thanks for sharing this and I hope you are still clean!! I have been going to Na for 17 years nad on 1-28-11 , I had 11 years clean! so don't give up!!!
Once again, I am trying to sober up. Ive decided to make it public. I am making a vlog. I am very active right now. But I need help. I drink at home alone like you did. But I am an alcoholic, and need your help. I started tonight. And its gonna be a long ride.
@IwannabeSOBER I am glad to hear you are making steps to improve your life and stand up against alcohol. It is a very real battle and one that will require all of your attention. Good on u for starting a vlog, I found it very helpful, especially in the beginning.
Thanks for sharing this TJ. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying in this video. I tried for years to solve the "alcohol problem" with logic and intellect. I finally realized that alcoholism is an emotional problem...not an academic one. Addressing it from that perspective, I have been able to stay sober for 3 years and 11 months, one day at a time.
Be careful because that alcohol is some sneaky shit!
I am going through this exact thing right now. I've been an alcoholic for 10 years. Today, I'm on one day of sobriety again, for god knows how many times. pray for me, as I'm praying for you, and all alcoholics I come in contact with.
I wish someone would have video'd my brother when he was so blighted. I'm sorry to say it, but he is very unpleasant to say the least. He recently moved in with a fellow of similar habits and witnessed first hand (while he was sober) some very similar behaviour to his own when so affected. He promptly moved out as he couldn't handle it! My nephew(16yo) was amused and said "This guy did to Dad what he used to do to us..." Perhaps this experience was a good one after all; I hope so.
Although I just never got that interested in alcohol I can relate; was a smoker and dabbled with marijuana. Actually cannot recall how many years since I had a drink, smoke, etc. Hope to never smoke again but wouldn't classify myself as a non-drinker nonetheless. Some people find it odd when I don't partake of any, but I just don't bother to respond or attempt to explain; I just don't understand it too. Lost far too many good friends through alcohol etc :o)
Hey TJ, this is probably my favourite video of yours. Not that I don't enjoy you being snarky and funny, but this is by far the most genuine and humble. And honest. We're all proud of you.
To celebrate, you need to listen to Kelly Clarkson's Sober and crank up the volume!
Your letter to Alcohol scares me; I can relate so strongly. But I was taught never to romance the drinking once I was willing to stay sober. I was taught to remember the insanity instead; as you bring up in your vlogging. I feel blessed to have 19 years sober but I can remember nine months vividly as if it were yesterday. It was way bigger of a deal than these many years. I never imagined to ever be sober this long. Things get better and better. Love and positive energy to you...
You will be victorious. You already are stronger, fitter, sexier, thinner, younger looking, creative, inspirational, and a better friend, lover and son. Well done mista! xxxx
Sorry for so many comments. I have been dealing with this for a very long time and felt like no one really ever went through it like I have. Never thought you would have put this video out. I am managing with just beer and wine. Not blacking out or getting very sick like I was on whiskey. I have researched this alot, and found out that some people will go through detox/rehab several times before it completely stops. I hope that I am near the last time I have to go though that again.
Unfortunately, since last March when I went through my last detox/rehab I only lasted 3 months. The shortest out of the three times I have done that. That last hospital was like jail and I think it sent me over the edge. Yet, I did definitely learned to never drink liqueur again (whiskey being my favorite). And, I also mean no liqueur of any kind...no margarita's, daiquiri's, Tom Collins....just none. And I will stay away from them. Yet, I am still drinking beer and wine to this day.
I said the same thing...I can just have a couple. Then the next thing I know...I am back to drinking again. Yes, full time. I know exactly what you mean!! The only thing different between you and I, is, that I lose weight when I drink instead of gaining weight. I can't drink socially as well...cause it goes right back to it. Wow...I love diet Coke when I am not drinking!
It will alway be a thing for me as well. Glad you have learned this at an early age!!!! I have never wrote a letter.
Wow...this is sounding too much like me..ugh. Except, the longest I ever went sober was a year (in 2006). My first drink was a 14..strawberry daiquiri's. Didn't drink beer till 18 or 19. OMG...whiskey is my very addictive drink....now I stay away from it after my 3rd detox/rehab. I always drank at home alone as well. Oh my...glad I didn't have a camera!
