i absolutly belove in real love yes am a guy i have had a average and a bad experiences til now but i refuse to believe it doesnt exist there is some1 out there ore maybe even a fuw that can be right for u,tricky part is u have to find them ore they u,i even talked to a friend about the karma thing to gues il have to w8 and hopefully find her 1 day giving up is not an option:)because that mean giving up on youre own heart....
This video has helped me deal with my own losses in my life. I know i will never forget those i love that is have lost. I am a guy and wanted to say thankyou
Kicesie! U'r turning me back to loving but I can't handle love am too weak to hold it up!..true ladies have more love than men but there are some men who can't control them selves when in love....I let her go coz I felt not able to maintain the love..its like a chill it comes en goes!..but when a woman loves fully it stays on why?..I hate my self. help me kicesie!
A primitive emotion?!? Love is the strongest emotion humans feel! Love is the only emotion that can cause both joy and destruction... I've seen people of different races, religions and ages do wild things because of love... Shoot I've seem people who suffer from takotsubo cardiomyopathy also known as broken heart syndrome because their spouse died or left them... Heart failure from such a primitive emotion? I don't know about that...
"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prer
Well u seem to be very happy, with whomever you are but the other end of this world this poor me had to sacrifice a girl for my family.She was the best girl that i ever had in my life. She hates me like anything in this world but i always want to see her happy with whomever she is with, even though i never got a chance to tell her that i still love her :-(
Kicesie, ive watched several of your vlogs, and i must say that when i watched the Paradox of Humanity i got very emotional and misty eyed but still had a smile on my face , you truely are a beautiful soul , and an intelligent woman , you bring me joy just listening to your voice, any person who is in your life, whether friend or lover must be greatful ! i would love to sit and talk with you for hours on end , but i know that will probably never happen, but regaurdless i want to say thank you!
@hatboy83 No, these are old excerpts from my diary. Made years ago. I'm very happily married. But my love for all those who have passed through my life remains and always will.
Unanswered love from both sides. That always used to be a big part of my life. Why is it that original personalities run from me? Why do regular people like me only attract standard regular people? Why would i even care about people at all?
Maybe nobody will ever read this. After all, I'm just thinking out loud about past events of my private self. A nonsense scribble in some godforsaken corner of the internet. Maybe it will be read, maybe it won't.
This was amazing. One time. One time I loved completely. I gave everything and would have kept on doing so. HE was the one that stopped me. He wasn't unhealthy for me so much, but staying with him would have kept me from growing as I needed to into the person I was going to be.
I will NEVER forget him, and yes: I love him still. I sometimes wish I could stop loving him. I would never seek him out. I maybe even wouldn't let him back in. But that love takes space that should free.
@froggggg5 That reminds me of a poem I wrote and should put on my channel thelitcorner... 'And when nothing left remains - There will be only this - That I loved you greatly.... etc etc'
@KicesiesVlog If it's ok I will check thelitcorner out. I like that when you read outloud your voice is very expressive. The emotion can be felt whole. It's nice. Very appropriate.
love is simply a primitive emotion to keep 2 ppl together long enough for successful reproduction and child raising. There is nothing special about LOVE. Its a poison that inslaves u. there is MUCH more u can do with your life than to dwel of love. like hunger and other emotions, we are forced to deal with them and do stupid messed up things b/c of them. I say screw it! screw the system! lol
@patmisa If love's SOLE purpose is to keep people together to raise kiddos, why will I always LOVE men that I will NEVER see again for as long as I live? (and it's been over 10 years for some!)
Do you know, even in France you got fans, when I was in Afghanistan, you helped some friends and me to spend very good time, even after combined NATO opérations!!! keep on rolling little sister!!!!
i must say i was very touced by this video it is one of only two videos on youtube that brought tears to my eyes keep up the great work stay strong and you will always have my love and adoration
Unfulfilled love is pehaps the most romantic of all, I've had an innocent love once, where i had never shared a kiss with them, when i was 16, this romance was possibly the best i've ever had...
so, so breathtakingly beautiful. I can connect to each passage.. the forbidden love; David. the love that I though I'd have forever; Alex. and the friend I will never forget but no longer am a part of; Hannah.
there is no human that can give us the love so many of us are looking for. How do humans love? Feeling like this one day and completely different the next one. We are like clouds arent we? Here today gone tomorrow, so is our love sometimes. But every human deserves to be loved, completly and fully... All what i wanna say is: Its dangerous to expect that perfect love from humans. After all we only humans.
@HonorableMinisterRay How the hell can you say that? I'm the least racist person I know! I've dated a guy of every major ethnicity, have great friends in every major ethnicity. I even hate the question of race and refuse to participate in the segregation of races even in statistics. I'm radical about refusing to see any difference among races.... to a fault. So you're nuts and I have no idea where you got such an ridiculous thought from! Are you all there mentally? (honestly)
Well I don't know if this helps anyone but after I was used by someone, I end up finding out I had a talent for writing I never knew I had. my X became the source of which I based the primary vilian on. When the book gets published she will read it and will be pissed. Time heals all wounds but I should of known better than to date older women. (14years older). Everything happens for a reason and we grow through change.
@KicesiesVlog I just don't want it to remain as a focus though, what started as a release now turned into a novel. Who would have thought a former hockey player wash out and English failure would write a novel. Life has a funny sense of humor sometimes.
I had something like that through. And now, by the way I write, I realize how much in love I am, when I am. Because love is always too big to feel how big really is.
@Kronwall17 That happened to me, after being in an horrible relationship I held it in forever but then decided to write some of the emotions and pain and anger out on paper or on my computer. It's really helped me a lot.
Everything you said can apply to a man as well as a woman. While I was watching, I couldn't help but remember someone from my long-ago past. Tho it's been almost 20 years, the memories are still bittersweet. After that person "blew me off", as you so perfectly put it, I refused to ever love again or to let anyone love me, for that matter. Some may say I'm a lost cause... I say, I just CAN'T take the hurt again. My motto is: It's easier to live with lonely than a broken heart. Best regards.
