healthy and more! And not loosing anymore either! Or starving myself. I'm 5'3 1/4 90 lbs. And i gained 5 lbs and im proud! It was hard but I feel much better. And I'm not bacracardic anymore. and I want you to know YOU ARE NOT TO BLAIM!!! ITS A ILLNESS!! A ILLNESS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! -3 take care. I love ur videos. You have such great advice! And info!!!! Your amazing!
I dont care if you smoke:) and I am recovered anorexic. I suffered for 1.5 years and still strugging today but am not starving myself and eating:) 14.5 years old. But now I am scaried that I will suffer those thingsthag after recovery. I almost fractured my wrist a couple Times in PE. and when I was sick I wet the bed and my nails and lips were blue. So blue my mom thought I ate blue yogurt. I never had a heart attack but I did have a pulse of 42 BPM(maybe less) and still today my heart is rat
I had to create a youtube account to post a comment....and this was the video that was finally worth it for me.
First, thank you for posting this, thank you doesn't even quite do it. Your video breaks my heart, but at the same time I'm glad you're on the road back to health. You might not recover the health you once had, but at least you have life, as even that could have been taken.
P.S. I'm 21 and am missing 6 molars (don't remember having a tooth brush for extended periods as a child...)
Wow! Thanks for this!!! I've tried to starve myself but with no "success". I didn't have the "discipline"! I thought I was week because I wasn't strong enough to not eat. Watching this video really opened my eyes! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. But this video may save a lot of people from making the same mistake. Or even dying. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! And I wish you the best!
You video is scary...scarrier than anything i ever heard,seen or read about ed's before....and i give a BIG THANK YOU...because i'm not anorexic,but there were many times when i tought i should "give it a try",thinking it was nothing more than a fast diet and that nothing bad will happen if i do it "correctly"...but this video changed my mind FOREVER....i am so sorry that you and so many other like you have to go trought this hell....but i will pray to God to give as much health as possible! thx
Wow... I watched this and your other video "you're going to die"... I'm trying to get over starving myself and that's why I watch this... this made me panic and cry but it's a good thing... I'll just keep thinking about this whenever I want to starve myself... I'm so scared now, been doing it since October or about and I don't want this to happen to me... thank you so much for sharing it, I just hope it's not too late for me, but you know maybe you saved me.
you say you've been bulimic for 2 years. why are you asking if this will happen to you? she made this video to warn people of what will happen if you continue with an eating disorder, so that's a stupid question to ask. ever thought that perhaps that's not the most appropriate thing to say to someone who's recovering?
I sense a lot of bloated whale women here. Go back to Ana and Mia...
Anyway, to the point. All you women seem to do is whine whine whine. “Oh it’s a disorder”. Yeah, aw, boo hoo, the fact remains…there are millions of us out here who will constantly remind you that gotta lose that fat. Thin is beautiful, May you continue to realize it.
I'm a medical student and anorexic. crazy isn't it. i've been like this for years. and after learning and see how dangerous it is being malnourished, i decided to eat more. but then, when i gained some weight, i hate it. then i'll be back,not eating again. i agree, this is an obsession self-hatred. i hate to see myself dying because of opportunistic infection and organ failure.what kind of doc who cant take care of herself.but if only there is a way for me to get out of this...i just can't
I was anorexic and bulimic for three years. And have been recovered for two and I know I could have died but like I'm lucky only to have some teeth problems and weak bladder. Well I had falling out hair I used to shit myself in public without being able to control it (soooo embarrassing) and I had calcium deficiency and low potassium too more than that even!!!
i don't have anorexia or bulimic but a lot of people think i have
because i'm to skinny
and i tell you: i hate it
whatever i eat i wont get heavier.. nobody is perfect i just want to tell you that even if your skinny you're not hapoy with yourself so stay healty and eat enough!
Wow. you really opened my eyes to the whole anorexia thing. Im not anorexic, i don't desire to be either, i folowed a link shared by a sufferer on a blog. I don't eat properly and alot of the time i forget to do simple things like brush my teeth or grab a healthy snack, but hearing your story, hearing your pain...it just makes you think. I'm going to be sensible and eat properly from now on, i hope alot of people, not just anorexics, will learn from you. Your video will change alot of lives x
i know this video is years and years old, but i just wanted to throw this out there- thank you for putting the truth out there into the internet. it may not be pretty, but it's what people need to hear.
(and to those who still think that being ~*ana*~ is super awesome after hearing this? y'all be delusional.)
and some commiseration here- i've been through a lot of the same. (except exchange the incontinence for sporadic puking- starving + binge/purge cycles'll do that.)
...you did not anorexia correctly....you need to take vitamins and drink water when you do it....and an occasional peanut or cashew to keep your bowels moving...you have to be smart.....stay hydrated....and as for teeth it is time for implants....chewing ice helps.....most anorexics don't do it the smart way....vits help with the CA++ intake....you need your elecytolytes....gatorade works....it has to be done like it is a sport...you just can't be a total annie.....
@SleepWhenIamDead Why can't they just eat food and be done with it. Be smart about, don't just rely on amped up liquid? Food is NOT the enemy. The enemy is your sick mind telling you "Oh I can live with not being able to function when I'm forty as long as I'm thin and beautiful now." Newsflash, you probably won't be around when your thirty if you rely on your technique. The body needs food for energy to perform it normal simple tasks. Without food (energy) the body completely shuts down. .
@babymama10212008 ....all things in moderation....in todays society everyone wants to supersize it and not expend the calories it takes to consume that size meal...it is ridiculous...you are what you eat....you eat a pig....you turn into a pig,,,,,you drink cow's milk...you turn into a cow......no rocket science there......my friends.....
Oh God. I think this might have changed my life. I've been wanting to lose weight for a maybe a year now (which I should, believe me) but seeing this, I'm sure that I will do it in a healthy way, like getting a doctor make me a diet or something. I think you're so brave for doing this and you will help other people, I know that. You're amazing.
Sweetie, you are such a brave person for doing this. I dont know if you fully recovered or not, but I hope you have. Wanted to let you know that this has reached an ED support site, and that you are helping so many people by doing this. I dont know you, but you are so inspiring, and Im so PROUD of you!
Thank you so much for this video! I can see how hard it is for you to even talk about it. God bless your soul, you are a sweet and beautiful woman. I hope more girls see this...
This made me so scared! My mum said she lost her teeth due to anorexia but I didn't believe that it could happen, & now that I've heard it happened to you I'm really worried bcoz my teeth are the ONE thing that I like about myself.
Heart attacks, walkers, infections...I'm watching this over and over again trying to scare myself into doing something before it happens to me.
You are very brave coming on here and telling people what *really* happens, it's eye opening.
Omg, I didn't know the consequences. Till I saw this! I think sometimes to eat nothing on a day, and then when I eat cookies or something on those days. I get angry on myself. But I can't help it to eat no cookies. But now I see this, and I think I must be happy to can eat. And not angry. So thanks. I think it's so brave of you ! <3 (I'm sorry my english is not very well )
I have an eating disorder since before I knew what an eating disorder was. And I want to stop so badly. I already have a lot of the things you're talking about.
