My Self Harm Story - WARNING images of self harm

[pielubberx3]

swallowing needles!?!?! D:

[PuppiesAreEpic]

Oh my god... some of them are so deep... you can see the muscle, even maybe the bone

[MISSWACCIJACCI]

i was a blood letter asa a kid. Just read this "I have major Issues! & HOW DEEP TO CUT FOR DUMMIES", But really folks.. Where is my bar of EMO SOAP! has any1 seen it so I can take a hot Bath & Listen 2 some LINCOLN PARK! ( I FEEL NOTHING THEREFORE I CUT )

[Paige101fun]

this hasnt happend to me.but i have a friend named angela who is called a slut whore skank and other numoroes names she was put in a mental hospiltle for cutting herself.she also jumped a off her rof and broke her foot.not in attemp of sucicide but sadness or sumthing

[Lindsayluv1]

I started cutting when I was 12 also. Now I'm 14 and I've been to the hospital twice. My first cut was in the 4th grade and I regreted it. No one knows besides my friend Kennedy, who killed herself last week on Monday at around 3:30 pm. She was the one person that meant anything to me. Sorry for being a downer and stuff but I just really wanted to get this out there.

[emma98122]

the last month or so i been cutting the first cutt i thought was no big deal. but then i kept on ctting. i couldnt stop. i cant stop. they get deeper. in a week i cutt 12times. im so sad i cant live like this much longer. should i end it all? i just want some help but i dont want anyone to know.

[Lindsayluv1]

@emma98122 Exact same for me. I tried suicide a week ago. It wasn't easy but I almost succeeded. I was clinically dead for 2 hours and I woke up in the hospital. It was the scariest thing ever. But I still cut for some reason and I cant stop either. Please be strong. Dont make that decision. Its the one choice you can never go back on:( Please we love you:)

[emma98122]

@Lindsayluv1 thanks im trying to stop its just so hard. im happy to find some people i can relate to. (we also love you:)

[MemoriesofIreland190]

I don't know if I want to start. I don't know if it will help me at all cope with stuff or if it will just be a temporary thing like other stuff I have tryed before. I don't even know if I am depressed or anything. My mother asked me to tell her whats wrong or if I have problems but it is hard to answer because I don't know if I have any problems. At the moment i am just scratching at my skin but this is nearly having no effect and I am tempted to move onto scissors for cutting. Can u advice me?

[CellarDoor103]

@MemoriesofIreland190 Please don't start cutting. Did you see my video? You don't want to end up like that!! It consumes your life. What ever problems you have, you will only make them twice as bad if you introduce Self Harm into your life. It brings its own problems and you don't need it. I implore you to talk to a professional or even to your mum about what you're feeling because SH is the last thing you want to get involved with. Please reply and let me know how you're doing x

[maddy208]

i am a cutter and i really want to stop it...

its destroying me both from inside and outside...

i just wanna stop it...

my parents also got to know bout this after seeing my scars i tried very hard o hide them but they saw it

i tried to stop it and was able to stop it for around 2 months but i lost my control and did it again 3 days ago and gonna do it tonight as well...

i am havin an exam day after tomorrow and i am not able to concentrate on it

i just wanna stop it can u pls help me????

[blondeybaby23]

I'm currently struggling with self harming. I used to self harm months ago, but stopped. My mom saw the scars months back, and told me I was an idiot looking for attention. I am back to self harming again, and cannot seek help this time, because my parents will get mad at me again. I want to go to a counsellor, but they said no because I wouldn't say why.

I don't know what to do, I think i'm addicted. It's the only thing that makes me feel better.

