feeling less alone.

[MrSTi2005]

don't ever feel alone. everyone has some imperfection, be it depression or anxiety. being the odd one out isn't easy in a group of friends, and hiding who you are isn't spectacular either, but it's something. people of a certain genotype of oddness always seem to flock together, don't you think? i've fallen in love with this whole post vlogs on youtube and i'm glad odd birds like me do it too. it honest to goodness makes a huge difference in my day when im depressed to say 'i think i'll go find

[crazyb472]

i hate it when girls cry... it makes me feel so small and useless........

[LeifAlexander87]

if you like you can keep the to be happy video if u wood like to

[dimpledlunatic]

Oh Alissa. You make me love you.

[zakizack]

f....uck that tmins music for making this crazy pretty girl that i don't know cry.

[LeifAlexander87]

u r so good at w u do so i say be happy

[ophia9]

You're so sweet. :)

[missvictoriousfail]

i was diagnosed with depression last year after my parents devorced and i also have insomnia (sleeping dissorder) and ADD so i can in a way relate but i dont 'know' how you feel but i can try my hardest and stuff.

some times its hard to cope with all the shit people give me but its easyer to just hear it then not give a crap... so... yeah im not sure what the point of this was anymore.?

[Happygrillmoore]

your not alone i have panic attacks and i see a doctor i am on cymbalta atm and valuum for my heart it kind of skips when i get nervous but my pulse rate went to 200 once i didn't even know it i was at the doctors when it happened and they sent me for stress tests but i understand you are never alone my dear never

[HLGxMiner]

what are you sad about? 0.o every crying girl deserves a good hug, virtual hugs! =D you live in minnesota? =]

[SophieSummer6]

just a huge THANKS , for always making videos for us Alissa <3

[EmOocHIiCkk1]

I suffer from Anxiety and Depression. It's good to know that I'm not alone..

(No.. I am not emo, I made this when I was 12 and I am now 16 -___-)

[CrazyBil5]

dam....take you medication and you will be happy again!

[paindrain]

Story of a loser.. is this really what you want to hear? or care to read? if so, great, i qualify, but... i don't get the residual effect ...

[Sublimedfunk]

Abe fucking Lincoln.

[jkjoker1]

You really honestly inspire me. I have so much respect for you to put these kind of things up. And I guess I see myself in you really. I have manic depression and anxiety problems too, and it's just really nice to be able to relate to someone that actually has the balls to admit it. You are seriously the most beautiful person, inside and out.

[tumnusmusic]

my name is most certainly not tumnusmusic!!

[andyot7777]

It's people like you that get me through my day, cause there's just not enough people like you. Not enough people who can connect empathetically and sympathetically with others.

[Paranoidnahida]

I don't know what she's talking about. I play video games so I don't have to think to much and how lonely I am. Or I'll do crafts and stuff which really helps me get my mind off of being a loser.

[dbs55denis]

life sucks for all of us but remember us americans are the richist 40% of all the world everywhere mother fuckers have it worse so we shouldent wine, but its important to let out your feelings too just not whiningly, by the way not as an insult i could tell your upset but at some points in the video you seemed like you were gonna laugh

[bullet4mehvalentine]

@dbs55denis I disagree...kind of.

I agree that we shouldn't whine, we as Americans generally do have better lives than the majority of the world. However, I don't see the "going to laugh." Honestly, to me she looks on the verge of tears through the whole video. At some points she does look like she's partially smiling, but that doesn't mean she is... I guess I just don't see what you're seeing, that's all.

[roseallard]

Wait you have an anxiety disorder and clinical depression?

Can you say fucking twinsies?

[ultraavioletxx]

Love you Alissa, I don't know your life but I'm sure there's someone out there who really loves you. In fact, more than someone. Lots of someones. (: So, don't ever feel alone, cus we love you!

