I want my bulimia back....I had it as part of my life for 7 years...but I was purging too much too often..ive competly lost my ability to self induce vomiting...i resorted to drinking chemicals to make myself throw up, i ended up having to go to the hospital. I refuse food now...i have for the past over a month...when i eat its a veggie every other day or so. I just want to be able to purge again....Id give anything for that back. I just wanna be thin!
everytime I hear this I feel bad. Like, a negative energy start to control my body and I stare at the computer. It's pretty weird. And, when the music is over, I realise I actually like the song.
It's part of my job to be skinny. I would rather die than fail to reach my dream because I'm fat. F U food I love you and all but I can't live like this any longer.
Holy Shit, I have a girlfriend that is currently dealing with this and she told me about this video I am 18 years old stand ft5,8 and 135 pounds. I workout 5 times a day for hours this song truly is brain wash material. It's got beautiful women thinking the wrong impression of themselves this song DESTROYS self confidence that women are suppose to have whats with this nonsense " Being thin, and not eating are signs of true willpower and success." the true willpower is not giving into this stuff.
@tanklegit1994 goodness, this song is by edith backlund, she is the top commentor. ...and if you listen to the actual words, it is talking about the slavery to wanting to be thin. It isn't advocating anorexia or trying to be skinnier, it is saying that true perfection cannot be obtained and that it is an endless battle that will kill you....it is saying that being skinny is an addiction and it is bad.....gracious
I need a serious ana buddi, someone who will ALWAYS be there to make sure I don't binge or eat anything, someone who will make me exercise and yell at me when I eat, I will help them as well, please someone message me (can text)
@Serelovesherhubby Hello there, I'm 5'5" and 140 pounds. My weight is made up of a fair combination of muscle and fat. I'm mostly happy with my body. I think 103 is an awesome weight! :) You should be very proud.
These comments break my heart. Please, Don't starve yourself. No one can be perfect. An ED not only gets to your body, it gets to your mind and soul. An ED eats you up until YOU become your ED. Beauty comes in all sizes. Tonight my 11:11 wish will be for more people to realize that.
Any weightloss buddies? I'm 5'7. 117 pounds going for 110 pounds, but I need more motivation and someone to help me stay on track. I'm a long distance runner, so I get enough exercise. I just need willpower and help staying strong so I don't eat.
feel like this is your life let me tell you who ever or what ever made you feel like this is wrong and they did or do bc something is wrong with them I know your are beautefull every one is. My girl of five years still fells like this and she truly is the most amazing thing in this world i would never change a thing about her with the exseption of her feeling like this bc im more in love with who she is and how she has treated me and been there for me than for her to be americas sexiest female.
I need an Ana buddy. I need someone who is not going to try to talk me out of it too. Someone looking to be thin. I am thirteen years old and female. Please message me.
people act like its something you can just get over.its not.
it gets so bad i dont go out into public, im afraid to be seen by ANYONE.
even my own FAMILY.i know their all judging me, even though they love me.
im scared to be judged. ive lost contact with a few friends, because them being skinnier then me makes me hate myself JUST that much more.being insecure is something many people have to go through.
but very few people understand that it can take over a persons life.
@sammisauce2 Who cares about what other thinks, You shuold embrace yourself, enjoy your life, not worrying about What you look like.. at the end of the day your parents and people around you will love you for who u are n not what you look like :)
I feel for all of you! it seems the only way to be pretty if to starve, we are all alike in ways you think are stupid! but its true! we have low self estime! does that make us a freak? desperate? just unhealthy? yes but dont try to stop us, we are not proud of being bulimic/anarexic! but its who we are! dont judge! we will somday find inner happiness! it takes time! i am a bulimic, but ,that doesnt mean my life sucks! its a great life! bulimia will get in the way somtimes but its all good
it makes me so sad to see all these comments. i've been anorexic for the last 4 years and i've been in recovery for almost three years now. it's awful how it never stops. youll never be skinny or good enough. im 5'5 and my LW was 67lbs and all i saw was the fat on my thighs. my eating disorder has been doing so much damage on my body that the doctors has prepared me for dying within the next few months or weeks. and yet i am still not eating enough. everyday is a struggle.
i always feel fat like a disgusting pig i look at myself and know im not that fat but then i again i feel like i am i want to be small to be little and i'll stop eating for a little and then fall back in to eating again and i hate myself for it i wish i could stop i hate what im doing but i hate the way i look so much i just look at myself and cry idk what to do! </3
I was always really underweight as a child, and then I turned thirteen and in less than 6 months I went from flat to a D cup and gained around 30 pounds. It takes all my willpower not to let myself go, but I'm working on it and learning to embrace my curves. :)
I thought I was getting better .. But after that one binge, I knew it was time to go back to Ana's ways ... I will not die fat ... I just want to be .. S-k-i-n-n-y .. 20 lbs ... i'll stop soon i promise ..... :/
@CrayolaXColorful Oh honey. *Hugs* I wish there was something I could say to make it go away. :( I know how hard it is to live like this. Please, focus on recovery, not weight. It's easier said than done, I know, but maybe some day you'll be able to look back, and finally feel at peace with your body.
