my brother has bipolar,the doctors dont do anything besides drog him and make him useless,hes 21 years old.hes one of the most intelligent person i havce ever know,hes VERY good aswell,he cud never kill a fly,but in past 1 year our father died,he cudent get on coullage hes GF left him and we didnt support him at anything and just put him down every day...i feel so bad,he also had an episode he felt like god and was very good to be at,but he acted "not normal" and my mother put him in hostpital
Sounds like you need a good transpersonal therapist and quick. You need someone to open up to about your feelings who understands the spiritual/emotional aspect of your disorder.
had huge episodes with my whole family all this week. due to knifing, gaslighting, etc. it sent me over the edge. and they say they love me. it's fucked up, all they had to do is play fair. crying inside sooo bad. but you really saved my life. I was suicidal till i saw this video. Crying how i've hid this from my co-workers. I seem normal and handsome, but am miserable.
no wonder they though your were crazy. you are a genius. and you are misunderstood. you were never crazy, like you said. you were going through a breakdown of the ego etc. And you were wired differently to handle it spiritually. I succeeded by canning my shrinks after I got old enough to get out of my parents hands and into deep into college. i had many episodes, but i lived through it. im in trouble now but your video cured me. myfolks are part of the prob like u said. exactly. covered up.
yip, your videos are great . I just went through my first mania quiet the trip. Wound up in hospital seen earth in a whole new light . I would say im awake now. lol on the lithium. I'm prity sure i wanted to thank every one on earth for being awsome and working together lol.
This is SO TRUE. It is a healing process. It certainly feels like it. It feels like I'm slowly going forward into a state of peace and tranquilty, and then someone stops me and says; you're psychotic, you need to be hospitalized. I'd like to know why. Next time I'll ask them "what's the problem?". All you need is some time and probably some support from people who don't want to hospitalize you. I'm going to stop my medication next friday. It's going to be my 5th psychosis. WISH ME LUCK!
@ErkkiEno....if you are going to try and work through an episode, and you´ve had 4 already, you will need more than a little support. You will need a TON of support. Please, if you are planning to cut your medications, do so very slowly, and it´s best to join my support group. Nobody wants to see you in the hospital again.
@bipolarorwakingup My last episode seemed to be alot better than the previous ones. It progressed towards peace and tranquilty and only very few thoughts. I'm fairly confident that I manage to do it again with even better outcome. I agree that I need support and I've tried it, but no one seems to understand. Your support group seems good and I'm going to join, but I guess I also need someone to be physically there with me. Got any tips on how to get close people to support me?
This is so true! In our society, a spiritual emergency is completely disrespected because the medical community wants to 'name it' and box it into their model of what is 'acceptable' as behaviour, thinking processes, etc. The sad thing is that they don't even know what Bipolar is or how to 'treat' it. In a nother culture, this would be a Shamanic Awakening. Here, you're just looney.
I had my first manic episode about 10 years ago and I've been on medication ever since. I really want to get off the medication so I can finish the process and heal, but I have a full-time job and a 5-year-old son to take care of. What should I do?
thank you for your understanding. I have been diagnosed with bipolar. I know it is spiritual awaking yet I still need help. can we please connect? I am med free and keeping a blog of my experiences. This is a rollercoaster. Watching your videos in floods of tears. thank you. River Now Here
@riversamson I recommend joining my support group, Wake the Planet. I offer Skype consulting to members for a fee. See my website bipolarORwakingUPdotcom!
By the way, I love the fact that YouTube featured this. Maybe they can lay off the RayWilliamJohnson and listen to stuff like this, they might learn something.
who can take care of a person that is in true psychosis, It may not be fair but drugs are necessary for these types of behaviors ,society will not let people act out,,Their are no loveing placing to get care. The family becomes destroyed by the sick child or parent it is justa deeper hell on earth then normal what ever that is.
@59Disciple I´ve already taken care of 5 of people in varying degrees of psychosis. - from mild, short experiences to longer experiences which normally would be hospitalized.. All came through the process unmedicated, and future episodes proved to be milder and easier to care for. See the book, Soteria, for more details on this process.
@bipolarorwakingup MInd you, this process is not for everybody, and as my series continues, I make a strong effort to explain who could benefit from the process vs. who cannot. In that sense, this video here could use an upgrade, which I plan to do in 2012.
Regardless of intentions, you don't want to encourage someone to dive into mania and do something terrible. You don't want that responsibility for their actions.
I am concerned however that you will make going off ones meds look exciting or desirable. I run a support group for us and watching this video made me giddy in a way, just like if you told me you had some acid or something. I will stay on my meds for now, but what about those of us less stabilized w/ less self control? You must stress that this is not a unilateral decision, it is not something to be taken lightly - if the decision to go off meds is made, proper caution and preparation is needed.
@soundtribejunkie 20 years is a very long time, and 5 hospitalizations is enough for anyone. IMO, watch the video series, validate your experiences, but research indicated that people with repeated hospitalizations over many years will have a much, much harder time working through the process than others. You could do two things. Start meditating and join my support network, Wake the Planet. But don't cut your meds. At least not yet.
@supervanscott Totally agree with all that you say. I have already put a comment on that especially with Bipolar 1 the only way to stop psychosis is with medication. All this spiritual stuff is rubbish. Thinking logically and staying down to earth is the way forward not all this religious bull.
Thanks a lot for your videos! I like the idea of mind-diseases as a healing process of the soul a lot. If the soul is healed (or enlighted) life is much easier. You realise that you are not your body, neither your brain, neither your thoughts (ego), but you are your infinite soul. In my psychosis, I could feel my soul very strong and also the interconnection of all beings from the beginning of time to eternity. (I strongly recommend Mallicks film "Tree of life". It shows what I felt. )
I take only 600 mg of Depakine Chrono (Natrii valproas + Acidum valproicum) a day (it's a stabilizer) and also I take omega 3 - fatty acids, selenium and zink. I am afraid of another manic epizode. It's impossible to work normally in that state of mind, especially as a lawyer. I almost lost my job previous time and my family was terrified. From my manic epizode I live to lives - one is normal in this reality and other is hidden deep in my mind and soul - mistical and beautiful second life.
I would like to thank you a lot for these videos. I am bipolar (rapid cycling) and I have to agree with you im most points. Hovever it's very strange for me, that almost all people with bipolar disorder in manic epizodes have the same thoughts and visions. When I had my first (and last) manic epizode a year ago I started to watch Saldadore Dali and Vincent Van Gogh paintings and I listened to Bethoven and Mozart almost all the time. I had an illusion of being on another higher level of reality.
i think the people around me would be better without me .....i hate being overly aware of my surroundings ...sometimes i realy believe that im smarter than everyone else "ego" . i wish i where "normal" ...as for me if its not perfect to me its no good at all and i cant hide that from people my true feelings are always seen, ie face expressions tone of voice and body language .why would god create an abomanation such as me? i see no point in my life b/c of the destruction i cause ...The Dead End
@jmecrg Hey, come on, first of all try to seek help, because your thoughts seem to be highly depressive, if not almost suicidal. This looks to me almost as an outcry. I am sure, you are a loveable person and not this negative person you are describing. I know depressive thoughts very well, so I recommend you to let yourself prescribe anti-depressive pills (first of all) and try to find a therapeut. Good luck! A book recommondation is "Night falls fast" by Kay Redfield-Jamison.
@xtremekajaker yea it was an outcry at the time ...... anti-depresant pills are another way to dumb down america... "bipolar disorder" "adhd" are the titles given to the people that know what they are saying is bullshit (adhd) and the people that know in their gut that something isnt rite and we feel it so strong that we rebel against system in everyway (bi-polar) .... bi- polar disorder in the 90`s and early 00 was handed to everyone that didnt think like them ..... its all bullshit
@jmecrg So you have a tendency to be self conscious as well as being a perfectionist. That's ok. If you can accept it than so can everybody else. It's your lack of ease that may be the problem. Remember you are more than your ego. Smarts aren't as important as you think. You're here for a reason. This is just a bad chapter in a good book. I think you already have the title.
Seeing psychosis as a "sacred healing process" - a friend, not an enemy - is, for the patient, a much more constructive approach than traditional psychiatry.
I would like to suggest, however, that drawing a clear line between the two approaches may not be helpful for all circumstances: gracefully accepting medication and, where necessary, hospitalization as a sign of love is sometimes part of the healing process too, not just an "easy way out".