@howebber1: Yikes! Are you me? I'm in the same place you are, and my reasons are the same as yours too. I just got to that place where I said 'enough is enough'. I haven't really regretted the decision until now, when I contemplate growing old all alone. There's something very frightening in that. Still, it's too late now. Onward with courage. (BTW, my 'last heartbreak' happened in 1984. That's a LOT of years gone by! And, still I remember.)
I believe I have an answer to your question regarding how can someone blow you off after you've poured your heart and soul into them and you tell them you love them. Perhaps, they have been burnt in the past, and the words "I love you" don't hold the meaning like they used to at one time...only takes one person to ruin another for everyone...I know, I've been there...and it happened before I got married.
this Video, meant alot ot me. I am engaged to be married . I only had one boyfriend before my fiance. He used to hurt me in every way, it hurt but I am happy now. Sometimes I don't understand love sometimes. It seems like that love and pain go hand in hand with each other. I don't know why it makes me hurt to love someone. My Fiance and I had a kid together also and that makes me love him all the more because he is half of my son I had to give up for adoption
Maybe because once they love you back, you don't want them anymore.
You've conquered it. but the ones who could care less if you love them, you get hung up on that, and need that conquering so you can then, ...care less.
What a vicious game young "love" can be some times.
I've had a couple guys find it impossible to break through the pain of their past and let themselves just love. One mainly... one more due to bad timing in our lives.
But it sure does hurt.... At the same time, the times we DID have together were so amazing and beautiful and taught me SO much! So in the end, they were all worth it.
People can't believe I made this video before and after the video on my main channel 'Best Ever'... they think in the other one I was high and hyper... Truth was I was lacking in sleep and vacillating between hyper and deep. Perception is interesting.
This literally made me cry, it hit my emotions in ways I couldn't explain better myself....
When I was thinking something is obviously wrong with me since I lose or anger the people I love the most. You made me realize that this is a part of life, and even though you regret or want to hold on to memories longer that just can't happen because that's just how life is.... Thank you so much for this video.
you are a very intelligent girl. you will no your potential fot yourself and others better. you are An american sunshin. perhaps you hve more time to fully become mature but there is no question that you are a very bright person.
omg u jus made me wont to know u 4 eva i jus wish u had facebook then ill always b ur friend wheneva u need me im allways on my facebook but im rarely on here but if u have msn ill happy add u and i love u
there's not much to say about that yet i could go on and on about how touching and moving that was....i just cant find the riht words to decribe how that made me feel. I'ts great that u express urself like that. i'm in tears right now! I'm 11 years old and i want to be a writer when i'm older. I feel as if you relly help me and inspire me with that goal. The video was just....beautiful. I wish i knew how to put it into words. thankyou xx for that. i look forward to your next video,
So, I've watched this over and over again over the past couple of months, I still love it as much as I did upon first viewing. There is so much pain and still, a bit of hope. Right now I am not so much hurting from the end of a relationship, but waiting for a relationship to begin. I know that when it does begin there will be all these discussed in this vlog. and I will someday ask, "whatever happened to us?"
I'm a Guy, and I like it a lot, their was much depth and feel in every word that was spoke, although I wasn't around at that time I just saw this video, I'm sorry for your loss, I feel for you.... Good people are those that don't speak much but wisely as your self.... Blessing's to you kicsie, with all your video works here online bless you....
I really, really, really like this video. Something about the way you talk, it's so vulnerable and open. It's like hearing your inner voice speak. I love it. Your videos always inspire me. =] Keep making them great.
-Continue from previous- And with my undying love. I can forgive her for anything. Even if she breaks what we have with time i can still have something with her because our bond is unbreakable. Weathor it be as man and wife, or friends to lean on. We will always have a conection
I relize that this an old video, but im a new subscriber. I feel that i can relate to alot of the things you say. I have loved the person im with for the past 6 years even though she has not returned it. I could go on for hours about the troubled times and the good times. Such as the recent situation where we are engaged but she suddenly felt unsure about her love for me. or desire to marry me. As a wait for her to figure that out i relize that my love for her is undying no matter what happens
Oh, so touching, I love it. Yeah, life and love plays some weird tricks on all of us. My way of love was tragically ironic. I hung on this girl for at least 3 years, which might be just what you called a "so unhealthy love". It was love at first sight, but I never got together with her, although she kept sending me mixed messages over and over again.
She was together with pretty much every guy in my town, but not with me.This background lead me to the point where I decided,that there is no future for us.
I really enjoy your videos. Some of your videos help me to relax much better. Im disabled handicapped so I appreiate it.
I tried to e mail you but I was blocked somehow. anyway, maybe we can speak someday. Once again, thank you wholeheartedly for your help and your views on life. Sincerely, Joe - Bolinman
beautiful. where you just miss everyone. old friendships and loves, coz every friendship is different and however many new friends you make theres always space where a person was that cant be filled. its melancholy. in a way depressing but its beautiful how the love lasted and how you move on into new life but that youve never really lost them even if sometimes its only memories that exist to prove they were ever there. people shape who we are and we shape them and we always have that.
the man that breaks my heart every time he walks away..... and the man that died for me.... i may not always love you.... but i'll never forget you...
It is never easy to say goodbye to the ones you truly love. It is easier to say good bye to the bad ones. I hope we never have to say goodbye to you. The music and poetry was just great.
Love is a lesson in life, those relationships that don't work out are not always a reflection on you. It is what they want at the time no matter how hurtful it is. For they, are the ones, as I have learned myself, who lose out in the end. Thank you Kicesie. As a male I have been there too.
Love... makes me cry when i think i loved once.. I believe only the strongest of emotions can make a guy feel tears dripping down his eyes.. I'm such a guy.. But hey love dosent have to mean to have and to hold.. Love goes on and mine won't diminish.. Love makes me wish all the happiness and blessings for her.. love makes me visualize that my love is being loved more, This heartache inside has turned into gold which i couldn't part with. I've loved and i'm proud of it. I will love u always.
love can be none other than forever, so if we say it is forever, then we imply there is a forever, in which case you may very well see your grandmother again.
