I just want to let you know that you are BEAUTIFUL!!!!! and congratulations on figuring out who you are in your heart and soul and living as you should be w/out regret :)
I am a trans man myself and i just wanted to say, you're awesome :)
I love when u talked about u thinking that wen u transition u thought u would still look like a man .... I am going to transition at least make the first step in seeing a professional can u look at my body videos and validate me that I would transition well cuz I fear bring looked at like a ugly freak .....
Haha mine was a little book about a girl and a boy going on adventures, and I always want to be the girl for some benine reason, I think that and Ariel out of my little mermaid lol anyway lots of love = less of loss
nice vid, its kind of true what you say about 'some people know who they are from a very young age' well, im just 13, and im leaning towards asexual for some reason :|
i love your vid. i'm a lesbian and i really support transgendered people. and yes i think you dont have to go through surgery just to become the gender you wanted to be. as long as you know you are THAT person, then, that's who you are. :) well its just my opinion. and you look lovely. i just realized you;re transgendered when u said it. You are already a Woman to me. Take care.
WHne you mentioned "a Japanese cartoon where the main character is transgendered", I said the name of it out loud, and waited in anticipation for you too say it. I was right! OHMYGAWSH... Ranma and 1/2,
I have always been fascinated by such stories too. I am on my way to become the full me. :)
I've showed your video to friends to explain how I am. :) You're beautiful and thank you so much for posting inspirational videos. I'm just about to start my journey, I'm so nervous!! So thank you Samantha :) xx
I completely relate :) I am glad you touched on the transexual and transgender issue/stereotype. There is a lot of stigma with the TS community about having sex as a huge motivation. People need to understand gender and sex (including orientation) are two different things.
How did you make the financial jump? I would love to start on HRT and talk to a psychiatrist, but right now I also want college and I don't have financial stability for either. lol. but, I wanted to know, did you have similar issues? and how did you overcome them?
Hey my name is Dustin and im thinking of doing the mtf transition, and looking for other mtf transitioners to talk to whether it be on the phone, texting, or E-mail. So lets talk or something(lol) and E-mail me at Dustin2218@yahoo.com and look forward to hearing from you soon. Bye for now.
You blogs here are really encouraging and informative. I'm post op myself and I 'm trying to explain TS issues to those in my church your blog is good in that it gives good advice on how to vocalise some of the issues involved, well done. So I hope to take some of your methods to share with those around me. Oh and you look great !
I feel like you do, starved, I used to have a girlfriend every school year, but as i grew older i found that I didn't want to date women but BE a women, i've always wanted to look beautiful and graceful, people like you who come out in the open are my hero's, and I hope you are as happy as you could be. T_T this vid made me cry, i was so happy.
I love this video. Thank you so much. I am 55 and married. I am so torn. I love my wife but I have always been wanting to be female since about 8. Or I have been fascinated femininity. I cry knowing if I choose transitioning and divorcing or staying trapped in my male body. I have scheduled my first session with a gender therapist. I am terrified. And want to cancel it and say this will pass. I just want to cry and crawl in a cave. HELP
@terri73fly free your mind. seek help. even just expressing yourself is allready a great step forward. destroy the walls and free yourself. even if you remain male, it will be a better life for just having that one extra inch of yourself. You can do it!
part 2of 2 : often the brain chemistry is female along side mainly male body signifiers
but apparently there are about 7 possibilities of combinations of the various physical aspects between totaly male and totally female gender making a total of 9 altogether
I can appreciate the difficulty faced by people who are in this spectrum. I'll end with a question - Do you know why men have nipples ? That should make detractors have a long think and do a bit of research before flaming on youtube !!
A very encouraging biography to read is the Caroline Cossey story.I have read her book ( Google the name ) She has xxxy yes- triple x y chromosomes whereas most transgendered people are double x y and tend to be male at birth but develop female aspects at puberty. However there are a number of factors a person can be born with where gender is clasified as Transgender . But all these differences just bring home to me the fact that we are all people in a body
such an interesting story. I like hearing about womens transitions because its very difficult, and can be dangerous. I like the idea of perseverance. You are strong, and thus have my respect.
Wow, I'm kinda going through what you went through. I'm 15 and I was born a boy. But I'm questioning weither or not I want to be a girl. It's really hard because somedays I feel like a girl and others like a boy. Did you ever feel like that? Because I'm scared to come out and start taking hormones because I'm worried that I might want to be a boy again. It also scares me because I know that the sooner I start taking hormones the better.
@ShiraYurri get some spironolactone. As long as you're on it then you can stay a 'boy' until you decide whichever puberty you'd rather have. Like seriously consider this. Every year after 14 when you have testosterone makes everything much much harder down the road.
Wow, you actually had a GOOD experiance at Ingersol??? I had always heard a lot of good things about them. And when I moved to Seattle, I tracked them down and went there. But, all I found were prostitutes and linebackers in dresses acting like prissy 6 year old girls. No one was trying to help them "advance past this stage either. They were all being told how great they looked. I was horrified. Maybe I went at a bad time? I dont know, but it left a bad taste so to speak.
hey i started watching your videos because when i found one, i liked the girl that i saw but i didn't realise that u worked to be a girl i thought u wore born like this u are very beautiful and gratious well done!
Hello Samantha. You are really pretty. You are 100% passable too. You are the really inspiring and a true role model. I wish for you only the best. Thank you for sharing.
@deco, Get bent you ignorant delinquent. @sam thankyou for that extra bit of insight. Your story sounds very similar to my own, im just glad you were able to put it into words which i had trouble doing. Best of luck in all your endeavours and thanks again for the video. xx
@DecoThe0ne - Just because she was born a man doesnt man she is. It is very disrespectful to say something like that, especailly because you know nothing about it. Biologics doesn't really mean all that much in the long run, it doesnt matter whats is between your legs, or whats on, or not on your chest. Its about who you FEEL you are.
