Wow I watched this commentary about a month ago and it just flicked a switch on for me and I realized how indecisive I am. I'm not going through a tough time but the realization has really helped me with all sorts of things like how I play sport, girls etc. Cheers man you did change my life just a little :D
Uhmmm guys i dont want to be a douche an stuff, but i've just made this channel, and will be posting more PC only gameplay, and my hate for console has been growing lately. I'd appreciate any feedback or suggestions, im not going to ask for a like or subscribtion, but my content WILL get better. thanks for reading if you got this far :)
Guys, I'm sorry, but I'm pretty sure every single one of us has just been trolled. PvtJ8ker, you win (the Game). Everything he's talking about matches up with the gameplay. Watch it over again, but this time, watch it as if he's talking about what's going on in the game. You'll see what I mean.
I also lost my grandmother a few years back. I was about 12 years old at the tim. She lost a long battle with cancer. A year or so before that i lost my great grandmother, and a year or so AFTER that i lost my other great grandmother. I dont cry when people die. Im not sure why. Dont get me wrong, i loved each and everyone of them, I just didnt cry. I dont do anything different when people die, I continue with the life im living, In their honor. I let their good name live forever.
@GrimPlays it happened to me to at about your age, but there is a fine difference between losing your grandma and losing your dad, mom, your girlfriend or wife. I know you loved your grandma but mentally she is not as close to you as other relatives are
@TehMw3Pwnzer Thats very true. I also think it may be because, since she was sick, I didnt see her as often as i had before. It was like a lost her before i actually lost her.
I'm a lot like this sometimes and I can relate to your story somewhat, just not the death part. I focus way too much on the past and future, so much that I'm not even living in the present anymore; I'm not living in the moment. I think I need to realize that the past is behind me and there's nothing I can do to change it; and the only way I can control my future is by taking control of the present. Things aren't going to sort themselves out if I remain passive, they'll get worse. Thanks buddy!
Thanks for this commentary, it helped me through something. And I love these, these more mellow commentaries are amazing, love this and keep on doing what you do!
you are really deep. you remind me alot of myself actually. i over anticipate things alot, and i have a really good way of describing things. i could talk about a single feeling i have for days if i really needed to, even if its not a big thing. im also very good at understanding things. my parents got a divorce and they kept telling me it wasnt my fault but it didnt mean anything because to me it was like common sense. i dont know if everyone is like that, but i believe its a gift.
@NukeIraq1 Yeah, let's get this shit on =3 with Ray William Johnson!
No. The idiots who worship him wouldn't understand this video's depth. The idiots who choose what to watch based on what's most popular at the moment wouldn't understand the fucking title. They'd just be all 'herp derp, I have no depth'.
@ Pvtj8ker my uncle also gave me similar advice. He always told me that the worst decision in life is not making a decision. Took me a while to figure out that he was right, even if the decision ends up being bad, I at least made a judgement call and thats all that matters.
Dude, I used to think of that all the time. A month or go, a few of my friends died in random tragic accidents. And I couldn't sleep. I'd think about it all the time. This is really inspiring and I respect you so much for this. Thanks, and I really hope you get to read this.
We have similar minds, I have to think about everything that I do or see. It makes me indecisive and very terrible at make-haste judgements or decisions. I find thinking less helps me through these situations.
This isn't as huge as the life-death thing, but I've decided that I'm going to move to Russia some day, and this has impacted me somewhat. Mainly, because of my age, I see girls I like and I consider asking them out or whatever, but then I worry that the relationship will last to where I'm telling them I want to go, and they don't want to leave America, or they are okay with it but their family is devastated by it and it's gotten kind of hard... I'm sure I want to go there, but still.
You've gotta live in the moment buddy. I've thought that very same way many times before. Enjoy life, enjoy being with the people that are here right now. Don't think about death, or other negative things in the future, all it does is stress negativity, and no one wants anymore of that then they already have.
Haven't had anyone close to me die yet, but I know the day is coming. I didn't really take death seriously until early this year when the Japan earthquake happened. It nearly broke me when the realization hit me, I'm just like you, I obsessed over it because of my imagination. until I finally learned I needed to start living in the present, instead of the future. Now it's just there. I think about death and treat more seriously, but I no longer live my life around it. Good Luck to you as well.
One thing with death, is the only thing I'm scared about, is what happens after you die, I always wonder if you still have an inner conscience whilst dead, like if you just dream forever or something. It makes me wonder is something there when you're dead? i don't believe in heaven or hell, because if there is a God, he wouldn't judge people in such blunt ways.
But the thought of there not being anything after, really has me depressed.
Anyone ever had Bad Company 2 moments were a guy runs in front of you and you have 2 seconds to shoot him or he kills you. Then afterwards imaging had that been real could you have done it?
Same goes for dying in BC2, you're just running along and some guy is behind a barrier with you in his sights, you get shot and die. It happens so fast man.
@PvtJ8ker i dont know if you remember me, but im the dude who was thinking about killing himself awhile back but i didnt thankfully. and i really do i have to thank you. Your vids always put me in a better mood and just for some reason at the time made life worth living. and everytime my depression starts to get hard i come here. For the laughs, for the vids, for the feeling that i get that makes me want to go live my life. So thank you. Really. Your vids do more than you would know.
It´s ironic how this video comes to me at a time when I have to make a decision that´s difficult for me and has bothered me for a while. I´ll take your advice and just take a decision and cope with the results.