I can't relate to this song My mom says i need to stay healthy but I'm proud of being curvy people say I'm skinny but i know I'm curvy but I'm proud for who i am this is what God made me and I'm proud of it i don't care if i get fat skinny or what i am who am and I won't never change that because i am a Beautiful person! And if i want to loose weight i eat healthy and stay fit and All of y'all are Beautiful girls God made he doesn't want to see you hurt yourself
To all the people who are commenting on this video: We all have imperfections, we all feel ugly sometimes. Chasing the perfect body is pointless because it doesn't exist. This song was written after I got better. You can too, and when you do I hope you can listen to my song not for thinspiration but as a reminder of how you deserve to feel better than that. I am giving a new song away for free on my Facebook-page edithbacklundofficial You are welcome to stop by.
noone knows what it feels like, to cry your self to sleep, feel guilty after every bite, you always feel your not good enough and want to look like everyone else, and they only way to do this is to starve, a few more pounds wont hurt.. </3
I get bullied at school for the way i look.. thats why im like this now aswell as being"ugly" im discustingly skinny aswell.. thanks bullies, look what you did to me.. :'(
Sigh. People, skinny doesn't mean beautiful. You're beautiful from who you are, and you are not based off of appearance. Anorexia and Bullemia are not a good way to look "skinny". Don't strive to be skinny, strive to look healthy. 90lbs for a person 5'2 and up is not healthy nor is it nice looking. None of you are too fat. You are all beautiful young women that need to realize that and appreciate what you have..
A couple weeks ago I asked myself: You know how people say I want to be skinny? Well I kinda want to be fater/average. I am very skinny, and I get picked on almost every day. I'm so skinny, you can see my wrist bone, my ribs,and I barely have any meat on my skin. But now, i've relized god made us who we are today. So jsut love the skin your in,no matter what they say. If you fat? SO WHAT. If your too skinny? SO WHAT. Love yourself no matter what! ♥
It really sucks being able to relate to this song. It's so true. It's so hard to just walk in my school hallways, or walk around town with anyone. Because all I see around me are skinny people. Skinny skinny skinny. Everywhere. And it makes me feel like shit. And then I won't eat for a few days. Then I'll start feeling better, eat a little bit, then in a few moments see someone thin and then throw it up. It is so hard. Some people have no idea. But this song explains my thoughts on a daily basis
Guys, if your bones stick out, it's gross. Tell me WHY you would want to be so thin >.> I found this song on someone's tumblr. It made me mad that someone would actually go as far to write a song on something so awful. It's the equivalent of making a song about how you like smoking or something else that's bad for you. EFFFF THIS WORLD.
@EssenceEvans i understand that it's psychological. I have OCD to some degree. Some people are hoarders. But they dont make songs and say that their disorder is their "friend". I just think its frikin weirdddd O___o WHY WOULD SOMETHING THAT HARMS YOU BE YOUR FRIEND ;____; And then theres people who WANT eating disorders. GAH i need to rant.
i hate what i see in the mirror ... everyone saysim pretty but i dot care what they think. ana is the only one i want to please. i always think just a few more hours of working out just a few more pounds shed and no more food :/ i will thin or i will die trying
i remember when my thoughts used to match the song's lyrics. i remember weighing myself constanly, counting the calories, waking up early becuase i was starving, finding myself always too fat and ugly, crying and crying of guilt if i ate "unhealthy food", rejecting my reflection, basing my social life around my food timetable. thank goodness these are only distant memories now..
i remember when my thoughts used to match the song's lyrics. i remember weighing myself constanly, counting the calories, waking up early becuase i was starving, finding myself always too fat and ugly, crying and crying of guilt if i ate "unhealthy food", rejecting my reflection, basing my social life around my food timetable. thank goodness these are only distant memories now..
Does anyone have the voices in their head, they look out the window or walk down the street and EVERYONE looks ultra skinny, and you feel like a fat log in a forest of thin twigs? You cant keep a boyfriend coz ur too fat, your friends are way too skinny, and you just want to curl up and dissappear?
@wishinandhopin14 yes all the time ... its hard to be a size 11 in a size 0 world. and its like everyone is pretty and can lose weight except for me. i hate it!!
All the comments here are talking about how fat they are, I mean, really? I'm proud to say I've overcome Anorexia and Bulemia, and believe me, it is not the way to go. We all have body image issues, but if you want someone to like you for only how you look, then you're not really going to have a good life. I survived my eating disorders, and I'm proud.
You were made to be different, one of a kind. You may want this popularity, but don't let it control your mind. So take this advice, these words I say, If you want this truly, there's a price to pay. You'll loose who you are, all that made you unique. But if you don't care, you just want Beauty skin deep. Let go of all you're happiness, long out the door. Worries of you're reflection, along with your pores. Say one last goodbye, to yourself, and say hello to you're new hell.
@hinatabutterfly12 i see what you mean, but i lost who i was ages before i started starving. i self harmed since i was 8, i've been suicidal since i was about 12. i've never really been happy. i'd rather be thin and miserable than fat and miserable.
@DaNYe999 Yeahh... it's terrible not seeing progress at all. But that stupid mirror is lying to us!! I'm sure, I really am, that we will reach perfection one day!!!! <33
i told my boyfriend i wanted to be skin n bones n he sed tht he duznt want me to be like tht .. n i sed but u wud like me more n he sed no i wud like u more if u were thinner... n it made me cry so imma give him his wish... he wants me thinner imma be thinner...
@SashaDaisuki i know sweetie... i know how you feel. i used to feel like that, and still do sometimes. -hugs- i'm still under weight from starving myself for a long time... -hugs- i'm here for you
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None one knows what We go through <\3 sitting in our rooms staring at our reflection. Hunger takes over. Cry ourselves to sleep everynight...Guilt eats us alive when we eat something...<\3
Living with Bolimia (Binge Eating) i hate myself...and purging isnt fun but as long as im skinny its all that matters i just think i whine too much and should get over it because it will all be worth it when im thin and ive been losing alot of weight so its going ok but i still to think its good enough im at 110 and droping but i feel fatter than ever...i wannah die but if i can be thin and pretty than ill do what it takes....
