I used to look up to him,
Even when he went off the rails.
But lately it seems nothing;
Could put us back on that trail.

He turned to the person I hate most;
Which ruined everything we had.
But then again we had nothing;
Compared to what they now have.

They're two people that'll stick together;
No matter what the situation is.
Im sure soon he'll completely change;
He'll be the brother Im forced to miss.

I am now nothing to him;
And I think he's nothing to me.
I just want my brother back;
The way I thought he'd always be.
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I'm thinking of you before I sleep,
I'm dreaming of you before I wake,
I'm thinking of you all the time,
I'm dreaming of you to be mine.

I'm thinking of you right by my side,
I'm dreaming of you thats on my arm,
I'm thinking of you from the heart,
I'm dream of you never to part.

I'm thinking of you in my dreams,
I'm dreaming of you in my thoughts,
I'm thinking of you my angel above,
I'm dreaming of you the one I love.

I'm thinking of you when I'm awake,
I'm dreaming of you when I sleep,
I'm thinking of you at this time,
I'm dreaming of you the love of mine.
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When you find your days are bad
and every single moment sad
ill be there to bring a cheer,
because for me you are so dear.

At times when you feel like screaming
while life seems to have no meaning,
I'll be there to calm you down
because i don't want you to frown.

When you are feeling very blue
when you're confused about what is true,
I'll make you smile in minutes.

I'll stand by you when others have gone,
I'll be a shoulder for you to cry on,
away your loneliness i will send
into sorrow i wont let you descend.

I'll help you face your fears,
I'll wipe away your tears,
just call for me and
there i will be.

I'll share all your secret thoughts
i wont reveal them at any cost,
I'll be your true friend you'll see
not just now but for eternity..

so when your upset n gloomy
dont hesitate to call on me,
Good things bad things whatever you do
I'll always be there for you...
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You are my world.
You are my life.
You are my everything.

You are my best friend.
You are my lover.
You are my dreams come true.
You are my shelter, my cover.

You are my sun in the sky.
You are my moonlight at night.
You are all the good in the world.
You are all that is right.

You are all that I see.
You are all that I feel.
You are all that I need.
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Im lying in bed,
With nothing to do,
Except just lay there,
Thinking of you,

I'm sitting at my desk,
With nothing to do,
Except just sit there,
Thinking of you,
You are my love
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When you said, "I love you,"
I went over the moon.
My heart sang its glory,
The stars sang in tune.

As when with a word
God brought forth light,
So with these words
You ended my night.

So with these words
You made something new:
A bond of devotion
Between me and you.

How powerful words
To shape who we are!
We ponder in silence;
Our words cross a bar.

Your words crossed a threshold
And entered the past,
Yet they have created
A world that will last
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All day and all night
I'd been thinking of you
About what you would do
Hoping to talk to you tonight

I am sitting on my chair
Thinking about you and me
Happily on the beach by the sea
Moving my hands trough your hair

Were we gently hug and kiss
Hoping for more days like this
Lying in the sand watching the sky
Filled with stars, while we happily cry

Now I'm lying in my bed
I almost fall a sleep
That you're not here makes me sad
And I just started to weep

You are the one I really love
And I wanna talk to you
I keep on thanking the angles above
That you are loving me too
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I spend my time thinking,
Wishing you were here.
I stop and look around,
Hoping you were near.

Just because You are not with Me,
Doesn't mean a thing.
It's knowing that You know,
That I'm Your everything.

I know I haven't visited you
Since the day you were buried
And I just want to say I'm sorry.
But I just still can't believe you're gone,
And it's getting more real each day.
The crash seems like yesterday.
Although I know it's been quiet some time.
It's almost your birthday.
Don't worry, I haven't forgotten.
I already got you a gift but
it's just something small.
I'm going to visit you and unwrap it by your side.
Then scrap up some dirt, and place it in the earth.
Next to it I'll place a picture,
Of us and the team at the pool.
And when you see them,
I hope you know that I still miss you.
And not a single day goes by that I don't wish you were here.
R.I.P JOHN 6-26-08
john i miss so fuckin damn much why did u have to leave, u were the only true friend i had,i miss u sooo fuckin much :'(
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