i think it's good that you didn't go talk to him bc, since he is a playboy, he'll break your heart (most likely), yeah, and like the comment below, he might be messing with you coz i get this kinda stuff sometimes and i know that they are straight as hell. so yeah, don't read too much into it
@clicheanonperson Doubt I'll ever him again...but if I do, best believe his ass will be thrown up against the nearest wall. BTW, thanks for commenting and subscribing :)
So you gave up a chance to have possibly something with this hot guy so that your friends could continue thinking that you're someone you're not ? Yeah, that makes sense. If your friends don't like you as your TRUE self, are they really your friends ?
@TheUrgeToEmerge I agree, life is not simple and sometimes we have to make hard choices. The first half of my life I tried to live as I thought my family, friends and society wanted. It made me and everyone around me miserable. One day I finally had enough and decided to live my life on my terms, I started coming out to people and I found most people didn't care if I was gay. More importantly I felt a lot better about myself. My life is not perfect by any means but I love it !
I hope one day you will be able to live in your skin as God made you and that is obviously gay. I pray that people will stop being so afraid of people that are not like them... On a different note. It creeps me out when guys whistle at me. *blush*
@SunnieDee18 I think we're making progress as a nation and a people to accept each other. As for God making me gay, I don't necessarily believe in that theory. I do believe that homosexuality can be genetic, but I also believe that it can arise from social situations over a long period of time.
@TheUrgeToEmerge : Most assuredly we are progressing as a nation. It was SO exciting to see all the couples gather downtown to Unite and experience there energy after. I think we are progressing as individuals also, especially as fear of people who do not look, act, and think like us fades. If it is genetic then what made the genetics? If it is social how did we end up in the situation? I believe everything to be in existence and positioned for Divinity. One of my best friends is atheist. ;)
@downbeat0 Well, there will come a time when you and I won't give a fuck anymore. Then we'll be hitting those boys up! Best luck in the coming out process dude!
I can totally relate to you! I am out to a few close friends and my parents, other than that no one else knows. It's kind of like living in two separate worlds, your "straight" world and your "gay" world. I can't wait for the day when these two worlds meld together, but I just don't know if I'm ready for that yet. Your moment of these colliding worlds will come, just be patient. :)
@WhenWorldsCollide11 It's definitely like living in two separate worlds. Drives me crazy sometimes haha. I guess I'm sort of like you. IDK if I'm ready or even want to be completely out just yet. Thanks for the awesome comment!
Something like that happened to me once. As soon as time machines become common place, I'll go back in time and slap myself saying, "Go back and hook up with that hot guy that's following you!"
That has been my life the past year. Except I don't have any guys whistling at me. I wish. But, just know there is another guy on the other side of Pennsylvania that understands the frustration.
@bebenic I know. Like...UGH. Makes me angry just to think about it. As for Amy Winehouse, the chick was f*cked up. I feel bad for her. She's officially a borderline-hero of mine.
she was an incredible talent. what a waste. you, on the other hand are redeemable. make yourself happy. tell everyone who will listen that you love cock -- that you love men. it's not that big a deal. you should not squander opportunities, cute boy.
I remember one of your first vids where you talked about a bunch who were chasing you so you shouldn't feel bad like this is a once-in-a-lifetime thing because it's just not! There's no rush, you should be comfortable in your surroundings first. Also, do you really want to be with someone who whistles and chases after every hottie that passes by in the mall? Could be fun for a 'h*mp and dump"!! haha
@ottorhunter To answer your question, the kid was ridiculously hot, and YES, I do want to be with a guy like that, even just for "one night". Hahaha. Oh, and I can't believe you remember that old video of mine. Too cool :)
I am continually amazed at your courage on youtube while you are easing your way toward freedom in the real world. I am much like you (in being selectively out), but at my age the dynamic is markedly different.
