cute video. lovely bath and your meal looks great. could you share your recipe with me? im loving your videos, very uplifting, i have to subscribe. :)
Thanks sweetie. All I did was use a spiral slicer - google it if you don't own one - a zucchini, then I diced an avocado on top of it, mixed it together and sprinkled 1-2 teaspoons of dulse seaweed on top. Once you have your raw pasta your possibilities are endless. Ps. Oh I chopped some lemon basil to toss in this one too.
This video is lovely :D, you have such a lovely kind nature about you. You just seem to beam with happiness and joy, when ever I watch your videos, you make me smile. I'm glad to see you're treating yourself! and making the most of your sunday, it sounded very calming and fun :D
I love your bathtub! If I had one like that, I'm afraid I'd never get out. The piercing by your eye, near your cheek, looks awsome. I bet that was super painful. Ouch! The food looked yummy too.
My wieght is going up, and down, Up and down, My emotions are spazzing out of control, I want to cry, Just sit here and cry, I want to feel what silence feels like, I want so many things, And the worst part is, I just want to be loved, I just want to feel like, The things im doing in life, Make sense, the things I do for everyone else, Will make me happy, It doesnt and that sounds mean, Im hating my self, Im hating my friends, Im hating life*cont*
Ive been putting SO much effort into making my situation perfect, Im draining my self, I just want to be happy, and i dont know how to! I wish I could relax like you do, but I cant, I have no time, I have no space, Im going crazy. I dont know the point to this, But Im sure there is one. I envy you, I envy how relaxed you are, how peacefull the bath was, I envy your friends, Your family, Your support system... Ugh, i want to sleep, for days, weeks, Months, I just want to get away, Go FAR away
NEver come back, But i cant, I work non stop, THe only reason im working so much is so i can go to cali to see this awesome guy, But I ruin everything, I cant have a productive relationship, I know im slowly killing us, I can feel it, But i cant help it, I try to make everyone happy, Im willing to spend 1500 for 4 fucking days! I just want to meet him, I love him and I cant hold it back, But I know hes not exactly feeling that, I know if i met him, Id have a great time, But we are so far away
from eachotheri ts hard, Im willing to pay the whole way, im willing to pay his way down here, Im willing to do EVERYTHING for anyone, And it should make me happpy, But im slowly going into a deep depression, Im hating my self, Food, Others, Im starting to be disgusted with the way i act, Im disgusted in how I can love someone so much, But somehow ill find a way to ruin it, And you know what? I just love to much, I love so much and i get so little back, but i dont care, all i want is a friend,
I dont think its so much to ask. While im still talking about love, He knows this awesome guy, and im scared.. im scared to know,I love him so much, but he could be gone any second.. Im thinking about so many things, Ive thought about death, but i dont know.. im sorry for flooding here, But I have nobody to listen, or even give a damn what I say, and it hurts... it really hurts. I wishhh I could be like you jhonny... I really do
Dexter, that was really intense. It sounds like allowing your emotional health out of control is allowing your life out of control and visa versa. No one wins. This is my honest and blunt response. I know you respect my opionon and know I care about you. Stop. Slow down. You will never reach perfection, no one will - quit trying while you are ahead. Stop complaining, don't evny, get ahold of yourself and give gratitude for all that you have and all that you are. You are not your damn eds honey.
You aren't super human Dexter, no one is. You are living in a self made cage and only you have the key to get out. Reread everything you wrote. Putting this much focus on your problems only worsens them. You are enabling that mindset by giving it power. Freedom is earned my friend not given away or handed on a silver platter.
You want it? go out and get it. A good start is to change your mentality. Start looking at what you are doing to get better verse what isn't going the way you want it to - and what isn't going how you want it to, not how the ed wants it to, go out and get it. It's not as hard as you think to find once you get your head out of the negative mind's ass which is where it clearly is right now....
That is as honest as I can put it, my blunt thoughts exactly. Dexter are you in therapy right now? We all need safe places to process because a majority of the time our own heads aren't even a safe place. It is good to release, it's okay to cry if you can allow yourself too. Please consider some mental support for better mental sanity, you seriously deserve it. If you are willing to work for the boy, are you willing to work for you? step by step. Ps. Where in CA is he?
he lives in Valencia,CA. I told him what I feel, And he turns around, Sends me pictures of this guy hes been chatting too, and tells me the 'awesome' time he had. I have read everything over and your right, Ive just been so messed up in my head lately, June is never a good month for me, and it never will be- something happened one june- I take everything you just said to heart- I needed someone who would just give it to me straight, and not sugar coat it, I need to let everyone go, and
just focus on me. I havent been taking care of my self, Ive been putting 100% of my energy into him, my Eds have taken a rampage on my body, Im dropping weight like a tree sheds it leaves, I just need to sit alone, in the dark, no music, no noise, and just think of everything- is this worth it? Am I worth it? Im affraid of what he will say to me :( he still hasent said anything back from my last message, and thats what hurts the most,
I dont want to be the ONLY thing he thinks about, just know he does think and he does care, Thats all i need.
