I have color-grapheme and ordinal linguistic personification (which gives the associations gender &personalities) too! I was thinking "no way, 3 is dark blue and definitely male!"
A couple of thoughts: a) some of the commonly reported characteristics of autism do not apply to all of us (i.e. lack of creativity, lack of emotional content in speech), and b) "if you've met one autistic person, you've met one autistic person". You do well in conveying your reality in this video. I wish more autistic African-Americans (I am assuming you are, please correct me if I am wrong) would share their truth and experiences. God bless.
Wow...thank you for sharing this. I have Asperger Syndrome and can relate to some of your experiences. However, I was not diagnosed until 2010, when I was 34 years old, so I went through my childhood and teen years knowing that I was different but not knowing why. (continued in next comment)...
huh its not weird im so good at math and understand how stuff works, its all because of my A typical Autism, i do wish i didnt have A typical Autism though, because of my A typical Autism i might not be able to get a eductation because im struggly really hard to even be able to go 3 days at school each week, so i dropped out of school because i was too much away, i have worked a couple of summers and i function a lot better in work than i do in school, so ill soon get a job though this "program"
I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS when I was 4, but didn't start talking until I've turned 6. I was put into special ed in a few schools while living in the Bronx. It was the hardest years of my life since the 90s. I'm able to start doing things for myself and I'm a college student at SUNY Potsdam. If it wasn't for my family and SOME teachers who believed in me, I would have never made it to 25 years old. BTW, fuck the kids who tortured me when I was young. anyways, great video and good luck!
In the PBS special Music Instinct: Science and Song (check you library or NetFlix) there is a segment on babies crying in octaves. I suspect there is a lot more to human communications than just words and the continued study of it could, like sign language, unlock a communication foundation for the autistic also.
School was a such a bitch for me too. But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. After many years in the customer service industry, I now find myself to be dominate in social situations. I am my store's best sales person when it comes to selling credit cards and reward cards. But there is so much more to accomplish in this world.
I think you are awesome and your abilities are cool. It just takes longer for you to reduce yourself to our level. We should be trying to improve ourselves to your level
I am very proud of you for posting your video about high-functioning autism. I have struggled with this diagnosis my entire 35 years of living, and wonder if this diagnosis is realistic or correct. In spite of these challenges, I currently hold a 4.0 GPA in college and am earning another degree since graduating from college eight years ago. Don't let anything discourage you. Hopefully, you are surrounded by supporters and admirers who are close to you. Don't give up the fight.
Beware the Wikipedia, but seriously i do have high functioning autism. Not totally proud of it, then again its a new challenge every day. I see it as adventure much like traveling and its good 2 understand wat ive got ;P
@MrBagmon Lol, that Wikipedia. I tried to employ a little sarcasm when I said "all-knowing", because even though Wikipedia can be very useful at times, it's not the best research tool due to the way it acquires its information.
You are a bright and beautiful woman. Thank you for posting this. You are very brave and I wish you all the best! Also don't say "somehow" your husband developed a crush on you. It's quite obvious you are beautiful both inside and out.
I hate the fact that I was in my Mid 30's by the time I finally discovered/diagnosed with High Functioning Autism. I cannot describe how much intence anger this causes me to the point of emotional explosian. I have lost out on so Gawdamned much that, other asshnole ingrates take for granted. I can accept missing out in the past, it's water under the bridge. But, I won't accept the fact that I have to continue to lose out on opportunities, career stuff, fun, and comradery in the here and now.
@narutofightindreamer That's exactly how i felt when i found out but i was fortunate enough to find out before that age, i can't imagine how irritating that must be
Watching all these different videos from other autistic people is inspiring, i feel less alone :) Nobody diagnosed me with asperger's syndrome at a young age, i felt the crippling anxiety and exclusion from peer groups until i figured it out myself and got diagnosed at 17. I'm 18 tomorrow and i have ambition to become a rapper.
I'm in no way neurotypical, diss me cause i'm different YOU'RE too typical!
@TheBabystorm He is my Husband now, actually. I didn't try. In fact, I had "given up" trying to find a partner. Somehow, he developed a crush on me, then build up the nerve to ask me out on a date, and we fell in love. Love works in mysterious ways.
@CleverGenevieve I'm glad that happens to you. I wish it would happen for me. I give up trying and I have yet seen anybody developed a crush on me and ask me out. Maybe it's because I'm a dude and it's much harder for us guys to ask somebody out. It takes courage.
The most common -and worsh- prejudges about us Aspies is that we "don't give a shit about other people AT ALL"! People think that we have no emotions and we cannot love or care about other people! Note: I am also a diagnosed Aspie (High-Functioning Autistic Individual) but my skills at Maths really sucks (I nearly can't make a division with a two-figurres) and I was rarely lost even in unknown places! Also I never use the same route backwards (if I don't have to) and I love making cyrcles!
what type of high form of autism do you got cause I was diagnosed with Aspergers at age 13 and i'm 22 now and check out my channel all though i'm goin' to warn now most of whats on there is not pretty
That being said, I even used to flap my arms like you because of my tourrettes. I don't know why I'm saying all of this; but you seem like a cool person. :)
My best friend from preschool had aspergers; I didn't really understand it when we were little, but I like to think that I was nice to him. I've always been impressed by smart people, and he used big words. Sometimes he'd get annoying, but I understand now. It's always fascinated me, and I wish that I stayed in contact with him.
I have both OCD and tourrettes, and while not autistic, I've had social issues before. I totally get what you feel when you got made fun of and didn't even understand.
I do not have any food allergies, although recently it seems as if I am developing Lactose intolerance. :(
As for learning disabilities and behavioral problems, I have trouble learning how to socialize of course, and when I was younger my biggest behavioral problem I guess would be screaming and crying if my routine was disrupted.
We have a lot in common. Especially the teasing and high level vocabulary. I have been in advanced classes, with a college reading level by 4th grade. I have become a tutor to my friends, and I often have to explain things to them. My obsession is psychology, and I self diagnosed myself with Aspergers at 13. I wasn't officially diagnosed until I made my mom get me a psychologist at the age of 14. Also, I have a stutter, and I cut people off in conversation, making social situations difficult.
I too have high functioning autism; the Asperger's type. Thank you for making this video. Like one of the problems you have encountered; and this is true: Autism or HFA (does not equal) retardation or MR. You have mentioned having a boyfriend, congratulations. I am happily married. Romance normally comes very hard for us auties, and I am no exception.
Congrats. Me and you have alot in common. My mother had me go to speech therapy when I was younger because I had a Lazy Tongue. I started reading at a college level at age 7, I have always been smarter than everyone else. I learned how to read social cues for when people are uninterested in me but it causes me to over-react and amplifies my limited social skills. I do shorten my sentences so people are always asking me to elaborate. Thanks for posting your video.
Have you watched my second Autism video yet? I have it linked in the description bar. You'll get more details and more insight about my Autism. :) And while you're at it, watch my other Autism video, titled "The Way I Communicate." Even more insight and details.
Please tell me you are only joking! I don't much like stereotypes.
But for the record I have memorized pi up to five decimal places. Not much, as mathematics is not my special interest. :) Now ask me about black holes! You'll be in for a long lecture.
@CleverGenevieve Well I ask because I have aspie traits and I have not been diagnosed, but i do know Pi up to 90 decimal places and i know lots of random information, actually i know a little about black holes,but its just to show that all aspies have different interests,Which is perfectly normal.
@CleverGenevieve Im only interested in nonfiction, but yah alot of my friends have aspie traits , its almost as if aspies have a sixth sense for other aspies. When young people though i was weird and said I walk like a robot. So aspergers could be the explanation.