Your conclusion is correct. Not that I find you unattractive though.
Protip: lighten up for god's sake. I do hail your deepness, or at least it seems as if you are, but if this deepness of character leads into a wall of shit hidden in the past, it's time to walk away, innit. You'll say it was art for the moment and you don't dwell at all, but I won't believe that.
No, not in this universe. But I already knew I wasn't.
I wanted to post something clever and witty here, but I just decided not to. Except one thing, a true analogy. When it's cold outside, have you noticed you feel all the more colder when you start hating or not wanting it ? Hidden there is the trick to defeat many an annoyance, such as mortal beings with, in essence, immortal minds which dwell on a "dead love" that never should have died according to theory. But you're the pro amirite.
so, what about the flip side? the person who has this unrequited love for you while you remain indifferent? if it is inevitable that we all have this deep love that is unreturned, is it also our fate to be the one who is loved without recompense?
Wow, what can I say. I am amazed by your words. I have been given solice by the tought that all my past loves may love still and that there is someone out there that does love, love me. I really need that, now. Thank you.
Well I can tell you this.... while you probably speak of a personal love that you need/crave, I have enough love inside me to spill over to the whole world. So I'm sending someone your way.
And I think, in life, there is always some human out there who loves us greatly. I could be wrong, but at least most of the time that must be true.
awe, i wish i was part of ur life =/ lol strange isnt it? how many people are out there that can greatly impact your life, but too sad that because of lacation, it is nearly impossible to be found, except maybe by luck. but we didnt meet, for a great reason as well, just gotta accept that fact =)
slt sorry i m french so y dont speak english very well but you are a very very very sexy and lovely girls and can you send your msn please i love you lol big kiss miss
Kimberly this video expresses the way I feel toally. I still love my past loves with all my heart and they will always have a special place in my heart. The video touched me to the core of my being.
this video felt like it was directed exactly toward me and the way I feel in every single relationship I've ever been in except the long distance one in which I am right now. You are so inspiring and after I watch any of your videos, I feel empowered. You are magic. This is a wonderful video.
sorry, it was a lame attempt at tryen to say that my eyes are flooded with beauty and that none of my other senses work. But, nevermind, i thought u was some unknown girl posting, didnt know you had a following.
I absolutely love this video. It describes true love perfectly. I've seen a few of your videos and I wish I could have been that wise/mature at 21/22 and I wish that both men and women could have the same insight to life as you do at that age. Life would be so much simpler!
You're so poetic. Thanks for adding me as a friend. That's a beautiful song by Enrique Iglesias. I've never heard it before. I'm going to have to download that one. I'm amazed at how someone so young can know so much about relationships.
Stuff thats going on in my life right now made this vlog so poignant that i cried whilst watching it, especially the last clip. It was all beautiful. Thank you.
What was the music you used in the vlog? I loved it.
you speak such truths, i had a true love, a true relationship, but i actually screwed it up. At the time, i wanted it to end, but looking back at it it's what i truly wanted, i realize now that i could and should've married this girl, but due to an old crush suddenly becoming available destroyed that all. 7 months of true honest love, {only girl i actually waited to have sex with)for 2 months with this other chick that i realized wasn't at all what i really wanted.
This kinda made me cry at the end. I often wonder myself about where life is going to take me and what's going to happen to the people I love and me. I'm a selfish friend...I want my friends to be with me forever, and I want it to really mean forever. I can't imagine life without them...but I've moved on before and I can move on again. I just don't want to.
Is this one of your psychology projects? Good one if these truely are how you feel about love. You explained every well on the kind of love that is painful. Not only girls feel this way, guys also do, especially they love someone who they know is a cocotte. They know it is a pathetic love but simply cannot give up...sadly painful
I have only been watching your videos for a couple weeks I'm slowly but surely catching up on all of them I started with your sex ed channel and joined this one as well. Your way with words and thoughts really moves me, and stimulates my thoughts. So much of what you talk forces me to take a second look at parts of my own life and think about things in a whole new light. Thank you for that. Thank you for the inspiration and ecouragement to truly live and not just exist.
the scary thing about love for me is...it can be the best and most wonderful feeling - and it can be the exact opposite, bc nobody can hurt you the way your loved ones can. No matter if it´s a relationship, close friendship, family or your beloved pet. And again and again I wonder if it´s not better to NOT love...you can only be hurt so many times and then it´s too much to bear. But somehow someway you always do it again, bc you´re still hoping, bc the good times are hopefully worth the pain...
beautiful! you spoke to me and toke the words right out of my mouth the only sad thing is most people don't understand that kind of love if they did the world would be such a better place thanks for posting!
that last message really hit me! sometimes i think about all the people who have come and gone in my life, and it makes me so sad to think how close we once were. we used to have telephone convos for over 2 hours, and now, we barely even say hi to each other. time is a funny thing, and you never know its effects until it is too late - it is unfortunate, but like you said, it is life and it is something that we all must deal with. thank you for all of your videos - they have been very helpful!
I can say it is true there are tose that will hold us forever with or with out them. she went by the nick name julz. twas 04 my graduation night she took my hand and we walked all around togeather that night and wen it came to say good night insted of giving the pasanet kiss I wanted to and deeded to I did not. from then it kindia fell from grace. I alwasy wondered what would of hapened if I would of kised her. but now every sad song/ love I here makes me think of her. to my tourment
i absolutly belove in real love yes am a guy i have had a average and a bad experiences til now but i refuse to believe it doesnt exist there is some1 out there ore maybe even a fuw that can be right for u,tricky part is u have to find them ore they u,i even talked to a friend about the karma thing to gues il have to w8 and hopefully find her 1 day giving up is not an option:)because that mean giving up on youre own heart....
