I need to try what you're doing. It seems like I am gaining weight but I don't even eat that much. I might need to cut out food all together and not eat at all. Just drink water. I once used to be anorexic and I should have stayed anorexic. Because I was once anorexic, I used to be skinny and pretty. I need to go back to being anorexic.
I need to try what you're doing. It seems like I am gaining weight but I don't even eat that much. I might need to cut out food all together and not eat at all. Just drink water. I once used to be anorexic and I should have stayed anorexic. Because I was once anorexic, I used to be skinny and pretty. I need to go back to being anorexic.
u r really inspirational to me and i wish i could show my other friends this!!! i luv that u r getting this out there that it isnt just not eating and thinking ur fat its a whole mind game that sucks and feels like ur in hell! i no that everyone is different but that is the general idea. i give u a lot of props though for posting this because i am still afraid to share with my friends. keep it up tho and feel free to talk to me if u need ;) even tho we dont really no each other :P
wow. lol bea its just soo amazing to see how much youve grown from fresh to soph yr. i like i swear ur almost a totally different person. it seems like youve found ur calling to help people who r goin thru the same stuff u r, and no one less amazing than u cood do that. you've matured too. lol. and u seem to hav so much more control and confidence, and ur just glowing everyday. and everyday i thnk "Damn, thats my best friend out there." <3
American Thanksgiving makes me happy I live in Canada. Except I experience the same thing in October and with the holidays here ... ugh, food. I'm glad you addressed this issue in a video, it really does help to know we're not alone.
i know exactly what you mean with the whole teacher thing. I have a teacher like that too, whose known about my ED since freshman year and helps me soo much. He has been through alot of struggles as a teen.
anyways just thought i'd let you know. lol random
i only blockd you because you were leaving rude comments to my other viewers, claiming we were good friends when ive never even really talked to you, and just plan being rude.
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u look like u just saw a ghost..ur eyes HOLY SHIT....and, why...............are............u..talking......like....this.....also, why r u venting all ur problems on the internet, go see a fuckin shrink..ughh, some fuckin people are idiots!!!
I totally know how you feel! It does feel weird eating so much food is hard to deal with. I know this time last year was pretty much hell! Its a struggle but I know you can make it! You are so strong! I'm glad your keeping yourself busy with a social life! I know I wouldn't have made it throw life without my friends
I went through the same thing like I said... so if someone told me this back when I had a problem I would get bothered. But, now that I realize they were right, I'm just saying that it's selfish to feel like wasting food that God gave to you. Besides, it's not like you'd be the only one eating a lot.
This is not to be rude, but really, to the people who have a problem, try to think more about how thankful you are...
I know this sounds ignorant, but Thanksgiving is a day where people eat the most, not diet or fast.
I mean, I know what it's like to not want to eat. I've been through it at your age (14) for 2 months.
But, it is a tad bit selfish to still be fasting and not eating during a holiday like this when you're supposed to give thanks for the food you have. Plenty of people in the world would trade lives with you to be ale to eat like you can.. but you don't really care. No offence.
okay but people with like actual eating disorders, ones that have issues that last longer than two months can't eat. it's not like they choose to have an eating disorder. i always hate when people bring up children in africa and like the homeless when it comes to anorexia and stuff. it's just more complicated than people without a problem believe it to be
i get where u r coming from though. and i didnt fast the whole day, just during breakfast and lunch so then i could eat dinner. you probably skipped lunch completly, seeing as thats what most people do on thanksgiving.
and compare ur two months, with my two years. actually, its more by now. it's close to some 750 days. thats 18,000 hours constantly worrying about food.
i love your quote "food is your drug and your medicine"...its soooo true. i'm having a lot of trouble getting myself to eat food lately;especially now being thanksgiving and all...its just so complicated. i can totaly relate with you dad problems...i have the same with both of my parents. it's so hard knowing that what feels like the biggest aspect of your life is somthing that they are totally clueless about. good luck with thanksgiving<3
I can relate to how you're feeling. This holiday is very scary for people with ED or trying to recover from one. Also, I think what you're describing by being "triggered" by the winter season is called SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder).
i know what you mean. food is a life sustaining substance. it's so hard to give it up when you depend on it. i have issues with alcohol but they are not as bad as with food. cuz i can stop booze and not feel like my body is gonna rebel and force me like it does with food. it's just so much more complicated.
hey I know how the dad thing is and its soo hard, like my dad picks on everything with my boyfriend and it sucks cause I am constantly defending him. But yeah holiday's are always gonna be hard because you are supposed to eat a lot of food and stuff but I think if you get some good people who make you happy around on Holiday's it can make the stress a lot easier and a lot happier. Good Luck! I hope your sister can make it easier for you.
no i insist, thank you bipolar beer wtf is that? cant even spell bear right i am a subscriber and a dear friend of bea so i would like for you to please do us all a favor and pull the plug on your computer right now.
