Parts of Me You Do Not See

[andreaburnett]

I applaud you for opening this side that stays hidden in shadow. Your bravery to bare this side that we all have pieces of, but like snowflakes are each original in their make up, is touching. Our personal journeys, with our lonely paths, are made that much sweeter when the paths cross with a kindred spirit, or simply with one who may not fully understand but will listen. Sometimes we are blessed to cross with those who may hear without words ever being exchanged. Much love to you my sister

[andreaburnett]

I found it difficult to see one who I've grown to love -expressing hurt and pain as I feel helpless, wanting to reach through the screen to comfort and hold, to reassure and say you're not alone. Painful to hear, because of my own painful demons from the past that haunt me, rising up from the dead, to wake me from sleep, looming over me through the day. I believe this is my favorite piece to date, you are truly gifted Love. I'm anxiously waiting for your work to be available to purchase

[atree3]

thanks for your reply, it made me watch this again

still moving

[ufo8mykat]

Of all the LIFE you have taught me, this is the most touching. Sadness is such a deeply personal experience, undoubtedly one of the hardest to share. Thank you for this. Sincerely.

Love,

Sama

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you Sama. Your insight about sadness being so highly personal is spot-on. Even empathy, it seems, is measured more by the ability to feel another's pain than another's happiness. To be honest I have felt uncertain about this piece - it is hard for me to look at - but I know too, as witnessed by your words, that it needs to exist with all the other moments I have tried to share. So I will let it stay.

I hope you are well. I got your email and mean to reply....much love, Sarah

[DrawArtBoy]

That was beautiful.

Thank you for that.

:)

[unmeasuredinstances]

You are most welcomed.

[The0to0]

When you said,"A Darkness that came early in my life" i felt it right inside my heart.I have such memories myself that cling to me like a cloudy day and sometimes i can't understand why i was born into a world with so much pain.Indeed,life has been such to me that as i think about the fate of all mankind,it appears to me as nothing more than a release, but meeting a fellow traveller like yourself has been a real blessing to me and because of people like yourself i will always continue on.

[unmeasuredinstances]

My sweet commenter whose channel has closed....I send my words of deep appreciation out into the world with the small hope that somehow they will catch your eye.

[atree3]

I am glad that you are not speechless as I am right now . . .

[unmeasuredinstances]

I fall silent often enough - speechless moments stretching into months. At least it feels like that these days. But in itself those are not bad things, I think, and what lies beyond words still far outshines whatever I could ever manage to pawn into prose.

[nasiri78]

powerful. you manipulate simple words into tiny moments of inspiration. this makes me want to grab a pen and paper and start writing again. thanks for sharing.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks! I can't think of a better or more meaningful response then having someone wanting to write again. I find there is something about being attentive to the particulars of any medium - be it video, words, or paint - which deepens those shades of reverberation and metaphor that ultimately give form to our lives.

So.....go on, get writing!!

[itsBABYSMITH]

this took a lot of courage to share.....i'm glad you're finding a creative vehicle to move through this.

beautiful work.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you. I deeply appreciate that - truly.

[dlogfotraeha]

We are like icebergs, 90% hidden, pain and suffering we hold close, tears shed in private. Few of us could be so brave, open and honest as to show what goes on behind our public masks and the darkness we sometimes live through. So glad that you can see the light ahead.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you for the thoughts. As for seeing the light ahead, even in my darker moments I never cease loving this miracle of life.

[GoldRainGirl]

*offers belated hugs*

Beautiful video as always, it's good to see you again, and I hope this finds you well.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Good to 'see' you as well. Thank you for the hug...and for your thoughts.

[GenieP]

Dearest Sarah, we have missed you so. Welcome back! You are a deep and artistic soul. I write poetry, but it is still not time for me to write down my feelings. Yet, I have to admit that I have no angst to express. I am a terribly grateful soul for the life restoring opportunity to transition. I cannot imagine what it must have been like in the days before the possibility of TS transitions. I believe we are the blessed children. BTW, luv Cat Stevens!! Mmmmwah!

[unmeasuredinstances]

A late reply but nonetheless wanted to say thanks for your sweet thoughts as always....and so glad you love Cat Stevens.

[KJohn009]

You may not always realize it Sarah,( for you keep your ego within it's border) but you inspire many many people. I have become a better person through contact with you and that is an actual fact,i kid you not, as i always smile when i think about your Gracious and Loving Heart.

[unmeasuredinstances]

The inspiration goes both ways. You are more remarkable then you might think.

♡Sarah

[Eopyk]

Wonderfull poetic metaphor great to see you back.

