My Secrets
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  • I also have 2 sisters and a brother. I don't feel close to them. My dad is dead and my best friend died last year, he was 26. I can relate so much.

  • aweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SHUCKS, i loved this.. the ability that we present ourselves flaws and all gives our lives such beauty.. I really appreciate you sharing your vulnerabilities =] inspired me to do one of these. stay blessed. mucho love-o

  • im afraid of my own feelings and facing them so i just push them aside and bottle them up most of the time witch is not healthy in any way

  • Not a speed reader.

  • not to be chorny or cliche but i can relate to almost all of that

  • I still get called weird.  I feel disconnected from mt family as well, like I dont quite fit in.

  • all y'all soft ... I have been a real nigga from 1990-to the present... THE STREETS!

  • <3

  • I slept with my mom till I was 11

  • I can def.ly relate..... And GOSH she's gorgeous :-))

  • Thats a deep video, i really connected with you for a second. Check out my page and subscribe plz and thanks

  • gotta go watch this on a computer cause it doesnt show good on my phone couldnt read nothing

  • wow thanks for sharing.

  • I am a dude and damn we have some similar secrets keep the funny uploads comming you always make me laugh..

  • i havent had a serious relationship inlike 6 years i have trust issues. my family dont act like family real cut throat. ( some do have and show love). MY mom dont like or love me so that makes me question the realness of the females i meet who say they do.IM a grown man that still watches cartoons tom N jerry and woody woodpecker are my sh$t. my lil girls smile and voice brighten up my day no matter how mad or sad i am..No matter where i go or who im around i dont feel i fit in.

  • I'm not close to my family at all and I miss it. I have trust issues to the point I cry about it. I wish I saw myself the ways others see me. I love to sit quietly in the night and listen. I love random art. I am taught that feelings and emotions get you no where in life. I'm a everyday teenager that is lost and confused about life itself. But I like to see myself as a survivor in the end -3

  • my secret...i havent had a serious relationship since my last was murdered in front of me 7 years ago.. i ALWAYS find a way to not connect with a potential mate. another secret, although i pretend it doesnt bother me, i often wonder why my father never bothered to reconnect with his children.. dont know if he is dead or alive.

  • cute and sweet video.. i am new to your channel so it was a good intro plus my real name is deanna also... i dont know many black girls named deanna(smile)

  • Whenever my friend Joey calls me a dumbass when we're joking around it doesn't feel like it's a joke instead like a personal opinion he feels about me. I know he thinks he's superior than me because he's said it he has better grades(I have A's and B's one C, he's all A's) the only reason I'm friends with him is because I can't make any other friends and he knows it. Why else would I stick around? He accepts my weird quirks that's the only thing I know I can count on him for. He's use to them.

  • You don't look ugly to me I think you are very pretty

  • damn most of ur last secrets were mines 2

    especially the losing friends/dying young part

    i'll never forget one night/early morning @ around 4am i was lying in my room thinking about random things when out of the blue i said my 1st kiss's name (while still lying there) i felt & could see my self getting shot 4 times & 1 in the head. & i remember saying please god don't let nothing happen 2 him (i hadn't spoken to him in yrs) around 9am my cuz told me he was killed shot 4 times 1 in the head

  • Very cute

  • Wow I got called 'Weird' in school too! I always took as an compliment. It must have took BALLS to do this video! I feel closer to you now... *stalker face*

  • Its sooo crazy how you said you have panic and anxiety disorder bc I just had a freakin anxiety attack...TOO MUCH ON MY MIND! I'm calm now and I'm happy I watched this video. Thanks D!!! Love ya!

  • i cried when i watched this. It just made me like you. i don't know. You are awesome.

  • very honest and sincere (y)

  • That was the most honest and beautiful videos I have ever seen in my entire life.

  • i have trust issues and thats why i no longer have any close friends i kind of distanced myself from them.

  • I Wish I could have a REAL relationship With a certain someone ... * sighs *

  • I <3 Miley

  • Great video. Thanks for sharing your secrets with us.

  • Your Beautiful !

