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  • hun way to go on you! i have to agree also with the it doesnt matter how deep or big a scra is, its still self harm, your one of the bravest ppl i know! and good on you for having the guts to do this video and i can tell you were not doing it for attention, hope you are getting along ok

    xoxo ~murphycory

  • I hate when you tell someone about cutting and they act like its the most perverse act you could have ever commited. Its like at my school a million people have done more abuse to me than a self inflicted cut i did on my own. Its like its ok for you to hurt me? but when i cut myself its such a huge crime. Even if its verbal or physical abuse they did to u, what they do to you makes you want to do this or atleast in my case... I hate how people can be so fricken ignorant sometimes.

  • You're the most desirable woman I've ever seen... I wish I could meet you.

  • I can't quite hear well with my speakers, did you say you needed stitches? i see some of your scars are big, did those bleed alot?

  • @XoXoMidoXoXo yes, i needed stitches

  • you kept so calm throughout this, if it was me i would have been crying, no-one in my family knows about my scares.... i have no clue of how to tell them, think my mum has seen some on my arm but doesn't want to say anything to me...

  • thank you

  • still love your hair and you :P

  • That was really brave of you =)

    I only showed my best friends my scars because one of them saw them because I didn't pull my sleeve down far enough =(

  • this brought tears to my eyes :/ ive cut before and i still do but ur helping me threw it :)

  • Hey your really brave for putting this video up. Your videos have helped me get help for my anxiety and depression i wear hoodie's to hide my scars hope your getting better :D Btw your not fat or manly your really pretty.

  • Hahaha lol this is kinda random but you the ignorant people who are uneducated on the topic of SH? well sometimes they say something like down the road and across the street about attention and suicide? well what about diagnal bitch! sorry but i had to say that :l

  • Really? You have posted a video of your scars? What the hell is wrong with you? Cutting is one of the most deepest and darkest ways of dealing with things, your almost highlighting it as one of your perfections! do everyone a favour and don'y act like its okay to do that to yourself, because it isn't. Kids might watch this and be inspired to do it themselves. Get a grip, your not the only person who does this to your self, lets not turn the minority into the majority.

  • @maybeno1231 This is my body! This is reality! Truth is, everyone hears but never sees and i'm not afraid of putting myself out there to show people that they are not alone. I'm not highlighting my scars at all, i fucking hate them and have been ashamed for the past 6 years. This is me accepting my body, showing who i am! You know nothing about me so how about you mind your own business until you have something worth hearing? thanks, run along now!

  • @maybeno1231 you know this is two years old right? and if she was still like that you would have just made things worse

  • @maybeno1231 why would people be inspired by this, its showing you how you can still see them and showing people why they shouldn't cut because you end up with scars all over your arm. And she did say if you dont what to see them you dont have to watch it. if you didnt want to see them why did you watch it. leave her alone, its up to her what she does in her videos.

  • you're really pretty :)

  • i love you and what you do you are such an inspiration<3xx

  • :) you are cute you do not look like a fat man in that shirt lol

  • wow the big ones kinda freaked me out a little but thank you for sharing something so personal with us all :) you are really making a difference in people's lives by being open, honest, and giving good advice. Your channel has actually inspired me to want to help other people with BPD. I think it's one of the few things that can help my recovery and help me to resist self harming. Its been 4 years since I cut but I have to admit I have had a few close calls... unhealthy relationship...just ended

  • i bet that hurt

  • @myjle26 it didn't.

  • You are so amazing and wonderful. I wish you the best

  • you're so brave. be strong <3

  • i've been Self Harming since I was 11 , I'm almost 15 . i've got quite a bit of scars and my sister doesnt know that i SH. any Ways to apporach her before she see's my scars ?

  • You're a very beautiful girl :) <3

    I used to cut myselff too, only my arms , my scars stare and laugh at me each day and I can't forget my past because of them . The last time I cut myself was around a year ago but ever since I've been taking a lot of pills, very diffrent ones in large doses ..

    Only my ex boyfriend ever seen my scars properly , I'm pretty sure other people did too but no one ever said anything about them to my face.