I have like never been able to say I love my dad but well I know that like my dealing with this and having this makes my relationship with him worse but its not like hes that understanding and the relationship can be fixed. Thats awesome about your sister being home! I hope one day I can tell myself from my ED apart because right now it seems like one identity, maybe one day I will get lucky and have some good enough daily distractions so that Im not so crazy obsessed...
Ahhhhh tomorrow= Thanksgiving :/. I totally agree, there definitely is some sort of presence in these months, they are totally triggering. Your really lucky that you have a great social life to distract you, I know I dont really have a distracting enough of one. Your so lucky you dont have to deal with those stupid things like that I totally obsess over that stuff because well theres not enough of a distraction and so then I just obsess over the bad. That is so key... Its just a meal...
your soo right,,social life is key and that my biggest problem I dont have any friends that life near me so I send my days focused on my ED..I hate holidays I try to focus on family and the true meaning of why we have the holiday..I'm just starting to find my faith and I'm enjoying in..I too believe that things happen for a reason and God only give you what you can handle..even if I question that alot lately I'm not giving up.even if Ed has a death grip on me right now
This was an awesome vid! You offered good insight as to what goes on during the holidays when people are struggling with eating disorders. I think outside observers are usually unaware of this, and really have no way of knowing about it because they're too busy enjoying the holidays and assuming everyone else is doing the same!
another great video:) Friends r key and gratitude for what your life is at the present. People must acknowledge, unless their dead someone will always have it worse off than them.
the holidays do suck. and they say that depression in people seem to get worse during the winter. But that's awesome that your doing so well, even through the start of the holidays. i envy your strength, even though im not in recovery atm (i tired twice and relapsed) im still trying to look at tomorrow as a positive thing. I get to have some good laughs with my crazy dysfunctional family. lol. I hope you have the time to make more vids. they rock. keep up the great work. <3
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I need to try what you're doing. It seems like I am gaining weight but I don't even eat that much. I might need to cut out food all together and not eat at all. Just drink water. I once used to be anorexic and I should have stayed anorexic. Because I was once anorexic, I used to be skinny and pretty. I need to go back to being anorexic.
jeanetta77 3 months ago
I need to try what you're doing. It seems like I am gaining weight but I don't even eat that much. I might need to cut out food all together and not eat at all. Just drink water. I once used to be anorexic and I should have stayed anorexic. Because I was once anorexic, I used to be skinny and pretty. I need to go back to being anorexic.
jeanetta77 3 months ago
really great video B! it is hard and stressful but
everyone can get through it with support and
distractions, so true! a social life is key to recovery
but it's also key to life! once you get out there and
live experiences and make friends and do things
you never thought you could or would, you'll be so
much happier and healthier! and faith is also a
great way to find something you believe in and
run with it! keep going, you can do it, love you B!
bedtimebear10 1 year ago
i end up binging and then going back to 600 cal a day or less and i hate my self when i bing but i do it good luck :)
fatemoana 2 years ago
u r really inspirational to me and i wish i could show my other friends this!!! i luv that u r getting this out there that it isnt just not eating and thinking ur fat its a whole mind game that sucks and feels like ur in hell! i no that everyone is different but that is the general idea. i give u a lot of props though for posting this because i am still afraid to share with my friends. keep it up tho and feel free to talk to me if u need ;) even tho we dont really no each other :P
sportchick923 3 years ago
your GETTING SO MUCH BETTER! omg
keep it up :)
739123 3 years ago
wow. lol bea its just soo amazing to see how much youve grown from fresh to soph yr. i like i swear ur almost a totally different person. it seems like youve found ur calling to help people who r goin thru the same stuff u r, and no one less amazing than u cood do that. you've matured too. lol. and u seem to hav so much more control and confidence, and ur just glowing everyday. and everyday i thnk "Damn, thats my best friend out there." <3
juliannequaas 3 years ago
just because you hate your dad doesn't mean you have a dysfunctional family....that's like a typical teenage thing...
mousiehousie13 3 years ago
You are so gorgeous.
mrstrings2006 3 years ago 3
American Thanksgiving makes me happy I live in Canada. Except I experience the same thing in October and with the holidays here ... ugh, food. I'm glad you addressed this issue in a video, it really does help to know we're not alone.
