Skinny Fantasies

[luciosity]

I LOVE THIS VIDEO <3 lol I think of the same things!

[6964459]

I have skinny fantasies. I have been put down by people cause i gained a lot of weight over the last 10 years I use to be very small. I CANT WAIT TO SHOW THE HATERS THE NEW ME! LOVE U GIRL!

[drama333queen333]

omg i love your cat!!!!!!!!

[CreatureLikeGod]

Fat pig im glad you got raped.

[panda78900]

your goergous. skinny girls turn me off. i like you the way you are :)

[ILoveEore]

just saying, this video speaks so much to me. it's unreal.

you're beautiful(:

congrats on your journey outcome, by the way(:

[elainadel]

I weigh 240lbs right now and I want to be thin so bad I think about it all of the time...

[Tribalfag88]

ugley

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[tongette89]

Hi i found one of your videos an been browesing the rest...

Re: daydreaming about been skinny...

NO you are not the only one!!! Ive been waiting for my approval from the NHS since June last year and its still on going which is really depressing...

Anyway - since i was refered for the surgery last year i always think about how it will be when im skinny! how skinny im going to be, what il wear an how my life will be :)

So no your not the only one lol xx

[HugoIStayHere]

1 video you are fat, and the next video you are somewhat thin??? wtf...can you make up your mind?? You can't be fat on Monday and obese on Tuesday, and slim on Wed, you are giving me a fucking headache. Just be happy with who u are, bcz life is short and if the world were blind we all be attracted to personality and voices. I think you have a nice voice and I dont think you're ugly, but your whole obsession with your weight can make u unattractive.

[routex7044]

hah and now you are so skinny and exceptionally beutiful in your later videos !!

[xceccy]

yes, i have alot of skinny fantasies. but i really cant imagine how i will look like when i get skinnier. and i dream about meeting people i havent seen in a long time and they will be like 'woooow!!' :D i cant wait for that. great video, btw. youre looking really good now! congrats with the weight loss :)

[aprilherriott]

you are an amazing person, and yes. skinny fantasies ALL the time.

its a little wearing for me =/

the thumnails of your videos look amaznig, Im gonner look at some of you latest one.

At a quick glance, it looks like youve done BRILLIANTLY! xxx

[athenascurse]

I know what you mean sweety. I was 280lbs @ 17. By the time I turned 22. I had lost 145 lbs. I am naturally a 150lbs person. Any smaller and I look like a skeleton. But I had my daughter. C section and I packed on 60lbs. Which never went away.& got preggo with my son also c section. Since then I have been battling water weight and extra skin. I have only lost 28lbs. But only gained 26 lbs with my son. Im still husky. But have the skinny fantasies to. Good luck. U will make it!

[berryblitz07]

Baha "woah, what happened? Surprise!" You're funny hun, did you ever think of stand up?

[mityah83]

This is not you ........!!!

[EMOssY112233]

i say your other videos and OMG you lost a lot didn't you!! i mean i watched the others before and now this and i cant believe thats really you!

[zomghawtness]

"Lost" and "cut out" are a bit different.

[Sanderellablue]

@zomghawtness She wasn't cut out ! look things up before you make comments This girl worked hard and went through a lot to get where she is. Believe me if we could just cut out our fat we'd all be doing it!

[lpnstudent09]

you did it!!!! and you are soooooooo pretty!!!!!

[JeSs0wnS]

T0TALLYY AGREE!! =]

[angelbabi198127]

Hi. I am Christina, I am 28, and live in MN. I have been watching your videos and I think they give good information. My surgery is Jan. 12, 2009 and I have to do a 10 day high protein liquid diet before surgery. I will keep watching and get all the information I need. I also have skinny fantasies too and knowing I will be healthier. By the way you look good now. Well I will be looking forward from hearing from you soon.

[luay19981998]

omfg u look so hot in the skinny vids

[reyn0sita]

wow did u get a lapband>>?? congrats !!!

[inulovedog]

I think im not telling many people because of one thing my best friend said when I told her and it was "you're taking the easy way out" shes heavy too and I think shes just jelious. I really believe this will change my life. also my surgery date is Oct. 20 and my prom is in early May, how much do you think ill lose by than?

[pogocoffee]

How much have you lost?

[inulovedog]

thus far I am 8.5 lb away from down 100 lb

[pogocoffee]

Congrats!