@DecoThe0ne Um, did you ever possibly think there could actually be a biological reason for it? Medical science has ignored us for a long time cause of religion. BUT, things have changed a bit lately, and research is being done now. And they are finding out that there are actually many bio reasons this can happen. Of course, people will see what they want. You want to see a guy in a dress you will. But, it would suprise you how many of us there are out there. People you are friends with
Hourou Musuko is an absolute MUST READ if you're into gender-bender mangas :D
Everything that you've talked about, has pretty much summed up my entire life since about age 12..I can't help but say, thank you, so much. Lately I've been constantly doubting and putting myself down, and I feel that I have no hope of being a girl, but you really have helped me with just these few simple words. it's beyond comforting to know that there are people that have just about the exact same problems as me <=)
You're gorgeous and so natural I would not have guessed you were still in transition, let alone were tg. Your thoughts on how you saw signs, looking back, are really helpful to hear because it's the little things that show that you kinda knew, all along, so that's the way you really are. But even though you sort of explain how you decided to explore your transgendered side, how did you get the courage? Did you shop alone and were you thwarted at time?
I LOVED straight forward and honest video. It is much more difficult when you are older and have a family, especially if your family's happiness IS what makes you happy. I have been denying and tucking away all my feelings for years because I do not want to destroy my family. I don't know how much longer I can do this.
I lived in Seattle for 10 years. Why did I never meet you? :) I'm a trans man, transitioned 14 years ago. I enjoyed your story here, and also...you are stunningly beautiful.
I've been watching a few of your videos and I would like to say you look absolutely amazing. I have been recently starting to come out to my friends and family as well, and I want to start counseling ASAP. The only problem is that I can't seem to find any therapists. You had said that you went to Ingersoll for support groups, so I'm assuming that you're in the Seattle area. I was wondering if you could possibly give me a few names to look for. Thanks. Alexa ^.^
speaking of japanesse comics on shemales ,etc did you know that we are called "FUTANARI" in japanesse & have you ever heard of "crossdress paradise" in japan? they even have us in their "hentai" cartoons & manga. well i hope i taught you something, look into it 1 day!
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us trans who grew up in the 50s and 60s could/would/ not acknowledge it or didn't know what it was. We have established deep and strong relationships which would be destroyred if we acknowledged it now. it is a good thing that you young trans have the knowledge and can make difficutl decisions while still young.
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us trans who grew up in the 50s and 60s could/would not acknowledge it and we have established deep and strong relationships which would be destroyed if we acknowledge it now. It is a good thing that you today trans folks have knowledge and choices while still young.
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
What a wonderful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
Hi Samantha. All I can say is that I can so RELATE to what you talked about in this video. It should help others who are not yet sure about themselves and also to those who might judge us in a negative way. Normal people? Of course we are!!! Not only might we have to remind ourselves of this fact from time to time, but other people who were born in the correct body could get a lot of value from this simple and to the point video. Well done!!!
Wow, I have to say that your story perfectly matches my life! At least to the point just before starting the transition (which I haven't yet). I was looking at this video with my mouth open, because it really felt like it was some kind of my "future self" talking to me! I also watched Ranma as a child, I felt the same you describe throught puberty, and also kept the secret and finally told my girlfriend after 2 years of being together! I'm really really amazed, thanks for this wonderful video!!
you really truly look and sound completely naturally like a woman. I think that it is the perfect fit for you, congratulations on taking the steps you needed to take to be true to yourself!
Wonderful story and how you said all that in 8:57 I don't know, you are very focused, very sure of yourself and who you are, or so it seems. You also shed hope for some us newbies *grin*. Thank you for risking stupid comments and coming forward and sharing your life with us.
I am not sure when I knew I was trans, but it probably wasn't before puberty - I was raised Christian and it was clear that was a bad thing and I know I tried to repress it, but still I kept cross dressing in private whenever I could. I thought I would never be accepted so I stayed in the closet till I found my GF. I had to tell her the truth before we started dating and *amazing!* she was Okay with it; from then I started coming out so fast, within a 2 weeks I was full time and loving it.
Samantha, again I can relate to everything you mentioned here in this video. I love your approach and your insight. I had two failed marriages (as a man) and well it was a family member who told me that "the reasons my marriages fell apart was because I was not man enough". My reply, simply was I never, ever felt like a man.
@jazzzinator can u explain me wich connotations? i can't understand why almost all trans peolple here in italy say they're transsexual, i dun like this therm, cos it seems like a sexual orientation but it is not a sexual orientation...it all about gender! I prefer the therm transgender or trans as an abbreviation
OMG! You went to ingersoll!! I've never been though I've heard a lot about it. I've been going to a group out of Tacoma, and a super small group at the Seattle counseling Service building. I've got to go at least once before I have to leave Washington (sad face).
Question,,,I've just come out as transgendered but how did you start to live full time as female without hormones...my mother won't let me leave the house dressed as female I really don't know what to do???
I have always wondered something. As someone who has seen both sides of the gender equation, how apparent does it seem to you that women and men are treated differently? Was there a culture shock moment?
You give me so much hope! I'm transmasculine (I'm a boy, born as a girl, who doesn't really want to be either XD) and I was so put off hearing other transpeople saying "Oh, no, I've ALWAYS felt this way" when I haven't. I felt like a girl in high school, I wore skirts and a dress to my prom :P, but now I'm questioning and I was so... confused. But it's great to hear from someone else who just kind of... slid over to the other sex! Thank you Samantha! (Jealous of your name, btw)
Your story is an inspiration to those(such as myself) who need to hear from someone who's already walked the path, thank you...and Ranma is an awesome show =)
who believe in bible (a book writed only by humans) are superstitious people, who denied freedom of gender identity by their same superstitions. ridicolous. I've more transexual women like friends and their rights to gender reassignment is untouchable. you believe in bible? ok you make your life and leave in peace who's not submitted by religion-superstition and think whit his head, not whit head of jews.