  • @TakaSobieMalolata your scars are your battle wounds from your past . embrace them as such. its the sickness comming out into view . I look at mind and think this. its part of who you are. to me mind comphert me. saying.. soon this mental illness will be able to be publicly understandable. dont feel shame please. Im not saying keep doing it no way. im saying they are you my dear. love who you are!

  • I'm a 43 year old woman who Self harms brcouse of 20 years of any kind of trauma you can think of. Self Harm is not a "teen " thing like people out there think.. Its a mental condition .. and for the person who said Mine are bigger.. I never knew cutting yourself was a competition

  • @missborderlindmind Thanks for putting yourself out there and getting rid of the misconception that it's just a teen thing, i know a woman in her 50s that self harms and that seems to shock a lot of people

  • @Downtownpatrol Your so welcome hunny.. When people soon relize its a sickness a mental sickness .. mabye then they will understand.. Till then i say dont hide them I dont. people look.. but never say a thing. The longer we hide the longer it will take to GET TO the TRUTH! and open minds on HUMM this must be a real sickness not a call for attention.. :)

  • @missborderlindmind wow, i love your way of looking at it! great point you have there, maybe when summer comes i can bring myself to wear short sleeves and encourage other to as well! :)

  • @Downtownpatrol yes take a stand I do it and will never hide who i am.. it reminds me of being gay and having to hide it. or being a witch and having to hid it and what does it do.. it kills! be who YOU are screw all the rest!

  • you are so brave showing them on youtube and if anyone does leave nasty comments they obviously dont know whats going on, iv been there and trust me i get stupid comments but your gorgeous and you look fairly happy, i respect you soo much and what you say is true! your amazing and iv subscribed;D tehe<3

  • SERIOUS QUESTION PLZ ANSWER !!! How Did You Manage To Show your scars on youtube i cant even manage to show them the doctor or to my councillor ???

  • @melaniebaby09 because it's a camera..not a person, i don't know the people watching this video. i don't ever show my scars in real life :P i suppose it's because i don't see any reactions but anyway, your counselor has no right or need to see your scars!! they're just being nosy.

  • A couple things to say: 1,youre so brave for posting a video of your scars. I respect you for that. 2, I've mostly stopped self-harming, and my scars are mostly faded. Mine are really small, too, because I'm afraid of people seeing. Lol. 3, you're really awesome. Just saying. XD

  • Oh My God Your So BEAUTIFUL!!! Your perfect in my eyes:)<3

  • Oh My God Your So BEAUTIFUL!!! Your perfect in my eyes:)<3

  • @Young214Texas aw thank you :)

  • @Young214Texas I agree Beautiful.

  • i self harm when im angery or sad... is that different? and i hid mine bcz i dont want people to think i wierd and like me bcz i dont look like i would self harm but i doo and it just kinda sux when i dont cover all of them or someone sees and says im emo what i really hate is that every1 always asks me why also sorry but i did start as an attention seeker

  • I self harm bcs it reales stress for me

  • i never cut myself ive come close but i remind myself that when i get a scar i want to get a big one defending the girl i cant help but like alot {:)

  • i think it is good to admit if u cut urself. everyone has bad days in there life.

  • I used to be addicted to it. Some days I still fight the urge, but I'm 13 months sober I guess you could say. I don't hide mine anymore. To me they're a reminder of how strong I am, I don't want to see another one next to them. They're almost beautiful in that way. I understand what you've gone/are going through. Hugs, you're beautiful.

  • when i asked you what you used to get the really big/wide scars where you needed stitches, you said there was a reason why you didnt share that information becaue you're about self help. I thought i offended by asking

  • you have a romeo and juliet poster in the background = instantly you are awesome.

  • Not sure how I got here.... but.... *HUG*

    I've known people who have harmed and I know how hard it can be for you.

    Keep strong :-) x

    btw kick ass hair in your vids!

