My Story: Food - Depression - Selfharm - Suicidal

[UrToast321]

your beautiful no matter what, your golden. Truly admire you.

[PassionForBeautyxoxo]

I love your story:)

Hopefully I can try to fix my issues with self confidence and my 715 to 815 calories a day meal plan.

[bubbleskiesow]

What hospital did you go to?

[bubbleskiesow]

What hospital did you go to?

[lilianamot10]

I would like to know if you could help me out on something:/<3 xxx

[laurenmariecasualty]

This video is soo inspirational, thank you :) Also, you have beautiful hair! :'D <3

[emmielouise97]

You're beautiful! i know what depression is like, I'm suffering from it atm:/ I'm not eating properly either and it's all because i became ill in November 2011!! i don't know who to talk to so i just write text messages to myself i don't know what to do, but i suppose if you managed to do this, i guess so caan anyone!!<3<3

[REDandBLACKblood13]

You're beautiful.(: I'm happy you got better.

[bethanjw]

I'm a cutter

[Cataaa15]

I feel you. really. I'm a cutter. and actually all my friend are. :/ most of them stopped. and some of them even started because of me. I've been doing it for, what, 3 years now. I'm getting better. I'm learning to live with my scars and don't cut. It's going to take a while, I know. I'm depressed too, I take pills. well, sometimes. Hope you're okay..? :)<3

[XxkerienexX]

This video is really quite good! Please can you and everyone check out my video's. I'm just starting to share my journey and would love some support

[Alkanile]

The psychiatric hospital I went to sucked. The patients were nice but the ones that worked there were rude (except for one) and hardly let us have any fun. Some of them actually even told us they didn't care about what happened to us. And my psychiatrist was a scary woman. She'd analyze you like you were some test subject. >_< But I got out of there, and I'm never going back. :)

[hisbaby4lyfe98]

I don't see why people don't comment on this you have been through a lot and you are definitely someone to look up too. You show people that yes things do get better and that yeah you got to hang around the right people that would help you through the things you need help through. Your a great person and you have a lot of love.

[GabbieGracie1]

I can relate to you so much, except for the getting better part..

truly inspirational, x

[OMGsammy27]

im happy you got better and that you strong to beadle to stop but some people dont im 15 and past 3 years i have suffered from depression and self harm so many time and done overdose but non of my family know and only a few of my friends no i just keep it to my self because i have know one to talk to :/

[PilarLovesMcFlyDanny]

I cried with this :{

You are very strong, I hope I am like you.

[somekindamillie]

how long were you in hospital for? and also do you mind if i pm you?

[aliceee123xoxo]

UR AMAZING!

[theSKYisCRYINGoverme]

great video! You are so brave!! You must be so proud of you.. i send you my best whishes!

[HaylieGrace]

I'm 15. Although I haven't been admitted into a hospital, things are rapidly going downhill 4 me. I have depression, anxiety & I worry about food alot.. I cry everyday, & I never feel satisfied with anything. I go 2 school, but it's like my mind is filled with so much that I just can't concentrate. I find it hard 2 go 2 school. I'm worried that I'm ruining my future by not going. I'm a high achiever. I think I'm fat. I think about suicide.

I'm just not too sure what to do. Do u have any advice?

[HaylieGrace]

@HaylieGrace Oh, and I am seeing a counsellor at school and also outside of school.

[littlesercet]

Hey am just wondering what psych hospital you was in hun?

[KeikoMaul]

Admiration for your courage and strength sweetheart x

[TheBeutifulDizzasta]

Hey i recognized where one picture of you is taken ... titchfield park :P and im sure ive seen you around somewhere :S... i myself so through depression... but i haven't been through what you have i am so glad you are getting better now :) xx

[1966pencil]

thx for sharing sweetie. You are so cute. Big hugs from London.

