Child Abuse: An Open Letter to mom & dad

[Alejally]

It's sad to know that there bbys that are being abuse everyday! Love this letter, it touched my heart.. 

[TeamPeetaMellark123]

Wow. I think your the strongest person ive ever seen. Most people that are being abused are to scared, hurt, or depressed to open up and i think that is the best thing to do when youre being abused. tell someone. scream until someone hears you. I pray for your parents to realize what they have done wrong. thank you for giving all those silenced by child abuse a voice.......................

[xXxAngelCute3xXx]

.. D':

Crying! I can't stop.. :((

I just remember those times my parents gave me a hard time.. I would always forgive them.. I love them.. As much as any other person loves there parents..

[DorrisDiaz]

Good luck Bleaux42, don't let ANYONE hurt you.

[MsFelicity5]

i adore the way you managed the conflict, God's grace is upon you..continue to do good because in HIS time, He will make things beautiful for you... and those haters will learn to love you in ways you can never imagine ..

[MsFelicity5]

God bless you... i bet your parents regretted their actions.. remember to lways forgive and go back, after all, they are your parents, do visit them sometime.. you are victorious... pray on those who persecute you...infact, they are the weakest

[bleaux42]

@MsFelicity5 What perfect timing. You really have no clue how much I needed to hear, "pray on those who persecute you...infact, they are the weakest." I have family members who choose to focus all their time & energy into stalking me & trying to hurt me and my family. I do not fight back. I do not retaliate. I will not lower myself to that level but it does get depressing at times to realize how they can rationalize their hateful behavior.

[mishmish925]

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for doing this. I've been trying to reach out to my abusive father for years, and I haven't given up yet. I don't even know why I bother. But maybe I'll try again?

Anyways, thank you. I'm glad you've made it through this. I can only hope I will too.

[bleaux42]

@mishmish925 If you really wish him to be part of your life, you keep working on it. You are a strong person to do so and I admire you for your courage.

[bleaux42]

@mswillowbend *hugs*

[zkatergirl]

2009-2010. i love hearing your forgiveness in this and i know how hard it is to get away from anger and sadness. keep it up

[bleaux42]

@zkatergirl Thanks. :)

[nena1j]

Brave soul. God bless you <3

[bleaux42]

@nena1j Thank you.

[markweatherhogg]

OMG I LUVED IT

[bleaux42]

@markweatherhogg Thanks!

[nirvanagirl90210]

very sad.

[swetty1234561]

this made me cry DX

[bleaux42]

@swetty1234561 *hugs*

[lovemusicpeaceisme]

i cried when i read this. i have thought these words for about two years. But i have kept silence for a reason i dont know. Not many people understand why i dont like talking to my father. Keep posting. You give my thoughts a voice.

[bleaux42]

@lovemusicpeaceisme Thank you so much. I hope things are better for you now.

[b7oken]

this is beautiful.. and heart breaking...

[bleaux42]

@b7oken Thank you for watching it and commenting. :)

[AmericanGirlDoll603]

Wherwe do you live know did your parnets beat you so bad did you kick them out of your life?id you know I cried when I watched this video! Wow and that was your last goodbye to say to them sorry

[bleaux42]

@AmericanGirlDoll603 *hugs*

[AmericanGirlDoll603]

Why do your Parent Ubuse you?

[candy3A3Z]

Beautiful. It's hard when you have been abused by someone you love so much. Everyone expects me to so angry at my abuser, which is healthy considering what he did to me but that doesn't mean I don't still love and forgive him. When it's your own father, it's really difficult. Love and hate seem to merge together. It's one of the deepest wounds. I completely understand your video and having days where you just want to remember the good times. It's all part of the healing process.

[bleaux42]

@candy3A3Z Thank you so much for sharing with me. I need to hear from other survivors sometimes.