I am not in theripy, I have never thought about it, because truthfully, Im scared to know about my self, I dont want to go back into my past, find out how i messed up, And what i can do to fix it, I dont want to find out im the reason my life is so messed up- I read that back, and I sound crazy! i just need to get away, I just need to be mee, and love my self.
Damn Dex if you could think of all this then you can think of therapy. Please consider getting help. How do you expect things to change without it? As for this guy Dex, do you honestly think you are stable to even consider relationships? Instability ruins things, trust me - ruined my last one and this is why I avoid it. I may come on cam and be having a good day but that doesn't mean I am always honkey dorey happy. I am very active in fear and addiction, I'm sorry but that's the dang game truth.
Today still feels like a dream i want to wake up out of.
I will think about getting help, I promise. Its just the place I am in right now, financially i just cant. As long as i can get by, day to day, Ill do alright. But I do need to just.. disapear for awhile. I think that might help me.
We can't run or get away from ourselves and whatever is going on is for a reason and can be learned and evolved from. Go to Ed Referral or Something Fishy and look into local therapist. Most do insurance, some do sliding scale. There is no excuse to not even look into it. If you fear yourself then you don't really know yourself, therapy will help you sort thoughts so you can be free to be yourself without all these issues preventing you from doing so.
I can't tell if this is open thinking or an open attack. I disable ratings due to a whole clan of bitter, hateful, lonely and sick minded people who harrass me on you tube, down rate my videos and talk major trash. They are blocked yet continue to keep making accounts just to come and harrass me and in order to protect my channel and friends I have to project my videos.
oh wow thats seriously awful! D= Im sorry you have to deal with such horrible people as that! I enjoy watching your videos, and they always make me laugh n_n Thank you for taking the time and effort, as well as, always having something totally original to talk about. Stay strong! =)
When I was younger my best friends and I use to fill it up with bubbles, run the jets and overflow the entire tub all over the floor. I miss tub parties like that! No reason why I still can't do them... hello kitty bikini bottoms and all. I watched some of your new video. I love the new tattoo, it's gorgeous. I am sorry to hear you passed out again though... not sure how to respond to that one except send you peace and prayers for more mental and physical stability.
Oh i love bubbles and jets! The bathroom at my moms house is just like your mom's and i love to just veg out in it with lavender oil and bubbles!! So much fun! Yes, I love my tattoo also! Thank you for your sweet comment. Hey sweetheart, i was wondering if i could ask you a question? totally random, but did you ever have an endoscopy done? I have to have one and im completely nervous and scared!!
You have every right to be nervous but rest assured that whoever is doing it is well trained and knows what they are doing. I have never had one even though I have needed one at many times. I let fear keep me from getting them in the past which may have been very ignorant on my part. I recommend you address your fears in therapy and get some good advice on how to relax prior to going in and what you can do to support yourself after. Bringing a close friend helps too. It will come and go quickly.
When, as in date, are you getting your ednoscopy? and are you getting it due to health problems (gerd, tears, ulcers, etc.?) or just doing a check up considering you deal with bulimic purging? This is one of the most common medical tests people dealing with bulimia get done. You are not alone, many have gotten endoscopies and many have not let fear keep them from getting them... I am proud of you for standing up and getting it done if you or the doctors feel it's needed right now.
Ah, you are so lovely. I love that you came back here and my feet love the compliments too. They have a mind of their own, seriously! Ha. I am looking forward to getting Spirit Filled and Thrilled tonight at church!
so this might be a stupid question and I'm sorry before I even ask it but, you say you're on a raw diet (if I remember right)..well do you eat any meat at all? or just uncooked fruit and veggies? I saw a program on televison(maybe not the best place to get my information) and they said they were on a 'raw diet' and ate raw meat that was spoiled! Breif, what is your diet
Think of raw like how you would a religion, there are different demoniations aka ways of eating raw. I eat raw vegan, this means I eat ALL my food raw and honey comes from animals - no meat, cheese, milk, butter, etc - except my raw honey used when I have ulcer attacks. So no, i do not eat meat nor do I support eating it and feel it's a horribly selfish and cruel thing to logically do. Some who are raw eat raw meat, gross. The body was also not meant to eat it/digest it in the first place!
Cute, smile. Those aren't my beauty products. I am trying to limit my toxic intake which includes all unnatural skin care since the skin is 1 the largest organ and 2 absorbs into the body on a cellular level what is put on top of it...My Mom has a bunch of toxic smelly stuff up there!!!
Today. this is what im going to do..well along side other things. but im going to have an amazing bath with rose petals in :) thats such a lovely idea! xxx
ha! in the orange slip! i was painting them purple i believe. those were the days. is it wrong that this comment attracts my attention... greatly? ah!
Yesterday I spent the day with my family, went to church, baked a batch of chocolate chip cookies, relaxied in the backyard on my hammock and went for a jog at sunset :)
How lovely, thank you for sharing! The pasta was delish but too much on my tummy. I kept it in though but had to deal with tummy problems, now I remember why I don't eat it much anymore. My body is so use to SIMPLE meals made from my Vitamix or like mashed avocado and sprouts. Oh well, it was delish treat of it's kind!
