What an awesome state of mind... . I hope that you are still feeling this way. I hope you stay this way. I am a bio female...and this video helps me on so many levels about feelings that I have about myself...even though they are not related to gender identity. Thank you!
@BigGurlzDoCry Certainly am! I am glad it helps, we should all feel great about ourselves. You are the only you in this entire universe, embrace that!
wow! dude you look sooo good!! i wish my facial hair would grow in quick! i hope you can get your top surgery done soon!! you'd look great. but you're a true inspiration!! i saw your first video before you transitioned until now and WOW!! what a huge change!! keep doing ya thing brah! I'm going to be posting my 1st video soon.
I don't consider myself trans,but dammit I do think about going on T sometimes just so I won't have to go through the monthly bullshit. I mean shit mine is so bad at times that I really don't think I'd mind having a deeper voice,or growing some hair on my chest just so I'll never have to go through it again lol
dumbed down is the best way to describe it. it's been one of my only qualms with starting t... i feel so succinct and curt when i speak now days. i also take binder breaks weekly
I lik all ur videoes and this one is perfect because learning about wat some trans guys go thru. Until i came to youtube i had no idea and thanks to u and other guys on here and going along with ur journey as u bring it to us. Ive learned alot of new things and it made me see alot of things in a new light as far as ppl go and also help me understand them to. I wish u the best of luck and i will be watching for updates and n e thing new that u hav to say. Thank u : ~ )
Ive found the same thing bro. Im not bothered by what i have and the fact that my chest is there. its a part of me now and as such i embrace it till im able to fund for the surgery i need. i admire your honesty and truth bro. well said! keep livin as your true self man, youre an inspiration to myself. xo
Thank you for making your videos. For me personally, you are one of the bright lights out there. I've been grappling a LOT with my transness the past few days, and this video helped.
I'm so happy for you...seriously, You've changed so much...its a good thing. You've helped a lot of people in the community learn to just accept themselves for who they are. Dope Movement.
@ItsMeCrystalETV I'm glad its helping someone. I didn't like feeling ashamed and neither do I like to see others feel ashamed of themselves. Its a dirty and unnecessary emotion.
Love this video.. Thanks for being so open and for being you, especially for thos of us who are a little more reserved about talking to people about being trans. I strive to be a little more like you (talking to strangers about being trans).
I also don't bind as much as I used to. My lats got too huge. haha
@ArthurWhiskey Yea, my voice started to get weaker. I actually didn't notice a difference until I got back on T and I felt it dropping again. It seems like a lot happened in just that month lol maybe I was off longer than I thought.
@LILLOUISIANA504 From what I have read, T and E interact with the brain in different ways, whereas E more heavily affects the emotional development while T interacts more with the logical side (left side?). Keep in mind, it affects everyone differently but I find that with T, I am less emotional and take more time to think rather than react. Without T, I have a much larger range of emotions. I discussed this in my video Emotional Effects of T. Personally, I believe it holds some truth.
Well I barely bind but I moved recently and was depressed about having to stop T for a couple of months till I get on my feet, this video help me 2 understand that its not the end of the world... so thank you n keep making your videos.... I jus hope I dont get my period back that fast lol
@808bluedragon Mhm. I had stopped before for a moment just to see what would happen should I be in a position where I didn't have access to T. I wanted to know what to expect. It really isn't all that bad, you just have to be aware of what can happen and roll with it. Its mind over matter. It will be ok. yeaaa that was rather quick lol
Period was sum bullish!! Well bruh..ON "T"..my period would NOT go away...even after the hysto im still spottin..dat MONTHLY is da death of me..and i havent wore my binder since b4 surgery and it feels good, i still get correct pronouns w/ my chest out..its such a great feelin of Confidence.. anyways..love the video homie! be blessed..
I think what that person was trying to say was that you seem more comfortable with qualities that society deems feminine (e.g. hair flip, chest). As you become more comfortable, you are accepting all of yourself. I just think they didn't know how to express that.