I did the same thing... crying myself to sleep, fixating on images of my parents dying and me being left alone in this world... It did get to me, and you have made me realize that being that way affects your self esteem, your confidence, every facet of your livelihood. So making more decisions rather than pondering on every triviality in life really does change a whole outlook, and thanks for making an average guy realize that.
To post a video so insightful and truly inspiring is awesome man, I can honestly say death has been a huge fear for me for quite some time, but this truly gave me another way to look at death itself and the situations that materialize afterwards. Love the positive video, those are the types of videos that I love to post so I certainly give you my respect for doing the same my friend! And don't ever think you don't influence people, your words are stronger than you think.
Pvtj8ker, ive seen every single one of your videos and i have to say youve changed my view on so many things in my life, i have no idea who you are but i have heard enough from you to know youre the best commentator on youtube, never stop this thing you have going on <3
I lost my good friend.... I knew him 14 years... And its really hard.. Watching his parents cry... He died 10.5 this year...five days before his birthday.... For some reason i didnt cry. But i cant smile and you can trust me on that.
Great commentary. I'm like you - fortunate enough that not many people close to me have died but I agree that letting sadness; guilt or whatever it may be consume you as a person over death - or other matters - is a terrible thing to do. Your father's right - you need to stand up and decide what you're going to do - but I think taking comfort in music; friends; books; et cetera can, in a sense, save your own life too. That isn't to say wallow in self-pity but to inspire yourself to move on.
Great commentary! If anyone else out there is constantly thinking about death and stuff you may want to check out the book that @2watsky mentioned in his newest video (he said it helped him a lot so idk maybe check it out) please continue making awesome videos, Alex!
I know your pain, man. My gran suffers from dementia. After my grandad past away her health suddenly deteriorated and my mum couldn't look after her. She went into a nursing home and my mother and I went to visit her almost every night. Everytime I try to talk to her, I talk to my gran. But she can't talk back. She doesn't know who I am. It kills me inside because I love my gran. I hope she never dies. But I will have to accept the fact she will pass soon. I hope your commentary helps me. I hope
Ha this video would have helped but I did like all of this myself but I think I thought about me dying (to a ridiculous degree) a lot more than you thought about others.
I'd be walking down the street thinking that guys going to stab me or this dude at Wendy's is going to poison my Dr.Pepper.
Also I thought I was somehow going to teleport to the bottom of the ocean or die in my sleep that's how bad it was.
it really is a tough topic and i see it and feel the same way like you do... I actually am quit happy that my grandparents are still alife as ever and i sometimes wonder if my way of dealing with them (like visiting them rarely) i don't know if that is right, i meen no one know how long they'll be along ...
2. nice vid even though it is quit an ironical pick of video for this kind of topic ... don't you all think so ??
@rubenrules005 That is a tough thing to deal with, but don't 'cope' with drugs and alcohol.
I say it in quotes because using drugs to cope is a complete cop-out. Yes, it'll be hard, but the best thing you can do is keep on doing what you've been doing.
thanks alex. its nice to hear the real genuine side, of a normally very sarcastic/lighthearted guy. much respect for sharing your experiences with us.
Wouldnt mind hearing more about these kinds thoughts.
Great video Alex. I'm sure this will help a lot of people through tough times, and for people like me who haven't loss any relatives or had any major life issues, it will help in the future.
I was taught by my Grandfather, very early on, that "things die", which applied to people as well. I was all too aware that I wouldn't be here forever, my family wouldn't and nor anything I've ever known stand the test of the time. I was also a part of a family that had no belief structure in any kind of god (pretty much an atheist family without really categorizing ourselves). It was good for me, since then I've lost my grandfather, grandmother, dad and a few others and, mostly, I've been fine.
I thought you were gonna make a video telling people to make a decision between MW3 and BF3... God damn that was shocking. That was a really great video, a really amazing message. Thanks.
I dont think I find death a scary thing...... I think not knowing (for certain) what lies ahead of death is the scary thing. Although I have my personal beliefs about what comes next so I have to live to my beliefs but when you think about it. Why be afraid of what you have no control of? You cant change the fact that your going to die but you can prepare for it and live life as best you can. Im glad i watched this. Thank you pvt for making me think....
my dog died when i was 6 years old :( i coudnt get over it for 6 years :( som tomes i was watching in a picture book of her, and i cried my self to sleep :,(
I find it hard to be understanding for people who lose a family member or someone close to them. All my life i have been around people dying. Either accirdents suicides or worse.
I am now numb to it. I could stop living tomorrow and i would not know, nor care. It's all apart of life.
What scares me is living in a vegetative state or crippled in a major way. I have already got in my will that if i because a veg that ill be euthanised.
Most touching commentary ever. I know how it feels, I used to cry over becoming older and that I would finally die. Very painful thought, well it's life right?
man just reading all the comments people ahve posted has made me sad, im going thru issues to bout death, family ect but i guess knowing other people are going thru same things is comforting in a good way idk.. gl to every1
After listening through this video a second time, I have decided to ask out this girl I like. "oh big deal" for me, it is. I have never been on a date with a girl and I'm 16. But thanks to you Alex I have decided that I'm just gonna do it. Worst is she will say no. Wile I am afraid of this rejection, I will at least have my the people that I love and my subscribers too lean back on. (that you have so graciously given me) u seriously have improved my life pvtj8ker. I hope you know that.
