Panic attacks, loss of appetite, the feeling of living life outside your body,the feeling of living in a dream, continuous negative thoughts, troubling and obsessive thoughts, excessive stress and worry, trouble sleeping. You are not alone. There are many others who have these experiences. I USE TO, but NO longer have them. I found what worked. I am NOT SELLING anything, I just want to share the process that freed me of anxiety. Please watch my intro. video for more info! Stay positive!
hey man,great vid i just wanted to say ive suffered from this for months an its one of the worst feelings in the world,it can be hell at times.i dont feel like im in reality,like everything is a dream.im going to a doc an hopefully this will help.ur vid was comforting,thanks bro.an also,does it/did it get worse while u were falling asleep?bc it gets CRAZY when i try to sleep.
For me it was like everything was cardboard scenery, exactly as you describe - the ground, the sky everything - like it was placed and painted. This idea most directly and recognisably expresses the sensation to my mind. I am now nearly fully recovered and found small and intermittent doses of 5htp, though unpleasant to take, seemed to unwind the sensations gradualy. If you try 5htp, don't take too much at once - 10 mg or so every now and then is plenty and give it some time (months)
Hey everyone. Like most of you, I suffer from Derealization. And I wanted to express how I feel, so I wrote a song based on DP and Derealization. Its called "Black & White", go to my page and check it out. It made me feel better being able to talk about it, so I hope it helps some of you as well.
I have had Depersonalization and Derealization disorder non-stop 24/7 since I was 12, I'm now 16. Up until two weeks ago, I had no knowledge that it was an actual mental disorder. I'm both glad and sad that I found this out. Glad because I have been trying to figure out what was wrong with me for years and that I'm not alone. Sad because I do not know how to rid of it. At least my problem has a name. Sadly, I have no idea my depersonalization/derealization disorder originated from.
I have had Depersonalization and Derealization disorder non-stop 24/7 since I was 12, I'm now 16. Up until two weeks ago, I had no knowledge that it was an actual mental disorder. I'm both glad and sad that I found this out. Glad because I have been trying to figure out what was wrong with me for years and that I'm not alone. Sad because I do not know how to rid of it. At least my problem has a name. Sadly, I have no idea my depersonalization/derealization disorder originated from.
i got it from marijuana i got lost in my thoughts and it was so tramatizing i never felt the same after it i didnt no who i was if your that kind of person who questions existence NEVER SMOKE WEED
A lack of 'guidance', does not mean a path to nowhere... It just means that (current) society does not support "different" thinkers, that do not serve as profitable for it, unlike labourers... So they label it "problem"; not conforming linearly. Depersonalisation is not the loss of anything, it is the gain of everything; understanding, the true nature, the truth... Individuals with DP are most probably spiritually mature and compatible. Find the "way" over there, and inner bliss be guaranteed.
Let me clarify a few cliches concerning the whole DP concept. First and foremost, it is NOT a disease. Do not listen to what the medical branch of society spouts. They are merely functional for profit; not healing, unfortunately. The problem with people of "diffrent" mindsets is that they are given all kinds of medical junk to suppress their normal operation, ironically, to comply with the normal standards of society. They want sheep, not 'enlightened' people.
feeling is like that of a dream. the subjects thinks as if his brain has been removed from his body, he feels unreal. he is totally mute and numb and doesn't show any expression. his mood changes abruptly. he cannot tolerate sunlight and noise. infact negative symptoms prevail. he loves to be alone. he has no control over his physical actions and emotion. one most pronounced symptom is that he stares in front of him and unable to live in the real world
It's wierd how anyone who thinks deep into existence and God ends up like this. That's how it started for me. It seems like in a kindred way, all of us have this dark emotion of emptiness come over when we think that deep.
I to feel the way you do code white it's every day for me too we can help each other message me when you read this for you or anyone who has depersonalization. the way it effects me is i feel as though im not doing my best on things or change my personality to feel as though i do have control over my life and a good part of the time it becomes so painful to bear i go into a deeper state of depression and cry and cry and cry and ask why. so i'll talk to anyone who needs it.
i feel ya, im 16 and have had it for about a year now, i told my parents at first but just told them i got better because they have no idea, hang in there and keep positive thoughts i know its hard at times :)
When your on DP/DR, sometimes i feel like that's how trees or other animals think looool. the feelings are funny sometimes, just ride them out and you'll soon forget about them. Also you can have somebody scare the shit out of you without telling you, when your on it, it helps take you mind off of it.
well true i have gotten over it though. DP/DR is not as bad as people think it is. The reason we have it is because we keep thinking about it and we get ourselves scared. Just think about the moment, and know even though it feels like your living in a dream and all that it's all in your head, no matter how bad it is. Look into your loved ones eyes and know that they're there and they love you. Also having intense emotional experiences, such as eating, sex, being happy angry seems to help.
bullfrog don't even for a second think that a second of your life was wasted. First of all you experienced something that most people haven't, you have a higher brain power then rest of the people, and so do most people that have DP. I bet you think about everything deeply, you really make your self busy thinking about god life, existence of life, what it all means, and that's why unfortunately, for some, will lead you to have this disorder. Think of it as a different way of living life.
I've been very lucky since getting Derealization I think, where I found medication that helps most of the time, I have relapses every couple of years, but not like the orginal one. I've been taking Paroxetine (there's many different brands, this is the actual drug) and its like a wonder drug for me, as this isn't a condition I could live a normal life without these. Big love to all else who have this and hope you find something that helps too. x
that's a rather generalisation isn't it?? What about if they make it so you can have a normal life where as without you're quality of life would be pretty damn bad, how is that bad for you??
If so you would know what an amazing feeling it is to find medication that works for you.
If not then why are you even talking this rubbish??!
If say you were ill with something like derealization where your vision felt like it was wrapped in cling film and you had depression and anxiety attacks constantly, then you found there was medication that could help you feel normal again, would you not think that was a good thing??
@myfunkyhat actually i do. i was diagnosed with depression anxiety and an ocd but guess what i have to work through it. im not taking any medication cause believe it i see other people in this world who are completely in a position where they re life can end tomorrow. I ve learned that im done soaking in my sorrows and have to get on with life and help others who are way off worse then i am. im not talking down to you im just saying that medication is not the answer. FIND SOMETHING YOU LIKE.
I know what you mean, I have it in bouts, I took Klonopin for it, but Benzos are so addictive! You're not alone, I have it today in bouts, not constant, but it comes and goes, it's a feeling of seeing something for the first time, it's like when you look at a spoon, you think, "How did that ever come to exist?" then in goes in depth like, "How did the metal to make it come to exist?" I hate the feeling! Hang in there, God Bless.
I hate this condition, its a life ruiner, people call it derealization i think it should call it realisation because it like you realise what reality really is.
Try this, it might help. Take benzodeazepynes half of a year or a year and then withdraw them. Here You can find help on withdraw:? "h t t p : / / benzodocs . c o m". Some new elements and their connections in Your brain will emerge. When You complete this, tell me if this helped You.
Tell other people to try this. It will be experiment.
Sounds to me that all this NEW-FANGLED, HIGH POWERED WEED is ruining the youth of America. 30 years ago you could smoke weed and NOT have this debilitating lasting mental disorders. You guys / girls who boast of "killer-weed" should stop the non-sense and smoke plain old reefer from the '70's. We didn't have these problems 30 years ago!!
That's what I have. I prefer calling it the schizoid aura which I am working on improving, AKA grounding myself and allowing myself to experience life/pain, healing the chakras, etc. It's having a way better improvement than psychiatric help. My cause was the death of a parent as a child. Good books: Light Emerging and Healing Light by Barbra Ann Brennan. Also Chakra Healing from Cindi Dale. It hit me HARD at 17 until around 21-ish. Those books helped me IMMENSELY.
wow, i had that exact feeling for 4 weeks straight, i researched it but i didn't know that there were long term sufferers like yourself. Mine was brought on by drinking in excess and smoking marijuana and it was the worst 4 weeks of my life, i can only image what you have gone through, i hope all went well with the treatment and that you feeling fine now...
time,thinking about smt different,seroxat 20mg,a great hobby,maybe a bf/gf and thinking about him is the real cure for dp and dr,dont worry these symptoms are so normal,you are not crazy or going crazy,just relax,follow my orders from a horrible sufferer who overcame permanently ;);) i would like to wish a good luck,but you dont need,you just need to get relax
we need to speak, ill make a different channel and ill mak a video and share what i went through with the repersonalization and borderline personality disorder
i subscribed to you because we both share just some issues..im not saying theire the same (dont flip) just similar. i also went through depersonalization..it feels sooo weird ill be making a seperate channel and talking about my disorders and my addiction to drugs.
my depersonalization started in a smilair way to yours. thinking to deeply into life, instead of just living it. these thoughts consumed me. i am forever in a dream. i don't take anything in life seriously.