I'm so happy you kept it in Johnny! Just as long as you dont eat too much to the point of you feeling sick, I hate feeling too full. Once in a while I'm sure its a good treat :)
No worries about that one dear, I would never do that due to anorexia and bulimia... I know, logically know, how much my body can take at it's frail state. I go through and experience refeeding syndrome while my body remains at this place of health and weight. I can only fit a small amount at once or all hell - mental and physical, as well as physiological, takes place.
Wonderful and Good For You For Pampering Yourself , I Was Spoilt Today Also. My Partner Is A Male Model And Today I Was Invited To See Him On Th Catwalk In A Westend Fashion Show. Only The Rich And Famour Go lol!. So I Was Greatly Honoured And Very Proud To See Him Modeling Live. I Had a Wonderful Day Im In Awe Right Now He Looked Very Handsome.. ;-)
How awesome that you got to go watch and root him on. Congratulations to him, what an excitement that must be! I hope you two were able to come home and relax after, I am sure he must of had tons of pressure!
Oooh I would soooo love a jet style jacuzzi bath. I adore baths; they're so much more relaxing than showers. I have at least 1 bath each day with ESPA oils (gotta be careful; oils can make the bath slippery...). I cannot imagine eating in the bath though. Maybe I should try it...
Have you been out in the sun or are you naturally so tanned? xxx
Aren't they fabulous? My Mom has the hook up! Omg sllippery, yes, gotta be so careful. I hope you enjoy a nice meal in the bath, it's so relaxing for me. Tan? Cathy haha I am so pale right now compared to how I can look but thank you! I have not been out in the sun and want to but also need to watch all the new tattoos and sun damage... This video has actual real light without all that glow/flare like in my house with the webcam so you probably get a better idea of my skin here : ) hugs
Yes, in your webcam videos the light is always shining on your face so it looks paler. You must have a natural, Italiano (?) olive skin. I have to use total sunblock when I'm outside because I frazzle bright red! I have been burnt badly by sun before, not because of sunbathing, which I don't do, but just walking outside or playing in the garden. My family all have dark hair and your colouring. I'm a genetic throwback...
You have gorgeous porcelian skin. I always admire it in your videos.You are such a natural beauty my dear. Ps yes, I am Italian! I was a lot darker as a kid!
Hey yeah I did not but just my fiance finding the right dress can be tough, however I already have one that I bought originally a while ago. Its pretty. LOL its the one.
Ohhh thank you I will tell my Mom, it's her bathroom not mine! Mine is very small with a shower but no tub. Her house has 2 nice jet baths though so I can go upstairs to her house when I want a bath. We live on the same property in different houses - mines a small 1 bedroom apartment in laws unit.
Dang Cindy I have been worried about you, alone over there this weekend and not responsive. I am glad to hear you were out in the garden all day and hope your weekend was safe and sane sweetheart as I know you ain't in that yard all night, ha! Can't fool me. What did you do in the garden? weed? plant? both?
Yes, here in America most people call it Baysul and in Canada and the Uk I hear Bazul... either way it's delicious. I don't hear it pronounced bazul much over here and when I do it sounds aggressive lol I think baysul sounds more delicate but maybe it's just because that's how I've heard it my whole life and I'm use to it.
the Y is pronounced like an "E" like, e-lange e-lange
smells lovely!!! :) Yummy zuchini pasta you have there.
Today I honored myself by calling a friend for a ride home from work cause I'm super tired today.... rather than pushing through the tiredness and riding my bike for 1hr home. We had a nice chat on the drive home too.
The ribbons of the pasta were as long as my belt, I kid you not. It was outrageous! I am so glad you did that Beet. I am confused though, someone below said the Y s are silent and you are saying they are Es?
She does, it's insane but a 1 hour bike ride? if 1 hour to work and then back home = 2 hours that is not acceptable at all in my book. We will have to tag team her fairy wings. I truly hope 2 hours on the bike, in addition to 2 jobs and yoga is not the case. I will be very upset.
When I work at the bakery, it's a 1hr bike ride.... that's only twice a week, so it's ok, and the fresh air is great! Except for right now, allergies are kicking my butt - I'm looking into getting an 'e-bike' as soon as I'm able to, then I can just sit my butt down and zip across the city without effort. :) Wheee! And horrah for e-lang -e-lang!!! I had the best aromatherapy teacher EVER! And that's how she pronounced it. Props to Jane! :)
Thank you so much! I just approved and responded. Yellow is so your color. I am so feeling a yellow shirt and sunshine vibe from you today. I am lime today, like an under-ripe avocado color. You've brought me a lot of joy today through the vid response and the poetry reading. Amen sister! Now go enjoy your evening! Ps our family dogs were goldens, they are amazing dogs! so lovey dovey!
This is such a lovely "This is the day that the Lord hath made" video!
Today in honour of myself I am going to water my plants and nourish them, and enjoy a lovely crisp organic apple (I am waiting for it to chill in the refrigerator). Num num!