Have you ever read about Temple Grandin the famous Autistic PHD that totally revolutionized the meat industry in this country? She is an amazing engineer. Read her papers if you have a chance. I believe there is also a movie based on her life. Oh and Oliver Sacks has some really interesting books on this subject matter and more. Cheers :)
I do not like distinguishing between high and low functioning autism. It is every bit as inappropriate as classifying NT based on their intelligence. And the level of functioning is based on a NT expectations for value in life. Autistics are very sensitive to their upbringing. I could easily have become incompetent, or have finished college when most people would still be in high school if I had been brought up differently. As it is, I am somewhat normal.
@AllOtherNamesTaken2 Hm, you present a very good point. I've often thought about the distinction between various levels of functionality within the Autistic community. Like you, I could also easily have been incompetent if I'd been raised differently. Unfortunately, I can't speak for those who- by NT standards- are not, since I don't have the personal experience.
But I do believe everyone born has a equal value in life, no matter what level at which they function. :) Thank you for your comment!
I found out my son has PDD autism, I just took 2 quizes for myself since I thought I had alot of the symptoms to a lesser degree. On both quizes it places me at high functioning. I am great at math and have a gifted IQ.
CleverGenevieve,girl u are good as how u are,having autistic problems in socity is just giving yourself that little extra that u dont have as an autistic person to release yourself from it and be socialy like the rest.I know were u talk about cause i have a light form of autism myself and just take this from me,stop thinking about what others think of autism why should u care if they are only negative about it?.fuck those assholes,i have alot respect for you.
@TheImmortalia Believe me, I don't think much about what others think of me at all anymore. I stopped caring several years ago. :D Luckily, I have found several wonderful individuals who embrace who I am, quirks and all.
To me and to these people, high-functioning autism is not a "problem" at all! Just a difference. Have you watched my second Autism video, which is linked at the end of this one and in the description? You'll hear more about what I personally think about my "condition."
Have you ever considered doing professional speaking engagements about your experiences. Please read up on Temple Grandin. I believe you might find her very interesting.
@yamiyugifangirl i kno right everytime i tell people my lil bruh's autistic they're like "oh he can draw?" makes u wonder who the real mentally disabled people are
I'm begining to understand that I'm a high -functioning autistic. I am a little differnet as it seems all are. This is the biggest landmark in understanding myself. So much of my life all of a suden is begining to make sense.
Hi! This was a very informative video. Thank you for sharing your experiences with high functioning autism. I am doing a project that involves giving a test to children with autism in order to determine the effectiveness of certain treatment methods. If you know any individuals with high functioning autism who are within the ages of 9-13, please let me know by posting a comment on my channel. If you go to my channel, please ignore my uploaded video. It does not reflect my current project.
Thank you for your video ! I was born back in 1962, back then autism was not medically understood! So the doctors and my foster parents did not know what was wrong with me,so I was never properly diagnosed with autism but when I heard you on this video(and some of your other videos) about yourself growing up You have described me! perfectly!!!.So thank you for helping me to put a name on what I have been living with all of my life! I respect your courage! Landy
i find it hard to believe that you have autism - but i know that there are many different levels of functionability for you "condition" - have you looked at the work of Gary Null who is able to reverse autism ??? he works with many other natural based doctors and does great work!!
I have read about his research... but you should watch my second autism video (linked at the end of this vid as well as in the description bar), It gives a bit more insight about my personal opinion about my "condition". ;)
Thanks for the nice and informative video. The only thing that was difficult was that it sounded kind of fuzzy or indistinct. But it was still very nice.
My son is 4 and has High Functioning Autism. Videos like this help me to understand him better. One day he will be able to tell me these things but until then this is a huge help. Thanks!
I think I might have HFA. I tend to concentrate on the trivial things, such as someone lighting a cigarette,blowing bubble gum, and other stuff over important things like what they are saying,eye contact,facial expression, I tended to ignore. I appear completely unemotional,have tourette syndrome, and have obsessive interest, and am prone to routines. As a toddler, I would stare at tires all the time. Life is hard on us autistics,living in a world we will never fit into...
I'll never forget my meltdown involving me ending in crying when I was in boot camp in the Navy. I remember all I had wanted to do was be useful and I had failed to do that even in the armed forces. My failures seem to reflect me for whom I am. I can only hope that one day I will find something I will be successful at. I was thinking research. What about yourself what are you hoping to excel at specifically as a career?
It's always difficult to try to be something you're not. I found that when I finally stopped trying to be "normal", the frequency of my meltdowns significantly diminished. Now I rarely ever have one.
Right now, I am interested in Photography. Not as a professional career, but more as a hobby, maybe selling good prints on the side. I've decided that I would much rather be a housewife than working some customer service job.
My little brother is like you. He has Aspergers. He is crazy smart but need a lot of direction. He could do college lve. algerbra in his head, in 10th grade, but failed beginners ablg. because he did not show his work. The same with bio and chem. But he got into the Marines and was in Iraq. No one knew that he was different. You are awesome!
You are a very, beautiful woman. But autism is much more common in males. Okay, anyway I have HFA and I'm due to have my first book published around Jan 2011 which covers my experiences in life.
I think you are very gifted and very special. I think many highly gifted attractive people have a "condition" I have very poor math skills and always have. I nearly failed it every time. Yet my IQ is 129. I have always been shy and had poor social skills but I am artistic and do quite well with singing acting dancing and creative writing. My b/f has mixed receptive expressice disorder. He didn't talk until age 4 or older! But he is very creative very attractive and a very perceptive person.
I am so amazed by your experience of high-functioning autism, because I also have the same condition as you. You gave a motivating information about this circumstances.
I, like you, struggle with eye contact, it is probably my worst symptom of Autism. Although I am highly confident, as soon as someone looks me in the eye I feel incredibly uncomfortable and it seems as if I am possessed because I want to look back but I can't. I have an over developed frontal lobe in my brain as well so I over think everything that I see, hear, read, watch, and my thoughts just keep racing all the time, and most of the time I am so anxious I realise I keep holding my breath.
Hello, I am really glad I watched this! I have struggled my whole life with High Functioning Autism, Dyspraxia, Attention Deficit Disorder and mild Dyslexia (although my Dyslexia has greatly improved over the last few years). I had a very difficult life at home and was bullied, so therefore had a number of severe mental health problems and physical medical conditions also! I understand your frustration at the generalisation that Autistics are un intelligent. I have a few similarities to you!
i know this is irrelevant , but youre so pretty!! im not sure why but most autistic people are very pretty! my sister is autistic as well and shes the prettiest!
I have High Functioning Autism and when i was younger i never made eye contact until i was 7 or 8 now im 13 and make full eye contact and nobody even knows im autistic :)
Thank you for posting this and letting others know what it is like to be autistic:) Your a beautiful girl and express yourself very well!
I have a very talent high functioning daughter and she is doing well in 3rd grade mainstreamed..she had lots of ABA therapy and Speech therapy that really helped her overcome most of her issues from autism. Now we are working on the social aspect..its the hardest to learn. Best wishes to you in life!
This is very good. You say a lot of good things. I appreciate your honesty. You are good at speaking. I don't think I could speak that well to a camera (not to mention a person). Thanks for the video.
Interesting. Your story sounds familiar to mines. I never really gave it a thought though. I was diagnosed with ADD, I was put into special "ed". I became obsessed with the words in book. I loved the way the words made me feel.
I noticed I excelled in sports, or repetitive movements or activities
But with all honesty alot of people self diagnosed based on what sounds good subconsciously to them, they will read up on and soak up those traits.
Then you should watch the video response "Part 2" video that I link to in the annotations as well as the sidebar. :)
Self-diagnosis can seem a little fishy when someone who obviously isn't Autistic labels his/herself so. Few such people exist, luckily. But usually, most self-diagnosed who are serious about it have their suspicions later confirmed by a professional.
@aky19832001 i agreewith both of you- there is relly no real biological marker for ADD so it can't really be calle a disease or even a condition- i am an artist and i never paid attention in cass - i would draw on the desk or bang on it to make up a rhythm- like you both i've performed at the top of my class t many times- i used to work fot the dept. of ed and the truth is that when it comes to diagnosing kids there is no kid in the world who CAN'T be labelled unless they are robots!!!