My derealization to me is like a mixed blessing. It's terrible, I won't deny it... but since it fogs up my life, I've become more of a risk taker... I don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing.
i;ve had for about 2 months and i'm finally seeing somebody next week...can you offer any advice on how to cope with it until then? Mine is also philosophically induced...I have read too much about metaphysics, physics, psychology, and stuff like that. Can't stop thinking about existence really.
Oh man..we are on the same boat..thinking of existence really gets me down. Try not to cause I tell you it will get u nowhere. I suggest just live life without questions like that it will all be better.
Same thing happened to me, only I had been dissociating for a while before. I was talking to my mom one day and said randomly "sometimes I feel like its all in my mind", two seconds later I was thinking in a way that made all my experiences fit into that statement. I had a really big panic attack and have been working my way out ever since. It's really hard to cope with. Like hell on earth. But there i hope and if anything this has brought me in weird ways closer to God
I managed to recover from this somehow. All I can say is that you have to face it head on. That, and not be afraid. You have to face your most inner demons, and become enlightened. There is hope. What I went through to recover was the equivalent of facing death. You have to grow some balls and face things in your mind that people dont usually see. The most important thing is overcoming the anxiety, by facing it.
My derealization was first brought on by panic attacks induced by marijuana. As scary as it was, I kept on smoking. It was hell for a while, but I kept on smoking. That struggle allowed me to build some defences in my mind that kept the derealization intact. Sometimes I still feel an onset of derealization, but it stops there because I did not let it change my life.
I think mine was pretty bad cause I walk around sometimes and dont feel like im doing anything im scared that I will never get back to normal I love my life and my friends and I want to be normal, sometimes i feel ok but then it will hit me and ruin everything ah I hate this sometimes. any help or hope
i walk round with the notion that i look stoned as thats the way i feel, i have a problem with eye contact in that in my perception i feel spaced out, and i look spaced out to everyone else. I was diagnosed with social anxiety but listening to this has made me more aware as to what i really have, everything this guy has said relates to myself. 20 years ive had it, never took pills and would never resort to them.
I've had this for 9 years now. I have gotten it to go away, and sometimes are worse than others. Exercise may help. Medication wasn't my route since it just made things worse for me. I know people have gotten out of it for good with those two things.
It helps me to keep a journal of my day, especially for specific instances. That way when I'm feeling unreal, I can look back at those and it helps me remember that I'm real. I know this is an older video, but still, good luck.
STOP wasting a minute more worrying over this shit. i got this from a bad trip of smoking weed. i got so scared that i shot up in my head. why? it's a defensive mechanism that we've inherited from the animals so we wont feel pain when being eaten from the sharp jaws of the lion etc. you can't feel your body? bingo! medication is NOT the answer, body awareness is THE solution. get peter levines books "healing trauma" and "waking the tiger".
hey dude i kno wat u mean like you dont even know i know you read that in every comment everyone write's to you saying "i know how you feel" , but from my heart to yours i know everything your saying and i want you to know your not alone or living in a "crazy little world", everyday repeat to yourself that everything IS normal in the world, as much as it may seem like it, there is a reason god put this burdon on us , only the strongest can live with this sick kind of disease dawg trust me!!!!!!!
This guy reminds me alot of myself. They way he describes it is dead on for me. Its TERRIFYING sometimes. from the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep it never ends. Of course im on risperidone now which helps. I like how some people out there know what this is. This dude is about the same age as me and even looks and speaks like me, which is kinda freaky, I guess thats why I feel like I can relate to him more than anyone else. Peace out man I feel ya.
great video.. I hope you keep fighting this illness. By the way I've been having similar symptoms of depersonalization for years, now. I hope one day, I will be able to feel alive, and more in check in reality.
Yes I have suffered with it and I did get through it, I still have it,but mine slowly went away... I have had it very thick before. I had to make a choice, either it got me or got it, I changed my train of thinking and therapy helped, was on Klonopin, but coming off that stuff is a nightmare as well as any Benzodiazepine.
And I use to be on 600 mg of Seroquel for Schizophrenia, now on 1mg of Respiridone and that helps.
I minute video is NOT enough time! I need a better camera! I feel lucky as I have come through this but the road has been bumpy. You keep searching and keep us posted!
I could say so much to you. I'm a 44 yr old female. It came on after the birth of my baby. I will tell you what meds helped. Zoloft and Xanex and now I take Klonopin. It's an anxiety disorder, as far as I've been able to get a grasp on. I will try to make a video for you.
Sweet video. It feels allot better knowing people are going through the same thing. Mine started 4 or 5 months ago when I had a few panic attacks after smoking weed. After that I thought about the meaning of life way to much. It got the worst over Christmas time for some reason. ironic huh. The happiest time of the year I was super depressed.. Anyway is getting allot better now. I find I'm drinking more now because alcohol honestly helps.
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MDMA also known as Ecstasy, the street drug, has helped me tremendously. It is very illegal to possess, manufacture or have in any form, so I do not condone a 15 year old taking Ecstasy, as we do not 100% know whats in the street pill. I would say your best bet my friend, is to just go to a psychiatrist, and explain your symptoms, he/she may be able to help you with it. Better safe than sorry :)
Unfortunatly no. I still have not found a "legal" drug that reduces the depersonalization. Even though, I have found massive success with self medicating with a twice a week MDMA roll. Now, im not supporting people taking mdma, I am just saying that it has drastically changed my life for the better.
Thats how it can come on to people, thinking wayy to hard on life, or our existnace in general. Dont worry my friend, It will subdue in time, and I would def, reccomend see a doctor, as there is treatment options for it.
Thanks.... Im realy going to think about doing that as long as i dont end up in a mental Institute like that guy, Because in person i act like every one else and try to carry on a conversation though i am very spaced out. Almost like Im on Pot but it wont go away .
No problem. Haha, that guy is me, this is just another alias. But yeah, you wont end up in a psych ward like me. I went there for other reassons. You will just be treated for that problem :) cheers.
Im 15 I Think i have this disorder, I feal like im going to pass out some times, I feal very spaced out or like im not fully with it. This is a 24/7 fealing for about 9 months now and im scared to see a doctor and i feal like im slipping away.
I have Ad/Hd and i sometimes experience derealization, especially when im tired or stressed. It's very scary when it hits, and when it hits i get a severe panic attack. I wondered what was wrong with me, until i accidentally stumbled accross an article about derealization. It ain't no fun. :(
I knew I had something! I have been feeling like this for 5 months now and I thought it was just me. So but how can it be treated? I don't want it to get too crazy and make me depressed.
Good to get your feedback,first time I've ever put a comment on u-tube.I'm from New Zealand - how bout you?I am on medication - 2 x paroxetine tablets daily.After that experience I appreciate feeling "normal" but do get panicky thoughts if I am stuck in a room listening to someone talking to a group.Feel I want to get away and can't help thinking it would be the worst place to have a panic attack/derealisation.
...at the time my doctors put it down to accummulated stress.Marriage broken down,moved house,not sleeping.Family friend suggested Landmark F as I was a bit off the rails drinking etc.The pressure LF put me under was hard to handle (9am -12midnight then sent home with h/work).Parents would only pay for course if I completed all 3 days so I wanted to finish. Perhaps if I hadn't done LF I might have still had a breakdown.I have so much to say about this-never met anyone that has had this.