[talibilm1]

Argh!. my heart goes out to you... i pray and hope everything becomes ok... and one day you ... and all of us out here find peace...somehow hopefully. stay strong everyone. and your right. the worse thing is to deny the feelings of hurt and pain... cause it just gets worse... but some people cant feel... their mind doesnt allow them to... cause of the excessive pain... man... stay strong! <3

[bleaux42]

@talibilm1 Thank you so much.

[talibilm1]

@bleaux42 Your welcome.

[cirstyaace]

I understand what you mean with using the word 'today..'.

My feelings change on a daily basis. If someone has hurt me, one day my feelings will clarify & I feel it in me to forgive them. Then the next day, I feel overwhelming anger that is just so hard to put into words that I put up walls so high & thick that no one can hear me try to explain it.

It's annoying & confusing, it almost makes you wish that you didn't have any feelings atall.

[bleaux42]

That is it exactly. You got one of those things that I meant in there wiout having to explain it fully. I can forgive and feel sorry for an abuser one day (even one mminute) and then it's gone completely the next; replaced by bitterness and hatred.  I think one of the worse things we can do is deny those feelings. We have to acknowledge and process.

[bleaux42]

@cirstyaace Oh I know...I have become kind of cynical over the years.  I'm tired of being hurt even by people who aren't my family.

[AALisaAA4735]

girl i feel the painn it must bee difficultt ughh i luhv the fact u actually wrotee them but the story is wrenchingg

[xXdyinginside32Xx]

you are so brave, bleaux. i would never be able to forgive my parents if that happened to me... ):

[bleaux42]

I had to. I couldn't move on. The anger just started eating me up. Once I forgave them, I was finally able to move on. But don't let anyone tell you how to forgive. It's personal for all of us. I'm in my 40's. It was hard to do.

[emosinger7]

i am sorry u had to say goodbye to ur parents.

[Totothemonkey]

Thank you for sharing this, I have just come out of hospital and been put on medication to help me cope with things that have happened to me since being a small child, my stepmother is mainly to blame, I have always wanted to say something and this has inspired me to now do something to rid myself of the anger I feel towards my parents.. again thank you for sharing!

[bleaux42]

You're welcome. I hope you find peace.

[amazingbci]

Each and every time I watch your videos I am moved so deeply that I carry your sadness with me where ever I go. I work with children and their adoptive/foster parents, when children like you are lucky enough to have been rescued. But the pain is so deep and nobody really understands, unless they have been there. I am so proud of you. Don't take it down the next day. Don't let your fear make decisions for you. You have already proven how strong you are. Don't give up now.

Love,

Me

[bleaux42]

You know, I still will not watch this video. It's my least favorite. I think it's because I've shown a very vulnerable side and to people I would like to show only strength. Thank you for your comment AND for working with children who have gone through this. It just takes one act of kindness to recharge our hope.

[AALisaAA4735]

wow it made me cryy honestlyy soo saddd

[bleaux42]

*hugs*

[TealiaJade]

This is amazing.

It mad me cry.

It is absolutely inspirational.

But I do not know how you could still love and forgive.

I cannot do that.

Thank you for the amazing video. You are an angel.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. Forgiving is the hardest thing I think I've ever done.

[LizzieBum]

proabbly the best video ive ever watched.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much!

[DeeItsMe]

once again bleaux

you are so brave

a day you forgave

as for us

we must forgive for us

not for them

**Hugs**

[bleaux42]

Exactly. We forgive for us.

[kittysierra]

I love this video so much. It's amazing. I wanted to cry.

[bleaux42]

*hugs*

[smarie210]

I can't stop the tears... you have given a voice to what all of us who have remained silent wish we could say... and for that I thank you.

[bleaux42]

You're welcome.  *hugs*

[theblob34]

keep posting your brave and a good person i cant forgive mine for what they did

[bleaux42]

It's ok to be angry and to hate them. They deserve that and you deserve to process your feelings. Maybe one day you'll want to forgive them and maybe not. It's all your decision. Just know, forgiving does not mean allowing them back in your life to hurt you again. Forgiveness is letting go of them.

