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  • @CandyCutter you seriously think that saying "don't do it" is going to help at all?! Personally, when people get mad, and tell me not to do it, it just makes me want to do it more.

    Christie is trying to spread awareness of self injury, and she's trying to help people. She hasn't said ONCE in any of her 99 videos, that self injury is good, and that you should do it. And many people DO do it... I know at least three people i can list that i'm close with that do it.

    Please stop being ignorant.

  • do you self injure?

  • @McJillion Maybe you should watch some of her other videos? Once you do, this will seem like a dumb question. :)

  • I think this is a good idea but not everyone has 8 mins to to get your point.

  • @HardeyLeone well then those people who can't spare 8 minutes can go elsewhere and find a video thats less. I cant say everything I need in less time. Lots of videos on YT are 10 mins, I am not going to rush myself if I have something to say and skip parts. Seems like 14,000 people have had time to watch 8 minutes. If you don't then good luck finding other, shorter videos.

  • @xsullengirlx I think you make a good point. My idea was that if you want FAME you need to work faster. If however you just want to 'help' others out then this is fine but I find most peoplel are in it for some kind of 'fame' heheh

    So sad.

  • @HardeyLeone I could give a crap less about fame. Fame from what? Fame from mental illness? That would be pure exploitation and going against everything I stand for. I'm not some kind of sellout, I am just sharing my own experiences in whatever time it takes me, and maybe somewhere it can help someone. If it does, great! If not, I hope something else will. I'm not your average famewhore on youtube trying to gain subs by doing idiotic skits. This is my life.

  • @xsullengirlx  Then I think you have done some great work.

    Keep it up and never sell out. :-)

  • i think your helping a lot of people open their eyes to self injury, i hope we can get better!!

  • I don't think you are pro self harm at all and I actually think you are quite smart. My belief is that young girls (and I'm not referring to you) who 1st start self harm, sometimes (and I did say sometimes) glamorize the whole thing and become almost obsessed by it (reading about it etc). I think some of these videos could have a negative effect on these young people. Please don't take this the wrong way, I guess I'm just saying it's a touchy subject and a lot of caution needs to be taken.

  • your right about thevignorince of people because once i commented on this persons video dissing people with depression {emo} and she replide back and she said that i had a lot of anger {and i was angery then} and what would i do if a real problem came up but guess wat dissing people because there sad or just the way they dress is a real problem and i thank you for preaching that

  • @donpoccho

    Send me that video please. I want to see this bullshit for myself.

    Thanks.

    --Tom.

  • your very right. and i think its great what you do to help people. people who say your not helping it's because they have never had to suffer with it. And they will never understand what it is like and how addictive it is. I know how serious and hard it is to quit. I believe in you I feel you can stop it. If you can't I understand what you mean. I too suffered the same thing . Have you tried the rubber band? Not going to lie it really helped me lessen the amount i self harmed.

  • i fucked up :(

  • I was never a cutter, but I would literally pick my skin with my fingernails. To the point it was disfiguring, I have done it off and on all my life, I also used my finger nails on my face, and have light scars on my face. I am 46 years old, was diagnosed with BPD when I was 21, I wish I could be positive, but each day is a struggle

  • wow a lot of ignorant people. this video is a lot of help. i have self injury issues. and everyone who is STUPID dont judge its very hard to recover with this.

  • ppl tell me just stop and they just dont get that its harder than ....

    i just want to thank u for trying to get the word out there the its not just that easy theres more than that to it so thank u so much...