Can't believe you described so similarly how my derealisation started. I was at Landmark Forum, 2000 and they were talking about god, the universe etc. I suddenly felt a strange, horrible feeling.Had to leave the room, very panicky. Outside seemed so bright and felt like I was on LSD or something.I was diagnosed Panic Disorder but never thought this fitted right. When it comes over me I feel like I am in a movie that I can't snap out of watching, nothing is real.Worst thing ever experienced.
dude thats great i think i got it from smoking pot (dumbest thing ive ever done) and like 2 weeks after i felt unreal and stuff :S but my mom says its anxiety and shes never herad of deralization what should do????
and great video again you really helped me out thanks and have a merry x-mas!
yes, i saw it... it does not dwelve into the aspects of the illness so much... not helpful or insightful really... just mildly entertaining and helps to know there are others out there...
i thought i would learn somthing from it, but i didnt. It is a really bad steriotype i think. Alot of people who have derealization cant go many places they used to, maybe that is just me.
it is a terrifying feeling, everyday i wake up and think "is this real".u have to have the attitude of 'bring it on'...let your self have the feelings, dont try and make it go away, as scary as it is.this is what CBT (cognitive Behavioral therapy)teaches you. Theres nothing wrong with any of us, this is what we need to learn. Meds only mask your problem and will return when you get off of them. Try CBT, its working for me already. I've had derealization for over 6yrs now.i know how u feel
no no. not crazy, just a better perception on others and on yourself. . ive had it all my life, with some differences to you, but i have learnt to live it (kinda), ive learnt how to fake my way through people, how to make them think that i am just another normal guy...it helps... drugs did nothing for me, exept for the anti depressants putting me in an energetic mood. i really have no advice just letting you know it could be worse...you could have been born with it :/
Nice video! I never thought that there were videos like this before. It makes me feel like I'm not alone and crazy. I made a video response. This is my first video response so I'm not sure if I did it right. Could you please approve it.
You certainly did do it right. Very great. I know exactly how you feel there. And yesh, that does have to do with depersonalization/Derealization. I feel the same aswell.
I think mine was brought on by some sort of viral/bacterial infection. My uncle has the same exact symptoms as me, he thought he had lyme disease. His started back in November too, just like mine did. Mine's slowly going away now and I'm coming back into myself finally, thank God. I've been taking really high doses of vitamin c plus sudafed, it's something related to the ears/sinuses/brain I think.
Seroquel is a very good medication. I suffer from bipolar type one. I take 400 mg seroquel and 900 mg lithium.I was diagnosed with it when I was sixteen.Right now I am 23. After taking seroquel about two years ago,I started changing. I remember my mom telling me that seroquel waked you up. I took physics classes after a few months and I got the top grades in class.
mine 1st started 1 week after i xperimentd with weed and shrooms and woke up up a week later feeling dreamy it slowly got worse through the day until i just went 2 bed while the world was gone .. a week after i took the drugs that is. its been 3 years im 16 now ive woken up 3 times feeling normal but it goes away i rekn its axiety thats wat the docta says
Good luck with this combating this, but is there a reason your talking so soft? Sorry, but it was real annoying listening and barely being able to hear ya. Speak up!
i suffered from the same symptoms of a feeling like i was looking through a thick fog all of the time, walking around in a sense of unreality, from the age of about 16 to 18. i had an intense amount of stress at the time. i don't remember when it went away, but it did, on it's own. i was diagnosed with bipolar I at age 22. i wonder if an intense depression was responsible for it all. thank you for sharing this video. i thought i was the only one that felt that way.
I had an anxiety disorder in high school. At first, I would feel depersonalization and derealization most severely during panic attacks, but it went away after a while. Eventually, those feelings replaced the panic attacks. I noticed that they invariably came when I was extremely stressed, so through my own experience I just learned how to keep my stress levels down, and how not to dwell on it so much when it does occur. It usually goes away very quickly for me :)
Hi! I know how that feels! and it is so terrifying! I suffered feeling like that for about 1 1/2 years and I described it like feeling like i was in a dream like I would walk down the street and click my fingers and hope I would wake up in my bed. I realized if I keep checking in on how I feel ever single day then that is what is gonna manifest the problem even more. I never, ever though I would get better! ever! but then I realised not to pay it no attention.
i abused the shit out of dxm for about three months and i had full blown derealization/depresonalization for over a year. i fought through it by myself and got myself about 99% better. i only recently found out what it was and so im sure that with therapy i can be like 100% better. dont worry man its entirely possible to get better.
This is the worst thing in the world. I've had it for years. It started after my dad died. My brain became scared of everything. I did get it to go way once by staring at an obeject across the room for 45 minutes. I guess I meditated myself out of it. The dizziness and fatigue instantly went away as if someone flicked a switch. I was more than happy! But unfortunately it came back two years later. I have it 24/7 like you do. It's all related to stress and anxiety. Keep hope alive. It can go away
very uncomfortable feeling and scary at first but it ended up almost being desirable in a weird way in some situations. anyway it ended up just going away as a i got older and its probably been about 2 years since i had it
i know what you mean i used to get it a lot as a kid everytime i went into a grocery store, went to the beach, swimming pools, playing a video game, lack of sleep and things like that . for me it was usually something that triggered it it didn't usually come out of nowhere. and it would usually go away within an hour, or if i went to sleep. .
i have madea 60% rocovery. the meds didn't help and i think they were bad because they were just another thing making me feel different when i was trying to relearn how to feel normal.
i have had it for 3 years. I didn't know what it was for 4 months of those 3 years and it was the most horrifying experience of my life, i didn't tell and anyone i was trying self diagnose. i thought i had lost my mind. it told my mum and since then have seen over 10 different doctors been oon countless meds seen psycs therapist hypnotists.
i avoid talking about it, and i still belive its not good to dwell on but i really wanted to at least encourage you and tell you your doing well and seem like your in a good place.
I think it is awesome for fellow derealization sufferer to post this up. I took some of the courage that you poured out and decided to post my own as well. I did it as a video response to yours (which I have never done before), but I dont see it yet I guess it has to process.
What was the name of the medication that you were prescribed? All my doctors keep prescribing me is xanax and lexapro and bullshit like that.
Hey dude, I loved seeing this video and the gentle determination you expressed in recovering from this terrible condition. I think I may actually post my first ever video in response to this, as per your request. :)
It's nice to see that someone young (at least you look closer to my age, me being 21) has this. And it's even better to see a face that goes along with this.
I am so sorry this happened to you.
I love you and i hope things work out for us both. I wrote a really long comment but YouTube wont let me post more then 500 characters so Ill try and make a video.
I have it for 3 years this august !!! When will it go though ??? I also have tinnitus with this !!! Is this related ??? im going to see a neuroligist in august anyway about this !!! write back any1 thanx
this is what happened to me before. it hasnt happened in a long time which i am thankful of. i did not know how to describe what i was feeling, which really scared me because it made me feel as if something was terribly wrong, but when i found out what it actually was, i was so relived to know that i wasnt the only one who had experienced this before. ive learned to control it a while back, and it hasnt occured since
After jetlag i was fatigued in 2005 , i fell into this state of unreality and as i was dreaming eveyrthing , my mouth not connecting with my brain, and basically everything being ficticous its not 2008 , i have it 3 years ! is it depersonalization ??? when will it go ??? any 1 write back i appreciate it many thanks xxx
It WILL go away..you just have to be strong minded...its like something in your brain..like a chemical imbalance...you just have to take your mind off of it. You'll be okay in no time...just stop thinking about unreality....
i had had derealization attacks before... when i was really young, probably seven... i started thinking "maybe i'm not really here. maybe this is a memory i'm having and i'm really 30. maybe this is a dream." ...things like that. i had them a few more times up until this school year.
this school year was different though... i get attacks all the time. i get them almost every single day at school and it's terrible in high school because everyones already so judgemental and i just freak out.
Hey mate. Im 26 and i have had DR SINce i was 15, i remember i was watching a korn concert one day and the guitarists face suddenly took on a two dimentional "feeling" i couldent comprehended it, everthing around me from that point on has felt forign. My first trip to a doctor over it resulted in him telling me i was looking for attention and a run around the block would cure it, so it was finally good to know after years of suffering it had a name and i wasent alone.
the main thing is you got to try and realise when your start going into deep thought and when you do quickly shke it off by doing something or just trying to stop thinking at all and if you keep doing this the symptoms will eventually fade, it takes time and sometimes you think it will never go but patients is what you need. just try to be aware of wht you doing and thinking
you have to learn how to tune your brain into reality and not take so much notice of things around you, try to keep thinking differant things more often otherwise youl find yourself in a daze thinking too deeply into something thats not even important or worth thinking about which WILL drive you crazy! i had this and i'm over it now but i found the best thing to do is keep your brain ACTIVE just try to live your life in a not so predictable way. take care
I have a friend who suffers from DP/DR. He said that "he thinks about thinking about thinking" which I find to be unimaginable but whatsoever, he is feeling better now...
