Wait a second......... You took/take Ephedra? (The reason I am clarifying is because I have been taking it for so many years. Ive stopped, started, tried to stop, started agin....and so on.)
Girl, I hear you. I just graduated in May and have been applying to/searching for a "big girl job" since Marchish. The jobs market is tough! I'm nannying part-time right now and living at home, but I completely get the whole "life being on hold" business. This time of transition makes me feel like a failure which in turn has caused my depression to get our of control and is definitely triggering my eating disorder. Good luck on the jobs and I hope your stress becomes more manageable. :)
Your road appears to be a rough one. But,hang in there! Things will get better. All the things you mentioned are temporary. Getting a job...sooner or later you will get one. For now take what you can get. Explain to your landlord your situation,maybe he/she will be willing to work things out with you. Take out sometime to help others...shelter,etc. You will be surprise how much you will feel better helping those less fortunate than yourself. You have purpose and your not wasting your life.
P.s. you're not wasting your life. Getting a job overseas doesn't happen overnight! You've put your foot in the door, which is all you can do sometimes. Just keep positive and I have NO doubt one day soon you'll be back in stride. :)
I think being disordered is a part of being human [we all have our quirks and demons], you just have to keep trying to make it something that doesn't harm you or damage you terribly. Which is what you're doing! Please remember not to be too hard on yourself. Sending good vibrations and love to you, please update again soon. <3
It just sounds like all your eggs are in the moving overseas/career basket, so maybe until one of those jobs comes through, you'll be feeling kinda miserable.. Are there no good jobs in your line of work around here?
btw, agreed on doctors. If they don't have an answer for something, they always just pin it on stress. Apparently, every feeling I've had in the past 15 years is all due to anxiety. Amazing how fucking healthy I am. I never even get a cold. It's all just anxiety.
@jas111000 there are jobs here but I just personally feel like I want/need to move overseas for a few years for the experience. it's hard to explain. and ugggh doctors drive me crazy.
I am looking forward to those videos :) I am sorry to hear about all your stresses, but I have a feeling you are going to be ok and every thing will work out how its supposed to!
sounds like me - my boyfriend - just broke up with me via text - so all ive done is sleep - and i have no appetite - my rents ambushed me and told me i had to go to the hospital - im already in therapy - so i guess im changing therapists idk - its scary - and i hate change an stress - and guys breaking me heart - i take it very hard. - hope ure stress goes down!
I just love you! You are so ballsy for moving out of the country.
Please say more detail about art therapy or refer me to another vid. :)
keldration 1 month ago
I thought ephedra was illegal in the US?
becksh23 5 months ago
Wait a second......... You took/take Ephedra? (The reason I am clarifying is because I have been taking it for so many years. Ive stopped, started, tried to stop, started agin....and so on.)
mysticfaerieluna 6 months ago
@mysticfaerieluna I took ephedra for yeeears. quit for a while. and took it this summer (but I'm off it now). nasty stuff.
paledreams 6 months ago
i would LOVE to hear info abt ur experience with ephedra! it would help me a lot! xoxo abbey!
abbeysambivalence 6 months ago
Girl, I hear you. I just graduated in May and have been applying to/searching for a "big girl job" since Marchish. The jobs market is tough! I'm nannying part-time right now and living at home, but I completely get the whole "life being on hold" business. This time of transition makes me feel like a failure which in turn has caused my depression to get our of control and is definitely triggering my eating disorder. Good luck on the jobs and I hope your stress becomes more manageable. :)
StengthForRecovery 6 months ago
Good to hear from you! I feel that way quite often about wasting my life in my disorder. Keep searching hard, & it will come to you!
Sometimes doctors suck. You just have to find the right one for you.
<3
etrox318 6 months ago
Your road appears to be a rough one. But,hang in there! Things will get better. All the things you mentioned are temporary. Getting a job...sooner or later you will get one. For now take what you can get. Explain to your landlord your situation,maybe he/she will be willing to work things out with you. Take out sometime to help others...shelter,etc. You will be surprise how much you will feel better helping those less fortunate than yourself. You have purpose and your not wasting your life.
jayjean72 6 months ago
@jayjean72 thanks for the support and positivity! :)
paledreams 6 months ago
P.s. you're not wasting your life. Getting a job overseas doesn't happen overnight! You've put your foot in the door, which is all you can do sometimes. Just keep positive and I have NO doubt one day soon you'll be back in stride. :)
sumkindawunnerful 6 months ago
I think being disordered is a part of being human [we all have our quirks and demons], you just have to keep trying to make it something that doesn't harm you or damage you terribly. Which is what you're doing! Please remember not to be too hard on yourself. Sending good vibrations and love to you, please update again soon. <3
sumkindawunnerful 6 months ago
@sumkindawunnerful thanks for all the support! and I will certainly try to update more often :)
paledreams 6 months ago
It just sounds like all your eggs are in the moving overseas/career basket, so maybe until one of those jobs comes through, you'll be feeling kinda miserable.. Are there no good jobs in your line of work around here?
btw, agreed on doctors. If they don't have an answer for something, they always just pin it on stress. Apparently, every feeling I've had in the past 15 years is all due to anxiety. Amazing how fucking healthy I am. I never even get a cold. It's all just anxiety.
jas111000 6 months ago
@jas111000 there are jobs here but I just personally feel like I want/need to move overseas for a few years for the experience. it's hard to explain. and ugggh doctors drive me crazy.
paledreams 6 months ago
@paledreams yeah, no need to explain. I can understand you feeling like that's something you need to do. Hopefully you'll hear something back soon.
jas111000 6 months ago
I am looking forward to those videos :) I am sorry to hear about all your stresses, but I have a feeling you are going to be ok and every thing will work out how its supposed to!
Searrha 6 months ago
sounds like me - my boyfriend - just broke up with me via text - so all ive done is sleep - and i have no appetite - my rents ambushed me and told me i had to go to the hospital - im already in therapy - so i guess im changing therapists idk - its scary - and i hate change an stress - and guys breaking me heart - i take it very hard. - hope ure stress goes down!
kara12182 6 months ago