  • i have never known how 2 stop self harming, it is cutting, stubbing cigarettes out on myself to not eating psychiatrists in the uk are rubbish, and not one has helped with meds or counseling, i have recently just stopped taking temazepam (or the doctors forced me cos he would get in trouble for prescribing a controlled drug), and went thru living hell (killer withdrawel), they gave me seroquel, which made me hear stuff in my head i sleep 2hrs a nite now ur vids help thanx

  • you rule! thankyou

  • Xsullengirlx...you are such a help to so many people:) all those people that flaunt their ignorance by saying this and that about the SI problem that so many people, without knowin how it feels, are STUPID . and IGNORANT

  • I like that bit " I dont know how to put it simpler, so I'm just gonna go with it...um, there is no magical cure for SI". Rock-a-hula. :)

  • You know, I think showing the scars doesn't have to be such a bad thing. Yeah, people may say things, or judge or make fun of you... but who cares? You're going through this, and the important thing is you're seeking help and trying to recover, more than a smoker does usually. I believe that the less repulsion you have to the scars, the better you'll feel and the more you'll accept yourself. I've been through this, that's why I can tell this. :). I hope it helps you too, sullengirl.

  • Oh, and no... there's no magic cure for self injury. Not at all. The only way to recovery is little by little, and trying. :).

  • Thank you for doing what you are doing, it is helping many other people like myself, and is a great thing for someone to actually care and not label or judge.

  • *hug* dont be sad pretty lady :(

  • i appreciate your videos, they really help me out, thankyou xx

  • I think what you are doing is awesome. people need to be able to relate to someone when they are trying to heal from the turmoil of SI'ing. I used to cut for years, and stopping is a hard thing to do. recovery is a long process, but eventually life will get better and SI becomes less addicting than it used to be. i still get the urge to cut, but it becomes easier to fight it the longer you can stay SI free. keep fighting everyone and never give up hope, you are not alone!

  • We arnt allowed to wear anything on our arms and have to wash them thougrally, thanks for your help though, this is probably something I have to face up to at some point, it's been long enough and people had to find out at some point!

    Thank you so much for your help

    Today, you really are awesome!

    Don't change! =D

  • Ah, well it seems there isn't really a way out of that one, then! All you can really do is hope that people are more focused on their baking and not your arms, sometimes we tend to think people will notice more than they do. If they do though, just don't let people get to you, you seem like a smart awesome person and that's not measured by scars on your arms. Take care and let me know how it goes. :)

  • Thanks... I have no chance of hiding my scars tommorow, part of me doesn't care but my life will get worse if people know... I'm baking in school and I have to have my sleeves up, do you have any tips? I don't want to trouble you... Thanks

  • Hmm, I had the same issue in art class in high school, but i refused to roll my sleeves up, just wore tight long sleeves and said i couldn't... are you allowed to wear any kind of wrist bands/bracelets? You could always try a combo of that and some concealer makeup... It's a tough situation, I know!

  • Your like the best youtuber ever, this is the 4th video in a row I have watched now, you speak the truth and that's good, you are awesome and I love your videos.

    I want to stop, but I can't, only my close friends know and I don't want anyone else to know so I can't get proffesional help, I'm 14 and live in England u.k, and have attepted suicide twice but I don't self injure to kill myself, I atteped suicide by suffocation, thank you and don't stop being yourself!! =D

  • Hey, thanks for the compliment, I really appreciate it. I am sorry you are having a rough time, if there's anything I can do let me know. You're not alone! Take care. :)

  • I think it's great that you give hints of how to cover it. I've self-injured myself and how to cover it up always worried me back then. And extra worrying is really the last thing you need when you already feel bad.

    I quit for a year now and I also still struggle, it's still a fight every day. But i know that somehow, someday we'll get through it... Every day we don't injure ourselves is another day we didn't give up the fight, another day we got through... and that's worth a lot!