  • we havi hve the same scar as you on your left arm.. i love how soft it feels .. is that weird lol

  • I LOVE HOW YOU TALK <3

  • Your very brave to do this, people who have not been through this do not always understand, big hugs for you 

  • if you do it and just tiny scatch its still as impoartant and cutting wrist! self harm is self harm, as u get older it will be less strong feeling,

  • It hurts me to see that the people that live near me self harms themselves...:( really. Everybody is beautiful inside and out

  • It hurts me in the inside to see that the people that live near me self harms themselves. Every body is beautiful inside and out!

  • ur so beautiful. ^-^

  • u have the most amazing accent and ur so pretty and really brave for doing that(:

  • is a cut gaping when u can see the pink squishy skin and there's space between both sides of the cut, and if it is do u need stitches even if there is no bleeding

  • @Crazypencilkiller yes and yes

  • Your are to beautiful to be harming yourself like that. as much i hate my life. and feel like there is no hope for. i would never do this to myself and it hurts me to see other people in pain and i wish i could do something about it. i hope for the best of all of us to get through all the bad things in life. but please dont harm yourself cause it only makes everything worse

  • @EteXego thanks and all but it's really not as simple as that! >.<

  • @Downtownpatrol Aww:( i wouldn't even know. i just hate to see it...hurts me more to see other people go through pain. then having to deal with my own screwed up life. i keep my emotions bottled up noone ever knows when im going through depression and anxiety been terrible lately for me

  • First of all, thank you for pointing out that a small scar doesn't mean it's not a big deal... I feel like those sad-music-videos kind of underline that misconception...

    In my case everyone else takes my self injury seriously. I don't. My scars are barely even visible and I am very ashamed that... Well, I'm "even a failure at cutting myself". And I can't get that out of my head.

  • I stopped two years ago but I've started again recently.. This time it's weird though cause I feel the need to do it way more often, like during school as well as three or four times a day at home

    Don't really want to stop though cause its seemingly the only thing that can make me feel better at the minute

  • i didnt mean to offend :/ im sorry

  • @xcrystalxchaosx i really have no idea what you're talking about?

  • Hey I liked it I self harm to and I totally get where your coming from when you say that it don't matter whose scars are worse I agree both the type of scars are bad so yeah

  • i give you mad props for showing your scars like this...i dont think i could ever do it. idk id feel like people would make fun of my scars or somthing stupid like that. idk maybe one day if i grow some balls ill make a video like this. hope your doing well =)

  • Omg! My best friend is a cutter! She has loads of scars on her wrists! Also, if u don't mind, I am praying for u at church.

  • way to go..... idk about where your from but in america you woould be able to find a job for stufff like that! THUMBS UP GIRL!

  • As you say, it's not about whose are worse or anything like that....everybody cuts in different ways, in different places for different reasons. It's about the associated thoughts, feelings and experiences.

    This was a big thing for you to share! It's apreciated!

  • I love your videos! They have helped me stop cutting mostly. But what I really want to know is how you got your hair like that!

  • @XxAriel12xX thanks, there's really nothing much to my hair.. :)

  • You are gorgeous and don't let anyone tell you any different

  • does it feel good when u cut ur self ...... cuz i tried to do it bt it hurt sooooooo bad...

  • you're so beautiful, even with scars.. hope you can recover from your self harm you sound so strong. you can do it! :)

  • Dude Your Accent Is AMAZING~ srry i just had to point that out...

  • where are you from, i like your accent

  • @wisconsincountrygal newcastle :)

  • Thank you so much for pointing out the fact that the deepness or shallowness of the cut doesn't matter.Cutting is cutting.Self Injury is self injury.All of it is serious.Some may be on a higher degree of seriousness but,it's all serious.This video took so much guts.Thank you so much for this video. :]

  • Your so brave.

  • I'm in your same position

    

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  • @AJaydonW3mo1

    why did you even post that omg.

  • Holy shiiit!

  • @pr8076 no. just no.

  • You are brave for doing this. Scars do get better in times. Much of my scars are hard to see now. Yet, I have scars from cutting my wriests.

  • jesus D:

  • @xXDamienXx1 what about him?