How did you recover? I'm seeing a psychatrist, but it doesn't seem to help.
Anyway, thank you so much for posting this. You are so brave
Hi IDream, sorry to hear you have this difficulty. The psychiatrist does not have a fix. It is up to you to recover yourself, make that choice. Counselling is about the client coming to the therapist with goals and taking charge. The psychiatrist likely is monitoring your situation, is there to perscribe SSRIs for possible anxiety and depression to help you cope better, but you are the one that has to beat this mental illness.
I think it's very good ol thisf you to tel! Most of the people really don't believe the consequences. Thank you for making this video. I think it's very brave you made it :)
I am terrified by your story, but I also think that you are such a strong person to get so much better from this aweful disorder. I think you're doing a great job, telling people the truth and consequences.
i have had one on+off for about 7 years. during there have been periods where i have been restricting, yet also binging + purging occasionally. because of this, my stomach couldn't take as much food, and i was so used to puking when i had a lot in me... so every time i tried to eat a normal meal + keep it down, i would puke. wherever i was. while talking to friends. had to run to a bush if outside, or keep it in my mouth till i could get away. not fun. :(
thank you for making these videos... so many people out there on youtube make "thinspo" videos, glamorizing this "lifestyle" they think will make them perfect. this is the truth of EDs, more people should hear it. :)
i was not anorexic for all that long but i have sooo many consequences its ridiculous. I now take pills and naturopathic drops and a whole bunch of stuff just so that i can actually digest my food. Jokingly i refer to them as my stomach in a pill. i have low stomach acid, few enzymes, allergies to milk and eggs and it is basically impossible for me to lose weight (i only want to b/c i gained back even more weight than i originally had). my hair thinned out too. Do not do this to yourself!
You are amazing. Your films are teaching me and everyone else so much that we need to know. I hope you're coping better. Your films are so necessary. Thank you.
Read Explaining colours to a blind man. Not only will it enlighten many as to what living with a mental illness and an eating disorder is like, it also gives comfort to those sufferers who think there is no hope and that they are alone. It is very informative, sometimes shocking but also very funny in parts. All in all, a good read and highly recommended.
I was anorexic from roughly the ages of 14 through 19, and in my 20s continued to be underweight even tho I no longer actively starved myself. When I was 25 I was diagnosed with osteoporosis, and although I haven't had to have any teeth pulled, I have had numerous fillngs for cavities and enamel that has literally chipped off my teeth--from loss of bone density. I know exactly what you're going through, and I feel the same way you do--it totally fucking sucks.
it doesnt matter what she did or didnt eat. you can eat just enough to keep your body surviving everyday, and still have all these things, which i have now found out after 14 years. the point is, these things do happen. im 7 stone, and these things are happening to and have happened to me, and im in recovery, because i want to be alive for my children. i am a uk size 6-8, and these things are happening to me. you dont have to be 3,4, or 5 stone for these things to happen to you.
Thank you so much for THIS video--I had two kids and I want to get thin and I was restricting my diet the past three days and exercising everyday and because of your story just on this video you have inspired me to STOP and lose the weight in a healthy way. THANK YOU.
Thanks so much for posting this...I think I can still walk away from all this - even if it's hard...Thanks thanks thanks... and I hope you can make the best out of what you got and thank god you recovered! *hugs*
thank you...i am almost 15 and i have been fighting anorexia sense i was 12...theres not enough people saying that its not good...there is to many people saying that its ok...but its not...
Hi this video is fantasist every one with an eating disorder needs to see it. your honesty is just what i needed been bulimic for 11 years and now my body is beginning to give up on me.I've been lying to myself saying I'm fine. After seeing this I'm going to get help. Thank you.
thank you for this video. i've been going through the mind yo-yo of recovery and longing of thinness- i it worth it etc, and this video made me see things really clearly. well done for having the courage and the strength of character to try and get the message across to others. i hope you feel better soon hun. all my good wishes are sent to you.
I didn't believe in the physical consequences either until i started loosing my hair. Actually truth be told it was when i got pregnant and my doctor told me that if i gave birth at my weight i would probably die during birth. Also have trouble digesting food and get sick all the time, always lightheaded cant even go up stairs. And countless other symptoms i wont even describe
I run a forum for people recovering/suffering from eating disorders. It is a pro-recovery site that promotes positive body image and gives people a place to talk about their struggle with an ED. If you would like the URL for the forum send me a message as YouTube won't let me post links! x
wow. a TOTAL eye opener. i REALLY hope young girls who think that starving yourself is glamorous and fun will watch this and realize HOW WRONG they are...
ive struggled with eating disorders since i was 10 (im 19 now) and im just starting to get a bit better and eat more normally but ive been slipping back and wanting to starve myself again. Then i saw this, it really really helped me remember that need to keep eating so thanks for taking the time to do this for us
that was really amazing. i don't know that much about the effects of eating disorders, but what i have been told or read about, has NEVER been shown to me in the way that you have shown us. thanks for being strong and helping those who need it.
Good on you for making this - I hope it helps some people. I have never had an eating disorder - so it's hard for me to understand how people can not realise that you will destroy your body if you don't eat properly... but obviously some people don't get this ... so thanks to you sharing your story maybe some other people won't get sick. That's great : )
wow... thanks for that. i really needed this wake up. i think the same way u use to "oh im fine, im getting away with it..." funny i was actually lookin for pro ana vids and found this, im glad i did. thanks again (for scarin the $h!t outta me lol but thats what it takes sometimes)
Hang in there babe! You are a true inspiration to ed sufferers. I am trying to recover myself. It is hard road to go up, but with people like you, it makes it easier to do! Thanks for sharing.
you are so brave. i hope, i am not a god-person so i don´t pray, but i really hope that you will be fine. don´t ever get back there. stay strong and fight it. you are a great help to me.
Wow, that was deep. Thank you for showing the TRUE, dark and ugly truth about anorexia. I used to be anorexic when I was about 15 and have recently relapsed and watching this video hit home. I don't understand why so many young girls have to suffer from this horrible disease. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are very brave and I admire you immensely for your strength. Take care.
WOW, thank you sooo sooo much for making this video. i was actually thinking of taking that path, but after watching this video, its made me realize that being anorexic and making myself suffer just to be "perfect" is useless. thank you so much<3
I am facing the same issues as you right now. I was ana for 12 years and had a heart attack at 16. Im losing my teeth and my stomach is constantly an issue. I have the bone density of a 40 year old. Thank you for your post- it needs to be said.
Thank you so much for posting this incredibly powerful video. It reminds me I made the right decision in entering Recovery when I did. I suffered physical consequences, but my body has healed over time. I consider myself extremely lucky.
I have posted a link to this in an ED forum (NOT pro) which I co-moderate. This message needs to be shared.