marcus24000 8 months ago
Deeeep
kaity917 8 months ago
This video has helped me deal with my own losses in my life. I know i will never forget those i love that is have lost. I am a guy and wanted to say thankyou
cyberridr 8 months ago
you are a very beautiful woman
NFSMAN50 11 months ago
i feel you there it happened to me more than once someone shares my pain
hirokaski 11 months ago
Thank you!Thank you...
davetrap 11 months ago
Kicesie! U'r turning me back to loving but I can't handle love am too weak to hold it up!..true ladies have more love than men but there are some men who can't control them selves when in love....I let her go coz I felt not able to maintain the love..its like a chill it comes en goes!..but when a woman loves fully it stays on why?..I hate my self. help me kicesie!
bigdick1616 1 year ago
OMG!! i've got tears in my eyes
killerbee98 1 year ago
A primitive emotion?!? Love is the strongest emotion humans feel! Love is the only emotion that can cause both joy and destruction... I've seen people of different races, religions and ages do wild things because of love... Shoot I've seem people who suffer from takotsubo cardiomyopathy also known as broken heart syndrome because their spouse died or left them... Heart failure from such a primitive emotion? I don't know about that...
"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prer
tina172004 1 year ago
This is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen.
I am crying my heart out right now.
TrinneLovesAll13 1 year ago
Well u seem to be very happy, with whomever you are but the other end of this world this poor me had to sacrifice a girl for my family.She was the best girl that i ever had in my life. She hates me like anything in this world but i always want to see her happy with whomever she is with, even though i never got a chance to tell her that i still love her :-(
nepotiums 1 year ago
I won't forget about you.......sigh sigh
jimmyhtrk 1 year ago
Awesome...beautiful!
corinthanne 1 year ago
Your such beautiful person....heartbreak is ruff.....no doubts there
jimmyhtrk 1 year ago
Kicesie, ive watched several of your vlogs, and i must say that when i watched the Paradox of Humanity i got very emotional and misty eyed but still had a smile on my face , you truely are a beautiful soul , and an intelligent woman , you bring me joy just listening to your voice, any person who is in your life, whether friend or lover must be greatful ! i would love to sit and talk with you for hours on end , but i know that will probably never happen, but regaurdless i want to say thank you!
shakey119 1 year ago
smart girl ;)
yionutzful 1 year ago
Don't think that's a feeling unique to girls. Boys will show it in different ways, but limmerence is equally bad for anyone if it's not returned.
And btw I think I might have been one of the "ones who never loves back" just last week. I did not feel good. At all.
Namolis 1 year ago
hey did you got divorced or somthing recently?
hatboy83 1 year ago
@hatboy83 No, these are old excerpts from my diary. Made years ago. I'm very happily married. But my love for all those who have passed through my life remains and always will.
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
Unanswered love from both sides. That always used to be a big part of my life. Why is it that original personalities run from me? Why do regular people like me only attract standard regular people? Why would i even care about people at all?
Maybe nobody will ever read this. After all, I'm just thinking out loud about past events of my private self. A nonsense scribble in some godforsaken corner of the internet. Maybe it will be read, maybe it won't.
But does it really matter...?
ploothable 1 year ago
@ploothable You never know what will matter and what won't. Life is like that......
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
No matter where you going life , no matter what you come cross.. always know there is someone out there loves you , thats me.
ChristophPoland 1 year ago
This was amazing. One time. One time I loved completely. I gave everything and would have kept on doing so. HE was the one that stopped me. He wasn't unhealthy for me so much, but staying with him would have kept me from growing as I needed to into the person I was going to be.
I will NEVER forget him, and yes: I love him still. I sometimes wish I could stop loving him. I would never seek him out. I maybe even wouldn't let him back in. But that love takes space that should free.
froggggg5 1 year ago
@froggggg5 That reminds me of a poem I wrote and should put on my channel thelitcorner... 'And when nothing left remains - There will be only this - That I loved you greatly.... etc etc'
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
@KicesiesVlog If it's ok I will check thelitcorner out. I like that when you read outloud your voice is very expressive. The emotion can be felt whole. It's nice. Very appropriate.
froggggg5 1 year ago
one of the best video I ever saw. You made me like i was about to cry
stolenick 1 year ago
love is simply a primitive emotion to keep 2 ppl together long enough for successful reproduction and child raising. There is nothing special about LOVE. Its a poison that inslaves u. there is MUCH more u can do with your life than to dwel of love. like hunger and other emotions, we are forced to deal with them and do stupid messed up things b/c of them. I say screw it! screw the system! lol
patmisa 1 year ago
@patmisa If love's SOLE purpose is to keep people together to raise kiddos, why will I always LOVE men that I will NEVER see again for as long as I live? (and it's been over 10 years for some!)
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago 3
@KicesiesVlog i so under stand i have no been with my wife for 4yr and it still hurts to this day and i think about her every day and love her still
oTITLETOWNo 1 month ago
I like listening to you !
xaroshenkiy 1 year ago
This is certainly one of the most beautiful video on youtube!
Thumbs up Kicesie :-)
johnnybrazil01 1 year ago
the song is called dont u forget about me by Enrique Iglesias
CRFAN011 1 year ago
haha ya i no about tat love it kinda suxz im goin through it rite now
CRFAN011 1 year ago
haha ya i no about tat love it kinda suxz
CRFAN011 1 year ago
Dam! I don't even know you and I am in love with you....
Cool beans! Nice video.
Aonexia 1 year ago
I believe humans are naturally not manogamous
muntario1982 1 year ago
Do you know, even in France you got fans, when I was in Afghanistan, you helped some friends and me to spend very good time, even after combined NATO opérations!!! keep on rolling little sister!!!!
Your fans from Foreign Legion
chris13302 1 year ago
@chris13302 I'm proud of you guys! You're all in my thoughts literally every day. Stay safe!
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
i must say i was very touced by this video it is one of only two videos on youtube that brought tears to my eyes keep up the great work stay strong and you will always have my love and adoration
gordonshum00 1 year ago
People always want who they cannot have. Do not know why that is.
We seem to want to love someone who is bad for us.
lionssong2525 1 year ago
Heartbreaker :'''(
We are all one!
