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Resonant Abuse Triggers Pt . 12
17-Jan-10
Annas Feedback
Hi This is Anna and Im here to give some feedback on the Resonant Abuse Triggers Discussion ...
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Resonant Abuse Triggers Pt . 12
17-Jan-10
Annas Feedback
Hi This is Anna and Im here to give some feedback on the Resonant Abuse Triggers Discussion me and Matti had with our Resonances in January and to me it was a quite intense experience, the Discussion particularly because of the subject of, of my sexuality and my past in terms of... This whole Resonant Symbol of Abuse, but also to hear How... how Specific and how Strategic, Detailed, mathematic the Mind-Systems actually work in terms of: I had a thought, that thought = I allowed it to compound = I Accepted that thought as being valid, I defended the thought - then it became a pattern = from that pattern it started compounding into emotional feeling energy = from there it had to have a discharge, a release, some kind of... a point of charge = which I then experienced as an electrical sexual arousal, which I then interpreted as being, being me wanting to have sex thinking that I would like to masturbate, but not doing that, because Im in an Agreement and Im not Allowing myself to have sex or to masturbate from a perspective of getting off or getting high - and then to having sex and then Resisting completely, going into complete... almost like a Depression = then being slapped out of it physically by Matti, which I on one hand experienced as kind of releasing and fun in terms of it being a little mad and not something weve done before and on the other hand experiencing it as, as, as a form Abuse. So like this whole event, that was basically just one experience in one day and how many points that it took, to manifest this whole thing and how I basically just have given the reigns over to my thoughts and Ive been having, I mean the Resonances explained how it was Specifically thoughts of judgment, comparison, jealousy towards other women, which has been intensified extremely for me in the last couple of months... and which Ive just Allowed to, to run off with me in a way so... what Ive done after the Discussion is basically, basically starting to investigate this point and specifically in terms of Stopping the Participation, my participation in judgment, in comparison, in jealousy it has not been easy, it has been rather difficult and I have found myself going into these mind-possessions, extreme... basically the experience where I/you believe everything thats going on in your mind, in your thoughts, I mean... which can be completely extreme and destructive and spiteful - towards others, towards
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Pt. 11
Matti - 9 Feb. 2010
Gentleness
Hi this is Matti, and I'm talking a bit more about the point of Gentleness.
Um, what I've seen in looking again a...
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Pt. 11
Matti - 9 Feb. 2010
Gentleness
Hi this is Matti, and I'm talking a bit more about the point of Gentleness.
Um, what I've seen in looking again at the point of Gentleness, is that, my 'experience' of Gentleness, if you wanna say 'experience', is that, in a situation where for instance - I'm in my Agreement with Anna, and let's say she isjudging herself, or going into some pattern of - feeling sorry for herself or, 'bringing herself down', essentially. Now what I've tended to do in our Agreement in these situations is to, without really seeing that this is what I'm doing - judge what she's doing to herself, and then in that judgment, take on this 'aggressive', 'forceful' point of saying: "You know what you're doing, you're being dishonest, you just Stop!" Blah blah blah.
But, this hasn't really been effective. So, in the discussion with our Resonances they, suggested that I become more Gentle with Anna. And, in doing this, and in looking again at the point of Gentleness what I see is that, that point of - and in looking at the point of me taking on this 'aggressive', 'forceful', apparent 'directiveness', is that that apparent 'directiveness' within my 'forcefulness' and 'aggression', is actually me in a point of dishonesty because, I've only taken on that point of 'aggression', and 'forcefulness' because I'm actually judging Anna for what she's experiencing, or allowing within herself.
So, in that I'm basically - there's the situation, there's me, there's Anna, there's what she's experiencing - and then in the 'aggressiveness' and 'forcefulness' I go 'into' a 'state' of 'perceived' - on my part 'perceived' 'directiveness'.
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Resonant Abuse Triggers
Pt. 10
Matti - 9 Feb, 2010
Hi this is Matti, and I'm talking about Anna and my discussion with our Resonances called: Resonan...
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Resonant Abuse Triggers
Pt. 10
Matti - 9 Feb, 2010
Hi this is Matti, and I'm talking about Anna and my discussion with our Resonances called: Resonant Abuse Triggers.
Um, so the primary point that our Resonances basically, described to me as being the point with which I can assist myself and Anna the most, is Gentleness. Because, and I've already experienced, in, applying Gentleness, or - basically just being Gentle, is that I'm diffusing both my tendency towards being aggressive and forcing a point of directing a situation, um, and I'm diffusing as well, for instance if Anna is - if I see Anna is in a - some kind of resistance experience or self-judgment experience where she's having thoughts of self-judgement, comparison - basically the thoughts that the Resonances described as being the origin point of how Anna basically sends herself into this cycle of experiencing herself as being abused within relationships.