OMG. It's so powerful. Kudos to you. Kudos to you. *hugs* thank you for that. I have so much admiration for your courage to post this. Thank you so much. I don't have anorexia, i'm bulimic... but I never knew "for real" what this could do. *hugs* thank you.
Thank you so much for this video. I admire you to have such courage. I wish I did too but battling is already demanding enough. You're truly an inspiration. I hope someday everyone will understand. Thank you.
you saved me. you did. thank you. the truth opens eyes and saves others. Kat, thank you. thank you so much. although I am bulimic and not anorexic, its easy for me to see how I could be in the same place.
i dont, i have msn though....i am so grateful at this moment, that you have had an eye opening experience from this. thank you for watching and thank you for telling me it helped. I am so happy to know you are thinking differently. my email is miss.kasia21@hotmail.com thats also my msn contact info. please keep in touch and take care.
Thank you. I am so sorry you are suffering all of these consequenses. My ED wasn't as serious as some, because i never reached a really low weight, but binging and purging hasn't been good to my body. Now when i purge i can feel my insides protesting and it really scares me. I get shooting pains in my stomach, chest and heart and i get so scared that i will get a heart attack. Thank you for sharing these vidoes with the world. You are so brave and beautiful. xxxx
I registered to send you a very long comment until I learn 500 characters are the max. Well, what I felt like telling you is that I'm an 19 years old french boy, neither goth nor gay, but I'm recovering from a year and half of anorexia, and that very few people have ever managed to move me as much as you did with this video. I'm amazed to see how self-destruction can turn into such structured, positive and powerful thinking. You have all my admiration and I wish you all the best.
Thank you! thank you soooo much. i'm so glad i came acrossed this. omg, omg, i finally realize what i'm doing to myself. omg. lol i typed up this huge messege but the damn thing got erased. lol, but i was crying as i was typing it, and i started eating a fruit bar in the middle of your video. thank you soo much. i've only been starving myself for 4 months, but still,,, i think you've saved me. i'm not going to starve myself anymore.thank you soo much. i love you.
that is so scary....... woah.... man.... I respect for you being so honest I hope some girls will take it more seroiusly..... I also have a eating disorder.... umm but the other way around... I am overweight... You are such a stong and beautiful young girl.. I hope your life will turn aout better as you think.....
I think that your video was really inspiring and I hope lots of people who have ed's watch it. it was brave of you and I commend you! Im sorry for what its done to you, but I think its amazing that youre turning it around and letting people know the truth !
that's the most powerful vid 'bout this topic I have ever seen, including all documentaries I ever saw on tv. I don't cry easily but your vid really touched me. you're so brave for making this vid, it's a shame I can't save it on my computer to watch when I'm having a hard day with recovery.
You are obviously such a strong person and I respect you so much for what you're doing. Your experiences are the truth about anorexia although we never hear about it, we just receive conflicting messages, images of sizeO celebs etc Honestly, this is one of the most powerful&frank pieces I've ever seen&cried at!! You seem to be getting a lot of interest(much deserved)A suggestion: make blogs into a dvd!!There are lots out there who need your truly inspirational words!
Oh man...I feel sorry you have gone through all that, but I feel that you're very strong now and I am glad that things are slowly getting better. I wish you all of the best and I thank you for doing this video to show stupid youngsters what the real deal with all this is... I wish somebody had saved you before you could do all this to yourself. Hugs to you.
I forgot one thing...this helped a lot. A LOT. I am recovered but for the past year have found myself falling...hearing your story helped extremely. Thank you again...for sharing your story...it truly has touched me and I will always remember it. Oh, and another hug, of course! *hugs*
I've seen so many people talk about anorexia and what it can cause... but this does it. To know that there are so many people who have been left in a similar state because of their eating disorders is troubling, to say the least. All the health classes in the world could not teach me how profoundly it can screw you up. You have my admiration. I only hope this will set one sufferer on the right path and save them the pain of a lifelong complication. You're beautiful, take care of yourself.
ah, this made me cry. I've been suffering from anorexia nervosa for 2 years.. since I was 13. im searching help all thanks to you. i love you with all of my heart for making this video and for being you, it was the first time I really realized what the fuck im really doing to myself. you're helping so many people out there including me. love from joakim.
thank you so much. im so sorry youre going through it too. you CAN get better. I love you with all my heart as well.....for finding the strength to realize you need help.
Wow. You are my inspriation. Im sorry about everything your going through. Im 13, I tried not eating for the longest time. During the school year i use to only eat a bowl of cereal or nothing per day. But I couldnt do it when summer started. I tried not to eat but it didnt work, and now im happy it didnt. Im sorry again. Very sorry and I wish you luck <3
thank you .your entry actually made me cry. i noticed quite a few things like the bloating, the inability to digest food, the bruises, the pains, the always looking pale and ill from iron deficiency... i knew there was some reason for it, but i've never had it explained to me that this is the effect of what i have done to my body and this is why i have all these problems. im just so grateful for someone sharing the information because my doctors sure as hell didnt tell me anything
*hugs* im sorry to hear youre going through it too...but as long as you take care of your body, you can keep the after effects to a minimum. also, may i suggest getting a new doctor?
lol i dont even have a doctor anymore. they just used to say "you've damaged ... now" how am i meant to know that 3 years later im going to still be getting half of the problems. i guess i know a lot about medicine now so mostly i generally dont need doctors.
I just wanted to mention something to you about your bones mainly. You can actually reverse the effects of osteoporosis after 10 years of recovery assuming you still have your period and maintain your bmi at 20. Please keep up your recovery and you WON'T need a walker at 40. I'm 25 years old and about to go into IP and your videos have helped give me even more motivation to get better.
Thanks for the videos they are very powerful and will help many people.
it's a nice break to hear from somebody so down to earth. i've just recently been discharged from a three month hospital stay after starving myself down to 76 pounds. i know what it is to have your heart beating at 30 beats per minute in your sleep, having people wake you up, making sure you're still alive, because frankly you shouldn't be. i'm glad you're using your voice, and i wish you all the best.
I just thought I'd let you know that your video is getting a lot of attention on livejournal communities, and it is helping a lot of people.
You did good, making this video. You are really helping people. It is amazing, to take your own suffering and pain and be able to help someone else with it.
This is exactly what every woman needs to hear. I just need to know that my body IS acceptable, because all i've gotten from fashion and tv is that I am not beautiful and that I won't be beautiful until I lose weight. We are victims of the very images that we worship.
How do we make your videos the most watched on you tube?
i have no idea how that works. lol....i am surprised to find that ANYONE is even seeing them...now im getting 83 emails at a time here. *sighs* its amazing and overwhelming. anyway. you're right about us worshipping the same images that are killing and condemning us. *hugs* youre beautiful, just remember that.