Okay, I am not technically anorexic, but I have the tendencies of one. Like, if I eat over my limit of calories, I want to die... I hate myself.. if I don't eat under 1000 calories, I hate myself... "Why can't you just have self control!?" runs through my head. I lost 48 lbs in 5months... Yeah, I'm still considered overweight weighing 162 lbs, but I lost so much weight, I feel like it's not enough, more, more. :/ I'm a size 11 which is considered... normal... not to me...
I'm anorexic. Im 5"10 and 14 years old, so being that tall you have an average weight of 145. But being anorexic I'm 110 pounds, I want to be 80 pounds and beautiful. I know its practically impossible but I'm willing to kill myself to get there. I just want to be pretty and be accepted. Im addicted and can't stop.
I've blacked out from it before. Surprisingly it made me feel happy & accomplished. I'm 109 & weigh 112 currently...just 12 more to go :( Butt this weekend I won't be at school so I won't be able to skip any meals...sigh. I'll just try to eat super healthy, & NO BINGEING. -|3
@cutieskull Careful, I heard of people fainting dying from it o.o You should think to yourself " If they don't like it then they can cover their eyes" and not care about whether your fat or thin
Anorexia is more than a problem that you can control. It's more like your dark side, a shadow in your life that whispers "You are so fat...", "You won't fit in that bikini like this", and other negative things and pushes you to fast for long periods of times. It isn't the persons fault, and it certaintly doesn't make them bad, evil, or suicidal. This song... it shows you what the person who has this issue is thinking and what the shadow is whispering. Not being literal here.
So please before you think this is a blessing and answer to all your Diets as some times I still do but more as a partner who never left than anything. Just remember as much as it may help you it also may harm you. The proper way is just to treat your body as a temple, if you are ANA don't use laxatives or water dieretics as they also will mess with your insides too. Good Luck
Instead u limit yourself water this time around and if you do eat, eat way late knowing u will just fall asleep afterwards to stop the binge and the few pounds u lost turned into five pounds gained and you ask yourself should I just got my losses & eat everyday because I will never be that 92lb girl again but is 190lb really who I am. If I try to do the the right way will it work and the answer is NO as from 13-22 I was always Ana. From 22-30 she was always and will always be on and off again.
The sickest thing even after all this you still turn to ANA and just think if I can just last as long as I did before it will work this time and that 80lbs weight gain from the pregnancy I should be greatefull for will be lost, If I can only get back to that.
then because your insides r so mest up u will retain water in places u did not ever know you have.IF you get pregnant if you still can you might think it is a blessing until the unexplained weight gain of eating just a salad with egg everyday for a month and gaining 30lbs in 1 month. I say to all of you GOOD LUCK.
u most likely will gain a lot of weight because your body is screwed up and just promise you will never cross over to laxatives because as much as u say u will never abuse them we always do. Youll be lucky if u can still go to the bathroom the right way with out crunching over in pain by the time your are 30 feeling it go through your lower left adominal area towards your backside not plump and whole but just watery colored un-digested food. Grose!!!!
What do Ana and Chucky have in common? They will both be your friends to the end. Be careful of what you wish for.It is not a joke nor an answer to an overweight issue. It is a disease much like an addict. If u do not die in the end u will become very unhappy as u block out everyone around u and u live just not to eat. Then if u do recover(never admit you had a issue) with out a Nutritionist or research or a good doctor.
Please don't do this to yourselves! It may seem like a good choice, and that you're in total control of yourself, but.. trust me. In the end, you won't be in control. Your anorexia or bulimia will end up controlling you.
Please, please, please talk to someone! There are plenty of ways to stay thin without ruining your body. If you do need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me. :)
i need an ana buddy, im 13 and live in the USA, and i need help, i used to be really good at this, and i had to get better, and ever since i gained all that weight, i cant loose it. please help :(
I love this song so much! My mom had anorexia, she had been trying to have a baby for years but kept failing. She weighed around 45kg when the doctor told her she was pregnant with me, she started eating more and more so that I would be able to survive. Now I think I'm going down that same path she was on, I'm 5'2 and 40kg.
its becuz of all those skinny girls i am anorexic <33 love this song forever and always
prettygirlrock3128 4 days ago
<33.
XxplainXlogxX 5 days ago
"Got to fit that new bikini"
blackfl00dd 1 week ago in playlist ANAMIA MUSIC 2
love the song... i am 110 kg, so fat and ugly.... i hate this flab... its disgusting ... am so ashamed...
aminahrasheed 1 week ago
@XxXBrokenXxDreamsXx I feel the same way. "I just want to be thin" Good luck.
PhosphrescentEssence 2 weeks ago
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I want my bulimia back....I had it as part of my life for 7 years...but I was purging too much too often..ive competly lost my ability to self induce vomiting...i resorted to drinking chemicals to make myself throw up, i ended up having to go to the hospital. I refuse food now...i have for the past over a month...when i eat its a veggie every other day or so. I just want to be able to purge again....Id give anything for that back. I just wanna be thin!
XxXBrokenXxDreamsXx 2 weeks ago in playlist ED
BEING FAT IS FINE. BEING FAT IS BEAUTIFUL. SAY IT LOUD. IM CHUBBY AND PROUD.
xWeirdxAndxCute 2 weeks ago
Being thin, and not eating, are true signs of willpower and success. You can NEVER be too thin.