I just recently learned about derealization and I was absolutely shocked that there was a name for it, much like you were - I knew that if it had a name, there must have been tons of other people who suffer from it. Knowing that immediately made me feel more normal and it made everything make a lot more sense. I have yet to be treated for it, but hearing your story has truly helped me to understand that I'm not alone. Thank you.
Your absolutley welcome. There are many communities out there dedicated to helping those who suffer from DP/DR. I have one aswell. Google it, I find there is so much to offer on such an unknown topic. All the best.
I have anxiety disorder, with derealization, since I was 4 years old. Had panic attacks everynight when the light was off. Had my first "waketime" panic attack at seven. Developed agoraphobia for about 6mos at 12-13. Afterwards, I adapted but now get derealization (I'm 35 years now).
I like seroquel, however, that seems to make it worse sometimes, but it makes me smarter. I take effexor and oxaz to help out. The main point is you should start practicing Chi Kung(Qi Kong -- Tai Chi is a part) with Taoist emphasis.Taoism meshes well with other religions so don't worry about that. However, concentrate on the physical exercises.
It is not "just exercise" though. Research it on the web. There are good programs out there on it now. These practices will help you meditate effectively giving you centredness and focus to enjoy life. It might not take effect right away, but I and others I know have good results with it.
The wise ancient Taoist Chinese say overthinking is bad. You now know what they mean by that and why. You've gained an appreciation of that statement and have gained useful knowledge. The breathing methods restores and enhances well-being which seems to have alluded you for the time-being due to the overwhelming experience you've had.
It's not all negative though, many walked this path before. There is hope through certain techniques thousands of years old but still not common knowledge here. Hope this helps. Anymore info you need, contact me.
I know bro. It is an extremely hard thing to cope with. But you kind of do learn to live with it. It plagues me every day, but you still make it through.
Mine started with a winter depression, then months of isolation since I wasn't going out. I started thinking and obsessing on my life and how different it could be. That turned into stress, and I started getting headaches. Then I started feeling like I was in a dream all the time. I feel like my head is "full" of something, it's like a lead weight. It's been a few weeks and hasn't gone away yet, I feel total detachment from my surroundings like I'm pulled back from it all.
Nope, you know.. I think I can cope with this. I seem to do better if my mind's distracted and off of myself. Went to the ocean today and felt the symptoms go away about 50%. I think this is just a phase, I hope so anyway.
Oh most definatly. You get so afraid because you dont know what is real or what is fake. sometimes you get so afriad you just want to let go. I can realte to you on that one.
I have what i have come to refer to as "trances", "numb states" and "Depersonalization Episodes" most of my life. I was hospitalized 10 times in a 2 year period, pumped full of every drug known to man up to that point in time, and found nothing aids as a "cure", but that the best treatment I've found is good old fashioned counseling. Talk it out, work out, learn some skillz to help u though the times, and spirituality will get u by.
You describe exactly what I went through... it's a very strange and frightening place to be at. With me, what cleared it up was both medication and cognitive behavioral therapy. I was put on Seroquel and Prozac, which started to take effect in a few months. I still feel spaced out every now and then, but the upside is that I feel connected to things and don't flip out.
i've felt like this for the past three months. this derealization struck when i started thinking about life and how bizarre it really is; questioning consciousness as something more than science. this struck up decartes' famous "doubting" philosophy. it freaked me out. everything became unreal, people became 2D, i became extremely lonely and scared. I have O.C.D. so the obsessive thoughts run my mind constantly...
I felt like this after I smoked weed..i use 2 have panic attacks and that triggered that depersonalization but the panic attacks have stopped but the depersonalization still there..i hope it go away!!
Same here...I've had this happen before after smoking weed...It's been 3 weeks and I still have it...I hope it goes away in a month or two. It's really getting to me.
Hey there! Well, the medication helps a lot so I have heard, and for some completly gets rid of it. I have been living with it for 2 years now, and until about a week ago, I had no Idea what the feeling was. Your best bet it to go to your psychiatrist and tell him/her. You will be put on some medication that will most liekly get rid of it. I hope the best for you bro. Take it easy.
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Panic attacks, loss of appetite, the feeling of living life outside your body,the feeling of living in a dream, continuous negative thoughts, troubling and obsessive thoughts, excessive stress and worry, trouble sleeping. You are not alone. There are many others who have these experiences. I USE TO, but NO longer have them. I found what worked. I am NOT SELLING anything, I just want to share the process that freed me of anxiety. Please watch my intro. video for more info! Stay positive!
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monster12348 5 months ago
I am DP too , and I know how it is :( COURAGE bro !
TheSylarpetrelli 1 year ago
hey man,great vid i just wanted to say ive suffered from this for months an its one of the worst feelings in the world,it can be hell at times.i dont feel like im in reality,like everything is a dream.im going to a doc an hopefully this will help.ur vid was comforting,thanks bro.an also,does it/did it get worse while u were falling asleep?bc it gets CRAZY when i try to sleep.
adamxxxanderson 1 year ago
Depersonalization is not a disorder. It's an awakening. It gets BETTER, if you let it...
ReishiFaeries 1 year ago
For me it was like everything was cardboard scenery, exactly as you describe - the ground, the sky everything - like it was placed and painted. This idea most directly and recognisably expresses the sensation to my mind. I am now nearly fully recovered and found small and intermittent doses of 5htp, though unpleasant to take, seemed to unwind the sensations gradualy. If you try 5htp, don't take too much at once - 10 mg or so every now and then is plenty and give it some time (months)
magrathean0 1 year ago
Hey everyone. Like most of you, I suffer from Derealization. And I wanted to express how I feel, so I wrote a song based on DP and Derealization. Its called "Black & White", go to my page and check it out. It made me feel better being able to talk about it, so I hope it helps some of you as well.
DownStepTV 1 year ago
I have had Depersonalization and Derealization disorder non-stop 24/7 since I was 12, I'm now 16. Up until two weeks ago, I had no knowledge that it was an actual mental disorder. I'm both glad and sad that I found this out. Glad because I have been trying to figure out what was wrong with me for years and that I'm not alone. Sad because I do not know how to rid of it. At least my problem has a name. Sadly, I have no idea my depersonalization/derealization disorder originated from.
darkenedblades 1 year ago
I have had Depersonalization and Derealization disorder non-stop 24/7 since I was 12, I'm now 16. Up until two weeks ago, I had no knowledge that it was an actual mental disorder. I'm both glad and sad that I found this out. Glad because I have been trying to figure out what was wrong with me for years and that I'm not alone. Sad because I do not know how to rid of it. At least my problem has a name. Sadly, I have no idea my depersonalization/derealization disorder originated from.
darkenedblades 1 year ago
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darkenedblades 1 year ago
i got it from marijuana i got lost in my thoughts and it was so tramatizing i never felt the same after it i didnt no who i was if your that kind of person who questions existence NEVER SMOKE WEED
YourMoviesAreGay 1 year ago 3
@YourMoviesAreGay your post sums up perfectly what happened to me. I'm not anti-weed, but people need to know that it's not harmless.
nlo13 1 year ago
A lack of 'guidance', does not mean a path to nowhere... It just means that (current) society does not support "different" thinkers, that do not serve as profitable for it, unlike labourers... So they label it "problem"; not conforming linearly. Depersonalisation is not the loss of anything, it is the gain of everything; understanding, the true nature, the truth... Individuals with DP are most probably spiritually mature and compatible. Find the "way" over there, and inner bliss be guaranteed.
ZMorpheus 1 year ago
Let me clarify a few cliches concerning the whole DP concept. First and foremost, it is NOT a disease. Do not listen to what the medical branch of society spouts. They are merely functional for profit; not healing, unfortunately. The problem with people of "diffrent" mindsets is that they are given all kinds of medical junk to suppress their normal operation, ironically, to comply with the normal standards of society. They want sheep, not 'enlightened' people.
