Oh, I'm really glad I watched your video. (: I had little things with being OCD when I was 7-10, somewhere around there. Then being compelled to do things went a way for a while, but this past summer it was terrible. I am so glad to have seen your video, because one day it popped into my head that what if I was lesbian/bisexual? It bothered me and I would have to do things over and over if I was thinking about that while I did them. It felt like I was going insane.
I have HOCD worst than most. It all started back in July when I was watching this new show based on a true story called Happily Divorced which is about this woman who has been married To this man for years and then he wakes up in the middle of the night and tells her that he is gay. Ever since watching that show I have had no crushes or feelings towards girls (I'm 16 years old and have been both sexually and emotionally attracted to girls and women my entire life starting at 4) and have been co
15 years old turning 16. Been heterosexual my whole life and then I got hit with HOCD. Its horrible but you know what I heard. People who have HOCD were the ones who loved girls the most and valued romantic relationships- I am a guy. I want to tell everyone if you were REALLY gay you would know at (10-12 and maybe 13). I began puberty at 12 so yeah. Stay strong everyone. You are not gay trust me. Even if you dont trust me your still not gay.
I have done a bit of research on OCD and I believe I have it. The only thing that happens to me is that I think if I don't do something (something as simple as listening to a song), someone in my family will die. Usually its if I don't touch a certain item in a certain spot a certain amount of times. I turned twelve a couple months ago and this isn't something new. I would like to seek help but I do not want to worry my parents. The impulse does not happen that often. Can anyone help me?
and "Trolls" are made up of people who were born jerks and so NOBODY wanted to hang out with them or be friendly with them. Naturally, they spent their life on the internet, going after people who were different in an attempt to tear them down.
@IThinkRetarded us humans weren't meant to be like this man... i mean ive never felt transgendered but ive had hocd forever... or do i just think its hocd and thats really who i am? lol the gray area....what it really boils down to man is that humans are too smart for their own good... we are always searching for "what could go wrong?" or "is there a worse situation that i could derive from this?" . hopefully you will take my interpretation correctly. we just think of the worst that can happen
I had OCD when i was 13-16. Then it suddenly stopped for nearly two years... and then it appeared againg. It wasn't so severe as it had been for the first time, but it still makes me feel mad.
thanks wonderful info trying to convince our son he was diagnosed about 3 years ago he is now 13 years of age trying to convince that it is he who has to control the OCD with the help of meds and therapy
i have the worst ocd, i lost my closest friends over it, i lost the connection i had wit my fam, i lost my reputation, i lost my personallity, i lost my enjoyment and motivation to do the things i used todo.. i hate it , i feel so alone, i need help. i need sum1 to speak to about this..
@IgetDOWN916 I think you're in for a pleasant surprise. You haven't lost your personality. In fact when you come out on the other end of the tunnel, you will see that you have just gotten stronger as a result of ocd. I honestly believe this. I'm assuming you were spiking when you were typing this comment though.
It's crazy, I remember what it was like to be constantly obsessing over useless shit, and now it just seems so far away. Go see a psychiatrist. Seriously. It works.
@IgetDOWN916 I have ocd also. I've had it since I think I was about 6 or 7. I'm now 39. I'm also an alcoholic. I'll have 4 years sobriety in March. Being sober certainly has helped me with ocd. I take cymbalta and chlozapine which helps. My main symptoms are repetitive thoughts. I know the frustration ur talking about. I think the biggest thing that has helped me though is excercise. It clears the mind. Sunlight also helps. I'd be happy to talk to you more. I still struggle with ocd.
Props to everyone who has commented on this video. HOCD is a horrible thing. It's like a hypnotist, and can make you believe what it wants. For anyone struggling, I found CBT a life saver: it confronts you with your fear, and you retrain your brain to respond to these invasive thoughts. I've been going for a month now, and tomorrow is my 5th session. It is a life saver, and the effects are huge! I still spike from time to time, but I can feel it losing it's power. Don't suffer silently.
thanks! I stay awake all night thinking horrible, disgusting, perverted things and I now know its OCD. I thanks you for your advice, but I still have severe problems with my thoughts, so I need to work on that.
Just one question, when you told your parents did they think you were disgusting, or a freak. I haven't told anybody for fear of that and I don't wanna go on meds (no offence to anybody who is, I just dont like pills).
@CoolBeagle If anything it was a relief for my parents. They didn't think that at all. They knew something was wrong since I wasn't being myself when OCD kicked in.
Maybe your thoughts are disgusting. I can assure you I have some really disgusting thoughts too. But I find a lot of them kind of funny, since their meaningless. Doesn't mean I'm disgusting. Hobos are disgusting, but I'm not.
Im suffering from the exact same thing man.....bin 6 months for me.....and im also on anti-depressants.....suppose to be having counciling for my OCD......but atleast we know it can be beaten :)
I think I have OCD though it's not confirmed by a professional. My intrusive thoughts started when I was in grade 4. I remember having thoughts of killing my mom with a knife, though I loved her the most. It became so hard to cope that one time, I was standing in my room holding my head and pulling my hair. But i got over it. Ever since, I had minor thoughts, like being afraid of heights because I was afraid i might be pushed or jump over. Today, I just had a bad thought. It's sorta random, but
yeah the same thing happend to me i was watchint tv one day and a thought poped in to my hea what if i am gay and i talked to my parents and it ended in 1 day and a half year later it popped again and this time it was worse i couldnt get rid of it im 13 now and i feel like my interest for women is dissapearing and i am disqusted by any thought about having sex with the same sex but my mind tells me like im not but i now i am could you please respond sorry for my english and is this hocd?
I have been trying all kinds of methods lately but not a lot of success with it but it's good that you are saying to "keep trying" and "try doing exposures to help your OCD"
I don't have a fear of germs, I don't know why, but I'm not, but I will straighten things, until they feel 'right' and once I start straightening something I can't stop, it drives me mad!
im kind of confused by this. if u are gay u are sexually attracted to men and that in itself is how u know u are gay. a straight person wouldnt wonder if they were gay unless they had a sexual attraction to men and that attraction would mean that they are in fact gay. also, a gay male usually knows he is gay or at least different than straight at a very young age and absolutely by the time he reaches puberty. it wouldnt simply pop into his head one day while taking a walk.
@exhifreq i dont think he ever said that being gay is a bad thing. my question though is, has he ever been attracted to men prior to the period he talks about at 18 or did that thought simply appear in his mind? i have never heard of anyone equating being gay with ocd.
i have the same obsessive fear but of becoming lesbian, which i guess makes no sense because i think youre really cute! you just helped me alot. thank you.
i hate how people don't understand how deep anxiety and ocd is... it makes it hard for the person with ocd. like if you have ocd about hurting people or whatever, they say things like 'no normal person thinks like that, ocd is just an excuse for your thoughts' and it makes the person with ocd even worse.
ahh ive had this problem for a few months i start believing its real when i no its not :S i like girls all ways have
and when im college i start thinking ohh no i dont like that boy when i no i don't :S i might be going on medication through my counceller one time i thought i had cancer and start believing that
@04johnsonc so what ur saying is you have intrusive thoughts?