My mother left me when I was three years old. I havent seen her since she left me in a fire i accidently set the couch on fire and she ran out. does this have to do with bipolar?????? or my bipolar and ive only had one episode where I thought my step mom was someone in a mask gonna kill me.
i've noticed over the past few years i wasnt having as much depression as i did in my teens. i was having more positive episodes and this is where my denial starting to flood that i was not bipolar. now i feel i may be ive been in a mild flux between manic and depressive, kinda purgatory in a manner, and this subsided when i switched meds, i feel like the manic is breaking through but its new b/c i was scared but now i want to hug it. thankyou! i feel like i can heal this with patience
cont'd, is hypomania a form of what you are talkinjg about? Is it a way of dispelling trauma and a healing process of some sort? How can I better learn to balance this energy without losing it entirely? I love it and see it as a boon because it helps me prosper, but it is also exhausting and seems to be a part of my addiction to relationships because they keep me grounded and centered when these manic episodes happen. Is hypomania similar to the result of the bipolar disorder? THANK YOU
I am a premed student.I have worked in the medical field as an emt for many years tho, and I have seen what you are talking about countless times.However,I have always ended up in these states every few months where my energy level seems almost superhuman-I am the best student,the most dedicated worker,and suddenly anyone who comes to me to discuss a life issues is met with a torrent of peaceful,valid advice from me that almost feels channeled.But,I am functioning.Hypomania?How does this work?
I thought that I was going insane, crazy, as "mad as a hatter"! Thank you for your videos. I feel like I have a better understanding of what is happening to me now and very recently. Years of repressed trauma, rejection, emotional and physical abuse by the people who were supposed to love me. I realize now that I'M NOT DEFECTIVE, which I believed since 13. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder among many others. The people that abused and traumatized me are the people I pity while healing
And many other "crazy" things, and when I was aware of myself, it was like I was just a neutral observer of what was taking place. Talking about this openly is very important, as I believe these experiences are a very natural expression of a repressed and hurting humanity.Thank you so much! Great work. Namaste
time I was hospitalized, but I followed my intuition and started getting involved with groups who talk about the shift in consciousness that is happening, and that brought me to your channel. I haven't had another episode, it's been a year, and I believe If I do, i will be much more aware of what is happening to me, and try to stay indoors!! But when this happens, there is an uncontrollable pull to act out whatever you are feeling. I walked barefoot for almost three days trying to save the world
Thank you!! I had two extreme episodes, both ending in hospitalization, diagnosed as bi-polar, schizo-effective. I too thought I was Jesus, Ram Dass, Marilyn Manson, and an Indian Spirit coming through me doing sacred ceremonial dance removing evil. I also experienced childhood regression, and I was confused if it was my childhood or many other children (possibly dead coming through me) I experienced death and played out a govt/alien/god TEST. I almost believed I needed the medication the second
Thank you!! I had two extreme episodes, both ending in hospitalization, diagnosed as bi-polar, schizo-effective. I too thought I was Jesus, Ram Dass, Marilyn Manson, and an Indian Spirit coming through me doing sacred ceremonial dance removing evil. I also experienced childhood regression, and I was confused if it was my childhood or many other children (possibly dead coming through me) I experienced death and played out a govt/alien/god TEST. I almost believed I needed the medication the second
Dr. David Lukoff (don't know if the spelling is correct), his expierence is very very similiar to my psychosis when it started to blow my mind and ego...but then took the paranoid part over and everything changed.
well I'll tell ya, if I start getting paranoia and aggressive and stuff like that, I am gonna pop a few pills that is all I can say. i am not ashamed that my brain is missing a few screws! I dont need to act like I am having a holier than thou crisis
yeah, the acute psychosis was leading back to a great relationship with someone and we would made love, but.... locked in a hospital. ya they fear people experiencing a more enjoyable love life than them, their grandparents and great grandparents forced themselves to not have erections, passed that on and well, chemical imbalance in reproductive organs, not my brain.
I just had to break up with my partner of 8 years because he went into a long period of mania, no medication, and when he's manic he is extremely abusive and violent. I would love to have been able to support him but how do you deal with the violence?
I just had to break up with my partner of 8 years because he went into a long period of mania, no medication, and when he's manic he is extremely abusive and violent. I would love to have been able to support him but how do you deal with the violence?
@MsSoronaa How do you deal with the violence? You can't. If a person is violent they need to be medicated. Period. Now, unfortunately, a lot of the violence comes from the aggressive people try to handle people in psychosis, but either way, if they is not a supportive, connected relationship happening, no healing will take place. Very good question.
Sometimes it is a spiritual crisis. Sometimes it is a mental illness. I have a mother who is manic depressive and a brother who is schizophrenic. I use the older term manic depressive not the newer term bipolar to differentiate between what I consider a real and serious disorder...staring and screaming out into space in absolute terror, banging one's head against the wall repeatedly and not getting out of bed for days or weeks...and a condition that 20 years ago we might have described as moody.
I love your videos! You just confirm what I have always known...that my manic episode I had back in 2008 was actually a spiritual awakening and a cleansing. After I healed myself, I discovered that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. Sometimes I do find myself wishing to go back to how I was during the manic episode...I just felt so free then...
i am bipolar. this video scares me about what my life will be like. i am scared.i dont recomend other bipolars to watch this video. it really scares me about the truth
they subjected me to meds at age 12 & unfortunately I did the same with my daughter ~ I'm struggling on & off of meds & wish that my daughter was not on them either... the DR's hand them out like candy (antidepressants) instead of treating the problem they want a quick fix but its NOT! Been dealing with this sh*t for years on meds. I'd rather feel the sh*t than be numb. They damed me for the rest of my life with their chemical imbalance BS & I would need meds forever...
this is really a magnificent series of videos you have made and they all confirm things for me. im very introverted and dont like expressing myself. i know that i have bipolar but haven't been treated or properly diagnosed by a psycologist (just my GP) . do i go or not?
@ifyagetdown Well, if you identify strongly with the series, I'd just keep watching because if you think you have bipolar disorder, you will be medicated by psychiatry.
Got to tell ya, when I remembered my past, (mother selling me to a pedophile for a weekend when I was 9, then seeing the guy killed by my father a few weeks later), everyone thought I was the nuttiest person on earth! No one would listen to me, and my mother wouldn't leave my side, making sure she told everyone I was mentally ill so she wouldn't be suspect of being a freak. NOT FUN! Yes, I've also had a lot of manic episodes and the big bopper started over 17 years ago.
@bipolarorwakingup True that, but my brother that was just like me, but molested by our mother killed himself in September 2008, so the saga continues.
I have bipolar too. it's been 8 years for me. 3 depressive episodes. 2 manic episodes. Now I'm just flat and slightly scared and introverted, but I fight it.
@fezzbarnes I fear that "flat" you speak of, yet this latest depressive episode has got me scared for my life, so I'm medicating while waiting for counseling. (My brother killed himself because he refused to talk about it), so I'm doing all I can to avoid it. Strange thing is, we both saw spirits, heard them, talked to them and hid it for most of our lives because of how others treated us when we did say something about it. I think we need a camp where we can "let go" until we come out of it.
I have bipolar disorder. Breathing fresh air and doing moderate level of physical activity quite helpful for me as I don't have anyone who could care for me. But I think I can have some normal episode if somebody could treat me with compassion. But I'm more worried for my 6 yrs old daughter as she has been diagnosed with ADHD. How do I know if she has bipolar disorder co-exist with ADHD and is there any difference in treating both? Can you shed some light on it?
Ok, well, please try to stop being afraid, and stop buying into that priests of the Medici magic. video.google Healing Cancer from the Inside Out, which is a covert name for a fine docu on the ascendancy of doctors.
@unsuccessful1 I am bipolar with ADHD you cannot know for sure if he is having bipolar untill he shows symptoms. I have a boy with ADHD and I am just aware he could get biopolar too. I am taking care of him with the knowledge that I have by reading and if he ever gets manic or depression symptoms I how I will see them soon enough. The best thing is not to live in denial. I am writing a book about my psychosis stage and it does make the people who have read it shocked.
I need support :( my counsler helps me he against medicine sounds kind of like you but than again he is devout christain ... also my friend who is 25 helps me and my friend who is 21 helps me :P
Oh my gosh youre a fucking genius, im a 17 yearold hippie, my mother is bipolar, she has been bipolar mostly all my life, this video explained mostly all of the things she faced and etc..., i believe you are 100% correct with your research, i mean i should have approached my mother with a different prespective, may god bless you
Hi John Im on 800mg a day its scary I feel like im going introverted!