Xalvador1980 1 year ago
hay that was really a like hmmmm sad type would be happy to be ur friend if u want
rahul1818kam 1 year ago
A beautiful video. Love it.
darktoadthesticky 1 year ago
this is sooo true bcz whn u love some 1 thn u must not hve to thnk about otherz grlz i'm agree wiv dis great video grlz keep it up mwah xx
uzaykhany 1 year ago
Unfulfilled love is pehaps the most romantic of all, I've had an innocent love once, where i had never shared a kiss with them, when i was 16, this romance was possibly the best i've ever had...
SSdrina1 1 year ago
so, so breathtakingly beautiful. I can connect to each passage.. the forbidden love; David. the love that I though I'd have forever; Alex. and the friend I will never forget but no longer am a part of; Hannah.
with love,
that girl
toadsaretehcool 1 year ago
oh you so pretty:)
keolif 1 year ago
there is no human that can give us the love so many of us are looking for. How do humans love? Feeling like this one day and completely different the next one. We are like clouds arent we? Here today gone tomorrow, so is our love sometimes. But every human deserves to be loved, completly and fully... All what i wanna say is: Its dangerous to expect that perfect love from humans. After all we only humans.
clouds5 1 year ago
What a touching video.
letsxxtango 1 year ago
you look just like Julia Stiles!
KellyluvsMarvy 1 year ago
Thank You for this vid!
SoulMist17 1 year ago
Racist girl!
HonorableMinisterRay 1 year ago
@HonorableMinisterRay How the hell can you say that? I'm the least racist person I know! I've dated a guy of every major ethnicity, have great friends in every major ethnicity. I even hate the question of race and refuse to participate in the segregation of races even in statistics. I'm radical about refusing to see any difference among races.... to a fault. So you're nuts and I have no idea where you got such an ridiculous thought from! Are you all there mentally? (honestly)
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
Well I don't know if this helps anyone but after I was used by someone, I end up finding out I had a talent for writing I never knew I had. my X became the source of which I based the primary vilian on. When the book gets published she will read it and will be pissed. Time heals all wounds but I should of known better than to date older women. (14years older). Everything happens for a reason and we grow through change.
Kronwall17 1 year ago
@Kronwall17 Writing is a GREAT release for pain and anger. And pain and anger causes great inspiration!
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
@KicesiesVlog I just don't want it to remain as a focus though, what started as a release now turned into a novel. Who would have thought a former hockey player wash out and English failure would write a novel. Life has a funny sense of humor sometimes.
tnewsted17 1 year ago
@Kronwall17
I had something like that through. And now, by the way I write, I realize how much in love I am, when I am. Because love is always too big to feel how big really is.
homerilias 1 year ago
@Kronwall17 That happened to me, after being in an horrible relationship I held it in forever but then decided to write some of the emotions and pain and anger out on paper or on my computer. It's really helped me a lot.
Snakeyes11123 1 year ago
Wow. Just amazing. Brought tears to my eyes and brought memories to my head. Thank you for this wonderful personal video.
idkmyusername86 1 year ago
@idkmyusername86 You're welcome. I thought that by sharing my journal entries, some other people would identify. :-)
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
Kicesie, your one awesomw woman, a lot of people can relate to this, thanks for shareing with us.
ralphedds1 1 year ago
you kind of look like Julia Styels... :]
dba 1 year ago
,,you are so great, so amazing,, i admire you very much kicesies .. by this video,, i want to say,, i love you too...
02bhebhe 1 year ago
Although my English is poor，I want to say ，I like your program.
QINGSHANWNGYU 1 year ago
what this music the name of the song ??? plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
alsadeg111222 1 year ago
I believe it's Be With You
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
i appreciate ur reply i can know u have more messages !
but "BE WITH U "IS THE SONG SAME
i didnot find it !
bye the way ur very beautiful and cute <3
<3 <3
alsadeg111222 1 year ago
@alsadeg111222 It's 'Be With You' by enrique iglesias
KicesiesVlog 1 year ago
that so true
theksl17show 1 year ago
hey sister..hiiii..!!! u look stunning and beautiful.. and ur heart seems to be even more beautiful .All the best for ur life..bye
sohamthegreat 1 year ago
I like this video, the clips put together are very true.....
laurence1211 1 year ago
I am writing a comment here, though writing a YouTube comment is, in truth, utterly nonsensical.
This is my comment, and it's a waste of time.
P.S. I rated the video (five stars) and gave everyone a thumb up. See how this will affect your lives.
BrianaBangz 1 year ago
Everything you said can apply to a man as well as a woman. While I was watching, I couldn't help but remember someone from my long-ago past. Tho it's been almost 20 years, the memories are still bittersweet. After that person "blew me off", as you so perfectly put it, I refused to ever love again or to let anyone love me, for that matter. Some may say I'm a lost cause... I say, I just CAN'T take the hurt again. My motto is: It's easier to live with lonely than a broken heart. Best regards.
howebber1 1 year ago
@howebber1: Yikes! Are you me? I'm in the same place you are, and my reasons are the same as yours too. I just got to that place where I said 'enough is enough'. I haven't really regretted the decision until now, when I contemplate growing old all alone. There's something very frightening in that. Still, it's too late now. Onward with courage. (BTW, my 'last heartbreak' happened in 1984. That's a LOT of years gone by! And, still I remember.)
2hotinaz 1 year ago
I AM in LOVE WITH YOU BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
hamidspb 1 year ago
I believe I have an answer to your question regarding how can someone blow you off after you've poured your heart and soul into them and you tell them you love them. Perhaps, they have been burnt in the past, and the words "I love you" don't hold the meaning like they used to at one time...only takes one person to ruin another for everyone...I know, I've been there...and it happened before I got married.