  • Wow, congrats on not SI'ing for a year! That's proof it is very possible, and you can get through it. people just need to take it day by day and like you said, never give up the fight. Thanks for being so inspirational :)

  • Thanx for posting this , I was attracted by the title , woulden't it be great if there was a magical cure all , but there isn't , I'm going through a rough patch right now and your videos have offered help in the past , so um yeah thankyou :)

  • thnx u make amazing helpfull videos im 13 and i just started cutting like a year ago and it just has'nt stopped since i made that first cut and alot of ppl dont understand the pain we go through... i've had alot of remarks about my emo-ness and how i dress and its embarrassing wen ppl find out and make fun of u im one of thoughs ppl who always wears sweaters or long sleaved shirts my family has found out and so has my friends it hard and i dont think non self injuring ppl realize that

  • the urge never goes away. I wonder where it comes from.

  • You started almost crying about halfway through... don't cry. You're absolutely right.

  • thank you so so much. people need to know that it takes alot to stop. seeing other people storys helps other people aswell. thanks

  • for some people (like myself) the scars are part of the SI. I don't want my scars to go away..they define who I am, as warped as that sounds. They're part of me. They're a reminder. It's hard to explain.

  • @foxportions92 Me too.

  • thank you! finally, somebody who understands that just because you want to stop, you can't just MAGICALLY do it..people are so clueless. and self-injurers are so stereotyped and misunderstood..which makes me want to do it more.

  • THERE IS A MAGICAL CURE FOR SCARSSSSSSSS

    1st. get a jar of peanut butter and rub it on your scars then leave it on for 20 minutes every night, then take a napkin and rub the peanut butter off

    do that for 2 weeks and your scars should disapeared, if not then it should start to fade away, this is guaranteed to work :D

  • now its 8 scars... please help me.

  • hey, i've been cutting for 3 years, i have over 1000 scars but i haven't done it for the past two weeks.. it's easier to stop before you become deeply embeded in the addiction of it. find something to stop for, an event, a person, a dream,

    day by day, short term goals help.

    just think about if you one day have kids, how will you explain the scars? what about your friends?

    private message me if you're in trouble, i'd like to try and help,

    i hope you're ok xx

  • u no, i have thot about tht very thing, explaining them to kids if i have them someday..and i mean what WOOD u say? like seiously..u woodnt just lik tell your kids tht ya no??

  • yeah, because thren it'd put the idea in their heads ands they might start, or it'd just freak them out. so my only ideas are don't start, or try and get rid of the scars. or don't have kids. none of which are ideal.

  • yeah, and like,the older u get, the harder they get to cover cuz i dont wanna wear wristbands ur whole life, and like the kids wouldnt understand if u had them

  • i know hey, & mine go so far up my ams that i can't even try to hide them with wristbands, ugh. i tried liquid foundation once, but that just made me look freakishly tanned, haha.

  • hahaha, yeah, i no, ive tried stuff lik tht and it duzznt work well. thts y i dont do it all the way up, only as far as th wristband goes. heyy, yeah, are there ppl , like do ur buds no?

  • fair enough hey, i'm not quite so clever :( um, a few of my friends know, it's hard not to notice i guess, plus i was in hospital recently (OD) so they found out alot of stuff then, how bout you?

  • ohhh...and i knew some of my friends knew, but there wer others i wasnt quite sure, but, now i no they do bcuz i finally broke down and told someone else, and told them to tell my best friend. and i am soo glad she knows this now.(:

  • that's really good :) do you think you'll be able to talk to your best friend about it, like, for support? i hope you can :)

  • yeahhh:) and i don't really know, i mean itll still probly be akward, and she doesnt have a lot of experience or anything with this type of thing, but atleast i wont have to try and stop myself from saying somethings....but, i made a mistake with who i told i think, tho, bcuz, like, if he says something stupid, and i reply, of hit him, or something, he lke, threatns to tell our school guidance counselor, and thts not good...

  • yeah, i'm sure it'll get a bit easier now she knows :) wow that's a horrible, manipulative thing to do, would he really tell them? would it be really bad if the guidence councellor knew?

  • mmm:)) he might tell them, which wood not be good bcuz they might call my parents or something, and especially bcuz one of them now lives across the street from me...and it just would't end well, so lately ive been trying to avoid him in hopes of ridding my life of him so tht sort of thing wont happen. i know this may make me cut again, but, ill try agen if tht happens cuz thts better than the other scenario...