No one understands!
Is ur mg high 2 I feel panic going 2 shopping malls!
I feel flat I feel it is the fault of the medication but everyone around me says take it!
How do u feel John did u have a manic episode?
It was either carbon Or LItium so I asked 4 carbon as my nana recently died from Lithium Intoxication by neglet!! The word lithium makes me sick so I choose this!
This is an excellent video and i can say from my own experience very accurate. I honestly believe that there is a breaking point if we are able to let the experience be completed. Unfortunately quite often people are interupted by others who are fearful simply because they are not aware that this is actually a very natural way that the person experiencing this is being healed. The road back to sanity can seem insane!
@bipolarorwakingup Feeling just fine these days and no medication. Have not taken any type of psychiatric drugs in 13 years as I have not seen a psychiatrist since 1998. I have however felt reborn since 1996 when I was involuntarily admitted to the hospital by police for being too happy and overtalkative. From then and still today I know what happened to me was a real blessing. I real awakening to the real me! The psychiatrist and I could not see eye to eye and I refused to take his advise.
@bipolarorwakingup The advise was given as more of a lecture as he would discredit my experience as an illness when I said it was the best thing to ever happen to me. Told me I must take drugs the rest of my life and would probably never work again and be on a disability. Also recommended housing ran by the system. Oct. 3, I will be at the job I have now 7 years and I have lived where i do now since Sept. 1996. Longest I have worked at same job and lived same spot. I am more stable than ever!
@Gord2011 how would you feel about me posting your story on my blog? Healing stories like yours are an important part of my research and I collect them. If you are interested, please send me a message! FYI,1996 was the year for me too!
@bipolarorwakingup Yes, Please share my story with anyone interested in our knowledge of this crisis that our governments are allowing to happen! I will never forget the anger in the eyes of the psychiatist when i asked him if he had the same experience as I. He responded no but had learned from "schooling"? The dictionary defines knowledge as " understanding gained by actual experience" Is the dictionary wrong? Second hand knowledge or first hand knowledge. The choice is ours!
Thanks so much for publishing these videos. I have found them very useful relating what I already know but it a great format.
I am a bit perturbed by your theory that schizophrenia relates to a lower lever of conciousness. Whilst manic depression a higher one and spiritual emergency higher still.
? Help me find someone out here for empathic support. Phoenix, AZ. I started with a manic episode in 2007, went on meds. kept it quiet till now (the mania) but am coming off meds and it's erupting again, which is ok. I just want / need help dealing with this surge of intensity. a little push from an emotionally trying experience triggered it. I'm cycling up again understand it and am surrendering, meditating, trying to keep my cool on the outside at work, but need spiritual guidance.
I am bipolar and I'm on some meds. but don't feel any better I feel constantly depressed and like there's no hope. I've been hospitalized around 6 times this year alone. I miss the mania sometimes because i feel depressed an wonder why I still live. If your interrested in my story or got some ideas message me.
i dont understand when you say "surrender"? im thinking your telling me to just "go with the flow"? and do what evers on my mind..., i have not been told nor have i asked i was bipolar but come from a very long line from aunts and gramdas...
@watactown surrender means trust your intuition, go into the process and allow it to happen. Do not fight it. Unfortunately, most people will need empathetic support to help them do this, and right now, that support is rarely available.
I don't believe those theories, coz why don't the other people have this need for "healing" with psychosis and mania, e6c., and it runs in families, identical twins raised separated have like 50-70% chance to develop bipolar, if the other twin has it, However, you still represented it in an interesting way and the pictures you chose are awesome!
I appreciate your ideas. I have lived on medication straight through for 14 years. I have reached a point that I do not believe the meds are helping. I am consistantly in a deep depression now for a couple of years. I'm ready for a change. I wish to God I could have a manic anything...... Mania sounds like something lovely I experenced during an acupunture treatment. I would welcome an idea. Thanks for speaking!. Peace, tatsatu
I love your vids...also Dali and lots of other beatifull art.
Good point of view. In the Netherlands we have an expierience worker who wrote a book about psychosis and a point of view from Philosophy (Kant, Descartes etc) and it fits very good to your point of view.
Hey Sean, why is it that it is hardest to heal the screwed up thoughts I had during acute psychosis? Yes, I thought I was both Jesus, and Satan, but more so thinking the rapture was near and I was gonna be left behind. Do you have any thoughts for me?
Yes, I also had acute psychosis and have been hospitalized 3 times since 1999 (with 2007 being my last attack). I was verbally abused as well (by my father). I also had very screwed up thoughts about Jesus and Satan...thinking I was both of them, and to this day, this part of my mania has been the hardest to heal/ and make sense of. And even though I've watched several of your videos, I am still left with unanswered questions or thoughts. What are your thoughts? ~Kris
I love these :..} People ("normal" people) get ticked off when I talk about my spiritual experiences because they don't share them. Everyone's so stuck in their Ego & expectations of normal lives that if anyone talks about anything different, they get afraid and want to shoot it down. You won't learn much about how objective things affect your subjective soul & emotions during the compressions of "normality." I don't care too much what "they" think. It moves me to know I'm not alone! <3
I understand most of your feedbacks. I agree, this is not the right forum and I should not have made the discussion based on what I live right now. I guess trying to understand too much a world governed by a set of different rules.
especially on the phase when they come w/ some much love and it is killing me to know that at somepoint I won't be able to carry on w/ the cyclic idea indexed on her rapid cycling that someone will touched her... my latin judeo-christian education I guess.
It sounds like your friend/daughter??? is not in a psychosis like I describe here. I'm guessing she is hypomanic? It's a tough place to be for you. IMO, the way to heal hypomania is, most likely, to take them into non-ordinary states, similar to a real psychosis. But the world is not ready for that. And to be honest, I'm not sure that I am either.
She is my love, what do you mean by hypomanic and to take her into "non ordinary states"? I find very difficult to digest what she can do and be so much in love w/ me. Someone referred to us manipulating ppl who have BP... I rather think it is most of the time the other way around. Lies, planning, premeditation, it just kills me. The most striking is that I feel deprive from the truth as she never never will admit the obvious.
You can look up hypomanic on wikipedia and see if her symptoms fit more with that set of symptoms. This video speaks to a genuine period of 'insanity" or acute psychosis - what can be referred to as a 'non-ordinary state'. My other videos, like#2, explain this better. But it doesn't sound like she is there right now. I know all of this must be very confusing for you.
@bipolarorwakingup umm no don't look in wikipedia, anyone can edit their facts, even if they're not a member. Go look it up in a book where knowledge is still sacred.
How can we understand when you are bombarded the night before with the "Oh God, I love you so much", yet the day after you find out she/he is w/ someone else just for the sex gratification then go through the denial-guilt-isolation-accusation for what happened yet you still need to provide inconditionnal love and support.I can see so much truth in this video,
What you say about "knowing when ppl are coming at you with love or fear" is so on the mark. I would even add another which would be manipulation; those who are aware of your vulnerable state and would take advantage of you; thus, adding to the trauma you are desperately trying to heal. For myself, this is a time when isolation becomes so very important. Most tell me that's "unhealthy" but, through my many experiences, it's quite necessary for my own protection.
Do not know whether I can understand all of this, but what about the people who love them so much, yet go through suffering and pain because of what is known as "hypersexual" mania phase.
It's not about being hypersexual so much as it is a need to be intimate with someone. The two are very different things. The problem comes when one is seeking that intimacy in the form of closeness touch and love and the other perceives this as a "come on". If things progress, the manic doesn't see it as a bad thing, just a beautiful loving experience. It's two people exercising judgement and perception on two very different levels. Be present and maybe there won't be a need for all the pain.
If I understand, you are saying that she is searching for a certain form of love when she claims her deep love to another man (me)?... I am present, always have been present w/ my all soul. How could she look for intimacy somewhere else when her words and writings express a "uniquely deep love"?
Listen, I can't speak for her, but this is where the "manipulation" comes in.. on the other person's part. Men do it all the time. They do it even when a woman is using good judgement. Just imagine if that judgement and perception is altered by a manic event.
Sometimes I wish "things would progress w/ whoever she is searching this intimacy" and I would then go through the nightmare once and forever to lose her because when I tried, it goes through all the threats ranging from hurting herself to indescriptable behavior... Until the next episode - This, I would qualify as manipulative.
Perhaps she is being manipulative; I cannot speak for her. I was referring to other's being manipulative when one is in a compromised state. Men do it all the time even when a woman is at her best perception and judgement. Maybe you're not the victim here, and maybe you are; that's not for me to say.
