blake the forever confused

i am confused about everything... haha...

i dont care if im stupid , i dont care that im retarted , i just dont care about myself , i just dont care what you say anymore , i just wanna die , i just dont care ,


YE-AH THATS RIGHT IM PART HIPPIE
and i will always love my friends


i like helping people but i guess m not very good at it :/ ...
im not very good at anything... hehe which really sucks... im only good at annoying people and embarassing myself... ahh well , i suck... haha :/

this has nothing to do with my channel : if you got a problem with something like family problems (like if you live in a dysfunctional family) i truly want to help you, i kno whatchoo r going thru, and i love helping people, and if you have problems with the past or you see a problem coming then you can come to me, im here waiting,



check my favs if yo want it has nothing to do with all the other stuff i juss said



go to church



i wish i was like half-black-half-white but instead i am just plain boring white... , , , but you dont have to be black to be BLACK do ya get ma flow?
so i only have one thing to say is BLACK PRIDE YO'

'im not racist or makin fun of black people im serious'



im a free spirited person. just be who you are. dont let other people put you down or discourage you. follow your dreams. dont dwell on the bad things in your life, its only makes more problems, face your problems as they come. once they are past dont dwell on them to much. do something that makes you happy, like spend time with friends or listen to yo favorite song. and dont like do drugs or drink or smoke weed or cigarets n' junk, that only screwes up yo life more. i wont judge you if your gay or your favorite song is something unpopular or crazy or weird, its just the way you are and its just your personality... so you can tell me anything.



what i like to do: mostly be with friends, listen to music, watch tv and movies, talk on myspace/facebook/youtube, and just living life.



my friends are my life, without them i would be depressed, a grump, no fun, mean, sad, mad, tired of life. listen if your my friend and go to school with me then read this its coming from my heart , i need you and always will i love you and always will without you i am nothing you are my life and always will.
if your not my friend, then become my friend :D



im a generous person, i have self-esteem issues,i have self image problems, i am very caring, im trustworthy, im loving, im nice, im funny, but im not stuck up with myself so if yo r reading this please dont think im selfish im the complete opposite. (at least i think i am all of those, im probly not... im probly just lying to myself)



im paranoid bucause of my trust issues, like when im in a frienship like i always worry like if its an uneven relationship like if they are my best-friend but im scared that they dont like me,,, do ya get what im saying like if you had a best-friend and you loved them like a best-friend but you were constantly worried that they were talking about you behind your back or didnt like you as much as you loved them... so yeah plus my trust issues include that when ever i spill a secret by accident or on purpose then im worried that they are going to tell, thats why i love being a reliable caring person cus i dont want to be a hipocrit and i want people to feel that they can trust me.
im also scared to tell people how i feel about them cus of my trust issues like im scared to tell my 'guy friends' that i love them cus they'll think im gay(which im not, just fo yo info) so im scared they'll think bad things of me but im free spirited so i REALLY WANT TO but i cant cus of my trust issues. like if i love them like a brother or a best friend, i feel like i really have to tell them but i just cant... , , , , so if your reading this right now and you know that im yo best friend then i wanna tell you that i love you like a best friend and if you dont know and your just my normal friend then i want you to know that i loves yall's too.
and i wish all my friend would know that.


oh btw if you are reading this and you think im only talking about myself cus im stuck-up and selfish its cus i want you to get to know me and i love it when people know me so just keep in mind if you keep on reading this its cus i want to get to know you. :)


oh and you can be honest with me if your scared to offend me, like if were talking and you wanna get off , please dont make an excuse like, oh i got to go or my mom is tellen me to get off, please tell me the truth that you dont feel like talkin' and you wanna get off, i wont get mad or get offended cus i understand your point of view that you just dont feel like it, so please just tell me the truth so i can trust you better. im more passive and understanding than other people so dont worry

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