Willow Marsden - Asperger's Blog 16 - Summer Holiday Meltdown

[sarahparsons87]

When i was 15 yrs old i had a psychosis which was brought on by smoking cannabis. At that age i hadn't even heard of Aspergers syndrome but if my mum and i had been aware of it we probably wouldn't have let me continue to smoke cannabis to 'help' with my social difficulties. School was a bit of a blur to me at that time. Routines and ocd have occupied my mind for as long as i can remember and now its a case of establishing some sort of order when i've got too much free time... :)

[Atlas31545]

My Mom is taking me to see a Therapist because I have meltdowns (like Aspies) and I also exhibit other Aspie traits. She is taking me to see if I have Aspergers from a therapist's opinion however I am quite nervous. .

[Uaxis]

This girl is pretty beautiful and she retains eye contact which is something I could never do.

When I speak, I tend to stall.

[3rdAutisticCuckoo]

@Uaxis Eye contact? She's talking to a camera.

[shayanrafizadeh]

you may achieve whatever you put your imagination focused on even a simple break down. its like a beautiful world in our minds that nobody can understand. its just hard to share or even as they may say hard to understand.

[GEISTCAKE]

shes so cute when she says "ehmm.." inbetween sentences

[MrAngryTV1]

u dont seem like u have aspergers... sorry for the comment. I have AS as well lol

[MrDirectorMan18]

doe sshe have aspergers?

[blabliblaism]

i have Asbergers syndrome i don`t have friends at my school..... but i will start in high school this summer and hopefully i can get a new start and try to get friends.

[Jaket2000]

@blabliblaism Hey man, I got it too from experience you'll make friends. Allot of them didn't even know I don't have it cept for those days where they see chinks in the ironclad. I did and still do spend allot of alone though because when I do have those days I distance myself and I become something of nightmares villagers tell their children at night of. Its a tough thing to work with and anxsiety comes with it but hang in and be yourself. They bully, kick ass take names.

[8317rob]

i dont have asper but i do have bipolaire

[TheDevilguy676]

Aspergers syndrome sucks. I hate being autistic. Sure it's not all bad. I had a girlfriend SUPRISINGLY we went for 5 month's I think I loved her. But because of aspergers. I don't think I did. And I can't get over her. And my routine got fucked up. And I'm sitting here typing like a tool

[richbebo]

OMG u are really REALLY fit, i'm an aspie to btw so u have my praise

[WolfgangPain]

I think her face resembles Lindsy Lohans (dunno how her name is spelled)

[iPizzaZombie]

You're reeally pretty :)

[RB902050]

Forth of July was complete hell for me. I must have thought of suicide on more than 100 occasions in three days. I wish to raise more awareness on Asperger's and other social anxiety disorders because it is unfair for people to think we have no feelings. I dread any Holiday.

[cunt3d]

bitch alert

[malis96]

well who cares atleast ur beautiful, hot whatevr. ur cool id hang with you

[theunixman]

Well, as a much older USan, I can completely relate to how not having a routing completely breaks me. I haven't really had a routine for nearly a year after being asked to leave my last job. So, anyway, I can't really offer much advice other than to keep doing what you're doing, and accept yourself and all that you are, and even when you're completely off the deep end at least you'll be comfortable enough to realize it and not get stuck in an even larger spiral.

[buffalobills911]

im really impressed to see an aspie like you. ill go check your forum right now! :)

hello from a canadian aspie! oh canada...

[FutureDJHero]

I had no idea that some girls with asperger's could look this FINE!!!!

[Kingofcorrect]

@FutureDJHero

Alot of them DO look good dude, but not THIS pretty, true

[Leti359]

Hi there, I notice ur videos, e lightings frm ur window creates a very soft lightg, n e positiong of ur camera is almost perfect. . Or maybe you can relate to, you don't worry about where you place your camera, or positioning yourself in front of the camera, cos I notice you are aware of the distance and framing of your camera .

[motleydude73]

lol 'My family is so loud'.So cute!You make my day with your comments lol

[nxer]

@AspieKid same. ^_^ now college presents its own challenges.

[dalektaliban]

lol, atleast you did soemthing with your freinds lol, i ve never had a social gathering otuside of school :( , i'll work my way up to it soon i hope , how do i sign your petition?

[WillowMarsden]

Sorry, it's closed now. Thank you though.

[HesperAleece]

How do I sign your petition?

[TheAmazingAspie]

We have over 2 months off each summer where I go to school. On top of that, we have 1 week off in November, 2 weeks off in December, 1 week off in February, and 1 week off in April. Each one disrupts my routine, and afterwards its nearly impossible for me to re-establish my routine, even though I feel restless without it.

[Ilovecats112233]

I'm just the same during the holidays, especially summer because it's the longest. I can't wait to go back to college (I start back this week) because of the social opportunities and just for having something to do. Where is this petition you want people to sign?

[Mikinioo]

I signed =]

[tonfeddtrys]

Your so positive. I admire you. As for your petetion, you say if someone lives in England. Can someone from Wales, Scotland or Northern Ireland also sign ur petition as well?

[WillowMarsden]

Yeah, sorry, I meant to say Great Britain!

[illegalsmirf]

@tonfeddtrys Let the English stick to their own if that's what they want :)

[jwarrior343]

OMG u look stunning! O.O