I have that symptom also. heres one of the things i've tried, and i really think you should try it. whenever you get an intrusive thought, instead of beating yourself up over it, don't think of it as "intrusive" just let the thought pass by. its just like any other thought. after you let it pass by, you'll feel much more in control. be passive about it.
hey there thanks for making this vid! I was too chicken to do so, then people like you who posted videos made me take the plunge! and so I am posting about ocd now thanks!!!!
thank you for making this video, i can totally relate to the intrusive thoughts of hurting your loved ones, i am very happy that i am not the only one having them, it already makes me feel better, again than you!
hey man. both your videos helped a lot. I got hit with hocd and freaked out constantly about it. plus I've always been a highly anxious person and obsessed over fears that now that I think about it, could not happen. I'm seeing a therapist monday and hope to hear good things. But these vids have helped raised my spirits up a bit. Thanks for posting
I big part of my recovery was when I just decided to not give a shit about it. I decided that I don't care whether I get better or not, I don't care whether my obsessions are true or not, I'm just gonna live my life.
Great advice man i appreciate it. Got one question though, when you had your Hocd did you start "feeling" gay?? Like i would fight the thought even though i knew i wasnt. I felt as though i was "turning gay" My Hocd started telling me that even though i wasnt. Ive always been attracted to women. And I question myself just like you " what if im gay"? Or what if i turn gay in a couple of years??
yes exactly. Let me just mention that i have been struggling with it for about 3 months now and can say from everybody i've talked to that ACCEPTANCE IS KEY...Most people get so fed up with this disorder that they no longer care, and are willing to accept the risk that their fears may be real. I am currently working on this and trying not to ruminate. Nice video though man, i can say that i respect you a lot for making this and raising awareness.
Last night I couldn't take it anymore . I broke down and cried . Haven't felt so horrible all my life like I am suffering . Hopefully I learn how to deal with this im exhausted and feel depressed
Makes me feel bad . And depressed . But hopefully when I think about that thought that has been bothering me(this person I dislike) I won't feel so bad I need to change the way I think i guess....thanks for making this video it actually made me feel better . & ur really cute ^_^
Hocd got the best of me this holiday . fuckin sucks . mines started 2 years ago but never payed to much attention to it. but really started to get to my head because i didnt know wat was happenin to me .then searched my problems and found out about Hocd .i feel a little better cause i know thats not me. ive been straight all my life and always love female but still fear of being homo
I have the same problem it started like 4 days ago and thats all i could think about its hell i keep telling myself im not gay i have been straight my whole life im not sexually aroused my men and prefer girls does anybody have advice other than medication and therapy Please help!!!
Hey mate don't worry urself 2 much about it I have had a few bouts with hocd it never lasts as it is not ur true self. I really can relate to ur pain it's a horrible thing. I have noticed mine always pops up when I have major stresses in my life so I use it as a kind of stress meter. It's such a strange thing when u snap out of it it's hard to believe u were ever worried because ur thoughts revert back 2 ur true self so just allow urself to feel this and think of it as a mental vomit!
this is the first time I've said out loud (be it only over a post) over this type of OCD... I have even been too scared to admit it even on the internet under a false name... It will take a lot more guts to actually say it to my psychologist but now I feel like I might be able to... MAYBE thanks for your video!
Thanks for posting this You have great courage I have OCD and I hate it No one close to me knows that I have it I will have to talk to someone now Thank you
HOCD is the worst you nobdy ever beileves and the always say your bi queer ius or bi sexual and that just make your OCD worst. You feel like your in the closet you kow your not and you cant stop thing of things to make you think your gay.
i dont know whether its an OCD but i cant look at anyones wrsit's. i have to cover my wrist's if anyone is touching their wrist it nearly makes me sick.
is that ocd? or is it just that wrist's freak me out?
I have intrusive thoughts and I've done exposure therapy with a knife. It was terrible and exhausting because any time I touch a knife or any sort I have images of killing myself or others around me. But I'm struggling with OCD every day. Just looking at some random person on the street or at...any where I have terrible horrible thoughts of me doing some thing terrible, like raping or killing or shouting for no good reason. I getting help and taking at least 100 mg of Zolath and it helps a lot.
i had ocd for just 2 months and im proud to say that ive beaten this monster inside my head. what helped me beat ocd was getting help from my parents and my girlfriend.. if u have ocd and have great parents like mine, pls tell them. it will help you alot. and when ocd pops up, just think, " oh, its the ocd again, ok whaterver" then enjoy being yourself! just be yourself. goodluck yall.
actually, i wanna take that back, i still have ocd but it doesnt bother me as much now. i just ignore the ocd. i assure you that if you have understanding parents, tell them your situation. it will help you a lot. and i mean ALOT.
your right i used to do vlogs on my camcorder then just delete them because i didnt want anyone to know (obviolsly im more comfortable with it) anyway it helped me SO MUCH
good shit man youve got balls for actually putting this shit up i know i wouldn't want the world inside my head pot helps me immensely ever since the first day ive smoked i haven't looked back and it really stops bothering you and you live with it
It's possible yeah, but why would you struggle with it if there was an easier way? If you were diabetic you'd want to get medication for that, right? This is the same thing in my opinion. It's a simple matter of taking a pill every night before going to bed.
you should see a doctor, and get help. i've had pure ocd since 8 months ago, and when the symptoms first popped up I was terrified. For the first 3 months the thoughts weren't as bad, but later on they were much worse. I started having agressive, violent, abusive, and harmful obsessions. im only on 20mg prozac and i haven't gotten better. my advice to you would be to visit a doctor before things get much worse.
Pity, I still noticed some dumb fuckwits who think this condition is not real... This shit sucks, I know that all too well, but it's beatable, just like everything else.
Yeah the retards on yahoo answers saying HOCD isn't real I mean they need to shut their mouths because if they don't it makes others condition worse when they spike.
I have both HOCD and POCD. Fukkin hell dude. I went thru therapy and meds. Still tryna kick this shit to the curb after all these years. Im nearing 21 soon
I have it too. One thing different is that when I first thought I was gay, I was smokin weed and kinda high. And it made me think my thoughts were real and actually made sense to me. So the weed made it worse. I'm 18 now, and it started at 15. Messed up thing is that just a month ago I figured it out. 3 years of the worst suffering I could imagine.
thanks..i suffer from ocd as well..but thanks for the video..you show us that just cause you have ocd doesnt mean you can't be happy...like the saying goes '' I have OCD..but OCD doesn't have me'':)..o & ur cute:)
In the highly unlikely situation that that happens, it will be someone who's not one of my close friends, and I could care less what people think, really.