[theblob34]

thankyou for your kind words and advice but im afraid that if i cry i will never stop i hurt so much,i have to end this pain is so hard and you are so brave

[bearbytoy]

I just can say one thing ... Admirable! Hope you the best! <3

[JCLYM]

Part of forgivness is giving them something they never deserved, which is your love and wish for their peace. I'm sorry that you had to endure that. I'm sorry that sorry doesn't cut it. I just wish I could hug you, as if it would make anything go away. You are a wonderful person.

[krystalmartinez01]

i wrote a letter to my dad questioning why....your was much nicer.

[bleaux42]

I did that too. It's taken me a long time to realize that I need to just get over being angry and looking for answers because it's holding me back in my healing. I had to finally just let go. I hope you get a better response and outcome.

[jtrujil4]

how do you let go? is it really possible to stop wondering why and to stop looking for some answers?

[bleaux42]

Would you believe 'practice'? I just had to keep trying and failing until one day, it just felt right. It took me a long time to realize that most abusers will never, ever face what they have done enough to give us an answer to 'why' or apologize. Waiting around for that only hurts us.

[imstillpurple]

Yeah, I agree. Yet I'm still spitting anger at my mother on the phone, I don't feel close to her anymore and am feeling more isolated than ever. Ive even started lashing out at friends and becoming really mistrustful, even towards people who are trying to help me.

[koalastephanie]

Beautiful:D

[cwazeychick]

evrnthough i cant realate to your situation it still made me cry

[mchelo18]

Bless you.

[scholarface]

I'm really sorry, good luck and I hope you have a fruitful life ahead .

[johnnys55s]

fighting the tears right now as i amm a survivor of a terrible step father who molested myself & his own daughter , i called the police when this was happening to my sister & nothing was ever done, even after she broke down in school and told her princaple,my mom stayed with him until it suited her to leave ,i beat my step father within an inch of his life then hit him with a hammer & did 2 years in jail for it,a year after my release he was murdered,not by me carol ann sinclair rot in hell!

[FrossetBlod]

This made me cry...

I'm so glad you could forgive your parents. Im not so sure I can forgive mine yet.

Best of luck, and thank you for this video.

[bleaux42]

It's a struggle every day. There are some days I hate myself for posting this video because I'll remember something new. Hang in there. You're a survivor.

[rachanjoe]

how could u ever forgive any 1 for child abuse i will never forgive my stepdad for wat he did i will always hate myself

[bleaux42]

I had to learn to forgive. I doesn't make much sense but at some point the anger started taking control. I was mad at everyone and wanting them to suffer. It ate me up. I had to let go of it.

And forgiving doesn't mean forgetting or allowing that person in your life or for yourself to be abused again.

Still, you work on feeling better yourself. You feel whatever it is you want to feel and don't let anyone tell you that you shouldn't.

[bleaux42]

I'm 40 years old and still pissed off. I have just let a lot of it go because they aren't really a part of my life anymore. They don't deserve it.

[gtzfinestangel]

omg. this vid brings back so many memories. i do hope your parents find peace and that you are eternally blessed for forgiving them.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. I hope they find peace too.

[thesmiths1013]

I know exactly how you feel, as a fellow child abuse survivor

[bleaux42]

*hugs* I'm sorry you had to live through it.

[thesmiths1013]

what a nice comment, bleaux =)

[Laololol]

im crying

[bleaux42]

*hugs*

[litllenike]

wow . hope your feelin better u didnt desrv tht

[bleaux42]

Thank you. :)

[JustAnotherMinute]

I cried, it was so beautiful. God Bless your soul and may you have happyness for eternity.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much!

[18notreally]

First, I want to thank you.

This is beautiful. All your videos are. They're so deep and they really touched me. You express things I feel better than I ever could. You must be very strong to make this. Good luck in the future... and know that you have helped another to heal.

Again, thankyou.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much. That means a lot to me.