I've had those boy to girl thoughts in my teens. I'm a born again Christian and spent years studying the bible on this issue. 2 verses speak loudest. That which is flesh is flesh... and shall the clay say to the potter.. the seed makes the fruit( testes boys & ovaries girls) hormones & surgery attempt to copy this. What gender is your soul/spirit? As a guy the issue of you being transgender would be an issue as to how I viewed myself
being with you. Jesus says he doesn't judge you do.
wow,great to hear your story .I can relate to just about everything.I'm on that same gradient you were on,slowly moving towards the female me.Just had my eyebrows done,going to start therapy and hormones as well.Even got invited to a "girls only "party by some wonderful gg's.I think you are great and will follow your channel hun. xoxo.All my love Sirena
The first sign I had that i might be transgender was when I was playing D&D as a kid, I hated playing a male character & only wanted to play females, it took me 6 years to admit it to my best friend, he just said, yeah that makes sense and we went on with our day. I don't think I really believed it until I told him.
I too felt like I would be this weirdo that would never fit in. I don't feel that now & never thought I would pass as well as I do or ever feel as mush like a cis woman as I do now.
Yet another great posting. I don't know what it is, but I REALLY like your personality (perhaps because your career is technical). Don't ever stop Vlogging
It would seem that Ranma 1/2 is partially responsible for a good number of childhood revelations.
For me it was a different anime called Fushigi Yugi, and the character was Nuriko, who was born a man, but wished desperately that he could be a woman. I have always admired her as a strong and independent woman, and someone to emulate. In high school my friends actually nicknamed me after her. They knew me better than I knew myself.
just got bored and found this video.and watch a few of your videos. i don't really know any thing about transsexuals and i try not to judge people.you seem like a really cool person. you made me more........... i don't really know maybe more open minded about people. im not really good at the whole comment thing.
i totally understand what you are saying here samantha. being transgender myself i have to say that the gradient description you mentioned in the explanation is EXACTLY what i have been and am going through. thank you so much for expressing these views to the rest of the world and keep up the good work.
The Silly Medical Field sees Transgender as a Disorder, But its Really a Gift, A Lot of Trans people see being trans as a Curse, Its Not :) We are gifted People, the Gift was given to us, The World does not know Us, I am An Indigo, this Gift was given to us by the Lord, he knew us in the Womb, he made us this way, Be happy for all the gifts we have, and ignore the Silly World & People that dont understand the Gift.
that Ranma ½ sure caused a lot of wonderful confusions in me too... :) actually, my first gf was kind of a tomboy just like Ranma's fiancee to be: Akane. x
omg i absolutely LOVE Ranma 1/2! i first read it when i was like, 8 or 9, and i remember just wishing that i could go to those cursed springs and just jump in the girl one.
Wow. This is the only video I have watched on youtube that has given me goosebumps! I think we may have walked the same path, or one quite close to it. It took me years to figure out what the hell was going on with me. I thought I was an alien. I NEVER identified with the person looking back at me from the mirror. But I'm glad I eventualy found "ME!" Anyway....wow...I just cant get over this vid. Love it!
I just wanted to thank you for this video. I'm so confused right now trying to figure out who and what I am and what to do, and this was very refreshing.
LOL!!! Creepy! It looks like you're floating around in the dark. What a cool effect- especially since you had no intention of making it that way!
I love this video. I just have one question- being transgender is "a choice"???? I mean, I know it's not for Ranma, but... I never thought it was a choice for me. I've always dreamed, hoped, wished, longed... wanted with all my heart to just BE FEMALE! Not "transsexual" or "gender queer" or anything "in between" genders. How do you feel about that?
Being Transgender is not a choice, its a birth Disorder/Gift caused by a hormonal imbalance during development in the womb, its caused by AIS, Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome, its very simple to understand, here is why, everyone starts out life as a female in the womb, if the baby is going to be a boy, then the androgen needs to change the female fetus to being a male, the androgen is weak, and the change from female to male stops short, males are basicly a mutalated female form, ask your doc
I hear ya. Being trans myself I've done so much research, made so many friends in the community and seen so many docs and therapists, if I had the degree I could practice as a specialist in the area. I'm sure the same goes for most of us. I agree with you. The question- how do we get our closed-minded family and friends to understand exactly that? Where can we find medical studies to support that to show them to help persuade their views so we can live life a little easier.
This video in particular helped me a great deal and I'll have to view it again. The gradient of what makes me happy and how I am viewed and what it means has gotten blurry and complicated at times. BUT, as you said, to gradually do what makes me happy will lead me to that place. I hope to be posting soon. I haven't tried my camera out. It's an mpeg-4 format, or maybe I'll get a webcam. Any tips? Thanks and I think you are wonderful. Aly cat
This was really helpful! I can really relate to your situation. The only problem is I still live at home with my folks and don't know how to come out. I'm really scared :( Do you have any advice please?
Hmm this is a tough one. I'm not a professional and I would encourage you to speak with a counselor or therapist if at all possible. You can tell your parents you want to see a therapist but you're not ready to share the reason with them yet. If you're in school maybe there are people there who can give you some help and support?
Thanks, no-one around where I live seems to have a clue about it. Hopefully once I've moved out after college I'll live in a big city and find some more out about it. At the moment it's just the web where I can find help. :) x
Samantha, you sound lovely. I'm happy for you. It must have been hard making a choice between your partner and this, I can relate to what you said earlier about putting it out of your mind. I find I'm in two minds. I'm happy most of the time being as I am... but some small part of myself always yearns for that something else. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. K
Hey Samantha... Please keep sharing your thoughts and experiences. Your honest expression of what you have and are going through is awesome. Thank you so much, ♥♥♥ Gloria ♥♥♥
I think all of us want to go back in time and slap some sense into ourselves. I mean, it's not like I didn't know. I just needed someone to tell me that it would be alright.
the first time i realised i was trans, i watched 'comeback to the five n dime jimmy dean jimmy dean' and also when i heard about the murder of maxwell confeit, (tv prostitute), things fell into place for me. keep blogging
I remember reading Ranma 1/2 and just wishing I could have that life. I just blew through all of the manga's because I loved it so much. Only now am I facing those questions. I wish I wasn't so intimidated about being trans in my youth.