Orion13622 1 year ago
whats the name of that song awwsome vid
toughsotil 1 year ago
this was beautifully from the heart.
areyoulookinatmepal 1 year ago 5
this Video, meant alot ot me. I am engaged to be married . I only had one boyfriend before my fiance. He used to hurt me in every way, it hurt but I am happy now. Sometimes I don't understand love sometimes. It seems like that love and pain go hand in hand with each other. I don't know why it makes me hurt to love someone. My Fiance and I had a kid together also and that makes me love him all the more because he is half of my son I had to give up for adoption
beautifuldragon5000 2 years ago
You tlk like pain has hurt ur soul before.....im srry for tht
BBarker58 2 years ago
Maybe because once they love you back, you don't want them anymore.
You've conquered it. but the ones who could care less if you love them, you get hung up on that, and need that conquering so you can then, ...care less.
What a vicious game young "love" can be some times.
At least for thatb highschool mentallity.
You don't want them if they want you.
you want the ones you can't have.
Youth is wasted on the young.
ChristianMuslum 2 years ago
I love you Kice. you're amazing
yonatshalomisrael 2 years ago
mmmmmmmmm how can you not being loved back your so gorgeous with a great personality
respect
mobileexp2000 2 years ago
I've had a couple guys find it impossible to break through the pain of their past and let themselves just love. One mainly... one more due to bad timing in our lives.
But it sure does hurt.... At the same time, the times we DID have together were so amazing and beautiful and taught me SO much! So in the end, they were all worth it.
KicesiesVlog 2 years ago
@KicesiesVlog you are an amazing woman..... with a great smile...
nunez52 1 year ago
People can't believe I made this video before and after the video on my main channel 'Best Ever'... they think in the other one I was high and hyper... Truth was I was lacking in sleep and vacillating between hyper and deep. Perception is interesting.
KicesiesVlog 2 years ago
This literally made me cry, it hit my emotions in ways I couldn't explain better myself....
When I was thinking something is obviously wrong with me since I lose or anger the people I love the most. You made me realize that this is a part of life, and even though you regret or want to hold on to memories longer that just can't happen because that's just how life is.... Thank you so much for this video.
sparklessparkling 2 years ago 2
Why Patty Why ! You hert me so
CottonmouthMovies 2 years ago
Great vid :)
Liberatedchristian 2 years ago
I just came upon your videos, and I love them.
Very insightful!
Subscribed :)
Keep strong ♥
QuixoticXmischief 2 years ago
you are a very intelligent girl. you will no your potential fot yourself and others better. you are An american sunshin. perhaps you hve more time to fully become mature but there is no question that you are a very bright person.
MultiKurda 2 years ago
I cried my eyes out at this, I'm so ridiculous. You're amazing.
summerthunderr 2 years ago
i'm likin this vlog a lot.
smileefreekeegrl 2 years ago
Why do i watch this ? It kills me ...My Patty
CottonmouthMovies 2 years ago
omg u jus made me wont to know u 4 eva i jus wish u had facebook then ill always b ur friend wheneva u need me im allways on my facebook but im rarely on here but if u have msn ill happy add u and i love u
wildcat4live 2 years ago
there's not much to say about that yet i could go on and on about how touching and moving that was....i just cant find the riht words to decribe how that made me feel. I'ts great that u express urself like that. i'm in tears right now! I'm 11 years old and i want to be a writer when i'm older. I feel as if you relly help me and inspire me with that goal. The video was just....beautiful. I wish i knew how to put it into words. thankyou xx for that. i look forward to your next video,
ailee800 2 years ago
So, I've watched this over and over again over the past couple of months, I still love it as much as I did upon first viewing. There is so much pain and still, a bit of hope. Right now I am not so much hurting from the end of a relationship, but waiting for a relationship to begin. I know that when it does begin there will be all these discussed in this vlog. and I will someday ask, "whatever happened to us?"
wahwahblues 2 years ago
I'm a Guy, and I like it a lot, their was much depth and feel in every word that was spoke, although I wasn't around at that time I just saw this video, I'm sorry for your loss, I feel for you.... Good people are those that don't speak much but wisely as your self.... Blessing's to you kicsie, with all your video works here online bless you....
LazLoNoah 2 years ago
I really, really, really like this video. Something about the way you talk, it's so vulnerable and open. It's like hearing your inner voice speak. I love it. Your videos always inspire me. =] Keep making them great.
Rhaylynn 2 years ago
-Continue from previous- And with my undying love. I can forgive her for anything. Even if she breaks what we have with time i can still have something with her because our bond is unbreakable. Weathor it be as man and wife, or friends to lean on. We will always have a conection
Quaid71 2 years ago
I relize that this an old video, but im a new subscriber. I feel that i can relate to alot of the things you say. I have loved the person im with for the past 6 years even though she has not returned it. I could go on for hours about the troubled times and the good times. Such as the recent situation where we are engaged but she suddenly felt unsure about her love for me. or desire to marry me. As a wait for her to figure that out i relize that my love for her is undying no matter what happens
Quaid71 2 years ago
this is my fav video ever
i think about it alot
it makes me feel better.
i just broke up today. ):
pinkstar02323 2 years ago
you are very beautiful!!!!nice video
mustimanx 2 years ago
nice video
totallyspecatcularr 2 years ago
Oh, so touching, I love it. Yeah, life and love plays some weird tricks on all of us. My way of love was tragically ironic. I hung on this girl for at least 3 years, which might be just what you called a "so unhealthy love". It was love at first sight, but I never got together with her, although she kept sending me mixed messages over and over again.
HispanicImpression 2 years ago
She was together with pretty much every guy in my town, but not with me.This background lead me to the point where I decided,that there is no future for us.
HispanicImpression 2 years ago
I really enjoy your videos. Some of your videos help me to relax much better. Im disabled handicapped so I appreiate it.
I tried to e mail you but I was blocked somehow. anyway, maybe we can speak someday. Once again, thank you wholeheartedly for your help and your views on life. Sincerely, Joe - Bolinman
Bolinman 2 years ago
beautiful. where you just miss everyone. old friendships and loves, coz every friendship is different and however many new friends you make theres always space where a person was that cant be filled. its melancholy. in a way depressing but its beautiful how the love lasted and how you move on into new life but that youve never really lost them even if sometimes its only memories that exist to prove they were ever there. people shape who we are and we shape them and we always have that.