[bipolarbananas]

I will make a video response to one of your videos one day Alissa <3

I try really hard to always stay positive and you help me (:

[TaylorxHeart]

you have anxiety disorder too? holyshit. I always feel so alone with the fact that I have it, it's terrible. It's kinda cool that you have it too because you're amazing. <3

[missangie2356]

Alissa, you should never, ever feel alone. I also have anxiety and depression disorders along with autism. I also felt this way. I felt so alone. All the time. But you shouldn't. You're better then that. SO many people have problems like you and me and it's not something you should ever feel alone about.

[MelisaSmileyFace]

i have a few disorders and i can never talk about them to anyone because whenever i try to tell my parents they think i just make it up or just seeking attention and im just tired of feeling alone.

[misslindsee]

aww <3

[thisisforalexg]

No, Alyssa. Thank YOU.

[tumnusmusic]

i would have never really dreamed that it would hit you like this. but i want you to know you're never alone. my goal in life has always been to help people with problems similar to mine. not just real life problems like freinds passing away, but with just the day to day handling of anxiety, or the pitched battle between depression and sleep at those ungodly hours of the night that i'm sure you know about. stay strong alissa because i may only know you from youtube but i know you can.

[HAALLEEYYx]

@tumnusmusic @misspepperoni it's him!

[Aldorath119]

You shouldn't feel sad at all. We all have insecurities and fears but that is what makes us all similar. You have thousands of people who would be more than happy to help c:

[whatsaryan]

You have a big heart - it's incredibly refreshing and real. I'm glad to have come across your channels, thank you.

[MyPokemonAreCool]

your a beautiful person xx

[Baljhet]

I suffer from clinical depression but it's gotten alot better since I started doing youtube stuff. But in all honesty, you're beautiful girl! All of your subs love you, myself included and sincerely care about you. Please, feel better <3

[tommyisadragon]

I have General Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, High-Functioning Autism and Borderline Personality Disorder. I'll make you a video response later, thought I'm usually pretty jittery and weird to look at so yeah, that'll be weird.

[toxicskittlez09]

Alissa, you are SO beautiful and I always looked up to you (sense I'm only 14) and I'm just so happy that you are not afraid to be the way you are in front of the camera. I love you Alissa, you are so freakin' amazing. <3

[MissTalksAlot101]

wow. you are so amazing thanks for being one of the most real youtubers out there. Please don't ever change. We look up to you because you are amazing.

[chilenagringa27]

My anxiety has ruined my life and become "normal" life everyone else.

[chilenagringa27]

I have awful anxiety that is just .. I don't know annoying. When I want to be confident and be outgoing with people.. I just can't. I have the symptoms of anxiety and in school I get them.. It's very uncomfortable. I feel alone. I have no one to talk to because I know people don't want to hear me talk about it. No one will understand. I told my parents but they don't understand. Oftentimes, I get in a depressed phase. I had depression 4 years ago for 2 years. But I feel it like its coming back.

[ForeverRosee]

@chilenagringa27 I also have terrible anxiety, depression, and ADD (I don't really mind the ADD though...). It is like a cloud everywhere I go. I've been to therapy because of it. It really does help. Do you have a school counsellor? Could you maybe talk to them? I know, I sound like I'm making a public service announcement but telling people or just crying really does help. I promise you someone understands. :)

[Morethancolors]

I don't talk about my problems because I think that no one cares. I love youtube just to see other people and they help me through many problems I do have. I love how many positive comments there are on this video and not hate like there usually is. I love you Alissa

[KimberlynBieber09]

It's my third year taking medication for depression and anorexia. No one at my school knows because I didn't want to feel different. You're not alone, Alissa. I look up to you and seeing that even one of the most beautiful people inside and out has insecurities makes me feel so much better. -3

[AdorianDeck]

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[AbsoluteMAL]

Thank you for this, Alissa. I had horrible depression and anxiety about 3 years ago. It was so bad that I barely left my house for 2 years. Actually, I had really bad anorexia. I became homeschooled in 11th grade and I told myself that I was just taking a small break from the world, because if I didn't I would have lost it. But that small break turned into 2 years. After a while my anxiety and depression morphed into this horrible fear of people. I'm 5275987% better now, but I know how you feel.