ZMorpheus 1 year ago 5
feeling is like that of a dream. the subjects thinks as if his brain has been removed from his body, he feels unreal. he is totally mute and numb and doesn't show any expression. his mood changes abruptly. he cannot tolerate sunlight and noise. infact negative symptoms prevail. he loves to be alone. he has no control over his physical actions and emotion. one most pronounced symptom is that he stares in front of him and unable to live in the real world
shayzoo 2 years ago
A person can see, but their brain cannot process if what their looking at is exisitng. What's wrong?
skaterlife12 2 years ago
It's wierd how anyone who thinks deep into existence and God ends up like this. That's how it started for me. It seems like in a kindred way, all of us have this dark emotion of emptiness come over when we think that deep.
vivalapaul 2 years ago
I to feel the way you do code white it's every day for me too we can help each other message me when you read this for you or anyone who has depersonalization. the way it effects me is i feel as though im not doing my best on things or change my personality to feel as though i do have control over my life and a good part of the time it becomes so painful to bear i go into a deeper state of depression and cry and cry and cry and ask why. so i'll talk to anyone who needs it.
cdguy15 2 years ago
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im 15, ive had this for two years now,
but i only found out there was a name for it about a month ago,
i was kinda relived to find out there was other people in the world who felt this way.
i thought i was the only one, i thought i was a crazy :/
my friends didnt understand.
mine doesnt come and go though,
i havnt had one single second without feeling like i wasnt in a dream in these whole two years.
anyone who think they can help ?
pleasee ?
x x
missJenniferThomson 2 years ago
i feel ya, im 16 and have had it for about a year now, i told my parents at first but just told them i got better because they have no idea, hang in there and keep positive thoughts i know its hard at times :)
xxphreshxx 2 years ago
When your on DP/DR, sometimes i feel like that's how trees or other animals think looool. the feelings are funny sometimes, just ride them out and you'll soon forget about them. Also you can have somebody scare the shit out of you without telling you, when your on it, it helps take you mind off of it.
Omid45 2 years ago
nothing funny about it. if u ask me :)
Demonication666 2 years ago
well true i have gotten over it though. DP/DR is not as bad as people think it is. The reason we have it is because we keep thinking about it and we get ourselves scared. Just think about the moment, and know even though it feels like your living in a dream and all that it's all in your head, no matter how bad it is. Look into your loved ones eyes and know that they're there and they love you. Also having intense emotional experiences, such as eating, sex, being happy angry seems to help.
Omid45 2 years ago
bullfrog don't even for a second think that a second of your life was wasted. First of all you experienced something that most people haven't, you have a higher brain power then rest of the people, and so do most people that have DP. I bet you think about everything deeply, you really make your self busy thinking about god life, existence of life, what it all means, and that's why unfortunately, for some, will lead you to have this disorder. Think of it as a different way of living life.
Omid45 2 years ago
it is such a weird feeling.. it feels like ur high but ur not.. thats the best way i could describe it.. i just wish mine would go away
mikeymiller92 2 years ago
@bullfrog11758 LMAO its never to late bullfrog you can still do whatever you want dont let AGE stop you from doing SHIT!! nobodies life is wasted.
PharaohII 2 years ago
I've been very lucky since getting Derealization I think, where I found medication that helps most of the time, I have relapses every couple of years, but not like the orginal one. I've been taking Paroxetine (there's many different brands, this is the actual drug) and its like a wonder drug for me, as this isn't a condition I could live a normal life without these. Big love to all else who have this and hope you find something that helps too. x
myfunkyhat 2 years ago
@myfunkyhat Drugs are not good for you.
PharaohII 2 years ago
that's a rather generalisation isn't it?? What about if they make it so you can have a normal life where as without you're quality of life would be pretty damn bad, how is that bad for you??
myfunkyhat 2 years ago
@myfunkyhat cause then you become dependent. everything you stated sounds like someone on crack.
PharaohII 2 years ago
Do you have derealization/depersonalization??
If so you would know what an amazing feeling it is to find medication that works for you.
If not then why are you even talking this rubbish??!
If say you were ill with something like derealization where your vision felt like it was wrapped in cling film and you had depression and anxiety attacks constantly, then you found there was medication that could help you feel normal again, would you not think that was a good thing??
myfunkyhat 2 years ago
@myfunkyhat actually i do. i was diagnosed with depression anxiety and an ocd but guess what i have to work through it. im not taking any medication cause believe it i see other people in this world who are completely in a position where they re life can end tomorrow. I ve learned that im done soaking in my sorrows and have to get on with life and help others who are way off worse then i am. im not talking down to you im just saying that medication is not the answer. FIND SOMETHING YOU LIKE.
PharaohII 2 years ago
I know what you mean, I have it in bouts, I took Klonopin for it, but Benzos are so addictive! You're not alone, I have it today in bouts, not constant, but it comes and goes, it's a feeling of seeing something for the first time, it's like when you look at a spoon, you think, "How did that ever come to exist?" then in goes in depth like, "How did the metal to make it come to exist?" I hate the feeling! Hang in there, God Bless.
crazy7house 2 years ago
I hate this condition, its a life ruiner, people call it derealization i think it should call it realisation because it like you realise what reality really is.
crouchtrac 2 years ago
Try this, it might help. Take benzodeazepynes half of a year or a year and then withdraw them. Here You can find help on withdraw:? "h t t p : / / benzodocs . c o m". Some new elements and their connections in Your brain will emerge. When You complete this, tell me if this helped You.
Tell other people to try this. It will be experiment.
VegEdGoku 2 years ago
Sounds to me that all this NEW-FANGLED, HIGH POWERED WEED is ruining the youth of America. 30 years ago you could smoke weed and NOT have this debilitating lasting mental disorders. You guys / girls who boast of "killer-weed" should stop the non-sense and smoke plain old reefer from the '70's. We didn't have these problems 30 years ago!!
BigBadBobby1234 2 years ago
it took a long time for me to find out there was a name for my symptoms 2
jp55418 2 years ago
That's what I have. I prefer calling it the schizoid aura which I am working on improving, AKA grounding myself and allowing myself to experience life/pain, healing the chakras, etc. It's having a way better improvement than psychiatric help. My cause was the death of a parent as a child. Good books: Light Emerging and Healing Light by Barbra Ann Brennan. Also Chakra Healing from Cindi Dale. It hit me HARD at 17 until around 21-ish. Those books helped me IMMENSELY.
BattleMage52 2 years ago
wow, i had that exact feeling for 4 weeks straight, i researched it but i didn't know that there were long term sufferers like yourself. Mine was brought on by drinking in excess and smoking marijuana and it was the worst 4 weeks of my life, i can only image what you have gone through, i hope all went well with the treatment and that you feeling fine now...
tryank12 2 years ago 2
Welcome to hell!!! I've had this since i was around 15 and now 23 yrs old. 24 FUCKING 7!!! IM TIRED OF THIS!!!! I CANT AFFORD HEALTH INSURANCE!!!!
PLEASE HELP ME I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS!!!!!
idl4587 2 years ago
omg!!! dude i feell youuu......i feal EXACTLY LIKE UUU, how can u treat it?? please tell me
telavo 2 years ago
just dont get frustrated,its really very normal,i know what you feel right now,you are not alone but believe and trust,you wont stay like this
vodoovolkano 2 years ago
time,thinking about smt different,seroxat 20mg,a great hobby,maybe a bf/gf and thinking about him is the real cure for dp and dr,dont worry these symptoms are so normal,you are not crazy or going crazy,just relax,follow my orders from a horrible sufferer who overcame permanently ;);) i would like to wish a good luck,but you dont need,you just need to get relax
vodoovolkano 2 years ago
we need to speak, ill make a different channel and ill mak a video and share what i went through with the repersonalization and borderline personality disorder
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
i subscribed to you because we both share just some issues..im not saying theire the same (dont flip) just similar. i also went through depersonalization..it feels sooo weird ill be making a seperate channel and talking about my disorders and my addiction to drugs.