Your experience sounded amazingly similar to my own situation. I tended to socialize far more with teachers and adults than I did with my own peers when I was younger. When marginalized, my parents used to say the exact same things like "They're jealous." or "You're just at a higher level than they are. Eventually they'll catch up."
Thanks for posting. It was nice to hear your perspective on the matter.
My brother has Autism Spectrum. He has melt downs all the time, usually in the store or somewhere in public. People look at us like we're crazy. I see people looking at my brother and whispering, and it really bothers me.
I mean, he talks in complete sentences, he can read and spell...how is he so different? I mean yeah he embarass' us sometimes, but still.
A lot of the time, I feel like the girl in the book 'Rules' who has an autistic little brother...
why does it seem that all people with autism love cats? I'm not talking about you alone, just many, many autistic people I've been around and that have posted on WP about their love for cats.
Cats are something that alot of us can relate to. We're quiet, solitary, curious creatures, just like cats. Cats have plenty of quirks that people just don't understand, just like Aspies/Auties.
Cats can be persnickety, and be oversensitive to seemingly trivial things, while almost oblivious to big things.
So many other things too, cats and spectumers have so much in common.
thank you for the quick reply. I'm still having trouble understanding this, though - I mean, how can you equate the actions of an animal to the actions of a human? humans react to their environments actively and cognitively, and animals react to their environment based on predisposed notions. also, how can you "relate" to something with which you can't speak? don't take my questions the wrong way, I'm only curious about autism. my youngest brother is on the spectrum.
Humans use more instinct than alot of people realize. It just the fact that humans are able to rationalize that instinct that makes it seem like a cognitive choice.
Also, humans use alot of non-verbal communication; not everything they communicate is with words.
Well, so do cats. In fact, the vast majority of their communication is non-verbal. Interact with a cat, and they will "speak" profusely. Many Auties find a cat's communication easier to understand than that of a human's.
well i think that people act based on predisposed development more than most people think
imagine if u will a brussel sprout, a person could cognitively think that the sprout contains vitamins that are good for them, but if they had eaten a sprout in a previous experience and found it tasted bad then their predisposed notions of that experience would instinctively repel them from eating it this time
You seem to have a rather narrow view of what the Autistic Spectrum consists of. I am *High Functioning*. I can function in society. I can intellectually LEARN some nonverbal communication, and use it effectively. But I rarely ever learn it intuitively, as NTs do.
That is why you can observe me using various tones of voice, some facial expression, and gestures. I worked hard to function how I do today.
It's a difficult facade to maintain. You should see me when that facade finally drops.
@theomer1 Kind of a misperception. They can still learn those things though they are placed in a different area of the brain. Unlike most people where these things come natural, autistic people have to learn them consciously, so their movements may seem robotic. Although after time they may become more relaxed with it.
I am probably HFA. I have been diagnosed as "near-Asperger's" as a child: always quiet, often teased and with certain subjects I focus on. I am 30 and have never had a girlfriend. In some ways I don't really care about it but I do get lonely. Genevieve, how do you handle having a boyfriend?
i'm a high functioning autistic. i wish i had pride in it but i always feel like people can tell i'm autistic and they all talk down to me because i'm so quiet. i'm more quiet in a way like i only speak when i'm spoken to (like a dog, sometimes i feel like one) but yeah. how do i feel more confident about being autistic
First, stop caring about what other people think about you. Start caring about what you think of yourself. You may be experiencing "projection". You "project" your feelings about yourself onto other people.
Instead, think positively about yourself, and maybe, you will percieve positivity from others. Look that up.
Being quiet is a good thing! There is nothing wrong with speaking only when spoken to. Untrained dogs bark all the time, not just when beckoned. You are certainly no dog.
very interesting :O I'm amazed with how you talk. It's almost robotically grammatical, as if you are imagining all the grammatical rules inside your head as your speaking. You also seem to be a very sensitive person. Thanks for your video and your experiences and perspective about the world :) !
Yow! You're my new Heroine! Your description of your life, except for the synthesia (and the fact that you're a cute girl and I'm just some dude), is identical with mine. I'm Old School though: when I did the round of doctors no one had ever heard of autism except wrt low IQs. So it was just assumed to be "character flaws". Later I did a lot of research to dig up Dr. Asperger's work and so on so I could educate them but I doubt that it had even a percent of the effect of one of your videos.
i found this really interesting. some of it sounds like what i go through as a highly ADHD person. i know that what i had to go through, and continue to go through, is nothing compared to what you must have had to go through, but i still found it interesting to see the parallels
... not to mention analytical, logical, literal, quiet, solitary, curious, inquisitive, creative, active, and highly intelligent, and probably a lot more.
I'm very proud of the Autism I've been blessed with, and I wouldn't change a thing about myself! :)
@allfeddup well I just want you to know you are not alone. I feel the same way. I think it's important to try to overcome the nervousness with friends because afterall they do like you :)
my son is high functioning autism please check our channel ... but i still neeed HELP !! alot of work and it can be stressfull and not much support here cause most people deny that there kids are one or hide them ....
At least u started talking at 2.5 years old, I only started talking around about 4 years, I used to be alot worse than this, now im pretty much almost normal but few things still bother me about it, i still can't stand some loud noises, have this weird fear of balloons, i do kinda flap like what u do.... Can I ask you something? Do you in some ways enjoy being autistic? If u do, do u have any tips of how to overcome it? Cause sometimes i have days when i wish i wasn't like this....
How did I overcome the difficulties? Well, I made accomodations for myself, to adapt to the NT world. If you hate loud noises, wear noise-canceling headphones. I hate textures of certain fabrics, so I avoid wearing them.
Remember, you are not completely disabled. You do have disadvantages, for sure, but you also have advantages that NTs may not have.
Use those advantages to the fullest, and find a way to adapt to make your disadvantages less disabling.
how did you find out that you have high-functioning autism? because i am very interested in doing the test myself. I have so much things in common with you- except certain aspects like being good with numbers- instead- my teachers would say i am highly talented in philosophy etc(Geislichewissenschaft- if you know german that is... i'm not a german though lol this word seems adequate)ironically, even though i am good with picking up new languages, i also have problem with taking words literally.
Well, although I was diagnosed at eight, I didn't find out until I was 13, at an IEP (Individualized Education Program) meeting. My Case Manager showed me the papers, and in the papers was typed, in bold letters, "Autism". There are a few online tests that can give you an idea of where you are on the Autistic spectrum. Of course, if you want an official diagnosis, it's best to see a professional.
oh my god i was diagnoased at that age, and that is the same age i found out about mine... i did remember how gutted my parents was.... oww!! :( but they were confused if i was just autistic or aspergers....
Ive always been smart but had trouble making friends when i was younger, ive seemed to work around my awkwardness now though... not sure if that was anything like autism. i sort of just pretend to be cool even though on the inside i feel insecure.
I have a large amount of your experiences, except being good at math. I was really good at science and reading/writing. I had the same feeling with paper, am very literal and have the same eye contact problem. I was also excluded all the time in school, singled out as an outcast. but i do not believe i have autism, i do not know.The number 2 is blue? it seems to me
Oops, sorry. The answer to your question is: I do sometimes feel like I'm about to cry when I am out in public. Luckily, I am able to hold it in until I am finally in a private area.
Ever have any out-of-the-ordinary things happen in your life?
Do you wonder about the difference between consensus reality & true reality?
Do you long for connecting with souls on a profound, deep level, and find shallow things difficult to discuss?
You mentioned having a break-down. Do you ever feel like you're about to cry when you're in public, like your so sad and it's obvious from your expression?
The lat time my IQ was tested was when I was 10 years old. It was 139.