All love from me Jasmine

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you Jasmine....and great to see all the new developments on your channel as well. Much love - Sarah

[Eopyk]

Yes Sarah my channel is very random with many diffrent topics but yeah it has devolopt alot :) I think you would like some of my poetry :) Anyway as I said it is amazing to see you again :)

All love from me Jasmine

[unmeasuredinstances]

Morgan, am so glad to see your note. You will always bring a smile to me, regardless of anything else. You and Erin are such joys. And yes, that joy seems stronger for the sadness that precedes it.

I miss you too - we all do up here. So yes, find that weekend and come!!

Did the video turn out ok? I need to also send what I have from my video camera, which captured most of it, but as the secondary one, held slightly off to the side, a few heads were chopped off every now and then. Oops! ♡S

[commonteri]

Thanks for coming back and sharing your thoughts Sarah. I've missed you. I wish there was some way I could take away some of life's pain for you. Wish I could do that for myself too.

Sometimes it comes down to what we focus on. Maybe that is why we cry so when the focus is on the bad things it blurs our vision of the bad things, so we can wipe the tears away and refocus on something better.

Big hugs my friend.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Sweet Teri - Oddly, I guess, just about the time I feared you would leave I decided to disappear myself. So it is good to have you still here. And how are things with your house? I hope you are well.

As for taking away the sadnesses, I am always reminded of a quote by Rilke, who suffered greatly from depression, that he feared if he lost his demons his angels would flee as well. Not sure if that is true, but I understand where it comes from.

[justplainerica]

It's good to see you back, it surely is!  Bright Blessings to you! Erica :)

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Erica....its good to be so warmly welcomed. That is one aspect of being 'here' that I always loved - the warmth.

[grishno]

What to say here? I'm at a complete loss for words, which isn't that common when watching your videos.

I am very glad to see you making a video, it's something I've missed. And I wish I could give you a great big hug right now.

~E

[unmeasuredinstances]

Ah Erin, no words are needed.....and, as you would know, from your own work, making a piece about something doesn't mean you are feeling that way at that moment. In fact, not sure if I could have made this while feeling those things. Art needs that distance to draw near. These battles are old ones, but all the same not easily shared....and I'm glad I could let that barrier go. It allows closeness and a sharper sense of our common humanity.

So glad to have you amongst my friends. ♡S

[GMPNY]

Are you really back? I said "Somebody pinch me" Rickie pinched me and I was just saying that for effect, that pinch hurt! Not as much as not hearing from you though! Welcome back with open arms. Your words say so very much, your voice, so good to hear once again. Many hugggssss From Gail ♥

[unmeasuredinstances]

Well I AM here.....so yes....and thank you for such sweet welcomings. Don't expect a flood of activity right off the bat but I will do my best to stay visible. Many hugs in return.

[unmeasuredinstances]

hugs back

[Douxistorlive]

You always touch my heart with your honesty, dignity, and honor.

Like the crocuses, may all of our ascents toward the sky be a journey of living, an experience of feeling, and full of learning.

Peace to you, dear one.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you for your sweet words and blessings....and may we always, always choose to live over merely existing. As clearly you know ; )

[RanmaruX]

It's another Naked video! Thankyou for sharing this concentrated dose of truth, you're beautiful all the way through ;)

[unmeasuredinstances]

Your happiness in those first few words is so infectious - how can I NOT smile. So good to see you again.

[Idlinfarm]

I'm glad you are back. You give me courage.

[unmeasuredinstances]

And I'm glad you are still here....but I fear that I don't really believe I could give you courage. Perhaps, at best, remind you of what was always already there within you. And if so, then I am glad to give that remembrance. Fellow traveler, its good to share a part of our paths together.

[kimberleyeden]

Hi Sarah. very powerful.

Hugs, Kim xx

[unmeasuredinstances]

Hugs as well Kim. thanks.

[Kinga1Kosinska]

You are a warrior.With your love and with our love for you this path will lead you to peace and comfort.I was thinking about you a lot.Just know you have safe place in this Polish heart.I believe in YOU and i love this video.

[unmeasuredinstances]

My sweet Kinga - having a safe harbor to go to within your heart, to feel the fullness of your belief in me, what more can anyone ask of a friend. Thank you.

[meldenphire]

This was haunting in a way that only brutal honesty & raw emotion can achieve.  Yes, art is therapy & art heals because it is pure expression that takes internal turmoil & renders it as an external manifestation more easily examined.

My gosh, your videos make me think...

It is wonderful to see you returned. I was not on YT when last you posted, but have seen your back videos.

Hugs, Christina

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Christina...I like that you see art in a similar way to myself: as offering dialog with what lies innermost within us. So many new names appearing here - for me - so good to meet you.