MY FUCKING dog ran away 2 months ago... were still looking for her. we love her so much ... we spent over 2000 dollars looking for her... we dont know what to do anymore ... but i try to move on .. but it seems impossible... i cant even go to sleep ... worst thing is that my moms friend lost her... in an area were there are alot of cayotes...shes a chihuahua... i love her so much and all i can do is hope for the best ... worst thing is .. we dont know if shes dead or alive =-C
I just wanted to thank you for all the time youve put into this channel. Weather its a funny commentary that makes me laugh and takes my mind of my problems, or a serious commentary that makes me think about life I will always watch. I dont mean to be selfish, but I am asking you to please upload more videos, i understand that you will be very busy in school, but I will watch anything you put up, I have enjoyed every video you have put up. Thank you for all your hard work
Thank you for the life tip. To be honest, I love it when you use this low monotone-ish voice. It reminds me of your first commentaries which were great.
i am a religious man, and for my age i have seen a lot of death. But in my religious points of view i have always had trouble feeling sorry for those who pass away. Let me explain. All the people that i know and died were good people who did good things, in that logic they are probablly in heaven. And i am not sad for them if they are in heaven. I am sad for the people that they left behind that dont have the same POV as i do, because they quite often start living in fear of death.
great commentary man. lately ive been fixated with death and its scaring me. makes me feel like someone or myself is coming to an end. i just want you to know that this commentary really got to me.
I used to be fixated on death too, but it was mostly a fear of what would happen after I die. I got over it after losing my faith though. Good thing too, because it made it easier for me to cope with my dad's death. He died recently of lung cancer.
Give me a like if you abuse Kit switching give me a favorite if you dont know what kit switching is.
But on a serious note one of your commentaries did drastically help me. It was your "PvtJ8ker's new dawn" commentary, and I wanted to say what was on my mind without being judged.
P.S. I kept that message because it means something special to me. Homo intended.
Talking about death whilst playing a war game? Hmmm...... Maybe this is why you keep having these thoughts? But I guess I'm not one to talk cause I do to. I play and watch so many movies and games. Sometimes I am just walking in my house and then just jump up and almost cry. And I will be laying in bed just saying. "No no no no no!" But I'm thinking now that's it's most likely to come in at least 50 years and I'll deal with it then :P.
I don't think that it is death that scares people, I think that people (including me) are scared of not being alive. I remember I had to go through surgury and I had to be knocked out for them to do it, there was this time when I actually, just wasn't there. Completley gone, not living. And when I woke up I then thought that that must be what death is. And that'd be horrible. Because thats it, I hope I'm wrong though. I sure hope there is a heaven and a hell. Regardless.
@explorer617 All jokes aside, I get where you're coming from when you say your dads a police officer and everything. My dad died a while ago during a drug raid. But it's the fact you brought religion into your comment that drew me to it. You said it's important to have god in your life, assuming by that, you are Christian (Making that guess off the fact the majority of the world refers to just "God" as the christian god) which follows the after death, you enter the world of heaven. Now religion
what about when the people that you love dont have their health? You cant dwell on that as well. As tragic as losing someone you love is, they wouldnt want you to be grief stricken. They would want you to be happy and just remember them as they were. When I die I want my funeral to be a fucking party
The only reasons I don't want to die are because I love spending time w/ my family and friends, and gaming. The saddest part for me in dying is that there will be things I won't know. I will NEVER know why some things work, the only time that I wouldn't care about dying would be when I knew everything and had done everything. After that I'd be like "I've had a good run, I've done all there is and I know everything." And then I'd just fade into the enternal sleep.
i have fears about death i always worried about family my dad works as a police officer and cousin and her husband their over seas right now and my best friend has a brother in the Navy Seals sometimes when i hear about stuff going on over their it gets me nervous and my dad to which im very close to but you have to stay positive and have God in your life
i went through the same thing. great minds think alike i guess. lol. i think wen u yearn for wisdom u naturally go the path of most resistence because thats the most effective way to beat something. to fight it head on.
I recently had to deal with the emotional and physical trauma of having my dad die in my own hands. It was very hard to deal with hearing my mother and my father's mother cry about this, all due to a stroke he had at dinner one night. I was visiting him at the hospital, to tell him that I love him and that he's gonna get better, when he grabbed my hand, and slowly sank into his bed. You never really know how peaceful someone is when they die until they die. It is still affec
There is a little something on the dislike bar. Let me get a KLEENEX!
cory2841 2 months ago in playlist My Best Videos!
Wow I watched this commentary about a month ago and it just flicked a switch on for me and I realized how indecisive I am. I'm not going through a tough time but the realization has really helped me with all sorts of things like how I play sport, girls etc. Cheers man you did change my life just a little :D
stevitosgay 2 months ago
Since when does bc2 have a kill feed?
LordHastaGaming 2 months ago in playlist My Best Videos!
man, i drowned. legally dead. i thought it was over. i was gonna be forgotten....
relicdontfit 2 months ago in playlist My Best Videos!
This is my favorite commentary.
ColinHFGoKeefe 2 months ago 2
@ColinHFGoKeefe Thanks a lot man.
PvtJ8ker 2 months ago
i am only 11 and i had have a near death experience(hit by a car)
alcatraz738 4 months ago
Uhmmm guys i dont want to be a douche an stuff, but i've just made this channel, and will be posting more PC only gameplay, and my hate for console has been growing lately. I'd appreciate any feedback or suggestions, im not going to ask for a like or subscribtion, but my content WILL get better. thanks for reading if you got this far :)
MyReligionIsKBMOD 5 months ago
Ok,talking about that,my dad died 2 weeks ago,and i was thinking about suicide,i mean,i dont know if i can go on.I dont know,i am kinda confused.