[humynism]

What a wonderful video.

How could anyone hurt a person with such a profound soul?

I wish you peace and blessings and all the happiness in the world.

[bleaux42]

Thank you.  :)

[PetitionAgainstAbuse]

you know, you shouldnt have to forgive them and they do not deserve to be loved by you either. the only thing your parents deserve is prison

[bleaux42]

You're right. They don't deserve my forgiveness or love and they do deserve prison. However, I have come to a place where I can give it to them for myself. I cut them out of my life and have moved on. I know who they are and they know it as well. Holding on to the anger I feel for them could make me a bitter person and my goal in life is to become a far better person than they can even perceive.

[misunderstoodagain]

you are so strong...all i feel is bitterness and anger and because i cant take the anger out on the people who've hurt me im slowly killing myself...how have you gotten to where you are,please im running out of answers...x

[bleaux42]

We have to just take it day by day and with hope and faith that things will be better and we deserve better. Most important is we have to work through all the anger. I've been in therapy for a couple of years and it's really helped. *hugs*

[ScotlandChick22]

thats so sad!!!! i was nearly crying!!

[bleaux42]

*hugs*

[TheYety]

That was so touching. I was crying at how emotional and beautiful your words were. I wish you the best of luck with you parents.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. :)

[ilovepiggies]

Oh my gawd, that's so sad... I cried.

[bleaux42]

*hugs*

[magstertv]

I hope you keep this video up forever. I am adding it to my web page. Thank you for expressing these thoughts. Others are watching this video and it is helping others.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. :)

[hybird123456789]

i hope your parents come around

[bleaux42]

I just hope they face up to what they've done at some point of their life.

[aeroland123]

Wow.. this is beautiful

I hope to be this way one day. God bless you.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. :)

[alyssamarie503]

wow this is so deep and im so

happy you were comfortable shring

it i know its hard going through a life

like that when im going

the the exact thing right

now your lucky your already out of this.....

i will be living like this for

a minimum of 3 more years..then

i can be free just like you..hows

the freedom,?

[bleaux42]

My freedom is great. I don't think I could heal from all of this with the distance. I wish you well on your own. :)

[alyssamarie503]

thanks so much and this did help me out a lot

and i want you to keep it up so

you can help more people in the future

it helps me know that there are better things and plans in the future

i just have to wait and see what happens

forgive and forget you know?

[orlyadi]

may your life be full of happiness and not experience this anymore. that must take a lot of courage to do that. i must say i am proud of you. good luck forever

[bleaux42]

Thank you!

[ptsdbpdj]

Thank you so much for sharing your pain in such a beautiful way. Makes me feel not so alone.

[bleaux42]

You're not. *hugs*

[ricardo10101]

you said u were taking it down... it was posted in april... thanks for not taking it down. You have a lot of courage too be so open!

[bleaux42]

I decided to not take it down but it's my least favorite video. I just have good days and bad days in regards to my parents.

[ricardo10101]

i hope your parents come around i really do.

[nyissa64]

Awesome video. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. I admire your courage. :-)

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much. :)

[gretchen1919]

OMG! I know how you feel! When I was little I felt the exact same way. Up until I was 8 I stopped loving and forgiving my parents. Now I won't talk to them and the last time I did I said admit you abused me. They said we did no such thing and that was that. I feel that you're a strong person. You're amazing for putting this up! :)

[bleaux42]

Thank you for sharing this. I think that our abusers are selfish and don't want to be burdered with their guilt. They rather pretend it didn't happen then do the right thing. I cut all contact. I won't allow myself to be around them or people who support them. None of us deserve that. We are adults now and CAN get away.

[luckylady4]

did you ever report it?

[bleaux42]

I tried once, when I was young, but in my case it made things worse. I still believe people should stand up and tell though. The system seems to help more than it use to.

[JointSnipe]

Respect to you for having the guts to talk about all this and just admit that you were abused by your parents.

i wish you all the best in future life man.

