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This playlist represents the anguish and turmoil I have experienced in working through the aftermath of a friend's death. The "official" cause of death will likely not capture the emotional roller coaster or regrettable choices he made in those weeks before his passing. it is perhaps this knowledge that makes it so difficult to bear -- could I have done more, could I have done anything to save him, to spare his family this pain? Will his wife, his children feel in some way responsible as I do? Will we able be able to ultimately forgive him and ourselves? It is my prayer that those he left behind will be able to find peace, however elusive it might be at this moment. It is also my prayer that a forgiving, compassionate God will forgive him, as he touched so many lives in ways he could not possibly have imagined. This assemblage is as much for Amy as it is for me...and I wish he could have waited just a little while longer, waited for Amy and the kids to return home.

In Memory of Chris Leary