[SurvivingPain0x]

God, this video...Words can't describe how brave I think you are. You are a beautiful girl and I wish you the best in life. Aswell as making me sad, this video made me smile. I love how you done the pictures to match captions. Pure brilliance :')

Stay strong <3

[GLADLYxGAY]

hiiiiii. I would like to take this time to say you are amazing and i know what its like to be there in that state of mind. im soo happy you spoke up. you are soo beautiful. <3 please feel free to talk to me - tayy

[xoGoddessOfBeautyxo]

SONGS - 1st Song: Just A Little Bit by Maria Mena 2nd Song: Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

[xoGoddessOfBeautyxo]

What song is this??? Good vid

[ava466]

Either I go to the same school as u did or u have identical tie colour ?....harlaw academy ?

[lmollot]

have you seen vid "trauma, low blood sugar,mental health & nutrition? rebuild the nerves brain & hormones after trauma- changes bio-chemical-good luck-iroquois women (women of the longhouse) had the key---keep on

[bosnagurl1234]

i've been depressed for about 1 month now because of meanies at school. i have like alot of cuts on my arm. i don't really care about anything that much. but this inspired me. thanks love! (:

can you subscribe me because im trying to reach 90 subscribers?

xoxo . p.s. i subscribed :)

[pwosdfijuvhdsmkdfsio]

Without a doubt my favourite Youtube video! :D

Stay strong x

[DarkAngelNCharmed]

Hey. glad to hear youre doing better. thank you for sharring your story. did your doctor force you to go to the hospital then to a treatment center or did you go voluntery? do you still struggle with self harm or with food?

[Achildatheartforever]

@DarkAngelNCharmed Hello :)! Thankyouu. and thanks for watching :)! I did go voluntary but when I tried to discharged myself they said I would be sectioned. I unfortunately stil do. I went back to in-patient 2 months ago, the same place "/ tried to get discharged but said Id be sectioned again "/. I think I will always struggle but its finding a good balance that you can cope with I guess. I hope you're ok xoxox

[DarkAngelNCharmed]

@Achildatheartforever what do you mean sectioned? would you try going to a different place? hopefully you wont always struggle or wont be as bad as it is now for you.

[CrazyyyMoo1996]

you're so beautiful. and you have an amazing figure now.

im struggling with self harm and bulimia and possible depression atm, and im finding it really hard:/ i give up alot of the time and just attempt to end it all, but people like you give me hope. stay stong m'lovely. <3<3<3

[Singing4Him4ever]

I love u xo

[Achildatheartforever]

@Singing4Him4ever <3 <3

[gemmasheridan]

hey lovely, ovbiously i don't no you, but i feel so proud of you. :')

when you got sectioned, did you get taken in an ambulance away, or were you taken there by family? what achually happend?

:') hope your ok now! lovessssssssssssssss <3 xx

[Achildatheartforever]

@gemmasheridan Hey! Aww thats so nice!!

No no, it was nothing like that. I wouldnt use the word sectioned either, its a bit strong and serious!

I went for an assessment, my parents took me and they assessed me and admitted me. It was all very 'calm'. I had given up at this point so I didnt care what was happening, I had no strength left, I was going along with anything and didnt argue.

Im a lot better now thankyouuu!! Hope you're ok!

Lovesss back,aha :) xoxox

[channelxAnonymous]

... wow, i cryed watching this video.. your so lucky that your counseling helps you.. and your sooo lucky that your happy (er) now

[Achildatheartforever]

@channelxAnonymous Aww bless you!

I do feel incredibly happy to of had her! Thankyou :)

Hope you're ok xoxox

[creepingaround]

this is a really good video :'3

whats the first song btw?

yeah, well, i went through a lot so this makes me look at the upside things more tbh :)

Thaaaank yoouuu :'D

[Achildatheartforever]

@creepingaround Thankyouu :)!

its just a little bit - maria mena :)

Im glad it has! Recovery and the light at the end of the tunnel is so great once you get there :)!!

