About this user
"Someone like this never would have been acceptable a generation ago."
♥ I love NOODLES♥
♥ Am I beginning to talk with self-deprecating preface? My habit of mis-saying words and using words that kind of sound alike but mean something totally different is easily taken as whims to the extent of clumsiness that people around me end up having to correct me. Thus I'm generally said to be quite SELF-CENTERED when in actuality, I'm fundamentally serious. My SELF-CENTEREDNESS, obviously has already become commonplace that people around me have stopped saying anything. But everyone's self-centered aren't they?
When I was a little, I was a mischievous kid who was always against my surroundings and because my way of thinking is relatively frank, I just come out and say that I don't agree so in my teenage years, I disliked being bound to things, don't yield to places I feel strongly about, hated every rules because they are so restricting and wouldn't listen to what my mother told me. I came this far without thinking of anything else so in my case in the end, I got in trouble a lot of places, still at odds with others almost everyday and instead of learning, i would get yelled everytime I rebelled and learned life that way. These BECOMES ME.
On the other hand, I don't tend to like confrontations and fightings so I don't ever start anything however by fighting it out I believe I matured as well. I learned that IT'S MYSELF but I don't try to fix it. There's just no use to make a big deal and search for myself by going far away (according to Sai of Naruto Shippuden: The best way to escape Reality is to SMILE, though it obviously seems to be fake).. even from before I've always understood myself well. It's not so mush confidence though, just, I'm fond of myself and I don't think I'm doing anything wrong on a human level. I want others to notice me as I am__wihout other options. My job is included on those, so just me without any of that. My job is being " CASSANDRA" which others cannot copy. My jobincludes being like AKANISHI JIN.
That's right!We don't know what kind of life or incidents are waiting for us, but whenever it's with the feeling "I AM MYSELF". We'll each have our own self-confidence respectively and then we can continue improving, right? Surely that attitude from now onwards will always never change. "WITHOUT HOLDING BACK OUR FEELINGS WE JUST DO WHAT WE WANT TO DO". Stubbornly dedicated myself to staying the same but simultaneously I have the softness inside mt to change according to the natural flow of things as I started to develop more flexibility in everything that I've always rejected.
Speaking of a turning point that I've experience, working where everyone's committed is really different so just from my experience, I want to tell that I think there's no reason to struggle and fight at times when it's not necessary. I'm 22 right now, but upon reaching this age, I finally begun to understand how society works. ♥
Occupation
I am a part-timer who works as an Encoder, an Agent and soon will be the NUMBER ONE MOONLIGHTER ARBEITO in JAPAN, ne?
Old Fart Who Loves Japanese Pop Culture 日本の大衆文化を愛する中年
Japanese Dramas, Manga, Anime and Japanese Movies, Jpop, and anything else about Japanese pop culture that I find interesting.
日本のドラマ、マンガ、アニメ、J-POP、その他私がおもしろいと思った日本の大衆文化について
Cerridel
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