I have bowel problems naturally I'm already on meds for life. Your really getting to me but I just don't know who I am with out my ed. and I just don't think I could live with myself if I stayed this fat.
say goodbye to the lie that says you cant live with your natural weight. that lie will cost you your very life, and then you'll be dead...so you may think you cant live with it the way it is....but you won't live period if you starve yourself.
my book is called : "This Machine: My Dance With a Monster Called Ana." It isnt out yet, but i hope it will be someday. *hugs*
my hands swell I never thought that it was caused by my ed and my wrists bruise but I think that is from my anemia and my feet hurt all the time it gets so bad that I can't walk sometimes. but my ed isn't as bad as yours so maybe it's not my ed. What is your book called. Your like very motivational I can't wait to read your book.
Well this one really got to me. It really opened my eyes and made me think. You really are a good person for doing all of this. Keep the hope and inspiration coming. :)
Thanks again Kat for telling me about all this. *hugs*
Hey,I felt so bad after watching this video,cause you opened my eyes, You opened my EYES ..seeing all the stuff I do with myself every single day..Im 19 now and i´m suffering from bulimia now, after anorexia.All began with the age of 14.And I know, I really know the consequences, but I could not stop..the desease has oo much control..and I need to stop..I need...to STOP it...but...why?
That certainly had an impact!! I have been living on zone bars and yoghurt all summer with a few goodies in between. I am already sick from other things so I am not going to do this anymore!! I mean it. I am soooooo proud of you and I want you to get that book finished!! It will have a big impact on people too. :) xoxox
I still have to go to my doctor to ask or he could find out if I still am damaged. But to be honest I'm scared.I'm scared to know the truth about what I've done to myself. I guess my kidneys are failing because when I had to start eating again, I stopped drinking. That was about 8 months ago, so I don't think that my kidneys are 100% okay. I didn't care about the fact that I would die from anorexia, all I wanted was to be thin.
healthy and more! And not loosing anymore either! Or starving myself. I'm 5'3 1/4 90 lbs. And i gained 5 lbs and im proud! It was hard but I feel much better. And I'm not bacracardic anymore. and I want you to know YOU ARE NOT TO BLAIM!!! ITS A ILLNESS!! A ILLNESS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! -3 take care. I love ur videos. You have such great advice! And info!!!! Your amazing!
-Shelly
TheKillerInMyHead 1 week ago
I dont care if you smoke:) and I am recovered anorexic. I suffered for 1.5 years and still strugging today but am not starving myself and eating:) 14.5 years old. But now I am scaried that I will suffer those thingsthag after recovery. I almost fractured my wrist a couple Times in PE. and when I was sick I wet the bed and my nails and lips were blue. So blue my mom thought I ate blue yogurt. I never had a heart attack but I did have a pulse of 42 BPM(maybe less) and still today my heart is rat
TheKillerInMyHead 1 week ago
I had to create a youtube account to post a comment....and this was the video that was finally worth it for me.
First, thank you for posting this, thank you doesn't even quite do it. Your video breaks my heart, but at the same time I'm glad you're on the road back to health. You might not recover the health you once had, but at least you have life, as even that could have been taken.
P.S. I'm 21 and am missing 6 molars (don't remember having a tooth brush for extended periods as a child...)
mmmandyj 2 months ago
Wow! Thanks for this!!! I've tried to starve myself but with no "success". I didn't have the "discipline"! I thought I was week because I wasn't strong enough to not eat. Watching this video really opened my eyes! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. But this video may save a lot of people from making the same mistake. Or even dying. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! And I wish you the best!
Coldfire523 5 months ago
ewwww scary!
tzitzidoll 8 months ago
@tzitzidoll Fuck yourself wth something hard and sandpapered
LetsTrollCaye 5 months ago
You video is scary...scarrier than anything i ever heard,seen or read about ed's before....and i give a BIG THANK YOU...because i'm not anorexic,but there were many times when i tought i should "give it a try",thinking it was nothing more than a fast diet and that nothing bad will happen if i do it "correctly"...but this video changed my mind FOREVER....i am so sorry that you and so many other like you have to go trought this hell....but i will pray to God to give as much health as possible! thx
kiky90 9 months ago
Wow... I watched this and your other video "you're going to die"... I'm trying to get over starving myself and that's why I watch this... this made me panic and cry but it's a good thing... I'll just keep thinking about this whenever I want to starve myself... I'm so scared now, been doing it since October or about and I don't want this to happen to me... thank you so much for sharing it, I just hope it's not too late for me, but you know maybe you saved me.
birdheartedgirl 10 months ago 2
your 26? you looked like more 40+ years old to me
i have bulimia, will this happen to me too? ive had it for 2 years so far im 17
and im not saying this to be mean im being truthful
ClythiaMystica 1 year ago
@ClythiaMystica yes it will. you need to start doing something right now. you're just 17, you still have a chance.
Welvia 11 months ago
@ClythiaMystica no, you're being needlessly vicious
you say you've been bulimic for 2 years. why are you asking if this will happen to you? she made this video to warn people of what will happen if you continue with an eating disorder, so that's a stupid question to ask. ever thought that perhaps that's not the most appropriate thing to say to someone who's recovering?
MaryanaS01 9 months ago
Thank you so much for posting this. It was so powerful and it really made me think..
lilballerina 1 year ago
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I sense a lot of bloated whale women here. Go back to Ana and Mia...
Anyway, to the point. All you women seem to do is whine whine whine. “Oh it’s a disorder”. Yeah, aw, boo hoo, the fact remains…there are millions of us out here who will constantly remind you that gotta lose that fat. Thin is beautiful, May you continue to realize it.
Now, get nice and skinny for us ;)
DrinkFromMyThickDick 1 year ago
I'm a medical student and anorexic. crazy isn't it. i've been like this for years. and after learning and see how dangerous it is being malnourished, i decided to eat more. but then, when i gained some weight, i hate it. then i'll be back,not eating again. i agree, this is an obsession self-hatred. i hate to see myself dying because of opportunistic infection and organ failure.what kind of doc who cant take care of herself.but if only there is a way for me to get out of this...i just can't
LovelyMissTina 1 year ago
You have made me think again....you are such a brave girl to talk about this.
Well done, I'm proud of you, young lady.
hazelAcope 1 year ago
I was anorexic and bulimic for three years. And have been recovered for two and I know I could have died but like I'm lucky only to have some teeth problems and weak bladder. Well I had falling out hair I used to shit myself in public without being able to control it (soooo embarrassing) and I had calcium deficiency and low potassium too more than that even!!!
cortneyxnanoo 1 year ago
i hope you will get better!
i don't have anorexia or bulimic but a lot of people think i have
because i'm to skinny
and i tell you: i hate it
whatever i eat i wont get heavier.. nobody is perfect i just want to tell you that even if your skinny you're not hapoy with yourself so stay healty and eat enough!
and I really didn't know all those consequences
thank youu so much for telling them!
kyra19955 1 year ago
Wow. you really opened my eyes to the whole anorexia thing. Im not anorexic, i don't desire to be either, i folowed a link shared by a sufferer on a blog. I don't eat properly and alot of the time i forget to do simple things like brush my teeth or grab a healthy snack, but hearing your story, hearing your pain...it just makes you think. I'm going to be sensible and eat properly from now on, i hope alot of people, not just anorexics, will learn from you. Your video will change alot of lives x
sibikins 1 year ago
I'm so sorry, I wish you the best in life...
kittykitty1974 1 year ago
thank you so much for posting this!