  • hmm that would be crap, i hope he's a decent enough person to not tell. and i hope it doesn't make you cut, are you trying to stop? :)

  • mmm...hopefully...me and my friend who now knows are talking about him rite now and how much we hae him haha:), and yeah, i guess so, but i realized i dont need to, i just want to, i just enjoy it, and it sounds so stupid even to me .

  • haha nice :) atleast she hates him too!

    that doesn't sound stupid, i completely understand that, i'm trying to stop at the moment, and i know i don't really need to do it, i just..crave it. but i have now gone 56 days without cutting (which sounds pathetic) but is a new record for me :D hehe

  • hahaha yeahhh:) and FINALLY! cuz all i ever hear is ppl who want to stop, dont want to do it, but do, bcuz they're addicted and i usually only do it bcuz i want to, just like u said, i crave it too. and thts not pathetic! thts rele good! ur making an effort to stop and tht amount of time is good for u so thts good ((:

  • thaanks :)

    it's easier than i thought it was.

    how're things going for you atm?

  • welll thts good(: and things are going fine, i havent rele been wanting to lately, idk y, but whatever, so thts good.:D

  • that's really good to hear :) i'm pleased & i hope it stays that way!

  • just try your hardest to stop... its only gonna get worse

  • i cut myself and its addicting... i want to stop, today i made 7 scars on my wrist and its staring to hurt a lot... my mom doesnt know i cut myself but i dont know if i should quit and if i do how?

  • I love all of your vids, they've helped a lot.

    I am one of your subscribers and I think you should definetley make some more vids. I can't wait to see more! : )

  • gReAt jOb! I liKe WaTcH viDeOs LiKe tHiS

    My EnGliSh iSn't gOOd I'm PoLisH

    I hOpE YoU UnDeRstaNd Me

  • i have to say, you are quite possibly one of the greatest people on the planet. i cut your videos help. i havent cut in a while and ive been using your tips for hiding it. and i just want to say thank you.

    i have to agree with you. even tho i havent cut in a month, im not recovered. its definatly a day to day thing. im glad that theres people like you that try to explain it to other dumb ass uninformed people. you actually are my hero right now

  • I recently discovered that a good friend of mine self injures she now has about 10-15 a few scars and very few people know, and im not judging her but i am really encouraging her to try and stop while she is still new to it all because i dont want to see her 10 years from now with lots of scars and cuts on her arm's our life's are still young and im not losing hope I'm only 14 But i know that deep down she is reaching out and maybe i will be the one to save her.

  • I started for totally selfish reasons at age 10 and still do it for totally selfish reasons 10 years later and that's to feel better. It takes the edge off the day. life's bitterness dissapears if only for a second. Its not self pity. it's instant gradification. It's normal for me. I just wish everyone else woundn't assume i'm somesort of a nut case or suicidal. If anything I'm pro life. I just need some room to breathe sometimes.

    good job with your vids.

  • I know I don't understand SI, since my thing is to avoid any kind of injury that could slow me down or stop me from doing things that I want to. Can't people who do or want to SI start doing things that would make it the last thing they would want to do, or have happen to them? I was injured 20yrs ago at work, that damaged all my body systems including brain, and I struggle to do things I want to, but still keep trying. We are all beautiful, nothing should make us want to change that.

  • I know this is the wrong thing to say, but alcohol helps

  • And wow. I'm thankful for these videos. I manage some online communities dealing with self injury, and was wondering if maybe I could post some of these videos? Totally giving you credit, and I can definitely link you to these communities.

    I just like this fresh breath of air about SI and a point of view that I, personally, share.

  • Thanks so much for everything you do =)

  • your right, there is no magical cure.

    it takes time, i know this for a fact..