[LadyBubba831]

ur videos r such a huge help! thank u for sharing xx

[AmburReichard]

Im in this stage at the moment. I'm so glad for your videos. It will be amazing to watch as I go through the transfermation. Thank you so much for all these videos!

[wildangel20]

omg i just saw ur other videos and u loost soo much weight! its like ure a different person!!!!!!!!!! congratulations! you are an amazing person! so strong! keep it up sweetie!!!!!

[tiffanydarlene]

I am not telling many people because I am soo afraid its all going to fall apart with the insurance company!! I have sooo many skinny fantasies

[mileybug78]

omg i look at your other vids u lost a bunch of weight o my goodness

[blakkandi]

I day dream about being skinny too

[Dednyz]

I always think about being thin!

[MamiBarbie]

i LOVE your personality!! your 2 cute! you make me laugh :D i think you look AWESOME by the way! i give you sOOo much credit for all youve been through! your gorgeous girly! xOxO.

[evolvedbeyondbelief]

Have your skinny fantasies been realized? How is being skiiny different or similar to how you thought it would be? Just curious... My surgery is on July 8, 2009. =)

[xMrStrongCockx]

Wow you are in inspiration to me I weight 290lb and I have an eating disorder please help or at least be my friend and advise me on going through the procedure

[Stephmccurley]

I have these too!! Especially about the ex thing. I cant WAIT to see my ex husband after i hit my year make after surgery!!

[rockergyrl]

I daydream as well about being skinny. You made me laugh when you said you daydream about going to your ex's house skinny. That is sooo what I think about as well. I daydream about all the guys that turned me down just because I was big and showing up somewhere where they are and letting them see what they missed out on. lol

[Blazer19742002]

I'm just wondering if you commented about how you came to be a BBW? Were you always heavy or did you develope an eating disorder?

Also, did your doctor tell you anything about massaging your scars so the numbness would be minimized? A co-worker mentioned that to me as she had the proceedure as well.

FYI, you look great. :-)

[Kipusareally]

lol nope i dream about being skinny all the time. Its becoming a problem coz i think im going crazy. I have a size i dream about size 7. Not 2 not 6 not 9 I dream about being a 7. Youre or were so not alone. I get it

[linny177]

why dont you just work out

the only surgery you should be getting is lipo or a mini tummy tuck to get rid of your excess skin

[jackie61979]

i think about that all of the time. im about to get the sleeve surgery done on june 8th 2009. iam counting the days down. so u are not the only one LOL...

[sassy2229]

You are sooo not the only one. I daydream as well, its my hope at this point in time as funny as that sounds, and its what I hold on to. I am also not letting my extended family know. I have the support of my husband and my close friends and thats really all I need. You are amazing; all of your videos have helped so much!!

[iSimz]

i've never had someone gasp at my beautiful hipbones when i walk into my school xD

why do you want to be skinny? i mean, it's kinda nice but if you're chubby you're more fun to hug ;)

[rushedartist]

wow, amelia. you've come a long way girlfriend!!!!!!! you look totally different now and watching the transformation this past year has been amazing. you look totally different. the eyes really speak volumes...in this vid your eyes have dark circles and you look like you're stuck in a body you don't want. now look at how amazing your transformation was! i know it hasn't been 100% easy, but was it worth it?

whatever happened with the ex-boyfriend????

take care!!! -eisy

[massagegoddess]

Worth everything I have had to go through, as for ex-boyfriend... will happen one day I am sure

[flowergirrl2763]

Well I also have skinny fantasies I can so relate to the bikini one but my thing is mini skirt really really short. Just once!!!

[kssx33]

i have plenty of fantasies but the most prominent one is the bikini fantasy haha...

apparently i have to do a six month diet before the surgery so it wont be for a while, but i still cant wait.

im so excited!

and i REALLY hope im as successful as you are.

you're an inspiration, truly.

all the best :-)

[QueenOfTheKelpies]

Sorry I keep giving bad ratings by accident!

[morphing1]

most people don't tell anyone about having wls NOT to act suprised but perhaps more because they are STILL AFRAID OF FAILURE

as EVERY attempt to lose weight before has not worked for them

[beingdrjekyl]

OMG woman, you are so damned funny. I have never watched a vlog before, but you are irresistible!