SheepDaWhoop 5 months ago
@SheepDaWhoop Buddy, don't do it. You and you're family are obviously under a lot of stress.
Don't hurt you're family's life more. Suicide is a selfish act. Think about you're actions.
Take care :)
th3mw3llboyz 5 months ago
Guys, I'm sorry, but I'm pretty sure every single one of us has just been trolled. PvtJ8ker, you win (the Game). Everything he's talking about matches up with the gameplay. Watch it over again, but this time, watch it as if he's talking about what's going on in the game. You'll see what I mean.
Linkman712 5 months ago
@Linkman712 I hope you're joking... this is pretty sincere lol...
Ty2kk9 4 months ago in playlist More videos from PvtJ8ker
@Linkman712 how is the gameplay relevant? everything he said makes sense.
bigriv30 4 months ago in playlist bigriv30's favorites
@pvtj8ker still watching this today, so true. :)
bigriv30 5 months ago
is this a re-upload? because i remember seeing it like 2 months ago, i don't ever remember watching it earlier than that,
monkehriot 6 months ago
THAT WAS DEEP. Try not to dwell on things so intensly like that it isnt good for you.
ripu2bits 6 months ago
I also lost my grandmother a few years back. I was about 12 years old at the tim. She lost a long battle with cancer. A year or so before that i lost my great grandmother, and a year or so AFTER that i lost my other great grandmother. I dont cry when people die. Im not sure why. Dont get me wrong, i loved each and everyone of them, I just didnt cry. I dont do anything different when people die, I continue with the life im living, In their honor. I let their good name live forever.
GrimPlays 6 months ago
@GrimPlays it happened to me to at about your age, but there is a fine difference between losing your grandma and losing your dad, mom, your girlfriend or wife. I know you loved your grandma but mentally she is not as close to you as other relatives are
TehMw3Pwnzer 6 months ago
@TehMw3Pwnzer Thats very true. I also think it may be because, since she was sick, I didnt see her as often as i had before. It was like a lost her before i actually lost her.
GrimPlays 6 months ago
One of the best video commentaries i have ever seen on youtube.
Jezzman12121478 6 months ago
I'm a lot like this sometimes and I can relate to your story somewhat, just not the death part. I focus way too much on the past and future, so much that I'm not even living in the present anymore; I'm not living in the moment. I think I need to realize that the past is behind me and there's nothing I can do to change it; and the only way I can control my future is by taking control of the present. Things aren't going to sort themselves out if I remain passive, they'll get worse. Thanks buddy!
Scampfarmer 6 months ago
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way
MLongfellowDeeds 6 months ago
Thanks for this commentary, it helped me through something. And I love these, these more mellow commentaries are amazing, love this and keep on doing what you do!
That1guyusee 6 months ago
you are really deep. you remind me alot of myself actually. i over anticipate things alot, and i have a really good way of describing things. i could talk about a single feeling i have for days if i really needed to, even if its not a big thing. im also very good at understanding things. my parents got a divorce and they kept telling me it wasnt my fault but it didnt mean anything because to me it was like common sense. i dont know if everyone is like that, but i believe its a gift.
futurerev21 6 months ago
@NukeIraq1 Yeah, let's get this shit on =3 with Ray William Johnson!
No. The idiots who worship him wouldn't understand this video's depth. The idiots who choose what to watch based on what's most popular at the moment wouldn't understand the fucking title. They'd just be all 'herp derp, I have no depth'.
OptimisticNihilistic 6 months ago
@ Pvtj8ker my uncle also gave me similar advice. He always told me that the worst decision in life is not making a decision. Took me a while to figure out that he was right, even if the decision ends up being bad, I at least made a judgement call and thats all that matters.
HitTheHeretics 6 months ago
It would be epic if this video was to go viral
NukeIraq1 6 months ago
nice video dude, some great advice for sure
nordiquefb 6 months ago
Dude, I used to think of that all the time. A month or go, a few of my friends died in random tragic accidents. And I couldn't sleep. I'd think about it all the time. This is really inspiring and I respect you so much for this. Thanks, and I really hope you get to read this.
SillyGooseNati0n 6 months ago
Thanks Alex, i'll remember to watch this again when I have a problem and need to make a decision.
ILIkePiePwns 6 months ago
Why are you playing on PC? Console has better waaay textures.
ZenNnXD 6 months ago
@ZenNnXD Stfu and listen to what he's saying...RESPECT.
SaltiShift2o 6 months ago
@SaltiShift2o ur a bigger one
ZenNnXD 6 months ago
We have similar minds, I have to think about everything that I do or see. It makes me indecisive and very terrible at make-haste judgements or decisions. I find thinking less helps me through these situations.
4970702 6 months ago
This isn't as huge as the life-death thing, but I've decided that I'm going to move to Russia some day, and this has impacted me somewhat. Mainly, because of my age, I see girls I like and I consider asking them out or whatever, but then I worry that the relationship will last to where I'm telling them I want to go, and they don't want to leave America, or they are okay with it but their family is devastated by it and it's gotten kind of hard... I'm sure I want to go there, but still.
b0n3z3z 6 months ago
You've gotta live in the moment buddy. I've thought that very same way many times before. Enjoy life, enjoy being with the people that are here right now. Don't think about death, or other negative things in the future, all it does is stress negativity, and no one wants anymore of that then they already have.
paintedd 6 months ago
This is an amazing commentary. You're an amazing speaker by the way.
