I'm going through very similar stuff to you, I thought I had it at a bearable point until about 3 months ago when I just totally had an emotional breakdown, and since then i kind of have fits of crying about a lot of stuff, along with the usual self-hatred that I've given myself for as long as I can remember.. the thing is I just don't know how a 'normal' person see's life, I don't know if what I have to go through everyday is what everyone goes through day to day.. i doubt they do..
I think i can understand that last part, i definatly feel like i see the world differently from other people. Even just walking around in public, its like everyone else is walking round in a different world... meh, i dunno. thats just how it feels i guess
I know what your going through. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder two months ago, now i see a psychologist every few weeks, he put me on an anti-depressant called lexapro and a mood stabilizer called lamictal...mostly i dont see much improvement...i thought i did but now i feel as miserable as i did prior. if you do take an antidepressant i hope you find one that will work for you. best of luck to you and take care.
Y'seem a lovely sorta soul but so defeated. Sounds like you need a proper challenge or something. A real difficulty to overcome instead of this insidious eating doubt...hope things improve.
I'd like to agree with this, only, thing is since nothing pushes me towards completing my goals i just end up sitting back letting life pass me by. Which is no real way to live, and i'll regret it later in life, heck i already regreat my wasted time. But its just hard to pull myself out of the depression
I'm going through very similar stuff to you, I thought I had it at a bearable point until about 3 months ago when I just totally had an emotional breakdown, and since then i kind of have fits of crying about a lot of stuff, along with the usual self-hatred that I've given myself for as long as I can remember.. the thing is I just don't know how a 'normal' person see's life, I don't know if what I have to go through everyday is what everyone goes through day to day.. i doubt they do..
meetmebythestatue 3 years ago
I think i can understand that last part, i definatly feel like i see the world differently from other people. Even just walking around in public, its like everyone else is walking round in a different world... meh, i dunno. thats just how it feels i guess
cactus57 3 years ago
I know what your going through. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder two months ago, now i see a psychologist every few weeks, he put me on an anti-depressant called lexapro and a mood stabilizer called lamictal...mostly i dont see much improvement...i thought i did but now i feel as miserable as i did prior. if you do take an antidepressant i hope you find one that will work for you. best of luck to you and take care.
drunkcuddles 3 years ago
Well i've not actually been specifically diagnosed, i wasnt allowed to know which depression type i had, which sucks.
I'd really like to try something, even if i just had something to help me get by the rough times. but meh, not gonna happen for me i guess
cactus57 3 years ago
Y'seem a lovely sorta soul but so defeated. Sounds like you need a proper challenge or something. A real difficulty to overcome instead of this insidious eating doubt...hope things improve.
picaVpica 3 years ago
I'd like to agree with this, only, thing is since nothing pushes me towards completing my goals i just end up sitting back letting life pass me by. Which is no real way to live, and i'll regret it later in life, heck i already regreat my wasted time. But its just hard to pull myself out of the depression
cactus57 3 years ago