Anne this is great!!! how sweet!!! what kind of apple did you enjoy? I love chilled fruit, mmm...ps. I sing that song a lot when I'm hanging around the house or on a nature walk, it brings back good childhood memories. Thank you for including this in your comment, really.
hugs, they are one of my favorites. i am a pisces/water sign and love natural spring pools, oceans, creeks, lakes, hidden water pools... and of course lovely baths at home! you should take one tonight, honor yourself sabrina, you deserve it dear. hugs and healing!
lang lang! thank you, the bottle was out of reach so i couldn't look at it to remember the spelling. lang lang is lovely, great stuff... especially with roses! i love baths too, even more so now that i dont pile toxic chemicals in there like all the soaps you see that my mom owns, ahh, i use to love bath bubbles but now really just can enjoy aroma extracts, flowers and hot steam! the goes on the skin goes into the body, best to keep it as close to nature as possible : )
why the hell do we care to see u half naked
vittoria743 1 year ago
The pasta looks gross... [no offense] but I really wanna try it o.o
I like to try new things ^-^
DeafBatChild 1 year ago
it is ee-lang ee-lang
:)
It's my favorite :)
92luster 2 years ago
are you boy or girl or just both?
Juljiia 2 years ago
Hopefully you don;t mean this rudely
but he is a boy
and he is probably the most amazing person on youtube!
92luster 2 years ago
@Juljiia fuck your rude
karleebrook 1 year ago
nice video,
i am ubbing my feet wit rose scent and i like it
teddybool 2 years ago
that pasta looks DELICIOUS
aubreycanfield 2 years ago
I LOVE you, this video makes me feel so positive, your amazing, beautiful and just YOU dont change lots of love Hayley xxx
alekinsno1 2 years ago
Haha ^_^
You are so awsome, I mean that!
ericarichburg1114 2 years ago
That bath looks so relaxing and the smell of the flowers must have boosted your mood so much. I have to try that sometime.
jdpasino 2 years ago
Beautiful flowers in the water ; )
NGTHelena 2 years ago
omg this looks soo relaxing
mimiloveschris 2 years ago
i wish i had that bathtub, flowers/food/ and a coca cola would do for me:) and tv!:)
cool videos!
magickisreal92 2 years ago
its prononced yang yang
rennickelizabe 2 years ago
"and here's my feet saying 'hello'(:"
leatherlips33 2 years ago
a beautiful way to honor yourself, i love taking a bath. looks like fun my dear! i started laughing when u turned the bubbles on, how cute are u? lol
Limabean120 2 years ago
thanks! i like your view on raw foods, keeping it simple, thats what i do. :) im lovin your videos, im playing catch up now.
asimp333 2 years ago
cute video. lovely bath and your meal looks great. could you share your recipe with me? im loving your videos, very uplifting, i have to subscribe. :)
asimp333 2 years ago
Thanks sweetie. All I did was use a spiral slicer - google it if you don't own one - a zucchini, then I diced an avocado on top of it, mixed it together and sprinkled 1-2 teaspoons of dulse seaweed on top. Once you have your raw pasta your possibilities are endless. Ps. Oh I chopped some lemon basil to toss in this one too.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
i wish i could enjoy a bath...i have a bathtub phobia. *sigh*
it is good to see someone like you who can be good to their self. i have a very hard time of it.
sweetsmile1 2 years ago
ylang ylan is pronouned lang a lang
OInvisibleO 2 years ago
This video is lovely :D, you have such a lovely kind nature about you. You just seem to beam with happiness and joy, when ever I watch your videos, you make me smile. I'm glad to see you're treating yourself! and making the most of your sunday, it sounded very calming and fun :D
Take care xx
*lulu*
Humblelulu 2 years ago
I love your bathtub! If I had one like that, I'm afraid I'd never get out. The piercing by your eye, near your cheek, looks awsome. I bet that was super painful. Ouch! The food looked yummy too.
MACingyouup 2 years ago
did i see a dookie
smugverve 2 years ago
I need this right now, I just need to relax.