PUFF1NS 6 months ago
Haven't had anyone close to me die yet, but I know the day is coming. I didn't really take death seriously until early this year when the Japan earthquake happened. It nearly broke me when the realization hit me, I'm just like you, I obsessed over it because of my imagination. until I finally learned I needed to start living in the present, instead of the future. Now it's just there. I think about death and treat more seriously, but I no longer live my life around it. Good Luck to you as well.
piehead678 6 months ago
Dude you know so much wisdomat such a young age. Your brilliant
kahlilANDproductions 6 months ago
I would hate to die in real life by a noob tube
MrStoryoftheyear 6 months ago
Thank you for this, I was having trouble on an issue in my life and this really helped me to cope.
EnderGraff1 6 months ago
i have just added this video to my favs; you are one of the best people on youtube.
xAlmog 6 months ago
One thing with death, is the only thing I'm scared about, is what happens after you die, I always wonder if you still have an inner conscience whilst dead, like if you just dream forever or something. It makes me wonder is something there when you're dead? i don't believe in heaven or hell, because if there is a God, he wouldn't judge people in such blunt ways.
But the thought of there not being anything after, really has me depressed.
TheXsK 6 months ago
I have an issue in my life currently and after watching this commentary i have to say thank you. I have made my decision. Thanks. Peace.
callofdutyaddict1000 6 months ago
Anyone ever had Bad Company 2 moments were a guy runs in front of you and you have 2 seconds to shoot him or he kills you. Then afterwards imaging had that been real could you have done it?
Same goes for dying in BC2, you're just running along and some guy is behind a barrier with you in his sights, you get shot and die. It happens so fast man.
SupaTROopa2 6 months ago
Death sucks, it's
TheMisterWicked 6 months ago
@PvtJ8ker i dont know if you remember me, but im the dude who was thinking about killing himself awhile back but i didnt thankfully. and i really do i have to thank you. Your vids always put me in a better mood and just for some reason at the time made life worth living. and everytime my depression starts to get hard i come here. For the laughs, for the vids, for the feeling that i get that makes me want to go live my life. So thank you. Really. Your vids do more than you would know.
nattylaxerr 6 months ago
It´s ironic how this video comes to me at a time when I have to make a decision that´s difficult for me and has bothered me for a while. I´ll take your advice and just take a decision and cope with the results.
cooleo1208 6 months ago
have you seen garden state?
strugglesv 6 months ago
ive cried myself to sleep thinking about my parents
Bighoff123 6 months ago
I did the same thing... crying myself to sleep, fixating on images of my parents dying and me being left alone in this world... It did get to me, and you have made me realize that being that way affects your self esteem, your confidence, every facet of your livelihood. So making more decisions rather than pondering on every triviality in life really does change a whole outlook, and thanks for making an average guy realize that.
2seckc4u 6 months ago
@2seckc4u Exactly we are all afraid of the unknown. Death is the final unknown we fear.........
hatersAREgay1 6 months ago
To post a video so insightful and truly inspiring is awesome man, I can honestly say death has been a huge fear for me for quite some time, but this truly gave me another way to look at death itself and the situations that materialize afterwards. Love the positive video, those are the types of videos that I love to post so I certainly give you my respect for doing the same my friend! And don't ever think you don't influence people, your words are stronger than you think.
XilentFlex 6 months ago 7
Pvtj8ker, ive seen every single one of your videos and i have to say youve changed my view on so many things in my life, i have no idea who you are but i have heard enough from you to know youre the best commentator on youtube, never stop this thing you have going on <3
AlphaNarwhal 6 months ago
i lost my grandmother today, stumbled onto this video and it really helped with alot of things! thanks man!
brckferguson7 6 months ago
I lost my good friend.... I knew him 14 years... And its really hard.. Watching his parents cry... He died 10.5 this year...five days before his birthday.... For some reason i didnt cry. But i cant smile and you can trust me on that.
alexsaveski 6 months ago
Tear :)
MrPumpkinanator 6 months ago
joker you inspire me to no end
TeamRhodeIsland 6 months ago
thx for the spoiler alert! lol jk i dont give a shit about that movie.
Vidim12 6 months ago 4
@Vidim12 Not a spoiler, the dude wrote the movie. You should care, it was an awesome flick.
PvtJ8ker 6 months ago 15
what does bumping mean or bump?
MustyM8 6 months ago
Great commentary. I'm like you - fortunate enough that not many people close to me have died but I agree that letting sadness; guilt or whatever it may be consume you as a person over death - or other matters - is a terrible thing to do. Your father's right - you need to stand up and decide what you're going to do - but I think taking comfort in music; friends; books; et cetera can, in a sense, save your own life too. That isn't to say wallow in self-pity but to inspire yourself to move on.
Endsville08 6 months ago
Great commentary, I subbed.
magikman3 6 months ago
This video was good. FACT
jeremyiscoolomg 6 months ago
You may have just changed my life, thank you!
Onmtree12 6 months ago
How do you become such a good speaker?
xSGP 6 months ago
@xSGP he does drama so that probably helps
AiDavison 6 months ago
I love my friends
southparkkid278 6 months ago
We need to get this on the front page of Youtube. Now.
Muffinslayer2 6 months ago
@Muffinslayer2 Someone get a favourite bot up in this shit. We gotta fight fire with fire.