Wildsexysweety07 1 year ago
i know this video is years and years old, but i just wanted to throw this out there- thank you for putting the truth out there into the internet. it may not be pretty, but it's what people need to hear.
(and to those who still think that being ~*ana*~ is super awesome after hearing this? y'all be delusional.)
and some commiseration here- i've been through a lot of the same. (except exchange the incontinence for sporadic puking- starving + binge/purge cycles'll do that.)
much love.
scentipede 1 year ago
...you did not anorexia correctly....you need to take vitamins and drink water when you do it....and an occasional peanut or cashew to keep your bowels moving...you have to be smart.....stay hydrated....and as for teeth it is time for implants....chewing ice helps.....most anorexics don't do it the smart way....vits help with the CA++ intake....you need your elecytolytes....gatorade works....it has to be done like it is a sport...you just can't be a total annie.....
SleepWhenIamDead 1 year ago
@SleepWhenIamDead Why can't they just eat food and be done with it. Be smart about, don't just rely on amped up liquid? Food is NOT the enemy. The enemy is your sick mind telling you "Oh I can live with not being able to function when I'm forty as long as I'm thin and beautiful now." Newsflash, you probably won't be around when your thirty if you rely on your technique. The body needs food for energy to perform it normal simple tasks. Without food (energy) the body completely shuts down. .
babymama10212008 1 year ago
@babymama10212008 ....all things in moderation....in todays society everyone wants to supersize it and not expend the calories it takes to consume that size meal...it is ridiculous...you are what you eat....you eat a pig....you turn into a pig,,,,,you drink cow's milk...you turn into a cow......no rocket science there......my friends.....
SleepWhenIamDead 1 year ago
Oh God. I think this might have changed my life. I've been wanting to lose weight for a maybe a year now (which I should, believe me) but seeing this, I'm sure that I will do it in a healthy way, like getting a doctor make me a diet or something. I think you're so brave for doing this and you will help other people, I know that. You're amazing.
SonniesOriginals 1 year ago
okay i changed my mind
anxietybaby 1 year ago
Sweetie, you are such a brave person for doing this. I dont know if you fully recovered or not, but I hope you have. Wanted to let you know that this has reached an ED support site, and that you are helping so many people by doing this. I dont know you, but you are so inspiring, and Im so PROUD of you!
xx
itsjustme463 1 year ago
Thank you for this.
BansheeVanRaven 1 year ago
I wish i could give you hug
mollydasiy7 1 year ago
You are so brave girl! :D i hope You are fine
MaggsBonita 1 year ago
Thank you so much for this video! I can see how hard it is for you to even talk about it. God bless your soul, you are a sweet and beautiful woman. I hope more girls see this...
if you need anything let me know!
kikikimify 1 year ago
This made me so scared! My mum said she lost her teeth due to anorexia but I didn't believe that it could happen, & now that I've heard it happened to you I'm really worried bcoz my teeth are the ONE thing that I like about myself.
Heart attacks, walkers, infections...I'm watching this over and over again trying to scare myself into doing something before it happens to me.
You are very brave coming on here and telling people what *really* happens, it's eye opening.
ForFr33dom 1 year ago 3
Omg, I didn't know the consequences. Till I saw this! I think sometimes to eat nothing on a day, and then when I eat cookies or something on those days. I get angry on myself. But I can't help it to eat no cookies. But now I see this, and I think I must be happy to can eat. And not angry. So thanks. I think it's so brave of you ! <3 (I'm sorry my english is not very well )
xMylovesart 2 years ago 3
This is so scary.
I have an eating disorder since before I knew what an eating disorder was. And I want to stop so badly. I already have a lot of the things you're talking about.
How did you recover? I'm seeing a psychatrist, but it doesn't seem to help.
Anyway, thank you so much for posting this. You are so brave
IDreamOf98 2 years ago
Hi IDream, sorry to hear you have this difficulty. The psychiatrist does not have a fix. It is up to you to recover yourself, make that choice. Counselling is about the client coming to the therapist with goals and taking charge. The psychiatrist likely is monitoring your situation, is there to perscribe SSRIs for possible anxiety and depression to help you cope better, but you are the one that has to beat this mental illness.
I hope you get better.
SuperWhadup 2 years ago
i think that you would help a lot girls with this, by telling them that this is really really bad, ehich they excully nkow, but they dont realize it.
liskeylis 2 years ago
I cried when you started crying :(
You're so brave for telling your story, it's so sad.
Take care <3
TheOneAndOnlyMe92 2 years ago
I'm SO proud of you telling all this!!!
Thank you for fighting against your own sickness and that off others!!
I'll pray for you!
Love Quntah
Quntah888 2 years ago 8
I think it's very good ol thisf you to tel! Most of the people really don't believe the consequences. Thank you for making this video. I think it's very brave you made it :)
Pian0ismm 2 years ago
youre doing such a great thing. i wish you all the best
stickyhatescounter 2 years ago 2
you're doing wonderful, telling the truth!
Tuberr80 2 years ago 3
I am terrified by your story, but I also think that you are such a strong person to get so much better from this aweful disorder. I think you're doing a great job, telling people the truth and consequences.
ananasje 2 years ago
Where your parents were at the time???
SUNNY3333 2 years ago
wow ... what AMAZING reverse thinspiration. possibly the best on youtube. thank you.
dkmaple387 2 years ago
thank you... the only thing that i could say is thanks!
pettry2 2 years ago
Thank you.
18rah 2 years ago 5
oh, and another consequence of EDs-
i have had one on+off for about 7 years. during there have been periods where i have been restricting, yet also binging + purging occasionally. because of this, my stomach couldn't take as much food, and i was so used to puking when i had a lot in me... so every time i tried to eat a normal meal + keep it down, i would puke. wherever i was. while talking to friends. had to run to a bush if outside, or keep it in my mouth till i could get away. not fun. :(
scentipede 2 years ago
thank you for making these videos... so many people out there on youtube make "thinspo" videos, glamorizing this "lifestyle" they think will make them perfect. this is the truth of EDs, more people should hear it. :)
scentipede 2 years ago
i was not anorexic for all that long but i have sooo many consequences its ridiculous. I now take pills and naturopathic drops and a whole bunch of stuff just so that i can actually digest my food. Jokingly i refer to them as my stomach in a pill. i have low stomach acid, few enzymes, allergies to milk and eggs and it is basically impossible for me to lose weight (i only want to b/c i gained back even more weight than i originally had). my hair thinned out too. Do not do this to yourself!