I believe I am very honest, way more honest than all the people I know. I hate lying. My fiancé and I have had some deep, detailed discussions about consensus reality and true reality.
I do find shallow things difficult to discuss, although I am not sure what it means to "connect with souls on a profound, deep level." If that means find a soul-mate, then I believe I have already done so.
I usually cry out of frustration, rather than sadness. Frustration causes a painful amount of pressure behind my eyes and in my head, and releasing tears relieves that pressure.
Tears usually come without any visible warnings, so my feelings wouldn't be very obvious unless you knew me very well.
I get frustrated due to changes in arranged plans or routine, overstimulation, and communication difficulties.
That's not a speech delay. Looks normal to me. Some normal kids start talking at age two also. Single words at age two, complete sentences by age three as said in the AS criteria as an example of no speech delay. Doctors.
well can you drive? have you gone to college? how do you know you have autism? is it just sounds that cause sensitivity? what can you not do because of autism?
I am not legally allowed to drive by myself yet; However, I do have my learner's permit, and I am in the process of learning how to drive. It is difficult, but I am learning slowly and steadily.
I am currently attending a college, but will be transferring to a Culinary School, as cooking is my passion.
I am sensitive to some sounds, such as children screaming and machines beeping. I am also sensitive to textures, such as microfiber, and paper. They are nearly painful to the touch.
What can I *not* do? Hmmm, I don't believe there is anything that my High-Functioning Autism has made impossible for me. Granted, some things are made alot more difficult, such as socializing, but I can do it in small doses.
How do I know I have Autism? Well, I have an official diagnosis of course! Diagnosed by my psychiatrist around the age of eight, and "Autism" is in all of my school IEP documents.
Oh ok.. thanks, but do you know if it's possible for someone to be a high-functioning autistic and never have had a diagnoses? Like someone going through school and everything and no one picking up on them being autistic yet they are?
I have color-grapheme and ordinal linguistic personification (which gives the associations gender &personalities) too! I was thinking "no way, 3 is dark blue and definitely male!"
FuzzyWeekendSocks 1 week ago
A couple of thoughts: a) some of the commonly reported characteristics of autism do not apply to all of us (i.e. lack of creativity, lack of emotional content in speech), and b) "if you've met one autistic person, you've met one autistic person". You do well in conveying your reality in this video. I wish more autistic African-Americans (I am assuming you are, please correct me if I am wrong) would share their truth and experiences. God bless.
ravenswingpoetry 2 weeks ago
Wow...thank you for sharing this. I have Asperger Syndrome and can relate to some of your experiences. However, I was not diagnosed until 2010, when I was 34 years old, so I went through my childhood and teen years knowing that I was different but not knowing why. (continued in next comment)...
ravenswingpoetry 2 weeks ago
huh its not weird im so good at math and understand how stuff works, its all because of my A typical Autism, i do wish i didnt have A typical Autism though, because of my A typical Autism i might not be able to get a eductation because im struggly really hard to even be able to go 3 days at school each week, so i dropped out of school because i was too much away, i have worked a couple of summers and i function a lot better in work than i do in school, so ill soon get a job though this "program"
1PSYTEX1 3 weeks ago
I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS when I was 4, but didn't start talking until I've turned 6. I was put into special ed in a few schools while living in the Bronx. It was the hardest years of my life since the 90s. I'm able to start doing things for myself and I'm a college student at SUNY Potsdam. If it wasn't for my family and SOME teachers who believed in me, I would have never made it to 25 years old. BTW, fuck the kids who tortured me when I was young. anyways, great video and good luck!
MusicOfTheSystem 1 month ago
We are never alone and well I so FEEl you for same for me too and my sons ....Great for sharing our thunderdome world LOL :D
pmskyV 2 months ago
COOL POSTER!!! I LOVE KITTIES & HEELS; PERFECT!!
aimeela 2 months ago
In the PBS special Music Instinct: Science and Song (check you library or NetFlix) there is a segment on babies crying in octaves. I suspect there is a lot more to human communications than just words and the continued study of it could, like sign language, unlock a communication foundation for the autistic also.
usmcoth 2 months ago
School was a such a bitch for me too. But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. After many years in the customer service industry, I now find myself to be dominate in social situations. I am my store's best sales person when it comes to selling credit cards and reward cards. But there is so much more to accomplish in this world.
Scott89878 3 months ago
Holy crap!!!! Can you look at colors and represent them as numbers? Like the reverse...
kayele 3 months ago
@kayele No, lol. I bet someone could though. :)
CleverGenevieve 3 months ago
I think you are awesome and your abilities are cool. It just takes longer for you to reduce yourself to our level. We should be trying to improve ourselves to your level
kayele 3 months ago
I am very proud of you for posting your video about high-functioning autism. I have struggled with this diagnosis my entire 35 years of living, and wonder if this diagnosis is realistic or correct. In spite of these challenges, I currently hold a 4.0 GPA in college and am earning another degree since graduating from college eight years ago. Don't let anything discourage you. Hopefully, you are surrounded by supporters and admirers who are close to you. Don't give up the fight.
MikeyMcCrashCap 3 months ago
Yes, 3 is yellow, but 7 is pink, and 9 is dark brown ( 1 is white, 2 is black, 4 is dark green, 8 is royal blue -I don't 5). I'm serious.
loai050 3 months ago
Beware the Wikipedia, but seriously i do have high functioning autism. Not totally proud of it, then again its a new challenge every day. I see it as adventure much like traveling and its good 2 understand wat ive got ;P
MrBagmon 3 months ago
@MrBagmon Lol, that Wikipedia. I tried to employ a little sarcasm when I said "all-knowing", because even though Wikipedia can be very useful at times, it's not the best research tool due to the way it acquires its information.
CleverGenevieve 3 months ago
You are a bright and beautiful woman. Thank you for posting this. You are very brave and I wish you all the best! Also don't say "somehow" your husband developed a crush on you. It's quite obvious you are beautiful both inside and out.
dyndor 4 months ago
@dyndor Thank you so much!
CleverGenevieve 4 months ago
I hate the fact that I was in my Mid 30's by the time I finally discovered/diagnosed with High Functioning Autism. I cannot describe how much intence anger this causes me to the point of emotional explosian. I have lost out on so Gawdamned much that, other asshnole ingrates take for granted. I can accept missing out in the past, it's water under the bridge. But, I won't accept the fact that I have to continue to lose out on opportunities, career stuff, fun, and comradery in the here and now.
narutofightindreamer 4 months ago
@narutofightindreamer That's exactly how i felt when i found out but i was fortunate enough to find out before that age, i can't imagine how irritating that must be
youwhatyoulose 4 months ago
Watching all these different videos from other autistic people is inspiring, i feel less alone :) Nobody diagnosed me with asperger's syndrome at a young age, i felt the crippling anxiety and exclusion from peer groups until i figured it out myself and got diagnosed at 17. I'm 18 tomorrow and i have ambition to become a rapper.
I'm in no way neurotypical, diss me cause i'm different YOU'RE too typical!
youwhatyoulose 4 months ago
thnx for the video
meylisINTP 5 months ago
u have a boyfriend how? i'm still trying.
TheBabystorm 5 months ago
@TheBabystorm He is my Husband now, actually. I didn't try. In fact, I had "given up" trying to find a partner. Somehow, he developed a crush on me, then build up the nerve to ask me out on a date, and we fell in love. Love works in mysterious ways.
CleverGenevieve 5 months ago 4
@CleverGenevieve thanks lol!
TheBabystorm 5 months ago
@CleverGenevieve I'm glad that happens to you. I wish it would happen for me. I give up trying and I have yet seen anybody developed a crush on me and ask me out. Maybe it's because I'm a dude and it's much harder for us guys to ask somebody out. It takes courage.
dariushenry88 5 months ago
i mislf am high functionin autism as wel an mi life ws afected in al areas thnk u fr doin ths video
Autismo1947 5 months ago
The most common -and worsh- prejudges about us Aspies is that we "don't give a shit about other people AT ALL"! People think that we have no emotions and we cannot love or care about other people! Note: I am also a diagnosed Aspie (High-Functioning Autistic Individual) but my skills at Maths really sucks (I nearly can't make a division with a two-figurres) and I was rarely lost even in unknown places! Also I never use the same route backwards (if I don't have to) and I love making cyrcles!