OptimisticNihilistic 6 months ago
Great commentary! If anyone else out there is constantly thinking about death and stuff you may want to check out the book that @2watsky mentioned in his newest video (he said it helped him a lot so idk maybe check it out) please continue making awesome videos, Alex!
An0nymousHelper 6 months ago
I know your pain, man. My gran suffers from dementia. After my grandad past away her health suddenly deteriorated and my mum couldn't look after her. She went into a nursing home and my mother and I went to visit her almost every night. Everytime I try to talk to her, I talk to my gran. But she can't talk back. She doesn't know who I am. It kills me inside because I love my gran. I hope she never dies. But I will have to accept the fact she will pass soon. I hope your commentary helps me. I hope
th3mw3llboyz 6 months ago
PRYVAT J8KER WHY U BUMP
Kiddin, looking forward to the next upload, by the way, nice comm bro. Insightful shit.
pearldrums92 6 months ago
Uploading another video. Not bumping. It's BioShock.
PvtJ8ker 6 months ago 24
@PvtJ8ker Don't mind if it was a bump, just gives me another chance to watch your vids
victorm9003 6 months ago
@PvtJ8ker BUMP! <3
RickyChops 6 months ago 2
@PvtJ8ker BUMPING FAGGOT UNSUB
MrObviouslyJesus 6 months ago 3
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Ha this video would have helped but I did like all of this myself but I think I thought about me dying (to a ridiculous degree) a lot more than you thought about others.
I'd be walking down the street thinking that guys going to stab me or this dude at Wendy's is going to poison my Dr.Pepper.
Also I thought I was somehow going to teleport to the bottom of the ocean or die in my sleep that's how bad it was.
MrMrAwesom 6 months ago
@MrMrAwesom That's more of an irrational paranoia.
NEAI2 6 months ago
It's worse so I win :P
MrMrAwesom 6 months ago
Thankyou for relating well to my own expieriences
justmcchill 6 months ago
Wow. Well said. Very clear, very powerful. Thank you. :)
ultimatedactylonomy 6 months ago
Great commentary, made me think, and commentaries rarely do that. Respect man.
MeetMyMeatBE 6 months ago
On a serious note. Good stuff.
UKrustafarian 6 months ago
Big boy<3
vRobdog 6 months ago
(sniffle snuffle) that was beutifull ;)
legologstudios 6 months ago
I'm 16 and this made me tear up.
colinpowers7 6 months ago
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it really is a tough topic and i see it and feel the same way like you do... I actually am quit happy that my grandparents are still alife as ever and i sometimes wonder if my way of dealing with them (like visiting them rarely) i don't know if that is right, i meen no one know how long they'll be along ...
2. nice vid even though it is quit an ironical pick of video for this kind of topic ... don't you all think so ??
ManiX207 6 months ago
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ManiX207 6 months ago
@rubenrules005 That is a tough thing to deal with, but don't 'cope' with drugs and alcohol.
I say it in quotes because using drugs to cope is a complete cop-out. Yes, it'll be hard, but the best thing you can do is keep on doing what you've been doing.
SuperGauntlet 6 months ago
thanks alex. its nice to hear the real genuine side, of a normally very sarcastic/lighthearted guy. much respect for sharing your experiences with us.
Wouldnt mind hearing more about these kinds thoughts.
- Josh
JTWolf89 6 months ago
Your are seriously a wonderful person
enriqueelias12 6 months ago
Great video Alex. I'm sure this will help a lot of people through tough times, and for people like me who haven't loss any relatives or had any major life issues, it will help in the future.
iTobzzehh 6 months ago
Bravo
ChillOnlyKetchup 6 months ago
I lost my father two years ago at the young age of only 17.
My advice to those around there in fear for their loved ones, or you might already have lost a loved one is to not to shut yourself in a shell.
Your life goes on, even when sadness strucks.
I'm not saying you shouldn't mourne your loved ones, just don't give up on everything.
Friends help, i even chose to stay in school on the day he died, better than stairing into a wall at home.
Stupidmushroom2007 6 months ago
I was taught by my Grandfather, very early on, that "things die", which applied to people as well. I was all too aware that I wouldn't be here forever, my family wouldn't and nor anything I've ever known stand the test of the time. I was also a part of a family that had no belief structure in any kind of god (pretty much an atheist family without really categorizing ourselves). It was good for me, since then I've lost my grandfather, grandmother, dad and a few others and, mostly, I've been fine.
OshiSeven 6 months ago
this video is great of course it wasn't what i expected but i completely agree
hellorob22 6 months ago
Death is a scary thing. I'm not worried about dying but how I'm going to die and if anyone will remember you when your gone. Great video man.
dragonboy424 6 months ago
all i have to say is your right.
thepaul41 6 months ago
loved this video man...respect
DivinumSantoryu 6 months ago 52
thank you
Breckan625 6 months ago 36
you are an amazingly good speaker, Alex..
this commentary was great..
sorry to hear about your gransmother, I lost mine to for not to long ago so i know how you feel..
(sorry for my bad english, but it is not my first language..)
arianjohnsen93 6 months ago
I thought you were gonna make a video telling people to make a decision between MW3 and BF3... God damn that was shocking. That was a really great video, a really amazing message. Thanks.