Yeah it would be pretty awesome to be a gender-bending martial artist with super powers. It really struck a chord with me but I was afraid to even tell people I liked it (even though I knew it was really famous).
I certainly wish I had a Delorean with the optional flux capacitor. I'd slap the ignorant right out of my child self. And I tried to do the same thing with my wife. I said I didn't need this, I need her. Then I saw a documentary one day and...
I just want to let you know that you are BEAUTIFUL!!!!! and congratulations on figuring out who you are in your heart and soul and living as you should be w/out regret :)
I am a trans man myself and i just wanted to say, you're awesome :)
musicandlove85 4 months ago
your pretty!
caitmach 5 months ago
I love when u talked about u thinking that wen u transition u thought u would still look like a man .... I am going to transition at least make the first step in seeing a professional can u look at my body videos and validate me that I would transition well cuz I fear bring looked at like a ugly freak .....
24claudius 6 months ago
thank you for the inspirational video :)
my question is: Did you get sex reassignment surgery yet?
michaelangelo8008 6 months ago
i need some support
tirgerwong2013 6 months ago
i need help plz
tirgerwong2013 6 months ago
Haha mine was a little book about a girl and a boy going on adventures, and I always want to be the girl for some benine reason, I think that and Ariel out of my little mermaid lol anyway lots of love = less of loss
9033key 6 months ago
From the heart...SO very helpful. thanks so much!!
skybolt811 6 months ago
Youre video made me cry. I can so relate. I am moving further and further to being me.
STEPHANIESTACEYify 7 months ago
Youre video made me cry. I can so relate. I am oving further and further to being me.
STEPHANIESTACEYify 7 months ago
nice vid, its kind of true what you say about 'some people know who they are from a very young age' well, im just 13, and im leaning towards asexual for some reason :|
aleprbla 7 months ago
i love your vid. i'm a lesbian and i really support transgendered people. and yes i think you dont have to go through surgery just to become the gender you wanted to be. as long as you know you are THAT person, then, that's who you are. :) well its just my opinion. and you look lovely. i just realized you;re transgendered when u said it. You are already a Woman to me. Take care.
Ashfall32 8 months ago
WHne you mentioned "a Japanese cartoon where the main character is transgendered", I said the name of it out loud, and waited in anticipation for you too say it. I was right! OHMYGAWSH... Ranma and 1/2,
I have always been fascinated by such stories too. I am on my way to become the full me. :)
Kwamalicious 8 months ago
I am in LOVE!!! :) Please move to Miami!!!
deydey1970 9 months ago
i too loooove ranma 1/2! :)
leeosaku 9 months ago
I've showed your video to friends to explain how I am. :) You're beautiful and thank you so much for posting inspirational videos. I'm just about to start my journey, I'm so nervous!! So thank you Samantha :) xx
TheAttackKitten 9 months ago
I completely relate :) I am glad you touched on the transexual and transgender issue/stereotype. There is a lot of stigma with the TS community about having sex as a huge motivation. People need to understand gender and sex (including orientation) are two different things.
thebupster 9 months ago
How did you make the financial jump? I would love to start on HRT and talk to a psychiatrist, but right now I also want college and I don't have financial stability for either. lol. but, I wanted to know, did you have similar issues? and how did you overcome them?
EverStray 10 months ago
Hey my name is Dustin and im thinking of doing the mtf transition, and looking for other mtf transitioners to talk to whether it be on the phone, texting, or E-mail. So lets talk or something(lol) and E-mail me at Dustin2218@yahoo.com and look forward to hearing from you soon. Bye for now.
Dustin2218 11 months ago
thanks for sharing your story!
SeeThinkFall 1 year ago 3
Dear Samatha
You blogs here are really encouraging and informative. I'm post op myself and I 'm trying to explain TS issues to those in my church your blog is good in that it gives good advice on how to vocalise some of the issues involved, well done. So I hope to take some of your methods to share with those around me. Oh and you look great !
Jen8973 1 year ago
Excellent.
weerobot 1 year ago
I feel like you do, starved, I used to have a girlfriend every school year, but as i grew older i found that I didn't want to date women but BE a women, i've always wanted to look beautiful and graceful, people like you who come out in the open are my hero's, and I hope you are as happy as you could be. T_T this vid made me cry, i was so happy.
lancediablo 1 year ago
I love this video. Thank you so much. I am 55 and married. I am so torn. I love my wife but I have always been wanting to be female since about 8. Or I have been fascinated femininity. I cry knowing if I choose transitioning and divorcing or staying trapped in my male body. I have scheduled my first session with a gender therapist. I am terrified. And want to cancel it and say this will pass. I just want to cry and crawl in a cave. HELP
terri73fly 1 year ago
@terri73fly free your mind. seek help. even just expressing yourself is allready a great step forward. destroy the walls and free yourself. even if you remain male, it will be a better life for just having that one extra inch of yourself. You can do it!
theforgecustoms 10 months ago
great video i like you am transgender and want to be a women. Seeing a therpist now hopefully someday i can be where your at.
eddym7 1 year ago
part 2of 2 : often the brain chemistry is female along side mainly male body signifiers
but apparently there are about 7 possibilities of combinations of the various physical aspects between totaly male and totally female gender making a total of 9 altogether
I can appreciate the difficulty faced by people who are in this spectrum. I'll end with a question - Do you know why men have nipples ? That should make detractors have a long think and do a bit of research before flaming on youtube !!