Where are you drawing your conclusion from that people will make fun of you? Have you tried telling people? Not saying you should, but you're most likely just making an assumption. And even if you're speaking from experience, what does it matter what people think? I don't. It's just words. In fact, having an ability to have people's insults just bounce off you makes you come across as a strong individual. Think about that.
hey man thanks for posting this. I too have had this horrible horrible condition for a little over a year and i'm almost 21. I have not sought help from outside sources just been doing research to fix it by myself. I really want to get rid of these intrusive thoughts without the use of medication all the success stories seem to include medication.
I was skeptical to use meds first as well, but if you had diabetes you would get the proper medication for that, so why should this be any different? Life's not supposed to be this way. I recommend talking to a psychiatrist, doing CBT, getting meds, and ENJOYING YOUR LIFE!
I have struggled with OCD since childhood. I wasn't diagnosed until I was36 years old. I am now 47. For a young man, you sure are wise and encouraging. Thanks for your honesty. It will help alot of people to know that we are not alone and the thoughts aren't as scary anymore. Thanks and God bless you.
Hey man, thanks for posting this. I realize this affliction is relevant for a minority of the population, but for those of us who do suffer from some form of sexual anxiety it always helps to know we're not in this alone.
Just stop. If you feel the urge to check something tell yourself don't, remind yourself of the evidence that there's a very high chance that you don't need to check something over. Then don't check. It's that simple. You'll feel anxious, but it will only be temporarily. And then you feel great afterwards for not checking.
Okay, thanks. I'll try it. It's really,really nice of you to be helping people with ocd! It helps a lot to hear about your story and I'm sure it's helping other people too. Kudos!
Thnx for posting! I've never really knew of any good ways to deal with it. I used to have bad ocd, but now most of mine has gotten better. Although, I sometimes still have those uncontrolled thoughts, kind of like what you said about your mother. And I still check things sometimes. I used to feel bad when I had awful thoughts! I used to think I was a bad person for it, then I found out it was ocd. I still feel bad sometimes for having bad thoughts though.
No problem ;). It's good that you've mostly gotten rid of it. When they come, just shrug them off, it's no biggie. Just a thought. Then start thinking about something else.
ok, lol your stupid i have HOCD and ever since i was VERY young i have liked girls. in fact i just finished jerking it to keeley hazell. so no we are not repressed homosexuals. learn before you post douchebag.
dude, this H-OCD thing started for me around 7 months ago, I am hoping to go to college with a better outlook on life next year. Do CBT and Medications help that much? Does my sex drive for women come back 100%? Thank you, greetings from Srbija
Yep they do. For me it was more than just trying to cure OCD that helped me. I completely changed my outlook on life: I became more outgoing, got rid of some social-anxiety, I've dramatically improved my work habits. If you live a balanced life it will help you to not think of OCD stuff.
John I must thank you for being the bravest man to be putting this on here. It gives hope to people suffering the same torture that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like a dog chasing my tail going round in circles. The stupid thing is I have amasing sex with my girlfriend, and then a day later I am spiking out about this over and over. U got any advise on what to do to deal with spikes so I can jump on the bandwagon?
Distract yourself. Don't argue with the thoughts. Try thinking of various reasons why it's silly to be worrying over it. Don't worry about it. Try various methods that decrease your anxiety that you feel, and my advice is to switch it up. Otherwise you get bored with one method. And trust yourself. It's not you, it's OCD. Remember YOU'RE in control.
Thanks for posting this video. It helped me sooo much. It makes me feel so much better to know that we are not alone. Thanks for giving me hope to get through this day and tomorrow : ) - Gina
Yep, many people have had it. The thoughts are now at a minimum. You've got to understand that everyone has intrusive thoughts. It's just how you deal with them. And I am most definitely still straight.
Hey John, good job on posting this. I'm glad you have found relief from this, it gives hope to those of us who suffer daily and cannot seem to find hope.
I myself have had a couple forms of OCD (POCD and HOCD among them), and it's good to see that somewhere, someone has risen from the burden of it to come out on top.
Your a badass for posting this on youtube. I have had HOCD and various ocd's and have seeked counseling and medication since. I feel 98 percent better. Thanks for your blog it makes you realise normal people have OCD
I think that's the key though. I have decided that it's ok if I'm not 100% better ever. Being 98% is fine with me, because now when a spike comes up I know how to deal with it, and in a matter of minutes it 's some minor incident in my day.
Man i can't tell you how much i appreciate this video...HOCD needs way more attention than it's getting. Congratulations on the success of CBT and may you remain in good health.
was your ocd obessing about being gay but you weren't? And i'm a female and i keep obessing over it and deep down i know i'm straight. But i don't want to see a counselor because its embarssing
Thanks for the comment. Yeah that was it exactly. It's just a fear, and OCD takes it and runs with it. My advice is to get over that stigma that you attached to seeing a counselor or psychiatrist. OCD is a problem that starts in the brain, and the combination of medication and changing the way you approach the intrusive thoughts/anxiety will certainly help you. Best of luck. Remember, you're in control, not your OCD! So if you decide that you're not going to worry, soon your body will catch on.
Hey I just wanted to note that I searched HOCD (which is what I have suffered from) and I saw your video. It really really took a lot of courage to post this video. Know that it is very helpful. OCD is OCD and can latch onto any topic, especially topics that strike fear/disguest in us. I just want you to know your vid was helpful, very much so, and I commend you for posting it. I hope yours never returns, and it just might not! I am learning knew tools and your advice helped. Hang in there!
Yeah exactly! That's why you get a lot of religious Christians who have an obsession of them committing some unforgiveable sin, when in reality they are some of the dearest people you will ever meet. Most people who get HOCD that I've heard of enjoyed the opposite sex thoroughly, so the other end of the spectrum seems kind of odd, which is why it bothers us.
Well, the choice to be negative or focus on solutions is again a choice in terms of courage. "Normal" people can identify with misery, so it's less difficult to make a video about how miserable you are. OCD is a lot more alien to people, so a sympathetic response is probably less common, and it takes more guts to talk about shit a lot of people just won't identify with. You're clearly not here for sympathy, but results. Thanks again.
I've had OCD for many, many years - an old man of 43. What is helping me more than anything is just hearing people talk about their symptoms - somehow it helps me see own in a different light where their importance starts to fade.
I appreciate your courage to go online and talk about your compulsive thoughts, because there's a lot of macho idiots who would give you a hard time. You're tougher than all of them. Thank you. You really are helping me, and probably others as well.