Man the mo i watch yo vids the mo u woman up lol but its all gud u jus keepin it 100. Keep goin the way u goin u gone b on the OWN CHANNEL cuz yo ass b on sum tripd out shit but its all gud man cuz i like yo crazy ass KEEP IT UP
GREAT VIDEO! Do you think that it is more acceptable for f-to-m to share their truth more freely than m-to-f? It seems that our country is more accepting in those scenarios. Its even seen how lesbians are viewed in comparison to gay men...let me know your thoughts!
@3DB4LIFE I think our society is generally more comfortable with masculinity than femininity, whether it be in a male, a female or a trans person. And being that we live in a predominantly sexist society, people do not respond very well to a person transitioning from MtoF because they are denouncing their manhood, in a sense.
@nochokin I do believe so. I cannot say for sure if I would be as comfortable if they were larger, but the binding was really affecting me negatively, even hours after I took it off. It just wasn't worth it, but Idk if I would feel the same if they were larger.
I stop taking "E" for a year...just started back in sept...i dont like the lack of focus I have when im off "E"...... (but i do like the non emotionality(it causes me men trouble) and the sex drive(its hard for me to get in the mood on "E")...LMAO@ "my period was some bullshit"
@nochokin Really? A whole year? I apologize for my ignorance but what else happened during that time? The lack of focus, was that a result of the lack of E or a mental thing? I've heard guys saying they lacked concentration after starting T (I just sat here for 2 mins trying to remember that) Aaaand - last question lol - nvm I can't remember.
@laidbaqq yea when im on E i help me focus...i cant focus well when im off hormones...almost like i have ADD...i get hairier in place that i never had hair or never got electrolis ...so i hate that part too..more random boners....less nipple sensitivity.....more aggressive.....but other then that..nothing
@nochokin Must be something with the estrogen, because I also focused better when I was off T. I could stand to do things longer whereas now, I keep getting distracted or frustrated.
Lmfao "A monthly bullshit ass period" i swear thats how i fucking feel that bitch needs to come only like a day a month. but love the video!!! love your look.
@FreckelzMarie well i think a day a month would be good just so u could know when u ovulate but besides that i know how u feel i am anemic so the longest period i had was for 21 days straight, i would bleed like a stuck pig and i tend to pass out and go into these fevers and chills at random times
As usual, an insightful vlog ... thanks. I think the saying is, 'the times they r a changing' is probably more relevant right now than ever before. People are more worried about losing their home, having a job, or just knowing where there next meal is coming from; rather than obsessing if a man has too much skin on his chest, or if a woman's voice may be a little too low. Maybe society is beginning to concentrate on items that really matter in life (?) I hope so.
Very Good Video...
bilan618 3 weeks ago
Thank you.
Wolfhaven33 1 month ago
lovin the honesty n openness
taz8devil8 1 month ago
What an awesome state of mind... . I hope that you are still feeling this way. I hope you stay this way. I am a bio female...and this video helps me on so many levels about feelings that I have about myself...even though they are not related to gender identity. Thank you!
:-)
BigGurlzDoCry 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@BigGurlzDoCry Certainly am! I am glad it helps, we should all feel great about ourselves. You are the only you in this entire universe, embrace that!
laidbaqq 1 month ago
goodvid
NEKKyD 1 month ago in playlist More videos from laidbaqq
I remember watching you from the very beginning. You're interesting and you have many intelligent things to say :)
didithejanetfan13 2 months ago
Irrelevent to the video, you're cute. Maybe the doctor, or whoever, prescribed you too much. Sometimes it hppens.
NikkiAndrogynous 2 months ago
Xaiver your are the best!!