  • @xXDamienXx1 you said 'jesus' and i said 'what about him'

  • Thank u uve helpd me alot!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • You dont have to answer if you dont want too...How do you know if youve cut to the point where you need stiches? or is there something you can do instead of telling you parents you need stiches??

  • @morganjamison1 there's a video on youtube explaining this with a model, basically if that skin has a big gap and you can't hold it together. if the blood is pouring/squirting out then you've done damage!

    without telling your parents? uhm, just to to the hospital alone i suppose?

  • @Downtownpatrol the*

  • You are so pretty! You are so strong to do this, and i'm proud of you, even though I don't know you.

  • I mau not go through as bad as stuff you go through but i do the same thing:( its a terrible tging to do but whatever it takes to make all the pain go away.

  • I wish i was bravee enough to do this ! And honestly if people know that they wont lik the video then what is the point of watching and commenting ... Because if u sent some1 a negativa comments u no that people Wil be ther to say that ure wrong... Btw i Love ure accent!!!

  • I know a lot of people said this, but I think you are so brave and I appreciate you doing this video. Some times I feel like the only one out there who used to self harm, but after watching this I feel more normal I guess. Thanks.

  • You are amazingly brave for doing this I wish the best for you n_n

  • i see real beauty in u i want u to stay so the world will be a better place i don't want you to cut yourself u hurt i hurt.

  • @flipsy4 if he's worth it and if he loves you, nothing will get in the way of that

  • @LIlBl189 y wud u spel like a 2 yer old

  • i used to cut from the age of 14 to 15 a load of people in my school found out so got bullied which made it even worse,, i dont cut anymore but i pinch pick and dig my nails under my skin so i bleed or bruise that way so its not as visible,, just watching peoples videos about it make me feel slightly better cos i know that im not alone :) ive needed stitches before but didnt get them just let it heal naturally cos i was scared to go to hospital thank youu xx

  • U r in my prayers. I cut also... In fact..., When I watch ur vids, I don't have that urge to cut and I realize there is a person who is just like me.

  • you're such an inspiration thank you so much for your videos ive often thought that because my scars arent noticable it doesnt matter,, keep hope and continue making videos :D thankyou xx

  • I cut. I'm 14, and I have no-one to talk to.

    - Where are you from in England? Love your accent! <3

  • @HeeHee987 maybe you could talk to a therapist?

    i'm from newcastle (north east england) x

  • @downtownpatrol oh ok sorry:) will you ever make an updated video of your scars?

  • @emmyemma101 i don't see why i'd update?

  • huh, but you said bio oil didnt work in another video?

  • @emmaslifetime because there was no improvement after this video, every other product worked better than it! :)

  • i want to stop its just im always in a depressed mood i need to stop but my parents wont help bc my moms a cutter so i cant go to her n all my friends r cutters so

  • @SuperCwoodward you need to find something else to do.

    if all your friends are cutters, sorry if i'm wrong, but they're probably just doing/saying it to fit in with one another..

    sounds like you're in the wrong crowd of people

  • @Downtownpatrol i dont fit in wit other ppl bc i get kalled a freak bc i pirced my nose n my right lip since tht pik was taken

  • @SuperCwoodward ugh, fitting in. what does 'fitting in' even matter?

    besides, loads of people have piercings and body modifications! it doesn't really make you different anymore considering how popular 'different' is. i've had bright red/pink/orange/purple hair..you shouldn't care about what other people think :)

  • @Downtownpatrol omg was reading sum of the post ppl post to you and damn sum kan be rele mean i mean i kant rele say much cuz mine wasnt to nice oh how did you get your hair tht red

  • @SuperCwoodward hair videos are up on my second channel x

  • sry i was so bitchy its just im tried of ppl telling me wat to do ik tht you r trying to help but no matter wat i do its hard to stop bc im always sad n me n bf broke up bc i needed help we got into a fight and he was in the living room and i cut and wen he saw i did he kinda wen off n we broke up so im just a lil bitchy

  • @SuperCwoodward It's okay, i understand. We all have bad days! Just please try not to take it out on me or anyone else next time yeah?