PaintedPicasso 2 years ago
You are amazing. Your films are teaching me and everyone else so much that we need to know. I hope you're coping better. Your films are so necessary. Thank you.
HaFannyHa 2 years ago
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hsttraindriver 2 years ago
I was anorexic from roughly the ages of 14 through 19, and in my 20s continued to be underweight even tho I no longer actively starved myself. When I was 25 I was diagnosed with osteoporosis, and although I haven't had to have any teeth pulled, I have had numerous fillngs for cavities and enamel that has literally chipped off my teeth--from loss of bone density. I know exactly what you're going through, and I feel the same way you do--it totally fucking sucks.
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sp45ih 2 years ago
it doesnt matter what she did or didnt eat. you can eat just enough to keep your body surviving everyday, and still have all these things, which i have now found out after 14 years. the point is, these things do happen. im 7 stone, and these things are happening to and have happened to me, and im in recovery, because i want to be alive for my children. i am a uk size 6-8, and these things are happening to me. you dont have to be 3,4, or 5 stone for these things to happen to you.
minimal1975 2 years ago 2
Thank you so much for THIS video--I had two kids and I want to get thin and I was restricting my diet the past three days and exercising everyday and because of your story just on this video you have inspired me to STOP and lose the weight in a healthy way. THANK YOU.
Americangirl787 2 years ago
How often did you eat so that this happened to you? :S WHat DID you eat when you did eat?
bananabananaculture 2 years ago
I´m with you...don´t give up ever...I love you and I wish the BEST for you!
ana18princess 2 years ago
I am so sorry! ~Hugs~
I've been through what you've been through.
carissa0515 2 years ago
i just love u. u r brave and strong and so awesome. beautiful inside and outside.
s7arryeyed 2 years ago 3
Thanks so much for posting this...I think I can still walk away from all this - even if it's hard...Thanks thanks thanks... and I hope you can make the best out of what you got and thank god you recovered! *hugs*
thenextginalynn 3 years ago
thank you...i am almost 15 and i have been fighting anorexia sense i was 12...theres not enough people saying that its not good...there is to many people saying that its ok...but its not...
ruebrducky22 3 years ago
thankyou.
i feel like im on the brink of anorexia, but i think if i watch this video whenever im at a low point it'll help me so THANKS :D <3
AMELiiAxO 3 years ago
I admire you. =)
I love your cats in the background. XD I keep seeing one's tail flap up and then down.
BernouliRose 3 years ago
youre one brave woman and i just cant help but admire you. *^_^*
zoeyhatestoeat 3 years ago
Hi this video is fantasist every one with an eating disorder needs to see it. your honesty is just what i needed been bulimic for 11 years and now my body is beginning to give up on me.I've been lying to myself saying I'm fine. After seeing this I'm going to get help. Thank you.
berrygaget 3 years ago 3
thank you for this video. i've been going through the mind yo-yo of recovery and longing of thinness- i it worth it etc, and this video made me see things really clearly. well done for having the courage and the strength of character to try and get the message across to others. i hope you feel better soon hun. all my good wishes are sent to you.
XxTakeMeAwayx98X 3 years ago
I didn't believe in the physical consequences either until i started loosing my hair. Actually truth be told it was when i got pregnant and my doctor told me that if i gave birth at my weight i would probably die during birth. Also have trouble digesting food and get sick all the time, always lightheaded cant even go up stairs. And countless other symptoms i wont even describe
butterflymatron 3 years ago
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Pinklucy38 3 years ago
my friend is going though this, i hope that she gets better you are an inspiration
bernardmarianovella 3 years ago
wow. a TOTAL eye opener. i REALLY hope young girls who think that starving yourself is glamorous and fun will watch this and realize HOW WRONG they are...
werejisima 3 years ago
Whoa. This is a really powerful video. Thank you for being so open.
foodismybff 3 years ago 4
How are you today? I miss you!
6gunannie 3 years ago
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SpaceWars2025 3 years ago
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thankyou so much...
ive struggled with eating disorders since i was 10 (im 19 now) and im just starting to get a bit better and eat more normally but ive been slipping back and wanting to starve myself again. Then i saw this, it really really helped me remember that need to keep eating so thanks for taking the time to do this for us
xx
justanotherclown 5 years ago 69
wow, just wow. you are so brave. <3
stfuashley 5 years ago 95
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lol. good point. eninweke, let's quit smoking together. :-)
dkrikori 5 years ago
you're such an inspiration to so many.
dkrikori 5 years ago 71
You are so brave. This video is amazing.
psychopathy 5 years ago 51
Damn what am I doing to myself :'( I think you just saved me...
daydr3amnation 5 years ago 58
that was really amazing. i don't know that much about the effects of eating disorders, but what i have been told or read about, has NEVER been shown to me in the way that you have shown us. thanks for being strong and helping those who need it.
VegaLeFae 5 years ago 44
Good on you for making this - I hope it helps some people. I have never had an eating disorder - so it's hard for me to understand how people can not realise that you will destroy your body if you don't eat properly... but obviously some people don't get this ... so thanks to you sharing your story maybe some other people won't get sick. That's great : )
thedailyenglishshow 5 years ago 36
thankyou so much-you have so much courage and i hope it teaches others that anorexia isnt glamorous
cathykp 5 years ago 38
You are saving so many lives with these videos!!!Thank you for sharing your experience with us. You are a brave woman!!!
DanielleLowe 5 years ago 46
wow... thanks for that. i really needed this wake up. i think the same way u use to "oh im fine, im getting away with it..." funny i was actually lookin for pro ana vids and found this, im glad i did. thanks again (for scarin the $h!t outta me lol but thats what it takes sometimes)
Abercrombieboy6988 5 years ago 3
Hang in there babe! You are a true inspiration to ed sufferers. I am trying to recover myself. It is hard road to go up, but with people like you, it makes it easier to do! Thanks for sharing.
Lunna81 5 years ago 3
you really gave me goosebumps
angely0482 5 years ago 4
amazing.
amanananananananada 5 years ago 2
Katie and coco said exactly what I was going to write: Thank you
Candyann22 5 years ago
Thank you.
KatieandCoco 5 years ago
you are so brave. i hope, i am not a god-person so i don´t pray, but i really hope that you will be fine. don´t ever get back there. stay strong and fight it. you are a great help to me.
Aktmodel 5 years ago
Wow, that was deep. Thank you for showing the TRUE, dark and ugly truth about anorexia. I used to be anorexic when I was about 15 and have recently relapsed and watching this video hit home. I don't understand why so many young girls have to suffer from this horrible disease. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are very brave and I admire you immensely for your strength. Take care.
moodyjenny86 5 years ago 3
WOW, thank you sooo sooo much for making this video. i was actually thinking of taking that path, but after watching this video, its made me realize that being anorexic and making myself suffer just to be "perfect" is useless. thank you so much<3
Irenerz 5 years ago 3
I am facing the same issues as you right now. I was ana for 12 years and had a heart attack at 16. Im losing my teeth and my stomach is constantly an issue. I have the bone density of a 40 year old. Thank you for your post- it needs to be said.