Larsouille, I appreciate t4ac3y1's advice and think that his perspective could be a valid one, however also feel the need to step in a little and tell you that neither of us is in a position to offer counselling here. Our opinions are only possible projections and we couldn't possible pretend to know your love. This video speaks of a psychological condition somewhat different from what she is experiencing right now.
It's important to note and quite unfortunate that the American Psychological Association still does not recognize TP and so does not have a division within it's organization focused on TP. Still there are many practitioners, educators, and researchers within the field who go to the APA conferences and present their work. Your outreach along with theirs will change the way we look at the psyche and these rich mental processes. Kudos to you.
I so appreciate you putting this and other pieces together and your blog and other efforts. This gives people hope and other more strength-based ways to negotiate what can be a challenging life process.
I am just completing my doctorate in clinical psychology in transpersonal psychology (TP). As you know, there are many who have contributed to theory within TP: William James (first coined the term), Roberto Assagioli, Jung, Maslow, and of course Grof.
There are several schools that educate psychologists and psychotherapists to work with their clients with this model (spiritual emergency/emergence.) The Institute of Transpersonal Psychology in Palo Alto is one of them.
Thank-you from my overwhelming heart! I've gone through this process for over ten years, and finally,finally I'm living in the rebirth aspect of this dark night of the soul. This video is an amazing confirmation of what I've fought to believe and hold onto.
Thank you for so clearly breaking this down for everyone-- extremely thought provoking and mind-changing.
I've been medicated for chronic depression for over 10 years... do you think this spiritual awakening/healing is also true for depression or just bipolar? Thanks
Good Question. A properly supported 'psychosis' type of experience will only be a few days, but needs 24 hour support. However, the number of these you need to go through is uncertain. That's why we really need a lot of education and clinics.
I am always drawn to checkin out ur videos. so enlightening! i have had 3 episodes over the last 8 yrs. still on meds which is hard cause ive gone past the stage of being ok to taking them to feelin absolutely nothing in havin them now! have had alot of spiritual awakenin over past 3 yrs. i work with massage and now energy work and it all seems so relevant as to why i had these episodes! think 4 me its wantin to have kids and be free from my fear...just hard to get help and proper support ***
wow, it is hard to believe someone finally understands the truth of a greater reality within the human experience. it makes me sad, so sad that conventional medicaine has become so problematic to the spiritual experience of being human that they maybe forsaking humanity entirely. I sense the whole world is in the mist of an upcoming manic episode & I a wait the day of our collective spiritual release & rebirth. thank you so much for being here, now.
Science & religion has lost its spirituality, leaving souls behind to suffer alone and rejecting human expression because of fear and doubt. We have forgot how to love without condition, to help without expectation, and how to stand in silence and just be for another person. Bipolar seems like the souls retaliation of years of neglect, how often do you scream and no one seems to hear a sound?
Everything you said relates to my experience. It all resulted in being diagnosed bipolar. I have not hit psychosis but I felt like i needed to let go but did not because I'm alone with 3 children. I gave in to the drugs 4 days ago because I could not see the choice. Funny when i did my masters degree. I interviewed two psyc's who tried to set up therapeutic communities offering relationships rather than drugs as healing for mental illness. Little did I no I would need it in the future. thank you
I don't no if you will read this this post but I was captivated and awakened by this video. I am a psychotherapist trained in a controversial way by the last of the UK Rogerian cohort. I was celebrated and elevated by the world of aging hippies, healer controversial therapist.
my brother has bipolar,the doctors dont do anything besides drog him and make him useless,hes 21 years old.hes one of the most intelligent person i havce ever know,hes VERY good aswell,he cud never kill a fly,but in past 1 year our father died,he cudent get on coullage hes GF left him and we didnt support him at anything and just put him down every day...i feel so bad,he also had an episode he felt like god and was very good to be at,but he acted "not normal" and my mother put him in hostpital
Allegralol 5 days ago
@Allegralo Sorry to hear that...
bipolarorwakingup 5 days ago
@Allegralol is he bipolar I or II?
faroorooash 3 days ago
I hope more people could be like you. I'm currently locked up in a ward and I hate the drugs.
razor1394a 3 weeks ago
Sounds like you need a good transpersonal therapist and quick. You need someone to open up to about your feelings who understands the spiritual/emotional aspect of your disorder.
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
had huge episodes with my whole family all this week. due to knifing, gaslighting, etc. it sent me over the edge. and they say they love me. it's fucked up, all they had to do is play fair. crying inside sooo bad. but you really saved my life. I was suicidal till i saw this video. Crying how i've hid this from my co-workers. I seem normal and handsome, but am miserable.
judutchinski 1 month ago
no wonder they though your were crazy. you are a genius. and you are misunderstood. you were never crazy, like you said. you were going through a breakdown of the ego etc. And you were wired differently to handle it spiritually. I succeeded by canning my shrinks after I got old enough to get out of my parents hands and into deep into college. i had many episodes, but i lived through it. im in trouble now but your video cured me. myfolks are part of the prob like u said. exactly. covered up.
judutchinski 1 month ago
yip, your videos are great . I just went through my first mania quiet the trip. Wound up in hospital seen earth in a whole new light . I would say im awake now. lol on the lithium. I'm prity sure i wanted to thank every one on earth for being awsome and working together lol.
skilots 1 month ago
how do i let go?
fahkyooh 1 month ago
This is SO TRUE. It is a healing process. It certainly feels like it. It feels like I'm slowly going forward into a state of peace and tranquilty, and then someone stops me and says; you're psychotic, you need to be hospitalized. I'd like to know why. Next time I'll ask them "what's the problem?". All you need is some time and probably some support from people who don't want to hospitalize you. I'm going to stop my medication next friday. It's going to be my 5th psychosis. WISH ME LUCK!
ErkkiEno 1 month ago
@ErkkiEno....if you are going to try and work through an episode, and you´ve had 4 already, you will need more than a little support. You will need a TON of support. Please, if you are planning to cut your medications, do so very slowly, and it´s best to join my support group. Nobody wants to see you in the hospital again.
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
@bipolarorwakingup My last episode seemed to be alot better than the previous ones. It progressed towards peace and tranquilty and only very few thoughts. I'm fairly confident that I manage to do it again with even better outcome. I agree that I need support and I've tried it, but no one seems to understand. Your support group seems good and I'm going to join, but I guess I also need someone to be physically there with me. Got any tips on how to get close people to support me?
ErkkiEno 1 month ago
This is so true! In our society, a spiritual emergency is completely disrespected because the medical community wants to 'name it' and box it into their model of what is 'acceptable' as behaviour, thinking processes, etc. The sad thing is that they don't even know what Bipolar is or how to 'treat' it. In a nother culture, this would be a Shamanic Awakening. Here, you're just looney.
Misslink8 1 month ago
I had my first manic episode about 10 years ago and I've been on medication ever since. I really want to get off the medication so I can finish the process and heal, but I have a full-time job and a 5-year-old son to take care of. What should I do?
thingamajiggerism 1 month ago
Very nice. Cultivating Healing.
globalfirm 2 months ago
thank you for your understanding. I have been diagnosed with bipolar. I know it is spiritual awaking yet I still need help. can we please connect? I am med free and keeping a blog of my experiences. This is a rollercoaster. Watching your videos in floods of tears. thank you. River Now Here
riversamson 2 months ago
@riversamson I recommend joining my support group, Wake the Planet. I offer Skype consulting to members for a fee. See my website bipolarORwakingUPdotcom!
bipolarorwakingup 2 months ago
By the way, I love the fact that YouTube featured this. Maybe they can lay off the RayWilliamJohnson and listen to stuff like this, they might learn something.
SSJkiller 2 months ago
@SSJkiller I didn`t know it was featured. Thanks for the tip!
bipolarorwakingup 2 months ago
who can take care of a person that is in true psychosis, It may not be fair but drugs are necessary for these types of behaviors ,society will not let people act out,,Their are no loveing placing to get care. The family becomes destroyed by the sick child or parent it is justa deeper hell on earth then normal what ever that is.