[NaomiClareNL]

Old enemies never seem to die, just slowly fade away, don't they?

Love and hugs.

Naomi

PS welcome back!

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Naomi - its good to be back. Or at least to be visible. Hugs and love as well..

[torigirl35]

loving with an agape love and appreciation....many ((hugs))

*tori*

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you Tori - you give so much love to so many. Many hugs in return.

[roseblossoms00]

aww i missed ur videos this was beautiful

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks sweetheart.

[artsyfart66]

Your video was powerful & moving and brought me to chills. We all have parts of us we carry deep down inside that not many people see and that rarely is allowed to show itself. Thank you for being courageous & willing enough to post this video as an expression of yet, another part of you. I love all of you!

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Potter...it means a lot to me. Truly. And my apologies for my silence for so long. I hope you are well.

[artsyfart66]

I love you! Be well, my friend....no apologies necessary!

I just Am, but this too is OK....All we can do is be here now...wherever that may be at each moment : )

[777Marlene]

this goes so far beyond you yourself , Sarah....you're speaking for all of us in many ways.......you've been so strong this far, a moment of dropping the load is due you hon, there is always one more moment to pick it up again and carry until the last and then its not a load to carry any longer

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Marlene....I don't know about speaking for anyone else, but I am happy to add my voice to yours and so many others. There is strength there which carries me.

[wagechi29]

glad to see you, n thanks for sharing.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Good to be back amidst so much warmth. Thanks.

[maza4957]

I read, once, that creativity is one of the most powerful, healthy, and mature responses to human suffering. I'm very, very touched and glad that you made this video.

[unmeasuredinstances]

So many new faces and names (to me at least) appearing since I left, and yours among them. Thank you for your comment - I am glad in return that you visited.

[DeweyTeeVee]

We adore what we know of you. Dewey and Douglas from Orlando watch, wait and support you in whatever you are dealing with.

LOVE HUGS LOVE and more HUGS to you. :)

[unmeasuredinstances]

Hugs in return. I appreciate it.

[PaulJammernegg]

i remember every single frame... and every single facial expression of yours when we met, or when i was just watching. you are so loved from this side of the screen.

[unmeasuredinstances]

The screen, like the thinnest gold sheet, pounded until even light can slip past its gossamer skin...and if light can pass, then certainly love has long found the same path through. Thank you sweet friend.

[TigerKerouac]

Hey I've been thinking about you lately! Your absence has left me missing your heart, insight, and powerful artistry. Soo... I'm glad you shared this mystery. It's beautiful and familiar.

.. I should probably know this but I don't: have you published your poetry and/or performaces in some place other than YouTube vlogs?

I hope your honeymoon rages on, ebulliently :-)

[TigerKerouac]

Hey I've been thinking about you lately! Your absence has left me missing your heart, insight, and powerful artistry. Soo... I'm glad you shared this mystery. It's beautiful and familiar.

.. I should probably know this but I don't: have you published your poetry and/or performaces in some place other than YouTube vlogs?

I hope your honeymoon rages on, ebulliently :-)

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks Tiger. Honeymoon still sweetly hums just under the daily trills and bass notes.

As for being published....no. Just lots of journals. And actually I'm much more of a painter than anything else - although writing would come a close second.

I am so glad it connects with you. .. that you find the beauty in it.

[bethanyann26tg]

yay sarah!!

i have been wondering if you were ok, this vlog was beautifully done and carried with it such wonderfull words through out.

i hope this has helped you heal some problems you have been dealing with and that we see on here again soon sweety.

some of the freeze frames caught my eye as some would look good as large stills or even pop art, i know it would interest me to try to paint one.

welcome back to the tube girl!!....

hugZ!!!

~bethany

[unmeasuredinstances]

Ah, Bethany, your words positively set the bare walls of this textbox aglow. Thanks luv.

[Mirabella98102]

you have been missed. my warm and positive thoughts go to you.

[unmeasuredinstances]

So sweet - thank you!

[blackflower75]

Wow Sarah , I just don't know what to say ..... Except to call you the mirror woman .....Different yet so similar ...... Im so glad your back with such a personal vlog ....Its been too long

:)

All the love x

[unmeasuredinstances]

Ah, sweet black.....what can I say in return that wouldn't add to the mirroring? Yes, too long.

[StrawberryScone]

I wish you the best, this video is very eloquently done.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thank you. I appreciate it.

[Fightdog]

I've missed you. Sending positive thoughts to you.

[unmeasuredinstances]

Thanks....your thoughts received. And wow, sent overnight express no less! : )