Thanks! The reason I posted this was because when I searched ocd on youtube, a lot of negative videos came up with people complaining about it, and basically just feeling sorry for themselves. I thought that was a bunch of horse shit, since it doesn't have to be like that. So I thought I'd do something productive and make a video that can help people.
The more I meet people with OCD, I can see that most of them are very motivated and have far above average intelligence. So it's not all bad.
I noticed this ocd kick in with me when I slid into a clinical depression last month. You loose your sex drive completely when in a serious depression and I just couldn't look at women and think of them sexually. Its one side effect. Its sucks dude. Yeah, I'm 33 and all of a sudden I'm worrying about this? Silly is the word. I hate taking meds. So I'm trying my own CBT. Thanks for being so brave
That was just one of the many things that was bothering me and making me feel compelled to do things.
I have really just learned to overcome it for the most part. I have to remind myself how silly it is and that I shouldn't let it control me.
Lovely video. :) thanks for sharing xoxoxo
Gracelovestodance 2 months ago
Oh, I'm really glad I watched your video. (: I had little things with being OCD when I was 7-10, somewhere around there. Then being compelled to do things went a way for a while, but this past summer it was terrible. I am so glad to have seen your video, because one day it popped into my head that what if I was lesbian/bisexual? It bothered me and I would have to do things over and over if I was thinking about that while I did them. It felt like I was going insane.
Gracelovestodance 2 months ago
I have HOCD worst than most. It all started back in July when I was watching this new show based on a true story called Happily Divorced which is about this woman who has been married To this man for years and then he wakes up in the middle of the night and tells her that he is gay. Ever since watching that show I have had no crushes or feelings towards girls (I'm 16 years old and have been both sexually and emotionally attracted to girls and women my entire life starting at 4) and have been co
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Everybody please go to my channel for my personal expierence video with HOCD, it is alot more descriptive.
ImNotCrazyImOCD 5 months ago
I think you are very brave to post this video! I'm happy that you managed to get over it! Let is be an inspiration for every sufferer!
Broekzitter86 5 months ago
15 years old turning 16. Been heterosexual my whole life and then I got hit with HOCD. Its horrible but you know what I heard. People who have HOCD were the ones who loved girls the most and valued romantic relationships- I am a guy. I want to tell everyone if you were REALLY gay you would know at (10-12 and maybe 13). I began puberty at 12 so yeah. Stay strong everyone. You are not gay trust me. Even if you dont trust me your still not gay.
bdvlsb 5 months ago 4
AMAZING TESTIMONIAL, SIMPLE AND HONEST. THANKS FOR SHARING
Thiagocosta75 5 months ago
can the OCD cause depression? I did what you describe and let the thoughts come and go but now Im just so tired I cant do anything.
0bornsurvivor 7 months ago
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strongbow681 2 months ago
I have done a bit of research on OCD and I believe I have it. The only thing that happens to me is that I think if I don't do something (something as simple as listening to a song), someone in my family will die. Usually its if I don't touch a certain item in a certain spot a certain amount of times. I turned twelve a couple months ago and this isn't something new. I would like to seek help but I do not want to worry my parents. The impulse does not happen that often. Can anyone help me?
TheBubbles6212 7 months ago
ThankYou for the good luck:) & the person who commented under me is either someone who has OCD but is in denial or they want attention.
IglesiasMusica 7 months ago
Haha OCD is made up to classify mentally retarded people who need to feel like they are special
E2ekiel555 8 months ago
@E2ekiel555
and "Trolls" are made up of people who were born jerks and so NOBODY wanted to hang out with them or be friendly with them. Naturally, they spent their life on the internet, going after people who were different in an attempt to tear them down.
Abercrombieand1Bitch 7 months ago
@E2ekiel555 How did you even figure out how to turn a computer on?
SepherStar 5 months ago
@SepherStar Oh wait. I understand. It was on already.
SepherStar 5 months ago
@E2ekiel555 well maybe! But everybody is totally nuts in some way, and so are you!
Broekzitter86 5 months ago
I HATE OCD
fox2281 8 months ago
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IThinkRetarded 9 months ago
@IThinkRetarded us humans weren't meant to be like this man... i mean ive never felt transgendered but ive had hocd forever... or do i just think its hocd and thats really who i am? lol the gray area....what it really boils down to man is that humans are too smart for their own good... we are always searching for "what could go wrong?" or "is there a worse situation that i could derive from this?" . hopefully you will take my interpretation correctly. we just think of the worst that can happen
justchill919 9 months ago
Ugh I hate OCD I view the room repeat, clear my throat, and Hate it, I'm controlled, I need freed, It's a horrid thing I wish it would leave.
PazouwhProductions 10 months ago
I had OCD when i was 13-16. Then it suddenly stopped for nearly two years... and then it appeared againg. It wasn't so severe as it had been for the first time, but it still makes me feel mad.
twelvemo 11 months ago
thanks wonderful info trying to convince our son he was diagnosed about 3 years ago he is now 13 years of age trying to convince that it is he who has to control the OCD with the help of meds and therapy
LONDON1962 1 year ago
i have the worst ocd, i lost my closest friends over it, i lost the connection i had wit my fam, i lost my reputation, i lost my personallity, i lost my enjoyment and motivation to do the things i used todo.. i hate it , i feel so alone, i need help. i need sum1 to speak to about this..
IgetDOWN916 1 year ago 10
@IgetDOWN916 I think you're in for a pleasant surprise. You haven't lost your personality. In fact when you come out on the other end of the tunnel, you will see that you have just gotten stronger as a result of ocd. I honestly believe this. I'm assuming you were spiking when you were typing this comment though.
It's crazy, I remember what it was like to be constantly obsessing over useless shit, and now it just seems so far away. Go see a psychiatrist. Seriously. It works.
JohnTheEng 1 year ago 6
@IgetDOWN916 ther is hope. im here for anyone who needs me. i found infinite happiness after killing my OCD and im here for ya
heartXbrokenXfox 6 months ago
@IgetDOWN916 I have ocd also. I've had it since I think I was about 6 or 7. I'm now 39. I'm also an alcoholic. I'll have 4 years sobriety in March. Being sober certainly has helped me with ocd. I take cymbalta and chlozapine which helps. My main symptoms are repetitive thoughts. I know the frustration ur talking about. I think the biggest thing that has helped me though is excercise. It clears the mind. Sunlight also helps. I'd be happy to talk to you more. I still struggle with ocd.
doug575 3 weeks ago
Props to everyone who has commented on this video. HOCD is a horrible thing. It's like a hypnotist, and can make you believe what it wants. For anyone struggling, I found CBT a life saver: it confronts you with your fear, and you retrain your brain to respond to these invasive thoughts. I've been going for a month now, and tomorrow is my 5th session. It is a life saver, and the effects are huge! I still spike from time to time, but I can feel it losing it's power. Don't suffer silently.