59Disciple 2 months ago
@59Disciple I´ve already taken care of 5 of people in varying degrees of psychosis. - from mild, short experiences to longer experiences which normally would be hospitalized.. All came through the process unmedicated, and future episodes proved to be milder and easier to care for. See the book, Soteria, for more details on this process.
bipolarorwakingup 2 months ago
@bipolarorwakingup MInd you, this process is not for everybody, and as my series continues, I make a strong effort to explain who could benefit from the process vs. who cannot. In that sense, this video here could use an upgrade, which I plan to do in 2012.
bipolarorwakingup 2 months ago
Regardless of intentions, you don't want to encourage someone to dive into mania and do something terrible. You don't want that responsibility for their actions.
Sduibek 2 months ago
I am concerned however that you will make going off ones meds look exciting or desirable. I run a support group for us and watching this video made me giddy in a way, just like if you told me you had some acid or something. I will stay on my meds for now, but what about those of us less stabilized w/ less self control? You must stress that this is not a unilateral decision, it is not something to be taken lightly - if the decision to go off meds is made, proper caution and preparation is needed.
Sduibek 2 months ago
Interesting. Thanks for posting this. Have you read any of Tom Wootten's Bipolar In Order stuff?
Sduibek 2 months ago
Interesting. Have you read Bipolar In Order by Tom Wootten?
Sduibek 2 months ago
I have been in 5 times over 20 years for mania...always hyper-spiritual....I am a teacher....and I view teaching as what Ive been called to do.
How do I work out this process and STAY out of the hospital?
soundtribejunkie 3 months ago
@soundtribejunkie 20 years is a very long time, and 5 hospitalizations is enough for anyone. IMO, watch the video series, validate your experiences, but research indicated that people with repeated hospitalizations over many years will have a much, much harder time working through the process than others. You could do two things. Start meditating and join my support network, Wake the Planet. But don't cut your meds. At least not yet.
bipolarorwakingup 3 months ago
@supervanscott Totally agree with all that you say. I have already put a comment on that especially with Bipolar 1 the only way to stop psychosis is with medication. All this spiritual stuff is rubbish. Thinking logically and staying down to earth is the way forward not all this religious bull.
SuperCrystabella 4 months ago
Thanks a lot for your videos! I like the idea of mind-diseases as a healing process of the soul a lot. If the soul is healed (or enlighted) life is much easier. You realise that you are not your body, neither your brain, neither your thoughts (ego), but you are your infinite soul. In my psychosis, I could feel my soul very strong and also the interconnection of all beings from the beginning of time to eternity. (I strongly recommend Mallicks film "Tree of life". It shows what I felt. )
xtremekajaker 5 months ago
I take only 600 mg of Depakine Chrono (Natrii valproas + Acidum valproicum) a day (it's a stabilizer) and also I take omega 3 - fatty acids, selenium and zink. I am afraid of another manic epizode. It's impossible to work normally in that state of mind, especially as a lawyer. I almost lost my job previous time and my family was terrified. From my manic epizode I live to lives - one is normal in this reality and other is hidden deep in my mind and soul - mistical and beautiful second life.
omegalf1978 5 months ago
I would like to thank you a lot for these videos. I am bipolar (rapid cycling) and I have to agree with you im most points. Hovever it's very strange for me, that almost all people with bipolar disorder in manic epizodes have the same thoughts and visions. When I had my first (and last) manic epizode a year ago I started to watch Saldadore Dali and Vincent Van Gogh paintings and I listened to Bethoven and Mozart almost all the time. I had an illusion of being on another higher level of reality.
omegalf1978 5 months ago
i think the people around me would be better without me .....i hate being overly aware of my surroundings ...sometimes i realy believe that im smarter than everyone else "ego" . i wish i where "normal" ...as for me if its not perfect to me its no good at all and i cant hide that from people my true feelings are always seen, ie face expressions tone of voice and body language .why would god create an abomanation such as me? i see no point in my life b/c of the destruction i cause ...The Dead End
jmecrg 5 months ago
@jmecrg Hey, come on, first of all try to seek help, because your thoughts seem to be highly depressive, if not almost suicidal. This looks to me almost as an outcry. I am sure, you are a loveable person and not this negative person you are describing. I know depressive thoughts very well, so I recommend you to let yourself prescribe anti-depressive pills (first of all) and try to find a therapeut. Good luck! A book recommondation is "Night falls fast" by Kay Redfield-Jamison.
xtremekajaker 5 months ago
@xtremekajaker yea it was an outcry at the time ...... anti-depresant pills are another way to dumb down america... "bipolar disorder" "adhd" are the titles given to the people that know what they are saying is bullshit (adhd) and the people that know in their gut that something isnt rite and we feel it so strong that we rebel against system in everyway (bi-polar) .... bi- polar disorder in the 90`s and early 00 was handed to everyone that didnt think like them ..... its all bullshit
jmecrg 3 months ago
@jmecrg So you have a tendency to be self conscious as well as being a perfectionist. That's ok. If you can accept it than so can everybody else. It's your lack of ease that may be the problem. Remember you are more than your ego. Smarts aren't as important as you think. You're here for a reason. This is just a bad chapter in a good book. I think you already have the title.
Meabhification 3 months ago
Thank you for this video.
Seeing psychosis as a "sacred healing process" - a friend, not an enemy - is, for the patient, a much more constructive approach than traditional psychiatry.
I would like to suggest, however, that drawing a clear line between the two approaches may not be helpful for all circumstances: gracefully accepting medication and, where necessary, hospitalization as a sign of love is sometimes part of the healing process too, not just an "easy way out".
Please think about it.
nickashley1979 5 months ago
@nickashley1979 I agree with you and, when I upgrade this video, I'll make that point.
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
@bipolarorwakingup Thank you again!
nickashley1979 5 months ago in playlist Vids #1 to 12 from bipolarORwakingUP: Bipolar & Spirituality
My mother left me when I was three years old. I havent seen her since she left me in a fire i accidently set the couch on fire and she ran out. does this have to do with bipolar?????? or my bipolar and ive only had one episode where I thought my step mom was someone in a mask gonna kill me.
1xThreeDaysGrace1x 5 months ago
what's the difference between manic depressive & bi-polar?
welderfeller 5 months ago
@welderfeller No diff.
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
i've noticed over the past few years i wasnt having as much depression as i did in my teens. i was having more positive episodes and this is where my denial starting to flood that i was not bipolar. now i feel i may be ive been in a mild flux between manic and depressive, kinda purgatory in a manner, and this subsided when i switched meds, i feel like the manic is breaking through but its new b/c i was scared but now i want to hug it. thankyou! i feel like i can heal this with patience
lamrimeater 5 months ago
cont'd, is hypomania a form of what you are talkinjg about? Is it a way of dispelling trauma and a healing process of some sort? How can I better learn to balance this energy without losing it entirely? I love it and see it as a boon because it helps me prosper, but it is also exhausting and seems to be a part of my addiction to relationships because they keep me grounded and centered when these manic episodes happen. Is hypomania similar to the result of the bipolar disorder? THANK YOU
xvsoothsayer 5 months ago
@xvsoothsayer I hope to talk about hypomania at a later date,
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
I am a premed student.I have worked in the medical field as an emt for many years tho, and I have seen what you are talking about countless times.However,I have always ended up in these states every few months where my energy level seems almost superhuman-I am the best student,the most dedicated worker,and suddenly anyone who comes to me to discuss a life issues is met with a torrent of peaceful,valid advice from me that almost feels channeled.But,I am functioning.Hypomania?How does this work?
xvsoothsayer 5 months ago
I thought that I was going insane, crazy, as "mad as a hatter"! Thank you for your videos. I feel like I have a better understanding of what is happening to me now and very recently. Years of repressed trauma, rejection, emotional and physical abuse by the people who were supposed to love me. I realize now that I'M NOT DEFECTIVE, which I believed since 13. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder among many others. The people that abused and traumatized me are the people I pity while healing
sarahskunk336 6 months ago
And many other "crazy" things, and when I was aware of myself, it was like I was just a neutral observer of what was taking place. Talking about this openly is very important, as I believe these experiences are a very natural expression of a repressed and hurting humanity.Thank you so much! Great work. Namaste
8Aton8 7 months ago
time I was hospitalized, but I followed my intuition and started getting involved with groups who talk about the shift in consciousness that is happening, and that brought me to your channel. I haven't had another episode, it's been a year, and I believe If I do, i will be much more aware of what is happening to me, and try to stay indoors!! But when this happens, there is an uncontrollable pull to act out whatever you are feeling. I walked barefoot for almost three days trying to save the world
8Aton8 7 months ago
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Thank you!! I had two extreme episodes, both ending in hospitalization, diagnosed as bi-polar, schizo-effective. I too thought I was Jesus, Ram Dass, Marilyn Manson, and an Indian Spirit coming through me doing sacred ceremonial dance removing evil. I also experienced childhood regression, and I was confused if it was my childhood or many other children (possibly dead coming through me) I experienced death and played out a govt/alien/god TEST. I almost believed I needed the medication the second
8Aton8 7 months ago
Thank you!! I had two extreme episodes, both ending in hospitalization, diagnosed as bi-polar, schizo-effective. I too thought I was Jesus, Ram Dass, Marilyn Manson, and an Indian Spirit coming through me doing sacred ceremonial dance removing evil. I also experienced childhood regression, and I was confused if it was my childhood or many other children (possibly dead coming through me) I experienced death and played out a govt/alien/god TEST. I almost believed I needed the medication the second
8Aton8 7 months ago
@supervanscott. I am feeling better, for now... Thx for your support. Much needed!
mab1977420 8 months ago
Dr. David Lukoff (don't know if the spelling is correct), his expierence is very very similiar to my psychosis when it started to blow my mind and ego...but then took the paranoid part over and everything changed.