Stetthat 3 years ago
i know exactly what you mean with the whole teacher thing. I have a teacher like that too, whose known about my ED since freshman year and helps me soo much. He has been through alot of struggles as a teen.
anyways just thought i'd let you know. lol random
missrollergirl 3 years ago
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hello, why did you block me? now i cant subscribe to your videos, they help me a lot. My other name was houstonrockets616.
TheRatsix1six 3 years ago
i only blockd you because you were leaving rude comments to my other viewers, claiming we were good friends when ive never even really talked to you, and just plan being rude.
OSnapski 3 years ago
I'm glad to see an update, and glad to see you're doing pretty well.
keep fighting this disease
xo
ScarlettBlaze 3 years ago
thats exactly what i feel like <3
im glad youve realized that. stay strong
OSnapski 3 years ago
Thinking of you. Keep fighting x
lilkel86 3 years ago
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u look like u just saw a ghost..ur eyes HOLY SHIT....and, why...............are............u..talking......like....this.....also, why r u venting all ur problems on the internet, go see a fuckin shrink..ughh, some fuckin people are idiots!!!
wingywag 3 years ago
Why are you watching? If you actually watched, you'd know she does go to therapy. Perhaps you should give it a try.
bipolarbeer1 3 years ago
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ur ugly
wingywag 3 years ago
i have a problem you fuck face a lot more serious than not eating. and hell no im not a rocket scientist its a basketball team u dumbasses
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
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here this might help... STICK FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH AND EAT IT... FUCK WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS ABOUT YOU. Try dealing with a real disease.
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
I totally know how you feel! It does feel weird eating so much food is hard to deal with. I know this time last year was pretty much hell! Its a struggle but I know you can make it! You are so strong! I'm glad your keeping yourself busy with a social life! I know I wouldn't have made it throw life without my friends
Soccerwin785 3 years ago
this wasn't directed to you by the way. And sorry if I sounded like a jerk
I actually thought was you said was inspiring. Happy holidays :)
xoxAngelFirexox 3 years ago
thanks and you too <3
OSnapski 3 years ago
I know, that comment sounds ignorant
I went through the same thing like I said... so if someone told me this back when I had a problem I would get bothered. But, now that I realize they were right, I'm just saying that it's selfish to feel like wasting food that God gave to you. Besides, it's not like you'd be the only one eating a lot.
This is not to be rude, but really, to the people who have a problem, try to think more about how thankful you are...
xoxAngelFirexox 3 years ago
I know this sounds ignorant, but Thanksgiving is a day where people eat the most, not diet or fast.
I mean, I know what it's like to not want to eat. I've been through it at your age (14) for 2 months.
But, it is a tad bit selfish to still be fasting and not eating during a holiday like this when you're supposed to give thanks for the food you have. Plenty of people in the world would trade lives with you to be ale to eat like you can.. but you don't really care. No offence.
xoxAngelFirexox 3 years ago
okay but people with like actual eating disorders, ones that have issues that last longer than two months can't eat. it's not like they choose to have an eating disorder. i always hate when people bring up children in africa and like the homeless when it comes to anorexia and stuff. it's just more complicated than people without a problem believe it to be
heytracey 3 years ago
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i have a problem you fuck face a lot more serious than not eating. and hell no im not a rocket scientist its a basketball team u dumbasses
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
heytracey is right,
i get where u r coming from though. and i didnt fast the whole day, just during breakfast and lunch so then i could eat dinner. you probably skipped lunch completly, seeing as thats what most people do on thanksgiving.
and compare ur two months, with my two years. actually, its more by now. it's close to some 750 days. thats 18,000 hours constantly worrying about food.
OSnapski 3 years ago
i love your quote "food is your drug and your medicine"...its soooo true. i'm having a lot of trouble getting myself to eat food lately;especially now being thanksgiving and all...its just so complicated. i can totaly relate with you dad problems...i have the same with both of my parents. it's so hard knowing that what feels like the biggest aspect of your life is somthing that they are totally clueless about. good luck with thanksgiving<3
dancerlaur 3 years ago
I can relate to how you're feeling. This holiday is very scary for people with ED or trying to recover from one. Also, I think what you're describing by being "triggered" by the winter season is called SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder).