@TheUrgeToEmerge You dont need to worry about a thing, you are so gorgeous and confident that one "hot guy/stud" isnt going to be your only chance at love :]
I'm sorry :(, I sort of felt the same way all throughout high school with one guy in my grade who I tried to make myself hate but who I really liked/like from 9th to now (I'm bi btw and havent told like anyone except for like close friends so I can sort of relate), now in college its sort of sucks I wont be able to see him again, but life goes on lol, thats my way of making life seem better than it is lol
@septembergaga Hey, nice to meet you! Thanks for the comment. All in all, I think it's a little unhealthy for me to put so much emphasis on a total stranger, but I just can't help it. Like you said, life goes on though :)
i think it's good that you didn't go talk to him bc, since he is a playboy, he'll break your heart (most likely), yeah, and like the comment below, he might be messing with you coz i get this kinda stuff sometimes and i know that they are straight as hell. so yeah, don't read too much into it
MrTinoTomotomo 1 week ago
Sounds like he might have been messing with you
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@clicheanonperson Doubt I'll ever him again...but if I do, best believe his ass will be thrown up against the nearest wall. BTW, thanks for commenting and subscribing :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 2 months ago
So you gave up a chance to have possibly something with this hot guy so that your friends could continue thinking that you're someone you're not ? Yeah, that makes sense. If your friends don't like you as your TRUE self, are they really your friends ?
tjport1980 5 months ago 2
@tjport1980 I agree with you, but there's alot more to me and my life than most people think. It's not simple...
TheUrgeToEmerge 4 months ago
@TheUrgeToEmerge I agree, life is not simple and sometimes we have to make hard choices. The first half of my life I tried to live as I thought my family, friends and society wanted. It made me and everyone around me miserable. One day I finally had enough and decided to live my life on my terms, I started coming out to people and I found most people didn't care if I was gay. More importantly I felt a lot better about myself. My life is not perfect by any means but I love it !
tjport1980 4 months ago
This story was heartbreaking...hopefully you two cross paths again. That would be just magical.
nikdynamic 5 months ago
@nikdynamic I think I'd die if we ever met again. Bahaha.
TheUrgeToEmerge 4 months ago
Next time, go up to the hot guy and get his number. What better way to come out to your friends??
ckeelty 5 months ago
@ckeelty Good idea :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 5 months ago
I hope one day you will be able to live in your skin as God made you and that is obviously gay. I pray that people will stop being so afraid of people that are not like them... On a different note. It creeps me out when guys whistle at me. *blush*
SunnieDee18 6 months ago
@SunnieDee18 I think we're making progress as a nation and a people to accept each other. As for God making me gay, I don't necessarily believe in that theory. I do believe that homosexuality can be genetic, but I also believe that it can arise from social situations over a long period of time.
TheUrgeToEmerge 6 months ago
@TheUrgeToEmerge : Most assuredly we are progressing as a nation. It was SO exciting to see all the couples gather downtown to Unite and experience there energy after. I think we are progressing as individuals also, especially as fear of people who do not look, act, and think like us fades. If it is genetic then what made the genetics? If it is social how did we end up in the situation? I believe everything to be in existence and positioned for Divinity. One of my best friends is atheist. ;)
SunnieDee18 6 months ago
@downbeat0 Well, there will come a time when you and I won't give a fuck anymore. Then we'll be hitting those boys up! Best luck in the coming out process dude!
TheUrgeToEmerge 6 months ago
I can totally relate to you! I am out to a few close friends and my parents, other than that no one else knows. It's kind of like living in two separate worlds, your "straight" world and your "gay" world. I can't wait for the day when these two worlds meld together, but I just don't know if I'm ready for that yet. Your moment of these colliding worlds will come, just be patient. :)
WhenWorldsCollide11 6 months ago
@WhenWorldsCollide11 It's definitely like living in two separate worlds. Drives me crazy sometimes haha. I guess I'm sort of like you. IDK if I'm ready or even want to be completely out just yet. Thanks for the awesome comment!
TheUrgeToEmerge 6 months ago
Something like that happened to me once. As soon as time machines become common place, I'll go back in time and slap myself saying, "Go back and hook up with that hot guy that's following you!"
shadowmanshadowman 6 months ago
@shadowmanshadowman Definitely, dude! Nothin' wrong with dreaming. BTW, thanks for subbing my channel :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 6 months ago
Probably for the better so you don't wind up getting hurt. It'd suck to see you have to go through that you're such a great guy!
kc0ryz 7 months ago
@kc0ryz Haha well thanks, but I'll take my chances. I appreciate the comment btw.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
That has been my life the past year. Except I don't have any guys whistling at me. I wish. But, just know there is another guy on the other side of Pennsylvania that understands the frustration.