Peristerygr 5 months ago
* division with two figures divisors!
Peristerygr 5 months ago
Finally, a place where I can say I am autistic without being shunned!
MinecraftMonster10 6 months ago
what type of high form of autism do you got cause I was diagnosed with Aspergers at age 13 and i'm 22 now and check out my channel all though i'm goin' to warn now most of whats on there is not pretty
extrememushroomhead 6 months ago
@extrememushroomhead I was diagnosed with Autism.
CleverGenevieve 6 months ago
That being said, I even used to flap my arms like you because of my tourrettes. I don't know why I'm saying all of this; but you seem like a cool person. :)
KnightOfLightning 7 months ago
My best friend from preschool had aspergers; I didn't really understand it when we were little, but I like to think that I was nice to him. I've always been impressed by smart people, and he used big words. Sometimes he'd get annoying, but I understand now. It's always fascinated me, and I wish that I stayed in contact with him.
I have both OCD and tourrettes, and while not autistic, I've had social issues before. I totally get what you feel when you got made fun of and didn't even understand.
KnightOfLightning 7 months ago
@azefilippo Have you seen my other Autism video? You can find the link to it in the description bar.
CleverGenevieve 7 months ago
@CleverGenevieve Do you have any food allergies or learning disabilities? When you were younger did you have any behavioral problems? Any ocd?
Laguiri88 7 months ago
@Laguiri88
I do not have any food allergies, although recently it seems as if I am developing Lactose intolerance. :(
As for learning disabilities and behavioral problems, I have trouble learning how to socialize of course, and when I was younger my biggest behavioral problem I guess would be screaming and crying if my routine was disrupted.
CleverGenevieve 7 months ago
We have a lot in common. Especially the teasing and high level vocabulary. I have been in advanced classes, with a college reading level by 4th grade. I have become a tutor to my friends, and I often have to explain things to them. My obsession is psychology, and I self diagnosed myself with Aspergers at 13. I wasn't officially diagnosed until I made my mom get me a psychologist at the age of 14. Also, I have a stutter, and I cut people off in conversation, making social situations difficult.
rachelsaunicorn 8 months ago
I too have high functioning autism; the Asperger's type. Thank you for making this video. Like one of the problems you have encountered; and this is true: Autism or HFA (does not equal) retardation or MR. You have mentioned having a boyfriend, congratulations. I am happily married. Romance normally comes very hard for us auties, and I am no exception.
healthmusic 9 months ago
@healthmusic Thanks. I am now happily married to the "boyfriend" mentioned in this video. :) I am so lucky to have someone as wonderful as he.
CleverGenevieve 9 months ago
@CleverGenevieve That is great. I love my wife very much
healthmusic 8 months ago
Congrats. Me and you have alot in common. My mother had me go to speech therapy when I was younger because I had a Lazy Tongue. I started reading at a college level at age 7, I have always been smarter than everyone else. I learned how to read social cues for when people are uninterested in me but it causes me to over-react and amplifies my limited social skills. I do shorten my sentences so people are always asking me to elaborate. Thanks for posting your video.
SassyJazzyGurl 9 months ago
You don't seem like your autistic at all.
musicgirl999 9 months ago
@musicgirl999
Have you watched my second Autism video yet? I have it linked in the description bar. You'll get more details and more insight about my Autism. :) And while you're at it, watch my other Autism video, titled "The Way I Communicate." Even more insight and details.
CleverGenevieve 9 months ago
@CleverGenevieve I already saw it last night, actually.
musicgirl999 9 months ago
@musicgirl999 pardon my french, but are you deaf? do you not hear the way she talks?
hippiechickie18 8 months ago
question for all aspies. How many numbers of PI do you have memorized.
straightupmenace 10 months ago
@straightupmenace
Please tell me you are only joking! I don't much like stereotypes.
But for the record I have memorized pi up to five decimal places. Not much, as mathematics is not my special interest. :) Now ask me about black holes! You'll be in for a long lecture.
CleverGenevieve 10 months ago
@CleverGenevieve Well I ask because I have aspie traits and I have not been diagnosed, but i do know Pi up to 90 decimal places and i know lots of random information, actually i know a little about black holes,but its just to show that all aspies have different interests,Which is perfectly normal.
straightupmenace 10 months ago
@straightupmenace
Okay! :) One of my Autie friends knows a lot about The Sims, and Harry Potter.
CleverGenevieve 10 months ago
@CleverGenevieve Im only interested in nonfiction, but yah alot of my friends have aspie traits , its almost as if aspies have a sixth sense for other aspies. When young people though i was weird and said I walk like a robot. So aspergers could be the explanation.
straightupmenace 10 months ago
sorry for all those mean kids you had to deal with as a child : ) . You are great!!
jayel71 10 months ago
Have you ever read about Temple Grandin the famous Autistic PHD that totally revolutionized the meat industry in this country? She is an amazing engineer. Read her papers if you have a chance. I believe there is also a movie based on her life. Oh and Oliver Sacks has some really interesting books on this subject matter and more. Cheers :)
FULLOOKKK 1 year ago
I do not like distinguishing between high and low functioning autism. It is every bit as inappropriate as classifying NT based on their intelligence. And the level of functioning is based on a NT expectations for value in life. Autistics are very sensitive to their upbringing. I could easily have become incompetent, or have finished college when most people would still be in high school if I had been brought up differently. As it is, I am somewhat normal.
AllOtherNamesTaken2 1 year ago
@AllOtherNamesTaken2 Hm, you present a very good point. I've often thought about the distinction between various levels of functionality within the Autistic community. Like you, I could also easily have been incompetent if I'd been raised differently. Unfortunately, I can't speak for those who- by NT standards- are not, since I don't have the personal experience.
But I do believe everyone born has a equal value in life, no matter what level at which they function. :) Thank you for your comment!
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago 3
@AllOtherNamesTaken2 the,socalled,""normal,people,are,also,not,the,same,level,
mollysangelique 11 months ago
I found out my son has PDD autism, I just took 2 quizes for myself since I thought I had alot of the symptoms to a lesser degree. On both quizes it places me at high functioning. I am great at math and have a gifted IQ.
lulu2dani 1 year ago
CleverGenevieve,girl u are good as how u are,having autistic problems in socity is just giving yourself that little extra that u dont have as an autistic person to release yourself from it and be socialy like the rest.I know were u talk about cause i have a light form of autism myself and just take this from me,stop thinking about what others think of autism why should u care if they are only negative about it?.fuck those assholes,i have alot respect for you.
TheImmortalia 1 year ago
@TheImmortalia Believe me, I don't think much about what others think of me at all anymore. I stopped caring several years ago. :D Luckily, I have found several wonderful individuals who embrace who I am, quirks and all.
To me and to these people, high-functioning autism is not a "problem" at all! Just a difference. Have you watched my second Autism video, which is linked at the end of this one and in the description? You'll hear more about what I personally think about my "condition."
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
Have you ever considered doing professional speaking engagements about your experiences. Please read up on Temple Grandin. I believe you might find her very interesting.
haileyalexis709 1 year ago
It's nice to know there's someone out there that also as High Functioning autism. I'm the only one in my family that has it ^^;
And you see numbers in colors? wow o.o
It gets sort of tiring to explain what autism is to those that never heard of it before though -.-
yamiyugifangirl 1 year ago
@yamiyugifangirl i kno right everytime i tell people my lil bruh's autistic they're like "oh he can draw?" makes u wonder who the real mentally disabled people are
IamNisey 1 year ago
Thank you!