domnal 1 year ago
A very encouraging biography to read is the Caroline Cossey story.I have read her book ( Google the name ) She has xxxy yes- triple x y chromosomes whereas most transgendered people are double x y and tend to be male at birth but develop female aspects at puberty. However there are a number of factors a person can be born with where gender is clasified as Transgender . But all these differences just bring home to me the fact that we are all people in a body
that we do not choose. part 1of 2
domnal 1 year ago
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domnal 1 year ago
such an interesting story. I like hearing about womens transitions because its very difficult, and can be dangerous. I like the idea of perseverance. You are strong, and thus have my respect.
endauthority 1 year ago
i loved watching ranma, that ability to switch between genders was quite fascinating.
kotodaigami 1 year ago
Wow, I'm kinda going through what you went through. I'm 15 and I was born a boy. But I'm questioning weither or not I want to be a girl. It's really hard because somedays I feel like a girl and others like a boy. Did you ever feel like that? Because I'm scared to come out and start taking hormones because I'm worried that I might want to be a boy again. It also scares me because I know that the sooner I start taking hormones the better.
ShiraYurri 1 year ago
@ShiraYurri get some spironolactone. As long as you're on it then you can stay a 'boy' until you decide whichever puberty you'd rather have. Like seriously consider this. Every year after 14 when you have testosterone makes everything much much harder down the road.
squeakysneakerdj 1 year ago
Wow, you actually had a GOOD experiance at Ingersol??? I had always heard a lot of good things about them. And when I moved to Seattle, I tracked them down and went there. But, all I found were prostitutes and linebackers in dresses acting like prissy 6 year old girls. No one was trying to help them "advance past this stage either. They were all being told how great they looked. I was horrified. Maybe I went at a bad time? I dont know, but it left a bad taste so to speak.
Tabygrl 1 year ago
hey i started watching your videos because when i found one, i liked the girl that i saw but i didn't realise that u worked to be a girl i thought u wore born like this u are very beautiful and gratious well done!
aldescualex 1 year ago
so all ur life u have to take hormones to stay as a women?
zeid67 1 year ago
Is it true some guys transform into lesbain girls.
ChristinaWolfle 1 year ago
Hello Samantha. You are really pretty. You are 100% passable too. You are the really inspiring and a true role model. I wish for you only the best. Thank you for sharing.
Leigh
somebody1special 1 year ago
Great video. Thanks
marvelous211 1 year ago
I kniw what you mean im starting HRT when I get it filled
sumthingangels 1 year ago
@deco, Get bent you ignorant delinquent. @sam thankyou for that extra bit of insight. Your story sounds very similar to my own, im just glad you were able to put it into words which i had trouble doing. Best of luck in all your endeavours and thanks again for the video. xx
xXZionprincessXx 1 year ago
You are really beautiful. Just sayin'.
mkurnat 1 year ago
cool, but youre a dude. you cant change biologics because of your "feelings". and you look like you could be related to Phillip DeFranco =)
DecoThe0ne 1 year ago
@DecoThe0ne - Just because she was born a man doesnt man she is. It is very disrespectful to say something like that, especailly because you know nothing about it. Biologics doesn't really mean all that much in the long run, it doesnt matter whats is between your legs, or whats on, or not on your chest. Its about who you FEEL you are.
So before you go saying stuff like that... Dont .
UnOblivous 1 year ago
@DecoThe0ne Um, did you ever possibly think there could actually be a biological reason for it? Medical science has ignored us for a long time cause of religion. BUT, things have changed a bit lately, and research is being done now. And they are finding out that there are actually many bio reasons this can happen. Of course, people will see what they want. You want to see a guy in a dress you will. But, it would suprise you how many of us there are out there. People you are friends with
Tabygrl 1 year ago
you are absolutely lovely, so naturally beautiful. Have you had any surgery if you don't mind me asking?
saxyforce 1 year ago
Hourou Musuko is an absolute MUST READ if you're into gender-bender mangas :D
Everything that you've talked about, has pretty much summed up my entire life since about age 12..I can't help but say, thank you, so much. Lately I've been constantly doubting and putting myself down, and I feel that I have no hope of being a girl, but you really have helped me with just these few simple words. it's beyond comforting to know that there are people that have just about the exact same problems as me <=)
bajiikrocks 1 year ago
You're gorgeous and so natural I would not have guessed you were still in transition, let alone were tg. Your thoughts on how you saw signs, looking back, are really helpful to hear because it's the little things that show that you kinda knew, all along, so that's the way you really are. But even though you sort of explain how you decided to explore your transgendered side, how did you get the courage? Did you shop alone and were you thwarted at time?
moshfrosh67 1 year ago
I LOVED straight forward and honest video. It is much more difficult when you are older and have a family, especially if your family's happiness IS what makes you happy. I have been denying and tucking away all my feelings for years because I do not want to destroy my family. I don't know how much longer I can do this.
LadyDi826 1 year ago
Thank you for putting your thoughts and story on here, it helps to hear others who've gone through the same things. Thank you! X
barneyk100 1 year ago
I am most impressed with your voice. There isn't a hint of a male voice in any word you speak. It also doesn't seem too forced, amazing.
kristitgirl 1 year ago
I lived in Seattle for 10 years. Why did I never meet you? :) I'm a trans man, transitioned 14 years ago. I enjoyed your story here, and also...you are stunningly beautiful.
VikingJ 1 year ago
woah, she is so beautiful!
XxWILDANDRANBOMxX 1 year ago
I've been watching a few of your videos and I would like to say you look absolutely amazing. I have been recently starting to come out to my friends and family as well, and I want to start counseling ASAP. The only problem is that I can't seem to find any therapists. You had said that you went to Ingersoll for support groups, so I'm assuming that you're in the Seattle area. I was wondering if you could possibly give me a few names to look for. Thanks. Alexa ^.^
Alexa10372 1 year ago
that was great how was telling your family i cant imagine telling my family about it the thought of it scares me to death
amandevian 1 year ago
speaking of japanesse comics on shemales ,etc did you know that we are called "FUTANARI" in japanesse & have you ever heard of "crossdress paradise" in japan? they even have us in their "hentai" cartoons & manga. well i hope i taught you something, look into it 1 day!