HAADOOKEN 1 year ago 2
@HAADOOKEN Thanks for the good news! Keep it up!
JohnTheEng 1 year ago
i get real bad thoughts :/ i know i have ocd. sometimes i dont know how to get out of it
wendyblue7 1 year ago
thanks! I stay awake all night thinking horrible, disgusting, perverted things and I now know its OCD. I thanks you for your advice, but I still have severe problems with my thoughts, so I need to work on that.
Just one question, when you told your parents did they think you were disgusting, or a freak. I haven't told anybody for fear of that and I don't wanna go on meds (no offence to anybody who is, I just dont like pills).
CoolBeagle 1 year ago
@CoolBeagle If anything it was a relief for my parents. They didn't think that at all. They knew something was wrong since I wasn't being myself when OCD kicked in.
Maybe your thoughts are disgusting. I can assure you I have some really disgusting thoughts too. But I find a lot of them kind of funny, since their meaningless. Doesn't mean I'm disgusting. Hobos are disgusting, but I'm not.
JohnTheEng 1 year ago
Im suffering from the exact same thing man.....bin 6 months for me.....and im also on anti-depressants.....suppose to be having counciling for my OCD......but atleast we know it can be beaten :)
hostess2006 1 year ago
i agree it can be cured but will i ever have boners to girls again or will i be a guy who likes nothing
sasukelgty 1 year ago
im pritty youg 13 and it just recantly happen is this un normal
sasukelgty 1 year ago
(Y) Thankyou this video helped me alot :)
RangzTorshe 1 year ago
umm i have this thing were i constantly check behind me cuz i always feel like im being watched... whats that called?
zachery1123 1 year ago
I think I have OCD though it's not confirmed by a professional. My intrusive thoughts started when I was in grade 4. I remember having thoughts of killing my mom with a knife, though I loved her the most. It became so hard to cope that one time, I was standing in my room holding my head and pulling my hair. But i got over it. Ever since, I had minor thoughts, like being afraid of heights because I was afraid i might be pushed or jump over. Today, I just had a bad thought. It's sorta random, but
ViRGiNsOnLY 1 year ago
yeah the same thing happend to me i was watchint tv one day and a thought poped in to my hea what if i am gay and i talked to my parents and it ended in 1 day and a half year later it popped again and this time it was worse i couldnt get rid of it im 13 now and i feel like my interest for women is dissapearing and i am disqusted by any thought about having sex with the same sex but my mind tells me like im not but i now i am could you please respond sorry for my english and is this hocd?
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H1GHAM08 1 year ago
is ocd when you have bad thoughts,liek evil thouhts just pop into your minds and your thinking wtf ,why am i having this
MrDancalvin1983 1 year ago
@MrDancalvin1983 yes it is. I suffer from the same thing. it is OCD
CoolBeagle 1 year ago
i have OCD since when i was 10 and im 29 now. i been in alot of medication tho. ocd is fucken sucks! i hate having this illness!
ryanrivers24 1 year ago
@ryanrivers24 what does ur make u do?
zachery1123 1 year ago
Thanks my boy I start CBT next week
xxxkimJongilxxx 1 year ago
Oh god,
OCD is a terrible son of a bitch isn't it?
I also take meds for it too.
I have been trying all kinds of methods lately but not a lot of success with it but it's good that you are saying to "keep trying" and "try doing exposures to help your OCD"
Good luck~ =D
PintendoPwii 1 year ago
I don't have a fear of germs, I don't know why, but I'm not, but I will straighten things, until they feel 'right' and once I start straightening something I can't stop, it drives me mad!
Written256 1 year ago
Thankyou for this video :) it makes me feel like i am not alone x
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Agustafson22 1 year ago
im kind of confused by this. if u are gay u are sexually attracted to men and that in itself is how u know u are gay. a straight person wouldnt wonder if they were gay unless they had a sexual attraction to men and that attraction would mean that they are in fact gay. also, a gay male usually knows he is gay or at least different than straight at a very young age and absolutely by the time he reaches puberty. it wouldnt simply pop into his head one day while taking a walk.
fundies2 1 year ago
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Agustafson22 1 year ago
Why do you think that being "gay" is a bad thing?
exhifreq 1 year ago
@exhifreq i dont think he ever said that being gay is a bad thing. my question though is, has he ever been attracted to men prior to the period he talks about at 18 or did that thought simply appear in his mind? i have never heard of anyone equating being gay with ocd.
fundies2 1 year ago
thankfully, I'm not the only one.
I hope God grants me the strength to conquer this. I just want to feel normal again.
irishcatholicladdie 1 year ago
i have the same obsessive fear but of becoming lesbian, which i guess makes no sense because i think youre really cute! you just helped me alot. thank you.
kaayarrbee 1 year ago
also when you worry about it do you start thinking its real when obviously its not????
04johnsonc 1 year ago
what sort of things do you guys think about when you have the fears of turning gay!??
04johnsonc 1 year ago
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Agustafson22 1 year ago
quick question. have you ever stuck your nose between your own buttcheeks, and sniffed it?
MeijiKendo 1 year ago
@MeijiKendo - Yes....
ACIDRAIN139 1 year ago
quick question, why are you a dick head?
TheBambiniGiant 1 year ago
@TheBambiniGiant quick question, have you ever taken a dump while sitting on your foot?
MeijiKendo 1 year ago
@MeijiKendo Stop being childish and go away. This is a serious vid, and your messing the comment section up.
TheBambiniGiant 1 year ago
i hate how people don't understand how deep anxiety and ocd is... it makes it hard for the person with ocd. like if you have ocd about hurting people or whatever, they say things like 'no normal person thinks like that, ocd is just an excuse for your thoughts' and it makes the person with ocd even worse.
onehotminutex 1 year ago
ahh ive had this problem for a few months i start believing its real when i no its not :S i like girls all ways have
and when im college i start thinking ohh no i dont like that boy when i no i don't :S i might be going on medication through my counceller one time i thought i had cancer and start believing that
04johnsonc 1 year ago
@04johnsonc so what ur saying is you have intrusive thoughts?
I have that symptom also. heres one of the things i've tried, and i really think you should try it. whenever you get an intrusive thought, instead of beating yourself up over it, don't think of it as "intrusive" just let the thought pass by. its just like any other thought. after you let it pass by, you'll feel much more in control. be passive about it.
MeijiKendo 1 year ago
hey there thanks for making this vid! I was too chicken to do so, then people like you who posted videos made me take the plunge! and so I am posting about ocd now thanks!!!!