JaxTrozer 6 months ago
@JaxTrozer Haha, I was thinking the same thing!
marvelboy24 6 months ago
I dont think I find death a scary thing...... I think not knowing (for certain) what lies ahead of death is the scary thing. Although I have my personal beliefs about what comes next so I have to live to my beliefs but when you think about it. Why be afraid of what you have no control of? You cant change the fact that your going to die but you can prepare for it and live life as best you can. Im glad i watched this. Thank you pvt for making me think....
MegaSlypig 6 months ago
this is very honest and i respect you for posting this sincerely.
im not gonna be like ... omg my dad or mom or whatever has died like some days weeks months or years ago ...
im responding to this video because it is very inspiring and not just to whine with a comment.
Enfirnity 6 months ago
my dog died when i was 6 years old :( i coudnt get over it for 6 years :( som tomes i was watching in a picture book of her, and i cried my self to sleep :,(
GoldxMakaveli 6 months ago
This video made me a better person.
HellsmithStudios 6 months ago
at 2:05 did the medic pack jusy fly away?
Kokusbus123 6 months ago
@Kokusbus123 yes. yes it did.
kenneth4333 6 months ago
@kenneth4333 wow
Kokusbus123 6 months ago
Who would dislike this. -_-
Squadhob 6 months ago
1:00 wookie down :D
schmonable 6 months ago
"Knowing is bliss? Nay, ignorance is bliss."
What scares me is not death itself, but the state of where you simply cannot think or be aware.
uJellie 6 months ago
The whole make a decision thing helped me realize something. thanks man. You've alwasy been my favorite Youtuber
yum438 6 months ago
I find it hard to be understanding for people who lose a family member or someone close to them. All my life i have been around people dying. Either accirdents suicides or worse.
I am now numb to it. I could stop living tomorrow and i would not know, nor care. It's all apart of life.
What scares me is living in a vegetative state or crippled in a major way. I have already got in my will that if i because a veg that ill be euthanised.
Very deep vid, J8ker.
MrGravler 6 months ago
amazing
nicksuperawsomeha 6 months ago
Amazing commentary! Your words flowed so smoothly and made ever bit of sense. I think everyone can relate to this, well done!
PhantomLegend2K 6 months ago
You articulated yourself fine, and don't have an aversion to more serious commentaries because this was great - one of your best.
myhatrules 6 months ago
Most touching commentary ever. I know how it feels, I used to cry over becoming older and that I would finally die. Very painful thought, well it's life right?
You live, you die.
Frapaaaaa 6 months ago
how can you dislike this video?
BW4LL 6 months ago
@latinlover268 thank you. :D
joepapi619 6 months ago
@latinlover268 thank you :D thank you so much.
joepapi619 6 months ago
man just reading all the comments people ahve posted has made me sad, im going thru issues to bout death, family ect but i guess knowing other people are going thru same things is comforting in a good way idk.. gl to every1
latinlover268 6 months ago
Nice commentary, Throwin you a like for talking more than just about the game, and doing it despite youtube trolls.
sorrowiscool 6 months ago
After listening through this video a second time, I have decided to ask out this girl I like. "oh big deal" for me, it is. I have never been on a date with a girl and I'm 16. But thanks to you Alex I have decided that I'm just gonna do it. Worst is she will say no. Wile I am afraid of this rejection, I will at least have my the people that I love and my subscribers too lean back on. (that you have so graciously given me) u seriously have improved my life pvtj8ker. I hope you know that.
joepapi619 6 months ago
watching this video ... made me realize i need to move on... cuz its not gona make her come back... thanks dude =-X
pumpdaddy233 6 months ago
MY FUCKING dog ran away 2 months ago... were still looking for her. we love her so much ... we spent over 2000 dollars looking for her... we dont know what to do anymore ... but i try to move on .. but it seems impossible... i cant even go to sleep ... worst thing is that my moms friend lost her... in an area were there are alot of cayotes...shes a chihuahua... i love her so much and all i can do is hope for the best ... worst thing is .. we dont know if shes dead or alive =-C
pumpdaddy233 6 months ago
Dear PvtJ8ker,
I just wanted to thank you for all the time youve put into this channel. Weather its a funny commentary that makes me laugh and takes my mind of my problems, or a serious commentary that makes me think about life I will always watch. I dont mean to be selfish, but I am asking you to please upload more videos, i understand that you will be very busy in school, but I will watch anything you put up, I have enjoyed every video you have put up. Thank you for all your hard work
johnnycupcakes123 6 months ago
This isnt a Joke or a way of getting likes, but the people who dislike this are sick.
ThatGinjaNinja 6 months ago
Thank you for the life tip. To be honest, I love it when you use this low monotone-ish voice. It reminds me of your first commentaries which were great.
joepapi619 6 months ago
Don't be sad that it ended, be happy that it happened.
0SovietTurtle0 6 months ago
is your games feild of veiw modifyed or something cause i play on pc and it does not feel the same as this looks
bigmeatieballs 6 months ago
i am a religious man, and for my age i have seen a lot of death. But in my religious points of view i have always had trouble feeling sorry for those who pass away. Let me explain. All the people that i know and died were good people who did good things, in that logic they are probablly in heaven. And i am not sad for them if they are in heaven. I am sad for the people that they left behind that dont have the same POV as i do, because they quite often start living in fear of death.
baukuh96 6 months ago
I thought that all you were was gay jokes and chodes. This changed my mind. Subbed.
GamerByt3 6 months ago
great commentary man. lately ive been fixated with death and its scaring me. makes me feel like someone or myself is coming to an end. i just want you to know that this commentary really got to me.