UnNoticedSoul1 3 weeks ago
love this song even though i'm not anorexic or had an anorexic pass idk her voice, the melody makes me love the song.
wifauldi1 3 weeks ago in playlist Favorite videos
This sounds like a pro-ana song :/
TheOneAndOnlyMe92 3 weeks ago
Ana buddy? Doing this on my own ain't working or so well.. 14 5'4(ish) 138 lbs :/
xxxneverXeatxxx 3 weeks ago
everytime I hear this I feel bad. Like, a negative energy start to control my body and I stare at the computer. It's pretty weird. And, when the music is over, I realise I actually like the song.
jennyfeeling 3 weeks ago
It's part of my job to be skinny. I would rather die than fail to reach my dream because I'm fat. F U food I love you and all but I can't live like this any longer.
adventuretimeletsgo 1 month ago 4
@adventuretimeletsgo Silly person.
xWeirdxAndxCute 2 weeks ago
Holy Shit, I have a girlfriend that is currently dealing with this and she told me about this video I am 18 years old stand ft5,8 and 135 pounds. I workout 5 times a day for hours this song truly is brain wash material. It's got beautiful women thinking the wrong impression of themselves this song DESTROYS self confidence that women are suppose to have whats with this nonsense " Being thin, and not eating are signs of true willpower and success." the true willpower is not giving into this stuff.
tanklegit1994 1 month ago
@tanklegit1994 goodness, this song is by edith backlund, she is the top commentor. ...and if you listen to the actual words, it is talking about the slavery to wanting to be thin. It isn't advocating anorexia or trying to be skinnier, it is saying that true perfection cannot be obtained and that it is an endless battle that will kill you....it is saying that being skinny is an addiction and it is bad.....gracious
MyLittleKitsune1 1 month ago 2
every day i go through is hell.
fuck you ana.
you ruined my fucking life.
sammisauce2 2 months ago 3
I need a serious ana buddi, someone who will ALWAYS be there to make sure I don't binge or eat anything, someone who will make me exercise and yell at me when I eat, I will help them as well, please someone message me (can text)
xXALEXwentRaWrXx 2 months ago
FML :'(
Love this song, hate the addiction, love the addiction.
1m2ugly4you 2 months ago 2
I tried to recover. I slip back into my eating disorder. I'm sorry mom I let you down. But I missed my ed
Prettyperfect14 2 months ago 2
I think I'm going to do this for my open solo for dance.
ilovelibertyTYC 2 months ago
I hate myself. So much. Why do i have to be 103?? No. I should just leave. Im a disgrace.
Serelovesherhubby 2 months ago
@Serelovesherhubby Hello there, I'm 5'5" and 140 pounds. My weight is made up of a fair combination of muscle and fat. I'm mostly happy with my body. I think 103 is an awesome weight! :) You should be very proud.
ilovelibertyTYC 2 months ago
the truth,
MrsUnclearly 2 months ago
24 hours without food my dreams were all about food
crazytalented9710 2 months ago
These comments break my heart. Please, Don't starve yourself. No one can be perfect. An ED not only gets to your body, it gets to your mind and soul. An ED eats you up until YOU become your ED. Beauty comes in all sizes. Tonight my 11:11 wish will be for more people to realize that.
josephstorm 2 months ago
Any weightloss buddies? I'm 5'7. 117 pounds going for 110 pounds, but I need more motivation and someone to help me stay on track. I'm a long distance runner, so I get enough exercise. I just need willpower and help staying strong so I don't eat.
KawaiiWaffles007 2 months ago
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ilovelibertyTYC 2 months ago
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! :'''(
simplyabtruse 2 months ago in playlist ANA
feel like this is your life let me tell you who ever or what ever made you feel like this is wrong and they did or do bc something is wrong with them I know your are beautefull every one is. My girl of five years still fells like this and she truly is the most amazing thing in this world i would never change a thing about her with the exseption of her feeling like this bc im more in love with who she is and how she has treated me and been there for me than for her to be americas sexiest female.
bossdick81 3 months ago
I need an ana buddy!! 13 years old, 5"7' 112lbs
LaurenLikesLizzards 3 months ago
I giggled at the bikini part. But the rest of it is scary how much it reflects my mind everyday.
domosaysrawr24 3 months ago 4
this song is so accurate for people with ed. It's like my thoughts are coming to life. Very comforting.
RedLashLive 3 months ago
78 pounds. Im sorry. I'll try harder. I will NEVER reach 80. EVER. -3
macymcutie 3 months ago 2
I need an Ana buddy. I need someone who is not going to try to talk me out of it too. Someone looking to be thin. I am thirteen years old and female. Please message me.
xXIWillBePerfectXx 3 months ago
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xXIWillBePerfectXx 3 months ago
Ah. Eating makes me guilty. I only eat 100-500 cals a day... and in 7 days I fast.
XxLonelyAshfurxX 3 months ago
Im Going to Be Nnety Pounds If It Kills Me(:
LoveAndBeingYoung 3 months ago
i wanna be skinny.. thats all i ever wanted. i wanna fit in ..