OCDvlog 1 year ago
thank you for making this video, i can totally relate to the intrusive thoughts of hurting your loved ones, i am very happy that i am not the only one having them, it already makes me feel better, again than you!
manbearpig084 1 year ago
hey man. both your videos helped a lot. I got hit with hocd and freaked out constantly about it. plus I've always been a highly anxious person and obsessed over fears that now that I think about it, could not happen. I'm seeing a therapist monday and hope to hear good things. But these vids have helped raised my spirits up a bit. Thanks for posting
chrisspinella 1 year ago
Grr it's back in my mind hate it I wish I was free if this :( I remember when I used to not have this :/ happy times
imhot818 2 years ago 13
I big part of my recovery was when I just decided to not give a shit about it. I decided that I don't care whether I get better or not, I don't care whether my obsessions are true or not, I'm just gonna live my life.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago 3
Great advice man i appreciate it. Got one question though, when you had your Hocd did you start "feeling" gay?? Like i would fight the thought even though i knew i wasnt. I felt as though i was "turning gay" My Hocd started telling me that even though i wasnt. Ive always been attracted to women. And I question myself just like you " what if im gay"? Or what if i turn gay in a couple of years??
armouredsqwirlz 2 years ago
Oh and i never fantasied with guys, just women.
armouredsqwirlz 2 years ago
yes exactly. Let me just mention that i have been struggling with it for about 3 months now and can say from everybody i've talked to that ACCEPTANCE IS KEY...Most people get so fed up with this disorder that they no longer care, and are willing to accept the risk that their fears may be real. I am currently working on this and trying not to ruminate. Nice video though man, i can say that i respect you a lot for making this and raising awareness.
Ganjateer88 1 year ago
thanks for the video!
piliguill 2 years ago
Last night I couldn't take it anymore . I broke down and cried . Haven't felt so horrible all my life like I am suffering . Hopefully I learn how to deal with this im exhausted and feel depressed
imhot818 2 years ago
Mine started 4 days ago
Makes me feel bad . And depressed . But hopefully when I think about that thought that has been bothering me(this person I dislike) I won't feel so bad I need to change the way I think i guess....thanks for making this video it actually made me feel better . & ur really cute ^_^
crazynrandum 2 years ago
Hocd got the best of me this holiday . fuckin sucks . mines started 2 years ago but never payed to much attention to it. but really started to get to my head because i didnt know wat was happenin to me .then searched my problems and found out about Hocd .i feel a little better cause i know thats not me. ive been straight all my life and always love female but still fear of being homo
flipperachi234 2 years ago
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flipperachi234 2 years ago
I have Just Right OCD
YUMMIY 2 years ago
I have the same problem it started like 4 days ago and thats all i could think about its hell i keep telling myself im not gay i have been straight my whole life im not sexually aroused my men and prefer girls does anybody have advice other than medication and therapy Please help!!!
UofMTigers96 2 years ago 2
Hey mate don't worry urself 2 much about it I have had a few bouts with hocd it never lasts as it is not ur true self. I really can relate to ur pain it's a horrible thing. I have noticed mine always pops up when I have major stresses in my life so I use it as a kind of stress meter. It's such a strange thing when u snap out of it it's hard to believe u were ever worried because ur thoughts revert back 2 ur true self so just allow urself to feel this and think of it as a mental vomit!
azron1 2 years ago 2
you are a nice person, take care!! cheers!
violinist881 2 years ago 2
this is the first time I've said out loud (be it only over a post) over this type of OCD... I have even been too scared to admit it even on the internet under a false name... It will take a lot more guts to actually say it to my psychologist but now I feel like I might be able to... MAYBE thanks for your video!
dwolski03 2 years ago
I know how you feel man. I told my friend about it. He didn't really clown on me. Sometimes the best mental "cure" is telling somebody.
armouredsqwirlz 2 years ago
Thanks for posting this You have great courage I have OCD and I hate it No one close to me knows that I have it I will have to talk to someone now Thank you
SEYERWON 2 years ago
HOCD is the worst you nobdy ever beileves and the always say your bi queer ius or bi sexual and that just make your OCD worst. You feel like your in the closet you kow your not and you cant stop thing of things to make you think your gay.
acidshark13 2 years ago 3
Hey I have HOCD too, how old were you when you beat it?
23pax 2 years ago 2
Man you really need to comb your hair lol
conker3425 2 years ago
i dont know whether its an OCD but i cant look at anyones wrsit's. i have to cover my wrist's if anyone is touching their wrist it nearly makes me sick.
is that ocd? or is it just that wrist's freak me out?
anythingido 2 years ago
@anythingido sounds like a phobia.
PyroJamable 2 years ago
i have that type now i used to do the hand washing and the constint counting like it had to be the perfect number from both hands
i actually was fine it didnt bother me for about 3 years well at least i never really noticed it but it came back about 7 months ago
AllAmericanWeirdo 2 years ago
congrats man, thanks for the vid
halfwaythere333 2 years ago
I have intrusive thoughts and I've done exposure therapy with a knife. It was terrible and exhausting because any time I touch a knife or any sort I have images of killing myself or others around me. But I'm struggling with OCD every day. Just looking at some random person on the street or at...any where I have terrible horrible thoughts of me doing some thing terrible, like raping or killing or shouting for no good reason. I getting help and taking at least 100 mg of Zolath and it helps a lot.
View100 2 years ago
maybe i dont wanna get some help maybe i wanna deal with it my self maybe i dont care
catrat22555rs 2 years ago
i kinda feel the same way you should try what i did doing a vlog you dont have to upload or anything just delete it
just talking about helps SO MUCH
AllAmericanWeirdo 2 years ago
i had ocd for just 2 months and im proud to say that ive beaten this monster inside my head. what helped me beat ocd was getting help from my parents and my girlfriend.. if u have ocd and have great parents like mine, pls tell them. it will help you alot. and when ocd pops up, just think, " oh, its the ocd again, ok whaterver" then enjoy being yourself! just be yourself. goodluck yall.
jafimac 2 years ago 10
did you have hocd?
CW871 2 years ago
yes i DO. i still think i have hocd but i now know how to just ignore it.
jafimac 2 years ago
you beat HOCD in 2 months? That seems to good to be true. You sure you had HOCD?
CW871 2 years ago
actually, i wanna take that back, i still have ocd but it doesnt bother me as much now. i just ignore the ocd. i assure you that if you have understanding parents, tell them your situation. it will help you a lot. and i mean ALOT.
jafimac 2 years ago
your right i used to do vlogs on my camcorder then just delete them because i didnt want anyone to know (obviolsly im more comfortable with it) anyway it helped me SO MUCH
AllAmericanWeirdo 2 years ago
howd you do it ? :( i hate living with it
cyberoptictroll 2 years ago
good shit man youve got balls for actually putting this shit up i know i wouldn't want the world inside my head pot helps me immensely ever since the first day ive smoked i haven't looked back and it really stops bothering you and you live with it
lesbiansaregoodandch 2 years ago
ty =]
im still sad though ]=...
animejapanluvr 2 years ago
hey i have a questtion. is there anyway to cure it without seeing a therapist or taking meds. or are those the best ways?