I'm begining to understand that I'm a high -functioning autistic. I am a little differnet as it seems all are. This is the biggest landmark in understanding myself. So much of my life all of a suden is begining to make sense.
cyclenut 1 year ago
Hi! This was a very informative video. Thank you for sharing your experiences with high functioning autism. I am doing a project that involves giving a test to children with autism in order to determine the effectiveness of certain treatment methods. If you know any individuals with high functioning autism who are within the ages of 9-13, please let me know by posting a comment on my channel. If you go to my channel, please ignore my uploaded video. It does not reflect my current project.
crystalviolet9999 1 year ago
She is everything Chris Chan is not. Two distinct examples of successful and unsuccessful autistics.
jcrowley1985 1 year ago
Thank you for your video ! I was born back in 1962, back then autism was not medically understood! So the doctors and my foster parents did not know what was wrong with me,so I was never properly diagnosed with autism but when I heard you on this video(and some of your other videos) about yourself growing up You have described me! perfectly!!!.So thank you for helping me to put a name on what I have been living with all of my life! I respect your courage! Landy
ladyliberty1262 1 year ago
funny how i found this.
you and your brother used to go to the same high school as me
CloudPulse 1 year ago
@CloudPulse
Interesting... who are you? :)
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
@CleverGenevieve late response, I know, but my name is Joey, reaaally doubt you remember me, but william probably does
CloudPulse 1 year ago
@CloudPulse I do remember someone named Joey who was William's friend. Did you wear glasses and have long brown hair?
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
i find it hard to believe that you have autism - but i know that there are many different levels of functionability for you "condition" - have you looked at the work of Gary Null who is able to reverse autism ??? he works with many other natural based doctors and does great work!!
diodoro73 1 year ago
@diodoro73
I have read about his research... but you should watch my second autism video (linked at the end of this vid as well as in the description bar), It gives a bit more insight about my personal opinion about my "condition". ;)
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
Thanks for the nice and informative video. The only thing that was difficult was that it sounded kind of fuzzy or indistinct. But it was still very nice.
HappyComfort 1 year ago
My son is 4 and has High Functioning Autism. Videos like this help me to understand him better. One day he will be able to tell me these things but until then this is a huge help. Thanks!
aesebu55 1 year ago
You have a nice speaking voice. It reminds me of when I hear a good book on tape!
CactusRose33 1 year ago
I think I might have HFA. I tend to concentrate on the trivial things, such as someone lighting a cigarette,blowing bubble gum, and other stuff over important things like what they are saying,eye contact,facial expression, I tended to ignore. I appear completely unemotional,have tourette syndrome, and have obsessive interest, and am prone to routines. As a toddler, I would stare at tires all the time. Life is hard on us autistics,living in a world we will never fit into...
Octane64 1 year ago
I'll never forget my meltdown involving me ending in crying when I was in boot camp in the Navy. I remember all I had wanted to do was be useful and I had failed to do that even in the armed forces. My failures seem to reflect me for whom I am. I can only hope that one day I will find something I will be successful at. I was thinking research. What about yourself what are you hoping to excel at specifically as a career?
dewey05334 1 year ago 2
It's always difficult to try to be something you're not. I found that when I finally stopped trying to be "normal", the frequency of my meltdowns significantly diminished. Now I rarely ever have one.
Right now, I am interested in Photography. Not as a professional career, but more as a hobby, maybe selling good prints on the side. I've decided that I would much rather be a housewife than working some customer service job.
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
So what happened? Did they give you a mental discharge? I can't imagine a person with Asperger's making it through boot camp.
MondoBeno 1 year ago
My little brother is like you. He has Aspergers. He is crazy smart but need a lot of direction. He could do college lve. algerbra in his head, in 10th grade, but failed beginners ablg. because he did not show his work. The same with bio and chem. But he got into the Marines and was in Iraq. No one knew that he was different. You are awesome!
MercurySenshi 1 year ago 2
Amazing
irinadz 1 year ago
people with autism fucking rock. NT's are crazy fucking apes.
bethcarliseh 1 year ago
Thank you for helping others understand some of the differences in how you process information from many others.
pongoid 1 year ago
You are a very, beautiful woman. But autism is much more common in males. Okay, anyway I have HFA and I'm due to have my first book published around Jan 2011 which covers my experiences in life.
pcorf 1 year ago 2
I think you are very gifted and very special. I think many highly gifted attractive people have a "condition" I have very poor math skills and always have. I nearly failed it every time. Yet my IQ is 129. I have always been shy and had poor social skills but I am artistic and do quite well with singing acting dancing and creative writing. My b/f has mixed receptive expressice disorder. He didn't talk until age 4 or older! But he is very creative very attractive and a very perceptive person.
RibbionsandStrings 1 year ago 2
I'm am very proud of you!!!
BreSanner 1 year ago
I am so amazed by your experience of high-functioning autism, because I also have the same condition as you. You gave a motivating information about this circumstances.
Rege1988 1 year ago
I, like you, struggle with eye contact, it is probably my worst symptom of Autism. Although I am highly confident, as soon as someone looks me in the eye I feel incredibly uncomfortable and it seems as if I am possessed because I want to look back but I can't. I have an over developed frontal lobe in my brain as well so I over think everything that I see, hear, read, watch, and my thoughts just keep racing all the time, and most of the time I am so anxious I realise I keep holding my breath.
xAllie88x 1 year ago 2
Hello, I am really glad I watched this! I have struggled my whole life with High Functioning Autism, Dyspraxia, Attention Deficit Disorder and mild Dyslexia (although my Dyslexia has greatly improved over the last few years). I had a very difficult life at home and was bullied, so therefore had a number of severe mental health problems and physical medical conditions also! I understand your frustration at the generalisation that Autistics are un intelligent. I have a few similarities to you!
xAllie88x 1 year ago
i know this is irrelevant , but youre so pretty!! im not sure why but most autistic people are very pretty! my sister is autistic as well and shes the prettiest!
gasmbay 1 year ago
I have High Functioning Autism and when i was younger i never made eye contact until i was 7 or 8 now im 13 and make full eye contact and nobody even knows im autistic :)
o0TreyRoyer0o 1 year ago
Great video sweetheart, good on you for sharing your experience ! It's good for people to be educated on Autism ! I wish you all the best in life !
shoegal10876 1 year ago
Thank you for posting this and letting others know what it is like to be autistic:) Your a beautiful girl and express yourself very well!
I have a very talent high functioning daughter and she is doing well in 3rd grade mainstreamed..she had lots of ABA therapy and Speech therapy that really helped her overcome most of her issues from autism. Now we are working on the social aspect..its the hardest to learn. Best wishes to you in life!
Shelleyralynn 1 year ago
ur mouth looks like its lip syncing
Tikaany 1 year ago
That's interesting!
I've been told I talk weird and my mouth moves kinda funny sometimes, but I've never been told I look like I'm lip-syncing.
Could you please explain how it looks that way? :)
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
I've heard that Issec Newton is diagnosed with High Functioning Autism?
Cynthia149 1 year ago
This is very good. You say a lot of good things. I appreciate your honesty. You are good at speaking. I don't think I could speak that well to a camera (not to mention a person). Thanks for the video.
AutisticWhoLives4God 1 year ago 4
Interesting. Your story sounds familiar to mines. I never really gave it a thought though. I was diagnosed with ADD, I was put into special "ed". I became obsessed with the words in book. I loved the way the words made me feel.
I noticed I excelled in sports, or repetitive movements or activities
But with all honesty alot of people self diagnosed based on what sounds good subconsciously to them, they will read up on and soak up those traits.
Personally I think you "normal" just artisitc
=)
aky19832001 1 year ago
Then you should watch the video response "Part 2" video that I link to in the annotations as well as the sidebar. :)
Self-diagnosis can seem a little fishy when someone who obviously isn't Autistic labels his/herself so. Few such people exist, luckily. But usually, most self-diagnosed who are serious about it have their suspicions later confirmed by a professional.
