I think You Tube is a constructive way to kill time. Before I got involved my only impression was what I would see on TV when a cable show would feature "viral videos." Once I started searching I discoverd the geeks like me who are obsessive-compulsive about certain instruments and sounds. It was a eureka moment - other people with the same chemical imbalance as I have! We are not alone!

I have been interested in noise, rhythm, and randomness since I was a kid. I remember sitting in the back seat of our car as we waited for the light to change so my father could make a left turn. Everything was quiet except for the quarter-note click of the turn signal. A woman was crossing the street right in front of us and I noticed her steps were perfectly synchronized with the "click." It was the coolest thing. I realized there was no way she could hear the turn signal...but it was as though some force was syncing them together. Every step was exactly matched to the turn signal metronome. The pedestrian thought she was just walking as she normally would. She had no idea that somehow she was connected to some sort of "cosmic rhythm machine."

Years later I applied the same idea to what I believed to be random noise and sound events. Maybe it just seems to be random because we are unable to hear the "master clock." However, I think if we open our minds we can actually "feel" that master clock. Everyone hears and feels it to some degree...many just don't know how to interpret it. That's where musicians come in. We try to recreate what we are hearing. If someone likes what you have produced they will respond with "Now that's good music!" What they are really telling you is that subconsciously they are hearing the same thing as you. You have produced something that is familiar in some way and have just articulated it for them...you have validated certain feelings and emotions and that makes them feel more connected to their Universe. Even if a listener hears a musical "truth" but doesn't recognize it the natural response is to say "that sucks!" The listener believes he is making a conscious judgment. Its really that his clock is not in sync with that particular combination of vibrations at that moment in time. But that can change. Have you ever pulled out an old album or CD that was once a favorite and listen to it and go: "What the hell was I thinking? This is lame!" Its just that you are no longer in sync with that particular combination of vibrations. The same thing can happen in reverse. Something you used to dislike will now produce a "Oh! now I get it!" Perhaps we're linked to a Universal Low Frequency Oscillator that shifts us in and out of certain interpretations. What scares me is I actually believe this bullshit I'm writing. But truthfully, that's how I feel. At least today anyway.