  • Hey..... Just wanted to say... Keep up the good fight for us.

  • Keep it up you are amazing. I love all your videos. You have given me so much advice and helped me so much I can't say thanks enough! 

  • Its easy for you to say just STOP cuz we cant its not as easy as it sounds ......its hard not to for some of us but you should talk to you're friends or if you know someone who does then you & them should help each other stop trust me it will help...it helped me =]

  • then you try starting then trying to stop!!!

    if you havent ever done it, then you cannot simply TELL people to stop and they will

  • thank you :)

  • i'm glad i'm not alone..i've been a cutter since I was 13..i do have periods where i don't cut sometime for years...then i will start cutting again...it really is an addiction...i'm just glad i'm not alone...

    thanks

  • i don't feel so alone once i heard your vidoe...i do understand how u feel...once you cut is really hard to stop.,..i have done it since i was 13..i have spells where i don't cut for several years..then i will start up again...i'm just glad i'm not alone with this....thanks

  • those people who leave those idiotic comments just dont have a life!! everything you say in most of your video's alot of people can relate, those of those who dont relate well then they shouldnt be watching your video's....right? thankfully there is a nice little "SPAM" or "DELETE" button that exists on yourtube. =) but dont let it bother you anyway sweetie!

  • self injury is a SYMPTOM not a cause. you can't fix a symptom if you don't fix the cause. i think people don't realize that fact.

  • finally! some1 who gets it. ppl jst dont understand. & i think the main issue of tht is jst that they'll never get it till they've experienced something so traumatic and hurtful and depressing that this is one of the only way we can deal with it to make us feel better. dont judge bcz u dont understand! thnx so much christie for understanding

  • i wish i could stand up like you said, and say to everyone that this is who i am. but i cant, my family do not understand and never will. thankyou for your videos, and thankyou for understanding that awful urge to self harm. i dont think i will ever "recover" or "get better" but i gotta keep going on this horrible journey. thankyou again.

  • i can't even really put it how i want to, other than thank you. i think a lot of struggling people who want to improve their lives are going to seek out professional help, but having some idea of how other people fare in the same situation is so helpful. it's great for me to see someone who is more or less in the same state as i am and still living and still fighting. it's hard to believe it when i see it in friends, easier with people i don't actually know.

  • i agree....its taken me 5 years to get to 4 months of no self harm, you cant just stop, it will be gradual to stop and you will defo know when your ready. if you are in that state where it feels addictive..its dangerous to try n stop and most likely people will do it more. keep going with your vids their great :)

  • yeah. I have gotten to the point where I stopped, and I haven't for around a year now. Every now and again I will get urges to though, and it's hard but I try and get through them. I know I'm not the only one who thinks that these videos are amazing, and that I wish I had her courage. It just really makes me feel like I'm not alone to listen and see her, and read all of these comments.

  • i love your point of view. i have been cutting myself for roughly 7 er more months. i have a question, when you want to cut, what do you do? i have tried stopping countless times, but when i finally get my hands on my blade i cut 10x worse than i ever had. i try to keep my hands busy, but i just cant do it. what are some techniques you have used?

  • I think your videos are helpful because it allows people to relate. That's why I like them. It's kind of a sort of recovery to have someone to relate to, knowing that they've felt emotions similar to your own. So thank you. (:

  • also if anyone viewing this video if you read my last comment and you know the answer could you please met me know? im really interested in that website. ok thank you all.

  • I was just wondering if you are still working on the self injury website. I dont know if you've talked about this recently or not and im sorry if i'm behind in the times with that i haven't been able to check your updates etc. Anyway i'm going to try to see your new videos right now and thank you so much for all your videos they have helped me so much. Thank you again!

  • you're sooo beautiful! but anyway, do you think self injury is a habit? I have watched quite a few of your videos and it has been years that you have been self injuring..

    and I'm just wondering "why" i guess. I did it for quite some time, because I now explain it " its easier to dealwith the physical pain as oppose to the emotional pain" But, so many years of it, I'm just wondering the "why" behind it i guess

  • xsullengirlx, I just wanted to say that I think you have such a beautiful face! I wish I could look like you :(...