Mymadhatter 5 years ago 3
omg. Your amazing. <3. ty.
oxKatieox 5 years ago
Thank you so much for posting this incredibly powerful video. It reminds me I made the right decision in entering Recovery when I did. I suffered physical consequences, but my body has healed over time. I consider myself extremely lucky.
I have posted a link to this in an ED forum (NOT pro) which I co-moderate. This message needs to be shared.
anathema08 5 years ago
You my dear, have just changed my life.
Veronicanoelle 5 years ago 13
oh God what an amazing relief! *hugs* thats awesome, thank you!!
eniwekwe 5 years ago 2
thanks for sharing your pain with us. your experiences will hopefully help deter others from following in the same path.
seherc 5 years ago 4
thats my hope. *hugs* thanks :o)
eniwekwe 5 years ago 3
OMG. It's so powerful. Kudos to you. Kudos to you. *hugs* thank you for that. I have so much admiration for your courage to post this. Thank you so much. I don't have anorexia, i'm bulimic... but I never knew "for real" what this could do. *hugs* thank you.
emptywuzz 5 years ago 5
*HUGSHUGSHUGS* thank you too for watching. and getting something out of this.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
This is a powerful video that many people should see. I'll get it on YouTubeStars.com soon. Thanks for making this; I wish you all the best!
KennyWrites 5 years ago
wow thank you so much! much appreciated. *hugs*
Kat
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thank you so much for this video. I admire you to have such courage. I wish I did too but battling is already demanding enough. You're truly an inspiration. I hope someday everyone will understand. Thank you.
ItWasAPleasureThen 5 years ago
you saved me. you did. thank you. the truth opens eyes and saves others. Kat, thank you. thank you so much. although I am bulimic and not anorexic, its easy for me to see how I could be in the same place.
do you have AIM?
LanieBelle 5 years ago
i dont, i have msn though....i am so grateful at this moment, that you have had an eye opening experience from this. thank you for watching and thank you for telling me it helped. I am so happy to know you are thinking differently. my email is miss.kasia21@hotmail.com thats also my msn contact info. please keep in touch and take care.
*HUGS*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thank you. I am so sorry you are suffering all of these consequenses. My ED wasn't as serious as some, because i never reached a really low weight, but binging and purging hasn't been good to my body. Now when i purge i can feel my insides protesting and it really scares me. I get shooting pains in my stomach, chest and heart and i get so scared that i will get a heart attack. Thank you for sharing these vidoes with the world. You are so brave and beautiful. xxxx
ailsamalone 5 years ago
thank you too. for watching. and please, try to remember you're worth more than you think.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I registered to send you a very long comment until I learn 500 characters are the max. Well, what I felt like telling you is that I'm an 19 years old french boy, neither goth nor gay, but I'm recovering from a year and half of anorexia, and that very few people have ever managed to move me as much as you did with this video. I'm amazed to see how self-destruction can turn into such structured, positive and powerful thinking. You have all my admiration and I wish you all the best.
niaj4 5 years ago
thank you so much and congrats on your recovery...keep it up...life is worth living. *HUGS*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thank you! thank you soooo much. i'm so glad i came acrossed this. omg, omg, i finally realize what i'm doing to myself. omg. lol i typed up this huge messege but the damn thing got erased. lol, but i was crying as i was typing it, and i started eating a fruit bar in the middle of your video. thank you soo much. i've only been starving myself for 4 months, but still,,, i think you've saved me. i'm not going to starve myself anymore.thank you soo much. i love you.
thepissedoffpharmacy 5 years ago 2
you've just moved me to tears my friend. i love you too. please keep loving yourself. please. *HUG*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
that is so scary....... woah.... man.... I respect for you being so honest I hope some girls will take it more seroiusly..... I also have a eating disorder.... umm but the other way around... I am overweight... You are such a stong and beautiful young girl.. I hope your life will turn aout better as you think.....
jennymagic 5 years ago
*HUGS* thank you so much. take care and please don't be afraid to seek help for your ED
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I think that your video was really inspiring and I hope lots of people who have ed's watch it. it was brave of you and I commend you! Im sorry for what its done to you, but I think its amazing that youre turning it around and letting people know the truth !
x
ffwlbri 5 years ago 2
*hugs* thanks so much!!
eniwekwe 5 years ago
that's the most powerful vid 'bout this topic I have ever seen, including all documentaries I ever saw on tv. I don't cry easily but your vid really touched me. you're so brave for making this vid, it's a shame I can't save it on my computer to watch when I'm having a hard day with recovery.
hugs, take care..
ps: cute cat :)
tinybutterfly 5 years ago 2
thank u for this vid.it means so much to me.maybe 1 day i can recover.thank you for this!
spoo42 5 years ago 2
You are obviously such a strong person and I respect you so much for what you're doing. Your experiences are the truth about anorexia although we never hear about it, we just receive conflicting messages, images of sizeO celebs etc Honestly, this is one of the most powerful&frank pieces I've ever seen&cried at!! You seem to be getting a lot of interest(much deserved)A suggestion: make blogs into a dvd!!There are lots out there who need your truly inspirational words!
Fruthie 5 years ago 2
thank you so much!!! i am grateful to have such positive input!!
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Oh man...I feel sorry you have gone through all that, but I feel that you're very strong now and I am glad that things are slowly getting better. I wish you all of the best and I thank you for doing this video to show stupid youngsters what the real deal with all this is... I wish somebody had saved you before you could do all this to yourself. Hugs to you.
Saladbowl 5 years ago 2
thank you so much. *HUG*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thank you for the courage you put out there to tell your story.
AnAddictsEmpathy 5 years ago 2
thank you for taking the time to watch it.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thank you. Can I give you a hug? *hugs*
RibbonTree 5 years ago
yes you can! *huga back*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I forgot one thing...this helped a lot. A LOT. I am recovered but for the past year have found myself falling...hearing your story helped extremely. Thank you again...for sharing your story...it truly has touched me and I will always remember it. Oh, and another hug, of course! *hugs*
RibbonTree 5 years ago
you rock, youve made my day!
eniwekwe 5 years ago
you've made my day!!! And days to come at that!