WhirledSol 7 months ago
@WhirledSol It's rough, isn't it? I hope things start looking up for you :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
oh fuck it, come out already. you could've had that hot cutie. life is too short. look at amy winehouse.
bebenic 7 months ago
@bebenic I know. Like...UGH. Makes me angry just to think about it. As for Amy Winehouse, the chick was f*cked up. I feel bad for her. She's officially a borderline-hero of mine.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
@TheUrgeToEmerge,
she was an incredible talent. what a waste. you, on the other hand are redeemable. make yourself happy. tell everyone who will listen that you love cock -- that you love men. it's not that big a deal. you should not squander opportunities, cute boy.
bebenic 7 months ago
awe, we'll if he was whistling at you he kinda sounded like a tool anyways :-)
and if it's meant to happen it'll happen! hehe
WWAP 7 months ago
@WWAP Yeahhh. I usually fall for the toolbags though. Haha.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
I remember one of your first vids where you talked about a bunch who were chasing you so you shouldn't feel bad like this is a once-in-a-lifetime thing because it's just not! There's no rush, you should be comfortable in your surroundings first. Also, do you really want to be with someone who whistles and chases after every hottie that passes by in the mall? Could be fun for a 'h*mp and dump"!! haha
ottorhunter 7 months ago
@ottorhunter To answer your question, the kid was ridiculously hot, and YES, I do want to be with a guy like that, even just for "one night". Hahaha. Oh, and I can't believe you remember that old video of mine. Too cool :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
I am totally the same way getting obsessed with guys like that.
It won't be the last time you get that sort of attention though I can guarantee that ;)
mjt271 7 months ago
@mjt271 I'm glad that I'm not the only one! Haha thanks.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
I am continually amazed at your courage on youtube while you are easing your way toward freedom in the real world. I am much like you (in being selectively out), but at my age the dynamic is markedly different.
woodlandfox2112 7 months ago
@woodlandfox2112 Well thanks. I'd like to think that I'm on the brink of freedom. Only time will tell.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
Awww you shouldnt sacrifice your happiness for others approval :\
DYYLLAAANNNCORRRAAAO 7 months ago
@DYYLLAAANNNCORRRAAAO Yeah, but such is life sometimes.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
@TheUrgeToEmerge You dont need to worry about a thing, you are so gorgeous and confident that one "hot guy/stud" isnt going to be your only chance at love :]
DYYLLAAANNNCORRRAAAO 7 months ago
Well either he was just trying to be funny,or he was genuinley into you... which I hope he was,because you're cute as hell yo lol!
abstractjem 7 months ago
@abstractjem Thanks boo! I appreciate it.
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
I'm sorry :(, I sort of felt the same way all throughout high school with one guy in my grade who I tried to make myself hate but who I really liked/like from 9th to now (I'm bi btw and havent told like anyone except for like close friends so I can sort of relate), now in college its sort of sucks I wont be able to see him again, but life goes on lol, thats my way of making life seem better than it is lol
septembergaga 7 months ago
@septembergaga Hey, nice to meet you! Thanks for the comment. All in all, I think it's a little unhealthy for me to put so much emphasis on a total stranger, but I just can't help it. Like you said, life goes on though :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
Awh ): Go to the mall everyday until you see him again? Or is that too crazy? Hahaha.
idfkandrew 7 months ago
@idfkandrew Well that particular mall is a few hours away. Otherwise I would go everyday, basically because I'm crazy like that :)
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
This is not happen in the state of Pennsylvania often. Cool story anyways :)
Whiteboymdew 7 months ago
@Whiteboymdew It honestly felt like a once-in-a-lifetime chance, and I blew it :(
TheUrgeToEmerge 7 months ago
@TheUrgeToEmerge More opportunities and chances will come in the future just have to go after them before they are gone.
Whiteboymdew 7 months ago