[choirlady1976]

I too have skinny fantasies and I actually miss being skinny, but more so I have "Health" fantasies, as I've been on both ends of the spectrum with anorexia(which almost took my life) to being overweight, and now I just want to be healthy and having seen your videos, it gives me hope, that I can lose this weight and be healthy!! You are such an inspiration!!

[MakeUpAna]

idefently have skinny fantsies like you! like im dreaming that my old school have this class reunion and then ill be slim and every one say wow your so hot anna or something haha! because here in Sweden it a bit like people don't like people doing this surgery because they think people who does it is lazy. thats also a reason why i dont whant anyone to know. love your cat!! so cute both of you!// Anna from sweden

[Qt4jc21]

Amelia, I know this is like way late but I am watching all of your vids from start to finish. First of all, I am at the waiting for approval stage right now and I have those fantasies ALL the time! Second, as far as why your kitty sniffs your breath all the time, it's a bonding thing for them. If you will blow very lightly at their nose, they pick up your scent and it comforts them! It's really neat! Just thought I'd let ya know LoL Take care!

[Slingnmom]

I watched a skinny vdo first and then this one. It's amazing how your voice has even changed since surgery. I've been approved for my surgery and am just waiting for a date. I can't wait!

[StArLiTeQt]

I have skinny fantasies all the time. But every time i have them i get bigger and bigger...

:(

[chrissaiyan]

I had my surgery 12-10-2008. i had skinny fantasies all the time i still do. I been trying very hard to get tot he size i want but sometimes i think its unrealistic

[chance666]

om my god you are me im emily my feance is joel i had have pink hair and we have pracctically the same life just i have not had my surgury yet omg you are future me

[BJWB1976]

I know this is an old video, but WOW your soooo funny! I love watching your videos, you make me smile.

YOU look amazing now by the way...MY surgery date is 02/10/09 and YES IM HAVING SKINNY dreams....I just cant wait to just buy NORMAL clothes at a NORMAL store!! Ive been telling EVERYONE about my surgery...EVERYONE has been SUPER supportive. MY parents are REALLY scared for me. My Dad said, "cant you just pretend you got it and eat tiny meals without surgery"...lol made me laugh...

[loadquicker]

Your dad sounds like mine. :D

[ProjectSkinnyJeans]

Your kitty is sooo CUTE!

[pogocoffee]

You lying idiot. She's not fat (anymore).

She has lost so much weight and personally I'm proud of her.

Calm the fuck down.

[thedrunkenhippy]

I've had quite a few of these fantasis...but now that you've lost your weight, how many of them have come true?

[sweetbabyblues70]

Its not weird at all. Ive totally had the same "skinny fantasies" basically my whole life. Your not alone with this thought. I bet it happens alot more often than anyone could even imagine. But i cant wait till my fantasies become a reality. Keep up the good work your transformation is amazing. :)

[karumrum1980]

Amellia, did you have a lisp when you used to be bigger as i never noticed it since you lost the weight. the difference in you is amazing. you totally look so much better now.

[sherryharrison]

I dream of dropping in on my exhusband. Can't wait....

[kbf1]

what happened with all those fantasies? Did you get to surprise your in-laws?

[massagegoddess]

Well... turns out reality is better than fantasy. Many of those things happened, and my in-laws were super surprised. I just this last week got to surprise a bunch of my teacher friends at a school I used to substitute teach at and they were just shocked! I walked in with one teacher, she said who I was and they about fainted! Life is actually more fun that the fantasy and that still amazes me everyday

[YummyMinx]

You were prettier here. JMHO. Skinny is overrated. Now granted I have been then all my life pretty much. But it's still overrated. What I mean is you hve to find a way to feel hot at any size. Skinny girls have lots of other crap they deal with. Trust me, I think my life would have been easier if I wasn't part of what society thinks is beautiful.

[massagegoddess]

Well, I know I was pretty as a big girl, but I am more comfortable and less worried about what others think now. I would trade nothing for the confidence I feel now. I was never ugly.

[joseph4star]

@massagegoddess Less worried about what others think and less attractive fat is feminine always was always will be.

[joseph4star]

@YummyMinx I agree i think she looks so feminine soft and attractive and in the after videos just boring and asexual.Its how the gays and closet peodos that control the womens fashion industry just got make womens bodies resemble young boys.Its so sad.