    and maybe you don't want to stop cutting, that's entirely up to you! but i'm told every day that my videos help people, i don't force people to stop!

    sorry to hear about the break up, i'm having a bit of a rough patch in my relationship so i know exactly how you feel, you can chat to me if you like <3

    not to push you..but you should try something other than SH

  • ik how to spell its just i like to spell my c with k instead and y did you start cutting in the first place i mean sry but you dont look like the type of girl to cut my computer fucked up so i didnt get the chance to hear y

  • @SuperCwoodward you can't put a face to a self harmer. there is no type of person to self harm, if you knew ANYTHING about self harm, you'd know that there isn't a type of person.

    anyone can suffer, young/old/male/female.

    i know a 65 year old self harmer, my ma used to self harm...she's blonde and in her 40s, i suppose you don't think she's the expected type either.

    self injury is a way of dealing with emotions, that's why i did it. that's why most people do it. no matter what they look like.

  • so wat i kan spell the fuckin way i want who the fuck are you to tell me wat i do

  • @SuperCwoodward I have never told anyone to do anything, which shows your stupidity.

    PS the correct way of spelling 'kan' is 'can'. lol at your face.

  • wat pisses me off is ppl tht cut themselfs need sum heart thrown at them instead of ppl beein heartless bout it i mean damn if you think cuttin is so easy to stop do it bout one year then try to stop yea its not easy so stop fuckin makin videos bout it damn if ppl want to cut they kan

  • @SuperCwoodward cutting isn't easy to stop, i've never said that.

    i will never stop making videos. sorry to break your heart there babycakes.

    seriously, shut.the.fuck.up darling, you're way to stupid be talking about self injury, i suggest you go back to school hunny ^_^ <3

  • @SuperCwoodward oh, and learn how to spell while you're at it!! i thought you were 14..wow..

  • @SuperCwoodward she has never said that it's easy to stop.She did it for over a year.Get some respect.grow up.oh and yeah the reason people need people to care about them is because their feeling bad enough to have to cut themselves and your just making her feel worse.

    Grow a pair.

    from cuttergirl100

    ps:please don't piss me off again.

  • Oh girl , you are beautiful you're so pretty!

    You shouldn't do that .. Don't hurt yourself .. -|3

  • @smiley4897 i appreciate your kindness and all but being 'beautiful' isn't a reason to not hurt yourself.

  • @Downtownpatrol I am from England just moved to united states of America but i said irish because near by but i really dont remember ppl saying me leg or something only if ur from irland ok!

  • @rockout2music100 North east England x

  • @Downtownpatrol OH!! LOL i was south lol

  • I'm a cutter myself but my scars are a lot less noticeable...I was talking to my guidance counceler at school and I said "I've seen worse." he told me "I doesn't matter how deep or how many or how long they are. It is still a serious issue and we care about you and want you to feel better because we love you." I never felt so loved in my life. This video made me cry. Don't give up stay strong there are people who can help. Message me if you feel like cutting I maybe a stranger but I know how y

  • what kind of douche fucking says that??? I'VE SEEN WORSE. well im pretty sure that isnt a bad thing!

  • Feel better.

    Please.

  • what sort of thing do you use?? some of your cuts are really deep, Ive done some pretty bad ones but none that solid.... hope you dont mind my asking

  • @HalfHeartedBeauty sorry, i don't want to put ideas into people heads

  • r u british or irish?

  • Thank you.............

  • Your beautiful! Your hair looks so cool. I would love to do that but im a guy and it would probably look really weird on me lol

  • -3

  • was this your first video?

  • @Downtownpatrol which one was?