EnergyOM 9 months ago
@EnergyOM See his story on my blog bipolarorwakingup DOTCOM
bipolarorwakingup 9 months ago
My bipolar is getting worse and worse every day. I cant cope with this any longer. God help me!!!!!
mab1977420 10 months ago
God bless the people who struggle.
superpleiadian 10 months ago
well I'll tell ya, if I start getting paranoia and aggressive and stuff like that, I am gonna pop a few pills that is all I can say. i am not ashamed that my brain is missing a few screws! I dont need to act like I am having a holier than thou crisis
psychedelicate100 10 months ago
yeah, the acute psychosis was leading back to a great relationship with someone and we would made love, but.... locked in a hospital. ya they fear people experiencing a more enjoyable love life than them, their grandparents and great grandparents forced themselves to not have erections, passed that on and well, chemical imbalance in reproductive organs, not my brain.
jraydunn 1 year ago
I will share this with my mother, a woman in great nead for stuff like this!
Thank you so much, I realy appreciate it, means more too me than I can explain.
Gives me a whole new insight in her life...
You realy break it down, and take your time in these videos I like that !
danmarkkaanbjerg 1 year ago
This is amazing stuff!!!!
MsCleverclogs 1 year ago
I just had to break up with my partner of 8 years because he went into a long period of mania, no medication, and when he's manic he is extremely abusive and violent. I would love to have been able to support him but how do you deal with the violence?
MsSoronaa 1 year ago
I just had to break up with my partner of 8 years because he went into a long period of mania, no medication, and when he's manic he is extremely abusive and violent. I would love to have been able to support him but how do you deal with the violence?
MsSoronaa 1 year ago
@MsSoronaa How do you deal with the violence? You can't. If a person is violent they need to be medicated. Period. Now, unfortunately, a lot of the violence comes from the aggressive people try to handle people in psychosis, but either way, if they is not a supportive, connected relationship happening, no healing will take place. Very good question.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago 4
Sometimes it is a spiritual crisis. Sometimes it is a mental illness. I have a mother who is manic depressive and a brother who is schizophrenic. I use the older term manic depressive not the newer term bipolar to differentiate between what I consider a real and serious disorder...staring and screaming out into space in absolute terror, banging one's head against the wall repeatedly and not getting out of bed for days or weeks...and a condition that 20 years ago we might have described as moody.
atelier27 1 year ago
this is the truth!
brilliant video.
wenchy2 1 year ago
This is so crazy because everything you are saying in your videos is actually
true and I express myself by writing music and like my music is really good
cashis999 1 year ago
I love your videos! You just confirm what I have always known...that my manic episode I had back in 2008 was actually a spiritual awakening and a cleansing. After I healed myself, I discovered that it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. Sometimes I do find myself wishing to go back to how I was during the manic episode...I just felt so free then...
demeriese 1 year ago
i am bipolar. this video scares me about what my life will be like. i am scared.i dont recomend other bipolars to watch this video. it really scares me about the truth
stupdamericn 1 year ago
they subjected me to meds at age 12 & unfortunately I did the same with my daughter ~ I'm struggling on & off of meds & wish that my daughter was not on them either... the DR's hand them out like candy (antidepressants) instead of treating the problem they want a quick fix but its NOT! Been dealing with this sh*t for years on meds. I'd rather feel the sh*t than be numb. They damed me for the rest of my life with their chemical imbalance BS & I would need meds forever...
SataniaSlutz 1 year ago
this is really a magnificent series of videos you have made and they all confirm things for me. im very introverted and dont like expressing myself. i know that i have bipolar but haven't been treated or properly diagnosed by a psycologist (just my GP) . do i go or not?
ifyagetdown 1 year ago
@ifyagetdown Well, if you identify strongly with the series, I'd just keep watching because if you think you have bipolar disorder, you will be medicated by psychiatry.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
this is a magnificent series of videos it really confirms many things for me. are you on medication or not?
ifyagetdown 1 year ago
@ifyagetdown No, I've never been medicated. In truth, I've never had bipolar disorder!
See My Story...Am I Bipolar OR waking UP? It explains what happened to me!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
this is a magnificent series of videos it really confirms many things for me. are you on medication or not?
ifyagetdown 1 year ago
Got to tell ya, when I remembered my past, (mother selling me to a pedophile for a weekend when I was 9, then seeing the guy killed by my father a few weeks later), everyone thought I was the nuttiest person on earth! No one would listen to me, and my mother wouldn't leave my side, making sure she told everyone I was mentally ill so she wouldn't be suspect of being a freak. NOT FUN! Yes, I've also had a lot of manic episodes and the big bopper started over 17 years ago.
ClairvoyantMediumOne 1 year ago
@ClairvoyantMediumOne Now that's a rough start on life. Its a miracle you are still alive.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup True that, but my brother that was just like me, but molested by our mother killed himself in September 2008, so the saga continues.
ClairvoyantMediumOne 1 year ago
@ClairvoyantMediumOne Sorry to hear that, did you see video #8 on suicide yet?
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
I have bipolar too. it's been 8 years for me. 3 depressive episodes. 2 manic episodes. Now I'm just flat and slightly scared and introverted, but I fight it.
The content of these video clips are so true.
fezzbarnes 1 year ago
@fezzbarnes I fear that "flat" you speak of, yet this latest depressive episode has got me scared for my life, so I'm medicating while waiting for counseling. (My brother killed himself because he refused to talk about it), so I'm doing all I can to avoid it. Strange thing is, we both saw spirits, heard them, talked to them and hid it for most of our lives because of how others treated us when we did say something about it. I think we need a camp where we can "let go" until we come out of it.
ClairvoyantMediumOne 1 year ago
wauw!
LaBellaa1984 1 year ago
This is so correct!
I have bipolar disorder. Breathing fresh air and doing moderate level of physical activity quite helpful for me as I don't have anyone who could care for me. But I think I can have some normal episode if somebody could treat me with compassion. But I'm more worried for my 6 yrs old daughter as she has been diagnosed with ADHD. How do I know if she has bipolar disorder co-exist with ADHD and is there any difference in treating both? Can you shed some light on it?
unsuccessful1 1 year ago
@unsuccessful1
You are unsuccessful1. That is understandable, and evocative, and unsuccessful.
And here you are asking for success.
Paint the picture of your unsuccessfullness unsuccessful1
and do it successfully
and / or come from your successful1 when you wish for success (cos that's what most of us though you were asking for).
Thank you fellow spirit, peace and love to you in truth always.
stupidtreehugger 1 year ago
@unsuccessful1
Ok, well, please try to stop being afraid, and stop buying into that priests of the Medici magic. video.google Healing Cancer from the Inside Out, which is a covert name for a fine docu on the ascendancy of doctors.
Gary Null The HIV Myth
Dr Mercola
Dr Kalokerinos
The Money Masters docu
Dr Blaylock ...
stupidtreehugger 1 year ago
@unsuccessful1 I am bipolar with ADHD you cannot know for sure if he is having bipolar untill he shows symptoms. I have a boy with ADHD and I am just aware he could get biopolar too. I am taking care of him with the knowledge that I have by reading and if he ever gets manic or depression symptoms I how I will see them soon enough. The best thing is not to live in denial. I am writing a book about my psychosis stage and it does make the people who have read it shocked.
gleymmerey 1 year ago
I need support :( my counsler helps me he against medicine sounds kind of like you but than again he is devout christain ... also my friend who is 25 helps me and my friend who is 21 helps me :P
constance380 1 year ago
wow, I thought all this was true I have just never heard anyone else agree before.cool
movadoband 1 year ago
Oh my gosh youre a fucking genius, im a 17 yearold hippie, my mother is bipolar, she has been bipolar mostly all my life, this video explained mostly all of the things she faced and etc..., i believe you are 100% correct with your research, i mean i should have approached my mother with a different prespective, may god bless you
BirdmanlBirdCage 1 year ago 4
@BirdmanlBirdCage Hey Birdman...show your mom a few of the videos! I think she will appreciate your understanding!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
I've been trying to heal myself from this,I'm not succeeding.
movadoband 1 year ago
Plz help me I have just had my 4th manic episode!