  • *Sigh... Its official... I frickin' Love you DeAnna- Your Inspirational, your a role model and a voice of reason in a 15 year old girls life who wants nothing more than to be accepted against all odds... You make me believe its Ok to be me--- Jus... Thankyou

  • it seems like it's always the people who feel like they don't fit in, or people who been threw/going threw hard ships who are the most realest and friendliest people.

  • I have the capital A in my middle name too DeAnna. yay for uniqueness! lol

  • I was called mute boy in middle school bc i was quiet n did not talk much but was very smart.

  • 1. i had panic attacks all the time

    2. i lost my father to cancer at 21

    3. i have extreme trust issues and sometimes abandonment issues

    4. i'm over pertective of my friends and family

    5. im the blk sheep of my family

    6.i fear death

    7.im an overachiever

    8. i sometimes doubt myself

    9. i am a perfectionist

    10. i hate being alone sometimes.

  • I'm so sorry for what happen. I hope your ok.

  • I get bullied and sometimes i feel like suicide is the only answer to making it all stop

  • @datfyegirl17 if u do that then they win ...not can make you fel small unless u let them find strength and hope okay <3 and if you feel like there is nobody in your corner am here and should let u know that there is still good in the world okay

  • I am afraid that im not good enough. Im an athlete in college and all the pressure to perform well in school and on the track gets to me. Everyone depending on me for everything sucks when i cant give it to them. I regret not fixing my relationship with my father and I am afraid my relationship with my mother will end in the same way. I am afraid that i dont need anyone and will be alone.

  • I used to be made fun of as a child cause I wore weave when I was 7 years old. I stopped at the age of 18. They used to call me weavie wonder and bald head.

  • @myregularasslife*hugs* your such a good person

  • Wow!!!love it

  • I'm scared to get close to people who I'm not close to and I feel that I'm alone in the world 95% of the time when it comes to having things in common with people.

  • @kingabe07 i know what u mean

  • Sometimes, I don't think people get me. But people assume that I can relate to them and want to share their stories with me. I get a lonesome feeling almost EVERY time someone shares personal info w/ me. :-\

  • I recently did a "My Secrets" check it out un, it's beautiful... Yours as well.

  • *some 1 else.... stupid auto correct

  • I get nervous around females I'm really attracted to.. I hide my real emotion s ....I have a hard time getting into a relationship bc I'm affraid that I will get left 4 summer else...

  • @t3chl1f3 you not the only one

  • i joke alot abt it but id rather avoid confronting things then facing them

  • i wished i never wished for my father to die.....

  • I don't know how to tell a girl i like her because I'm shy and afraid of her response

  • @Deserticeninja i also get embarrassed by it also

  • wow we have very similar secrects

  • I also have panic attacks.  That just started about four years ago. It's really scary when a panic attack hits. The first time it happened, I thought I was having a heart attack. It was by far the worst feeling ever. I don't know if it's the same for you, but sometimes sleep deprivation can trigger one.

  • I was an outcast in school too. People made fun of me for being the smart kid in class and because I wasn't as outgoing and talkative as everyone else. I still have trouble striking up conversations with people I don't know because of it. I've gotten better though. :)

  • I wipe boogers under shit.

  • I wish i was closer to my siblings as well, growing up i was basically the only child because of the age difference

  • I lost my best friend(my dad) and even though I have close friends and family around me, I still feel like I'm in this world alone.....O and I can eat a whole pot of peas by myself :)

  • I have serious abandonment issues,I dnt trust n e one,I appear to be stronger than I really am,O n it's no secret bt I love mashed potatoes too :-)...Thanks @Myregularasslife

  • I have a goldfish name Jimmy

  • i cried when i watched this i gain super respect for you because i could see that u wanted to cry. and it is super hard to admit this secrets and im super proud of u

  • I'm making a response video to this :) It'll be up tomorrow afternoon please watch I'm really glad you shared this with us and I'm inspired to do the same..I'm kinda nervous as to the secrets I'm going to tell but I think if you have the courage to do it then I can do it too :)

  • Loved it! I always wanted to.do a my secrets video but idk who would wanna watch

  • You have the best "boring" intro's lol

  • I have 6 sisters no brothers, split up parents, a mom that hates me n a dad thts disappointed in me right now. So I pretty much feel alone wen I get home. :-/

  • lol u know damn well your life isn't REGULAR though

  • 1:38 Beautiful Pose

  • My secret: I don't like not being acknowledge as a person and for the things I do especially if I'm good at them. That's why it's not good enough for me to just do something I feel I gotta win at it so people will notice me. And the fact that most girls from highschool only wanted me for their own personal gain and not me for me.