XxXxX
anchoredwunderlust 3 years ago
wow, i can say this is now my favorite video, it really touched my heart. its awsome!. i can't describe what it made me feel.
wawencita 3 years ago
ouch thats a nail on the head. basicaly flip losing the guy for losing the girl and wow you just hit me gard
bullfrog099 3 years ago
cryin
crmp05 3 years ago
!!THAT GUY!!!????? (:WHO ME:)
JesusJack4x4 3 years ago
You'll always have some-one, as we'll always love you, for the part you have in our lives.
chevshade 3 years ago
the man that breaks my heart every time he walks away..... and the man that died for me.... i may not always love you.... but i'll never forget you...
JaniaStrange 3 years ago
It is never easy to say goodbye to the ones you truly love. It is easier to say good bye to the bad ones. I hope we never have to say goodbye to you. The music and poetry was just great.
tcraffs 3 years ago
your so cool!!! =]
iiaFOOL 3 years ago
Wow, That is deep. And beutiful....But yet very very true....
hawthorne564 3 years ago
This video is awesome, i love it!!!
blondebabe963 3 years ago
your voice sounds just like mandy mooore's!
Greysismine 3 years ago
this is the first video i've watched of u! i love it! it made me cry...i subscribed! (:
pinkstar02323 3 years ago
i love this song, wat is it? enrique iglesias..something or other
lolMegxxx 3 years ago
Love is a lesson in life, those relationships that don't work out are not always a reflection on you. It is what they want at the time no matter how hurtful it is. For they, are the ones, as I have learned myself, who lose out in the end. Thank you Kicesie. As a male I have been there too.
Morph7827 3 years ago
Love... makes me cry when i think i loved once.. I believe only the strongest of emotions can make a guy feel tears dripping down his eyes.. I'm such a guy.. But hey love dosent have to mean to have and to hold.. Love goes on and mine won't diminish.. Love makes me wish all the happiness and blessings for her.. love makes me visualize that my love is being loved more, This heartache inside has turned into gold which i couldn't part with. I've loved and i'm proud of it. I will love u always.
alaflamboyant 3 years ago
This made me cry.
I understand and feel the same as you.
I know exactly how that feels..
claire42069 3 years ago 2
Your vids seem so serious - can you do a light hearted one so we see the more cheerful side of you ?x
techieladybird 3 years ago
love can be none other than forever, so if we say it is forever, then we imply there is a forever, in which case you may very well see your grandmother again.
4aseer 3 years ago
2:10, i made sure it never changed for my gf, coz im the fuckin overlord.
levlobotomy 3 years ago
Then you're not the guy I was referring to there....
KicesiesVlog 3 years ago
Your conclusion is correct. Not that I find you unattractive though.
Protip: lighten up for god's sake. I do hail your deepness, or at least it seems as if you are, but if this deepness of character leads into a wall of shit hidden in the past, it's time to walk away, innit. You'll say it was art for the moment and you don't dwell at all, but I won't believe that.
levlobotomy 3 years ago
No, not in this universe. But I already knew I wasn't.
I wanted to post something clever and witty here, but I just decided not to. Except one thing, a true analogy. When it's cold outside, have you noticed you feel all the more colder when you start hating or not wanting it ? Hidden there is the trick to defeat many an annoyance, such as mortal beings with, in essence, immortal minds which dwell on a "dead love" that never should have died according to theory. But you're the pro amirite.
levlobotomy 3 years ago
nice
chipa4life 3 years ago
i feel the same way.
heartssmilespeace 3 years ago
so, what about the flip side? the person who has this unrequited love for you while you remain indifferent? if it is inevitable that we all have this deep love that is unreturned, is it also our fate to be the one who is loved without recompense?
xOLDxCOWBOYx 3 years ago
I certainly believe so.... it only makes sense.
KicesiesVlog 3 years ago
Wow, what can I say. I am amazed by your words. I have been given solice by the tought that all my past loves may love still and that there is someone out there that does love, love me. I really need that, now. Thank you.
wahwahblues 3 years ago
Well I can tell you this.... while you probably speak of a personal love that you need/crave, I have enough love inside me to spill over to the whole world. So I'm sending someone your way.
And I think, in life, there is always some human out there who loves us greatly. I could be wrong, but at least most of the time that must be true.
KicesiesVlog 3 years ago
awe, i wish i was part of ur life =/ lol strange isnt it? how many people are out there that can greatly impact your life, but too sad that because of lacation, it is nearly impossible to be found, except maybe by luck. but we didnt meet, for a great reason as well, just gotta accept that fact =)
btw you are great at showing passion,
big props!
Rollin138 3 years ago
Lovely item, very reconiz.
Xs2FunNet 3 years ago
slt sorry i m french so y dont speak english very well but you are a very very very sexy and lovely girls and can you send your msn please i love you lol big kiss miss
FLUTIO47 3 years ago
Everything you say always has such meaning.
This was absolutely beautiful..
and I was completely touched..
This is the best video i've watched.. in my entire youtubing history.
:)
you're absolutely amazing and gorgeous!!
ILY!!!
-Cassie-
CassieBeau 3 years ago
hey i like your stuff. way to go.
fartlick45 3 years ago
Kimberly this video expresses the way I feel toally. I still love my past loves with all my heart and they will always have a special place in my heart. The video touched me to the core of my being.
rolltide3800 3 years ago
this video felt like it was directed exactly toward me and the way I feel in every single relationship I've ever been in except the long distance one in which I am right now. You are so inspiring and after I watch any of your videos, I feel empowered. You are magic. This is a wonderful video.
serialXdreamer 3 years ago
This is my favorite.video.ever!
angielooo 3 years ago
This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
GMVTV 3 years ago
This is the truest thing ever.
I seriously almost cried watching this.
I can relate to pretty much everything you said.
smiles1012 3 years ago
I could relate to most of the things that you read.
FlowingGeisha 3 years ago
What was the name of the song?