  • I was wondering about something...do you think that its wrong to want to write school papers and discussions and bring attention to self-injury but being afraid to admit to doing it?

  • No its not wrong at all. You obviously want to help others and spread awareness about SI, which is a good thing! People who SI and people who don't are interested in it and should help bring attention to it. It's hard to admit you do it, if you do talk to others about it, in no way are you obligated to share your personal experience. Good luck, and go for it!!! :) I'm proud of you.

  • great video loved it ;)

  • For words: Thank you SO much

  • this is an awesome video. i love all of your videos. you are seriously talented with the way you speak <3

  • i love your attitude :) good work

  • i understand the need to cover up the scars...when i have to look at the scars that i have it drives me crazy...and it makes me feel like i should just give up.

    so many people say "stop" like i can just do it...unless you've done it then you don't understand really...i just wish people would realize it is an addiction and hard as hell to stop..

    for those of you who don't self injure PLEASE DON'T START!

  • you really have had to self harmed before to say something about the issue. cause if you havent gone through the cutting or whatever it is and stopped yourself, who are you to go around tell us to stop cutting and say that it is that easy? cause its really not as easy as it would seem and i totally agree, we should not be judged because of our cuts or scars. we are only ourselves and no one can change what has been done, but thank you so much for all of you posts! you are a true inspiration! x]

  • you know what i am with you seriously we shouldnt be judged for who we are! cause this is who we are we are cutters and we will always be cutters even if we dont do it anymore! its apart of us and its who we are!!! thankyou!!! you are a really good inspiration

  • as a self harmer i see where you are comming from if we are looking at how to hide the scars, do yuo think we would want to watch a triggering video? no! and thks for ur advise on how to cover them

  • Heyy

    when you're having a bad day, what do you do if you're trying to self harm ?

  • If you're going to self harm, think about people you really love, family, friends, anyone, think about how they would feel. It helps me, maybe it can help other people. x

  • Thanks For The Comment Back It Helped =)

    x x x

  • ppl shouldnt cut there self! i do but im trying to though!!!! :'( Good job u are trying to help me and thx for trying! I will keep trying though

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  • ii think your really awesome && ii am glad that your getting help :)

  • Thank You. Thank you for your honesty. Thank You so much.

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  • I don't give tips out on how to self-injure or what to use, I seriously suggest you try to get some help for your SI instead of trying to find a better way to do it. If you need help with that I will definitely give you some suggestions. Good luck to you, be careful.

  • I'm not asking on tips on how to do it, i just need to know where i can get it, honestly i feel like i'm going insane, i really need to know where i can find one.

    I can't tell anyone, they all think I'm a freak as it is this would only make things worse,

    and thanks so much for the arm warmers idea :P

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  • sorry, i don't mean to interfere and i know it's none of my business... but...

    @adamina: you really shouldn't put someone else in the position to give you any suggestion to harm yourself... (including where to get razors from...) i really hope that you find help and feel better in future. (easy said, i know..) love.

  • mmk well im sorry if i offended anyone with my comment .

  • I know nail scissors don't work as well but you should seriously try and stop...

    i use other methods to cut but i don't want to tell you because i want you to stop...

    i know that self-harm is bad and i should try and stop but i don it without thinking...

    if you haven't done it for a while then it'll be easier to stop...

  • reply to Adamina155

    I'm not going to give tips either, and i don't think people think you're a freak, that's what made me s.h. knowing where to get razors isn't going to help, trust me, and if you need to talk to someone in confidence, i'm a good listener. x

  • that's like a drug addict asking where to get their drugs....no way are we going to help you find a razor.