My wieght is going up, and down, Up and down, My emotions are spazzing out of control, I want to cry, Just sit here and cry, I want to feel what silence feels like, I want so many things, And the worst part is, I just want to be loved, I just want to feel like, The things im doing in life, Make sense, the things I do for everyone else, Will make me happy, It doesnt and that sounds mean, Im hating my self, Im hating my friends, Im hating life*cont*
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
Ive been putting SO much effort into making my situation perfect, Im draining my self, I just want to be happy, and i dont know how to! I wish I could relax like you do, but I cant, I have no time, I have no space, Im going crazy. I dont know the point to this, But Im sure there is one. I envy you, I envy how relaxed you are, how peacefull the bath was, I envy your friends, Your family, Your support system... Ugh, i want to sleep, for days, weeks, Months, I just want to get away, Go FAR away
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
NEver come back, But i cant, I work non stop, THe only reason im working so much is so i can go to cali to see this awesome guy, But I ruin everything, I cant have a productive relationship, I know im slowly killing us, I can feel it, But i cant help it, I try to make everyone happy, Im willing to spend 1500 for 4 fucking days! I just want to meet him, I love him and I cant hold it back, But I know hes not exactly feeling that, I know if i met him, Id have a great time, But we are so far away
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
from eachotheri ts hard, Im willing to pay the whole way, im willing to pay his way down here, Im willing to do EVERYTHING for anyone, And it should make me happpy, But im slowly going into a deep depression, Im hating my self, Food, Others, Im starting to be disgusted with the way i act, Im disgusted in how I can love someone so much, But somehow ill find a way to ruin it, And you know what? I just love to much, I love so much and i get so little back, but i dont care, all i want is a friend,
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
I dont think its so much to ask. While im still talking about love, He knows this awesome guy, and im scared.. im scared to know,I love him so much, but he could be gone any second.. Im thinking about so many things, Ive thought about death, but i dont know.. im sorry for flooding here, But I have nobody to listen, or even give a damn what I say, and it hurts... it really hurts. I wishhh I could be like you jhonny... I really do
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
Dexter, that was really intense. It sounds like allowing your emotional health out of control is allowing your life out of control and visa versa. No one wins. This is my honest and blunt response. I know you respect my opionon and know I care about you. Stop. Slow down. You will never reach perfection, no one will - quit trying while you are ahead. Stop complaining, don't evny, get ahold of yourself and give gratitude for all that you have and all that you are. You are not your damn eds honey.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You aren't super human Dexter, no one is. You are living in a self made cage and only you have the key to get out. Reread everything you wrote. Putting this much focus on your problems only worsens them. You are enabling that mindset by giving it power. Freedom is earned my friend not given away or handed on a silver platter.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You want it? go out and get it. A good start is to change your mentality. Start looking at what you are doing to get better verse what isn't going the way you want it to - and what isn't going how you want it to, not how the ed wants it to, go out and get it. It's not as hard as you think to find once you get your head out of the negative mind's ass which is where it clearly is right now....
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
That is as honest as I can put it, my blunt thoughts exactly. Dexter are you in therapy right now? We all need safe places to process because a majority of the time our own heads aren't even a safe place. It is good to release, it's okay to cry if you can allow yourself too. Please consider some mental support for better mental sanity, you seriously deserve it. If you are willing to work for the boy, are you willing to work for you? step by step. Ps. Where in CA is he?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
he lives in Valencia,CA. I told him what I feel, And he turns around, Sends me pictures of this guy hes been chatting too, and tells me the 'awesome' time he had. I have read everything over and your right, Ive just been so messed up in my head lately, June is never a good month for me, and it never will be- something happened one june- I take everything you just said to heart- I needed someone who would just give it to me straight, and not sugar coat it, I need to let everyone go, and
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
just focus on me. I havent been taking care of my self, Ive been putting 100% of my energy into him, my Eds have taken a rampage on my body, Im dropping weight like a tree sheds it leaves, I just need to sit alone, in the dark, no music, no noise, and just think of everything- is this worth it? Am I worth it? Im affraid of what he will say to me :( he still hasent said anything back from my last message, and thats what hurts the most,
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
I dont want to be the ONLY thing he thinks about, just know he does think and he does care, Thats all i need.
I am not in theripy, I have never thought about it, because truthfully, Im scared to know about my self, I dont want to go back into my past, find out how i messed up, And what i can do to fix it, I dont want to find out im the reason my life is so messed up- I read that back, and I sound crazy! i just need to get away, I just need to be mee, and love my self.
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
Damn Dex if you could think of all this then you can think of therapy. Please consider getting help. How do you expect things to change without it? As for this guy Dex, do you honestly think you are stable to even consider relationships? Instability ruins things, trust me - ruined my last one and this is why I avoid it. I may come on cam and be having a good day but that doesn't mean I am always honkey dorey happy. I am very active in fear and addiction, I'm sorry but that's the dang game truth.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Thank you so much for your help today.
Today still feels like a dream i want to wake up out of.
I will think about getting help, I promise. Its just the place I am in right now, financially i just cant. As long as i can get by, day to day, Ill do alright. But I do need to just.. disapear for awhile. I think that might help me.
TheonlyDexter 2 years ago
We can't run or get away from ourselves and whatever is going on is for a reason and can be learned and evolved from. Go to Ed Referral or Something Fishy and look into local therapist. Most do insurance, some do sliding scale. There is no excuse to not even look into it. If you fear yourself then you don't really know yourself, therapy will help you sort thoughts so you can be free to be yourself without all these issues preventing you from doing so.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
looooooovely!
p8anut 2 years ago
you pronounce it yuh-lang-yuh-lang. mmmm, it IS a lovely scented essential oil...and natural oil as well :) One of my favorites.