Um, my tendency has been to be, again, aggressive and kind of, 'forceful' and 'dominant' within relationships, and what I've experienced is that Anna, the kind of her tendencies and patterns, are like the polarity opposite of my tendencies and patterns, where she then tends towards being submissive, and inviting abuse or feeling abused, judging herself.
Um, so where Iwhat I've beenthe way I've been changing my approach, you could say, is that, instead of, then becoming fed-up from a certain perspective and judging
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Resonant Abuse Triggers
Pt. 9:
Gentleness
Resonances: Okay. I could go through this again, if youre as youre walking and youre unclear on certain poi...
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Resonant Abuse Triggers
Pt. 9:
Gentleness
Resonances: Okay. I could go through this again, if youre as youre walking and youre unclear on certain points.Matti: Its clear to me.Resonances: It is very big, to handle,Anna: It is, quite clearResonances: but you can handle this, Im sure.Anna: Yes.Resonances: Because I checked, I could talk everything throughMatti: Yeah, yeah itsmakes sense.Resonances: Are you both clear within yourself any thoughts towards each other coming up? Any fears?Matti: No.Anna: Well, Yeah (laughing)Resonances: Whats up?Anna: Well, its justits basically confirming my own inferiority, knowing that Im still in thoughts, and that Mattis not in thoughts, butI meanResonances: He has his thoughts, but this is more sexual in nature, meaning hes also exploring himself sexually still, so. You should also give him some chance as well (laughing) in seeing wheres his limits, wheres his driveMatti: Yeah, its also quite new as well, for me.Resonanes: Gentleness.Matti: Yeah.Resonances: Youve got to start becoming gentle with Anna.Matti: Yeah, I can see that point.Resonances: Because Anna has never been gentle with herself. And youve got that point of gentleness within yourself.Anna: Yes, he does.Matti: Yeah.Resonances: So Id suggest, rather focus on that gentleness, that warmth that you experience? Thats cool. Imean thats Expression, thats real, its Physical meaning its Here and, you can share that with her.Matti: Yeah, yeah.Resonances: Id suggest focus on that.Matti: Yeah.Resonances: And, meaning youd (Anna) love
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Resonances: Its like, femthe Female way of dealing with, Energetically Charged experiences, and youve got the Male way of dealing with itMatti: Yea...
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Resonances: Its like, femthe Female way of dealing with, Energetically Charged experiences, and youve got the Male way of dealing with itMatti: Yeah.Resonances: You know where the Female would for example, you know, walk out and say fuck this and go and enjoy herself for example, and the Male will go and punch a bag, for example, in a certain situation, its just the female / male way of dealing with what theyre experiencing. Matti: Yeah, exactly. Resonances: So whenever you feel youre going into something you sit down and you feel it starts building and building; you stop for a moment, you go lie down somewhere, you put your feet on the ground and you breathe it out until youre Here again, okay? Matti&Anna: Yeah. Resonances: If you want to support each other, just lie, holding hands, and you just you just breathe, and breathe, and breathe until theres nothing. Is that clear? Matti&Anna: Yes. Resonances: For both? Matti: Yeah. Anna: Yeah, thats very cool. Resonances: Okay. Okay, so this is it for now. Matti: Okay. Resonances: Um.yeah, now theres a lot, so you both probably listen to it again. Anna is there any questions, anything thats unclear? Do you understand Anna: Yes, theres something, over here (on the paper). How this point of Physical-need, and companionship, is related to this point of Self-judgment, and jealousy and comparison and all of that in terms of, when I go look at it for myself like howbecause I see this very clearly, and I experience this very clearly, and it has been escalatingI dont, I dont understand how theyre relating. Resonances: Okay. So, what comes up first is: judgments, comparisons, um, worthiness, umyeah thats about it. So you have those type of thoughts coming up, and its specifically related to yourself and to other females.
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life is indeed the darkness
it doesn't require ideas of grandeur to exist
nor does it require 'energy' - it is source
in the meanwhile, visit the forum and participate
here we assist and support ourselves and each-other in self-honesty and practical common sense
all kinds of topics and discussions
observe: all and everything is always equal&one to what is being accepted, allowed, perceived, beLIEved
therefore there´s only self-delusion, self-deception, self-dishonesty
consequences / side-effects / what one face = is always equal&one to `who one is´ and what one is standing equal to within oneself
is it fear - blame - desire - denial - ´hope´ - projections... that is what one will face
one practical problem in this world: we are all subject to the conditons we´re born into; and these conditions are not equal. i see it as our responsibility to create living-conditions on earth for all to have a dignified life. it is possible. but it´s not just gonna `happen´. we gotta Stand-Up and realize: self = life = all = equal. the value of life is life!