[bleaux42]

Thank you!

[beachfrontal]

Somethings one cannot heal, when all is said and done, no one can help you, except yourself, It seems as if you have dusted youreslf, brushed yourself down, and got on with the rest of your life, that is what most of us do, I have no doubt that they loved you too, but their flesh was weak, and you got hurt, Its simplistic,I know, but I think in your video, the love and security you once felt toward your abuser, made you a forgiving person too, Your very Human, your a fine example.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much for those kind and supportive words.

[memoryskill]

Wow! you're so strong and forgiving! Unfortunately, I will never ever say any of these things to the people that I call my "sperm and egg donors turned abusers".

Instead I put tons of energy into building a new life. Today, I am lucky to help people every day feel better, to touch peoples lives and I love my job and my life. My job helps my heal, even though I have never expressed the pain to anyone.

[bleaux42]

I don't feel this every day. In fact, I've not watched this video since I made it. It's so hard to forgive people who continue to abuse and are unremorseful.

I'm glad you've found a place to direct all your healing energies. That is inspirational!

[glasgowtim1888]

u r amazin and that video is very powerful u must have some courage to be able to forgive the people who made ur life hell i hope ui doin alreet and much love from glasgow xxx 5 stars for sure:)

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much!

[berlymom1]

You must be an amazing individual to have that level of compassion! How wonderful to know that your parents could not rob you of your integrity! Well done! May you continue to heal well.

[bleaux42]

Thank you! That is the exact reason I did it. I have to hold myself to much higher standards than they obviously held for themselves. :)

[renthehero]

pretty much the most intense video ever! cryed the whole way through. nicely done

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it and comment.

[dingostar2620]

beautiful... Hope you are doing good, much love from Denmark

[bleaux42]

I get better every day. Thank you so much for your compliment.

[zink220]

why did you leave them were you being abused or something? But that video was great those were all the things i remember doing.

[bleaux42]

Yes, I was abused for a long time and my parents put more energy in hiding what they were doing than fixing themselves.

[PetraLunaPolice]

Just beautiful. 5 stars:)

[bleaux42]

Thank you!

[o0TheNameless0o]

Wow...

I think you did an amazing job of this video and worded it very well. It takes a strong person to say the things you said. Well done, and I hope things are going well for you, love.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much for your compliment. It means a lot ot me.

[babybashlova94]

sad video.

[bleaux42]

But thank you for watching and leaving a comment.

[happyblogger]

Somehow that was really sad and really beautiful at the same time.

[bleaux42]

Thank you. I didn't want it to be so harsh that someone would want to turn away.

[jakesabeast]

that was amazin, please keep it up

[bleaux42]

I am trying to. It requires a lot of alone time to reflect and I don't get much of that. :)

[ProofAngel556]

This is so sad. U did this video really good though. 5 strs.

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much.

[nztrialerror]

Hey, thanks for that video. A "think about it" video. You might be interested to look the video on my YouTube. a video about some children that never got to write letters.

[bleaux42]

Powerful. Thank you for sharing.

[daughterofaking1983]

What a great message i was wondering if i could use your video...i am changing the christian view of child abuse one church at a time.....this message is powerful i was wondering if i could use it...

[TechDeck723]

:'(

[bleaux42]

i <3 u

[MARISSA148]

omg dat so sad

[bleaux42]

Thank you for watching it.

[mardai900]

that is so sad and sweet 4 sayin i luv u

[bleaux42]

Thank you. I'll take all the love I can get. :)

[daniellereneeurie]

omg that was really touching for real. u really shouldnt take this down ever. it words from ur heart adn that was beautiful

[bleaux42]

Thank you so much. :)

[AngelBallantine37]

hey im a younger you .....

i cant let go of the pain if u messesge me ill give you a poem i never had te heart to give to my parent

[bleaux42]

I'll message you. *big hugs*

[HAMMIESMOM]

Please don't take this down. IMPORTANT!