99CUTEkisses 1 year ago
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us trans who grew up in the 50s and 60s could/would/ not acknowledge it or didn't know what it was. We have established deep and strong relationships which would be destroyred if we acknowledged it now. it is a good thing that you young trans have the knowledge and can make difficutl decisions while still young.
kathypeters1962 1 year ago
What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us trans who grew up in the 50s and 60s could/would not acknowledge it and we have established deep and strong relationships which would be destroyed if we acknowledge it now. It is a good thing that you today trans folks have knowledge and choices while still young.
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What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
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What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
kathypeters1962 1 year ago
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What a wonderful thoughtful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
kathypeters1962 1 year ago
What a wonderful video. Some of us who are trans and grew up in the 50s and 60s and did/could not come out then have established long standing and deep relationships which would be torn asunder if we now decided to live as a woman. It is a good thing that young folks like yourself can make that choice early on.
kathypeters1962 1 year ago
You say it all. Thanks! This is really informative.
SterlingStream 1 year ago
Hi Samantha. All I can say is that I can so RELATE to what you talked about in this video. It should help others who are not yet sure about themselves and also to those who might judge us in a negative way. Normal people? Of course we are!!! Not only might we have to remind ourselves of this fact from time to time, but other people who were born in the correct body could get a lot of value from this simple and to the point video. Well done!!!
tbear2327 1 year ago
Wow, I have to say that your story perfectly matches my life! At least to the point just before starting the transition (which I haven't yet). I was looking at this video with my mouth open, because it really felt like it was some kind of my "future self" talking to me! I also watched Ranma as a child, I felt the same you describe throught puberty, and also kept the secret and finally told my girlfriend after 2 years of being together! I'm really really amazed, thanks for this wonderful video!!
IwantTg 1 year ago
Can I just say that I love Ranma 1/2? :]
PokemonTrainerRachel 1 year ago
You're awesome, keep going with your journey!
LiuGondor 1 year ago
I think you are very beautiful.
elvis3700 1 year ago
you really truly look and sound completely naturally like a woman. I think that it is the perfect fit for you, congratulations on taking the steps you needed to take to be true to yourself!
periwinklemooose 1 year ago
You are very beautiful.
goofyone6721332004 1 year ago
So this is your natural voice? Amazing!! You look and sound so good!!! You should fluff the hair just a little more, doesn't seem to be full.
slimdudeDJC 1 year ago
Wow, you are just, GORGEOUS! Im just thinking about all this sort of things. Inbox me and maybe you could help me figure this all out. :S
LadyPride95 1 year ago
Oh, and haha Ranma is awesome.
AmatatsuShitenshi 1 year ago
Wow you definitely look female. Very beautiful
XN1H1LX 1 year ago
Wonderful story and how you said all that in 8:57 I don't know, you are very focused, very sure of yourself and who you are, or so it seems. You also shed hope for some us newbies *grin*. Thank you for risking stupid comments and coming forward and sharing your life with us.
DallasNWonderland 1 year ago
I am not sure when I knew I was trans, but it probably wasn't before puberty - I was raised Christian and it was clear that was a bad thing and I know I tried to repress it, but still I kept cross dressing in private whenever I could. I thought I would never be accepted so I stayed in the closet till I found my GF. I had to tell her the truth before we started dating and *amazing!* she was Okay with it; from then I started coming out so fast, within a 2 weeks I was full time and loving it.
Mistform 1 year ago
You have become a beautiful woman :)
CuteChick344 1 year ago
This is alot like me and how I know who I am!
dmdartfx13 1 year ago
You Look So Good In This Video!!=))
RiPcOrDz83 1 year ago
Awesome!
Thank you for your honesty.
cmk7 1 year ago
Great video! How can I get my voice to be a great as yours?
dressed2chill 1 year ago
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You have a female voice and I will admit your face is not so bad, but you are not a real woman.
lesrambles1 1 year ago
@lesrambles1 Well, you're wrong :-)
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SpecialMente79 1 year ago
@SamanthaZero34
Yeah, she's obviously a girl asshat. We shouldn't be condemned to living as something we are not.
AmatatsuShitenshi 1 year ago
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@lesrambles1 LOL , who gives a fuck what you think?
blackflower75 1 year ago
Samantha, again I can relate to everything you mentioned here in this video. I love your approach and your insight. I had two failed marriages (as a man) and well it was a family member who told me that "the reasons my marriages fell apart was because I was not man enough". My reply, simply was I never, ever felt like a man.
Jensagirl 1 year ago
ranma 1/2!!! I watched that as a kid!!! Loved it! and D Ball Z lol...
Zeroprobabilityvids 1 year ago
Thanks- Transgendered and transexual I feel have two completely different connotations.
jazzzinator 1 year ago
@jazzzinator can u explain me wich connotations? i can't understand why almost all trans peolple here in italy say they're transsexual, i dun like this therm, cos it seems like a sexual orientation but it is not a sexual orientation...it all about gender! I prefer the therm transgender or trans as an abbreviation
krisagui 1 year ago
OMG! You went to ingersoll!! I've never been though I've heard a lot about it. I've been going to a group out of Tacoma, and a super small group at the Seattle counseling Service building. I've got to go at least once before I have to leave Washington (sad face).
ZoeyTG 1 year ago
feel like it was taking to long. hahaha girl don't I know that feeling.
laineyjain 1 year ago
You are nice.
Glyvxx 1 year ago
Question,,,I've just come out as transgendered but how did you start to live full time as female without hormones...my mother won't let me leave the house dressed as female I really don't know what to do???
taska247 1 year ago
I have always wondered something. As someone who has seen both sides of the gender equation, how apparent does it seem to you that women and men are treated differently? Was there a culture shock moment?