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
when did it start?
ooNurs3oo 2 years ago
my depersonalization started in a smilair way to yours. thinking to deeply into life, instead of just living it. these thoughts consumed me. i am forever in a dream. i don't take anything in life seriously.
it got worse after lsd.
spooon0 2 years ago
My derealization to me is like a mixed blessing. It's terrible, I won't deny it... but since it fogs up my life, I've become more of a risk taker... I don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing.
bbird2 2 years ago
i;ve had for about 2 months and i'm finally seeing somebody next week...can you offer any advice on how to cope with it until then? Mine is also philosophically induced...I have read too much about metaphysics, physics, psychology, and stuff like that. Can't stop thinking about existence really.
stratman687 2 years ago
Oh man..we are on the same boat..thinking of existence really gets me down. Try not to cause I tell you it will get u nowhere. I suggest just live life without questions like that it will all be better.
wtficantgetausername 2 years ago
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madderthanalex 2 years ago 2
Same thing happened to me, only I had been dissociating for a while before. I was talking to my mom one day and said randomly "sometimes I feel like its all in my mind", two seconds later I was thinking in a way that made all my experiences fit into that statement. I had a really big panic attack and have been working my way out ever since. It's really hard to cope with. Like hell on earth. But there i hope and if anything this has brought me in weird ways closer to God
isamedicin 2 years ago
I managed to recover from this somehow. All I can say is that you have to face it head on. That, and not be afraid. You have to face your most inner demons, and become enlightened. There is hope. What I went through to recover was the equivalent of facing death. You have to grow some balls and face things in your mind that people dont usually see. The most important thing is overcoming the anxiety, by facing it.
delgadosteve 2 years ago
My derealization was first brought on by panic attacks induced by marijuana. As scary as it was, I kept on smoking. It was hell for a while, but I kept on smoking. That struggle allowed me to build some defences in my mind that kept the derealization intact. Sometimes I still feel an onset of derealization, but it stops there because I did not let it change my life.
delgadosteve 2 years ago
I think mine was pretty bad cause I walk around sometimes and dont feel like im doing anything im scared that I will never get back to normal I love my life and my friends and I want to be normal, sometimes i feel ok but then it will hit me and ruin everything ah I hate this sometimes. any help or hope
hayd03100130 2 years ago
i walk round with the notion that i look stoned as thats the way i feel, i have a problem with eye contact in that in my perception i feel spaced out, and i look spaced out to everyone else. I was diagnosed with social anxiety but listening to this has made me more aware as to what i really have, everything this guy has said relates to myself. 20 years ive had it, never took pills and would never resort to them.
pickled321123 2 years ago
I've had this for 9 years now. I have gotten it to go away, and sometimes are worse than others. Exercise may help. Medication wasn't my route since it just made things worse for me. I know people have gotten out of it for good with those two things.
It helps me to keep a journal of my day, especially for specific instances. That way when I'm feeling unreal, I can look back at those and it helps me remember that I'm real. I know this is an older video, but still, good luck.
Kurisuchie 2 years ago
thanks for the tips
huss11 2 years ago
STOP wasting a minute more worrying over this shit. i got this from a bad trip of smoking weed. i got so scared that i shot up in my head. why? it's a defensive mechanism that we've inherited from the animals so we wont feel pain when being eaten from the sharp jaws of the lion etc. you can't feel your body? bingo! medication is NOT the answer, body awareness is THE solution. get peter levines books "healing trauma" and "waking the tiger".
yoorheinez 2 years ago
hey dude i kno wat u mean like you dont even know i know you read that in every comment everyone write's to you saying "i know how you feel" , but from my heart to yours i know everything your saying and i want you to know your not alone or living in a "crazy little world", everyday repeat to yourself that everything IS normal in the world, as much as it may seem like it, there is a reason god put this burdon on us , only the strongest can live with this sick kind of disease dawg trust me!!!!!!!
malibuwakebrdr 2 years ago
This guy reminds me alot of myself. They way he describes it is dead on for me. Its TERRIFYING sometimes. from the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep it never ends. Of course im on risperidone now which helps. I like how some people out there know what this is. This dude is about the same age as me and even looks and speaks like me, which is kinda freaky, I guess thats why I feel like I can relate to him more than anyone else. Peace out man I feel ya.
Boodalasky16 2 years ago
great video.. I hope you keep fighting this illness. By the way I've been having similar symptoms of depersonalization for years, now. I hope one day, I will be able to feel alive, and more in check in reality.
Alexe84 2 years ago
Are you doing much better now?
neostryke 2 years ago 2
Yes I have suffered with it and I did get through it, I still have it,but mine slowly went away... I have had it very thick before. I had to make a choice, either it got me or got it, I changed my train of thinking and therapy helped, was on Klonopin, but coming off that stuff is a nightmare as well as any Benzodiazepine.
And I use to be on 600 mg of Seroquel for Schizophrenia, now on 1mg of Respiridone and that helps.
crazy7house 3 years ago
I minute video is NOT enough time! I need a better camera! I feel lucky as I have come through this but the road has been bumpy. You keep searching and keep us posted!
carlahelin 3 years ago
I could say so much to you. I'm a 44 yr old female. It came on after the birth of my baby. I will tell you what meds helped. Zoloft and Xanex and now I take Klonopin. It's an anxiety disorder, as far as I've been able to get a grasp on. I will try to make a video for you.
carlahelin 3 years ago
Sweet video. It feels allot better knowing people are going through the same thing. Mine started 4 or 5 months ago when I had a few panic attacks after smoking weed. After that I thought about the meaning of life way to much. It got the worst over Christmas time for some reason. ironic huh. The happiest time of the year I was super depressed.. Anyway is getting allot better now. I find I'm drinking more now because alcohol honestly helps.
Edgehead74 3 years ago
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unsystematic7 3 years ago
wait what were ur side affects? of dp
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
what do you mean legal drug, I have been a zombie practicly for 9 months now,
Look at my youtube channel from a year ago.
I use to have alot of fun and be my self now im 15 and messed up.
whats illgel that can help,
what do u think?
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
MDMA also known as Ecstasy, the street drug, has helped me tremendously. It is very illegal to possess, manufacture or have in any form, so I do not condone a 15 year old taking Ecstasy, as we do not 100% know whats in the street pill. I would say your best bet my friend, is to just go to a psychiatrist, and explain your symptoms, he/she may be able to help you with it. Better safe than sorry :)
ThatSingingDude 3 years ago
Thanks agin are you better now with your condition?
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
Unfortunatly no. I still have not found a "legal" drug that reduces the depersonalization. Even though, I have found massive success with self medicating with a twice a week MDMA roll. Now, im not supporting people taking mdma, I am just saying that it has drastically changed my life for the better.
ThatSingingDude 3 years ago
The day before this happend i smoked some newports and watched a video on 2012 doomsday and how we are supose to die.
I think this is realy Hurting me
HELP BEFORE I KILL MY SELF, please
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
Thats how it can come on to people, thinking wayy to hard on life, or our existnace in general. Dont worry my friend, It will subdue in time, and I would def, reccomend see a doctor, as there is treatment options for it.
ThatSingingDude 3 years ago
Thanks.... Im realy going to think about doing that as long as i dont end up in a mental Institute like that guy, Because in person i act like every one else and try to carry on a conversation though i am very spaced out. Almost like Im on Pot but it wont go away .
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
No problem. Haha, that guy is me, this is just another alias. But yeah, you wont end up in a psych ward like me. I went there for other reassons. You will just be treated for that problem :) cheers.
ThatSingingDude 3 years ago
Im 15 I Think i have this disorder, I feal like im going to pass out some times, I feal very spaced out or like im not fully with it. This is a 24/7 fealing for about 9 months now and im scared to see a doctor and i feal like im slipping away.
mriceagegrillz1 3 years ago
I have Depersonalization and Derealization too, had it for years, sometimes to the point of almost fainting, I wouldn't wish it upon my worse enemy.
Thanks for the video!
heartsspades28 3 years ago
I have Ad/Hd and i sometimes experience derealization, especially when im tired or stressed. It's very scary when it hits, and when it hits i get a severe panic attack. I wondered what was wrong with me, until i accidentally stumbled accross an article about derealization. It ain't no fun. :(
Abiodun92 3 years ago
I knew I had something! I have been feeling like this for 5 months now and I thought it was just me. So but how can it be treated? I don't want it to get too crazy and make me depressed.
fritoz2007 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing your story. I hope by now you have found relief. I still have not. I've been living with this chronically for 2 years.
aaronsmom0307 3 years ago
Good to get your feedback,first time I've ever put a comment on u-tube.I'm from New Zealand - how bout you?I am on medication - 2 x paroxetine tablets daily.After that experience I appreciate feeling "normal" but do get panicky thoughts if I am stuck in a room listening to someone talking to a group.Feel I want to get away and can't help thinking it would be the worst place to have a panic attack/derealisation.
Trishacapri 3 years ago
...at the time my doctors put it down to accummulated stress.Marriage broken down,moved house,not sleeping.Family friend suggested Landmark F as I was a bit off the rails drinking etc.The pressure LF put me under was hard to handle (9am -12midnight then sent home with h/work).Parents would only pay for course if I completed all 3 days so I wanted to finish. Perhaps if I hadn't done LF I might have still had a breakdown.I have so much to say about this-never met anyone that has had this.
