this song has advise that i live by. people dont expect you to fix everything, usually they need a hug and someone that will listen to them. at least that's been my experiance.
@sashaking111 although its always interesting when someone sees through your smile... only happened once to me so far. i was too tired to care that day. smileing is waaay easier to do than havin to explain wats wrong...
@sashaking111 gah this past week has been crap for me... my mask faded away for 2 whole days... people asked far too many questions... so now i've gotta put the mask back on and pretend that it never fell down. blah
@sashaking111 yea i've done that in the past, but i was too blah to try. i've mangaed to persuade them that everything's fine again. didn't take much, just a few hugs and me acting like an idiot. very easy. i suppose it helps that my friends are gullable people. i love them all, but maybe thats why i hang out with them. cus they're easy to fool
@sashaking111 haha oooohhh yea. i got 2 friends who know about the real me. its always harder to fool them cus they know. sometimes i hate that they know about me, and sometimes i absolutly love it. i dunno... its nice to be able to call someone up and complain instead of having people complain to you all the time
@sashaking111 no one knew the real me until about 9 months ago when i saw an old friend and we got talking and it sorta just slipped out. they've always been a really great friend and i just couldn't stand it anymore. it fucked me up big time for a while cus i couldn't help but tell them about wat was going on and if i didn't i'd get worse. im getting more control over me again. im trying to hide more things again.
@sashaking111 oh crap i'm so sorry to hear that. =( i've only ever lost an uncle and a grandfather. both really killed me inside, so you must be very strong to have survived this long. hang in there! if you ever need to talk just email me! my gosh that sounds so cliche. but seriously, you're not alone.
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX nah its okay it only harms me when i see a little girl and her mom laughing and having fun it makes me wonder what it would be like
@sashaking111 yea it would. my gran lost her mum when she was 11 and she had to raise 4 kids by herself in the war years. she said that she often wished she'd been around but she wasn't so she survived. LOVE YOU!
@sashaking111 yea i've done that in the past, but i was too blah to try. i've mangaed to persuade them that everything's fine again. didn't take much, just a few hugs and me acting like an idiot. very easy. i suppose it helps that my friends are gullable people. i love them all, but maybe thats why i hang out with them. cus they're easy to fool
this song has advise that i live by. people dont expect you to fix everything, usually they need a hug and someone that will listen to them. at least that's been my experiance.
Heiryuu 10 months ago
@Heiryuu amen to that :)
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 10 months ago
This should be my theme song
Moonfairy251 1 year ago
Amazing song I loved it...I also love the video!!!
Midnightsun2194 2 years ago
thanks so much for commenting!! i love getting good comments XD
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 2 years ago
this is my theme
sashaking111 2 years ago
^.^
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 2 years ago
this song is perfect for her
sashaking111 2 years ago
thank you!! i thought so too
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 2 years ago
you can tell she is deeply harmed forever like me but she hides behind her smile like me
sashaking111 2 years ago
amen to that brother/sister. its easy to pretend to be happy.
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 2 years ago
sister im a girl i alwase pertend to be happy if you saw me in rl ud think i was fine but if u really looked at me you could tell im crying inside
sashaking111 2 years ago
ha i hear ya loud and clear.
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
i think we could get along well
sashaking111 1 year ago
i think so too. its just all too easy to smile when on the inside you're searching for a reason to keep on living this pointless life.
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
way true
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 although its always interesting when someone sees through your smile... only happened once to me so far. i was too tired to care that day. smileing is waaay easier to do than havin to explain wats wrong...
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
yeah no one has seen through my smile yet i alwase do things to convice ppl im happy so i dont have to tell them the billon things thats wrong
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 gah this past week has been crap for me... my mask faded away for 2 whole days... people asked far too many questions... so now i've gotta put the mask back on and pretend that it never fell down. blah
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
well what i do is is they ask if im ok i fake a smile and say "yeah what makes you ask"
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 yea i've done that in the past, but i was too blah to try. i've mangaed to persuade them that everything's fine again. didn't take much, just a few hugs and me acting like an idiot. very easy. i suppose it helps that my friends are gullable people. i love them all, but maybe thats why i hang out with them. cus they're easy to fool
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX same here thats why i hang out with my friends is cus there gullable but they dont understand
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 haha oooohhh yea. i got 2 friends who know about the real me. its always harder to fool them cus they know. sometimes i hate that they know about me, and sometimes i absolutly love it. i dunno... its nice to be able to call someone up and complain instead of having people complain to you all the time
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX they dont know the real me
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 no one knew the real me until about 9 months ago when i saw an old friend and we got talking and it sorta just slipped out. they've always been a really great friend and i just couldn't stand it anymore. it fucked me up big time for a while cus i couldn't help but tell them about wat was going on and if i didn't i'd get worse. im getting more control over me again. im trying to hide more things again.
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX ya
sashaking111 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX tohru reminds me of myself my mom died and ive been tramaized ever sience and i have friends kinda and i just kinda wonder
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 oh crap i'm so sorry to hear that. =( i've only ever lost an uncle and a grandfather. both really killed me inside, so you must be very strong to have survived this long. hang in there! if you ever need to talk just email me! my gosh that sounds so cliche. but seriously, you're not alone.
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX nah its okay it only harms me when i see a little girl and her mom laughing and having fun it makes me wonder what it would be like
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 yea it would. my gran lost her mum when she was 11 and she had to raise 4 kids by herself in the war years. she said that she often wished she'd been around but she wasn't so she survived. LOVE YOU!
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX wow she knew her that must make it harder the only way i knew what my mom looked like was beacuse of our family portrit
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 ouch thats painful. how're things going for you atm?
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
@HitsugayaTorshiroROX good
sashaking111 1 year ago
@sashaking111 yea i've done that in the past, but i was too blah to try. i've mangaed to persuade them that everything's fine again. didn't take much, just a few hugs and me acting like an idiot. very easy. i suppose it helps that my friends are gullable people. i love them all, but maybe thats why i hang out with them. cus they're easy to fool
HitsugayaTorshiroROX 1 year ago
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yeah no one has seen through my smile yet i alwase do things to convice ppl im happy so i dont have to tell them the billon things thats wrong
sashaking111 1 year ago