  • My heart cries for the world when I think about all of the distruction, despair, hatred, racism, physical mental spiritual and child abuse, wrongly accused, etcetera. I also feel I'm too small to make a difference. I have trust issues. I love my bestfriend but its either him or my family. I know too many peoples secrets. I'm scared of losing my babies. My dad is alive but I don't know how to let him in after 22yrs. My sister is my bff and I'm scared she's gonna turn out like me.

  • I'm a hopeless romantic and I'm afraid I will never find anyone to like me for me. I have low self-esteem from always being called names. I smile and act like I'm ok even when I'm really not.

  • i love u for showing us this vulnerable side...im scared of moths...and confrontation...there i said it!!!

  • i have been diagnosed with panic & anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder . I get made fun of because " I talk white " and im black . Ive been made fun of since i was about 6 and i just turned 16 , for being overweight . . . it only happened cause my uncle died :/ I cant talk to anybody , I feel so alone .

  • ever since i was i kid ive been pushing people away from me, because im use to everyone always leaving me =(

  • I wish i woulda fixed my relationship with my dad before he died too :/ 

  • @MandyFaye93 *hugs*

  • @Myregularasslife i wish the beautiful miss @Myregularasslife would follow me back on twitter i think its only right she gets to see my sexy face on her twitter like i see hers on mine lol ; )

  • its hard for me to be submissive to a guy

    and i act tough too

  • told ya it would be okay if you did this. As for my secret; I've never had a girlfriend

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  • i dont wanna be single but im scared to talk to guys that i like

  • i hate being around alot of people

  • she has a boyfriend -_- lol but u used to rap huh? lol yo next video.. Spit something lmao from 1:58 on i have some of those same issues. I a tell u a secret i have a huge Crush on this girl but shh dont tell nobody.

  • I eat ass

  • @sbibbfids LMAO HA HA HA HA HA HA HA GTFOH LOL 

  • I act like im strong in front of my friends, BUT I can't even talk to a guy without saying something stupid:/

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  • Liked because of your courage =)

  • .........I had a crush on punky brewster when I was little.....and the cartoon Jem. I can't believe I typed that. D, I could hug you after that vid.

  • I have the poop fear too. I'm always afraid to eat too much when I'm out because I'll have to be where other butts have been

  • I would just like to say tht was a great video keep :)

  • I love mashed Potatoes as well.. that ish kray!!!

  • This video is great..

    I have low self Confidence for two reasons: 1. I simply don't love myself and some days hate to see my tubby self in the mirror

    2. I am afraid that if i was overly confident that i would be rude to people and not care about others as much as i do now

  • I hate letting ppl all the way in, because I'm scared of getting hurt. My bf is amazing and I hav let him in, but jus nt all the way. I'm keeping secrets 4m him, nt n e thing lik me cheating hell no I love this man, but I've been negleted and sexually abused, all by family members. Idk if I will ever tell him, I'm jus scared that the things that happened 2 me are dark and dirty, and if h knew them, he wldnt want me:-_(

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  • This video was too cute.

    I hate the sound of my voice as well, so I don't let people record me in either audio or video.

  • Beautiful vid - beautiful soul you. *feeling w/you tears* I, too, wish to be closer to my hearing non-signing family - my secret is wishing they'd learn to sign ASL. My fears: my health issues is not strong enough to work enough so I can survive. My fear is being homeless. My fear is being alone for the rest of my life, no husband & no child of my own; not making new healthy friends in the new state I moved in; elite Deafies give me a hard time. We never met, yet you're loved!

  • My secret, so many to tell so little time. HAHAHAHAHA ! I died once. Yup. My heart stopped from too much stress. In one day; I was divorced and saw my ex-wife kiss another man, then felt really down and got into a fight.....I won, but was pretty much....beat half way to death, picked myself up only to get into my car and got in an auto accident Yeah, guess my body couldn't take it anymore. They called my mom and told her I was ok, and the only thing I could say to her is "I'm still standing Ma."