  • @HannaBananaDrama i can't remember but i had at least 5 up before this one! :)

  • i mean i don't judge them if they cut that's their business and i have friends that do i try to help but they're stubborn me and my friends do butterfly challenges when we feel like we want to cut (butterfly challenge is when you draw a butterfly on your skin so you don't hurt yourself) its not a joke its serious ive been in the hospital three times from cutting but i dont think showing scars will help anyone but maybe if people showed alternatives to cutting we could help people

  • @Meyah420

    if you read the 598 comments, most of them are people saying how much i've helped them feel not alone. etc apart from the odd comment about me being emo and what not.

    and that's exactly how i feel when i see other people's scars. it's comforting.

    fair enough though, you don't find this helpful. that's fine, but other people appreciate it.

    each to their own.

    but you should actually take a look at my channel and watch my videos.

    i'm FOR recovery!

    go go go

  • i have no problem with people who cut themselves i mean i used to but i did it for pain not attention... making a video of your scars is you screaming for attention

  • @Meyah420 i do get where you're coming from, i did this to get peoples attention...not for myself but to bring attention to self harm. it shows reality in it, people hear but never see and people think it's a joke.

    and you have no problem with people cutting? that's a bit far fetched. there's a huge problem if people are self harming.

  • @Meyah420 PS how dare you say that to me, you have no idea why i did it.

    you can have your opinion on my video, but not why i have my scars.

  • i love u the way u are and evry one to i love u all self injory or not drugs or not i love all of u <3

  • 'The size of the scar isn't a measure of the pain' NOONE should judge people whatever. Laura, your'e incredibly brave to do this, bless you, forget the haters you do it for all the good intentions, your'e an amazing person, keep up the good work :)

  • that's fucking disgusting.

  • @rawrriLy18 aw, how lovely of you to stop by and leave me such a nice comment!!! you really didn't have to go to such an effort, thanks hun! :D <3 xxx

  • i understand what are you feel that time you cut yourself...but i dont understand why??for real...can you answer me...or this is a thing what i have too alive once time...and sorry but my englis its not perfect yet

  • @devilnemesis1990 at the time, i had been broken up with, i went into self destruct mode i guess. i was completely lost.

  • ok look...i tell you the truth...if you ask me...i say..you.....you are a pretty cute beauthifull girl..and i wish..pls dont do it again...and good luck in your life

  • ok look...i tell you the truth...if you ask me...i say..you.....you are a pretty cute beauthifull girl..and i wish..pls dont do it again...and good luck in your life..you have scars or not...i like you

  • People cut themselves because they're whiny idiots who think that everything is so bad when really it's just a little inconvenient. You people are like the folks in that First World Problems meme.

  • @Hematite1000 people cut because they don't know how else to deal with being overwhelmed, get your facts right, prick.

  • @Downtownpatrol Thank You Finally Someone Can Agree. And @Hematile1000 Is A Prick And Really Needs To Grow Up.

  • @Downtownpatrol

    thank you :D

  • @Hematite1000 People judge self-harmers because they're idiots, and just plain stupid! Your biggest problem is probably that someone you like doesn't like you back, but some people, even first world people, can have real problems! Have you heard of raping, bullying, rejection from someone that should never reject you, murders and so on?

    If you can't put your self in other people's shoes, and get what they're going through, just shut the fuck up !

  • @SonjaStar96 self injury isn't the fucking problem.

    most of the time, self injurers are victims of bulling and/or abuse.

    it's a coping mechanism.

    it's not about thinking you have a bad life, it's how you deal with emotions

    what a fucktard you are!

  • @SonjaStar96 are you mentally impaired? people self harm for all different reasons, including the ones you have listed. i started self harming because i was abused as a child, but even if i hadn't been abused what difference does it make?! it's no fucking business of yours so keep your ill informed opinions to yourself.

  • your so brave!!.. people dont relalise how serious this is, some people find it pathetic.. but you've shown us that there is more to self harming than just atension seeking!

  • I could never show my scars like you did. And people shouldn't leave mean comments because they don't understand self harm -_-

  • I used to scratch my self so deep it would bleed and other "cutters" would say "that's not important just as long as u don't us a razor

  • I agree with what you said in the beginning, about the person who said "I've seen worse".

    What people don't seem to understand is that self-harm isn't a competition..it's not about who can cut deeper or who has the worst scars. The deepness/frequency/severity of your cuts/scars have nothing to do with how you feel. It makes me mad that there are people who treat something that's so serious and means a lot to some people as though it's just a silly game.