Luckily, I do have an official diagnosis. :)
CleverGenevieve 1 year ago
@aky19832001 i agreewith both of you- there is relly no real biological marker for ADD so it can't really be calle a disease or even a condition- i am an artist and i never paid attention in cass - i would draw on the desk or bang on it to make up a rhythm- like you both i've performed at the top of my class t many times- i used to work fot the dept. of ed and the truth is that when it comes to diagnosing kids there is no kid in the world who CAN'T be labelled unless they are robots!!!
diodoro73 1 year ago
This is such a great video! You seem like a really great and fun person : )
mwahahadance 2 years ago
Your experience sounded amazingly similar to my own situation. I tended to socialize far more with teachers and adults than I did with my own peers when I was younger. When marginalized, my parents used to say the exact same things like "They're jealous." or "You're just at a higher level than they are. Eventually they'll catch up."
Thanks for posting. It was nice to hear your perspective on the matter.
jdocool1 2 years ago 13
@jdocool1 Amen!
crazyplaywrite 1 year ago
I really enjoyed watching your video. You explained things really well.
multicolouredhair 2 years ago
My daughter is only four years old and she has HF autism. Seeing you gives me hope for my daughter. And you are beautiful!!
Creation182 2 years ago
My 7 is green too :)
Gloric 2 years ago
You may want to consider getting a better
microphone.
mrsticky005 2 years ago
Already done. Got a whole new camera too. Actually, since this video was posted (December 15, 2008, over a year ago),
I've got a whole new almost everything.
Watch my "Part 2" video (in the responses to this video), to see the improvements.
:-)
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
Well that's good. Yeah I saw the audio is a bit better.
mrsticky005 2 years ago
My brother has Autism Spectrum. He has melt downs all the time, usually in the store or somewhere in public. People look at us like we're crazy. I see people looking at my brother and whispering, and it really bothers me.
I mean, he talks in complete sentences, he can read and spell...how is he so different? I mean yeah he embarass' us sometimes, but still.
A lot of the time, I feel like the girl in the book 'Rules' who has an autistic little brother...
KelSIZooo 2 years ago
what age is he?
i have AS and my behaviour was similar to that during my Primary School years
but once i was able to communicate with my family i made leaps and bounds
i suggest giving him all the support you can and explain y u don't like him melting down
Emrald70 2 years ago
why does it seem that all people with autism love cats? I'm not talking about you alone, just many, many autistic people I've been around and that have posted on WP about their love for cats.
everynameseemstobe 2 years ago
Cats are something that alot of us can relate to. We're quiet, solitary, curious creatures, just like cats. Cats have plenty of quirks that people just don't understand, just like Aspies/Auties.
Cats can be persnickety, and be oversensitive to seemingly trivial things, while almost oblivious to big things.
So many other things too, cats and spectumers have so much in common.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
thank you for the quick reply. I'm still having trouble understanding this, though - I mean, how can you equate the actions of an animal to the actions of a human? humans react to their environments actively and cognitively, and animals react to their environment based on predisposed notions. also, how can you "relate" to something with which you can't speak? don't take my questions the wrong way, I'm only curious about autism. my youngest brother is on the spectrum.
everynameseemstobe 2 years ago
Humans use more instinct than alot of people realize. It just the fact that humans are able to rationalize that instinct that makes it seem like a cognitive choice.
Also, humans use alot of non-verbal communication; not everything they communicate is with words.
Well, so do cats. In fact, the vast majority of their communication is non-verbal. Interact with a cat, and they will "speak" profusely. Many Auties find a cat's communication easier to understand than that of a human's.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
well i think that people act based on predisposed development more than most people think
imagine if u will a brussel sprout, a person could cognitively think that the sprout contains vitamins that are good for them, but if they had eaten a sprout in a previous experience and found it tasted bad then their predisposed notions of that experience would instinctively repel them from eating it this time
Emrald70 2 years ago
i have aspergers and i think X is a girl
also its funny cause wenever i get happy i start flapping my arms 2 lol
treckoreborn 2 years ago
You were using hand gestures for quotes. I thought autistic people didn't understand body language; only words and patterns.
theomer1 2 years ago
You seem to have a rather narrow view of what the Autistic Spectrum consists of. I am *High Functioning*. I can function in society. I can intellectually LEARN some nonverbal communication, and use it effectively. But I rarely ever learn it intuitively, as NTs do.
That is why you can observe me using various tones of voice, some facial expression, and gestures. I worked hard to function how I do today.
It's a difficult facade to maintain. You should see me when that facade finally drops.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
@CleverGenevieve
Good for you. Best of luck keeping up the facade. You seem good at it.
theomer1 2 years ago
@theomer1 Kind of a misperception. They can still learn those things though they are placed in a different area of the brain. Unlike most people where these things come natural, autistic people have to learn them consciously, so their movements may seem robotic. Although after time they may become more relaxed with it.
suckbar69 2 years ago
I feel like people think I am a Alien
Nickatimes 2 years ago
I used to get upset about the way my classmates would color posters because they weren't using the right colors for the right words
Giblinono 2 years ago
Hmm, I also used to feel slightly disturbed at seeing the "wrong" colors for certain words, numbers, and letters.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
i think 3 is green, 5 is blue, and8 is red
hpbetterthantwilight 2 years ago
Synastasia. Nine and one were red for me and eight is purple. Four is green, three is yellow, six is orange and two is blue.
PinkPunkyKat 2 years ago
I am probably HFA. I have been diagnosed as "near-Asperger's" as a child: always quiet, often teased and with certain subjects I focus on. I am 30 and have never had a girlfriend. In some ways I don't really care about it but I do get lonely. Genevieve, how do you handle having a boyfriend?
birdsandbugs1 2 years ago
I can handle my fiance well because he handles me well. He understands my needs, and treats me appropriately. He does not push me to be NT.
Likewise, I understand his needs and I treat him appropriately. We communicate very well.
It really is a miracle that I've found someone as accepting and understanding as he.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
i'm a high functioning autistic. i wish i had pride in it but i always feel like people can tell i'm autistic and they all talk down to me because i'm so quiet. i'm more quiet in a way like i only speak when i'm spoken to (like a dog, sometimes i feel like one) but yeah. how do i feel more confident about being autistic
zitalee2 2 years ago
First, stop caring about what other people think about you. Start caring about what you think of yourself. You may be experiencing "projection". You "project" your feelings about yourself onto other people.
Instead, think positively about yourself, and maybe, you will percieve positivity from others. Look that up.
Being quiet is a good thing! There is nothing wrong with speaking only when spoken to. Untrained dogs bark all the time, not just when beckoned. You are certainly no dog.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
very interesting :O I'm amazed with how you talk. It's almost robotically grammatical, as if you are imagining all the grammatical rules inside your head as your speaking. You also seem to be a very sensitive person. Thanks for your video and your experiences and perspective about the world :) !
IcarusFlying 2 years ago
I am very shy. I am intelligent, but sometimes feel like the other HFA individual are so much smarter. It makes me feel shy.
CyberKitty1991 2 years ago
Yow! You're my new Heroine! Your description of your life, except for the synthesia (and the fact that you're a cute girl and I'm just some dude), is identical with mine. I'm Old School though: when I did the round of doctors no one had ever heard of autism except wrt low IQs. So it was just assumed to be "character flaws". Later I did a lot of research to dig up Dr. Asperger's work and so on so I could educate them but I doubt that it had even a percent of the effect of one of your videos.
ajubvj 2 years ago
great video, also what a charming presentation.