I am know currently taking carbamazipene I hate the drugs I dont believe they help!
They r just trying to quiet my mind soon I will lose all passion 4 life!
I can not take this medication its hurting me!
I dont feel like me anymore I feel confused and lost in my own world and soon I will say nothing!
wackysassy 1 year ago
@wackysassy Hi I'm on Carbamazipene & it awful. Thinking of quitting myself. What mg you on?
johnmase1 1 year ago
@johnmase1
Hi John Im on 800mg a day its scary I feel like im going introverted!
No one understands!
Is ur mg high 2 I feel panic going 2 shopping malls!
I feel flat I feel it is the fault of the medication but everyone around me says take it!
How do u feel John did u have a manic episode?
It was either carbon Or LItium so I asked 4 carbon as my nana recently died from Lithium Intoxication by neglet!! The word lithium makes me sick so I choose this!
I loved my life b4 this episode!
wackysassy 1 year ago
This is an excellent video and i can say from my own experience very accurate. I honestly believe that there is a breaking point if we are able to let the experience be completed. Unfortunately quite often people are interupted by others who are fearful simply because they are not aware that this is actually a very natural way that the person experiencing this is being healed. The road back to sanity can seem insane!
Gord2011 1 year ago
@Gord2011 How are you now Gord? On meds? Feeling reborn? Both?
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup Feeling just fine these days and no medication. Have not taken any type of psychiatric drugs in 13 years as I have not seen a psychiatrist since 1998. I have however felt reborn since 1996 when I was involuntarily admitted to the hospital by police for being too happy and overtalkative. From then and still today I know what happened to me was a real blessing. I real awakening to the real me! The psychiatrist and I could not see eye to eye and I refused to take his advise.
Gord2011 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup The advise was given as more of a lecture as he would discredit my experience as an illness when I said it was the best thing to ever happen to me. Told me I must take drugs the rest of my life and would probably never work again and be on a disability. Also recommended housing ran by the system. Oct. 3, I will be at the job I have now 7 years and I have lived where i do now since Sept. 1996. Longest I have worked at same job and lived same spot. I am more stable than ever!
Gord2011 1 year ago
@Gord2011 how would you feel about me posting your story on my blog? Healing stories like yours are an important part of my research and I collect them. If you are interested, please send me a message! FYI,1996 was the year for me too!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup Yes, Please share my story with anyone interested in our knowledge of this crisis that our governments are allowing to happen! I will never forget the anger in the eyes of the psychiatist when i asked him if he had the same experience as I. He responded no but had learned from "schooling"? The dictionary defines knowledge as " understanding gained by actual experience" Is the dictionary wrong? Second hand knowledge or first hand knowledge. The choice is ours!
Gord2011 1 year ago
Thanks so much for publishing these videos. I have found them very useful relating what I already know but it a great format.
I am a bit perturbed by your theory that schizophrenia relates to a lower lever of conciousness. Whilst manic depression a higher one and spiritual emergency higher still.
tophatdamelon 1 year ago
Ever heard of Jed McKenna? :)
Videodeathtyl 1 year ago
? Help me find someone out here for empathic support. Phoenix, AZ. I started with a manic episode in 2007, went on meds. kept it quiet till now (the mania) but am coming off meds and it's erupting again, which is ok. I just want / need help dealing with this surge of intensity. a little push from an emotionally trying experience triggered it. I'm cycling up again understand it and am surrendering, meditating, trying to keep my cool on the outside at work, but need spiritual guidance.
NicoleCHathaway 1 year ago
@NicoleCHathaway Try looking for a TRANSPERSONAL psychologist in your area familiar with the work of Dr.Stan Grof. That would be a great first step.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
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NicoleCHathaway 1 year ago
I am bipolar and I'm on some meds. but don't feel any better I feel constantly depressed and like there's no hope. I've been hospitalized around 6 times this year alone. I miss the mania sometimes because i feel depressed an wonder why I still live. If your interrested in my story or got some ideas message me.
mackdaddytodd666 1 year ago
i dont understand when you say "surrender"? im thinking your telling me to just "go with the flow"? and do what evers on my mind..., i have not been told nor have i asked i was bipolar but come from a very long line from aunts and gramdas...
watactown 1 year ago
@watactown surrender means trust your intuition, go into the process and allow it to happen. Do not fight it. Unfortunately, most people will need empathetic support to help them do this, and right now, that support is rarely available.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
Man, your videos are just amazing. Please please please, keep up the good work!
MrJmg071769 1 year ago
I thnk you have just become manic about this new approach! :)
Painnnnful 1 year ago
I don't believe those theories, coz why don't the other people have this need for "healing" with psychosis and mania, e6c., and it runs in families, identical twins raised separated have like 50-70% chance to develop bipolar, if the other twin has it, However, you still represented it in an interesting way and the pictures you chose are awesome!
Painnnnful 1 year ago
@Painnnnful I don't understand how the identical twin point makes a difference.
greenelf12 1 year ago
I appreciate your ideas. I have lived on medication straight through for 14 years. I have reached a point that I do not believe the meds are helping. I am consistantly in a deep depression now for a couple of years. I'm ready for a change. I wish to God I could have a manic anything...... Mania sounds like something lovely I experenced during an acupunture treatment. I would welcome an idea. Thanks for speaking!. Peace, tatsatu
tatsatu 1 year ago
thanks for explaining it so well...
poetonroute99 1 year ago
thanks you were more helpful than my doctor in this video meds make me gain too much wait thanks again
KINGOFNEWYORK1000 1 year ago
I love your vids...also Dali and lots of other beatifull art.
Good point of view. In the Netherlands we have an expierience worker who wrote a book about psychosis and a point of view from Philosophy (Kant, Descartes etc) and it fits very good to your point of view.
He's called Wouter Kusters.
Keep up with the good work....love
Sabienladen 1 year ago
well said what's your name.
omgthazjulie 1 year ago
@omgthazjulie Sean Blackwell
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
Hey Sean, why is it that it is hardest to heal the screwed up thoughts I had during acute psychosis? Yes, I thought I was both Jesus, and Satan, but more so thinking the rapture was near and I was gonna be left behind. Do you have any thoughts for me?
sirk331969 1 year ago
Yes, I also had acute psychosis and have been hospitalized 3 times since 1999 (with 2007 being my last attack). I was verbally abused as well (by my father). I also had very screwed up thoughts about Jesus and Satan...thinking I was both of them, and to this day, this part of my mania has been the hardest to heal/ and make sense of. And even though I've watched several of your videos, I am still left with unanswered questions or thoughts. What are your thoughts? ~Kris
sirk331969 1 year ago
wooow this video was sick
Hiphopisntdead1 1 year ago
@Hiphopisntdead1 Follow the Leader....
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
I love these :..} People ("normal" people) get ticked off when I talk about my spiritual experiences because they don't share them. Everyone's so stuck in their Ego & expectations of normal lives that if anyone talks about anything different, they get afraid and want to shoot it down. You won't learn much about how objective things affect your subjective soul & emotions during the compressions of "normality." I don't care too much what "they" think. It moves me to know I'm not alone! <3
bringmeahigherlovem8 1 year ago
Brilliant man!
cnotemorello 2 years ago
To Bipolarorwakingup and t4ac3y1:
I understand most of your feedbacks. I agree, this is not the right forum and I should not have made the discussion based on what I live right now. I guess trying to understand too much a world governed by a set of different rules.