And, I have been there not knowing what needed to be changed. My mom was that way alot...and still is. That is they way it happens to me.
I remember those old videos. I think I remember me makeing a comment stateing that your videos would be so much better if you didn't drink before hand. I also remember when you first started to quit and I was really happy for you. I also remember when you slipped. I had asked a couple of times about your soberity in a private message and I didn't hear anything till that video you did admitting you had fallen off the wagon. I kind of knew when I didn't hear back. I am very proud of you TJ.
@Mysticblue1212 Yeh, i remember when u would message me... I guess i knew u were onto me, but i guess I thought if I ignored the questions and avoided thinking to myself that there was a problem, I'd be able to avoid having to deal with it...
I'm sorry if u were annoyed that I didn't reply :-)
@tabloidjunk No, it didn't annoy me that you didn't respond. It did however confirm that you had a problem. Well at least in my mind it ment you had a problem. I was just concerned. I think you have shown that you know your limitations and therefore, it shows you can conquer this. I have to say again that I am very proud of you. I hope you never forget that.
This is probably the most touching video I have seen YET on YT.
You're so real, speak the truth, and shared your darkest moments with the world. For that, you are more awesome in my mind than you were about 15 minutes ago :)
I loved how you spliced old footage, it gave this video more of an impact. To see different aspects of you ( such as your personality and physical features), it gave me, as an audiance, the chance to see the changes you have made to make you happy.
Oh Dear, you made me cry towards the end there, dammit! You have certainly had your up and downs and I have been around to witness them via youtube all these years. You are lucky to have figured out your problem with alcohol at such a young age as you now have the rest of your life to live and enjoy. I am so proud of you and you should be too. Peace and love to you beautiful boy, Sal xox
The video you put the other day from a long time ago...I remember when you lived there and you drank LOTS. I use to worry about you. I am very proud of you for 9 months sober. *hugs*
@mizzie37 Thanks so much - and yeah.. beating addiction Sucks!! - i'm so lucky though, i've always had my youtubers for support. I could not have asked for a better support network over the years.
This is one of the most intense, honest and moving videos I have ever seen. I won't start commenting on what you've been through,with alcohol in your life; you have done that far better than I could ever do. And if I now want to congratulate you on all you've achieved again in these 9 months, and especially after that relapse back then - man, I only have 500 characters in that comment box, spaces included - not a chance :-)! Just let me say: I'm proud of you, and love being subscribed to you!
@Truedantalion Thank you so much.. it is so honest because i actually didn't intend for the footage to go online when i was filming it.. i was only filming it for myself.. so it's about as raw as it gets :)
where are you now?
kellykel34 4 days ago
thanks for sharing this and I hope you are still clean!! I have been going to Na for 17 years nad on 1-28-11 , I had 11 years clean! so don't give up!!!
odatmatt 1 year ago
Once again, I am trying to sober up. Ive decided to make it public. I am making a vlog. I am very active right now. But I need help. I drink at home alone like you did. But I am an alcoholic, and need your help. I started tonight. And its gonna be a long ride.
IwannabeSOBER 1 year ago
@IwannabeSOBER I am glad to hear you are making steps to improve your life and stand up against alcohol. It is a very real battle and one that will require all of your attention. Good on u for starting a vlog, I found it very helpful, especially in the beginning.
I'm here.
TJ
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Thanks for sharing this TJ. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying in this video. I tried for years to solve the "alcohol problem" with logic and intellect. I finally realized that alcoholism is an emotional problem...not an academic one. Addressing it from that perspective, I have been able to stay sober for 3 years and 11 months, one day at a time.
Be careful because that alcohol is some sneaky shit!
CleanAndSober101 1 year ago
I am going through this exact thing right now. I've been an alcoholic for 10 years. Today, I'm on one day of sobriety again, for god knows how many times. pray for me, as I'm praying for you, and all alcoholics I come in contact with.
lawschoolpro 1 year ago
@lawschoolpro Good luck! - just stay busy and within a few days you'll start to remember how good it feels to be sober.
Without alcohol to hold you back.. you can achieve anything!