Bedazzlecat 1 year ago
I appreciate your honesty. Interesting. I am no expert by any means, but I think these things are determined in utero.
~Tammi~
RockyWhyNot 1 year ago
love ur honesty and talk. thanks.
becki1869 1 year ago
I'm a woman and people say that I'm beautiful, but you, you are a more than a beautiful woman, you have charm!
Lais9584 1 year ago
You give me so much hope! I'm transmasculine (I'm a boy, born as a girl, who doesn't really want to be either XD) and I was so put off hearing other transpeople saying "Oh, no, I've ALWAYS felt this way" when I haven't. I felt like a girl in high school, I wore skirts and a dress to my prom :P, but now I'm questioning and I was so... confused. But it's great to hear from someone else who just kind of... slid over to the other sex! Thank you Samantha! (Jealous of your name, btw)
Niennis 1 year ago
Thank You! A very insparational video!
mojo8601 1 year ago
Hay, I love this video. It makes so much sense. Especially when you say "I wish I could go back"
bleumahem 1 year ago
Your story is an inspiration to those(such as myself) who need to hear from someone who's already walked the path, thank you...and Ranma is an awesome show =)
ineedsumluvin07 1 year ago
who believe in bible (a book writed only by humans) are superstitious people, who denied freedom of gender identity by their same superstitions. ridicolous. I've more transexual women like friends and their rights to gender reassignment is untouchable. you believe in bible? ok you make your life and leave in peace who's not submitted by religion-superstition and think whit his head, not whit head of jews.
markesajanus 1 year ago
I've had those boy to girl thoughts in my teens. I'm a born again Christian and spent years studying the bible on this issue. 2 verses speak loudest. That which is flesh is flesh... and shall the clay say to the potter.. the seed makes the fruit( testes boys & ovaries girls) hormones & surgery attempt to copy this. What gender is your soul/spirit? As a guy the issue of you being transgender would be an issue as to how I viewed myself
being with you. Jesus says he doesn't judge you do.
MrVision1992 1 year ago
wow,great to hear your story .I can relate to just about everything.I'm on that same gradient you were on,slowly moving towards the female me.Just had my eyebrows done,going to start therapy and hormones as well.Even got invited to a "girls only "party by some wonderful gg's.I think you are great and will follow your channel hun. xoxo.All my love Sirena
SirenaShows 1 year ago
I would not have known you were transgendered. Go out with me.
Tyronethe24th 1 year ago
you're so beautiful in every which way!
no1000 2 years ago
The first sign I had that i might be transgender was when I was playing D&D as a kid, I hated playing a male character & only wanted to play females, it took me 6 years to admit it to my best friend, he just said, yeah that makes sense and we went on with our day. I don't think I really believed it until I told him.
I too felt like I would be this weirdo that would never fit in. I don't feel that now & never thought I would pass as well as I do or ever feel as mush like a cis woman as I do now.
fireflygirl246 2 years ago
Yet another great posting. I don't know what it is, but I REALLY like your personality (perhaps because your career is technical). Don't ever stop Vlogging
myunknowngender 2 years ago
Thank you so much for this. You spoke directly and honestly and as another transgendered person you made me feel so proud.
SnoopySchridde 2 years ago
you look damn good baby!
TriggerHappyMariachi 2 years ago
It would seem that Ranma 1/2 is partially responsible for a good number of childhood revelations.
For me it was a different anime called Fushigi Yugi, and the character was Nuriko, who was born a man, but wished desperately that he could be a woman. I have always admired her as a strong and independent woman, and someone to emulate. In high school my friends actually nicknamed me after her. They knew me better than I knew myself.
MidskakurUlvur 2 years ago
just got bored and found this video.and watch a few of your videos. i don't really know any thing about transsexuals and i try not to judge people.you seem like a really cool person. you made me more........... i don't really know maybe more open minded about people. im not really good at the whole comment thing.
ninjapersondude 2 years ago 25
awkward.
1.same name
2.ranma 1/2
3.feelings came out the same way
...story of my life
was your name originally samuel as well?
inu12450 2 years ago
i totally understand what you are saying here samantha. being transgender myself i have to say that the gradient description you mentioned in the explanation is EXACTLY what i have been and am going through. thank you so much for expressing these views to the rest of the world and keep up the good work.
silverblade2006 2 years ago
Thanks for so eloquently expressing yourself about something that is so personal and difficult to explain!
Uminohebi 2 years ago
I can totally relate to your story, thanks for sharing.
FlipsideTG 2 years ago
The Silly Medical Field sees Transgender as a Disorder, But its Really a Gift, A Lot of Trans people see being trans as a Curse, Its Not :) We are gifted People, the Gift was given to us, The World does not know Us, I am An Indigo, this Gift was given to us by the Lord, he knew us in the Womb, he made us this way, Be happy for all the gifts we have, and ignore the Silly World & People that dont understand the Gift.
CHELLIE2408 2 years ago
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you are very feminine Sammy. You are adorable. Just the thought of having you makes me hardy.
tskisser69 2 years ago
If you're talking about getting an erection, you can take that shit right off my channel. I am not your sex object. And don't call me Sammy ;-)
SamanthaZero34 2 years ago 27
@SamanthaZero34 Lol You're awesome, babe. :)
toposeasher 1 year ago
i wish i could have that "curse" lol.
but with all seriousness ur truely insparational. best of wishes! -melissa
IamNotAmyselfYet 2 years ago
Hi, Samantha
You have a lovely voice, quite calming in fact. I enjoyed your video. Hope to see more.
Natasha
currentresident41061 2 years ago
that Ranma ½ sure caused a lot of wonderful confusions in me too... :) actually, my first gf was kind of a tomboy just like Ranma's fiancee to be: Akane. x
Natasha26 2 years ago
omg i absolutely LOVE Ranma 1/2! i first read it when i was like, 8 or 9, and i remember just wishing that i could go to those cursed springs and just jump in the girl one.