  • lol i love this video, it's funny. i think you'd be a great politician Christie, someone to bring integrity and hope to it. there's never too many of those.

  • i was so surprised when i came across your channel,you seem like a very genuine person. it actually helps me and alot of other people to hear other people's stories and experiences. thanksss

  • I hate that when you type Self Harm into the search bar, most of the stuff that comes up are these slide-shows with OMGBLOOD pictures. It's so unnecessary. Thanks for putting up some decent videos on the subject.

  • I hate that too, I think it's important to get the message out there without being shocking or triggering, it really is unnecessary. Thank you :)

  • yayy <3 you tell them!!

    *fights*

  • The only cure for self injury is love. The more you love yourself and the more love you receive from others will help you stop. Let someone in and let them help you realize how valuable you are. Your beautiful don't let how hard life is bring you down. I suffered with a painful e.d. for years and the only thing that got me to stop was having someone love me regardless of what i did to some me how much i should love myself.

  • i second that, one of the reasons why ive been free is due to my girlfriend which is now my life we where both self harmers we now have found a way to stop, we both have our moments dont get me wrong but where free and happy, love helps

  • i LOVE YOUR VIDEO'S

    DANNGGGGG PEOPLE ARE SO RUDE GIRL YOUR SO GREAT WITH YOUR VIDEOS YOUR AMAZING ROLE MODEL I WATCH YOUR VIDEO'S THIER AMAZING I KNOW WHAT YOUR GOING THROUGH

  • i love your videos. i think they're great and they've helped me so much. i'm not speaking for anyone else, i just think you should continue what you're doing. and please email me back!!

  • this might be a little personal but...how often do u self-injure?

  • there is no cure for Self Injury / self harm you just learn to live with it or live with out it

    Ive been free or so called free for 2 years like you i feel like it some days, i wish i had your strength to show the secrets

    thank you for sharing

  • Wow you're video was really good! Keep up the good work x

  • I really don;t think anyone can recover

    and I only have one way to stop and its running and i cant always run

    thanks for the covering up tips and ppl dont realize what we go through and stuff :(

    Im trying to get better but its not working

  • don't give up! we're in this together, all of us right here, and every day my goal is to be a success story. if you give up..you will get worse. hang in there!

  • im doing better 2 but just a while ago i got all drunk and broke some windows ...

  • good vidio you make sence i am seeking help for my si.

  • I don't think there is such thing as a fully recovered person when it comes to SI. I've been at it for 5 almost six years. Once you start, no matter how long you go with out doing it, it's always in the back of your head nagging when you've had a bad day or whatever triggers it for you. But your videos are very smart, well thought out, and helpful. So thank you. I've been okay for a few months but I still slip up, everyone does.

  • I really wish that there was a "magical" cure. I hate that I don't feel like I can stop.

  • youu gott a reallyy goodd pointt .

    i thinkk you havee alreadyy helpedd

    a lot of peoplee with yourr videos

    i cann tell byy mostt of the comments

    but yourr right theree is no magical curee

    nonee at all .

    hangg in theree

    :D

  • Thank you a heap for posting this:)

    I really love all of your videos and they really do help me through my life...

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  • I had to make a new account and I found you again. I've missed you. So i'm going to play catch up. you look great! i've been doing good on not cutting haven't cut in over a year

  • I am glad to hear from you again, I appreciate the comments. I am glad that you are doing well with not self-harming, keep it up, you're an inspiration! :D

  • where can you go to get help? i havnt cut in almost a year but lately ive been so depressed i almost killed myself last night. i cant trust my friends because they wont keep it quiet. my (seperated) parents are too busy arguing with each other i cant talk to them, as if i would. i have no one to talk to.

  • -off topic- you remind me of pink o-o

    -on topic- i am one of those ppl and everytime i watch a vid of urs idk what to comment i just put 5 stars and leave.

  • Well thank you, I don't think anyone's ever told me that I remind them of pink but she's cool. I appreciate you rating the video, but rating and comments aren't as important I just really appreciate people watching :) Take care!