Infamousplayer330 2 months ago
I have so much respect for you.Thanks for the education.
gawgetter 2 months ago
wow! dude you look sooo good!! i wish my facial hair would grow in quick! i hope you can get your top surgery done soon!! you'd look great. but you're a true inspiration!! i saw your first video before you transitioned until now and WOW!! what a huge change!! keep doing ya thing brah! I'm going to be posting my 1st video soon.
KJaysun 2 months ago
you truely are awesome :3
LoneWolfKai 2 months ago
I don't consider myself trans,but dammit I do think about going on T sometimes just so I won't have to go through the monthly bullshit. I mean shit mine is so bad at times that I really don't think I'd mind having a deeper voice,or growing some hair on my chest just so I'll never have to go through it again lol
abstractjem 2 months ago
Love you :o)
MeikoEliasXavier 2 months ago
@MeikoEliasXavier That is mutual. I watched you "back in the day" and your videos helped me a lot. Thank you.
laidbaqq 2 months ago in playlist More videos from laidbaqq
Thanks for being so open. You're awesome!
tyboi1000 3 months ago
dumbed down is the best way to describe it. it's been one of my only qualms with starting t... i feel so succinct and curt when i speak now days. i also take binder breaks weekly
spiceforce5 3 months ago in playlist More videos from laidbaqq
this is wild
EyeWearMySunglasses 4 months ago
@EyeWearMySunglasses whats wild about it?
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Do you have a Facebook?
RionKoto 4 months ago
@RionKoto yes, but I am already receiving so many requests from people who never speak to me.
laidbaqq 4 months ago 3
I lik all ur videoes and this one is perfect because learning about wat some trans guys go thru. Until i came to youtube i had no idea and thanks to u and other guys on here and going along with ur journey as u bring it to us. Ive learned alot of new things and it made me see alot of things in a new light as far as ppl go and also help me understand them to. I wish u the best of luck and i will be watching for updates and n e thing new that u hav to say. Thank u : ~ )
msorlando36 4 months ago
@msorlando36 Thank you, I appreciate that you take the time out to hear others stories and input.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Ive found the same thing bro. Im not bothered by what i have and the fact that my chest is there. its a part of me now and as such i embrace it till im able to fund for the surgery i need. i admire your honesty and truth bro. well said! keep livin as your true self man, youre an inspiration to myself. xo
JasonMarcus82 4 months ago
@JasonMarcus82 right. they are going to be here until I have surgery, so I might as well get comfortable.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Love it
#preT
deesince1985 4 months ago
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ToiVisionTv 4 months ago
@MrQueenAllie No. Why would I be?
laidbaqq 4 months ago
@MrQueenAllie Because that's how I am sometimes, I just tend to not make videos during those times. I have been back on T for about three weeks now.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
I wish I can be a man !
But I can't Cuz in saudi
U cant do surgry or take
Hormons
Transexualism 4 months ago
Excuse me if this has been asked/answered (too much to read thru) but, does this mean no top for you??
KaywanDaBoss 4 months ago
@KaywanDaBoss no, its still a goal. I'm just feelin' ok as I am.
laidbaqq 4 months ago 2
@laidbaqq I digg it. Continuous self discovery is AMAZING!!!
KaywanDaBoss 4 months ago
We LOVE you!!!!! ♥
sexcci92 4 months ago
I fuckin LOVE YOU! YOU ARE SO SEXY!....sorry had to get that out. Great Video! I love your transparency!
ChadwickJohnson12 4 months ago
@ArthurWhiskey I heard that the voice wont ever change after starting T once its deep it always will be :)
ShaneCounts 4 months ago
Thank you for making your videos. For me personally, you are one of the bright lights out there. I've been grappling a LOT with my transness the past few days, and this video helped.
postgender 4 months ago
I'm so happy for you...seriously, You've changed so much...its a good thing. You've helped a lot of people in the community learn to just accept themselves for who they are. Dope Movement.