Trishacapri 3 years ago
Can't believe you described so similarly how my derealisation started. I was at Landmark Forum, 2000 and they were talking about god, the universe etc. I suddenly felt a strange, horrible feeling.Had to leave the room, very panicky. Outside seemed so bright and felt like I was on LSD or something.I was diagnosed Panic Disorder but never thought this fitted right. When it comes over me I feel like I am in a movie that I can't snap out of watching, nothing is real.Worst thing ever experienced.
Trishacapri 3 years ago
to username0550...yoo i got the same exact thing..but mine has been goin on for 2 monthssssss..hit mee backkkkk
lilccthug11 3 years ago
dude thats great i think i got it from smoking pot (dumbest thing ive ever done) and like 2 weeks after i felt unreal and stuff :S but my mom says its anxiety and shes never herad of deralization what should do????
and great video again you really helped me out thanks and have a merry x-mas!
username0550 3 years ago
Just a Quick Question. Has anyone seen that film, "Numb" Yet? If so, send me a message and let me know how it was. thanks.
CodeWhiteW3A 3 years ago
yes, i saw it... it does not dwelve into the aspects of the illness so much... not helpful or insightful really... just mildly entertaining and helps to know there are others out there...
ragdollannie 3 years ago 2
i thought i would learn somthing from it, but i didnt. It is a really bad steriotype i think. Alot of people who have derealization cant go many places they used to, maybe that is just me.
melis141 3 years ago
it is a terrifying feeling, everyday i wake up and think "is this real".u have to have the attitude of 'bring it on'...let your self have the feelings, dont try and make it go away, as scary as it is.this is what CBT (cognitive Behavioral therapy)teaches you. Theres nothing wrong with any of us, this is what we need to learn. Meds only mask your problem and will return when you get off of them. Try CBT, its working for me already. I've had derealization for over 6yrs now.i know how u feel
melis141 3 years ago 6
are u totally back to ur orignial normal stat after the CBT ?
zath71 3 years ago 3
CBT is amazing, i really recommend it
melis141 3 years ago
no no. not crazy, just a better perception on others and on yourself. . ive had it all my life, with some differences to you, but i have learnt to live it (kinda), ive learnt how to fake my way through people, how to make them think that i am just another normal guy...it helps... drugs did nothing for me, exept for the anti depressants putting me in an energetic mood. i really have no advice just letting you know it could be worse...you could have been born with it :/
digestivemaniaman 3 years ago
try telling that to me...ive had this all my life!!!
digestivemaniaman 3 years ago
Nice video! I never thought that there were videos like this before. It makes me feel like I'm not alone and crazy. I made a video response. This is my first video response so I'm not sure if I did it right. Could you please approve it.
TwilightAngelftw 3 years ago
You certainly did do it right. Very great. I know exactly how you feel there. And yesh, that does have to do with depersonalization/Derealization. I feel the same aswell.
CodeWhiteW3A 3 years ago
I think mine was brought on by some sort of viral/bacterial infection. My uncle has the same exact symptoms as me, he thought he had lyme disease. His started back in November too, just like mine did. Mine's slowly going away now and I'm coming back into myself finally, thank God. I've been taking really high doses of vitamin c plus sudafed, it's something related to the ears/sinuses/brain I think.
o7levi 3 years ago
i cant feel anything =(, i need help!
man95000 3 years ago
Seroquel is a very good medication. I suffer from bipolar type one. I take 400 mg seroquel and 900 mg lithium.I was diagnosed with it when I was sixteen.Right now I am 23. After taking seroquel about two years ago,I started changing. I remember my mom telling me that seroquel waked you up. I took physics classes after a few months and I got the top grades in class.
babak462 3 years ago
Congratulations my friend, Im glad to hear you are on the right road to recovery!
CodeWhiteW3A 3 years ago
haha just kidn
shannonmorrison69 3 years ago
mine 1st started 1 week after i xperimentd with weed and shrooms and woke up up a week later feeling dreamy it slowly got worse through the day until i just went 2 bed while the world was gone .. a week after i took the drugs that is. its been 3 years im 16 now ive woken up 3 times feeling normal but it goes away i rekn its axiety thats wat the docta says
shannonmorrison69 3 years ago
Good luck with this combating this, but is there a reason your talking so soft? Sorry, but it was real annoying listening and barely being able to hear ya. Speak up!
futureincumbent 3 years ago
hey codewhite,
i suffered from the same symptoms of a feeling like i was looking through a thick fog all of the time, walking around in a sense of unreality, from the age of about 16 to 18. i had an intense amount of stress at the time. i don't remember when it went away, but it did, on it's own. i was diagnosed with bipolar I at age 22. i wonder if an intense depression was responsible for it all. thank you for sharing this video. i thought i was the only one that felt that way.
veronica
chatgal222 3 years ago
Been suffering with depersonalization since I was 16; it is a very horrible scary disorder to live with.
Lomns 3 years ago
hope it all goes well for you :)
kkndcf 4 years ago
Hey, thanks for sharing.
I had an anxiety disorder in high school. At first, I would feel depersonalization and derealization most severely during panic attacks, but it went away after a while. Eventually, those feelings replaced the panic attacks. I noticed that they invariably came when I was extremely stressed, so through my own experience I just learned how to keep my stress levels down, and how not to dwell on it so much when it does occur. It usually goes away very quickly for me :)
tehknologik 4 years ago
Hi! I know how that feels! and it is so terrifying! I suffered feeling like that for about 1 1/2 years and I described it like feeling like i was in a dream like I would walk down the street and click my fingers and hope I would wake up in my bed. I realized if I keep checking in on how I feel ever single day then that is what is gonna manifest the problem even more. I never, ever though I would get better! ever! but then I realised not to pay it no attention.
jasonmarchelak 4 years ago
i abused the shit out of dxm for about three months and i had full blown derealization/depresonalization for over a year. i fought through it by myself and got myself about 99% better. i only recently found out what it was and so im sure that with therapy i can be like 100% better. dont worry man its entirely possible to get better.
jesustoastlol 4 years ago
This is the worst thing in the world. I've had it for years. It started after my dad died. My brain became scared of everything. I did get it to go way once by staring at an obeject across the room for 45 minutes. I guess I meditated myself out of it. The dizziness and fatigue instantly went away as if someone flicked a switch. I was more than happy! But unfortunately it came back two years later. I have it 24/7 like you do. It's all related to stress and anxiety. Keep hope alive. It can go away
VoiceMouth 4 years ago
very uncomfortable feeling and scary at first but it ended up almost being desirable in a weird way in some situations. anyway it ended up just going away as a i got older and its probably been about 2 years since i had it
allzinc1989 4 years ago
i know what you mean i used to get it a lot as a kid everytime i went into a grocery store, went to the beach, swimming pools, playing a video game, lack of sleep and things like that . for me it was usually something that triggered it it didn't usually come out of nowhere. and it would usually go away within an hour, or if i went to sleep. .
allzinc1989 4 years ago
i have madea 60% rocovery. the meds didn't help and i think they were bad because they were just another thing making me feel different when i was trying to relearn how to feel normal.
printers 4 years ago
i have had it for 3 years. I didn't know what it was for 4 months of those 3 years and it was the most horrifying experience of my life, i didn't tell and anyone i was trying self diagnose. i thought i had lost my mind. it told my mum and since then have seen over 10 different doctors been oon countless meds seen psycs therapist hypnotists.
printers 4 years ago
i avoid talking about it, and i still belive its not good to dwell on but i really wanted to at least encourage you and tell you your doing well and seem like your in a good place.
printers 4 years ago
I think it is awesome for fellow derealization sufferer to post this up. I took some of the courage that you poured out and decided to post my own as well. I did it as a video response to yours (which I have never done before), but I dont see it yet I guess it has to process.
What was the name of the medication that you were prescribed? All my doctors keep prescribing me is xanax and lexapro and bullshit like that.
Polydectus 4 years ago
I currently take 650 Seroquel and ativan as needed.. Check out my other videos for info on my meds
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
Is there anything that alleviates DR/DP?
carnage101 4 years ago
Hey dude, I loved seeing this video and the gentle determination you expressed in recovering from this terrible condition. I think I may actually post my first ever video in response to this, as per your request. :)
TithonusSyndrome 4 years ago
A video response would be a very, very ice idea, it would be my first response :O
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
It's nice to see that someone young (at least you look closer to my age, me being 21) has this. And it's even better to see a face that goes along with this.
