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Hi. Well my names Ellie I'm from a crappy place near Colchester in Essex. 18 years old is my age although I do realize that look about 15. I've changed rather a lot in the past few years, since I started college really, sometimes for the better but most of the time for the worst. I'm turning to the type of person I hated before and would have never of liked. I'm the sort of girl thats over protective about the people I care about. I mean everything that I say. I can be smart at times and I have my nerdy moments, but at the same time I can be really slow with something and have my blonde moments. I have very strong opinions on somethings and will fight for what I believe in. I'm amazingly stubborn and I wont give in. I couldn't really care less about what you think of me. As of lately I've been screwing my life up rather alot. I like to think that hopefully I'm going to start getting it back on track but I guess I need someone to help me with that and someone I can love, and who will love me back just as much. I've had alot of crap go on in my life, more than some people but not as much as others I guess. I find it incredibly had to understand people and there true intentions, I guess this is one reason why I tend to get hurt rather alot. In some ways me going through all of this has helped me realize how innocent and naive I have been in the past but I do hope that I can change this and become a better person in the long run. But knowing me this will never happen. I need to grow up, as I can be really childish. My life is pretty boring most of the time it revolves around college, friends and music. I hate the English language it screws you over although I hate it when people write in short ... hi u k? wots up?... that means nothing to me. My mood can change in a flick of a switch. I can laugh, scream, cry and hate all in the space of an hour. It doesn't take all that much to cheer me up as long as you know what to say. I'm a good listener and can give good advise, but I have major trust issues so chances are I won't open up to you. There are only a few people in my life that I trust. I like learning new things but not sitting at college all day listening to teachers moan on at you, as that just bores me to death to be frank. I prefer learning stuff from having interesting conversations with people and learning new things subconsciously. I'm not the nicest person ever, but I'm not a complete bitch, but I do have a big heart and all it ever does it get broken but I'm learning from my mistakes. I'm extremely shy, but I can be loud at times too depending on who I'm with. I find loads of people scary especially if its in a town but even if theres people who I know and like they can still overwhelm me. There are many people in my life who make me who I am and with out these people I don't know what I would do, as I feel that I would be an even bigger mess than what I am already. I have a fair few jobs, but I've only just found one that I do truly enjoy and look forward to going to.
If you want to get to know me better then add me and talk, but make it interesting.
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Your lips speak soft sweetness
You touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest
I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express me delight
Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away
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Sorry youre not a winner
With the air so cold nd a mind so bitter
What have you got to loose
But false intentions and a life so pretentious?