Azaela21 2 years ago
It's possible yeah, but why would you struggle with it if there was an easier way? If you were diabetic you'd want to get medication for that, right? This is the same thing in my opinion. It's a simple matter of taking a pill every night before going to bed.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
This is so scary..I need help but dont know what to do.
highlowinbetween 2 years ago
you should see a doctor, and get help. i've had pure ocd since 8 months ago, and when the symptoms first popped up I was terrified. For the first 3 months the thoughts weren't as bad, but later on they were much worse. I started having agressive, violent, abusive, and harmful obsessions. im only on 20mg prozac and i haven't gotten better. my advice to you would be to visit a doctor before things get much worse.
PurelyObsessionalOCD 2 years ago
terrible disorder.................
PurelyObsessionalOCD 2 years ago 4
how are you getting on now, how do the drugs help.
boostah27 2 years ago
I'm doing great! OCD will always be part of me, but the difference is that when it pops up I know how to get rid of it within 5 minutes.
The drugs make me less anxious and calm the thoughts
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Pity, I still noticed some dumb fuckwits who think this condition is not real... This shit sucks, I know that all too well, but it's beatable, just like everything else.
TheAbominae 2 years ago
Yeah the retards on yahoo answers saying HOCD isn't real I mean they need to shut their mouths because if they don't it makes others condition worse when they spike.
djrotten 2 years ago 3
Thanks for the video I'm a HOCD sufferer in england. What daily things did you used to do when you had HOCD?
I feel embrassed to tell anybody such as doctors or my parents but i have told my girlfriend and she is there for me.
I want HOCD to go away! I remember before this HOCD how things were and it upsets me, I just want things back to normal.
djrotten 2 years ago
LOVE WILL KILL THE MONSTER
3notas 2 years ago
A really great video! I get the more pure obsessions too instead of the compulsions. Thanks for the advice :-)
summersky1119 2 years ago
hi i have ocd to i try cbt be for i was on meds it did nothing for me till i start takeing meds
angery1988 2 years ago
You are so brave. Tacke care of yourself. Be strong.
evlachou 2 years ago
I have both HOCD and POCD. Fukkin hell dude. I went thru therapy and meds. Still tryna kick this shit to the curb after all these years. Im nearing 21 soon
Elektro0 2 years ago
I have it too. One thing different is that when I first thought I was gay, I was smokin weed and kinda high. And it made me think my thoughts were real and actually made sense to me. So the weed made it worse. I'm 18 now, and it started at 15. Messed up thing is that just a month ago I figured it out. 3 years of the worst suffering I could imagine.
charliewally2005 2 years ago
thanks..i suffer from ocd as well..but thanks for the video..you show us that just cause you have ocd doesnt mean you can't be happy...like the saying goes '' I have OCD..but OCD doesn't have me'':)..o & ur cute:)
JohnnyDeppforlifee 2 years ago
Thanks for the comment. Sounds like you have it under control as well.
And about the last part, I know ;)
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
In the highly unlikely situation that that happens, it will be someone who's not one of my close friends, and I could care less what people think, really.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Where are you drawing your conclusion from that people will make fun of you? Have you tried telling people? Not saying you should, but you're most likely just making an assumption. And even if you're speaking from experience, what does it matter what people think? I don't. It's just words. In fact, having an ability to have people's insults just bounce off you makes you come across as a strong individual. Think about that.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Oh God I don´t know how to thank you enough! This sure will help me on my way from OCD. Thank you soo much!
Rekiiic 2 years ago
hey man thanks for posting this. I too have had this horrible horrible condition for a little over a year and i'm almost 21. I have not sought help from outside sources just been doing research to fix it by myself. I really want to get rid of these intrusive thoughts without the use of medication all the success stories seem to include medication.
caesarm4 2 years ago
I was skeptical to use meds first as well, but if you had diabetes you would get the proper medication for that, so why should this be any different? Life's not supposed to be this way. I recommend talking to a psychiatrist, doing CBT, getting meds, and ENJOYING YOUR LIFE!
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
I have struggled with OCD since childhood. I wasn't diagnosed until I was36 years old. I am now 47. For a young man, you sure are wise and encouraging. Thanks for your honesty. It will help alot of people to know that we are not alone and the thoughts aren't as scary anymore. Thanks and God bless you.
piperspal 2 years ago
If you want to. You can check out Neuroticplanet and become a member they have a section devoted to HOCD and other sexual addictions
ajaxfan34 2 years ago
Relax buddy. As much as OCD is bothersome, typing posts like this so that others can feel sorry for you does nothing to help you feel better.
And no problem for posting this. I hope you take some the advice to heart.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Hey man, thanks for posting this. I realize this affliction is relevant for a minority of the population, but for those of us who do suffer from some form of sexual anxiety it always helps to know we're not in this alone.
Hartsteves 2 years ago
How do you stop yourself from checking things over and over?
Kristiniskool 2 years ago
Just stop. If you feel the urge to check something tell yourself don't, remind yourself of the evidence that there's a very high chance that you don't need to check something over. Then don't check. It's that simple. You'll feel anxious, but it will only be temporarily. And then you feel great afterwards for not checking.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Okay, thanks. I'll try it. It's really,really nice of you to be helping people with ocd! It helps a lot to hear about your story and I'm sure it's helping other people too. Kudos!
Kristiniskool 2 years ago
Thnx for posting! I've never really knew of any good ways to deal with it. I used to have bad ocd, but now most of mine has gotten better. Although, I sometimes still have those uncontrolled thoughts, kind of like what you said about your mother. And I still check things sometimes. I used to feel bad when I had awful thoughts! I used to think I was a bad person for it, then I found out it was ocd. I still feel bad sometimes for having bad thoughts though.
Kristiniskool 2 years ago
No problem ;). It's good that you've mostly gotten rid of it. When they come, just shrug them off, it's no biggie. Just a thought. Then start thinking about something else.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
This has been flagged as spam show
lol U dont hav ocd youre jus a self denying faggot
FatmilkisGod 2 years ago
ok, lol your stupid i have HOCD and ever since i was VERY young i have liked girls. in fact i just finished jerking it to keeley hazell. so no we are not repressed homosexuals. learn before you post douchebag.
ajaxfan34 2 years ago
I feel sad for you that something motivated you to post this. You clearly haven't found your way in life.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
how do i know i'm not a lesbian and this is just ocd? I'm on luvox. And i keep guilty myself pplease help me.
leytonTLA09 2 years ago
But you already know this. When you obsess, just make sure you keep yourself calm and go do something you enjoy. You need to go to a psychiatrist.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
Zoloft works well.