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inu12450 2 years ago
Wow. This is the only video I have watched on youtube that has given me goosebumps! I think we may have walked the same path, or one quite close to it. It took me years to figure out what the hell was going on with me. I thought I was an alien. I NEVER identified with the person looking back at me from the mirror. But I'm glad I eventualy found "ME!" Anyway....wow...I just cant get over this vid. Love it!
Cheers
Abby
Angelinaeldiablo 2 years ago 2
I just wanted to thank you for this video. I'm so confused right now trying to figure out who and what I am and what to do, and this was very refreshing.
tranceles17 2 years ago 2
OMG! What a great Curse :O
kotekotekitty 2 years ago
LOL!!! Creepy! It looks like you're floating around in the dark. What a cool effect- especially since you had no intention of making it that way!
I love this video. I just have one question- being transgender is "a choice"???? I mean, I know it's not for Ranma, but... I never thought it was a choice for me. I've always dreamed, hoped, wished, longed... wanted with all my heart to just BE FEMALE! Not "transsexual" or "gender queer" or anything "in between" genders. How do you feel about that?
jenniadriana 2 years ago
Being Transgender is not a choice, its a birth Disorder/Gift caused by a hormonal imbalance during development in the womb, its caused by AIS, Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome, its very simple to understand, here is why, everyone starts out life as a female in the womb, if the baby is going to be a boy, then the androgen needs to change the female fetus to being a male, the androgen is weak, and the change from female to male stops short, males are basicly a mutalated female form, ask your doc
CHELLIE2408 2 years ago
I hear ya. Being trans myself I've done so much research, made so many friends in the community and seen so many docs and therapists, if I had the degree I could practice as a specialist in the area. I'm sure the same goes for most of us. I agree with you. The question- how do we get our closed-minded family and friends to understand exactly that? Where can we find medical studies to support that to show them to help persuade their views so we can live life a little easier.
jenniadriana 2 years ago
This video in particular helped me a great deal and I'll have to view it again. The gradient of what makes me happy and how I am viewed and what it means has gotten blurry and complicated at times. BUT, as you said, to gradually do what makes me happy will lead me to that place. I hope to be posting soon. I haven't tried my camera out. It's an mpeg-4 format, or maybe I'll get a webcam. Any tips? Thanks and I think you are wonderful. Aly cat
Alycat35 2 years ago
This was really helpful! I can really relate to your situation. The only problem is I still live at home with my folks and don't know how to come out. I'm really scared :( Do you have any advice please?
Love ya
Katie x
kittythomas1992 2 years ago
Hmm this is a tough one. I'm not a professional and I would encourage you to speak with a counselor or therapist if at all possible. You can tell your parents you want to see a therapist but you're not ready to share the reason with them yet. If you're in school maybe there are people there who can give you some help and support?
SamanthaZero34 2 years ago
Thanks, no-one around where I live seems to have a clue about it. Hopefully once I've moved out after college I'll live in a big city and find some more out about it. At the moment it's just the web where I can find help. :) x
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CHELLIE2408 2 years ago
YOu are beautiful
BnieGurl 2 years ago
Samantha, you sound lovely. I'm happy for you. It must have been hard making a choice between your partner and this, I can relate to what you said earlier about putting it out of your mind. I find I'm in two minds. I'm happy most of the time being as I am... but some small part of myself always yearns for that something else. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. K
kategirl1 2 years ago
Hey Samantha... Please keep sharing your thoughts and experiences. Your honest expression of what you have and are going through is awesome. Thank you so much, ♥♥♥ Gloria ♥♥♥
LP26148 2 years ago
Ranma... ahhh, yeah, junked on that too (from that i learned what okonomiyaki is^^). Damned... Krista was not distending^^ Thanks for sharing...
TheMrFizz 2 years ago
I think all of us want to go back in time and slap some sense into ourselves. I mean, it's not like I didn't know. I just needed someone to tell me that it would be alright.
Good video. I subscribed.
doctormorbuis 2 years ago
you are so beutiful and sexy.
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Serieneity 2 years ago
hi samantha - really loved your vid - you send so much serenity, truly amazing - thanks for aswering some of my questions by the way...^-^
be well - dani
paisley68 2 years ago
the first time i realised i was trans, i watched 'comeback to the five n dime jimmy dean jimmy dean' and also when i heard about the murder of maxwell confeit, (tv prostitute), things fell into place for me. keep blogging
IDealWithIt 2 years ago
Wow - amazing video. Are you sure you weren't reading a script of my life??
Look forward to future updates.
Prefer Kinder Suprises over M&Ms though
jamiejogirl 2 years ago
I remember reading Ranma 1/2 and just wishing I could have that life. I just blew through all of the manga's because I loved it so much. Only now am I facing those questions. I wish I wasn't so intimidated about being trans in my youth.
TherealFi 2 years ago
Yeah it would be pretty awesome to be a gender-bending martial artist with super powers. It really struck a chord with me but I was afraid to even tell people I liked it (even though I knew it was really famous).
SamanthaZero34 2 years ago
@SamanthaZero34 Hey! I finally discovered Ranma accidentally in high school in the mid-90s and it instantly became my favorite too. :D
etereys7 1 year ago
You're coming in nice and clear. We don't need to see the background.
sbflash311 2 years ago
Thanks girls! Life always became clearer and simpler when I tried being true to myself.
SamanthaZero34 2 years ago
I certainly wish I had a Delorean with the optional flux capacitor. I'd slap the ignorant right out of my child self. And I tried to do the same thing with my wife. I said I didn't need this, I need her. Then I saw a documentary one day and...
dreamingofwings 2 years ago
Your voice is just fantastic. I'm enjoying your vids :)
whatisbeneath 2 years ago