Ophelia9184 3 years ago
yah something like that.
i know its a real depression though.
OSnapski 3 years ago
i know what you mean. food is a life sustaining substance. it's so hard to give it up when you depend on it. i have issues with alcohol but they are not as bad as with food. cuz i can stop booze and not feel like my body is gonna rebel and force me like it does with food. it's just so much more complicated.
SilverPoppy 3 years ago
hey I know how the dad thing is and its soo hard, like my dad picks on everything with my boyfriend and it sucks cause I am constantly defending him. But yeah holiday's are always gonna be hard because you are supposed to eat a lot of food and stuff but I think if you get some good people who make you happy around on Holiday's it can make the stress a lot easier and a lot happier. Good Luck! I hope your sister can make it easier for you.
gundokitty4 3 years ago
We all know what that means......HELL.
hahahahah. love it.
MissRobynRenee 3 years ago
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why dont you guys just eat?
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
why don't you just use your intelligence?
nikki1527 3 years ago 2
good point. i don't know why i didn't think of that. i'm gonna go make a sandwich and cancel my therapy appointment.
jenneyefer86 3 years ago 3
LOL Jenneyfer86! Obviously houstonrockets616 is not a rocket scientist!
bipolarbeer1 3 years ago
hell no im not a rocket scientist its a basketball team u dumbass
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
Thanks for proving my point...again. It's an expression you moron. Now, go off and deal with your problem and leave this girl and her channel alone.
bipolarbeer1 3 years ago
no i insist, thank you bipolar beer wtf is that? cant even spell bear right i am a subscriber and a dear friend of bea so i would like for you to please do us all a favor and pull the plug on your computer right now.
houstonrockets616 3 years ago
actually....
i dont know you.
OSnapski 3 years ago
you sound really good today, you sound like you're more whole and that you're healing instead of just dealing, I'm really happy for you
bugsbunny517 3 years ago
thanks bea i have no clue where i'd be without you girl <3 text me tomorrow ahh!
graystreet19 3 years ago
Congrats on your videos! Your so right about alcoholics, I feel like they have it easy because well its not necessary to live on alcohol.
Lots of love <33, Laura
AMFlover 3 years ago
I have like never been able to say I love my dad but well I know that like my dealing with this and having this makes my relationship with him worse but its not like hes that understanding and the relationship can be fixed. Thats awesome about your sister being home! I hope one day I can tell myself from my ED apart because right now it seems like one identity, maybe one day I will get lucky and have some good enough daily distractions so that Im not so crazy obsessed...
AMFlover 3 years ago
Ahhhhh tomorrow= Thanksgiving :/. I totally agree, there definitely is some sort of presence in these months, they are totally triggering. Your really lucky that you have a great social life to distract you, I know I dont really have a distracting enough of one. Your so lucky you dont have to deal with those stupid things like that I totally obsess over that stuff because well theres not enough of a distraction and so then I just obsess over the bad. That is so key... Its just a meal...
AMFlover 3 years ago
your soo right,,social life is key and that my biggest problem I dont have any friends that life near me so I send my days focused on my ED..I hate holidays I try to focus on family and the true meaning of why we have the holiday..I'm just starting to find my faith and I'm enjoying in..I too believe that things happen for a reason and God only give you what you can handle..even if I question that alot lately I'm not giving up.even if Ed has a death grip on me right now
hope164 3 years ago
This was an awesome vid! You offered good insight as to what goes on during the holidays when people are struggling with eating disorders. I think outside observers are usually unaware of this, and really have no way of knowing about it because they're too busy enjoying the holidays and assuming everyone else is doing the same!
oyabun112 3 years ago
another great video:) Friends r key and gratitude for what your life is at the present. People must acknowledge, unless their dead someone will always have it worse off than them.
*hugs
lolagirl1111 3 years ago
the holidays do suck. and they say that depression in people seem to get worse during the winter. But that's awesome that your doing so well, even through the start of the holidays. i envy your strength, even though im not in recovery atm (i tired twice and relapsed) im still trying to look at tomorrow as a positive thing. I get to have some good laughs with my crazy dysfunctional family. lol. I hope you have the time to make more vids. they rock. keep up the great work. <3
miasprisoner 3 years ago 2
btw i like you gloves. lol.
miasprisoner 3 years ago