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
I wish someone would have video'd my brother when he was so blighted. I'm sorry to say it, but he is very unpleasant to say the least. He recently moved in with a fellow of similar habits and witnessed first hand (while he was sober) some very similar behaviour to his own when so affected. He promptly moved out as he couldn't handle it! My nephew(16yo) was amused and said "This guy did to Dad what he used to do to us..." Perhaps this experience was a good one after all; I hope so.
sprocketrocket07 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing TJ.
Although I just never got that interested in alcohol I can relate; was a smoker and dabbled with marijuana. Actually cannot recall how many years since I had a drink, smoke, etc. Hope to never smoke again but wouldn't classify myself as a non-drinker nonetheless. Some people find it odd when I don't partake of any, but I just don't bother to respond or attempt to explain; I just don't understand it too. Lost far too many good friends through alcohol etc :o)
sprocketrocket07 1 year ago
Hey TJ, this is probably my favourite video of yours. Not that I don't enjoy you being snarky and funny, but this is by far the most genuine and humble. And honest. We're all proud of you.
To celebrate, you need to listen to Kelly Clarkson's Sober and crank up the volume!
bcpmx 1 year ago
Your letter to Alcohol scares me; I can relate so strongly. But I was taught never to romance the drinking once I was willing to stay sober. I was taught to remember the insanity instead; as you bring up in your vlogging. I feel blessed to have 19 years sober but I can remember nine months vividly as if it were yesterday. It was way bigger of a deal than these many years. I never imagined to ever be sober this long. Things get better and better. Love and positive energy to you...
alphaba2 1 year ago
I'm proud of you even thow I don't know you personally
I'm so sad when I see a friend of mine drunk
and thank you for sharing your story you're really brave
pepermint26 1 year ago
You will be victorious. You already are stronger, fitter, sexier, thinner, younger looking, creative, inspirational, and a better friend, lover and son. Well done mista! xxxx
QPerth 1 year ago
@QPerth Thank you Q, you are such a wonderful friend. Your encouragement has always inspired me.
L.O.V.E.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Thank you for making this video. Truly inspiring.
NerdyMcCool 1 year ago
@NerdyMcCool Thanks for watching and leaving this lovely comment :-)
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Sorry for so many comments. I have been dealing with this for a very long time and felt like no one really ever went through it like I have. Never thought you would have put this video out. I am managing with just beer and wine. Not blacking out or getting very sick like I was on whiskey. I have researched this alot, and found out that some people will go through detox/rehab several times before it completely stops. I hope that I am near the last time I have to go though that again.
russtex 1 year ago
@russtex Wow.. I am sorry to hear that you have had a bumpy ride on the wagon as well.. Sounds like we are quite similar when it comes to alcohol.
-sometimes all the common sense and right advice is never enough.
I am glad you related to my video.. And i hope it helped you.. Even if in some way like showing you that you are not alone.
Maybe you could try writing a letter to alcohol too? I found that doing so really made things clear in my head.
Good luck.
Peace & L.O.V.E.
~TJ.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Unfortunately, since last March when I went through my last detox/rehab I only lasted 3 months. The shortest out of the three times I have done that. That last hospital was like jail and I think it sent me over the edge. Yet, I did definitely learned to never drink liqueur again (whiskey being my favorite). And, I also mean no liqueur of any kind...no margarita's, daiquiri's, Tom Collins....just none. And I will stay away from them. Yet, I am still drinking beer and wine to this day.
russtex 1 year ago
I said the same thing...I can just have a couple. Then the next thing I know...I am back to drinking again. Yes, full time. I know exactly what you mean!! The only thing different between you and I, is, that I lose weight when I drink instead of gaining weight. I can't drink socially as well...cause it goes right back to it. Wow...I love diet Coke when I am not drinking!
It will alway be a thing for me as well. Glad you have learned this at an early age!!!! I have never wrote a letter.
russtex 1 year ago
Wow...this is sounding too much like me..ugh. Except, the longest I ever went sober was a year (in 2006). My first drink was a 14..strawberry daiquiri's. Didn't drink beer till 18 or 19. OMG...whiskey is my very addictive drink....now I stay away from it after my 3rd detox/rehab. I always drank at home alone as well. Oh my...glad I didn't have a camera!