ItsMeCrystalETV 4 months ago 2
@ItsMeCrystalETV I'm glad its helping someone. I didn't like feeling ashamed and neither do I like to see others feel ashamed of themselves. Its a dirty and unnecessary emotion.
laidbaqq 4 months ago 2
I am so happy for you man.. we need more ppl like yourself to come out about topics like this in the lgbt community :)
bronzz 4 months ago
Love this video.. Thanks for being so open and for being you, especially for thos of us who are a little more reserved about talking to people about being trans. I strive to be a little more like you (talking to strangers about being trans).
I also don't bind as much as I used to. My lats got too huge. haha
SkinninMacKinnon 4 months ago
you are the person on here that inspires me the most.
MagicMyc21 4 months ago
@ArthurWhiskey Yea, my voice started to get weaker. I actually didn't notice a difference until I got back on T and I felt it dropping again. It seems like a lot happened in just that month lol maybe I was off longer than I thought.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
ur locs are coming in nice bro
Burga419 4 months ago
you make it seem like the belief that i think is wrong seem true
that women are too emotional and men are logical thinkeers which make for better decision
what u think since exprienced both sides
LILLOUISIANA504 4 months ago
@LILLOUISIANA504 From what I have read, T and E interact with the brain in different ways, whereas E more heavily affects the emotional development while T interacts more with the logical side (left side?). Keep in mind, it affects everyone differently but I find that with T, I am less emotional and take more time to think rather than react. Without T, I have a much larger range of emotions. I discussed this in my video Emotional Effects of T. Personally, I believe it holds some truth.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Good stuff.
STYLEZdaDON 4 months ago
I didn't even know you had breast where were they in the invisible video?
Telaasiablack 4 months ago
@Telaasiablack lol beneath my hands
laidbaqq 4 months ago
been watching your vids for a while. always enjoyed your topics. peace&love man.
iLandentify 4 months ago
Well I barely bind but I moved recently and was depressed about having to stop T for a couple of months till I get on my feet, this video help me 2 understand that its not the end of the world... so thank you n keep making your videos.... I jus hope I dont get my period back that fast lol
808bluedragon 4 months ago
@808bluedragon Mhm. I had stopped before for a moment just to see what would happen should I be in a position where I didn't have access to T. I wanted to know what to expect. It really isn't all that bad, you just have to be aware of what can happen and roll with it. Its mind over matter. It will be ok. yeaaa that was rather quick lol
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Period was sum bullish!! Well bruh..ON "T"..my period would NOT go away...even after the hysto im still spottin..dat MONTHLY is da death of me..and i havent wore my binder since b4 surgery and it feels good, i still get correct pronouns w/ my chest out..its such a great feelin of Confidence.. anyways..love the video homie! be blessed..
-Kamari aka Lyrikal
LYRIKALTOMBOI 4 months ago
Laidbaqq this Timtheman11.....bro i'm high right now!....and it's cool to be free as being a transman........
timtheman11 4 months ago
I think what that person was trying to say was that you seem more comfortable with qualities that society deems feminine (e.g. hair flip, chest). As you become more comfortable, you are accepting all of yourself. I just think they didn't know how to express that.
ZayJahDaV 4 months ago
Man the mo i watch yo vids the mo u woman up lol but its all gud u jus keepin it 100. Keep goin the way u goin u gone b on the OWN CHANNEL cuz yo ass b on sum tripd out shit but its all gud man cuz i like yo crazy ass KEEP IT UP
KTsoREAL 4 months ago
@KTsoREAL I cant say that I understand your comment. How am I becoming more of a woman?
laidbaqq 4 months ago
I feel you, I'm not bothered by being out about my lifestyle. Are you saving for top surgery brother?
BeckRosatoLewis 4 months ago
@BeckRosatoLewis not currently. I had to use my savings to return to school :-/ but I will resume soon as I find a job - or multiple.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
So happy for u my brother...u look great continue your journey and many blessing
teebear86 4 months ago
Great update man. I like your perspective, especially the quest to educate others. I hope things continue to go well for you.
tobyr3 4 months ago
GREAT VIDEO! Do you think that it is more acceptable for f-to-m to share their truth more freely than m-to-f? It seems that our country is more accepting in those scenarios. Its even seen how lesbians are viewed in comparison to gay men...let me know your thoughts!