YourMoomin1 3 months ago 6
I love this song it's a new fav
iloveappolo 4 months ago
i wanna die sometimes.
because of the way i look.
people think its no reason.
but im so unhappy with my looks it makes me feel discusting.
sammisauce2 4 months ago 87
@sammisauce2 i feel the same about it
Smiley92MileyFan 3 months ago
@Smiley92MileyFan
people act like its something you can just get over.its not.
it gets so bad i dont go out into public, im afraid to be seen by ANYONE.
even my own FAMILY.i know their all judging me, even though they love me.
im scared to be judged. ive lost contact with a few friends, because them being skinnier then me makes me hate myself JUST that much more.being insecure is something many people have to go through.
but very few people understand that it can take over a persons life.
sammisauce2 3 months ago
@sammisauce2 Who cares about what other thinks, You shuold embrace yourself, enjoy your life, not worrying about What you look like.. at the end of the day your parents and people around you will love you for who u are n not what you look like :)
TrollingButtSack 2 months ago
@sammisauce2 I understand :c
Giasaysstopeatingg 2 months ago
I love this song .... my friend is this and now she is sick...v.v she hasint been at school in a month
Canttuchthis07 4 months ago
I feel for all of you! it seems the only way to be pretty if to starve, we are all alike in ways you think are stupid! but its true! we have low self estime! does that make us a freak? desperate? just unhealthy? yes but dont try to stop us, we are not proud of being bulimic/anarexic! but its who we are! dont judge! we will somday find inner happiness! it takes time! i am a bulimic, but ,that doesnt mean my life sucks! its a great life! bulimia will get in the way somtimes but its all good
be3dreamer 4 months ago 5
it makes me so sad to see all these comments. i've been anorexic for the last 4 years and i've been in recovery for almost three years now. it's awful how it never stops. youll never be skinny or good enough. im 5'5 and my LW was 67lbs and all i saw was the fat on my thighs. my eating disorder has been doing so much damage on my body that the doctors has prepared me for dying within the next few months or weeks. and yet i am still not eating enough. everyday is a struggle.
ilooovecobrastarship 4 months ago 4
i always feel fat like a disgusting pig i look at myself and know im not that fat but then i again i feel like i am i want to be small to be little and i'll stop eating for a little and then fall back in to eating again and i hate myself for it i wish i could stop i hate what im doing but i hate the way i look so much i just look at myself and cry idk what to do! </3
breannathebanana1 4 months ago
I was always really underweight as a child, and then I turned thirteen and in less than 6 months I went from flat to a D cup and gained around 30 pounds. It takes all my willpower not to let myself go, but I'm working on it and learning to embrace my curves. :)
ilovelibertyTYC 4 months ago
I thought I was getting better .. But after that one binge, I knew it was time to go back to Ana's ways ... I will not die fat ... I just want to be .. S-k-i-n-n-y .. 20 lbs ... i'll stop soon i promise ..... :/
CrayolaXColorful 4 months ago
@CrayolaXColorful Oh honey. *Hugs* I wish there was something I could say to make it go away. :( I know how hard it is to live like this. Please, focus on recovery, not weight. It's easier said than done, I know, but maybe some day you'll be able to look back, and finally feel at peace with your body.
OzJenj88 4 months ago
I can't relate to this song My mom says i need to stay healthy but I'm proud of being curvy people say I'm skinny but i know I'm curvy but I'm proud for who i am this is what God made me and I'm proud of it i don't care if i get fat skinny or what i am who am and I won't never change that because i am a Beautiful person! And if i want to loose weight i eat healthy and stay fit and All of y'all are Beautiful girls God made he doesn't want to see you hurt yourself
YouFreakOfNature 4 months ago 6
To all the people who are commenting on this video: We all have imperfections, we all feel ugly sometimes. Chasing the perfect body is pointless because it doesn't exist. This song was written after I got better. You can too, and when you do I hope you can listen to my song not for thinspiration but as a reminder of how you deserve to feel better than that. I am giving a new song away for free on my Facebook-page edithbacklundofficial You are welcome to stop by.
edithbacklund 4 months ago 96
noone knows what it feels like, to cry your self to sleep, feel guilty after every bite, you always feel your not good enough and want to look like everyone else, and they only way to do this is to starve, a few more pounds wont hurt.. </3
I get bullied at school for the way i look.. thats why im like this now aswell as being"ugly" im discustingly skinny aswell.. thanks bullies, look what you did to me.. :'(
LoopSTAR456 4 months ago 4
Sigh. People, skinny doesn't mean beautiful. You're beautiful from who you are, and you are not based off of appearance. Anorexia and Bullemia are not a good way to look "skinny". Don't strive to be skinny, strive to look healthy. 90lbs for a person 5'2 and up is not healthy nor is it nice looking. None of you are too fat. You are all beautiful young women that need to realize that and appreciate what you have..
GirRulesx3 4 months ago 8
i hate but love this song :/
MissMaddy1000 4 months ago 4
Someone make a fat parody please...
Luvinjazzy69 4 months ago
this is depressing. reminds me of a couple years ago >.>
indesisivelove 4 months ago
Make me teeny.tiny
Prettyperfect14 5 months ago
A couple weeks ago I asked myself: You know how people say I want to be skinny? Well I kinda want to be fater/average. I am very skinny, and I get picked on almost every day. I'm so skinny, you can see my wrist bone, my ribs,and I barely have any meat on my skin. But now, i've relized god made us who we are today. So jsut love the skin your in,no matter what they say. If you fat? SO WHAT. If your too skinny? SO WHAT. Love yourself no matter what! ♥
prettygirlygirl9 5 months ago 4
It really sucks being able to relate to this song. It's so true. It's so hard to just walk in my school hallways, or walk around town with anyone. Because all I see around me are skinny people. Skinny skinny skinny. Everywhere. And it makes me feel like shit. And then I won't eat for a few days. Then I'll start feeling better, eat a little bit, then in a few moments see someone thin and then throw it up. It is so hard. Some people have no idea. But this song explains my thoughts on a daily basis
LilithSonneillon 5 months ago 7
@LilithSonneillon
*hug*
i know exactly what your going through hun :(
sydney100p 4 months ago
It bugs me an extreme amount that I know the voice at the end is from the don't die for a diet commercial...idek why tho...