And, I have been there not knowing what needed to be changed. My mom was that way alot...and still is. That is they way it happens to me.
russtex 1 year ago
I remember those old videos. I think I remember me makeing a comment stateing that your videos would be so much better if you didn't drink before hand. I also remember when you first started to quit and I was really happy for you. I also remember when you slipped. I had asked a couple of times about your soberity in a private message and I didn't hear anything till that video you did admitting you had fallen off the wagon. I kind of knew when I didn't hear back. I am very proud of you TJ.
Mysticblue1212 1 year ago
@Mysticblue1212 Yeh, i remember when u would message me... I guess i knew u were onto me, but i guess I thought if I ignored the questions and avoided thinking to myself that there was a problem, I'd be able to avoid having to deal with it...
I'm sorry if u were annoyed that I didn't reply :-)
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
@tabloidjunk No, it didn't annoy me that you didn't respond. It did however confirm that you had a problem. Well at least in my mind it ment you had a problem. I was just concerned. I think you have shown that you know your limitations and therefore, it shows you can conquer this. I have to say again that I am very proud of you. I hope you never forget that.
Mysticblue1212 1 year ago
TJ
This is probably the most touching video I have seen YET on YT.
You're so real, speak the truth, and shared your darkest moments with the world. For that, you are more awesome in my mind than you were about 15 minutes ago :)
I loved how you spliced old footage, it gave this video more of an impact. To see different aspects of you ( such as your personality and physical features), it gave me, as an audiance, the chance to see the changes you have made to make you happy.
Thank you!
NotYourAverageOne 1 year ago
@NotYourAverageOne Thanks honey.. I guess i just wanted to be as open and honest as possible cause it is such a real issue in my life...
- I know it doesn't really fit the whole 'TabloidJunk' type usual video... But hey, i really wanted to mark this 9 month mark with a vid.
Thanks so much for the kind comment and ongoing love and support.
TJ.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Thank you so much for sharing this with us, two of my Ex's are also recovering alcoholics.
Never give up on yourself, one day at a time *hug*
CallMeBlake1 1 year ago
@CallMeBlake1 Thanks so much Blake... And best of luck to your ex's
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Oh Dear, you made me cry towards the end there, dammit! You have certainly had your up and downs and I have been around to witness them via youtube all these years. You are lucky to have figured out your problem with alcohol at such a young age as you now have the rest of your life to live and enjoy. I am so proud of you and you should be too. Peace and love to you beautiful boy, Sal xox
fusantima 1 year ago
@fusantima Oh honey.. Don't cry... This is suppose to be a happy video!
Thanks for always being there and being my friend..the support really means a lot.
**HUGS**
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Wow. So powerful, TJ.
gcarped 1 year ago
@gcarped Thanks for watching and commenting sweetie.. You rock!
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
I love this! You're doing great, and it shows! Inspiring!
hotelangel 1 year ago
@hotelangel Thanks Joe. - you're awesome.. Thanks for the love and support all these years.
Love ya
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
The video you put the other day from a long time ago...I remember when you lived there and you drank LOTS. I use to worry about you. I am very proud of you for 9 months sober. *hugs*
dreamer72fem 1 year ago
@dreamer72fem Thanks for worrying about me and being there for me. It really means a lot.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
Loved this video...Congratulations on your accomplishement...beating addiction isn't an easy task at all. Stay strong and bless you :)
mizzie37 1 year ago
@mizzie37 Thanks so much - and yeah.. beating addiction Sucks!! - i'm so lucky though, i've always had my youtubers for support. I could not have asked for a better support network over the years.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago
This is one of the most intense, honest and moving videos I have ever seen. I won't start commenting on what you've been through,with alcohol in your life; you have done that far better than I could ever do. And if I now want to congratulate you on all you've achieved again in these 9 months, and especially after that relapse back then - man, I only have 500 characters in that comment box, spaces included - not a chance :-)! Just let me say: I'm proud of you, and love being subscribed to you!
Truedantalion 1 year ago
@Truedantalion Thank you so much.. it is so honest because i actually didn't intend for the footage to go online when i was filming it.. i was only filming it for myself.. so it's about as raw as it gets :)
Thanks for your lovely comment... it means a lot.
Peace & L.O.V.E.
~TJ.
tabloidjunk 1 year ago