i have bpd and feel like this every single waking moment. life is hell. i wish it wasn't but it is. i wish someone or something would 'take me away'...
All I wanted was to sleep eternally.... you know that great dream that somethimes you have that you don't remind anything? with the suicides that's what I wanted to archive... never fet there... always with with a bomb cleaning my stomaght....
just to let u know people, one of the reasons "people" want to suicide is cause they dont have a vision for the future. if u just think about it, pain is no longer there in a few years; as happiness was around 2 years back.
u do know depression can last for years do u..i don't know if ive read ur comment wrong. but the pain of depression isnt short lived it can last for ages, untill u cant remember that its even possible to feel good..in any way. im just saying, i might have misunderstood u...i think one of the reasons people suicide is that they have been depressed for so long, and yes, their vision for the future is bleak and horrible. there is a certain point where people cant handle it any more.
I never experienced such a pain to make myself suicide or think the future to be horrible. For example, if my gf that I adored breaks up with me, there are still ways to make her happy therefore making myself happy, there are still nice girls around. Like I said "if u just think about it, pain is no longer there in a few years; as happiness was around 2 years back"
There is a solution for most of the roblems. Pain is just momentarily, to make it longer it is just pretty stupid and selfcentered.
depression is a mental illness. i have been depressed, and wen u r depressed u dont feel sad because something bad happened, u just feel sad...really really sad. ur emotions stay the same a lot of the time, like if something good happens u feel sad any way. like.. wen i was depressed i knew feeling happy was possible, but i couldnt shake off the bad feeling. its like a heaviness all over ur body..its not like normal saddness where u cry and then feel better. it seems never ending and its hard.
You may be lying to yourself or I haven't experience such pain.
I was in love of this girl really badly, even to the point to want to marry her. One day, I discovered that she cheated me with so many guys. Truth hurts. Anyways, I felt depressed for awhile but laughed in that time anyways. When I am sad, I laugh, looking always to the bright point. It hurted, but I guess not enough.
You may be lying to yourself, I haven't experience such pain or it is my way of thinking.
wat ur not getting is that depression is a mental illness. its not an emotion. i wasnt lying to myself. y would i lie to myself to the point that i almost fail school and have no interest in doing anything. it is an uncontrolable illness that causes u to be completely hopeless. its not the same as wen something really bad happens and then u feel sad. nothing bad happened to me. i had a good life, i was happy, but then i was hit with depression..
_-_!! It is crazy alright! you are telling me that you can't control yourself, nor your thoughts when depressed, I don't think such thing exists.
I am going to be sincere though, I thought about suiciding, too and that was before I began to smile-laugh about bad stuff that'd happen to me. But what it stroke me and take those thoughts away was this saying; "The act to "suicide" is selfish and coward-based"
Mental illness? I don't think that word exists on my dictionary. :)? Anyways, later.
ive never wanted to suicide. but im sorry...you cannot deny the existence of mental illness...ok, thats rediculouse. how can you deny a whole category of illness. u think all the people who go to hospital, peoples live r stuffed up because of it, r lying to themselves, or r just mistaken? look, u may be able to handle bad situations well but some people r actually sick in the head. people can't always control themselves or their emotions...it is real. theres no question, mental illness it real..
I learned something today... ^^ but I'd let all people know here that mental illness is no excuse to throw away their life, to be selfish and coward-based.
relate too.. the feelin that can´t stant one more minut ..when recovery it just another wathing game till lost it and do it again and again.. they say they understan suicidal nope they fucking don´t..no one will..din´t ask for it just come and it won´t go away
Wonderful video...my sister is in the hospital right now (AGAIN) because she is so suicidal. Its such a huge strain on the family to go through this. Thanks for the video!
i have bpd and feel like this every single waking moment. life is hell. i wish it wasn't but it is. i wish someone or something would 'take me away'...
shelllj68 2 months ago
i wish that it would be that simple <\3
bamlolbam100 9 months ago
Thank You for who ever posted this video.I feel the same way day to day.and getting help, but I know someone out there knows what I am going thought.
daddyslittlegirl241 1 year ago
wow she sucks at singing...
cxdrake 2 years ago
I hope our pain will disappear too, but I fear mine never will
Yapiej 2 years ago
very touching! i loved the song to. great 5 stars!
kristarock96 2 years ago
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All I wanted was to sleep eternally.... you know that great dream that somethimes you have that you don't remind anything? with the suicides that's what I wanted to archive... never fet there... always with with a bomb cleaning my stomaght....
filzafaruk 2 years ago
I like this song but she can't sing at all.
anc8469 3 years ago
i miust say, this is a great vid.
it tells the trut.
i was once suicidal and i thought i need to be gone for people to be happy.
wnat to know my story?
add me...and i will share
taybaby353 3 years ago
just to let u know people, one of the reasons "people" want to suicide is cause they dont have a vision for the future. if u just think about it, pain is no longer there in a few years; as happiness was around 2 years back.