TheYawzee 6 months ago
I used to be fixated on death too, but it was mostly a fear of what would happen after I die. I got over it after losing my faith though. Good thing too, because it made it easier for me to cope with my dad's death. He died recently of lung cancer.
ELcapalla2 6 months ago
Give me a like if you abuse Kit switching give me a favorite if you dont know what kit switching is.
But on a serious note one of your commentaries did drastically help me. It was your "PvtJ8ker's new dawn" commentary, and I wanted to say what was on my mind without being judged.
P.S. I kept that message because it means something special to me. Homo intended.
TheJohnnyFrost 6 months ago
Wise word's from a wise Man.
slofy1234 6 months ago
Talking about death whilst playing a war game? Hmmm...... Maybe this is why you keep having these thoughts? But I guess I'm not one to talk cause I do to. I play and watch so many movies and games. Sometimes I am just walking in my house and then just jump up and almost cry. And I will be laying in bed just saying. "No no no no no!" But I'm thinking now that's it's most likely to come in at least 50 years and I'll deal with it then :P.
DJogdog 6 months ago
This totally made me play call if duty
colombianpussymaster 6 months ago
@colombianpussymaster Call Of Duty?
DJogdog 6 months ago
what is death?
MrLolatyourface 6 months ago
I'm pretty sure your trolling, but if your not. I guess this video is the video to lead on to the "death" of your channel since your moving away?
LookItsBilliam 6 months ago
I think you(and a lot of people) would benefit from learning about buddhism, If you haven't already.
RickyAFlores 6 months ago
We must all learn that not everything lasts forever, and that we must learn to be able to let go of what we are so attached to.
RickyAFlores 6 months ago
One of your best
robpert93 6 months ago
I don't think that it is death that scares people, I think that people (including me) are scared of not being alive. I remember I had to go through surgury and I had to be knocked out for them to do it, there was this time when I actually, just wasn't there. Completley gone, not living. And when I woke up I then thought that that must be what death is. And that'd be horrible. Because thats it, I hope I'm wrong though. I sure hope there is a heaven and a hell. Regardless.
funboy1231 6 months ago
Pvtj8ker is funny and all but man he knows fuckin life skills very well also is he moving out of his own house or his parents house I'm not sure
peterganna 6 months ago
@explorer617 All jokes aside, I get where you're coming from when you say your dads a police officer and everything. My dad died a while ago during a drug raid. But it's the fact you brought religion into your comment that drew me to it. You said it's important to have god in your life, assuming by that, you are Christian (Making that guess off the fact the majority of the world refers to just "God" as the christian god) which follows the after death, you enter the world of heaven. Now religion
Boxlinger 6 months ago
<3 you really put some thoughts into play for me
Marmolejos1000 6 months ago
Personally, I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of the people around me and what they will do and feel
TheCavsman22 6 months ago
what about when the people that you love dont have their health? You cant dwell on that as well. As tragic as losing someone you love is, they wouldnt want you to be grief stricken. They would want you to be happy and just remember them as they were. When I die I want my funeral to be a fucking party
irunfromknives 6 months ago
@irunfromknives Hell yeah.
TheWolverine7 6 months ago
You sir, are awesome
AbstractVisionGaming 6 months ago
Does this mean Pvtj8ker is shooting for the wrong team?
Boxlinger 6 months ago
The only reasons I don't want to die are because I love spending time w/ my family and friends, and gaming. The saddest part for me in dying is that there will be things I won't know. I will NEVER know why some things work, the only time that I wouldn't care about dying would be when I knew everything and had done everything. After that I'd be like "I've had a good run, I've done all there is and I know everything." And then I'd just fade into the enternal sleep.
Asuperl33tninja 6 months ago
That is deep.
CamelBallZee 6 months ago
This is a deep commentary, I enjoyed it.
kwils1215 6 months ago
i have fears about death i always worried about family my dad works as a police officer and cousin and her husband their over seas right now and my best friend has a brother in the Navy Seals sometimes when i hear about stuff going on over their it gets me nervous and my dad to which im very close to but you have to stay positive and have God in your life
explorer617 6 months ago
Thanks man, I appreciate your thoughts.
HonduranGoat 6 months ago
You're amazing dude.
vfxman3000 6 months ago
i went through the same thing. great minds think alike i guess. lol. i think wen u yearn for wisdom u naturally go the path of most resistence because thats the most effective way to beat something. to fight it head on.
Pre7ch 6 months ago
Thank you for this
I recently had to deal with the emotional and physical trauma of having my dad die in my own hands. It was very hard to deal with hearing my mother and my father's mother cry about this, all due to a stroke he had at dinner one night. I was visiting him at the hospital, to tell him that I love him and that he's gonna get better, when he grabbed my hand, and slowly sank into his bed. You never really know how peaceful someone is when they die until they die. It is still affec
MrYCgaming 6 months ago
I never favorite videos but i am definitely going to favorite great work.
iBBean 6 months ago
my favorite commentary of all time
kbidogg1 6 months ago
"To live is to sleep, To die is to awaken."
VillaMessi7 6 months ago
Thank you. This stuff helps more than you'll ever know.
Yougotbeasted 6 months ago
Someday I want to meet you, shake your hand, look you in the eyes, and say "nice cock bro" .... this is my dream Mr. PvtJ8ker
natemlb7 6 months ago
thank you, you have helped me today
scotters104 6 months ago
Thank you for the video :)
Unforgiven773 6 months ago