FlowingGeisha 3 years ago
enrique iglesias- don't you forget about me. the song is amazing!!!
ninhbac04 3 years ago
this made me cry so much:'(
ryanaqui 3 years ago
poems? words? what?
blastedontape 3 years ago
most of it are journal entries
KicesiesVlog 3 years ago
sorry, it was a lame attempt at tryen to say that my eyes are flooded with beauty and that none of my other senses work. But, nevermind, i thought u was some unknown girl posting, didnt know you had a following.
blastedontape 3 years ago
I absolutely love this video. It describes true love perfectly. I've seen a few of your videos and I wish I could have been that wise/mature at 21/22 and I wish that both men and women could have the same insight to life as you do at that age. Life would be so much simpler!
pigeonshouse 3 years ago
I can't find a single word to express how you made me feel. You are a real person expressing the true love.
God bless you.
Take care...
mas4udotcom 3 years ago
thank u for saying what i'm feeling right now but i am not " ready " to say. i just can not stop watching this again and again
13f07i19l91o 3 years ago
You are a beautiful person girl.
HisSongBird1987 3 years ago
we all want what we cant have. thats no doubt part of wanting those people that can't ever appriciate us.
and probalby why we never seem to want the ones who will always appriciate us. they are easily within reach.
sounds kinda cruel doesnt it? wish i could prove it wrong!
jediNewby 3 years ago
You're so poetic. Thanks for adding me as a friend. That's a beautiful song by Enrique Iglesias. I've never heard it before. I'm going to have to download that one. I'm amazed at how someone so young can know so much about relationships.
O7734 3 years ago
Stuff thats going on in my life right now made this vlog so poignant that i cried whilst watching it, especially the last clip. It was all beautiful. Thank you.
What was the music you used in the vlog? I loved it.
kissingintherain123 3 years ago
that all was completly beautiful and its exactally how i feel.
queenothein777 3 years ago
you speak such truths, i had a true love, a true relationship, but i actually screwed it up. At the time, i wanted it to end, but looking back at it it's what i truly wanted, i realize now that i could and should've married this girl, but due to an old crush suddenly becoming available destroyed that all. 7 months of true honest love, {only girl i actually waited to have sex with)for 2 months with this other chick that i realized wasn't at all what i really wanted.
CathalJDodd 3 years ago
This kinda made me cry at the end. I often wonder myself about where life is going to take me and what's going to happen to the people I love and me. I'm a selfish friend...I want my friends to be with me forever, and I want it to really mean forever. I can't imagine life without them...but I've moved on before and I can move on again. I just don't want to.
kookoocachoo27 3 years ago
how is it you can have a whole book about people you loved so much and i can't find enough love for one person
ryanpc1972 3 years ago
hey kice.. thnx, i thnk u'll 1 day make me cum 2 u on my knees.
u've been answerin all my unasked questions.
like u say v giv evrythng 2 some1 coz v wnt get nethng in return. & thn v end up hurt bcoz they din ndrstnd our love.
9 yrs i loved a gal bt never did she care abt me d way i did 4 her. n whn v i try 2 move on she's alwez standing around to hold me bak.
love is amazing if ur partner undrstnds it. or it hurts alot.
docsushant 3 years ago
Is this one of your psychology projects? Good one if these truely are how you feel about love. You explained every well on the kind of love that is painful. Not only girls feel this way, guys also do, especially they love someone who they know is a cocotte. They know it is a pathetic love but simply cannot give up...sadly painful
doomuall 3 years ago
Nope, not a psychology project... just my poetic brain wanting to talk. :-)
KicesiesVlog 3 years ago
you are making me feel in love about you
hey i love you
samjoe31 3 years ago
all of your videos seem sad and that makes me sad T.T and thats not just girls that do that guys or atleast i am; im kind of currently in that shit
kashiark 3 years ago
I have only been watching your videos for a couple weeks I'm slowly but surely catching up on all of them I started with your sex ed channel and joined this one as well. Your way with words and thoughts really moves me, and stimulates my thoughts. So much of what you talk forces me to take a second look at parts of my own life and think about things in a whole new light. Thank you for that. Thank you for the inspiration and ecouragement to truly live and not just exist.
WVBeetle99 3 years ago
I love the end...how you stopped talking and the song says, "Don't you forget about me." or something like that. How perfect.
oooops84 3 years ago
you're beautiful girl
DAMIN84 3 years ago
the scary thing about love for me is...it can be the best and most wonderful feeling - and it can be the exact opposite, bc nobody can hurt you the way your loved ones can. No matter if it´s a relationship, close friendship, family or your beloved pet. And again and again I wonder if it´s not better to NOT love...you can only be hurt so many times and then it´s too much to bear. But somehow someway you always do it again, bc you´re still hoping, bc the good times are hopefully worth the pain...
Schneefell 3 years ago 2
Oh! This is love. Don't forget no one is gonna get die until he get what he gave.
AshrafBile 3 years ago
beautiful! you spoke to me and toke the words right out of my mouth the only sad thing is most people don't understand that kind of love if they did the world would be such a better place thanks for posting!
carlyjomomma 3 years ago
that last message really hit me! sometimes i think about all the people who have come and gone in my life, and it makes me so sad to think how close we once were. we used to have telephone convos for over 2 hours, and now, we barely even say hi to each other. time is a funny thing, and you never know its effects until it is too late - it is unfortunate, but like you said, it is life and it is something that we all must deal with. thank you for all of your videos - they have been very helpful!
dance4ever87 3 years ago
Beutiful in all the ways :)
Wish you good luck
PRANOOKOO 3 years ago
I can say it is true there are tose that will hold us forever with or with out them. she went by the nick name julz. twas 04 my graduation night she took my hand and we walked all around togeather that night and wen it came to say good night insted of giving the pasanet kiss I wanted to and deeded to I did not. from then it kindia fell from grace. I alwasy wondered what would of hapened if I would of kised her. but now every sad song/ love I here makes me think of her. to my tourment
jasonporter03 3 years ago