Geniusidekick 5 months ago
Guys, if your bones stick out, it's gross. Tell me WHY you would want to be so thin >.> I found this song on someone's tumblr. It made me mad that someone would actually go as far to write a song on something so awful. It's the equivalent of making a song about how you like smoking or something else that's bad for you. EFFFF THIS WORLD.
pinkfurryhat 5 months ago
@pinkfurryhat you just don't understand. it's a psychological thing most the time.... and not eating... can become an addiction...
EssenceEvans 5 months ago in playlist Sad D:
@EssenceEvans i understand that it's psychological. I have OCD to some degree. Some people are hoarders. But they dont make songs and say that their disorder is their "friend". I just think its frikin weirdddd O___o WHY WOULD SOMETHING THAT HARMS YOU BE YOUR FRIEND ;____; And then theres people who WANT eating disorders. GAH i need to rant.
pinkfurryhat 5 months ago
@pinkfurryhat if you want to vent, you can message me. cuz trust me, i would love to vent about some things too. haha.
EssenceEvans 5 months ago
@pinkfurryhat I think is for those girls so that they wont feel alone
tusia750 4 months ago 4
My cw 122.4
Prettyperfect14 5 months ago
I'm so glad I discovered Edith Backlund
notcastro 5 months ago in playlist :O
i love this song its true how people think :(
MsBrokenroads 5 months ago
i hate what i see in the mirror ... everyone saysim pretty but i dot care what they think. ana is the only one i want to please. i always think just a few more hours of working out just a few more pounds shed and no more food :/ i will thin or i will die trying
pandadoll17 5 months ago
i remember when my thoughts used to match the song's lyrics. i remember weighing myself constanly, counting the calories, waking up early becuase i was starving, finding myself always too fat and ugly, crying and crying of guilt if i ate "unhealthy food", rejecting my reflection, basing my social life around my food timetable. thank goodness these are only distant memories now..
cricri0895 5 months ago
i remember when my thoughts used to match the song's lyrics. i remember weighing myself constanly, counting the calories, waking up early becuase i was starving, finding myself always too fat and ugly, crying and crying of guilt if i ate "unhealthy food", rejecting my reflection, basing my social life around my food timetable. thank goodness these are only distant memories now..
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didntmeananything 5 months ago
im 14 and wiegh ALOT im 5'1 and ii try everyday but ii c nothing in return. tht damn mirror may b my enemy . but sadly its the truth :(
revainfriendship101 5 months ago
5'3, 118lbs.
no triple digitss, almost there.
i will do anything to be 90lbs.
nothing will stand in my way, nothing.
BIGcityydreamss 5 months ago
i listen to this on repeat when im exercising
shikatemaBelieveit 5 months ago
@wishinandhopin14 meeeee!!!!!! That's exactly how I feel! I named the voice anorexia and started scratching and now I'm having thoughts of suicide
jkseiden 5 months ago
Does anyone have the voices in their head, they look out the window or walk down the street and EVERYONE looks ultra skinny, and you feel like a fat log in a forest of thin twigs? You cant keep a boyfriend coz ur too fat, your friends are way too skinny, and you just want to curl up and dissappear?
wishinandhopin14 5 months ago 5
@wishinandhopin14 yes all the time ... its hard to be a size 11 in a size 0 world. and its like everyone is pretty and can lose weight except for me. i hate it!!
pandadoll17 5 months ago
@wishinandhopin14 Yessssssssssssss.
Princessvannahz 5 months ago
anorexia killed my best friend, the only family i really had, and i want it to kill me too.
AriLiv1 5 months ago
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didntmeananything 5 months ago
Jedem das seine....
Zu heftig der Song und zieht eigentlich nur runter und baut kein Stück auf... Schlechte Umsetzung vom Thema finde ich.
FrauVonSinnfrei 5 months ago
I find these songs creepy but mostly because it's true and I relate :(
it scares me
sillykali456 5 months ago
I hear the song while I'm eating pizza hahaha
russialiciouslady 5 months ago
Lost 40 pounds. 40 more please
IrishFig 5 months ago
This is like the theme song to my life. I love it.
SkinnyIsThaGoal 5 months ago
15 pounds is all I pray
Lose my soul along the way
Food goes down
Food comes up
I'm not hungry
But I cant stand
15 pounds down to 10
Soon I'll meet perfection.
lilysangel312 5 months ago 4
All the comments here are talking about how fat they are, I mean, really? I'm proud to say I've overcome Anorexia and Bulemia, and believe me, it is not the way to go. We all have body image issues, but if you want someone to like you for only how you look, then you're not really going to have a good life. I survived my eating disorders, and I'm proud.
rememberjamiee 5 months ago 6
hinatabutterfly12 5 months ago 2
@hinatabutterfly12 i see what you mean, but i lost who i was ages before i started starving. i self harmed since i was 8, i've been suicidal since i was about 12. i've never really been happy. i'd rather be thin and miserable than fat and miserable.
AriLiv1 5 months ago
Guys, I'm 12 yrs old, I 5'4 1/2 and I way 142 Pounds. <--That's pure disgusting.
4everyun4everme2 5 months ago
@Ilovebrokencyde20 I hate my body too :( and It´s awful see everyday something that you hate :(
DaNYe999 5 months ago
@DaNYe999 Yeah I know what you mean... But slowly it's getting better :) One day I'll reach perfection for sure!