Take care! ;)
RibbonTree 5 years ago
for how long did you suffer from anorexia? -hug-
joakima 5 years ago
12 years. *hugs back*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I've seen so many people talk about anorexia and what it can cause... but this does it. To know that there are so many people who have been left in a similar state because of their eating disorders is troubling, to say the least. All the health classes in the world could not teach me how profoundly it can screw you up. You have my admiration. I only hope this will set one sufferer on the right path and save them the pain of a lifelong complication. You're beautiful, take care of yourself.
maggie2193 5 years ago
thank you......i am so touched by your comment. *hugs*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
ah, this made me cry. I've been suffering from anorexia nervosa for 2 years.. since I was 13. im searching help all thanks to you. i love you with all of my heart for making this video and for being you, it was the first time I really realized what the fuck im really doing to myself. you're helping so many people out there including me. love from joakim.
joakima 5 years ago
thank you so much. im so sorry youre going through it too. you CAN get better. I love you with all my heart as well.....for finding the strength to realize you need help.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Wow. You are my inspriation. Im sorry about everything your going through. Im 13, I tried not eating for the longest time. During the school year i use to only eat a bowl of cereal or nothing per day. But I couldnt do it when summer started. I tried not to eat but it didnt work, and now im happy it didnt. Im sorry again. Very sorry and I wish you luck <3
ImNoToKaY49210 5 years ago
i wish you luck too. *hugs*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
thank you .your entry actually made me cry. i noticed quite a few things like the bloating, the inability to digest food, the bruises, the pains, the always looking pale and ill from iron deficiency... i knew there was some reason for it, but i've never had it explained to me that this is the effect of what i have done to my body and this is why i have all these problems. im just so grateful for someone sharing the information because my doctors sure as hell didnt tell me anything
crazysal 5 years ago
*hugs* im sorry to hear youre going through it too...but as long as you take care of your body, you can keep the after effects to a minimum. also, may i suggest getting a new doctor?
eniwekwe 5 years ago
lol i dont even have a doctor anymore. they just used to say "you've damaged ... now" how am i meant to know that 3 years later im going to still be getting half of the problems. i guess i know a lot about medicine now so mostly i generally dont need doctors.
crazysal 5 years ago
I just wanted to mention something to you about your bones mainly. You can actually reverse the effects of osteoporosis after 10 years of recovery assuming you still have your period and maintain your bmi at 20. Please keep up your recovery and you WON'T need a walker at 40. I'm 25 years old and about to go into IP and your videos have helped give me even more motivation to get better.
Thanks for the videos they are very powerful and will help many people.
*hugs*
stacey
misslake1981 5 years ago
I thank you SOO much for posting this.. <3
becauseofyou3712 5 years ago
thank YOU for watching. <3
eniwekwe 5 years ago
it's a nice break to hear from somebody so down to earth. i've just recently been discharged from a three month hospital stay after starving myself down to 76 pounds. i know what it is to have your heart beating at 30 beats per minute in your sleep, having people wake you up, making sure you're still alive, because frankly you shouldn't be. i'm glad you're using your voice, and i wish you all the best.
thescatteredremains 5 years ago
thank you, i wish you luck and happiness in your new life.......*HUGS*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Bravo for making this video. This deserves more than 5 stars.
sarahbol 5 years ago
thanks *hug*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
thanks *blush*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
do you have a flame lit near you, candle or something? or a cig? if not..is your house haunted?
ShesNotProAna 5 years ago
nevermind, its jsut smoke from a fag or something..phew! got kkinda freaked out then!
ShesNotProAna 5 years ago
lol
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I just thought I'd let you know that your video is getting a lot of attention on livejournal communities, and it is helping a lot of people.
You did good, making this video. You are really helping people. It is amazing, to take your own suffering and pain and be able to help someone else with it.
shaunaplague 5 years ago
wow...awesome. :) this fills my heart to the brim with a joy i never thought I could have ever felt after anorexia.....thank you.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
This is exactly what every woman needs to hear. I just need to know that my body IS acceptable, because all i've gotten from fashion and tv is that I am not beautiful and that I won't be beautiful until I lose weight. We are victims of the very images that we worship.
How do we make your videos the most watched on you tube?
Griffox 5 years ago
i have no idea how that works. lol....i am surprised to find that ANYONE is even seeing them...now im getting 83 emails at a time here. *sighs* its amazing and overwhelming. anyway. you're right about us worshipping the same images that are killing and condemning us. *hugs* youre beautiful, just remember that.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I have bowel problems naturally I'm already on meds for life. Your really getting to me but I just don't know who I am with out my ed. and I just don't think I could live with myself if I stayed this fat.
jaz0188 5 years ago
say goodbye to the lie that says you cant live with your natural weight. that lie will cost you your very life, and then you'll be dead...so you may think you cant live with it the way it is....but you won't live period if you starve yourself.
my book is called : "This Machine: My Dance With a Monster Called Ana." It isnt out yet, but i hope it will be someday. *hugs*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
my hands swell I never thought that it was caused by my ed and my wrists bruise but I think that is from my anemia and my feet hurt all the time it gets so bad that I can't walk sometimes. but my ed isn't as bad as yours so maybe it's not my ed. What is your book called. Your like very motivational I can't wait to read your book.
jaz0188 5 years ago
Well this one really got to me. It really opened my eyes and made me think. You really are a good person for doing all of this. Keep the hope and inspiration coming. :)
Thanks again Kat for telling me about all this. *hugs*
caesune 5 years ago
thanks again for listening. *hugs back*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
why...this must happen...and how i could live without my eating disorders..?
im so glad to see your videos and i´m proud of you, you are such a strong woman...
I wish you the best!!
Snowwhite04 5 years ago
i am no stronger than you.......
and believe me, its not scary on the other side of the ED.....I am happier now and have more love for myself now at 145 pounds than i did at 98.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Hey,I felt so bad after watching this video,cause you opened my eyes, You opened my EYES ..seeing all the stuff I do with myself every single day..Im 19 now and i´m suffering from bulimia now, after anorexia.All began with the age of 14.And I know, I really know the consequences, but I could not stop..the desease has oo much control..and I need to stop..I need...to STOP it...but...why?
Snowwhite04 5 years ago
That certainly had an impact!! I have been living on zone bars and yoghurt all summer with a few goodies in between. I am already sick from other things so I am not going to do this anymore!! I mean it. I am soooooo proud of you and I want you to get that book finished!! It will have a big impact on people too. :) xoxox
gemof51 5 years ago
i hope youre right and dont you worry...the book is almot done!!
eniwekwe 5 years ago
What's the book called? I'll definitely search for it when it's published.
n0wher3 5 years ago
"this machine: My dance with a monster called Ana"
it wont be out for a while....but it WILL someday. i swear it!
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Don't stop making these videos, please.
nobeautyinthis 5 years ago
i wont. *HUG*
eniwekwe 5 years ago
I admire you so much for making this video's!!!
I hope I can find the strength to go to my doctor once.
Big hug with a lot of love!
B3rnadette 5 years ago
thank you so much.
please try...to go to the Dr.,.....if there IS any damage, he can help you treat it now, before its too late.
eniwekwe 5 years ago
Thanks for the advise... I guess it's just something I have to do...
B3rnadette 5 years ago
I still have to go to my doctor to ask or he could find out if I still am damaged. But to be honest I'm scared.I'm scared to know the truth about what I've done to myself. I guess my kidneys are failing because when I had to start eating again, I stopped drinking. That was about 8 months ago, so I don't think that my kidneys are 100% okay. I didn't care about the fact that I would die from anorexia, all I wanted was to be thin.
B3rnadette 5 years ago