HowBadDoiWantThis 2 years ago
its not and i just ment to ask that for a long time. if they dont like your videos theey shuldent rate it. i watch all your videos!
ilovesimspets 2 years ago
is the reason you can't rate this because you can't put a rateing on life, because you can't.
ilovesimspets 2 years ago
Sorry but this comment makes no logical sense. I do not understand your point, period. What is it?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I can't tell if this is open thinking or an open attack. I disable ratings due to a whole clan of bitter, hateful, lonely and sick minded people who harrass me on you tube, down rate my videos and talk major trash. They are blocked yet continue to keep making accounts just to come and harrass me and in order to protect my channel and friends I have to project my videos.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
oh wow thats seriously awful! D= Im sorry you have to deal with such horrible people as that! I enjoy watching your videos, and they always make me laugh n_n Thank you for taking the time and effort, as well as, always having something totally original to talk about. Stay strong! =)
karrot16 2 years ago
Hey lovey! I'm glad i watched this! Your bath looks very relaxing and peaceful! I just wanna hop in! :) Hope you enjoyed it! x
Italia0185 2 years ago
When I was younger my best friends and I use to fill it up with bubbles, run the jets and overflow the entire tub all over the floor. I miss tub parties like that! No reason why I still can't do them... hello kitty bikini bottoms and all. I watched some of your new video. I love the new tattoo, it's gorgeous. I am sorry to hear you passed out again though... not sure how to respond to that one except send you peace and prayers for more mental and physical stability.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Oh i love bubbles and jets! The bathroom at my moms house is just like your mom's and i love to just veg out in it with lavender oil and bubbles!! So much fun! Yes, I love my tattoo also! Thank you for your sweet comment. Hey sweetheart, i was wondering if i could ask you a question? totally random, but did you ever have an endoscopy done? I have to have one and im completely nervous and scared!!
Italia0185 2 years ago
You have every right to be nervous but rest assured that whoever is doing it is well trained and knows what they are doing. I have never had one even though I have needed one at many times. I let fear keep me from getting them in the past which may have been very ignorant on my part. I recommend you address your fears in therapy and get some good advice on how to relax prior to going in and what you can do to support yourself after. Bringing a close friend helps too. It will come and go quickly.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
When, as in date, are you getting your ednoscopy? and are you getting it due to health problems (gerd, tears, ulcers, etc.?) or just doing a check up considering you deal with bulimic purging? This is one of the most common medical tests people dealing with bulimia get done. You are not alone, many have gotten endoscopies and many have not let fear keep them from getting them... I am proud of you for standing up and getting it done if you or the doctors feel it's needed right now.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I already watched this, but I had to watch it again. Love everything you say in the 'more info' part of the video. I love your feet!!!!
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
Ah, you are so lovely. I love that you came back here and my feet love the compliments too. They have a mind of their own, seriously! Ha. I am looking forward to getting Spirit Filled and Thrilled tonight at church!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
What an awesome video to start the day!
You definitely put a smile on my face..hope you're having a wonderful Tuesday morning!
Many hugs from New Mexico your way ~
C~
wrongdom 2 years ago
Wonderful! Ps I hear New Mexico is beautiful but I'm sure they say that because you are there, smile.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
so this might be a stupid question and I'm sorry before I even ask it but, you say you're on a raw diet (if I remember right)..well do you eat any meat at all? or just uncooked fruit and veggies? I saw a program on televison(maybe not the best place to get my information) and they said they were on a 'raw diet' and ate raw meat that was spoiled! Breif, what is your diet
lhsdixiedoll 2 years ago
Think of raw like how you would a religion, there are different demoniations aka ways of eating raw. I eat raw vegan, this means I eat ALL my food raw and honey comes from animals - no meat, cheese, milk, butter, etc - except my raw honey used when I have ulcer attacks. So no, i do not eat meat nor do I support eating it and feel it's a horribly selfish and cruel thing to logically do. Some who are raw eat raw meat, gross. The body was also not meant to eat it/digest it in the first place!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I really want to start eating more raw foods-do you have any recipes or sites you get your recipes?
thanks
lhsdixiedoll 2 years ago
We have the same St.Ives oatmeal body wash. Lol! I just thought that was cool.
faete31 2 years ago
Cute, smile. Those aren't my beauty products. I am trying to limit my toxic intake which includes all unnatural skin care since the skin is 1 the largest organ and 2 absorbs into the body on a cellular level what is put on top of it...My Mom has a bunch of toxic smelly stuff up there!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Today. this is what im going to do..well along side other things. but im going to have an amazing bath with rose petals in :) thats such a lovely idea! xxx
NoTimeForLoveAgain 2 years ago
word up! you best GO all out!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
ha! in the orange slip! i was painting them purple i believe. those were the days. is it wrong that this comment attracts my attention... greatly? ah!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
you so made my day. seriously. feet hellos are the best, ever. my feet are very friendly. hi to your toos!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
This was a wonderful video. I think I will get some yoga in today to make myself feel less stiff and to take away some of the stress I am feeling. :)
ShantimayaShiva 2 years ago
I like the sound of that!
