order to keep my identity anonimous i will refer to myself as crackers.(i dont know why) So i've basically made this youtube account just for my own personal insperation...and perhaps it may be of some inspiration to people out there like me, who are struggling to lose weight. Today is Sunday 11/22/09, and i've just uploaded my first video, showing where i stand as of now. im 14 years old, 5' 1" tall, and i weigh 167 lbs. (its sad, i know) recently i've been inspired to get healthy...again. but this time im hopping to actually make some progress:) so every sunday i will be uploading new vids to show either my progress......or downfall. im in the 8 grade right now and in about 9 months i will be a freshman in highschool. (by then id like to be at 123 lbs:) i would like to have a better experience in highschool than i've had in elementary through middle school. i know in order to do this i have to have more self confidence. i beleive the only way that's going to happen is if i feel comfortable in my own skin.(which right now...i do not) so im ready to start living my life, and i know the time to change is now! Your support would be much appreciated, and ill return the favore to anyone whos looking to get healthy like me:) mabey this time things will work out? (i hope so:) Ello:} in order to keep my identity anonimous i will refer to myself as crackers.(i dont know why) So i've basically made this youtube account just for my own personal insperation...and perhaps it may be of some inspiration to people out there like me, who are struggling to lose weight. Today is Sunday 11/22/09, and i've just uploaded my first video, showing where i stand as of now. im 14 years old, 5' 1" tall, and i weigh 167 lbs. (its sad, i know) recently i've been inspired to get healthy...again. but this time im hopping to actually make some progress:) so every sunday i will be uploading new vids to show either my progress......or downfall. im in the 8 grade right now and in about 9 months i will be a freshman in highschool. (by then id like to be at 123 lbs:) i would like to have a better experience in highschool than i've had in elementary through middle school. i know in order to do this i have to have more self confidence. i beleive the only way that's going to happen is if i feel comfortable in my own skin.(which right now...i do not) so im ready to start living my life, and i know the time to change is now! Your support would be much appreciated, and ill return the favore to anyone whos looking to get healthy like me:) mabey this time things will work out? (i hope so:) About Me: im just a girl trying to get somewhat descent looking before highschool starts.




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UPDATED:
Hey everyone! soo today i was looking at my channel and i realized that its been almost 2 years since i made my first video! its crazy how much things have changed...i honestly looked back at my old videos and started to cry because i dont think i ever truly realized just how BIG i was. dont get me wrong, im still chubby, and i know that. but i feel like there really is a significant difference in my appearence now from when i was 14. and reading my old channel description also makes me realize how time has really passed so quickly. it feels like just yesterday i was in the 8 grade hoping and wishing that i would become a skinny stick before i started highschool. and now im going into my sophmore year and i honestly feel pretty damn good about my body! i no longer feel the need to be super skinny, im happy being my short chubby self. im still trying to get a little bit more in shape, but my goal is no longer 123 pounds. in fact i dont really have a goal weight. numbers on the scale are stupid and im no longer going to let them determine how i feel about myself.

i really want to give a sincere thank you to all my subscribers and freinds on here. its been about 2 years and i can honestly say that this channel has been a major source of inspiration to get back on the wagon everytime im thrown off.

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