my last youtube for a while, post gastric bypass health problems

[PozestStar]

(part 4) please know that there are people out here who wish and pray for your success and happiness. I hope I can see more of your videos in the future! Thanks for your honesty and openness with us! You really are an inspiration!

[PozestStar]

(part 3) I worry about gaining weight too and sometimes the sensation of being satisfied by a meal makes me feel like I'm going to gain 20 lbs >< This is an irrational fear. It's one of those things that will be stuck in my head for life, but just know that as long as you're keeping an eye on 'what' your eating, everything will be fine. If you 'do' happen to gain a few pounds, you know from first hand experience that it can be lost again. I'm rambling, I don't think I've said anything, but

[PozestStar]

(part 2)  The fantastic thing about fat and all things weight loss related is that it is 100% surmountable. Cancer is a question mark. HIV/AIDS is a question mark. Fat/loose skin/wrinkles can be gotten rid of. And even if they can't, we're healthier people because we're losing the weight. We will live longer and encourage others and that's super important. Please don't be discouraged.

[PozestStar]

(part 1) I had my surgery 3 days ago. I'm 25 and when I first saw my doctor I was 460 lbs. My ultimate goal is 160 (my 'relaxed' goal is 180-170). That's 300 lbs that I want to lose. I went through all of this before my surgery and I'm sure it'll resurface as I lose weight. In an odd way, your video is very inspirational because so many times I only hear the "glitz and glamor" side. It's nice to hear someone talk about negatives. I will say this though: keep your chin up.

[sleepingbeauty1967]

Sent you a private message. I believe in you! I am here for you!

[ANewLisa11]

You are someone to look up to, most particularly for your honesty and candidness.  You are not alone, I think most of us have food and body issues to some degree, but it's not what we end up talking about. I wish you well.

[MsButterflySoul]

Even if u "don't" "Feel qualified to be the person that bariatric patients look up to" u need to know that you ARE a person for "any" person struggling with weight and/or depression issues to look at and listen to. Everyone who goes on this journey will not end up happy and go-lucky but they DO need to know that there is a possibility of a down side.

Please don't feel that you have let ANYONE down. You have NOT.... and please please, take care of YOU. I wish you the absolute Best.

[CYRINTHIA212]

i pray everything gets better with your custody issues..God bless

[angie2sm]

i totally agree with you about not even bending the truth a tiny with where you are mentally about the surgery. i wish i had the strength to make a video and be as brutally honest as you have been and maybe one day i will be but right now i cant be. my journey has been a roller coaster from day one, i was married, got divorced, got remarried and now heading for divorce again VERY SOON. it is a huge issue for me mentally but going through everything I have been, i have come to a conclusion...

[angie2sm]

that i will not let anyone treat me how they want and that i do matter and my number one is God first and foremost, myself, and my girls. i give u thanks for this video and know that i will be there if you ever want to talk. i have 1 person i talk to about my "issues" and that is melanie, myownlighthouse, she knows me inside and out and its sad that it is that way for me, i wish i could be more honest about myself with people but i dont feel comf with myself enough to me. thank u again 4 this.

[True620]

T.y. for your honesty. Truth is, most of us that have wls are broken. We just don't realize how much until after surgery. I hope you do consider coming back at a later date. People would like to learn from your experience. But, take care of you first. I pray you good physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health. I am subscribing in case you do decide to check back in w/your YT family. I hope u feel much love & support your way. Be blessed, Susan

[MizShaiOnex18]

Sadly, this is the first video that i have seen of yours but I wish you well on your journey and I hope things improve for you. I admire your honesty.

[msparis]

Thank you for this video. I am considering weight loss surgery, and what you have said has helped me alot. You are helping people and you are beautiful!

[KayleeHuckaby]

You are incredible. Sending lots of good vibrations your way!!!

[Longlashes17]

Your honesty is greatly appreciated. It was very brave of you to put this out there. I totally understand how the mind can play tricks on you. I'm sorry you're going thru this. I was just telling my support group on Tuesday how losing this rapidly is a head trip and I'm glad I hit a month long stall so I could have time to wrap my head around where I am. I hope you find the help and healing you need. God bless and you and take care.

[olive4beauty]

I love this video especially what you say at the 12:00 mark. My heart goes out to you and your struggles! I hope that you will reconsider sharing you experiences. I think that showing every facet of this journey is important and you have no idea how inspiring that is to others! We all have our battles/struggles in this journey and we need to stand up and support one another! Hugs-LaDonna

[theRNTgirl]

thank you for the vulnerable, powerful, insightful, raw, and authentic post. I'm 40, 266 lbs., and have recently begun counseling for my emotional eating. I am a better person for having watched this. Blessings and joy to you. Jughugs, Kirsten

[AwesomeForever]

You have expressed so many truths. You are the most important person! Bless you for making this video. I understand the feeling that you are old though young. I am old but with the shrinking of my body, my face is very old looking to me and yes the look beneath the clothes is not something I want to reveal. Thanks for this video. Linda

[BeckyNoLimits]

I just want to send you some love and positivity. Im only at the start of my journey and I can relate to many of the points you've made in this video. This is another uphill battle but know that there will be lining one day, keep sight of that lining hun its what keeping me going. The lining or goal for me isn't so much to lose the 140+ pounds I still want to loss it's to free my mind, the only thing I wanted from my vsg is freedom! Take care of you xox

[AllyKatPerth]

I'm sorry to ask but are you taking anything for your depression,... if not you need to go talk to you GP and ask him for something while you're going through this period and then while you're on the medication you should go talk to a therapist to talk through your issues! You're so beautiful and we're here to support you right now!