Thank you, hugs.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
That raw zucchini pasta looks delicious :)
Yesterday I spent the day with my family, went to church, baked a batch of chocolate chip cookies, relaxied in the backyard on my hammock and went for a jog at sunset :)
glamonicaa 2 years ago
How lovely, thank you for sharing! The pasta was delish but too much on my tummy. I kept it in though but had to deal with tummy problems, now I remember why I don't eat it much anymore. My body is so use to SIMPLE meals made from my Vitamix or like mashed avocado and sprouts. Oh well, it was delish treat of it's kind!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I'm so happy you kept it in Johnny! Just as long as you dont eat too much to the point of you feeling sick, I hate feeling too full. Once in a while I'm sure its a good treat :)
glamonicaa 2 years ago
No worries about that one dear, I would never do that due to anorexia and bulimia... I know, logically know, how much my body can take at it's frail state. I go through and experience refeeding syndrome while my body remains at this place of health and weight. I can only fit a small amount at once or all hell - mental and physical, as well as physiological, takes place.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Wonderful and Good For You For Pampering Yourself , I Was Spoilt Today Also. My Partner Is A Male Model And Today I Was Invited To See Him On Th Catwalk In A Westend Fashion Show. Only The Rich And Famour Go lol!. So I Was Greatly Honoured And Very Proud To See Him Modeling Live. I Had a Wonderful Day Im In Awe Right Now He Looked Very Handsome.. ;-)
SNSV51 2 years ago
How awesome that you got to go watch and root him on. Congratulations to him, what an excitement that must be! I hope you two were able to come home and relax after, I am sure he must of had tons of pressure!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Oooh I would soooo love a jet style jacuzzi bath. I adore baths; they're so much more relaxing than showers. I have at least 1 bath each day with ESPA oils (gotta be careful; oils can make the bath slippery...). I cannot imagine eating in the bath though. Maybe I should try it...
Have you been out in the sun or are you naturally so tanned? xxx
misstiggykins 2 years ago
Aren't they fabulous? My Mom has the hook up! Omg sllippery, yes, gotta be so careful. I hope you enjoy a nice meal in the bath, it's so relaxing for me. Tan? Cathy haha I am so pale right now compared to how I can look but thank you! I have not been out in the sun and want to but also need to watch all the new tattoos and sun damage... This video has actual real light without all that glow/flare like in my house with the webcam so you probably get a better idea of my skin here : ) hugs
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Yes, in your webcam videos the light is always shining on your face so it looks paler. You must have a natural, Italiano (?) olive skin. I have to use total sunblock when I'm outside because I frazzle bright red! I have been burnt badly by sun before, not because of sunbathing, which I don't do, but just walking outside or playing in the garden. My family all have dark hair and your colouring. I'm a genetic throwback...
misstiggykins 2 years ago
You have gorgeous porcelian skin. I always admire it in your videos.You are such a natural beauty my dear. Ps yes, I am Italian! I was a lot darker as a kid!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
What a great idea! Hope you had a lovely soak and you-time. I think it's pronounced "elang elang" as well :) xx
wishtheimpossible 2 years ago
Yesterday was very good for me, thank you honey.
and eelang eelang is correct, boo ya!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
hey :) your so sweet, i love watching your videos because they always put a smile on my face :)
such a nice bathroom too! :p
lots of love
xoxo
foreverdamagED 2 years ago
Thank you very much dear. I love smiles, the more the merrier. My Mom keeps her house up very nice, classy lady!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
To honour myself today I am going to the mall to try on discounted dresses for my wedding. :)
AngelEyesSmile 2 years ago
Goodluck omg tell me if you found one!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Hey yeah I did not but just my fiance finding the right dress can be tough, however I already have one that I bought originally a while ago. Its pretty. LOL its the one.
AngelEyesSmile 2 years ago
i believe you may be akling about ylang ylang, which is pronounced yulang yulang. Happing bathing.
AngelEyesSmile 2 years ago
That looks so relaxing!
Today I took a very much needed nap and then woke up and made some pasta.
I promised myself I wouldn't purge today, and I didn't. :-)
supkeiha 2 years ago
wow how relaxing!!
I love the roses on the water, they look really nice! :-). I wish I could see those beautiful trees trough the window wile I'm having a bath!
The "hello!!" part with your feet made me laugh loud! very funny LOL.
love, love you!
GISMOON8 2 years ago
I am so jealous of your bathroom. I love the windows and love the tub. In a year or two I would love to redo my bathroom just like yours : )
fairy20tails 2 years ago
Ohhh thank you I will tell my Mom, it's her bathroom not mine! Mine is very small with a shower but no tub. Her house has 2 nice jet baths though so I can go upstairs to her house when I want a bath. We live on the same property in different houses - mines a small 1 bedroom apartment in laws unit.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
thats such a beautiful setting with the windows open. you look really great. i love you and your smile
FrozenCharles 2 years ago
Thank you and a million smiles your way!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
You and David Bowie make my life bearable. x
DeccaQuinne 2 years ago
Now THAT's the way to take a bath! Truly wonderous with the petals and candles. You deserve to honor yourself like that whenever you can. :)
(I worked in the garden most of the day yesterday and today, so I haven't been online. I'm sorry. I'm thinking of you all the time. Love you.