[Rubyroad1]

I have this really top secret "skinny fantasy". - But I'm just gonna come out with it- and you will probably laugh - but I totally daydream of running through a wheat field like one of those silly abercrombie and fitch models. It always annoyed me that AB&F XL clothes were like YOUTH xl for teens. I always felt MAN - I wanna wear the "cool" clothes - though I don't think they are that great anymore i still want that wheat field!

[massagegoddess]

AB&F is rediculous... I am now a size 8 and I am still intimidated to go in there. It is loud, stinky and SO EXPENSIVE!! I have several things from there but I got them at yardsales. I did buy 1 thing at AB&F and it was just because I waited so long to do it...

[MirareruNo]

oh man i have those during school -___-

there great....but kills my self esteem

bleh

[Shrinking20LT]

omg.. i know what you mean .. i want this guy from middle school to see me all skinny and hot.. omg he would be sooo fucking sorry that he called me names and shit.. :)

[massagegoddess]

When you are finally skinny he will be the furthest thing from your mind...

[Jess4romfat2fab]

i hope he sees u all hot too... i hate people like that

[joseph4star]

@Shrinking20LT If he likes you with a boys body hes a closet fag.

[SecretStar5810]

@Shrinking20LT OH god yes, i was so huge at school but i lost all the weight, now the guys who bullied me hit on me and don't even realise its me :P <333

[xoxAngelFirexox]

:-) You're not the only one. I have fantasies about having bigger boobs and being taller [LOL]

I'm skinny myself. I'll admit, it's nice to be thin when you can eat what you want, but it's nothing to fantasize about. It's overrated really. 'Cause skinny girls even find things about their bodies they hate.

Don't worry, with enough work you can be skinny one day. You're pretty as you are, too. Lovin' the hair haha

[zoesmybaby]

She is skinny now, u should check out the new ones.

[yourdaddyismylover]

OMG!!!! isnt it so insane when you look back and to think this was you 1 year ago!!!! daaaaaanm!! i look at mine and i just dont know what to think. life is good :)

[ThornedLotus]

I totally have fantasies about the skinny reaction. I'm a little ashamed to say it, but my biggest one involves me showing up at my old job, which was an awful, abusive work environment full of small minded petty people for the most part. And in the fantasy they would be shocked, and jealous. But I know if it really happened, they might be shocked and jealous, but they'd still be small minded. I'm the one changing here, not them.

[casanasie]

omg ur smile is beautiful! i love it! :D

[sugarcheryl]

One video lead to another and I saw your post op vid from your tummy tuck surgery...curiosity had me go back to the beginning. All I can say is you look fantastic. Really! You have come along way girl and you look wonderful. You have lead an amazing journey. Good luck with any future surgeries you may have.

[xAngelahhx]

wow we both dream diff things i dream of being fatter im underweight and u dream of being skinny...we have something in common sadly, our weight :(

[txiceprincess]

im starting to do that..i missed my appointment for the surgery seminar. Im just nervous. You inspire me. thank you for that.

[gettinghealthygirl]

i definitely have fantasies about showing up and looking all in shape and amazing. i had them all throughout middle school and high school about showing up after summer vacation for the new year being all thin and fashionable. ha.

[Serramist]

your fantasy has came true....you are pretty and skinny!!!!

[yohaferr]

i feel just like you felt, but please keep posting your videos they have help me a lot,i will like ti know whats your weight now.

[bebepoeta]

Check her new videos!!! She is doing GREAT!!!!

[yohaferr]

hi,i just wanted to say that i think that you are a very strong women i look up to you, i just wanted to let you know that you are not the only one that has the skiny fantasy, you know i wish i could get my surgery asap, thanks

[Addicted2hockey]

lmao you're hilarious. I'm going to skim through and see if you talk about what it was really like going to your bro-in-law's wedding.

[losinlbsmama]

I love watching all your videos.U look great.I am going 9-29-08..I have been on this journey for 9 months now. Lost 41 lbs since the start and will loose way more with the bypass.I have been watching all your vids and am so impressed and u are so helpful and I luv ur openness. Yes I fantasies too. I have been on liquid for three days now and I am so fine.Ur husband and mine are the same size built,it will be so nice to be skinny and like him lol thanks again for all the vids.they are so helpful

[MiyuKamiyama]

Omg, I have had so many of those. Most of them unrealistic and kind of cartoony but their fun. I have a few people I plan to visit after i've lost all my weight. My first love is on the top of that list. :)

[Artist12682]

What do you think about the fantasy now? Do you feel the way you thought you would?