  • this was beautiful

  • You used to rap? Where's the link to the tunes?

  • I'm a romantic and I'm afraid that I will die alone without ever finding my true love. It scares me so much I cry every night. Though I put on the persona of a strong independent woman....

  • I am in the Army as a Medic and been deployed many times. I have seen so much death that it does not phase me. I feel sometimes numb to the world. I always try to make those around me smile even when I don't smile myself. I have a drive for life but because of my job, I feel that I will let someone down.

  • I was bullied badly as a child and I tried to kill my self many times. I can't even think about my JR high days I was bullied so badly for being shy and smart. I got into boxing and weight lifting to protect my self. I used to hate the way I look, I just learned to open up and let people in. I am very very very strong, I can bench close to 570 pounds. I am very loving and caring but will not longer take being picked on.

  • Mash potatoes ALL DAY! That's my favorite food too.

  • I love too easily and that always get my heart broken...Wish i had my father in my life...I'm very shy, especially to ppl that i'm meeting for the first time i get really freaked out and start to panic :\

  • @Misskenheart I thought i was the only one! I don't have a father in my life either and i also feel the same exact way. You're not alone :)

  • @LuxHeartsYouu & @Misskenheart Good to know I'm not alone :)

  • @LuxHeartsYouu :) Yaaayy at least now i know i'm not a weirdo lol

  • That was supa cool..And believe it or not most of ur secrets a lot a ppl feel the say way..I wish me and my dad had a closer relationship too..But hey it is what it is!!!Luv ur Vids!!

  • "D". I'm very impressed with this video. I was emotionally moved and I am now speechless... Wow... (crying)

  • I respect you for being this honest about your fears/regrets & your personal life!! :-)

  • Wow this is a dimension of you I haven't seen before. I liked the video a lot, your face makes it seem so sincere :D. I guess that's why I subscribed. I guess my greatest fear is losing my father and one of my secrets is I'm pretty mushy and emotional on the inside even though i see pragmatic and not phased by anything on the outside

  • I fear when I leave this earth I won't be remembered and won't meet my full potential

  • My biggest fear is death, and I sometimes try 2 hard 2 fit in.

  • Don't Have many but I Have Trust issues witH almost everyone

  • I have epilepsy but no one knew except my family of course.

    I'm completely shy in person but over the phone, I'm the total opposite.

    Thanks to years of being on meds, I've dealt with depression head strong!

    I always think about how I'll die but don't fear death at all

    I rather listen to jazz/gospel than rap

    I consider you as a comic relief and I love how you keep things 100%

    Thanks for giving me the courage to say some of my secrets!

  • yo this was one of the best vids i've seen...Sometimes I cn't stand how my face looks. Ya next vid gotta be a rap freestyle now lol....MC RealLyte jk jk lol

  • I am very lonely...

  • i am scared of heights and roaches

  • Haha I like this :D

  • Haha, was that a cat face?! My secret is that most ppl don't know I have OCD. I mean I am not diagnosed with it, but I know it is that.

    Thanks for sharing=]!

  • What was your rap name?

  • The same thing as you with the wanting to help others even if I'm hurt and feeling stranger than I am. The rest I keep anomynous or however its spelled.

  • I think you would honestly be surprised how many people are just like you, have their own quirks, fears, vices, skeletons, and content moments. Everyone's scared to be who they really are, cause the weak are taken advantage of.

    "We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth

    So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you

    Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to

    I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you"

    - Lupe Fiasco

  • I really enjoy your videos but this one gave me chills....I dig it. This is a totally different side than what I'm sure a lot of your viewers aren't use to. Dope Vid :)

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  • Who doesn't like cupcakes? What woman doesn't pretend she's stronger? As far as you fear of dropping a load off in public, well it's time you face that fear head on and be done with it.

  • Alot of people say im pretty but I truly dont believe I am :/ self confidence I guess

  • one of my secrets is that I fear rejection which makes it kind of hard 4 me 2 talk 2 women......