Remember If you liked guys (girls for me) before then you WILL like them again.
Check out NEUROTICPLANET they have a good HOCD section.
And honestly you would have known you were Lesbian Along time ago. (around 7-9)
ajaxfan34 2 years ago
i take zoloft and i still feel gay :)
cphoover11 2 years ago
Then you obviously don't have HOCD.
MetalFaceDoom0719 2 years ago
who cphoover?
djrotten 2 years ago
Most likely... Can't see who else he's revering to.
TheAbominae 2 years ago
Yeah.
MetalFaceDoom0719 2 years ago
dude, this H-OCD thing started for me around 7 months ago, I am hoping to go to college with a better outlook on life next year. Do CBT and Medications help that much? Does my sex drive for women come back 100%? Thank you, greetings from Srbija
PivoJeDobro1 2 years ago
Yep they do. For me it was more than just trying to cure OCD that helped me. I completely changed my outlook on life: I became more outgoing, got rid of some social-anxiety, I've dramatically improved my work habits. If you live a balanced life it will help you to not think of OCD stuff.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
John I must thank you for being the bravest man to be putting this on here. It gives hope to people suffering the same torture that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like a dog chasing my tail going round in circles. The stupid thing is I have amasing sex with my girlfriend, and then a day later I am spiking out about this over and over. U got any advise on what to do to deal with spikes so I can jump on the bandwagon?
lionsse16 2 years ago 3
Distract yourself. Don't argue with the thoughts. Try thinking of various reasons why it's silly to be worrying over it. Don't worry about it. Try various methods that decrease your anxiety that you feel, and my advice is to switch it up. Otherwise you get bored with one method. And trust yourself. It's not you, it's OCD. Remember YOU'RE in control.
JohnTheEng 2 years ago
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leytonTLA09 3 years ago
Thanks for posting this video. It helped me sooo much. It makes me feel so much better to know that we are not alone. Thanks for giving me hope to get through this day and tomorrow : ) - Gina
MYTUBE11377 3 years ago 2
No problem Gina! ;)
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
so hocd is real? Once you were on meds did it stop the thoughts? And did you know you were straight again? I would appreciate your answer
leytonTLA09 3 years ago
Yep, many people have had it. The thoughts are now at a minimum. You've got to understand that everyone has intrusive thoughts. It's just how you deal with them. And I am most definitely still straight.
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
Hey John, good job on posting this. I'm glad you have found relief from this, it gives hope to those of us who suffer daily and cannot seem to find hope.
I myself have had a couple forms of OCD (POCD and HOCD among them), and it's good to see that somewhere, someone has risen from the burden of it to come out on top.
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Ant1014 3 years ago
Your a badass for posting this on youtube. I have had HOCD and various ocd's and have seeked counseling and medication since. I feel 98 percent better. Thanks for your blog it makes you realise normal people have OCD
Chitown19881 3 years ago
I think that's the key though. I have decided that it's ok if I'm not 100% better ever. Being 98% is fine with me, because now when a spike comes up I know how to deal with it, and in a matter of minutes it 's some minor incident in my day.
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sleestack808 2 years ago
I know this disorder. Congratulations for having uploaded this video, that was very courageous.
EnviousAdam 3 years ago
Man i can't tell you how much i appreciate this video...HOCD needs way more attention than it's getting. Congratulations on the success of CBT and may you remain in good health.
SlickSmooth22 3 years ago
Thanks for the comment!
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
was your ocd obessing about being gay but you weren't? And i'm a female and i keep obessing over it and deep down i know i'm straight. But i don't want to see a counselor because its embarssing
leytonTLA09 3 years ago
Thanks for the comment. Yeah that was it exactly. It's just a fear, and OCD takes it and runs with it. My advice is to get over that stigma that you attached to seeing a counselor or psychiatrist. OCD is a problem that starts in the brain, and the combination of medication and changing the way you approach the intrusive thoughts/anxiety will certainly help you. Best of luck. Remember, you're in control, not your OCD! So if you decide that you're not going to worry, soon your body will catch on.
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
Hey I just wanted to note that I searched HOCD (which is what I have suffered from) and I saw your video. It really really took a lot of courage to post this video. Know that it is very helpful. OCD is OCD and can latch onto any topic, especially topics that strike fear/disguest in us. I just want you to know your vid was helpful, very much so, and I commend you for posting it. I hope yours never returns, and it just might not! I am learning knew tools and your advice helped. Hang in there!
brooks2boss 3 years ago
Yeah exactly! That's why you get a lot of religious Christians who have an obsession of them committing some unforgiveable sin, when in reality they are some of the dearest people you will ever meet. Most people who get HOCD that I've heard of enjoyed the opposite sex thoroughly, so the other end of the spectrum seems kind of odd, which is why it bothers us.
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
Well, the choice to be negative or focus on solutions is again a choice in terms of courage. "Normal" people can identify with misery, so it's less difficult to make a video about how miserable you are. OCD is a lot more alien to people, so a sympathetic response is probably less common, and it takes more guts to talk about shit a lot of people just won't identify with. You're clearly not here for sympathy, but results. Thanks again.
whitf 3 years ago
I've had OCD for many, many years - an old man of 43. What is helping me more than anything is just hearing people talk about their symptoms - somehow it helps me see own in a different light where their importance starts to fade.
I appreciate your courage to go online and talk about your compulsive thoughts, because there's a lot of macho idiots who would give you a hard time. You're tougher than all of them. Thank you. You really are helping me, and probably others as well.
whitf 3 years ago
Thanks! The reason I posted this was because when I searched ocd on youtube, a lot of negative videos came up with people complaining about it, and basically just feeling sorry for themselves. I thought that was a bunch of horse shit, since it doesn't have to be like that. So I thought I'd do something productive and make a video that can help people.
The more I meet people with OCD, I can see that most of them are very motivated and have far above average intelligence. So it's not all bad.
JohnTheEng 3 years ago
I noticed this ocd kick in with me when I slid into a clinical depression last month. You loose your sex drive completely when in a serious depression and I just couldn't look at women and think of them sexually. Its one side effect. Its sucks dude. Yeah, I'm 33 and all of a sudden I'm worrying about this? Silly is the word. I hate taking meds. So I'm trying my own CBT. Thanks for being so brave
sleestack808 2 years ago 2
Thanks man :D!
JKx 3 years ago
CBT is very helpful. I think medication can make the CBT easier to do.
dylanvalente 3 years ago