3DB4LIFE 4 months ago
@3DB4LIFE I think our society is generally more comfortable with masculinity than femininity, whether it be in a male, a female or a trans person. And being that we live in a predominantly sexist society, people do not respond very well to a person transitioning from MtoF because they are denouncing their manhood, in a sense.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
@laidbaqq Thanks for responding, I agree. I truly admire your boldness, I hope to be half the man you have become. Thanks again.
3DB4LIFE 4 months ago
another question....now you look small in the top area....so do you think if they were bigger they woud be more of an issue for you as trans..?
nochokin 4 months ago
@nochokin I do believe so. I cannot say for sure if I would be as comfortable if they were larger, but the binding was really affecting me negatively, even hours after I took it off. It just wasn't worth it, but Idk if I would feel the same if they were larger.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
why are you so cool? there should be more people like you
CamilleAOPDG 4 months ago
Ur absolutely amazing ur a huge inspiration in my life:)
MrBillieWonka 4 months ago
so wise
84source 4 months ago
Great video man.
tfpunk1979 4 months ago
I stop taking "E" for a year...just started back in sept...i dont like the lack of focus I have when im off "E"...... (but i do like the non emotionality(it causes me men trouble) and the sex drive(its hard for me to get in the mood on "E")...LMAO@ "my period was some bullshit"
nochokin 4 months ago
@nochokin Really? A whole year? I apologize for my ignorance but what else happened during that time? The lack of focus, was that a result of the lack of E or a mental thing? I've heard guys saying they lacked concentration after starting T (I just sat here for 2 mins trying to remember that) Aaaand - last question lol - nvm I can't remember.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
@laidbaqq yea when im on E i help me focus...i cant focus well when im off hormones...almost like i have ADD...i get hairier in place that i never had hair or never got electrolis ...so i hate that part too..more random boners....less nipple sensitivity.....more aggressive.....but other then that..nothing
nochokin 4 months ago
@nochokin Must be something with the estrogen, because I also focused better when I was off T. I could stand to do things longer whereas now, I keep getting distracted or frustrated.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
@laidbaqq yes definitely the estrogen....no doubt...cause when im in my natural state i cant focus
nochokin 4 months ago
Lmfao "A monthly bullshit ass period" i swear thats how i fucking feel that bitch needs to come only like a day a month. but love the video!!! love your look.
FreckelzMarie 4 months ago
@FreckelzMarie lol a day a month? How about never having existed in the first place. It seemed like mine was heavy just to piss me off more.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
@FreckelzMarie well i think a day a month would be good just so u could know when u ovulate but besides that i know how u feel i am anemic so the longest period i had was for 21 days straight, i would bleed like a stuck pig and i tend to pass out and go into these fevers and chills at random times
FreckelzMarie 4 months ago
@FreckelzMarie See, its a curse. For no reason should ones own body treat them in such a way.
laidbaqq 4 months ago
Awesome vid!
SELKILKT 4 months ago
Your honesty, your perceptive, your individuality, and humor is refreshing. Thank you for being so open and honest.
JackGr8ndEmpire 4 months ago
@JackGr8ndEmpire :D Thank you
laidbaqq 4 months ago
A lot people in society think trans people only have one look and that's crazy.
adrina911 4 months ago
As usual, an insightful vlog ... thanks. I think the saying is, 'the times they r a changing' is probably more relevant right now than ever before. People are more worried about losing their home, having a job, or just knowing where there next meal is coming from; rather than obsessing if a man has too much skin on his chest, or if a woman's voice may be a little too low. Maybe society is beginning to concentrate on items that really matter in life (?) I hope so.
Mirabella98102 4 months ago