  • Lol you look a little like her tho

  • I was a self-injurer for over eight years, in and out of hospitals, overdosing for non-suicide reasons, etc. My last act of self-injury was in August of last year (so over nine years, if you count that one).

    This was the first video of yours I saw and I was pleasantly surprised to find such a human, inspiring video by a self-injurer that didn't advocate self-injury but didn't hop on the other side and preach recovery, recovery, recovery.

    Thank you, thank you for caring.

  • I could never begin to understand exactly what you're going threw, but I do understand the way people react to things out of ignorance. As someone who has bouts of severe depression I can't count how many times I've been told by even loved ones that I should just get over it and stop being depressed.

  • I stopped cutting for months... Now I'm back again. I even took apart my shaving razor just so I could have a blade today... My boyfriend is leaving me and shows little care for me now even though we've been together for 5 years. He's changed. So now I'm back in this state. Everything's falling apart. I feel like I'm living a nightmare now.

  • It may feel like a nightmare now but it will get better. hang in there .

  • You're very pretty and inspiring. Thank you.

  • (contd.) Maybe you've stumbled on to something here, like you said before, is better than therapy. We need to reach out to each other, I see that now. I've alienated myself from the world as much as possible, but seeing you put yourself out there like this makes me want to help too. Thank you.

  • You've inspired me so much. I don't think I've commented much on your videos, but have been watching them for a couple years. I even played one of your videos for my mother once when she couldn't understand why I've had anxiety since I was six years old. They've put me on a dozen medications for a decade now, but realizing how many intelligent, empathetic women like you have the same problems... The world is so closed-minded and judgmental that I really don't think the problem is all chemical.

  • i understand what u meen i just see somthing or hear somthing and thank you for just helping.

  • Your soo amazing! Your so helpful. I love your videos so much! :)

  • too late...I'm already on the pad...(or however you spell it)

    I wish there was a magical cure...because I'm already trying to stop for 5 months...and everyone around me is really sad about me hurting myself...it seems that when I cut my wrist I hurt them more than myself... And I really want to stop...but it's too hard for me...everyone is helping but.....I've already given up hope...I will never recover from self-injury so why trying...it doesn't matter how hard I fight...I always lose =(

  • you won't always lose, deadlikeme, everyone trips up at times. you may never recover, that's possible but don't give up hope. i have recovered from things i thought i could never get through or even go near dealing with, but you change as you grow and if it takes tiny steps and some years then that's what it takes. but it's worth it.

  • I am a recovered self-injurer. It's an ongoing battle. Anyone who thinks you can just WILL yourself to stop is someone who has no idea what they are talking about.

    Don't worry about comments from ignorant losers. Just keep on doing what you're doing, because you're helping more people than you realize with your frankness about a subject that is difficult to discuss.

  • I just wanted to say that i stumbled upon your videos in search for advice and help with this *problem?* I have found your videos to be inspiring and hopeful.

    Ppl dont understand how hard it is to live with this problem.

    One thing my friend (i have only told one) doesnt get is I struggle with S.I. on a daily basis. She does not understand that it affects every facuet of my life. She often forgets and is like "oh, yea sorry. forgot about it"

    ppl just dont understand

  • DAMN i got all excited for a second. I am trying to stop cutting because it seame toget worse and worse every time i do it. I want to get help but i don't know how.

  • Well, there is no MAGICAL cure, but there is definitely hope for recovery and ways to cope with your problems in a healthy way, it just takes work and determination and a lot of time. If you want to stop, it is possible. I have some videos about how to try and cope in a more healthy place, one's called "self injury coping mechanisms", but if you need further suggestions or help send me a message. Good luck!

  • Thanks.

  • HEY PLZZ REPLY TO MY MEG

  • did u watch the video? wtf

  • you do not get it, do you? clueless alert!