It must be frustrating to try to be offensive and it just doesn't work...and clearly between the two of us - I am the abnormal one, not you who is leaving comments on my page. Interesting.
Emotionally I am nowhere NEAR 35!! I'm not on T yet but I am getting ready to start very soon. I feel like a child right now. Trapped in boyhood. I am sure I will be where you are once I start T. I appreciate you making vids like this because you are so eloquent with words. And you are able to say things in a way that a lot of us feel but can't put words to. Thanks Aydin.
HI,I'm trans too.I just wanna say that this is the 3rd vlog that I've watched today of a trans going thru some stuff & it's sad to watch.I've been thru the same stuff but I got over it.Depression will eat you alive. I helped my own self by meditation & hanging around w/positive people.I understand the fact that we are all different,what worked for me doesn't mean will work for others. All I'm saying is we're lucky enough to have transitioned period..It's not really that bad at all guys,be Positv
You are so beautifully articulate. I really am just sitting here, fighting back tears. You bring up so many valid feelings and points that I feel, too, but have not yet been able to express so eloquently. I am not even near the point of transitioning; though I am definitely in a questioning period in my life. Yet, I can echo everything that you have said. I realized that I, too, have lived my life so reactively, rather than intentionally. Powerful shit. Thank you for sharing it all.
"Live with intention. Cause I can't go back to a life of not living with intention and not making intentional decisions and accepting the consequences of those decisions. But with that, I don't know where I want to go, I don't know what I want to do, I don't even know who I am. And it's really hard, and it's really scary and people in my world expect me to have it all figured out, and I don't have it all figured out. And I don't know to figure it out." You blow me away...
You should really save this video, because youve outwardly described what so many people, whether transitioning by gender or via any other transitional state, feel. You said it profoundly.
But I think our biggest contradictor is ourself. Life is nothing but one change to the next, and how gracefully we do so- and how much we learn from our changes.
My question is, do we spend less time talking & questioning and just DO shit
Watching this vid was the first time I've been able to feel tears run down my face since starting T. Thank you for your insight brother. Thank you for helping me find words for how I feel.
That is a difficult--how to incorporate ALL of your life as a trans person, before and after transition, into a coherent whole. I think we all struggle with this. I wish I had answers for us both.
You're a beautiful soul, Aydin. I'm so glad you've chosen to share so much of yourself with the world.
It was more than 10 years ago, so some of the things they did were legal and some where not. I was 17 and didn't have the courage or the strength to fight an entire College system, to take them all on. I was just one person. My experience was in TX, but ppl are being harmed and discriminated against all over the country everyday.
uhh, dude. I hate to tell you this, but MOST of the country is homophobic. Where have you been? The large urban areas in all states (including Texas) vote democratic, and many have anti-discrimination ordinances, but most of the small towns don't have those protections.
I'm aware of this fact, but New York City is among the most gay friendly cities out there. I live in NYC and went to school here. Openly gay people everywhere, and the schools have lots of gay/straight alliances. I can't say for sure, but I have my SINCERE doubts that an NYC college would give people crap for being gay.
I live in a tiny town in Alabama. Auburn University is one of the hugest schools in the country and they also have a gay/straight alliance and there is no way you would get kicked out of the school for being gay. I go to the weekly group even though I don't go to the school and there are many people there that are openly gay. So I agree with InYourFaceNewYorker on this one.
I hear from you an opportunity to continue stepping towards your future, bringing with you everything you are. What a scary new territory it must feel like. Did you ever watch Indiana Jones? remember when he gets to that cliff? If I keep taking the next step putting one foot in front of the other everything turns out ok...
well......... a normal person would think YESSS dugh hahahaha
ivahris 2 years ago
tranny
ivahris 2 years ago
Uh huh...I am. Was that meant to be offensive?
33Aydin 2 years ago
It must be frustrating to try to be offensive and it just doesn't work...and clearly between the two of us - I am the abnormal one, not you who is leaving comments on my page. Interesting.