SashaDaisuki 5 months ago
@SashaDaisuki but not for me .. every day I see no better u know? :(
I try to do something more and nothing and even rigth now im getting weak if u know what i mean !! And that just delayed percfetion!! aghh :/
DaNYe999 5 months ago
@DaNYe999 Yeahh... it's terrible not seeing progress at all. But that stupid mirror is lying to us!! I'm sure, I really am, that we will reach perfection one day!!!! <33
SashaDaisuki 5 months ago
The ending is really haunting...I love this song.
Sezziebaybei 5 months ago
this song is a like. a trance.. ._.
Princessvannahz 5 months ago
i told my boyfriend i wanted to be skin n bones n he sed tht he duznt want me to be like tht .. n i sed but u wud like me more n he sed no i wud like u more if u were thinner... n it made me cry so imma give him his wish... he wants me thinner imma be thinner...
daddyslittlegirldgh 5 months ago
Continuing to loose even though I'm in day treatment :/
supermanisthebesteve 5 months ago
I'm relapsing
listofschemes 5 months ago
I'm around 120 lbs now and I feel SO FAT.
SashaDaisuki 5 months ago 5
@SashaDaisuki If it makes you feel any better, at 135 pounds, I feel morbidly obese.
ilovelibertyTYC 5 months ago
@SashaDaisuki oh sweetie, that's a perfect weight.
EssenceEvans 5 months ago
@EssenceEvans To some people it is, yes... But to me it's A LOT :(
SashaDaisuki 5 months ago
@SashaDaisuki i know sweetie... i know how you feel. i used to feel like that, and still do sometimes. -hugs- i'm still under weight from starving myself for a long time... -hugs- i'm here for you
EssenceEvans 5 months ago
I love the videos w lyics on here.
Heltcel30 5 months ago
I look in the mirror.... I see FAT, UGLY, NEVER GOOD ENOUGH! Only a few more lbs.... only a few more.... </3
xMusicalMelancholyx 5 months ago 110
why is it that i can fake a smile to everyone and its believable...but when i look at myself i cant even fake it? i wannah dissapear... :(
KatrinaMarie5683 5 months ago 5
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Littelpain 5 months ago
skinny♥
esme9495 5 months ago
skinny.......haah. i wish i was.
XoxoLoveCheer3 5 months ago 2
im overweight
I love this song becaus ei want to be so thin like the girl in the somg
1mikuhatsune1 5 months ago 6
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FIREYICEangel 5 months ago
None one knows what We go through <\3 sitting in our rooms staring at our reflection. Hunger takes over. Cry ourselves to sleep everynight...Guilt eats us alive when we eat something...<\3
lIvEfOrHiM2000 5 months ago 80
@lIvEfOrHiM2000 i know.
wishinandhopin14 5 months ago
why can't i be skinny?
hopeforyouandme 5 months ago
Living with Bolimia (Binge Eating) i hate myself...and purging isnt fun but as long as im skinny its all that matters i just think i whine too much and should get over it because it will all be worth it when im thin and ive been losing alot of weight so its going ok but i still to think its good enough im at 110 and droping but i feel fatter than ever...i wannah die but if i can be thin and pretty than ill do what it takes....
KatrinaMarie5683 5 months ago 2
@KatrinaMarie5683 I understand this. I'm going through the same...
funsizedcupcake 5 months ago
@funsizedcupcake its not fun... </3 and when no one else understands... were all alone....
KatrinaMarie5683 5 months ago 3
Okay, I am not technically anorexic, but I have the tendencies of one. Like, if I eat over my limit of calories, I want to die... I hate myself.. if I don't eat under 1000 calories, I hate myself... "Why can't you just have self control!?" runs through my head. I lost 48 lbs in 5months... Yeah, I'm still considered overweight weighing 162 lbs, but I lost so much weight, I feel like it's not enough, more, more. :/ I'm a size 11 which is considered... normal... not to me...
xMusicalMelancholyx 5 months ago 3
I'm anorexic. Im 5"10 and 14 years old, so being that tall you have an average weight of 145. But being anorexic I'm 110 pounds, I want to be 80 pounds and beautiful. I know its practically impossible but I'm willing to kill myself to get there. I just want to be pretty and be accepted. Im addicted and can't stop.
crazyfishlegs 5 months ago
I'm facing another day with anorexia :(
jkseiden 5 months ago 2
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andaskyee 5 months ago 3
I'm a slave to my reflection.
xEmilyAna 5 months ago
Jej mirrors suck sometimes!!
kimberlystyle 6 months ago
All people talking about anorexia just know that this is NOT a choice that we make..
EveEveSmile 6 months ago 4
skinny. <3
BIGcityydreamss 6 months ago
Woah 109 typo! I meant I'm 5'9
x3COFx3 6 months ago
I've blacked out from it before. Surprisingly it made me feel happy & accomplished. I'm 109 & weigh 112 currently...just 12 more to go :( Butt this weekend I won't be at school so I won't be able to skip any meals...sigh. I'll just try to eat super healthy, & NO BINGEING. -|3
x3COFx3 6 months ago
@x3COFx3 I can relate...
CallMeMidnightAngel 5 months ago
@cutieskull Careful, I heard of people fainting dying from it o.o You should think to yourself " If they don't like it then they can cover their eyes" and not care about whether your fat or thin
wolveprincess 6 months ago
Anorexia is more than a problem that you can control. It's more like your dark side, a shadow in your life that whispers "You are so fat...", "You won't fit in that bikini like this", and other negative things and pushes you to fast for long periods of times. It isn't the persons fault, and it certaintly doesn't make them bad, evil, or suicidal. This song... it shows you what the person who has this issue is thinking and what the shadow is whispering. Not being literal here.