More then welcome! & ThankYOUU! xoxox :)

[questions117]

You are so gorgeous and so strong! I'm happy for you thst you're doing better

[Achildatheartforever]

@questions117 Thankyou so much :)!! I hope you're ok! xoxox

[lozzymagoo]

wow what an inspiration for young girls!...im 21, I've been through alot of the things you've mentioned too, but some things just got worse as i got older. Only at the age of 20 i had some counselling....im so happy for you that your much better now.

god bless x

[Achildatheartforever]

@lozzymagoo Hey :)! Thankyou for leaving such a lovely and positive comment :)!

Im sorry you've been through some hard times yourself, but Im so glad you got some help :)

not everyone takes well to therapy but it was something I..eventually...did, glad it seems you have too :)

Best of luck to you with everything life throws at you! xoxox

[trackstergirl16]

I love this especially since im not ok with my body...

[Achildatheartforever]

@trackstergirl16 Thankyou :)! You can always message me if there is anything you want to talk about. Take care xoxox

[xtayxterrorx]

I'm glad your doing better. I hope to have a story with a happy end, too.

[Achildatheartforever]

@xtayxterrorx Thankyou :) I hope one day you can say that. Though everyones 'happy ending' means something different. Being happy doesnt mean everything is perfect it means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections. I truly hope things get better for you. I wish you all the look in the world. And you get your happy ending :) xo

[MsMuahXoXo]

Dammm ur so pretty u look just like ur mother :D

[Achildatheartforever]

@MsMuahXoXo aw, thankyouu :')!

Yes I got told that a lot!! :) xoxox

[BulimicForever]

Im so glad you're overcoming your Eating Disorder! You look amazing and healthy right now and I hope you continue on the path of recovery! You are doing brilliant and have done so much already to be proud of! You're a great person with a bright future ahead of you!

[Achildatheartforever]

@BulimicForever Thankyou so so much! :) I hope things keep getting better! Thankyouuu! (L) xoxox

[brontaleah]

You were in my room! :D xx

[Achildatheartforever]

@brontaleah Ahh was i :D! The first one on the left after the girls toilets. I SO had the best room :')! Mine was always so neat and perfectt and i had so many air freshners LOL! I loved my room :')! xoxox

[brontaleah]

@Achildatheartforever Yep, that was my one! :) Oh and btw on my youtube is some of us lot messing around at the unit xD you should check it out haha. xxx

[Achildatheartforever]

@brontaleah tehe :D

Aww i would, I bet its funny :P But watching things like that set me back, I cant have anything to do with that place now, it really effects me, pathetic I know but took me a while to get over being in there, messed with my head alot "/ xoxox

[brontaleah]

@Achildatheartforever I know what you mean tbh =/

[Achildatheartforever]

@brontaleah "/ xoxox

[OMGKacyKupcake]

Such a touching story...

[Achildatheartforever]

@OMGKacyKupcake Aww bless you, thankyou for watching! I hope your okay, and im always here for you if you need anybody. You take care of yourself. Much love and hugs (L) El xoxox

[lilmover]

aww this was lovely. . . big hugs and <3 well done you for being brave enough to put this out there, i really can't stress enough how good it is, and how brave you really are xxxxxxxxx

[Achildatheartforever]

@lilmover Aww thankyou so much Jaycee, it means alot :) I debated a lot whether to post this or not, especially with the body pictures, feel embarrassed watching it back! But I wanted to show it all properly. Thankyou again :)! Love and hugs to youu (L) xoxox

[lilmover]

@Achildatheartforever well im glad you did, there is nothing to be embarrassed about, your an absolute star and never forget it. Keep doing all the good your doing, how are you lately? xxx

[Achildatheartforever]

@lilmover Aww thankyou soo much! You are so lovely Jaycee, like seriously! Im proud of you aswell! Im doing ok thankyouu, things are up and downs as always but Im doing okay, feeling ok! :) How are youuu? xoxox

[lilmover]

@Achildatheartforever bles you thanks so much hon! im so pleased to hear your doing okay, keep this positivity up, this is your life, you deserve to be happy:)

im pretty good, feeling very positive:D xxxx

[Achildatheartforever]

@lilmover We both deserve happiness :D! Im glad your okay, loving the positive vibe :D KEEP IT UP ASWEEL :)!! (L) xoxox