[freshorangina]

If there is one thing I have learnt on this journey is that there is no majority whose results are typical. The true stories are the ones that are heard the least, not only because surgical centres want to show the loveliness, but because when we are feeling desperate we don't want to look at what can go wrong. I feel I was lucky that when I was a size 2 I recognized it was a problem for me. Too bad it didn't prevent the rest of my complications. I wish you the very best possible outcomes.

[Sunnydazrahead]

I really hope that you read the responses that you have here after your post. I understand the need to be private...but you are amazing.  You could have chosen not to post this video, but you did and I think that took an unbelievable amount of courage. You may have some problems to deal with, but I hope in time you will come back and share more of your story - it's an important one. WLS is not all sunshine and roses....and everyone should understand and see that before they make their choice.

[Wlsbloggerpatricia]

I made a video response I hope you see it and know that you are an inspiration you are honest and open and I have been told by more then one person they think I'm looking at an eating disorder if I don't get my shit together so I understand everything your talking about please watch my video and know how important you are ps I am on the billboards and I am representing my hospital at picture time I wad a size 6 ironically I'm now a size 2/4 BECAUSE of the billboards

[LiLtinee]

Part two: You trade one problem or one set of problems for an entirely new one or new set. Dealing with it once you're postop can be a nightmare for some. Anyone who thinks that we undergo this surgery because it's "the easy way out" needs to get a clue. There's NOTHING easy about any of it. Not preop OR postop.

Dena

[LiLtinee]

Part one, re-pasted here from what I said on Facebook:

I wish that each and every patient I encounter could see this and really, really take it to heart because this is REAL, people. The problems we have preoperatively sometimes become MAGNIFIED postoperatively even when they are lurking beneath the surface for years preoperatively. (end of part 1) ...

[Deenanemily]

Sometimes, showing ones pains..and the paths they take to work through those pains, makes one the perfect roll model. It takes strength and courage to say what you have said during this video. You are so strong, I pray you realize it! hugs!!

[Deenanemily]

I'm overweight...I know exactly what you're talking about. And I could understand developing the fears that you speak of. I hope you will be able to work through it and come back soon!

[Deenanemily]

Thank you for being so honest..hugs to you.

[CZebelle]

You are an amazingly open person. I appreciate your honesty and your realness. Have you gone through any post op counseling to discuss these issues? I think that you would benefit from discussing this with a counselor or a group. Please do not stop posting videos because you really have made me think. I think that you are incredibly brave and honest.

[sunwatersmiles]

it's not too late to be a role model! you can come through this! love love love for you my sad sweet girl. you will make it!

[gastricRose]

You my friend are more then qualified why? >> because you have been on the road where many of us have been ... real life is qualifying!...plase don't go away I need you here and many others as well...HUGS my friend and praying for you...support in your corner sweetie...love ya....love rosemary

[ErikaThrills]

you are beautiful. you are strong. you ARE an inspiration because of what you have been though and because of your honesty. I hope that you find all that you seek and please know that YOU ARE LOVED!!!

[oldbooknewlook]

I see that this was a difficult video for you to make, but I thank you for making it. You are so articulate. Please know that this video is going to help me as I think it will help many people. I wish you the best in this very difficult personal journey you have to undertake and I hope you are able to find a professional to help you through this.

[mityah83]

Please dont give up -go and get help -!!

[meltingmamamelted]

What you say at 11:05. RIGHT. ON. It does NOT matter. Your size does not matter TO US.  And it SHOULD NOT. Be strong. Be honest. Thank you for this.

[meltingmamamelted]

...and what you describe at 7-8+ minutes -- IS exactly normal. We are all there with you. I am eight years post op. I loathe my skin. I loathe my weight. You are beautiful. You are amazingly well spoken... and please consider sticking around for support. xx

[meltingmamamelted]

You are NOT alone. Know this: YOU ARE SURROUNDED by people who feel this way to some degree.

[cabernetqueen]

I am mid video and I hope I will hear that you are getting professional help-- and you are opening yourself up to the world-- I have no doubt this is gonna blow some stuff wide open for alot of people- please PLEASE do not waste another moment to get the help you need... I am so very sorry....who knows how often issues like this arise....post WLS- you are NOT the first and you won't be the last.

[curlideva]

Please continue to surround yourself with positive people who will support and help you and completely avoid the negative people in your life.

[curlideva]

You're very brave to come here and share your real experiences with this surgery and trust me people need to see the good and ugly that comes along with having WLS. I wish you many blessings and success on continuing journey. Thanks for sharing.

[Sippider]

haven't been. Because you have been. I understand not making any videos, but please get the help that your needing to deal with your feelings, and concerns. I know you will this video shows you know you need to be concerned. We love you so much, and wish and will pray for you everyday that things will get better, and go good with your daughter. Please be safe, and get better hun! xoxo We will miss you!

[Sippider]

You have no idea how much you are helping people. This post will show the reality to a darker side of this surgery. I understand that telling you to think positive right now is completely pointless, I know depression when I see it. I'm so sorry you feel this way. Keep working with your team, let them know what's going on in your mind. If not them, a shrink, that's not weak, that's SMART! I only say this out of concern for you. You have been a role model to me, and your not going to tell me you

[busybody19]

God be with you my WLS sister...Please don't leave Youtube, but if you feel you need to I understand. I hate you feel this way :( I pray you feel better soon.... You will be in my prayers.... You are NOT weak, you were very brave to make this video... Peace & blessings.

[6yakira]

Iam sorry you are having to go through this.i hope things get better for you.you are not weak you are very brave.life will get better for you are just going through something right now.it is not your fault that you are sick.god is a healer.peace be unto you.

[katana229]

hello and how are you ? this is a very real and honest video , wish you would stay on for support if nothing else , you look great i had rny also and at 175 from 247 my wt loss has stop and now i have to really work at it and its so hard to do i wish you luck on your journey