5 stars. (from a fellow Aspie)
BumsenDK 2 years ago
i found this really interesting. some of it sounds like what i go through as a highly ADHD person. i know that what i had to go through, and continue to go through, is nothing compared to what you must have had to go through, but i still found it interesting to see the parallels
guitarrhythymfool 2 years ago
i have grapheme synesthesia too!
karaisradxx 2 years ago
you are cute and pretty and autism only makes you interesting.
modernmariorc 2 years ago 2
... not to mention analytical, logical, literal, quiet, solitary, curious, inquisitive, creative, active, and highly intelligent, and probably a lot more.
I'm very proud of the Autism I've been blessed with, and I wouldn't change a thing about myself! :)
Thank you for the compliment!
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
Amen. I have asperger's syndrome.
fleisch09 2 years ago
I teach a high functioning autistic child here in Australia and find your information very helpful. Thankyou for opening up your world to us.
Brothington 2 years ago
"mow, mow!" - kitty
aimersten 2 years ago
My son is high functioning autistic he's doing ok, but there are many chalenges for the future. good luck stay happy.
ooglebydoogleby 2 years ago
hey,
am I high-functioning autistic?
I don't talk much
I feel naked when im around alot of people,
I have friends but I hardly hang out with them
I dont know
I don't even know who I am anymore
dont call me by my name anymore
call me autism
allfeddup 2 years ago 13
In order to find out, it is best to see a professional specializing in Neurological conditions.
By what you just listed, it could be anything. Be more specific.
Don't say you don't know who you are. You know perfectly well. You are "Yourself". :)
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
@allfeddup Sounds more like Asperger Syndrome.
TheGordogringo 1 year ago
@allfeddup Sounds like Asperger Syndrome, which is a form of high functioning autism
TheGordogringo 1 year ago
@allfeddup well I just want you to know you are not alone. I feel the same way. I think it's important to try to overcome the nervousness with friends because afterall they do like you :)
nikkilovesdustie 1 year ago
my son is high functioning autism please check our channel ... but i still neeed HELP !! alot of work and it can be stressfull and not much support here cause most people deny that there kids are one or hide them ....
adamnaughty 2 years ago
At least u started talking at 2.5 years old, I only started talking around about 4 years, I used to be alot worse than this, now im pretty much almost normal but few things still bother me about it, i still can't stand some loud noises, have this weird fear of balloons, i do kinda flap like what u do.... Can I ask you something? Do you in some ways enjoy being autistic? If u do, do u have any tips of how to overcome it? Cause sometimes i have days when i wish i wasn't like this....
Hyperdude0123456 2 years ago
I do thoroughly enjoy being Autistic.
How did I overcome the difficulties? Well, I made accomodations for myself, to adapt to the NT world. If you hate loud noises, wear noise-canceling headphones. I hate textures of certain fabrics, so I avoid wearing them.
Remember, you are not completely disabled. You do have disadvantages, for sure, but you also have advantages that NTs may not have.
Use those advantages to the fullest, and find a way to adapt to make your disadvantages less disabling.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
how did you find out that you have high-functioning autism? because i am very interested in doing the test myself. I have so much things in common with you- except certain aspects like being good with numbers- instead- my teachers would say i am highly talented in philosophy etc(Geislichewissenschaft- if you know german that is... i'm not a german though lol this word seems adequate)ironically, even though i am good with picking up new languages, i also have problem with taking words literally.
hyundaikiakorea 2 years ago
Well, although I was diagnosed at eight, I didn't find out until I was 13, at an IEP (Individualized Education Program) meeting. My Case Manager showed me the papers, and in the papers was typed, in bold letters, "Autism". There are a few online tests that can give you an idea of where you are on the Autistic spectrum. Of course, if you want an official diagnosis, it's best to see a professional.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
oh my god i was diagnoased at that age, and that is the same age i found out about mine... i did remember how gutted my parents was.... oww!! :( but they were confused if i was just autistic or aspergers....
Hyperdude0123456 2 years ago
My son is high functioning autistic as well. Thank you for sharing this...education is so important.
LGascco 2 years ago
Ive always been smart but had trouble making friends when i was younger, ive seemed to work around my awkwardness now though... not sure if that was anything like autism. i sort of just pretend to be cool even though on the inside i feel insecure.
BowToMySkill 2 years ago
"Pretend to be cool..."
I used to do that too when I was younger. Now I just embrace my awkwardness and just be myself. :D I'm much happier that way.
But whatever works for you is what you should do!
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
I have a large amount of your experiences, except being good at math. I was really good at science and reading/writing. I had the same feeling with paper, am very literal and have the same eye contact problem. I was also excluded all the time in school, singled out as an outcast. but i do not believe i have autism, i do not know.The number 2 is blue? it seems to me
Shakeitupyes 2 years ago
What about my 3rd question?
louisgjordan2 2 years ago
Oops, sorry. The answer to your question is: I do sometimes feel like I'm about to cry when I am out in public. Luckily, I am able to hold it in until I am finally in a private area.
Make a vid? What about?
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
What has your IQ been rated at?
How truthful are you, relative to others?
Ever have any out-of-the-ordinary things happen in your life?
Do you wonder about the difference between consensus reality & true reality?
Do you long for connecting with souls on a profound, deep level, and find shallow things difficult to discuss?
You mentioned having a break-down. Do you ever feel like you're about to cry when you're in public, like your so sad and it's obvious from your expression?
make a vid ;)
louisgjordan2 2 years ago
The lat time my IQ was tested was when I was 10 years old. It was 139.
I believe I am very honest, way more honest than all the people I know. I hate lying. My fiancé and I have had some deep, detailed discussions about consensus reality and true reality.
I do find shallow things difficult to discuss, although I am not sure what it means to "connect with souls on a profound, deep level." If that means find a soul-mate, then I believe I have already done so.
Continued below...
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
I usually cry out of frustration, rather than sadness. Frustration causes a painful amount of pressure behind my eyes and in my head, and releasing tears relieves that pressure.
Tears usually come without any visible warnings, so my feelings wouldn't be very obvious unless you knew me very well.
I get frustrated due to changes in arranged plans or routine, overstimulation, and communication difficulties.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
Is your DX AS? I can never tell what they mean by autism anymore when they say it because they can also mean AS or PDD-NOS.
SpokaneGirl85 2 years ago
My diagnosis is Autism. I cannot have Aspergers because I had a speech delay, and I'm not too familiar with the term "PDD-NOS".
The papers always said "Autism", anyways.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
When did you start talking?
SpokaneGirl85 2 years ago
I didn't say a single word until I was 2.5 years old. Then I spoke in coherent sentences. :-)
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
That's not a speech delay. Looks normal to me. Some normal kids start talking at age two also. Single words at age two, complete sentences by age three as said in the AS criteria as an example of no speech delay. Doctors.
SpokaneGirl85 2 years ago 2
That's interesting... I will have to do more research on this. Thanks for the information.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
You are so cool!
Brockie777 2 years ago
well can you drive? have you gone to college? how do you know you have autism? is it just sounds that cause sensitivity? what can you not do because of autism?
Miikaika25 2 years ago
I am not legally allowed to drive by myself yet; However, I do have my learner's permit, and I am in the process of learning how to drive. It is difficult, but I am learning slowly and steadily.
I am currently attending a college, but will be transferring to a Culinary School, as cooking is my passion.
I am sensitive to some sounds, such as children screaming and machines beeping. I am also sensitive to textures, such as microfiber, and paper. They are nearly painful to the touch.
cont.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
cont. from above.
What can I *not* do? Hmmm, I don't believe there is anything that my High-Functioning Autism has made impossible for me. Granted, some things are made alot more difficult, such as socializing, but I can do it in small doses.
How do I know I have Autism? Well, I have an official diagnosis of course! Diagnosed by my psychiatrist around the age of eight, and "Autism" is in all of my school IEP documents.
CleverGenevieve 2 years ago
Oh ok.. thanks, but do you know if it's possible for someone to be a high-functioning autistic and never have had a diagnoses? Like someone going through school and everything and no one picking up on them being autistic yet they are?
Miikaika25 2 years ago