  • one of my secrets... I feel its hard to talk to my mom because she was abandoned as a kid... but the way she hides things makes me feel like i've been abandoned sometimes. its hard for us to talk about a lot..

  • i wanna hear a rap verse lol

  • Love your videos, been subscribed for some time now and I must say that I respect you 4 putting yourself out there like that, I suffer from depression most days it is difficult for me to get out of bed, I wear make up to hide myself from the outside world it is also a MUST that I have my mp3 player w/ me at all times to BLOCK out all the unnecessary B.S that goes on around me. I have social issues as well so I can relate to you, u r FUDGIN awesome keep up the good work stay blessed!!!! :)

  • This was a wonderful video. And you have a lot of the same secrets as a lot of us. You are definitely not alone. I hope you got some power and strength out of making this video :-)

  • This was such a beautiful video. You're such a strong person for creating this and sharing it with the anonymity of YouTube! <3

  • one of my secrets...im scared to be skinny because im already short and i feel less manly if im skinny and short so i try to stay stocky

  • o word you used to rap...i need to hear a verse or im unsubscribing lmao jk

  • Good video Deanna! :D

  • I feel you on the medical conditions... I think that everybody knows and sees it. Makes me mad self conscious.

  • I was born the same day as my brother a year later, he died at birth

  • ur really pretty :) great video :)

  • That beautiful smile is what made me watch one of your vids for the first time. And the way you sounded is what made me subscribe.

  • 1) I hate to see my wife sad/ or depressed (makes me feel like im not doing a good job)

    2) hold alot of fear and sadness during very depressing time to be the rock for my family.

    3) cant wait till im out of the Marines so i can be back with my Brothers/sisters. (honestly u remind me of my sister debbie. shes is crazy funny jus like you)

    4) and one major problem is hopefully my step kids dont treat me as bad as i treated my step-father. (he didnt deserve it)

  • I can't believe you're shy impossible, anyway good video

  • I love to help people with their problems. When i have a problem, i feel like almost nobody can help me

  • i have sleep apnea and have an extreme fear that during an episode i will never regain my breath..

  • i smile sometimes to mask my pain and i wish i could exspress my emotions more

  • People complimenting me freaks me out. Idk how to handle them or even like hearing them.....so I just compliment them instead until we move on to the next topic.

  • This video just made my night! =)

  • I have paranoid schitzofrenia, paranoia, insomnia, depression, and anxiety issues. My mom has terminal brain cancer.

  • best video u ever did...:)

  • OMG I love you and latoyaforever and this makes me motivated to make one.

  • I wish I was more like my mom

  • my secret is that I don't believe in secrets I share everything about me with anyone. Regardless of others saying somethings should be a secret. So the only secret I have is that I have known since I was a small child that I have no remorse for when others are harmed or killed for harmful actions they committed against innocent people. I believe in eye for an eye punishments. love you, your vids, and yes your man is awesome to you and his smile looks like it could brighten anyone's day.

  • My Secrets: 1) I wish we had a stronger and better friendship. 2) Only Weird people can begin to understand me. 3) I like to chew gum in the shower! 4) I watch a lot of your videos if not most of them but don't tell you. I give them a thumbs up! why because i really want to see you succeed!!! 5) I feel I have the most talented group of friends.

  • I suck at taking my own advice. Oh, and I wasnt really social until last year.

    Love you DeAnna

  • I buy things to mask my pain. You are totally awesome keep up the great work. Your beautiful, so down to earth plus you should showcase your rapping skills for us. :-)

  • My secret is that I think you are such a beautiful person inside & out from watching this and all your other videos and I love ya like I know ya! <3

  • I related to 80% of this video

  • This was totally awesome...This is why I love MYREGULARAXXLIFE. I love your chamnel even more. yo

  • i act weird and say weird things so people will notice me lol im actually a very quiet person

  • i'm totally afraid of spiders o_0

  • I love you and awesome just the way you are. Lol kinda like the same cause they way I talk is funny to me also.

  • lol

  • u should like totally rap in ur next video. haha

  • lol, I slept in my moms bed until I was 10 too,lol. that's really because I had about nine/ten other of my relatives living with us though.

  • i like the sound of ur voice.

  • i wanna see a video of you rapping