I am so sorry this happened to you.
I love you and i hope things work out for us both. I wrote a really long comment but YouTube wont let me post more then 500 characters so Ill try and make a video.
Drop me a line if you know how to record one!
TamaTreat 4 years ago
Thank you so much, it is a battle and I am fighting it one step at a time.
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
omygod. im crying thank you for giving me hope.
potatoeman14 4 years ago
I have it for 3 years this august !!! When will it go though ??? I also have tinnitus with this !!! Is this related ??? im going to see a neuroligist in august anyway about this !!! write back any1 thanx
ballinakill2007 4 years ago
this is what happened to me before. it hasnt happened in a long time which i am thankful of. i did not know how to describe what i was feeling, which really scared me because it made me feel as if something was terribly wrong, but when i found out what it actually was, i was so relived to know that i wasnt the only one who had experienced this before. ive learned to control it a while back, and it hasnt occured since
OldeEnglish93 4 years ago
After jetlag i was fatigued in 2005 , i fell into this state of unreality and as i was dreaming eveyrthing , my mouth not connecting with my brain, and basically everything being ficticous its not 2008 , i have it 3 years ! is it depersonalization ??? when will it go ??? any 1 write back i appreciate it many thanks xxx
ballinakill2007 4 years ago
It WILL go away..you just have to be strong minded...its like something in your brain..like a chemical imbalance...you just have to take your mind off of it. You'll be okay in no time...just stop thinking about unreality....
sharonda21225 4 years ago
i had had derealization attacks before... when i was really young, probably seven... i started thinking "maybe i'm not really here. maybe this is a memory i'm having and i'm really 30. maybe this is a dream." ...things like that. i had them a few more times up until this school year.
this school year was different though... i get attacks all the time. i get them almost every single day at school and it's terrible in high school because everyones already so judgemental and i just freak out.
youfortheworld 4 years ago
he was right to a small degree, exercise helps.. i started weight lifting .Also dont ruminate on the unreality feelings
cockroachafro 4 years ago
Hey mate. Im 26 and i have had DR SINce i was 15, i remember i was watching a korn concert one day and the guitarists face suddenly took on a two dimentional "feeling" i couldent comprehended it, everthing around me from that point on has felt forign. My first trip to a doctor over it resulted in him telling me i was looking for attention and a run around the block would cure it, so it was finally good to know after years of suffering it had a name and i wasent alone.
cockroachafro 4 years ago
the main thing is you got to try and realise when your start going into deep thought and when you do quickly shke it off by doing something or just trying to stop thinking at all and if you keep doing this the symptoms will eventually fade, it takes time and sometimes you think it will never go but patients is what you need. just try to be aware of wht you doing and thinking
ivorbigun08 4 years ago
you have to learn how to tune your brain into reality and not take so much notice of things around you, try to keep thinking differant things more often otherwise youl find yourself in a daze thinking too deeply into something thats not even important or worth thinking about which WILL drive you crazy! i had this and i'm over it now but i found the best thing to do is keep your brain ACTIVE just try to live your life in a not so predictable way. take care
ivorbigun08 4 years ago
I have a friend who suffers from DP/DR. He said that "he thinks about thinking about thinking" which I find to be unimaginable but whatsoever, he is feeling better now...
"Wish real hard and it goes away..."
BGasperov 4 years ago
I just recently learned about derealization and I was absolutely shocked that there was a name for it, much like you were - I knew that if it had a name, there must have been tons of other people who suffer from it. Knowing that immediately made me feel more normal and it made everything make a lot more sense. I have yet to be treated for it, but hearing your story has truly helped me to understand that I'm not alone. Thank you.
dietdrpep666 4 years ago
Your absolutley welcome. There are many communities out there dedicated to helping those who suffer from DP/DR. I have one aswell. Google it, I find there is so much to offer on such an unknown topic. All the best.
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
I have anxiety disorder, with derealization, since I was 4 years old. Had panic attacks everynight when the light was off. Had my first "waketime" panic attack at seven. Developed agoraphobia for about 6mos at 12-13. Afterwards, I adapted but now get derealization (I'm 35 years now).
Buddy1205 4 years ago
I like seroquel, however, that seems to make it worse sometimes, but it makes me smarter. I take effexor and oxaz to help out. The main point is you should start practicing Chi Kung(Qi Kong -- Tai Chi is a part) with Taoist emphasis.Taoism meshes well with other religions so don't worry about that. However, concentrate on the physical exercises.
Buddy1205 4 years ago
It is not "just exercise" though. Research it on the web. There are good programs out there on it now. These practices will help you meditate effectively giving you centredness and focus to enjoy life. It might not take effect right away, but I and others I know have good results with it.
Buddy1205 4 years ago
The wise ancient Taoist Chinese say overthinking is bad. You now know what they mean by that and why. You've gained an appreciation of that statement and have gained useful knowledge. The breathing methods restores and enhances well-being which seems to have alluded you for the time-being due to the overwhelming experience you've had.
Buddy1205 4 years ago
It's not all negative though, many walked this path before. There is hope through certain techniques thousands of years old but still not common knowledge here. Hope this helps. Anymore info you need, contact me.
Buddy1205 4 years ago
I know bro. It is an extremely hard thing to cope with. But you kind of do learn to live with it. It plagues me every day, but you still make it through.
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
Mine started with a winter depression, then months of isolation since I wasn't going out. I started thinking and obsessing on my life and how different it could be. That turned into stress, and I started getting headaches. Then I started feeling like I was in a dream all the time. I feel like my head is "full" of something, it's like a lead weight. It's been a few weeks and hasn't gone away yet, I feel total detachment from my surroundings like I'm pulled back from it all.
o7levi 4 years ago
My friend, that is derealization. Do you have a Psychiatrist?
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
Nope, you know.. I think I can cope with this. I seem to do better if my mind's distracted and off of myself. Went to the ocean today and felt the symptoms go away about 50%. I think this is just a phase, I hope so anyway.
o7levi 4 years ago
Oh most definatly. You get so afraid because you dont know what is real or what is fake. sometimes you get so afriad you just want to let go. I can realte to you on that one.
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
I have what i have come to refer to as "trances", "numb states" and "Depersonalization Episodes" most of my life. I was hospitalized 10 times in a 2 year period, pumped full of every drug known to man up to that point in time, and found nothing aids as a "cure", but that the best treatment I've found is good old fashioned counseling. Talk it out, work out, learn some skillz to help u though the times, and spirituality will get u by.
Hoodluminthenight 4 years ago
You describe exactly what I went through... it's a very strange and frightening place to be at. With me, what cleared it up was both medication and cognitive behavioral therapy. I was put on Seroquel and Prozac, which started to take effect in a few months. I still feel spaced out every now and then, but the upside is that I feel connected to things and don't flip out.
punkfloyd87 4 years ago
I got this with my GAD, but yours seems a lot GREATER than mine.
MrRasslin 4 years ago
i've felt like this for the past three months. this derealization struck when i started thinking about life and how bizarre it really is; questioning consciousness as something more than science. this struck up decartes' famous "doubting" philosophy. it freaked me out. everything became unreal, people became 2D, i became extremely lonely and scared. I have O.C.D. so the obsessive thoughts run my mind constantly...
youreadyhiphop 4 years ago
I felt like this after I smoked weed..i use 2 have panic attacks and that triggered that depersonalization but the panic attacks have stopped but the depersonalization still there..i hope it go away!!
sharonda21225 4 years ago
Same here...I've had this happen before after smoking weed...It's been 3 weeks and I still have it...I hope it goes away in a month or two. It's really getting to me.
carnage101 4 years ago
does the medication fix it? I am a sufferer from depersonalization, and its really annoying me. It started like 6 months ago, and am 17 now.
nice vid btw
westside4live2003 4 years ago
Hey there! Well, the medication helps a lot so I have heard, and for some completly gets rid of it. I have been living with it for 2 years now, and until about a week ago, I had no Idea what the feeling was. Your best bet it to go to your psychiatrist and tell him/her. You will be put on some medication that will most liekly get rid of it. I hope the best for you bro. Take it easy.
Zach
CodeWhiteW3A 4 years ago
thanks alot! really supportive :)
westside4live2003 4 years ago