[MrBobo9921]

from what ive seen this girl really opens peoples perspective on life, she is brilliant, it seems she helps alot of people

[melmenka]

i have an anorexia ... im trying to get better, but i canť ... i'm going to psychologist im trying to eat, buti can't .... i feel ALONE ... and i swear you're not alone !

[AbsoluteMAL]

@melmenka I just saw this comment and I just wanted to say that you can beat anorexia! It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but the outcome was worth the fight. For so long I would say that I was trying to beat it, but I never actually was. I wanted to be healthy, but I always heard of people who lost alot of weight really fast and how they gain it all back plus more.. that was my biggest fear. But after I got better that didn't happen. Eating wont make you fat. I hope you get better!

[melmenka]

@AbsoluteMAL :) thnx ... yea the biggest fear of being more fat than i was before .. it's killing me ... what do you eat?

[idcdammit]

I want to make a video response now, but I can't follow that guy!

(Just kidding, I can barely talk to my best friend in video chat, let alone 500 people)

I would like to see more video of you unedited =)

[coolstream1]

I'd hug your heart.

[powderedwater67]

Seriously, watch the response she's talking about. I like that guy. It's good to see realness on the internet too.

[markiduval]

I'll save a video response for another time and just make a short text response for now before jumping into bed to sleep, but I wanted to say to you that I can relate to this. I was diagnosed some years ago with social phobia. I didn't even realize it was a thing until the psychologist pointed it out to me. I just always assumed that being nervous and having panic attacks was just something I alone had because I was weird. But no. So yeah you're not alone. Peace & love from Australia! -Mark :)

[LeifAlexander87]

u r not alone

[shirashara]

i made a video response for u alissa i hope u see it :)

[nifcloverfergie]

Dude, Your not alone, theres thousands of us :P

[MissPepperoni]

@TheDevilBurning hahahaha! total combo breaker from all of the other comments.

[TheAdversaryAlliance]

You shouldn't be afraid of who you are Alissa! I suffer from anxiety too, and I'll hit these spots once every couple of weeks where I feel so alone and so worthless to the world, and its perfectly natural to hide it, but I've found that by stepping out of the shell of protection, even at the risk of getting hurt again, and doing the exact opposite of what's natural to you, it'll become so muc better and more managable. Just something to think about that I'm sure someone else has already said! <3

[ThePrettyMessedUp]

okay, i have clinical depression and if putting my story into a video for you makes you feel better than expect a video response soon c:

[XxUpInTheSkyXx]

Alissa, you're so beautiful.

[EmoDinoLovee]

Aww, i love you Alissa.

[leazzybeezy]

my god. I clicked on the video, you started crying. I started crying! Oh gosh!

[tetsubo57]

Dear, you couldn't look bad if you tried.

[SashaLeeKay]

You are never alone! If you need someone to talk to I'm hear for you... we all are <3

[littleraww]

dude, I had to cry because you were crying :( and I am very very very insecure and I feel fat, I know I' m not but I feel fat and that makes me wanna lose weight. So I almost eat nothing. I' m 14 btw and I lovelovelove your videos they make me smile even when I'm sad. Keep it up! x

[RevFelix]

You make me feel not alone. I never make videos and rarely take pictures because I figure no one wants to listen to (or see) me. But I might make an exception and make one just for you, if I can figure out what to say.

[izayekat]

recently, ive been seeing a lot of myself in you, its kinda freaky haha btw i love your vlogs so much, like so so much

[01020498]

i guess is good when you feel that someone understand what you are feeling, and you feel "less alone"..., i love your videos and i know you will feel better, just give it time.... (i suck giving advices, but what i wrote kinda describes what was in my mind jaja)

[melonnknee]

Awh Alissa ... Now you got me crying. I watched the video response, you both are truly beautiful people. And deserve the best things in life.

[stellarskinnys]

hi. I love your videos, your great, and that response was just.. oh my gosh.