33Aydin 2 years ago
Emotionally I am nowhere NEAR 35!! I'm not on T yet but I am getting ready to start very soon. I feel like a child right now. Trapped in boyhood. I am sure I will be where you are once I start T. I appreciate you making vids like this because you are so eloquent with words. And you are able to say things in a way that a lot of us feel but can't put words to. Thanks Aydin.
tayllor2900 3 years ago
HI,I'm trans too.I just wanna say that this is the 3rd vlog that I've watched today of a trans going thru some stuff & it's sad to watch.I've been thru the same stuff but I got over it.Depression will eat you alive. I helped my own self by meditation & hanging around w/positive people.I understand the fact that we are all different,what worked for me doesn't mean will work for others. All I'm saying is we're lucky enough to have transitioned period..It's not really that bad at all guys,be Positv
BENrookie17 3 years ago
Tears and talking are my favorite form of therapy, of gathering my strength. It's pure.
angelbeast77 3 years ago
You are so beautifully articulate. I really am just sitting here, fighting back tears. You bring up so many valid feelings and points that I feel, too, but have not yet been able to express so eloquently. I am not even near the point of transitioning; though I am definitely in a questioning period in my life. Yet, I can echo everything that you have said. I realized that I, too, have lived my life so reactively, rather than intentionally. Powerful shit. Thank you for sharing it all.
Saxwoman2 3 years ago
"Live with intention. Cause I can't go back to a life of not living with intention and not making intentional decisions and accepting the consequences of those decisions. But with that, I don't know where I want to go, I don't know what I want to do, I don't even know who I am. And it's really hard, and it's really scary and people in my world expect me to have it all figured out, and I don't have it all figured out. And I don't know to figure it out." You blow me away...
Saxwoman2 3 years ago
ah Aydin sorry- I couldnt quite finish the comment so go ahead and erase it. I owe you a thought of mine.
:)
mercy32o 3 years ago
I think you did a great job explaining yourself.
You should really save this video, because youve outwardly described what so many people, whether transitioning by gender or via any other transitional state, feel. You said it profoundly.
But I think our biggest contradictor is ourself. Life is nothing but one change to the next, and how gracefully we do so- and how much we learn from our changes.
My question is, do we spend less time talking & questioning and just DO shit
mercy32o 3 years ago
I agree with Carson! I think you are so powerful and the honesty and integrity that you speak with is moving.
KrisES46 3 years ago
Aydin,
Watching this vid was the first time I've been able to feel tears run down my face since starting T. Thank you for your insight brother. Thank you for helping me find words for how I feel.
Sincerely,
Jack
littlefastcar 3 years ago
That is a difficult--how to incorporate ALL of your life as a trans person, before and after transition, into a coherent whole. I think we all struggle with this. I wish I had answers for us both.
You're a beautiful soul, Aydin. I'm so glad you've chosen to share so much of yourself with the world.
changingone77 3 years ago
really liked the half circle analogy, thanks for sharing
snipncody 3 years ago
Ugh, can the school legally kick you out for your sexual orientation? Texas... Texas... ugh!
InYourFaceNewYorker 3 years ago
It was more than 10 years ago, so some of the things they did were legal and some where not. I was 17 and didn't have the courage or the strength to fight an entire College system, to take them all on. I was just one person. My experience was in TX, but ppl are being harmed and discriminated against all over the country everyday.
33Aydin 3 years ago
Too bad you didn't go to school in NYC or San Francisco... very unlikely that you would have gotten thrown out for something stupid like that.
InYourFaceNewYorker 3 years ago
uhh, dude. I hate to tell you this, but MOST of the country is homophobic. Where have you been? The large urban areas in all states (including Texas) vote democratic, and many have anti-discrimination ordinances, but most of the small towns don't have those protections.
carsonrader 3 years ago
I'm aware of this fact, but New York City is among the most gay friendly cities out there. I live in NYC and went to school here. Openly gay people everywhere, and the schools have lots of gay/straight alliances. I can't say for sure, but I have my SINCERE doubts that an NYC college would give people crap for being gay.
InYourFaceNewYorker 3 years ago
I live in a tiny town in Alabama. Auburn University is one of the hugest schools in the country and they also have a gay/straight alliance and there is no way you would get kicked out of the school for being gay. I go to the weekly group even though I don't go to the school and there are many people there that are openly gay. So I agree with InYourFaceNewYorker on this one.
tayllor2900 3 years ago
Okay...this makes better sense. Yeah, we have come a ways in the last 10 years. I'm sorry you got kicked out. :(
tayllor2900 3 years ago
I hear from you an opportunity to continue stepping towards your future, bringing with you everything you are. What a scary new territory it must feel like. Did you ever watch Indiana Jones? remember when he gets to that cliff? If I keep taking the next step putting one foot in front of the other everything turns out ok...
KrisES46 3 years ago
I was choking up watching...much respect to you and your mom.
I liked your circle analogy. Again, so insightful.
XYinside 3 years ago 2