[CellarDoor103]

@blondeybaby23 Hey blondey. I am really sorry to hear that you're self harming. It is always essential to seek help if you are turning to self harm though. I don't know if your parents are anything like mine but mine really don't understand it, they kick off at me if they know i have done it. Tbh i hid it from them for a long time and I kind of wish it didn't because I felt a lot better once they did know. Self harm quickly becomes an addiction, you replace your normal reactions to anger

[CellarDoor103]

@blondeybaby23 and upset with self harm. I would seriously suggest you call your gp, make an appointment (you don't have to tell your parents) and go and speak to him/her about what is going on. They can prescribe you medication if necessary and they will refer you to get the appropriate therapy. You don't have to tell your parents but if they find out that you are getting help surely that would make them more happy than if you were just cutting yourself. I am always here to talk to. <3 x

[dannymann1995]

my mum doesnt know i self harm.. i take knives from the kitchen and use them to calm me down becuase i cant find anything else :'( i hope you are okay yourself and i am here for anyone who needs someone to talk to xx

[myscalytail]

@dannymann1995 that is what i do too, my family and friends do not know

[CellarDoor103]

@myscalytail I really think you should let your GP know, or a teacher at school. Self Harm won't get better on its own.

[CellarDoor103]

@MCRshannonheeney I wish I could give a simple answer but there is no immediate cure. Have you spoke to you doctor about it. I would definitely suggest that if you haven't already. Inbox me about it. If you feel like harming yourself, talk to me. I can be very understanding about it and sometimes i feel that talking to people distracts me so i don't do it. Hope this helped. x

[CellarDoor103]

@BillieSecrets Do you self harm?

[95natster]

this brought tears to my eyes!i know its not attention seeking, i completely understand self harm, i have started doing it on occasion, and i am determined to stop before it gets worse! hope your okay <3

[CellarDoor103]

@95natster Thanks for watching my video. I know it isn't very pleasant but it is reactions like yours that i want to inspire. I hope you can stop now, it only gets harder and harder. I am still self harming but i am getting better. If you ever want to talk - feel free to inbox me. I won't ever judge but i could give you advice or just a listening ear.

:) x

[95natster]

@CellarDoor103 I am still self harming too and it got worse. thank you. same goes for you xo

[CellarDoor103]

@95natster Awww, I am really sorry to hear that. I just hope you are using clean blades and keeping safe if you are going to do it. do you go to the hospital afterwards? x

[95natster]

@CellarDoor103 yeah i am using clean blades. hope you are too. nope, so far ive managed to sort everything out myself. you? x

[bcfcem]

Aww hun i am sorry i allready knew some off it but not all off it and if u want to to talk 2 me about things i am always here for u and u allready no that dont u hun xx love u xx

[CellarDoor103]

@bcfcem Well, I made this in March so obviously some stuff has happened since then. Thanks, hun :) Glad you support me. We all need support so it is good to have a community like this (even if it is online) where we won't be judged. Thanks Em xx

[mythicman4545]

gay youtube better not remove this again. this vid helps me the most out of any others for some reason.

[CellarDoor103]

@mythicman4545 Well I have edited so the pictures are in black and white and look less graphic. I didn't want to take the pictures out because it just emphasises how much of a problem self injury is. Glad you like the video. Message me anytime if you need someone to talk to. :) x

[mythicman4545]

@CellarDoor103 i used to watch this all the time and yeah ive talked to u bout it before, its gotten worse. ill send u a pvt msg and maybe u can give me advice. thanks for this video, people need to know its not for attention.

[CellarDoor103]

@mythicman4545 I hate the stereotype that people do it for attention. yeah, maybe some people do, but not the majority of self injurers! I'm sorry to hear you've gotten worse. Don't worry though. It's not forever. You're strong enough to fight this. I have done it a lot too, but i've been cut-free for 3 weeks now. :) private message me? hope you're ok x

[NorthPoleization]

Hey, just wanted to say that it took a lot of courage to put your story up on a platform like youtube, and I really appreciate it!

I guess its worth spreading the awareness in the end :)

Take care

[CellarDoor103]

@NorthPoleization Thank You

I know my story is just like many others but people should still see how much of a problem self injury and depression is. thanks for supporting. x

[doodleorme]

Did you remove the poem?

[CellarDoor103]

@doodleorme yeah, I took it out of this video but i made a separate video for the poem. x

[djrox666]

how did u get it back up

[CellarDoor103]

@djrox666 I've edited it. none of the photos are in colour so i guess it is less graphic. I hope they don't remove it x