5470462 3 years ago
u do know depression can last for years do u..i don't know if ive read ur comment wrong. but the pain of depression isnt short lived it can last for ages, untill u cant remember that its even possible to feel good..in any way. im just saying, i might have misunderstood u...i think one of the reasons people suicide is that they have been depressed for so long, and yes, their vision for the future is bleak and horrible. there is a certain point where people cant handle it any more.
boondoggle89 3 years ago
I never experienced such a pain to make myself suicide or think the future to be horrible. For example, if my gf that I adored breaks up with me, there are still ways to make her happy therefore making myself happy, there are still nice girls around. Like I said "if u just think about it, pain is no longer there in a few years; as happiness was around 2 years back"
There is a solution for most of the roblems. Pain is just momentarily, to make it longer it is just pretty stupid and selfcentered.
5470462 3 years ago
depression is a mental illness. i have been depressed, and wen u r depressed u dont feel sad because something bad happened, u just feel sad...really really sad. ur emotions stay the same a lot of the time, like if something good happens u feel sad any way. like.. wen i was depressed i knew feeling happy was possible, but i couldnt shake off the bad feeling. its like a heaviness all over ur body..its not like normal saddness where u cry and then feel better. it seems never ending and its hard.
boondoggle89 3 years ago
You may be lying to yourself or I haven't experience such pain.
I was in love of this girl really badly, even to the point to want to marry her. One day, I discovered that she cheated me with so many guys. Truth hurts. Anyways, I felt depressed for awhile but laughed in that time anyways. When I am sad, I laugh, looking always to the bright point. It hurted, but I guess not enough.
You may be lying to yourself, I haven't experience such pain or it is my way of thinking.
5470462 3 years ago
wat ur not getting is that depression is a mental illness. its not an emotion. i wasnt lying to myself. y would i lie to myself to the point that i almost fail school and have no interest in doing anything. it is an uncontrolable illness that causes u to be completely hopeless. its not the same as wen something really bad happens and then u feel sad. nothing bad happened to me. i had a good life, i was happy, but then i was hit with depression..
boondoggle89 3 years ago
_-_!! It is crazy alright! you are telling me that you can't control yourself, nor your thoughts when depressed, I don't think such thing exists.
I am going to be sincere though, I thought about suiciding, too and that was before I began to smile-laugh about bad stuff that'd happen to me. But what it stroke me and take those thoughts away was this saying; "The act to "suicide" is selfish and coward-based"
Mental illness? I don't think that word exists on my dictionary. :)? Anyways, later.
5470462 3 years ago
ive never wanted to suicide. but im sorry...you cannot deny the existence of mental illness...ok, thats rediculouse. how can you deny a whole category of illness. u think all the people who go to hospital, peoples live r stuffed up because of it, r lying to themselves, or r just mistaken? look, u may be able to handle bad situations well but some people r actually sick in the head. people can't always control themselves or their emotions...it is real. theres no question, mental illness it real..
boondoggle89 3 years ago 2
I learned something today... ^^ but I'd let all people know here that mental illness is no excuse to throw away their life, to be selfish and coward-based.
5470462 3 years ago
it's funny how you just went on youtube and started a fight with people who obviously would believe in mental illness. sociopathic much? lul
xTommyGirlx 3 years ago
Hehe, well. I am not sure what sociopathic means... Anyway, I'll try to not start anymore fights in youtube.
I am sorry.
5470462 3 years ago
"The first sign of mental illness is denail"
xTommyGirlx 3 years ago
relate too.. the feelin that can´t stant one more minut ..when recovery it just another wathing game till lost it and do it again and again.. they say they understan suicidal nope they fucking don´t..no one will..din´t ask for it just come and it won´t go away
LonelybeeMJ 4 years ago 4
Wonderful video...my sister is in the hospital right now (AGAIN) because she is so suicidal. Its such a huge strain on the family to go through this. Thanks for the video!
shrtyluv82 4 years ago 2
great video and song.. i can relate big time.. am feelin it now
landofhealth 4 years ago 2
I tried suicide when i was 9:\..But now I got my bf..I got depression..untreated at the moment..I'm here if any1 wantz 2 talk
kecona 4 years ago
I tried suicide when I was only eleven.
flyingantelopes 4 years ago
I am happy I have my bf.... I think of it all the time... I am not scared Of death.
much love
razorbladexwrist 4 years ago
man those comments in the video realate.
illkill9 4 years ago
Be strong<33 I love this vid and this song!
NiPoTTaJa29 4 years ago
I almost do it! I mean suicide! But then I thought my boyfriend and I couldn't do it!
NiPoTTaJa29 4 years ago