[massagegoddess]

being skinny actually is better than any fantasy I have had. The change has caused more exciting experiences and oppurtunities than i ever dreamed.

[allforliving]

Lmao! You always make me laugh out loud. I have definitely been thinking the same things as you did back then. I've decided the same thing, that I won't tell many people. I'll just pop in on them one day and watch them be stunned! lmao. hey, so have you gotten to pop in on anyone recently?!?!?! Do tell!!!! What about that bf you had for 5 years. Has he seen you lately?

[angelam1985]

you are such an inspiration to me im on a diet and im seeing great success its been nice to see you disappear before our eyes

[laila5940]

yea me 2 like every day lol

[MoonFae80]

You're not the only one who has fantasies about being thinner! ;-) It's a good thing to dream big. And you've done so well!

[stormsinateacup]

every day girl, every single day.

[nightgangl7]

yes i have had these dreams everyday hey i love when you use this red color what is it what brand? i cant get enough of it love that reddish pink hair!

[kmhluv]

Oh yeah i cant wait to go to the bar where my ex works and act like i dont see him or go into a store and find clothes that fit right. Im at the begining of the process so i cant wait. PS YOU LOOK GREAT i cant believe how you have transformed. Your a great inspiration!

[bellamatrixx]

My first time seeing this... lol. No... I haven't had those fantasies NOT. Whats supposed to happen is the man is supposed to fall in love with me on first sight and treat me like a princess. Well -131 lbs later- It hasn't happened. LOL The Ex thing has happened tho. LOL worth it!

[shrinkinglaura]

I've never watched this before but I wanted to sorta look back and see the difference in how you look... and .. wow. It's really quite incredible. I wish I hadn't of tried to make myself look thinner back when I started on youtube.. so then people could REALLY see the difference in me. Oh well!

[adamlepker]

lol my 10r high school reunion in one year and i want to go and be thinner than they have ever seen me.

[massagegoddess]

I was the biggest I ever was when I went to my highschool reunion... I am jealous of your oppurtunity, don't waste it! (I hear we are having a 15 year reunion... i can't wait!)

[hayleymo8]

I know what you mean girl.. I have a skinny fantasy about Fast Times at Ridgemont High...walking out of the pool like phoebe kates. Someday. Youre getting there!

[243ida]

Before I lost 15 kg I used to think like you do. But then I started to get the comments about my weight and how good I looked, and I hated it! I don't know way, although I think it might be because I still need to lose 15 more kg.

[Julsinmaine101]

yes most definitly! I think we all do:)especially with our ex's...hehehe

just to say(Sucka)snooze ya loze..lol

[stellarstarz55]

yes i totally do hahah!!!!

[herpunkgrrl]

i've definitley had those fantasies before.

[Jjacks48]

you are SOOOOO not the only one...yours may be a bit more realistic than mine ;) lol...mine involve some gorgeous celebrity thinking i'm hot and then falling in love with me lmao...but yeah...i agree with your theory as well, i'm not telling a few people just so when they see me they'll be like "WTF?! wow!" oh...man..i cannot wait! It's getting closer!!! :)) Next week!!! I cannot wait for your video after!:)

[massagegoddess]

I am gonna try to make a video or 2 in the hospital. They have wi-fi !!!

[vixiebell]

lol i love watching your vids ^_^ im am waiting for my funding to be aprooved for my gastric bypass and should hear by the 26 nov but i too have fantasys about being skinny for me i havent been skinny since i was 9 and feel i missed a hell of alot of my childhood and my life in general through being overweight. but keep the vids coming hun and i agree with misskrispy you look gorgeous *huggles*

[massagegoddess]

Thanks! I know what you mean, the word I keep coming back to is skinny. I know that to actually be skinny is not healthy, but I mean skinny as being normal size because for me I have never been below a size 16 as an adult."Skinny" is the expression that seems to run through my mind when i imagine losing all the excess pounds. To be my goal weight for me is to be skinny. You are so sweet Miss Krispy, because of you I have been able to actually dare to imagine that I actually CAN reach goal

[misskrispy]

Skinny does not always equal pretty. Some of the ugliest people I have ever met were stick figures.

You are already pretty. In fact, you are gorgeous. Inside and outside.