So..okay. i just found your videos today...and i dont want to come off rude or anything like that. You think youre fat...?? Becuase i think youre beautiful, and im confused...im not even 20 years old yet, i turn 20 in about 7 days...and im about 220 pounds...i just dont get it....terribly confused by these videos..
thanks for making videos again, i love watching you, its almost scary how much i can relate. oh and i've bpd so i can imagine that you have it, too. and i think you shouldn't loose any weight. your body looks beautiful.
I can definitely relate to not being able to get a point across & feeling trapped inside your head. It's very frustrating on both sides, but it's gotten easier over time for me because I've been in therapy consistently over the last 7 years. Just keep trying is all you can really do. Maybe try some writing, too?
@SmackerYO I don't mind at all. We're all here for support. In high school I was having a really rough time & the depressing/self injury/general anxiety got pretty bad. The transition from middle to high school wasn't all that great for me, and I felt like my parents weren't helping me solve my issues. Therapy now is more so for the purpose of "checking in" because if I stop over a period of time, I start to go downhill again. He keeps me level-headed. :)
@SmackerYO And, just so it relates to the "feeling trapped" part I wrote about, that happened when I first started dating. I was teased a lot growing up so sharing my feeling weren't easy. They still aren't because a lot of the time there are no exact words to explain a person's emotions, you know? It's just an instinctive feeling based on a situation.
So..okay. i just found your videos today...and i dont want to come off rude or anything like that. You think youre fat...?? Becuase i think youre beautiful, and im confused...im not even 20 years old yet, i turn 20 in about 7 days...and im about 220 pounds...i just dont get it....terribly confused by these videos..
pyrochickscreamx 7 months ago
Question.
How tall are you?
I'm 5'9 and 146
Which is kinda normal I guess but the "small" frame for my height is 129 or something.
So that's probably my goal to get to the small frame.
pandafreak08 8 months ago
i have the same problem as you exactly girl. cant freakin make sense of my thoughts it sucks!!!
DXAmFeMassacreXD 8 months ago
thanks for making videos again, i love watching you, its almost scary how much i can relate. oh and i've bpd so i can imagine that you have it, too. and i think you shouldn't loose any weight. your body looks beautiful.
lili271 11 months ago
@lili271
thank you for the support, i appreciate it sooo much!
SmackerYO 11 months ago
@lili271
thank you for the support, i appreciate it sooo much!
SmackerYO 11 months ago
Im the same way, I have trouble expressing how im feeling and what I want to say, so instead of saying what I want I usually just get mad :(
sweetcitybaby22 11 months ago
@sweetcitybaby22
yeah. Getting mad sucks though :( bahhh
SmackerYO 11 months ago
I can definitely relate to not being able to get a point across & feeling trapped inside your head. It's very frustrating on both sides, but it's gotten easier over time for me because I've been in therapy consistently over the last 7 years. Just keep trying is all you can really do. Maybe try some writing, too?
CognitionSpeaks1 11 months ago
@CognitionSpeaks1
i enjoy writing, mostly on paper, that way i cant change it as easily.
I find i get so perfectionistic while writing though, ripping apart every word I write,
Im glad things are going better for you, what are you in therapy for if you dont mind me asking?
SmackerYO 11 months ago
@SmackerYO I don't mind at all. We're all here for support. In high school I was having a really rough time & the depressing/self injury/general anxiety got pretty bad. The transition from middle to high school wasn't all that great for me, and I felt like my parents weren't helping me solve my issues. Therapy now is more so for the purpose of "checking in" because if I stop over a period of time, I start to go downhill again. He keeps me level-headed. :)
CognitionSpeaks1 11 months ago
@SmackerYO And, just so it relates to the "feeling trapped" part I wrote about, that happened when I first started dating. I was teased a lot growing up so sharing my feeling weren't easy. They still aren't because a lot of the time there are no exact words to explain a person's emotions, you know? It's just an instinctive feeling based on a situation.
CognitionSpeaks1 11 months ago
@CognitionSpeaks1
yes i completely agree.
There is no way to make someone understand your emotions, because its all based on feelings on a certain situation!
SmackerYO 11 months ago