Thank you
larsouille858 2 years ago
especially on the phase when they come w/ some much love and it is killing me to know that at somepoint I won't be able to carry on w/ the cyclic idea indexed on her rapid cycling that someone will touched her... my latin judeo-christian education I guess.
larsouille858 2 years ago
It sounds like your friend/daughter??? is not in a psychosis like I describe here. I'm guessing she is hypomanic? It's a tough place to be for you. IMO, the way to heal hypomania is, most likely, to take them into non-ordinary states, similar to a real psychosis. But the world is not ready for that. And to be honest, I'm not sure that I am either.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
She is my love, what do you mean by hypomanic and to take her into "non ordinary states"? I find very difficult to digest what she can do and be so much in love w/ me. Someone referred to us manipulating ppl who have BP... I rather think it is most of the time the other way around. Lies, planning, premeditation, it just kills me. The most striking is that I feel deprive from the truth as she never never will admit the obvious.
larsouille858 2 years ago
You can look up hypomanic on wikipedia and see if her symptoms fit more with that set of symptoms. This video speaks to a genuine period of 'insanity" or acute psychosis - what can be referred to as a 'non-ordinary state'. My other videos, like#2, explain this better. But it doesn't sound like she is there right now. I know all of this must be very confusing for you.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
@bipolarorwakingup umm no don't look in wikipedia, anyone can edit their facts, even if they're not a member. Go look it up in a book where knowledge is still sacred.
omgthazjulie 1 year ago
How can we understand when you are bombarded the night before with the "Oh God, I love you so much", yet the day after you find out she/he is w/ someone else just for the sex gratification then go through the denial-guilt-isolation-accusation for what happened yet you still need to provide inconditionnal love and support.I can see so much truth in this video,
larsouille858 2 years ago
What you say about "knowing when ppl are coming at you with love or fear" is so on the mark. I would even add another which would be manipulation; those who are aware of your vulnerable state and would take advantage of you; thus, adding to the trauma you are desperately trying to heal. For myself, this is a time when isolation becomes so very important. Most tell me that's "unhealthy" but, through my many experiences, it's quite necessary for my own protection.
t4ac3y1 2 years ago
Do not know whether I can understand all of this, but what about the people who love them so much, yet go through suffering and pain because of what is known as "hypersexual" mania phase.
larsouille858 2 years ago
It's not about being hypersexual so much as it is a need to be intimate with someone. The two are very different things. The problem comes when one is seeking that intimacy in the form of closeness touch and love and the other perceives this as a "come on". If things progress, the manic doesn't see it as a bad thing, just a beautiful loving experience. It's two people exercising judgement and perception on two very different levels. Be present and maybe there won't be a need for all the pain.
t4ac3y1 2 years ago
If I understand, you are saying that she is searching for a certain form of love when she claims her deep love to another man (me)?... I am present, always have been present w/ my all soul. How could she look for intimacy somewhere else when her words and writings express a "uniquely deep love"?
larsouille858 2 years ago
Listen, I can't speak for her, but this is where the "manipulation" comes in.. on the other person's part. Men do it all the time. They do it even when a woman is using good judgement. Just imagine if that judgement and perception is altered by a manic event.
t4ac3y1 2 years ago
Sometimes I wish "things would progress w/ whoever she is searching this intimacy" and I would then go through the nightmare once and forever to lose her because when I tried, it goes through all the threats ranging from hurting herself to indescriptable behavior... Until the next episode - This, I would qualify as manipulative.
larsouille858 2 years ago
Perhaps she is being manipulative; I cannot speak for her. I was referring to other's being manipulative when one is in a compromised state. Men do it all the time even when a woman is at her best perception and judgement. Maybe you're not the victim here, and maybe you are; that's not for me to say.
t4ac3y1 2 years ago
Larsouille, I appreciate t4ac3y1's advice and think that his perspective could be a valid one, however also feel the need to step in a little and tell you that neither of us is in a position to offer counselling here. Our opinions are only possible projections and we couldn't possible pretend to know your love. This video speaks of a psychological condition somewhat different from what she is experiencing right now.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
You are the first person to give me genuine clarity. Thank you for your work on this! I feel not so crazy the more I watch these videos.
IrnBruFiend 2 years ago
Thanks!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thank you for your work and sharing your knowledge.
Figm0 2 years ago
You are welcome!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thank you, this brings tears to my eyes!
Biglightful 2 years ago
Man, you're soooooooooooooo great!
Biglightful 2 years ago
hope there's a word more than thanx..
i've been bipolar since 4 and a half years,but i still believe in god..
hope he'll give u the strength,time and exciting resources to mantain in posting such vedios..
i love ur mind and caring so much..
great thanx for your wife.. <3
(a lebanese 24 old years girl having bipolar "am not ashamed of it,i've never been,even before ur great youtubes")
lovebeauty41 2 years ago
You are welcome!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
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lovebeauty41 2 years ago
thank you. i will think it over. great research and experience job. anyway you story given me already some hope:)
Cherryvify 2 years ago
Thank-you
SPARKLEDEMON1 2 years ago
It's important to note and quite unfortunate that the American Psychological Association still does not recognize TP and so does not have a division within it's organization focused on TP. Still there are many practitioners, educators, and researchers within the field who go to the APA conferences and present their work. Your outreach along with theirs will change the way we look at the psyche and these rich mental processes. Kudos to you.
ccbarshop 2 years ago
I so appreciate you putting this and other pieces together and your blog and other efforts. This gives people hope and other more strength-based ways to negotiate what can be a challenging life process.
I am just completing my doctorate in clinical psychology in transpersonal psychology (TP). As you know, there are many who have contributed to theory within TP: William James (first coined the term), Roberto Assagioli, Jung, Maslow, and of course Grof.
ccbarshop 2 years ago
There are several schools that educate psychologists and psychotherapists to work with their clients with this model (spiritual emergency/emergence.) The Institute of Transpersonal Psychology in Palo Alto is one of them.
ccbarshop 2 years ago
This work comes from Dr.Stan Grof, a founder of Transpersonal Psychology. All of my videos are based on his work, and that of other similar minds.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thank-you from my overwhelming heart! I've gone through this process for over ten years, and finally,finally I'm living in the rebirth aspect of this dark night of the soul. This video is an amazing confirmation of what I've fought to believe and hold onto.
Namaste
SPARKLEDEMON1 2 years ago
Great to hear you are finally coming through!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thank you for so clearly breaking this down for everyone-- extremely thought provoking and mind-changing.
I've been medicated for chronic depression for over 10 years... do you think this spiritual awakening/healing is also true for depression or just bipolar? Thanks
yoroshiku2 2 years ago
Thankyou <3
domma4you 2 years ago
Do u know how long a spiritual emergency last???
guyleena 2 years ago
Good Question. A properly supported 'psychosis' type of experience will only be a few days, but needs 24 hour support. However, the number of these you need to go through is uncertain. That's why we really need a lot of education and clinics.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I am always drawn to checkin out ur videos. so enlightening! i have had 3 episodes over the last 8 yrs. still on meds which is hard cause ive gone past the stage of being ok to taking them to feelin absolutely nothing in havin them now! have had alot of spiritual awakenin over past 3 yrs. i work with massage and now energy work and it all seems so relevant as to why i had these episodes! think 4 me its wantin to have kids and be free from my fear...just hard to get help and proper support ***
noescaping1 2 years ago
wow, it is hard to believe someone finally understands the truth of a greater reality within the human experience. it makes me sad, so sad that conventional medicaine has become so problematic to the spiritual experience of being human that they maybe forsaking humanity entirely. I sense the whole world is in the mist of an upcoming manic episode & I a wait the day of our collective spiritual release & rebirth. thank you so much for being here, now.
TAZjohannahMarie 2 years ago
Yup, one giant manic episode. I think its coming. These mania's are becoming sooooo common now.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Science & religion has lost its spirituality, leaving souls behind to suffer alone and rejecting human expression because of fear and doubt. We have forgot how to love without condition, to help without expectation, and how to stand in silence and just be for another person. Bipolar seems like the souls retaliation of years of neglect, how often do you scream and no one seems to hear a sound?
TAZjohannahMarie 2 years ago
OK, now that was beautiful.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Everything you said relates to my experience. It all resulted in being diagnosed bipolar. I have not hit psychosis but I felt like i needed to let go but did not because I'm alone with 3 children. I gave in to the drugs 4 days ago because I could not see the choice. Funny when i did my masters degree. I interviewed two psyc's who tried to set up therapeutic communities offering relationships rather than drugs as healing for mental illness. Little did I no I would need it in the future. thank you
mshomefire 2 years ago
I don't no if you will read this this post but I was captivated and awakened by this video. I am a psychotherapist trained in a controversial way by the last of the UK Rogerian cohort. I was celebrated and elevated by the world of aging hippies, healer controversial therapist.
mshomefire 2 years ago