xoxo
peppernme 2 years ago
Dang Cindy I have been worried about you, alone over there this weekend and not responsive. I am glad to hear you were out in the garden all day and hope your weekend was safe and sane sweetheart as I know you ain't in that yard all night, ha! Can't fool me. What did you do in the garden? weed? plant? both?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
this is random, but you say bay-sul (basil) and we say baz-ul, do all americans pronounce it like that?lol.
skinnyones1122 2 years ago
Yes, here in America most people call it Baysul and in Canada and the Uk I hear Bazul... either way it's delicious. I don't hear it pronounced bazul much over here and when I do it sounds aggressive lol I think baysul sounds more delicate but maybe it's just because that's how I've heard it my whole life and I'm use to it.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
great video i want to go in that bath!!!
sushicatny 2 years ago
i will run you one and then leave you too it! i will place peach and pink roses in there for you and a sprig of mint!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
feet!
wolffenhaus 2 years ago
ohhh yaaayyy, quite the charmers i say!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
Oh, it's looks so nice there.. I NEED a big bathroom when I get my own place. So lovely! xox
miniaturepanda 2 years ago
My place has a stand up shower but upstairs there are 2 jacuzzi baths so I am very lucky to be able to use them as I please!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
the Y is pronounced like an "E" like, e-lange e-lange
smells lovely!!! :) Yummy zuchini pasta you have there.
Today I honored myself by calling a friend for a ride home from work cause I'm super tired today.... rather than pushing through the tiredness and riding my bike for 1hr home. We had a nice chat on the drive home too.
theskinnypig 2 years ago
The ribbons of the pasta were as long as my belt, I kid you not. It was outrageous! I am so glad you did that Beet. I am confused though, someone below said the Y s are silent and you are saying they are Es?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
according to multiple online sources there is an E in there not a silent Y... thanks Beet!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
also, 1 hour home? i thought work wasn't far of a ride??? where were you dear?
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
It's so good to hear that you allowed yourself to get driven home. You work way too hard girl! :)
peppernme 2 years ago
She does, it's insane but a 1 hour bike ride? if 1 hour to work and then back home = 2 hours that is not acceptable at all in my book. We will have to tag team her fairy wings. I truly hope 2 hours on the bike, in addition to 2 jobs and yoga is not the case. I will be very upset.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
oh! I thought YT ate this comment, lol.
When I work at the bakery, it's a 1hr bike ride.... that's only twice a week, so it's ok, and the fresh air is great! Except for right now, allergies are kicking my butt - I'm looking into getting an 'e-bike' as soon as I'm able to, then I can just sit my butt down and zip across the city without effort. :) Wheee! And horrah for e-lang -e-lang!!! I had the best aromatherapy teacher EVER! And that's how she pronounced it. Props to Jane! :)
theskinnypig 2 years ago
I nice thing to do on Sunday's is check out an Antique market or shop. I love doing that on Sundays. So many beautiful interesting, unique things.
The beach is also great.
avaleila 2 years ago
Lovely! Did you find anything at the antique store? I love them so much.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I sent a vid response...
I'm not sure if it worked or not since it's my first time doing it.
If not you can probably veiw it from my channel.
silver18tiara 2 years ago
Thank you so much! I just approved and responded. Yellow is so your color. I am so feeling a yellow shirt and sunshine vibe from you today. I am lime today, like an under-ripe avocado color. You've brought me a lot of joy today through the vid response and the poetry reading. Amen sister! Now go enjoy your evening! Ps our family dogs were goldens, they are amazing dogs! so lovey dovey!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
this is a great video with a great message
thesmiths1013 2 years ago
Thank you so much, hugs!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
This is such a lovely "This is the day that the Lord hath made" video!
Today in honour of myself I am going to water my plants and nourish them, and enjoy a lovely crisp organic apple (I am waiting for it to chill in the refrigerator). Num num!
xoxo
anne
pantheonpedant 2 years ago
Anne this is great!!! how sweet!!! what kind of apple did you enjoy? I love chilled fruit, mmm...ps. I sing that song a lot when I'm hanging around the house or on a nature walk, it brings back good childhood memories. Thank you for including this in your comment, really.
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I'm gunna honor myself by drinking a soda
cascadeice20 2 years ago
Smile, whatever works for you dear! Enjoy!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
I LOVE baths! They are soo soothing, its good your giving yourself a treat, you deserve it Johnny. Love ya
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
hugs, they are one of my favorites. i am a pisces/water sign and love natural spring pools, oceans, creeks, lakes, hidden water pools... and of course lovely baths at home! you should take one tonight, honor yourself sabrina, you deserve it dear. hugs and healing!
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago
hugs back! I just might! lol I could use some relaxation!
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
It's pronounced lang lang... the "y"s are silent. I love bathing!
Cintaku78 2 years ago
lang lang! thank you, the bottle was out of reach so i couldn't look at it to remember the spelling. lang lang is lovely, great stuff... especially with roses! i love baths too, even more so now that i dont pile toxic chemicals in there like all the soaps you see that my mom owns, ahh, i use to love bath bubbles but now really just can enjoy aroma extracts, flowers and hot steam! the goes on the skin goes into the body, best to keep it as close to nature as possible : )
MyOwnStickFigure 2 years ago