- God Bless~
Masterdarwin88 6 months ago
I am really looking for a anna buddie plzzz mjs me i am 14 5'1 nd weight 136! Plzzz help me out
justdeny1 6 months ago
Ana controls my life, and I feel like i'm disappearing....
AngelaCheerOfGaia 6 months ago
@AngelaCheerOfGaia ana start´s to cotrolling me :/
and it feels to die
DaNYe999 6 months ago
This song might kill someone, do you realise that?
aretartedbird 6 months ago
i need an ana buddy, i live in the USA someone text me
8607525313
TheGymnastgirl003 6 months ago
@TheGymnastgirl003 Bad idea to put your number online. But...I can try to help.
lizardliza15 6 months ago
ana my savior^^ <3
annyyaa 6 months ago
"Willpower"? - Werdensenergie? Kommt mir etwas Deutsch vor. ^^
BlackCookie1000 6 months ago in playlist 3
Is this a song promoting anorexia? Are you serious?
Ana-buddies? What the he'll? No way, I cannot believe this.
GirRulesx3 6 months ago 2
So please before you think this is a blessing and answer to all your Diets as some times I still do but more as a partner who never left than anything. Just remember as much as it may help you it also may harm you. The proper way is just to treat your body as a temple, if you are ANA don't use laxatives or water dieretics as they also will mess with your insides too. Good Luck
umm011 6 months ago
Instead u limit yourself water this time around and if you do eat, eat way late knowing u will just fall asleep afterwards to stop the binge and the few pounds u lost turned into five pounds gained and you ask yourself should I just got my losses & eat everyday because I will never be that 92lb girl again but is 190lb really who I am. If I try to do the the right way will it work and the answer is NO as from 13-22 I was always Ana. From 22-30 she was always and will always be on and off again.
umm011 6 months ago
The sickest thing even after all this you still turn to ANA and just think if I can just last as long as I did before it will work this time and that 80lbs weight gain from the pregnancy I should be greatefull for will be lost, If I can only get back to that.
umm011 6 months ago
then because your insides r so mest up u will retain water in places u did not ever know you have.IF you get pregnant if you still can you might think it is a blessing until the unexplained weight gain of eating just a salad with egg everyday for a month and gaining 30lbs in 1 month. I say to all of you GOOD LUCK.
umm011 6 months ago
u most likely will gain a lot of weight because your body is screwed up and just promise you will never cross over to laxatives because as much as u say u will never abuse them we always do. Youll be lucky if u can still go to the bathroom the right way with out crunching over in pain by the time your are 30 feeling it go through your lower left adominal area towards your backside not plump and whole but just watery colored un-digested food. Grose!!!!
umm011 6 months ago
What do Ana and Chucky have in common? They will both be your friends to the end. Be careful of what you wish for.It is not a joke nor an answer to an overweight issue. It is a disease much like an addict. If u do not die in the end u will become very unhappy as u block out everyone around u and u live just not to eat. Then if u do recover(never admit you had a issue) with out a Nutritionist or research or a good doctor.
umm011 6 months ago
I'm 15 years old and I'm a recovering anorexic.
Please don't do this to yourselves! It may seem like a good choice, and that you're in total control of yourself, but.. trust me. In the end, you won't be in control. Your anorexia or bulimia will end up controlling you.
Please, please, please talk to someone! There are plenty of ways to stay thin without ruining your body. If you do need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me. :)
DragonFlame023 6 months ago
where can i get the mp3?
Mons1059 6 months ago
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I love this song. Someone email me for an ana/mia buddy? Please? :); aplaza@gmail.com . (:
KomeUsagi 6 months ago
I want an ana buddyD:
Email me? So we can text? Rby2014@aol.com
Brokenxangel15 6 months ago
Txt me if you wanna be ana buddies. I live in the usa... 5626656165.
TheMelgal 6 months ago
I need another girl to help me lose weight! If youre willing to be my ana buddy please email me at murdermaddness@yahoo.com!
Ichigomay1991 6 months ago
@MzPooh0211 i will email you
allisondarlingdeaar 6 months ago
I need HElp..!! I need a Mia/Ana-Budy who can help me to make me thin..
I'M 17 and I'M living in Germany...my english is not thad good..os, please help..i need somebody .
my E-Mail is :Milka111111@web.de
I LOVE THIS SONG!!!
Anna91influence 6 months ago
@Anna91influence i think i can help u
paramorefan4ever75 1 month ago
i need an ana buddy, im 13 and live in the USA, and i need help, i used to be really good at this, and i had to get better, and ever since i gained all that weight, i cant loose it. please help :(
TheGymnastgirl003 6 months ago
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@TheGymnastgirl003 im 14 usa email me i need a buddy to savagewonders@Gmail.com hang in there gurl
savagewonders 6 months ago
I love this song so much! My mom had anorexia, she had been trying to have a baby for years but kept failing. She weighed around 45kg when the doctor told her she was pregnant with me, she started eating more and more so that I would be able to survive. Now I think I'm going down that same path she was on, I'm 5'2 and 40kg.
MichelleBrown101 6 months ago
i love all u guys...any1 wanna be my ana buddy....?
favoriteGIRL7 7 months ago
@favoriteGIRL7 Me!:D
liveplurlaugh 6 months ago
@favoriteGIRL7 me
duli709 5 months ago
today: ill eat something tomorrow...
saturday: oh ill just eat something tomorrow..i promise...
sunday: okay ill eat something tomorrow i promise..
monday:im not hungry..tomorrow.
...it goes on and on....
cooolgirl121 7 months ago 4
I will eat tomorrow
xxemo96xx 7 months ago